#i just wish he could shut the fuck up
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I know, I know, Sanji is not in Fishman Island.
But why did no one tell me it was that bad. I was told it wouldn't be good but THEY'RE NOT EVEN OUT OF SABODY AND IT'S ALREADY EVERYWHERE 😭😭😭
He can't interact with a woman or even LOOK at one without getting a nosebleed. It was cute when he was just a simp, it made sense for him because he did it respectfully, but now I wanna respectfully throw Sanji out the window.
Anyways, I'm sorry for bringing this up, I know it's rough out there.
#send help#one piece#vinsmoke sanji#fishman island#i'll have to power through it#i still love him tho#he's my bbg#i just wish he could shut the fuck up#for his own good#black leg sanji#also i think that the only thing i tolerated about the kammaba ordeal was sanji in a dress high heels and make up#only because he looked incredible on it#still it got me out of nowhere that it was that way considering we got Ivankov and bon clay and they were very nice representation#and that one guard who transitioned? good for her#Kamabakka kingdom#i went on a tangent
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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lukewarm take of the evening: y'all care too much about being ""outdated"". fellas this smp moves inhumanly fast. it is ok to CHILL holy shit CHILL. y'all are like "(posts BANGER ART) super late guys sorry" friend i am hitting you with a blanket i am snapping you with my metaphorical towel WHAT DO YOU MEAN SORRY. "(posts BANGER FIC) rip this is outdated now" WHO CARES???? I LOVE YOU, OK. ohhhh woe is us as the fandom at large for having MORE HAPPY PILLS ARC CONTENT oh no how outdated!! how could you be writing speculative fiction about how forever felt during happy pills :( slash SARCASM!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN!!!! THERE ARE SO MANY BANGER ARCS, WHAT, YOU THINK WE'RE COMPLAINING????? FOR GETTING MORE OF THE CONTENT WE LOVED????? oh no we're past the period where everyone thought green gay ninjas were like Dead Dead, my work is now outdated and noncanon :( WDYM. GIMME. A BANGER IS A BANGER IDC IF IT TAKES THREE MONTHS. you think rome was built in a day?? fuck you, baltimore, GIMME. my ass has been cooking a goddamn backflipo family fic since july when it was ALREADY outdated do you think i fear god??? "oh no, you're making an edit of slime's (attempted) egg murdering spree?? how could you, that was months ago it's irrelevant" SAID NO ONE EVER.
save your wrists kidlings ok carpal tunnel is no joke. CHILL!!!!! CHILL!!!!!!!! TAKE YOUR TIME SHEEEEEESH OK LOVE YOU <3
#qsmp#shut up vic#block game brainrot#IT IS OK TO NOT ALWAYS POST SHIT THIRTY SECONDS AFTER IT HAPPENS!!!!!!!#for god's sake we have MONTHS of lore and bangers ok???#i still have a mental image of an art i wish i could make from BOBBY'S NIGHTMARE#HE HAS BEEN GONE FOR M O N T H S and you bet your ass if i can make it I WILL BE POSTING IT#SO. MUCH. SHIT. HAS. HAPPENED. who cares if it was months ago!!!!!!#it's ok to be a few days late!!! it's ok to be a few months late!!!!! don't tell me sorry for feeding me!!!!!!#part of me still lives in I'M NOT HOLDING A FUCKING FUNERAL CHAT#part of me still lives in maxo's final song for his son!!!!#part of me still lives in the day we thought ramón was gone for good#part of me still lives in cellbit sprinting to his son only to be ripped away back to the feds just as richas turns to write a sign#part of me still lives in the flooding of the copacabana ocean#THESE ARE BANGERS. REMEMBER WHEN FIT FOUND PAC E MIKE IN PRISON. BANGER.#oh dear new work expanding on a canon moment i super liked that happened months ago how late smh SAID NO ONE EVER#TWO CAKES!!!!! TWO CAKES MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!! WE LOVE PASTRIES DON'T EVEN WORRY ABOUT IT#COME ON Y'ALL. METAPHORICAL KISSES. LOVE YOU. HAVE A GOOD WEEK.#long tags
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"AU where Ivan is alive" this "Fic where Ivan and Till are saved by the Rebels" that..
Where are all the fics where Sua is alive/saved by the rebels with Mizi? ¿Dónde? ¿Dónde están??
#/hj.. kinda#I need more MiziSua fics so baddd#don't tell me I have to start writing them😭#because believe it or not I am a terrible writer#just saying.. I think this type of fic would be interesting..#like how would Sua react? Would she tell Mizi what she had planned to happen? Would it strain their relationship a little bit?#Pleaseeee I need more yuri pleaseee#I LOVE IvanTill but they have taken over the ao3 alnst tag#and most of the fics where Ivan lives Till ends up reciprocating his feelings#which hey not complaining I wish it was canon#BUT☝.. I read them and I'm like “..he would not fucking say that-”#So basically- if ya'll can believe Ivan can survive.. why not Sua?#“But she was shot in the hea-” Shhh. Sh. Shut.#Some reasoning: There's a lot of blood in the head so when you get injured there the wound looks worse than it actually is.. soooo-#could be possible🤷♂️#i am delusional#alien stage#alnst#sua alnst#alnst sua#sua alien stage#alien stage sua#toon talks
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if i see one more person say that helena didn't take chris she's just being a loving grandmother i'm going to kick a man
#i dont know which man but i will find one#911 spoilers //#because thats not what is happening at all !!!!!!#she's enabling this 14 year olds behavior which is just going to turn him into eddie#and eddie has been doing everything in his power for 7 seasons to make sure he's NOT going to be eddie#so :)#but when your child wont talk to you and your parents solution is to just take him and not try to help mend that relationship at all#hm doesn't seem too helpful and loving to me#like people have to remember the context !!!!!!!!!!! she didn't just take him out of the goodness of her heart she's been wanting to do thi#to eddie since before they moved to LA#fuck you and fuck off <3#wish i could shut up abt this but its genuinely such a fascinating storyline#i'm just Sad
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"Can I get on with my job please?"
"I thought you did this for fun!"
Burn Gorman as Doug in Stan Lee's Lucky Man, 2016.
#gods seeing him with a corpse ppe and a scalpel again just makes me miss owen So Much I-#burn gorman#stan lee's lucky man#stan lee#lucky man#doug#my gifs#he was only in 3 episodes; tbh i DID try to get into the show itself but meh?#not a right now vibe for me#i shall link Burn's episodes at least for posterity#man i need a tag for burn now fuck#the burn collection#eye crinkles my darlings 🤎#another brown eyed boy ruining my life#starting forever later this week for the first time wish me luck friends i shan't survive#shut up ace#sorry about the middle gif btw; it was the best quality i could get :/
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having upsetting thoughts about the “live” ending
#what would he think? would he think the audience just wants to see him suffer for as long as he's entertaining?#how do you feel being dragged away knowing you're going to loose every memory you've ever had after just getting them all back?#how do you come to terms with the fact that you *begged* to die and they refused you?#do you think h'ed fight back? or just accept his fate silently and let himself be dragged away by showfall's drones?#sorry genloss is giving me such severe brainrot#it hurts me so good#honest to god want to write stuff for this and i am not a writer#shut up virgil#genloss#like you know if chat picked live it'd be because we couldnt stand to kill him/had *some* kind of hope he could escape eventually#but he wouldnt know that#he'd just think that however many people (hundreds? thousands? he doesnt know) wanted him to suffer#i so fucking wish gl!ranboo could know just how badly chat wanted to find a way to save him#GENUINELY almost tied the poll 50/50 to find any other option than kill him or have him suffer#uwahhhhhhhh
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genuinely sorry about all the dndposting recently it hasn't even been interesting but i'm so desperate to dm. i've got storytelling skills!!! i've got improv skills!!! i want to build a story around characters!!! i want to see what players do with what i give them!!!
#i want to get good at planning combat encounters too#i'm sad that the first group didn't work out#it really could have been great#but also. thank FUCK it didn't work out i need to get away from those people.#earlier the person that has basically only been condescending to me was like#''hey are we cool?''#because i never responded to his shitty condescending message#like no bitch we're not cool. shut the fuck up.#you have permanently ruined my opinion of you.#which may be harsh#but you need to understand he's an experienced dnd player and dm. started several dnd clubs#and did Not help me out at all#and when i was like ''hey man you're the experienced player here can you help me out''#he was like ''well i'm doing EVERYTHING i can. it's just a shitty way of life that the dm has to do everything''#(''everything'' means things i genuinely could not do by myself. things that were explicitly a group effort)#and he kept being like ''this is stressing you out let's take a break''#fucker i didn't need a break i needed HELP. i wasn't even stressed#i was pissed off#and INCREDIBLY reasonable the entire time. this sounds like biased bullshit i know#but the worst things i said were like#''hey guys i'm really looking forward to this but i can't do everything by myself i need some help''#''don't you wish you had a proactive player in your groups?''#and ''if you leave a date blank on the calendar i just have to assume that it's free. that's why we have the calendar''#so no man we're not ''cool''#also talking down to me is the easiest way to get me to dislike you. it's like a speedrun#''i don't think it's your fault. i don't think it's anyone's fault :)"#bro it very clearly is SOMEONE'S fault. definitely not mine.#fuck that guy#persimmon's rambles
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I need to be put in a waffle iron or something
#i am. really stressed!!#i hate being online i keep losing friends#Majority of them did shitty stuff to me and it makes me so sad#I already have trust problems so when people come and say theyll always be here for me and then the next thing i know im blocked because i#Expressed my discomfort about something shitty they did it makes those trust issues even worse#We were pretty close and now i regret telling him shit because he could use it against me#And im starting to fall out with my “best friend” irl. Everything is making me sick#I can’t do this anymore I really want to disappear#There has to be something about me so repulsive to people#That i just turn them away#its gonna be like that for the rest of my life isnt it? I probably wont even get a partner in the future#I just don’t know why I fuck up every friendship so bad even if it wasnt. My fault#I shouldve kept my mouth shut even if i was uncomfortable#my last friendships ended like this too#I caused a huge server fight by saying I was uncomfy and I’m pretty sure everyone hates me now because of it#even though some said they werent#I am just really lonely and feel like a piece of shit#Because I am one#I don’t really know if I want to keep being here anymore#I genuinely think nobody likes me#Even when I was in school nobody liked me#I was the “weird girl”#I just wish I was normal and likeable and then maybe I’d have friends irl#I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I’ve considered suicide over it multiple times#I ruin everything#My friendships. My life. My parents marriage. My art. Everything.#I doubt anyone will read this or gaf so just. ignore me
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came home early and 😶
#ITS SO FUCKING FRUSTRATING#my uncle came into my room to open the window (his room has a window that opens into MY ROOM and its the worst thing ever)#and instead of opening the curtains his inconsiderate ass messed them up and threw them on the floor#i seriously cant take it living with him anymore HE SUCKS SO BAS#me and grandma (his MOM) ARE ALWAYS CLEANING AFTER HIS 52 YEAR OLD ASS and grandma just. allows it#cuz he was always the golden child#and im the child of the least favorite child (my mom) so i have to shut up and endure it#honestly my grandmas resentment of me isnt so bad as the blatant disregard my uncle shows in his daily life#i wish it was the two of us again#or BETTER YET ME ON MY OWN AND NOT WALKING ON EGGSHELLS AROUND ANYONE#whatever. whatever#it could be a thousand times worse. im fine#consider. supporting me. so i can leave
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[Reaction to this post] - [Yako belongs to @askoinari]
Despite the dramatic fit of rage, Silas was quick to return to his frozen state when Yako neared. He was obviously going to be no threat to the Thievul anytime soon. His fear towards them greatly outwayed any anger. He could only hold his breath in the hope they wouldn't decide to retaliate and attack him back. Considering how disrespectful the Zoroark had been, they would be more than justified to do so and in this state, he was nothing more than a sitting duck ready to be killed at a whim.
With those final words, the threat dissipated, and the moment he felt their overwhelming presence lessen, his real reaction began to seep through the cracks of his facade. No longer able to contain his emotions Silas let out a loud gasp, quickly followed by an onslaught of panicky breathing. For some reason, he suddenly felt as if he couldn't breathe, almost like a weight was crushing down on him. The fox couldn't help but spiral into a panic, though he didn't seem to register that was what was happening.
He couldn't bring himself to do much but desperately claw at his ears and face for some type of relief from his mental anguish. After a long moment of him clawing at himself, he finally fell silent, though his frantic breathing did not.
His rage and frustration quickly began to return, and all the anger he felt towards their verbal assault finally hit him, though, it didn't last very long. Silas was just as easily overtaken by sorrow and depression. [Not this again.] Just as someone once told him long ago... He was always too emotional.
He silently sank to the ground, pulling himself close. He seemed defeated, tired even. Just truly done with everything at the moment.
"What is the fucking point anymore..."
→ Silas seems to have calmed down from his fit. → The Ask Hints page has been added.
#tni: chrono#tni: silas rune#More of a reaction then an actual reply#god I wish I didn't have to cut off the first bit of the text on the first one but I could only fit the last part.#tw: blood#tw: panic attack#sadness is stored in the silas (tm)#Silas hun I love you but you need some serious therapy#and maybe a lecture on what panic attacks are#Ill tell you now Seance 100% told him to just “shut the fuck up and suck it up” whenever he did panic#Yall remember that “Aw you gonna cry~?” line#wonder where that old line came from#Also suprise! Silas has a tail Its kinda deer lookin litol tail#TNI: Seance Mentions#Chapter 1: The Introduction
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Wait I think I missed something in this incredible saga. Are you going on a date with the coworker??? I swear the last thing I saw was “no I would never” lmaoooo. If so, I (like the rest of snzblr) are anxious for updates about your love life. You’re one of the top snzblr couples now, enjoy 🤙
I did say I would never and I was a fucking liar apparently 😔 it's not technically a date tho bc I never told him it was bc I need to be so casual and mysterious ahdkaksk but it's a date To Me lmao. It's tomorrow tho bc we're still at work rn and it doesn't look like we're leaving anytime soon so at least I have that to look forward to I guess lmao
#not snz#we're not a couple tho nooooo 😭😭 lmaooo#it's just me being delusional#like he's literally not into me i stg i think y'all are gonna be more disappointed about the outcome than me#OH but he did hug me tho so I'm riding that high rn actually ahskamsk#lowkey have just been leaning against him half the shift but we've been watching videos and stuff together bc it's been slow so#that means nothing probably#also he looks at me like 😒 every time i ask one if my stupid little debate questions ahsakslsl#today was if ceral is a soup and if ketchup is a smoothie#please know that i ask these randomly literally out of nowhere like it's a normal thing to bring up lmaoooo#i have negative flirting skills ahdkaksk#this is the opposite of pulling a bad bitch by being autistic this is making the coworker question why he puts up with me lmaoooo#but he's the one who said yes to dinner so 😌#you know what he's never seen me in a cute little outfit before actually 👀#it's always been either the work uniform or hiking clothes#which to be fair my hiking clothes are kinda cute but they're hiking clothes nonetheless#like he saw me in normal clothes a bit ago but i was actively dying so they were just the most comfortable clothes i could find#so like maybe i can wear a skirt i have cute skirts i like wearing out with my bestie#and they're like. very specific kinds of skirts so maybe that'll tell him something ahskasmks#help why am i thinking so hard about this ahdkalslal#like it's literally actually not even a date it's just me flipping out for no reason while this guy is clueless 😭#like I'm telling y'all he's not into me and i don't understand why I'm being like this about it lmaoo#I'm always like 'fuck i wish my coworkers wouldn't crush on me to the point of asking me out that's awkward i don't date coworkers'#AND THEN I TURNED AROUND AND DID IT MYSELF#why am i like this#why am i so 👀 when he's one of the few people i shouldn't be 👀 at#i swear i should give it a couple months bc maybe I'm just feeling some type of way about him bc i was sick#but noooo i just HAVE to be insane about it now 😭#i should really have a tag for me being a pathetic wreck but idk what it would even be lmao#no matter he'll probably figure out that I'm being a freak sooner or later and shut that shit down so it won't matter 😔
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you know if you guys voted for stretch armstrong i probably would have shut up a lot sooner tonight
#so really this is all your fault /lh /j#i love thinking about h2o tho so im happy#VERY FUCKING TIRED THO WISH I COULD SLEEP#i think my brain is kicking into overdrive after being filled with cotton the past 3 days which. hey im glad ur back bud#CAN YOU SHUT UP NOW I NEED REST#i was just thinking because im probably not posting that essay i will summarize here (i saw#that privating it made it lose like 4 recently edited paragraphs and i don't want to type all that out again my memory isn't good enough)#it just boiled down to the pods basically making a self fulfilling prophecy by orphaning their sons and making them increasingly#desperate for connections to other people like them which is why i think erik behaves the way he does esp when ondina is around#like i am not excusing his actions in the slightest dont get me wrong here he really fucked up BUT#his last conversation with ondina before he goes to the chamber kind of sold that idea to me#how he scoffs at her saying rita says it's dangerous because she's 'old school' and of COURSE old school mermaids think all mermen are evil#and then starts adding on how he wants to do this for HER and get her home back for her by controlling it#like a bit of an add-on at the end to try and convince her#i think what he really wants is to be hailed as a hero. you know. validation and acceptance from the ppl who originally abandoned him#the OGs who made him feel like an outsider. the ppl who ripped everything away from him just bc of the way he was born (which is prob why#when he's trying to convince zac to help him he keeps bringing up their ancestors bc that's what unifies them)#i don't think he's an evil dude per se i think he thought stealing the trident stone from rita's grotto would be small peanuts in the past#once he finally got the pod to come home bc he genuinely (mistakenly) believed he COULD control the power of the chamber#i also think that's why the camera keeps focusing on his face when he's watching the others panic over#zac's sacrifice and i think he is feeling jealousy bc they are paying attention to him and not Erik#like that's not the face of someone who deeply regrets what they just did. my guy is just sitting there like 'that should be me rn'#i think that is why he also sounds so desperate to make things right with ondina afterwards. iirc he's just like 'wait no we can start ove#RIGHT?' and she's like 'uhhhh... no??????' (valid). my dude is lonely as fuck and he finally found a group of ppl like him and he messed up#big time just trying to get their attention and affection bc he couldn't just be normal abt it he had to go big or go home#like i kind of feel bad for him in a way#but i feel bad for everyone#i felt bad for denman the other day! that's how bad this is getting!!#i mean come on imagine making the scientific discovery of a LIFETIME only for all that shit to happen in a row#especially after you get your comeback. they just go right back to fucking you over again
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#warning: rant about parent ahead#I’m so so so so so empathetic to mental health struggles#like exceedingly so#but it’s just so exhausting being on the receiving end of someone’s self-loathing#and to be clear I AM NOT TALKING ABOUT ANYONE HERE#you are all my phone besties and I have so much empathy for your struggles and know that i love you all#and wish i could say the right thing to support you all always and you are always welcome to share whatever is going on#and to quote the bard herself i wish i could take the bombs in your head and disarm them#but when my mother gets into these moods she just seems to use it as a way to get a rise out of us#she’s pulling the ‘well maybe you don’t want to do x with me because it’s not fun because I’m a terrible person and you’re scared of me#and i ruin everything so maybe you would just rather i do everything alone’#and i don’t doubt she feels horrible and i know she has intrusive thoughts etc#but that is so manipulative!!!! she then puts the onus on us to reassure her that she is not!!!! But that is not what she wants!!!!#which we then do profusely and remind her that we do love her and we do do things together and whatever the fuck is the problem of the day#but of course she won’t hear it#so yes it makes us scared of her because we are always worried we’re going to say the wrong thing in a given moment!!!!#i just shut the fuck up at all times now#but my dad tries to use reason with her and of course it just ends in her lashing out and projecting all this shit on him#’oh you maybe you actually hate me maybe you want to leave me’ etc#THEY’VE BEEN MARRIED DECADES HE’S THE MOST LOYAL AND KINDEST PERSON IN THE WORLD HE NEVER ONCE HAS#i honestly don’t know how he lets this roll off his back because i am so fed up with it#It’s just so so so so hard because one minute she’s ‘herself’ and the other she’s this inferno#and we just have to ride whatever wave she’s on and it sucks all the air out of the room#it’s like the one and only time i tried to very gently bring up that something she said was hurtful *after she’d brought it up herself*#she went on a ‘oh I’m a terrible person/terrible parent’ rant and it then turned into me reassuring her that she isn’t#i was just trying to show her how the language/behaviour she uses was hurtful to me#so anyway that was lesson learned that even if she invites it i will never speak of it and luckily she hasn’t since and that was years ago#But it’s just… i know bad thoughts can’t be helped and again i feel so much pain on her behalf for what she struggles with#and i wish i could help but there’s absolutely nothing i can do#AND SHE’S GONE OFF ALL HER MEDS SO THE ONE SOURCE SHE DID HAVE ISN’T THERE ANYMORE EITHER
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Oh, my favorite One Piece character? Sanji! Unless he opens his mouth. Then my favorite is Ace.
#i love sanji in THEORY#and then whenever he's on screen he goes “OH NAMI-SWAAAAAAAN” in that really annoying voice and i immediately want to punt him#i know how zoro feels now#watching the anime did irreparable damage to my love for sanji#my eye twitches preemptively whenever i see him now#i'm like zoro in that i can't stand sanji but i would also fight to the death if it meant he lived#not even romantically just like in general. also like zoro#but it's gotten so bad that my dad's taken to speaking in sanji's annoying 'love mode' tone of voice just to piss me off#he's a great character! i just wish he'd stop talking#i specifically wish he'd stop the love mode thing whenever a woman breathes#but i'd also physically recoil if he ever actually stopped like WHO ARE YOU AND WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH MY BOY#actually oda could totally use that if sanji really DOES lose his emotions#but yeah sanji's my favorite. but my favorite is also ace. i live in a cruel world#bc one is a borderline womanizer and the other is fucking dead#anyways i'm gonna shut up now if you read all this i am a blubbering mess on the floor
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#the longer it is that I don’t hear from him the more anxious I get and that’s so stupid and I hate it#I don’t know why so much of my happiness is tied to talking to him#especially because I have a girlfriend now and should probably be more inclined/excited to talk to her#which I am! really! I love talking to her too and wouldn’t have asked her out if I didn’t feel that way#but there’s something about him and this weird connection we have to each other#it’s like I just need to talk to him#my day isn’t complete and my mood gets all screwy if I don’t talk to him#and I know I say this same bullshit here so often but I’m just so fucked up about this all the time#because he’s still in my fucking head and I can’t get rid of him#so I’m stuck in this stupid headspace of wanting to give my all to my girlfriend and still subconsciously pining for him#I wish I could turn it off like he did because he makes it seem so easy to just shut off the temptation and the desire and all of that shit#but it’s just not that easy for me and now I’m so deep in this emotional pit that I feel like I can’t dig myself out#I don’t know what to do about all of this because I don’t have anyone to talk to about it#I used to just talk to him about it but it was hard for him to deal with so I promised I wouldn’t anymore#now I’m just worse for wear and spiraling constantly#personal
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