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can there be a service for autistic people (maybe even other disabilities too) that's kind of like an aide or helper or assistant, but more of a casual friendly type thing? basically people volunteer to be paired with autistic people who don't have friends and struggle to make them and their job is to be our friend as in go places with us, play games, chat, etc. whatever friends do. but they are contractually obligated to stick with it and not hurt or abandon us, but work with us. maybe invite us to hang out with their friends. we can try different people to see who we best fit with. then maybe that person sticks with one of us and not multiple so they dont play favorites and neglect us or get overwhelmed or something.
it's a volunteer job and they don't get paid because all they're doing is being a friend and doing normal things that doesn't deserve pay lol. why should you get paid to pretend to be someone's friend? do it because you want to support someone who needs you, nit because you think it will be an easy job to make money. and friendship isn't a job. that weeds out people only doing it for money and not trying very hard or quitting when they think it's too hard and abandoning the person they were paired with. and that way it's a free service for us since most of us are poor. but they probably need to get some education as well, and we go over our own specific needs and expectations so they know what we need and expect from them, how to work with us, and what they should expect from us. they could work with counselors so if there are any problems they can't handle and are worried about us, we can get a check in or something. but generally, this would be good for very social and friendly people who like to help others and are open minded, accepting, and kindhearted. (which is getting increasingly hard to find in my experience...)
it would be hard to find the right people, but that's why it's good to have meetups and try to find the right match. because sometimes I think that, even if I dont relate to the neurotypical/allistic/abled people, it might be helpful to have someone who can navigate the social situations for me and let me just follow along and be included in things. someone I can ask to go to a convention with me and they can be my voice and keep me company and lead me, while having fun themselves. or someone who invites me to a party with their friends and let's me mostly ait in their room with their cat, but occasionally step out to listen to their conversation and laugh with them. I can absorb their fun energy and have more fun, feel included, but have the space i need, because they are willing to work with me, support me, and acccept me, my needs, and my boundaries.
other autistic or in general ND and disabled people are cool and all, but when they also struggle like I do, we end up not talking to each other becasue we don't know how or cant. we often don't get along because differences that get in the way ("im autistic and I can do that why don't you just do it too" -a real life example that I experienced) or we cant meet each other's needs or struggle with boundary issues. maybe we both need help and can't help each other. or if the other does help it burns them out so fast they are miserable (like my one friend who always has to speak for me and then shes burnt out for months after and cant even talk to me over text....we used to be so close. now we barely talk đĽ˛). or they don't want to do the things I want to do, like going out somewhere, and rather watch TV all day when I hate doing that.
it would be nice to have someone to consistently rely on to help me out with doing "normal" things no one else will do with me because i'm too autistic for them, or they are too disabled to deal with me. I know people aren't obligated to be my friend or do things with me. so that's why a "job" for this would be great, so someone IS more obligated to do it. because i'm so incredibly lonely and exhausted and losing my mind over having not a single person to turn to or rely on đĽ˛
does that make sense?????
#it would also be hard to find people who would be willing to do this since most people hate us đ#i suppose an outgoing high masking autistic person could also apply for this if they can handle it hmmm#idk. im just losing my mind over being unable to do anything or go anywhere because i dont have a single person to do things with#đđđđđđđđđđđ#ive tried so hard to make friends and have burnt myself out talking to like 100 new people and got nowhere#someone just assign me a friend and make it their job#autistic#autism#actually autistic#lee rambles#neurodivergent#autism things#audhd#disablity#disabled#i can see how this would either not help or could go wrong. but im also desperate and nothing is working so what if........#BUT ALL I WANT IS SOMEONE TO GO PLACES WITH ME!!!! THEY DONT HAVE TO DO MUCH. JUST JOIN ME AND HAVE FUN?? IDK đ#i cant take anymore small talk! i tried so hard and its making me so burnt out im doing the autism head hitting stim again#i haven't done that since i was in school! đđđđđđđ#i just need someone i can bond with through shared activities and not need as much social work đđ
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in which we find out how the morning after went for fem!reader. you finally share with spencer after unanticipated anxieties come up. you're continually shocked by his affection for you.
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this series is 18+ (angst, fluff) warnings/tags: (preface none of the bad stuff is done by spencer) sexual harassment, slut shaming, non consensual voyeurism of sorts, blood + pain from losing virginity, talk of rape (nothing like that actually happens), implied nonspecific age gap (someone says he looks slightly older than you) non sexual nudity, showering together, intimacy, ewww being in love is embarrassing a/n: I honestly was not gonna post this today but I decided to bc it's just Tumblr its not that deep also you can probably tell I am just creating problems bc I don't wanna let go of them...... ik this is supposed to be a smutty series btw and trust good things come to those who wait!!!but anyways idk what I'm doing and I kinda hate this!! lolol!!!
Friday morning
The air is thick when you wake upâthe angle of the sun through the window is lower than usual, and the binding weight of your limbs as you struggle to stretch in place all suggest that youâve slept in.Â
But you donât check the time quite yetâfor a moment, you simply lie there, studying the pattern on your ceiling, downloading the events of the previous night.Â
Flashes of skin on skin, lips, breaths, whispers, promises. Phantom sensations.Â
Was it even real?
Your apartment is deafeningly silent, you realize. And you have that sinking sense, which you canât quite explain but know to be trueâthat you are alone. Spencer is gone. You canât feel him like youâd be able to if he were simply on the couch or in the kitchen. Heâs definitely not in bed with you, and the sheets have long gone cold.Â
The truth of it renders about as slowly as your sluggish consciousness does, and you frown, not quite sure what to do with that information. Should you be angry? Should you cry?
Mostly youâre confused.Â
As soon as you sit up, sore thighs and abs and a strange ache between your legs confirm that last night was not a dream nor a figment of your imagination. Youâll figure out what to do about your twinging body in a momentâfor now you rub your eyes and blindly reach for the bedside table, knocking several things to the ground in your quest for your phone.Â
Itâs not there, you realize, once you actually try to use your eyes. Itâs not in bed with you either as you pat the sheets, and it doesnât materialize as you sit on your knees and shake out the comforter.Â
From this venture, however, you learn two things. First, Spencer mustâve taken it upon himself to get you dressed last night, which you have no recollection of, but you doubt you sleepwalked your way into underwear and a big t-shirt; and secondâyou bled.Â
It wasnât something you were thinking about in the moment, but now, faced with all the evidence and none of the pleasure of last nightâs activities, itâs jarring. A stark, unforgiving archipelago of red on a pristine sea of white.Â
People say, at its best, sex brings couples closer. Spencer once told you it could facilitate feelings of deeper connection. But here you are, no longer a virgin, and what do you have to show for it? A stronger bond with your boyfriend? Heâs not even here.Â
All you have is this glaring red stain marring perfectly good sheets. It mocks you, like something youâve dropped and canât pick back up. You canât think looking at it, and you need to think, and so in a fit of frustration youâre pulling the comforter onto the floor, leaning over your mattress and yanking the fitted sheet free. You ball it up in your hands, breathing heavilyâand realize you bled through to the mattress.Â
Wonderful.Â
Spencerâs just at work, you tell yourself, grabbing the first pair of shorts you see and pulling them on before gathering the ruined sheet once more and stomping on aching legs through your apartment to the hallway, not even bothering with shoes. He canât just play hooky because his clingy girlfriend lost her virginity and needs to be comforted like some previously celibate high school cheerleader.
But you miss him so much itâs making you angry, so much your eyes are stinging and welling with tears of frustration as you shove your bed linens down the trash chute at the end of your floorâs hallway. Youâre supposed to be independent. Thatâs how youâve always been. Since when does it bother you to wake up alone? Itâs just sex. Itâs not as big a deal for him as it is for you. Or for anyone. Youâre the one overreacting, youâre the one who expects too much. He works for the FBI, for godâs sake. There are people dying, and here you areâ
âWhatâchya got there?â
The gruff voice makes you jump, and you turn around just as the bundle is disappearing down into the hole in the wall. Itâs your neighbor, Jerryâthe one in the unit right next to you. Youâre not happy to see him, especially like this. Heâs got a blue 5 oâclock shadow despite the hour, and is clad in ill-fitting gray sweats and a pair of ratty slippers. His distended belly strains at the confines of an oil-stained white shirt, tied with a dingy checkered robe. You barely meet his drooping eyes before looking longingly back at your cracked door down the hall.Â
âJust⌠garbage.â You shift your weight, hiding a wince as you try to find a comfortable position to stand in. Jerry notices this, and you wish his eyes wouldnât linger on your bare legs like that.Â
âHuh. Looks like someone had a late night.â
âSorry?â
âItâs just noon and youâre still in your PJâs.â
Disgusting. And who the fuck is he to judge? At least your pajamas are clean.Â
You shrug. âYeah.â
He scratches his bald head.Â
âSo that boy tired you out pretty good, huh?â
Your stomach drops. Your brain freezes.Â
When you donât reply, he takes the liberty of continuing on.Â
âSaw him sneaking out of your apartment in the middle of the night. He looked a little older ân you. You like âem older?â His laugh is a cruel bark. âYeah⌠Heâs a lucky man. You know, itâs natural for a man to like a younger girl. Fresh meat, ân all.â You try to speak and can only swallow a gag. Jerry adjusts his stance, hands in pockets like heâs telling you a local news story. âHeard some of it. Sounded like you were putting on quite the show. And sure, a young pretty thing like you? Hell, I would if I could. But Iâll tell you right now, you donât wanna end up like my daughter. She wasnât as pretty as you, but stillâthree kids with three men by the time she was 24. She should'a kept her damn legs closed. You know, she loved to cry rape, but you gotta ask yourself, if your legs are open all the damn time, what do you expect? Back in the day we all knew girls like thatââ he bats the air dismissively. âGuess you canât call âem sluts anymoreâthey get what theyâre asking for one way or another. See, I think everyone still knows it and theyâre just too afraid to say it. So my advice: donât let yourself get used up, you hear me? Not by men who are gonna ride you hard and put you away wet. So to speak. Men can smell a girl like that from a mile away, and theyâll take it as an open invitation. Itâs just human nature.â
When he finally stops talking, the hallway fills with a vacuous silence. It makes your ears ring. Several moments pass, but youâre frozen. Your whole body feels intolerably hot but your blood is freezing. How are you supposed to react?Â
âHello?â He says, voice loud enough to hurt your ears as it echoes.Â
Get out of here, your more rational self says to the rest of you, and you mumble something, you donât even know what, excusing yourself to hurry on stiff legs back down the hall to your door.Â
Once inside, you do up every lock on your door, and face your apartment, shoulders tensed practically to your ears and fists clenched so tight your arms are trembling. On autopilot you look around for something to do, but thereâs nothing. More importantly, nobody.
Iâll call Spencer. Heâll know what to do.Â
No, you wonât, your higher self reminds you. You lost your phone. And besides, itâs clearly not like he wanted to stick around last night. Maybe he doesnât even like you anymore.Â
So youâre stuck here. Stranded. Sharks can smell blood.Â
Processing that information, you walk back to your bedroom and close the door behind youâbefore promptly sinking to the ground and burying your face in the duvet with a deep, silent sob. Â
That goes on for a few minutes until you realize youâre too achy and you canât breathe and youâre forced onto your side, curling up in your blanket on the floor like itâs a nest and not a burial plot.Â
You shouldnât get ahead of yourself. A relationship canât implode twice in 24 hours.  You donât have your phone. Maybe heâs texted you.Â
But is that really all youâre worth? A text sent after the fact? He couldnât sacrifice a few hours to sleep by your side? Couldnât even wake you up to say goodbye? You think about the sweet things heâd said afterwardâthe way he held you, fingers dancing down your spine. Promises he made when you were half asleep in his arms, so sure heâd be there when you woke up.Â
Even fucking Jerry the neighborâwho you think might have just sexually harassed you in the hallwayâsaid Spencer shouldâve stuck around.Â
Fuck.Â
No, donât think about that. It doesnât even matter. They were just words.Â
Heard some of it. Sounded like you put on quite the show.Â
Your skin crawls and your stomach turns as you hold yourself tighter. Something that was supposed to be private and specialâand some random man not only had a front row seat to your deflowering but felt comfortable talking about it with you. It feels like a violation. Like he crashed a really important party. If you had known you had an audience last night, you never wouldâve done it.Â
The way he looked at you, tracing your legs with his eyes like he was touching youâ
You scramble up from the floor and walk heavily on your knees to the dresser, digging up a pair of pajama pants and a hoodie. You should be showering, but you donât want to deal with your body right now. You just want to hide.Â
Friday eveningâpresent
After your conversation, Spencer seems eager to make sure the car ride to his apartment is not reminiscent of the car ride to yours last nightâhe holds your hand, resting in your lap, bringing your knuckles to his lips at a red light. Every few moments he glances over at you, maybe to appreciate the view (though you doubt itâs especially scenic at the moment) or perhaps to gauge your mood. The further away you get from your apartment building the better you feel, and you try to focus on that. Sureâmaybe you had a shit day, but Spencerâs here now, and he didnât leave you after all. In fact, since finding your phone, youâve seen the series of very sweet and highly concerned messages he sent over the course of a few hours. They almost make your stomach hurt. It wouldâve been really nice to have those earlier.Â
He doesnât ask you any more of the hard questions, but you sense an inquisition in the works and getting closer with every curious glance he gives you. Itâs like heâs unwrapping you, layer by layer, using his impressive cognitive faculties to drill through your skull into your brain and deeper still into your soul.Â
Back in his apartment you sit awkwardly on the bed. Last time youâd been here, things hadnât gone so well for you.Â
The shower starts in the adjoined bathroom, and Spencer comes out a moment later, warm light seeping into the darkened bedroom. Purple and dark blue mixing with yellow, like a bruise.Â
âHey. Waterâs warm.â
You hum, smoothing the material of his neatly made bed with your palm and watching the way it flattens. That had been your doing. You may have thought he was on the verge of breaking up with you last time you slept here, but you didnât want to leave his home a mess. Didnât want to leave any evidence of your having been here.Â
A moment passes. You thumb at a thread and donât look up.Â
Spencer crosses the space without a word and crouches in front of you, hands coming up to cup the back of your legs, running knee to ankle and up again.Â
âCan you tell me whatâs going on? Please?â He asks softly. His voice wrings your heart out. Now that youâre in a completely different space, and youâre not so alone anymore, youâre struggling to sort out your feelings. It should be fine. Youâre with Spencer. Presumably he still loves you.Â
And you still feel terrible.Â
âI donât really want to talk about it,â you whisper.Â
âI know,â he says, just as quietly.Â
Spencer doesnât say anything else. I know you donât want toâand yet. Your lips twist to the side. Heâs persistent. Even in his kindness. Itâs not the kind of care that falters or buckles when you try turning it away.Â
âMy neighbor said he cââÂ
Youâre forced to stop, frowning by how overcome you are. It shouldnât be such a big deal. Worse things have happened to you.Â
âHe said he could hear us. Last night.â
Spencerâs hands stop on your legs. You canât meet his eyes. Youâre afraid whatever you find there wonât be the right thing.Â
âHeâs in the unit next to you?â
You nod. âWe share a wall.â
Thereâs a momentâs hesitation and your stomach sinks. He doesnât understand.Â
âWhat did he say?â
âJust⌠dumb shit,â you scoff, fiercely wiping away a stray tear. âHe said he listened and it sounded like I was putting on quite the show. And then heâand then he told me not to let you⌠use me up, whatever that means. He called me fresh meat, and said I shouldnât let you ride me hard and put me away wet, and bad things happen to sluts who canât keep their legs closed.â
You finish with a sharp inhale, briefly leaning down and covering your face with your hands when you realize how upset you really are. You want to hide it.Â
A fraught moment passes. Spencer reaches for your hands, no doubt to try and pull them away from your face. You spare him the trouble, sitting up with a cavalier sniff before he can touch you and brushing your hair behind your ears. Â
His voice is uncomfortably quiet. You canât look at him. âBabyâŚâ
âDonât. Itâs fine. I only told you because you asked.â
Itâs not his fault, but youâre mad at him anyway, and so you avoid eye-contact like itâs the plague. Maybe itâs just safe to be mad at him. Maybe he knows that.Â
Regardless, youâre not in the mood for coddling. Itâs borderline repulsiveâlike trying to mix oil and water. Anything good slides right off of you because maybe youâre not designed to be able to absorb good things.
Nothing changes for a minuteâand then heâs standing, offering you a moment alone as he goes to crank the shower off.Â
As soon as heâs gone all the air is vacuumed from your lungs and you crumple, heaving it back in silently as your head spins and your heart races. Itâs like your mind is split in twoâhalf is primal, overwhelming panic, and the other a cold observatory eye, full of disdain and scorn for what it deems a severe overreaction to a few nasty comments made hours ago. Youâre so tangled up as you curl in on yourself on your side that you canât even cry. Youâre just trying to remember how to breathe, ignoring the crawling feeling up your spine and the tingling heat at the back of your neck. The shower stops on the downbeat of your staggered breath, and then itâs silent. Heâll come back at any minute and see what a mess youâve become.Â
Youâve ruined everything. If only you couldâve kept it to yourself.Â
When Spencer reappears in the doorway, and sees you collapsed and curling like paper burnt at the edges, heâs quick to return to you.Â
âIâm sorry,â you manage, trying and failing to brush away hair from your cheek, which is wetâso you were cryingâand Spencer shushes you, pushing it away for you as he kneels.Â
âWhy are you apologizing?â
âIâm being dramatic, I donât know whatâs wrong with me.â
Of course, at the end of that declaration, a sob wrenches its way from the depths of you, so bright and cleaving you half expect the smell of ozone to follow. You follow it with a blisteringly self-deprecating laugh.
âDonâtâdonât do that. Donât minimize it.â
His hand is warm where it rests over your cheek, affectionate, but he sounds frustrated. You frown and sniffle.Â
âWhat am I supposed to do?â
âTell me his name.âÂ
Itâs a quiet request, made as gently as his hand cards through the hair at your temple like itâs woven with fragile threads of gold.
âNo, Spencer,â you beg, anxiety pooling in your gut and rising in your throat, âplease, I donât want to make it a thing, I donât want you to talk to him. Youâll just make it worse, itâs fine.â
You look at him imploringly, eyes wide and still welling, hoping to god the gravity of your plead will sink in. His are a bed of coalsâsomewhere between furious and sympathetic, and you try to appeal to the sympathy.Â
âIt is not fine. Saying sluts get whatâs coming to them is not fine, that is a threat, and Iâm not going to talk to him. Iâm going to have him fucking arrested.â
You scoff.Â
âFor talking to me? Yeah, good luck with that. Cops are really known for being helpful when it comes to sexual harassment.â
âBaby. Men who are comfortable violating your boundaries like that are exponentially more likely to commit an actual violent crime. That is not a safe person for you to be around.â
âHeâs not gonna rape me, Spencer! Heâs just a gross old man! This is why I didnât want to tell you, because I knew youâd make it a bigger deal than it is! You did it last night and youâre doing it nowâyou think everyone is out to get me!â
To his credit, he doesnât so much as raise his voice.Â
âOf course itâs a big deal. Youâre upset.â
âYeah, well, itâs my own fault.â
Maybe itâs the wrong thing to say. Spencer goes silent for a moment.Â
âItâs your fault?â
âYes. Itâs my fault because⌠because now everyone knows that IâmâŚâ
His voice goes impossibly soft again. âKnows that youâre what?â
âI mean, what did I expect?â You sniffle. âItâs an apartment. If I didnât want to deal with the consequences, I shouldnâtâve done it.â
He says your name like itâs a ring he twists around his finger as he tries to thinkâto gather the right words.Â
âThe consequences for having sex do not involve punishment or sexual harassment.â
âItâs the result of my actions, soââ
âNo, itâs the result of your neighbor being disgusting. I donât care what he heard, he doesnât get to talk to you like that.â
âHeââ
âIf you heard something you werenât supposed to hear would you bring it up to the person the next day?â
âStop interrupting me,â you plead. Spencer looks like he has something to say to that, too, but he swallows it. You close your eyes and take a deep breath. âI⌠understand that he shouldnât have said those things to me. But that doesnât change the fact that he did, and it was really, really uncomfortable and I donât wannaâI donât wanna go back now. Maybe thatâs dramatic, butâŚâ
You trail off, studying the ceiling as a fresh wash of tears dampen your cheeks. Spencerâs hand slides down your waist as you wipe your face. âI donât regret the fact that we slept together. I just regret everything thatâs happened since, and if I didnât do it last night, none of this wouldâve happened. I feel like he ruined everything.â
The words end on another cry and you put your hand over your eyes like you could stop it all from coming out. You sniffle. Spencer is quiet for a moment.Â
âIâm sorry,â he eventually whispers, his own voice threaded with emotion. âIâŚâ
He sighs. You push your hair back and look at him.Â
âWhat?â
He studies you, chewing on his lip like a nervous tick youâve never seen before. You sit up again, feet balanced on the edge of the bed frame. Spencerâs eyes remain stuck on you. Again, you ask, âWhat?â
âI didnât think about it until you brought it up earlier, butâI did see someone. Him, I think, when I went out to my car to get my bag. He was smoking when I came out, and when I got back into the lobby he was waiting for the elevator. We took it up together, heâhe said something to me, so I know he saw me going back to you. I donât know why he made it sound like I left.â
You frown. âWhat did he say?â
Spencer hesitates.Â
âHe asked if I had a long night. He was obviously commenting on the fact that I was basically half-dressed and getting an overnight bag from my car at one in the morning, so he could probably gather from context what was going on, but⌠my point is, he knew I came back and it seems like he was almost trying to make you think I didnât. So for whatever reason, maybe he was lying about being able to hear you, too. Maybe he just wanted to make you uncomfortable.â
âThatâs a long shot, Spencer.â
âI know, but⌠itâs not that long. He obviously gets off on itâand besides, he said you were putting on a show, but you werenât⌠you werenât loud, last night.â
Heats blossoms in your cheeks and you look down at your lap. âThin walls.â
âHave you ever heard your neighbors before?â
You have to seriously think about it.Â
âIâve heard them yellingâŚâ
âNothing else?â
Again, you consider it. The answer comes as a surprise.Â
âNo.â
âOkay, so⌠does that maybe help a little bit? I really, really donât want you to feel like last night was a mistake in any way, or let anyone ruin it for you.â
You breathe deeply. âI know. It⌠it kinda helps, yeah.â
His hands come to the top of your legs. Thereâs so much genuine care and concern in his eyes. âYeah?â
Only when you nod does he relax some. His hands skim your thighs, and you set yours on top of his own. For a few breaths, itâs quiet. And then you laugh.Â
âWhat?â Spencer asks, a tentative smile curling his own lips like he doesnât know if he should be concerned or participate in your mirth.Â
âIâI donât know how to say it without being cheesy,â you admit, sniffling the last of your tears away and smiling softly down at him.Â
âI think you should say it.â
You link your fingers with his on your lap, watching the way they twine like itâs what they were meant to do.Â
âI was just thinking about how I had, like, the worst day ever. And how much worse it wouldâve gotten if you didnât show up when you didâI wouldâve completely spiraled. But you did show up. And how easy it is to kind of compartmentalize, because I have you, and when Iâm with you⌠nothing feels as hard. You make the bad things feel smaller, I guess.â
By the end, it got a lot more real than youâd intended, and your face feels warm, and your stomach is sort of floatyâbut you donât look away from Spencer. You hold his gaze, though it makes you a little nervous, because you want him to know you mean it.Â
He inhales, like heâs going to say something, but he doesnâtâonly looks at you, like youâre beautiful and impossible and a defiance of everything he thought he knew, which was almost everything. To him, youâre expansive. A gorgeous anomaly.
And then he stands, holding his hands out for you. Without question you take them, and he pulls you to your feet, absorbing the momentum that threatens to topple you, and he wraps his arms around you tightly. So tight you have to laugh.Â
âI love you,â he says against your shoulder, one hand coming to cradle the back of your head.Â
Your humor softens, but doesnât become inflexibleâstill tinges your words with the perfect amount of euphoria and relief. âI love you.â
âThanks,â he mumbles, and your laughter flares again.Â
âYou donât have to thank me.â
âBut Iâm grateful. I⌠I feel lucky.â
Always so earnest, so vulnerable, when youâre least expecting itâwhich should be always, youâre learning. You pull back to look up at him. You donât want that concession to go unrewarded.Â
âMe too,â you say softly. Heâs doing that fond thing with his eyes, where theyâre all soft and itâs like heâs trying to take in every millimeter of your face. This time when he goes to touch your hair, you have the wherewithal to dodge it.Â
âYouâre really brave for trying to touch my hair right now.â
âWhy?â He asks, utterly bewildered, and the softness of the moment falls away easily, but not without leaving everything smudged and fuzzy around the edges. Everything is still okay. Itâs still good.Â
âBecause itâs dirty,â you laugh, dodging him again and eventually ducking from the circle of his arms entirely.Â
âOh, your hair is dirty? Should we breakup?â
âHm. I donât really like when you take on that tone with me.â Youâre still half-laughing, dipping and weaving past him toward the bathroom as he tries to get you in his arms again. And then you stop, toes just short of the tile.Â
âWhat is it?â He asks after another moment. You blink, looking at the shower head as it drips.Â
âUmâwould it be okay if I had a five minute headstart in the shower?â
âSure. Is everything okay?â
âItâs fine. I just⌠I need a minute.â
His hand skims your waist as he passes by you through the open door. âOkay. Why donât you grab your stuff and Iâll get the water going again?â
Soon enough, youâre remembering how much better his water pressure is than yours as you stand under the torrent, eyes closed as if in prayer. You definitely couldâve stood to shower earlier in the day. But you had other concerns, earlier, and besidesâyou were afraid of what you might find.Â
And you were right to be. The sex was nice. The aftermath isnât quite as pretty.Â
When Spencer taps on the bathroom door, youâre nervous.Â
âYou can come in,â you call.Â
âYou sure? If you want it all to yourself, thatâs okay too.â
âNo, no. Itâs fine.â
The door creaks open, and gently clicks into place again, and fabric rustles as he undresses, and soon the shower curtain is sliding aside and heâs stepping in. Unsurprisingly, the space feels smaller with him in itâbut not small in a bad way. It feels warmer. Again youâre awash in that safe feeling, which you didnât realize youâd been missing so much today.Â
âHi,â he smiles, a teasing sliver of what you know to be the most brilliant light in the world, and stunning like the rest of him as you watch the water begin to darken his hair.Â
âHello.â
His smile flickers briefly wider like youâre his favorite thing and he just canât contain his joy, and then itâs easing again, giving you a moment to catch your breath.Â
âIs it okay if I touch you?â
In this alien context the idea has your heart poundingâyou donât really understand the concept of casual nudity yet, but you know heâll respect your earlier wishes to keep it chaste and so you nod.Â
Spencer doesnât take you immediately in his arms like youâd expectedâinstead his hands find a rest at your collarbones and carefully push your wet hair back over your shouldersâbut his eyes arenât cast quite low enough to be indecent. They connect dots over your chest and neck, and he thumbs at one just over your pulse point.Â
âOh, man,â he laughs, and you think you detect a hint of self-deprecation. âThatâs⌠wow, I didnât realize I⌠sorry. They donât hurt, do they?â
Itâs your turn to smile as heâs suddenly over-concerned.Â
âNo, they donât hurt.â
âGood.â He looks relieved, but it doesnât last as his eyes trace lowerâthough you donât sense any hunger in it. Heâs just taking you in. âHow about everywhere else?â
âUm⌠itâs not bad. Kind of, like⌠I donât know. Sore. But itâs not bad.â
âStill?â He frowns, clearly unfazed by your evident embarrassment on the subject. You shrug and avert your eyes.Â
âItâs fine. it was worse earlier, so.â
That does not have the calming effect youâd intended.Â
âWorse? 1-10, howââ
âSpencer, itâs fine, I promise. Itâs only when Iâwhen I move certain ways, I notice. Honestly the⌠blood⌠was way more disconcerting to me.â
âYeah, I saw your bed⌠sorry for ruining your sheets. Iâll buy you new ones.â
You shrug, watching the water run in rivulets down your arm and branch off into tributaries and waterfalls from your fingers. âYou donât have to do that. It was a collaborative effort.â
Normally this conversation would have you melting into an embarrassed puddle, but something about the tile cocoon of the shower, the humid fog, the proximity, feels safe. The white noise of water on porcelain, the warmth. You go to him at the same time as he comes to youâhis arms around your waist, yours slung over his shoulders. Your eyes flutter shut. Falling asleep standing up has never seemed so plausible until now.Â
He presses a kiss to your head. You sigh.Â
âUgh. I donât want to deal with washing my hair.â
âI can do it,â Spencer immediately offers. You frown.Â
âI wasâyou donât have to. I didnât mean to make it sound like I was asking.â
âI know you didnât.â
âItâs a process.â
âI understand.â
âYou would have to do it exactly how I say.â
âI am willing to learn. I like taking care of you.â
Youâre glad for the hot water, then, and as he washes your hair. Youâre not sure if youâre crying at the tenderness of his touch, or the way he loves you like youâre easy to love. Youâre too tired to explain it.Â
He doesnât push you, because he never pushes you.Â
He just washes your hair.Â
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Which aspects for real emotional and long lasting connection romantically possibly getting married included please I'll look at mine please I'm so curious about this I trust you with astrology a lot
Aspects for long term relationshipsâ
Taurus moon, taurus venusâCan be grounded, patient, methodical. Prefers stability over instability and insecurity. Wants to keep the relationship firm and solid. Will not want to rush intimacy. Depending on other placements (mars) can change this however. For ex: debilitated mars, weakly aspected mars can make someone want to rush and make impulsive decisions in long term commitment.
Capricorn sun, moon, venusâ Also methodical, and craves emotional depth in their relationship. An evolved capricorn honors their emotional vulnerability and will share that with their partner, all whilst remaining loyal to both your journeys of love and healing. Will be a rock, and provide structure and discipline when needed. Fierce mama bear/bodyguard vibes. Seeks to uplight you through planning, guiding you, helping you think clearly.
Moon conj. Venus synastryâVery wholesome. Lots of understanding and mutual support. Hard to stay as friends, very likely will progress deeper. The kind where you can trust them with your secrets. Where feminine energy is balanced and both trust to receive, not just give. Feels as though youâre talking to someone who can listen for hoursâand there is little to no resistance.
Moon 4h, sun 4h synastryâChildhood best friend vibes. Someone you can open up to about intimate struggles, and find laughter and joy through heartache. Feels as though youâve know each other for so long. You both slip easily into each otherâs energy like water. The psyche is bare and vulnerable here.
Sun 6h, venus 6h, moon 6h synastryâEveryday routine with each other flows naturally. Good harmony. Agrees on routines, matters regarding moving in is discussed with ease. Financial support, and both couples may focus on health related activities together in the home. Eats well, dates are regular and always discussed. If negatively aspected there can be struggles with the home life/schedules.
Mercury 6h synastryâDay to day conversation are filled with support, constantly checking on each other. Dropping by little notes, texts, breadcrumbs of love. Always thinking about the other person. The kind of relationship where your partner grabs you your favorite coffee before work, and surprises you. Lots of renovations in the home life that expresses both your feelings. Your home is the literal representation of the two of you. If negatively aspected there can be petty issues in the home life, blocks to communication.
Note: mercury retrograde will greatly affect the home life so pay attention!
Venus 2h synastryâCan help you rebuild your confidence, help you with insecurities and boundaries are explored in the relationship with a sense of compassion and understanding. Strong bond could be formed here because of this healing aspect.
Moon conj. Mercury synastryâHelps to overcome communication blocks. Intimacy and empathy when communicating with each other. Soft spoken, aware. The mercury person gets the moon person thinking deeply about topics of themselves in a healing sense. This synastry allows for safe exploration of intimacy (physical as well) and the psyche.
Sun conj. Venus synastryâThe sun person talks highly of the venus person. Anywhere with anyone. They can boast and go on a ramble about the Venus person, but the respect and admiration is there. I think this is great because the sun person makes it clear about their feelings towards the Venus person publicly. Although this placement can be fickleâso Iâd look at other placements and aspects.
Venus conj/trine/sextileJupiter synastryâAbility to flow and work on issues together in the connection. Intimacy is well understood, and both your energies cocoon each other. Great indicator of empathy, and understanding of each other. The sextile indicates being able to work through problems with time and effort.
Scorpio mercuryâThe scorpio person is devoted to thinking through their problems in the relationship. They sit and think deeply of their actions and consequences. They have the ability to honor multiple perceptions and with a trusting relationship, they can open up and share them which creates a deep bond.
Juno in the 1h synastryâIntense devotion. Utmost care and attention. Chivalry, and romance and all the in between. Charismatic energy. It lasts, as if theyâre always seeing you for the first time again.
Venus 5h, moon 5h, sun 5h, mercury 5h synastryâIf not harshly aspected, this can make for a lot of fun and harmony in a relationship. Home matters are easily understood, so are hobbies. You two will share similar interests which makes it easy to bond, and the fun truly never ends. Both of your inner childs come out to play. Safe, adventurous, and loving. Two chatterboxes on a summer night.
Mercury 9h, sun 9h, venus 9h synastryâGreat for lessons. Overcoming trauma and pain in this relationship. Transforming wounds into healing energy. Bouncing off each other ideas and emotions, and being introspective. Both are mutually heard. Great for coming back and sharing deepest emotions and thoughts after an argument, encounter, or if something needs to be spoken about.
Saturn (trine, sextile) Venus synastryâSaturn allows for growth and development here in intimacy and love. Venus is softer and compassionate, and allows the two to have structure in their relationship without it being too confining. Itâs not too dry, and not too overly indulging. Its balanced. And any issues (sextile) can be overcome with more compassion and understanding. Just try opening up, see where it takes you.
Sun 11h, venus 11h, moon 11h synastryâLong lasting relationships have these. Amazing companionship. You two have been long friends before lovers. Truly amazing, able to open up and chat for hours. Supportive, caring, and truly concerned with each others wellbeing. Always encouraging each other to be unique and empowered.
Leo sun, moon, venusâThis person can make you feel so loved, worshipped and understood. Truly tries to offer you the best in the world. When healed and empowered your partner who has these placements can uplift you and share their energy with you, literally healing you. Instinctive, protective, and nurturing. Lovely leaders who lead with their heart.
Mercury sextile mars synastryâFinding a way to discuss heated issues. Smooths it out, laughs over it like it was yesterday. All is well. What even was the issue about? Dates are planned in random surprising locations, both of you experience a thirst for adventure on the regular. Lots of communication, impulsive âhey lets do this.â Funny, deep and inspiring conversations.
Sun trine/sextile Jupiter synastryâAlways in a good mood around each other. Seeing each other is like the warm rays of the sun peeking through the foliage. Comforting, and it cocoons you both. Familiarity and warmth is here. You two always come back to resolve issues because you miss each otherâthe connection is too important to leave behind.
Sun conj. Asc synastryâThe house person looks up to the sun person immensely. Always learning and picking up knowledge from the sun person. Isnât afraid to actively listen and try something new and different the way the sun person described. Ease of communication depending on mercuryâs placement and aspect.
Mercury conj. IC synastryâThe two can discuss their past openly and empathize with one another. The two are more similar than they realize and it leads to them bonding in ways they thought they couldnât. Even if they were worlds apart somehow their story lines up. Analyzes their past with a sense of compassion, offering support back and forth. Late night walks when one is unwell, and some tea, and suddenly itâs okay.
Rising in their 4h synastry or vice versaâMissing each others arms, words and touch. Even the mind. Craving for conversations. Wanting to skip the party to hang out again. Comforting, nostalgic, and familiar all at once. Feels like a resting place. Sanctuary for two lovers. Great for moving in Iâve noticed, the home is well cared for and both partners may prefer moody lighting, candles, home cooked food, and radiates wealth. Depends on the 6h as well & Venus/moon aspects.
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Parent!Arlecchino HCs because those literally own me AND my soul.
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LORD AND FUCKING BEHOLD. She would handle your daughter with such tenderness, nails always neatly filed down, never wearing more than your wedding ring on her finger in case the accessories could hurt her babygirl
Always making sure youâre cared for after bringing your bundle of joy into the world, which means youâre on strict bedrest during your recovery, only taking walks outside the manor when she is present and absolutely NO labor. Iâm so serious I think she would go into cardiac arrest if she sees the mother of her child doing anything besides resting and focusing on recovery, like you just give birth wth do you think you are to try and cook dinner for the two of you???
Always gets up in the middle of the night and manages whatever need her daughter has, that is only until she is hungry ofc, otherwise she doesnât even let you get up. You carried her for nine months in your body and had to go through labor, itâs her turn to take care of her and lift the weight off of your shoulders
Insecure about stretch marks and gained weight? Not with her. Sheâd make sure to ease your mind and worries every chance she gets. Wether it be by getting you some new dresses for your wardrobe, caress your belly and tell you how stunning and beautiful she finds you in front of a mirror. More weight means more for her to touch and kiss anyways. In her opinion, the changes on your body are only a beautiful reminder for the biggest gift you couldâve ever given her. Your daughter.
I can imagine her to be actually so besotted with her, but of course she would never let the kids of the Hearth be neglected. In fact, sheâd encourage them to interact with her, one day itâs Lynette trying to feed her dinner, the next itâs Lyney wanting her to spell out his name (she always gets it wrong and he ends up being at the verge of tears)
Also, all Fatui work would be OFF her table for quite the long time. No negotiations. No businesstrips. At most maybe some paperwork every Sunday but other than that she made it clear that she wants to fully focus on the new addition to her life
It took actually all her willpower to not tear up when the word âPapaâ rolled over her lips for the first time. It was a Wednesday Night, and the little terror just didnât want to drive off into sleep, but Arle isnât known for her impatience, so she sits down in the living room by the fire place and decides to entertain her a little. Smooching her cute little baby cheeks, letting those oh so small fingers wrap around hers, tickling her neck with soft kisses. (Authors note: baby fever is real rn. Iâm not kidding chat.) Until in all her active brabbling she finally says it. Maybe it was just a coincidence but something died inside of Arle at that very moment. Save to say that she was in a BRILLIANT mood for the next weeks.
But donât make the mistake to think that Arlecchino would loose her cold and indifferent demeanor once sheâs back to work. Itâs like nothing changed for her. Just donât. Sheâs still the same when it comes to her Harbinger work
It actually pains her every time she has to go on a businesstrip for a longer period of time. What if something happens? What if she happens to take her first steps in her absence? She couldnât bear the thought of it but you reassured her as much as you could, even telling her to pull herself together a little. You will be fine.
Now in the future, if your daughter happens to take an interest in various insects just like her father⌠their daddy-daughter bond is unbreakable. Always taking her little girl in forest walks, thumb gently stroking over her small hand as they both rant about the various animals they come across. Growing up, Arle never had someone to share her interest in spiders, bugs, etc. so having a smaller version of herself be as interested in them as her - it heals something inside of her.
Has such a soft spot for doing her hair. No matter the occasion, she always makes sure her daughters hair looks beautiful. Either adorned by a ribbon, hairclips or a ponytail. She loves doing her hair, spending always extra time before bed brushing the comb through the soft strands, pressing a kiss to her head when she is done. God somebody help this woman.
And I think the most wonderful and perfect sight to her is coming home to the both of you after falling asleep on the sofa. Your girl clinging to you with her face nuzzled into the crook of your neck as your arms were wrapped around her small body so there is absolutely ZERO chance of her accidentally slipping off of you. She debates bringing up the idea of a second child whenever she looks at you, so full of love it actually makes her heart ache. She just loves the two of you that much.
Genuinely canât stay mad at her for longer than a few minutes. Of course she gets disciplined from time to time by you and her, she is still a child after all and children do sometimes stupid things so the first time she sticks out her tongue to you because she didnât want to take a bath⌠Arle sat her down and had a talk with her. A long one. It was also the first and last time she ever disrespected you in any form or manner.
I literally cannot put into words how MUCH I love arlecchino as a parent and everyone saying that it wouldnât fit her character: YOU DONT GET HER LIKE WE DO!!!!đđđź
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Synastry 3rd House: What You Think Of Your Partner đ§
**Intro To Synastry Charts**
For those who are new to astrology or donât know (because yes we need to be nice to the newbies too) a synastry chart is a chart that compares two individualâs charts together to see how they connect. A synastry chart is an amazing tool to see the energy two beautiful beings have together & the way two individuals feel about one another.
3rd house synastry connections are all about communication; that back and forth chemistry that you have with someone, that person whose mind intrigues your soul, the one who you have late night conversations with for hours because you could just talk to them forever. The planet person will feel intellectually intrigued & connected to the house personâs mind, so much so that they will want to be a sort of teacher to the house person to help them grow. The house person will be stimulated & their immediate environment will be affected by the planet personâs presence. The 3rd house exists within our community, school, & our daily commute. This type of bond would be perfect for friends, siblings (or sibling-like connections), & teacher-student relationships. These connections are not known to be the most romantic, however they do spark genuine mutual curiosity between each other.
đ§ Sun in the 3rd House: âI think about who you are.â
âYou should probably take your heels off, âCause you've been running through my mindâ - ROS by Mac Miller
how the planet person feels about the 3rd house person: as the sun person, they find the house personâs mind to be bright like the sun itself, brilliant. they enjoy talking about the most mundane day to day things with the 3rd house person, just simple conversation brings joy to each others lives. they find the house personâs perspective to be true & right.
how the 3rd house person feels about the planet person: the 3rd house person feels mentally stimulated around the sun person, just being around them motivates them to expand their mind. they may engage in more conversations with the sun person by their side, which could potentially make them feel more confident intellectually. they may even enjoy short trips together.
**conversation starters between the two of you: how to improve yourself, stories about your life, your daily activities, & âhow was your day?â
đ§ Moon in the 3rd House: âI think about how you feel.â
âWe can sit and talk. You can tell me everything that's on your chest, baby, get it off. You are my type, you a bright light, Iâm like a mothâŚ.â - WusYaName by Tyler, The Creator
how the planet person feels about the 3rd house person: the moon person feels naturally supportive & understanding of the 3rd house person. they genuinely agree with the way the 3rd house person emotionally expresses themselves & therefore feel itâs very easy for them to have their back. there may be a chance that your connection is telepathic, like the two of you can read each otherâs minds.
how the 3rd house person feels about the planet person: the 3rd house person will feel so comfortable to open up to the moon person. the moon person would make an incredible confidant for them to share their deepest thoughts with. something about the way the moon person speaks makes the 3rd house person feel safe & nurtured.
**conversation starters between the two of you: the current emotions your feeling, your favorite guilty pleasures, your deepest vulnerabilities, & ways you help your heart heal
đ§ Mercury in the 3rd House: âI think about our conversations.â
âYours, mine, ours. I could do this for hours. Sit and talk to you for hours. I wanna give you your flowersâ - Hrs & Hrs by Muni Long
how the planet person feels about the 3rd house person: the mercury person is so stimulated by the 3rd house personâs mind, they feel like their intellectual connection is unmatched. this is a very favorable mercury overlay as mercury is home in the 3rd house. this is the type of connection where the two can sit and talk for hours & hours.
how the 3rd house person feels about the planet person: when around the mercury person, the 3rd house person feels free to communicate & express any thought that comes to mind. the 3rd house person may be more outgoing & talkative around the mercury person, they will feel brought out of their shell. this is a mental connection that is truly special.
**conversation starters between the two of you: fun things to do with friends, new ideas, their new favorite movies/tv shows, & literally anything that comes to mind
đ§ Venus in the 3rd House: âI think about our love.â
âNo matter what I do. All I think about is you. Even when I'm with my boo. Boy, you know I'm crazy over youâ - Dilemma by Nelly
how the planet person feels about the 3rd house person: the venus person will think very romantically about the 3rd house person. it feels natural and easy to talk & express themselves to each other, like their genuine friends from the start. the two of them are likely to speak sweet sentiments to each other, this is the type of couple to say lovey-dovey things & have pet names for each other.
how the 3rd house person feels about the planet person: the 3rd house person will appreciate how genuine & real the venus person is when they talk. there is something about the way the venus person speaks to the 3rd house person that is sweet & loving. this is a placement where the venus person will love to express their romantic feelings for the 3rd house person with writing such as love notes, cards, songs, & poetry.
**conversation starters between the two of you: your favorite music, compliment each other, share your love languages, & how much you love each other
đ§ Mars in the 3rd House: âI think about your brilliant energy.â
âAnd when we get to arguing. Just gotta kiss you. Baby, I don't know why it's like that. But you're just so damn sexy. When you're madâ - When Youâre Mad by Ne-Yo
how the planet person feels about the 3rd house person: the mars person may think about the intimacy between them & the 3rd house person often. the relationship between these two is stimulating filled with banter, this is the type of couple you see play arguing with each other. it is important to note however to make sure the fun banter does not turn into harsh arguments.
how the 3rd house person feels about the planet person: it is likely these two mutually enjoy passionate debates that may increase attraction between them. the 3rd house person may find the mars personâs voice very sexually attractive, they may keep them enticed with every word. just be careful the fiery banter doesnât turn into mind games or worse, aggressive disagreements.
**conversation starters between the two of you: what turns you on, a controversial topic, how to best handle conflict, & dirty talk
đ§ Jupiter in the 3rd House: âI think about your curious spirit.â
âTo a place far beyond in a whole 'nother galaxy. Travel in your mind explore your sexuality. Melt your imagination and mold it into realityâ Rockinâ That Thang (Remix) by The-Dream
how the planet person feels about the 3rd house person: the jupiter person will feel like the 3rd house person helps give them confidence to share their worldly wisdom & their spiritual knowledge. they may discuss metaphysical & philosophical topics as this connection is all about expanding their minds. this would be a great connection to explore other cultures & learn a new language together.
how the 3rd house person feels about the planet person: this connection allows the 3rd house person to expand their mind & explore topics that may be foreign to them. thanks to the jupiter person, they become more optimistic & spiritual than they were before. the 3rd house person would love to learn with the jupiter person by their side.
**conversation starters between the two of you: places to travel around the world, metaphysical theories, foreign cultures, & books that help expand your worldview
đ§ Saturn in the 3rd House: âI think about your wisdom.â
âShe was in my math class. Long hair, brown skin with the fat ass. Sat beside me, used to laugh at mad jokes. The teacher always got mad so we passed notesâ - Wet Dreamz by J. Cole
how the planet person feels about the 3rd house person: the saturn person will help ground the 3rd house personâs more distracted mind. this is very much a student-teacher dynamic, they will help teach each other new perspectives. the saturn person may get frustrated at times with the 3rd house person as they are like a wise mentor to them, but regardless they will be motivated to push them to their best selves.
how the 3rd house person feels about the planet person: the 3rd house person will be challenged by the saturn person to really focus on what matters to them. there may be an air of seriousness & maturity to their conversations, they will see the saturn person as a sort of teacher. if they can push pass the sometimes rigid and sternness of this dynamic, they can really learn & grow exponentially thanks to the saturn personâs influence.
**conversation starters between the two of you: self-growth, best study techniques, how to work past mental blocks, & your favorite fields of interest
đ§ Uranus in the 3rd House: âI think about your genius.â
âThis is what the world is for. Making electricity. You can feel it in your mind. Oh, you can do it all the time. Plug it in, change the world. You are my electric girlâ - Electric Feel by MGMT
how the planet person feels about the 3rd house person: their connection is intellectually stimulating for both of them, the uranus person may feel excited when their around the 3rd house person. this is a great partnership to experiment with radical ideas & look at the world from a different perspective. the 3rd house person may inspire the uranus person to use their intellect to create a book or class to share their unique thoughts.
how the 3rd house person feels about the planet person: the 3rd house person may quite literally feel âelectrifiedâ around the uranus person. the uranus person may introduce the 3rd house person to unconventional topics such as metaphysical ideas, conspiracy theories, & various sciences. this connection can give the 3rd house person the confidence to be daring & express their unique thoughts.
**conversation starters between to the two of you: conspiracy theories, global reform, how to change outdated mindsets, & the latest technologies
đ§ Neptune in the 3rd House: âI think about you in daydreams.â
â'Cause you are my universe, my everything, my sunset. You still give me butterflies. My lullaby, you are. Everything I wantedâ - Universe by Thuy
how the planet person feels about the 3rd house person: the neptune person person will find a channel for their inner imagination due to the influence of the 3rd house person. this connection will combine the dreaminess of intuition within their day to day life, their mind will explore spiritual worlds. the 3rd house person may be a sort of muse for the neptune person.
how the 3rd house person feels about the planet person: with the neptune person around, the 3rd house person feels deeply connected to the spiritual realm. if the 3rd house person is very logical by nature, the neptune person will remind them of the unseen world & that some things cannot be explained rationally. creativity is strong in this combination.
**conversation starters between to the two of you: metaphysical theories, your favorite creative outlet, the spiritual world, & how to be more compassionate in life
đ§ Pluto in the 3rd House: âI think about your depth.â
âShe said, âWhat if I dive deep? Will you come in after me? Would you share your flaws with me? Let me knowâ. I told her, âThinking is all wrong. Love will happen when it wants. I know it hurts sometimes, but don't let it go" - Honesty by Pink Sweat$
how the planet person feels about the 3rd house person: the pluto person will find the 3rd house personâs mind to be charming & intense, their depth will draw the pluto person in like a moth to a flame. there is a lot of potential in this connection for mental transformation & breaking old toxic thought patterns. the pluto person will respect the 3rd house personâs intellectual depth & my want to collaborate with them on creative work.
how the 3rd house person feels about the planet person: the 3rd house person will find the pluto person to be powerful & persuasive with their words. this connection has tremendous possibility to show the 3rd house person their own inner psychology & where they need to let go of toxic beliefs. there may be some pain in the growth, but the outcome holds significant potential for the 3rd house person to transform their mind like a butterfly.
**conversation starters between the two of you: your inner selves, traumas to be healed, in-depth information on their favorite topic, & how you can transform your mindset for the best
-A.A.
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Boyfriend!Nicholas seems to value genuine connections and would likely be the kind of boyfriend who truly listens. Heâd remember the small things, your favorite coffee order, a random story you told, or a passing comment about something you love. Whether youâre having a tough day or celebrating a big achievement, he'd be right there with you, offering his full attention.
Boyfriend!Nicholas seems like he enjoys trying new things and living in the moment. Heâd want to plan spontaneous weekend getaways or try out new activities together, from hiking to going to concerts. Heâd probably be open to exploring both your interests and his, making life feel exciting and unpredictable.
While he may come across as laid back in real life, I imagine Boyfriend!Nicholas as a boyfriend would have a romantic side. Heâd surprise you with handwritten notes, flowers "just because," or plan cozy nights where you can binge watch your favorite shows together. The little gestures would mean a lot to him.
Despite his growing fame, he seems pretty grounded and humble. In a relationship, heâd value honesty and clear communication. Boyfriend!Nicholas wouldnât play games or leave you guessing how he feels; instead, heâd be direct but kind, always working to build a strong foundation of trust.
Boyfriend!Nicholas would be the type of boyfriend who encourages you to chase your dreams and passions. Whether it's supporting your career goals, a personal project, or a hobby, heâd be your biggest cheerleader, helping you stay motivated and believing in you when you doubt yourself.
Boyfriend!Nicholas strikes me as someone who balances being serious and having fun. There would be deep, late night conversations about life and what you both want out of it, but there would also be moments where he just makes you laugh, doing silly impressions or cracking inside jokes.
While not overbearing, Boyfriend!Nicholas would be protective of you in a thoughtful way. Heâd be the kind of boyfriend who makes sure you feel safe and respected, standing up for you if needed but never smothering you.
Beyond emotional support, Boyfriend!Nicholas would value meaningful conversations. Heâd enjoy discussing books, films, and philosophies that provoke deep thought. Heâd ask about your perspectives on things, showing genuine interest in how you see the world. Whether it's debating a plot twist in a show or discussing current events, your intellectual bond would be just as strong as your emotional one.
Boyfriend!Nicholas would definitely have a playful side, teasing you in a lighthearted, affectionate way. Heâd make silly bets or jokingly challenge you to random games, like seeing who can cook the best meal or whoâs better at a particular sport. Heâd probably have a mischievous smile when heâs trying to get you to laugh, making the relationship feel lively and fun.
Boyfriend!Nicholas seems like someone who deeply values family. Heâd be the kind of boyfriend whoâs excited for you to meet his family and would take an active interest in getting to know yours. He'd likely enjoy spending time at family gatherings and might even get involved in family traditions, showing respect for whatâs important to you.
Boyfriend!Nicholas might express his love through acts of service. Whether itâs picking up your favorite snacks after a long day, helping with something you're stressed about, or offering to take care of a task youâve been dreading, heâd find small ways to make your life easier. His kindness would often show up in practical ways.
Because Boyfriend!Nicholas is artistic and has a background in acting, heâd probably enjoy adding a creative flair to the relationship. Maybe heâd write you a poem, record a cute video message when youâre apart, or plan a surprise date thatâs inspired by a favorite movie or shared memory. His creativity would keep the relationship exciting and unpredictable.
Boyfriend!Nicholas would be the kind of boyfriend who fully supports your independence. Heâd encourage you to take time for yourself and pursue your own interests and friendships outside of the relationship. Heâd understand the importance of maintaining individuality while also building something strong together, never wanting to make you feel smothered or confined.
Boyfriend!Nicholas would likely approach conflict with a calm and patient demeanor. If you ever argued, heâd want to talk things through thoughtfully rather than reacting impulsively. Heâd make sure that both sides are heard and understood, always striving for a resolution that makes you both feel good about the relationship.
Being someone who seems focused on self care, heâd probably be a positive influence when it comes to living a healthy lifestyle. Boyfriend!Nicholas wouldnât push it on you but might encourage activities like working out together, eating well, or practicing mindfulness. Heâd want you to feel good, physically and mentally, and would be there to support you in that journey.
Though Boyfriend!Nicholas might have a bit of an adventurous streak, suggesting hikes, spontaneous road trips, or trying out new experiences, heâd also have a soft, homebody side. Heâd enjoy the balance of adventure and quiet nights in, where you could unwind together with a good movie or book, showing that he doesnât always need excitement to feel connected.
Boyfriend!Nicholas would likely be someone who fully respects and supports your ambitions. Heâd understand if you have busy schedules or demanding projects, and heâd never want to hold you back. In fact, heâd be there to remind you of your strengths when you feel uncertain and would always celebrate your achievements as if they were his own.
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Unseen Scars || Aaron Hotchner
Summary: Request - hiyaa, i was hoping you were willing to write another Hotch x bau!reader. Maybe one where reader is in an unhappy/ toxic relationship, maybe abvsive even. And Hotch helps reader learn that what her significant other is doing is wrong, and he even helps reader get out of the absive relationship. And somewhere along the way he says something along the lines of âi can love you so much better than themâ.
A/N: Not sure if I love this one. Kinda tough to write. Let me know your thoughts below.
Pairing: Aaron Hotchner x Female Reader,
Word Count: 4.2k
TW: Abuse (physical and mental), bruises, scars, talks of hitting, general CM triggers
You've been working alongside Aaron Hotchner for nearly a decade. Each year adding layers to a complex yet unspoken bond. As senior agents in the BAU you've shared long nights on cases. Him as your superior but respecting you as his equal. Both supported each other through victories and losses. You had the kind of mutual respect that's created from high-stress environments. Through it all there's always been an underlying current of attraction between you two. Subtle yet undeniable no matter how hard you tried to fight it.
When Hotch was married to Haley he was completely off-limits. It was a boundary youâd never dram of crossing. One you respected without question even as your friendship deepened. Then tragedy struck with Haley's death and while you were there to support him your own life was tangled in a serious relationship. By the time your relationship crumbled Hotch had started seeing Beth. And like the cruel joke life was, timing kept you apart once again.
Eventually, that relationship too ended for Hotch. But by then you had drifted into the arms of someone new. Someone the whole team disliked from the start. You brought him to a team dinner once and it was enough to know that no one approved even though they wouldnât outright say it. He was arrogant, dismissive, and rubbed everyone the wrong way. But you were in a vulnerable place feeling lonely and somewhat unlovable after your string of failed relationships. He was there though. He was persistent and in a weak moment that felt like enough.
Despite the obvious red flags, you clung to the relationship out of a misplaced sense of necessity. Youâd convinced yourself that any attention was better than the loneliness that echoed too loudly in the corners of your life. Yet, as the months wore on the relationship took a darker turn. It left you isolated not just from your friends and colleagues but from your own sense of self. You were slowly losing yourself to a man who hardly meant a thing to you.
You texted Hotch early in the morning. Your fingers hesitating over the keyboard before you sent a simple message: Running late today, see you by midday. The message feels sterile, too impersonal for the turmoil churning inside you. But you can't afford to say more. Not when every moment feels like a step through a minefield.
It's nearly noon when you finally push through the front doors of the BAU office with your mind rehearsing the excuses you might need. The bruise hidden beneath your scarf isn't just a reminder of last night's horror. It's a stark, physical manifestation of a boundary cruelly crossed. It wasnât the first time heâd laid hands on you, but it was the first time it left a mark visible enough to demand a story. A story you hadn't yet managed to straighten out in your head. And if anybody was going to catch you in a lie it was Aaron Hotchner.
As you enter the building the buzz of the office feels both alien and overly familiar, a stark contrast to the silence youâd left behind at your apartment. You try to blend into the activity, nodding along to conversations you barely hear, laughing at jokes that donât reach your eyes. You keep your posture deliberately casual, avoiding any movement that might shift your scarf and expose the truth lying so treacherously close to the surface.
From his office Hotch had been subtly watching your delayed arrival and your interactions with the team. His concern deepens with each forced smile and carefully measured laugh you muster. He's always respected your privacy. But today the instincts honed by years of profiling scream that something is terribly wrong with you. When the office finally starts to empty for the day, leaving behind the quiet hum of machines and the soft rustling of papers, he sees his chance to talk to you.
"Could I speak with you for a moment before you head home?" Hotchâs invitation comes just as youâre preparing to escape into the welcome anonymity of the evening. His voice is gentle. But thereâs an undercurrent of urgency that stops you in your tracks. Reluctantly, you nod you head and followed him into the sanctuary of his office. The door closed softly behind you leaving you trapped with the one person who could unravel you with a simple look.
Inside his office the usual barriers of rank and protocol seem to fall away as he leans against his desk. His eyes were not just those of a supervisor, but of a friendâa protector. "Iâve noticed youâve been different lately," he begins. His tone soft but firm. "You said you were running late today⌠but I can't help feeling thereâs something more to it." His eyes briefly scan the edge of your scarf before meeting yours with a piercing intensity. "If there's anything you need to talk about, I'm here."
In that moment with the weight of his gaze and the sincerity in his voice the carefully constructed excuses crumble. The reality of your situation, so starkly isolated by his understanding, begins to seep through the cracks of your facade and you feel the first real breath of relief mixed with fear as you consider confiding the truth.
Hotch's eyes were filled with a deep, unmistakable concern. They stay locked on yours as he waits for your response. You feel the weight of his gaze, heavy with unspoken questions and worry. For a brief moment you consider continuing the charade. Brush off his concerns with a practiced smile and a reassurance that you're just tired, overstressed from the workload.
"Really, Hotch, Iâm fine," you say. Your voice was steady at first but even as the words leave your lips they sound hollow. Unconvincing even to your own ears. His expression doesnât waver. Those knowing eyes donât buy the half-hearted lie.
"Are you sure?" he presses. His tone soft yet insistent. "Because if somethingâor someoneâis hurting you, I want to help." He gave you that look. The one that he knew would break you down. The one that he used only when necessary.
You shake your head though. A simple reflex to protect your precarious world. But your facade is cracking, fissures widening under his gentle scrutiny. "Itâs nothing, really. Just been a bit clumsy lately," you attempt to deflect again. But your voice wavers, betraying the turmoil inside.
Hotch's brow furrows slightly. His concern only deepening as he notices the strain behind your words. When you turn away, unable to meet his probing gaze any longer, a tear escapes trailing down your cheek. Your shoulders tremble with barely suppressed sobs. It was that damn look that had you falling apart. Who knew he could do that to you?
He doesnât say anything for a heartbeat, allowing the silence to settle around you, heavy and expectant. With careful, measured steps, he closes the distance between you. You sense him nearby. His presence a comforting shadow in your moment of vulnerability.
âHey,â Hotchâs voice is a soft whisper now. When he gently places a hand on your shoulder, itâs an offer, not a demand. You don't pull away and thatâs all the confirmation he needs. With tender caution he pulls you into a hug. His arms offering safety, a haven from the storm youâve been weathering alone. The warmth and solidity of him is grounding and as you lean into his embrace, the dam breaks. Tears were streaming freely now.
He doesnât rush you nor does he bombard you with questions. He simply holds you, steady and strong, as you let the first wave of relief and acknowledged pain wash over you.
As Hotch's arms encircle you in a gentle embrace a rush of emotions overwhelms you each one more turbulent than the last. Instead of relief a sharp panic claws its way up your chest. The intimacy of the moment, the closeness, it all becomes too much. Your breathing becomes shallow, rapid, as if you can't get enough ai. Your heart pounds against your ribcage, threatening to burst.
"Hotch, IâI can't," you stammer. Your voice choked with rising fear. The room feels as if it's closing in. Each wall inching closer, trapping you in this raw, exposed moment.
He senses the shift immediately with his hold loosening just enough to let you breathe, but he doesnât let go knowing you need a tether to the present. "Hey, look at me," Hotch says, his voice a calm, steady anchor in the storm of your panic. You barely manage to lift your eyes to his as you were caught in the whirlwind of your emotions.
"Take a deep breath with me, okay?" he guides gently. "In... and out," he continues, his own breaths exaggerated to model a slow, calming rhythm. His eyes are soft, patient, holding yours with a steadiness that feels both terrifying and comforting.
You try to follow as your first attempt is shaky and uneven. But Hotch is there. His presence a constant reassurance. "Thatâs it, just breathe. In... and out," he repeats with his voice grounding you in the moment. Slowly, the frantic pace of your heart begins to slow. The crushing weight in your chest easing as you synchronize your breathing with his.
"You're safe here with me," Hotch whispers to you. Each word carefully chosen to fortify the fragile peace you're beginning to feel. "Nothing is going to happen to you. Iâve got you. I promise." And you knew that it was indeed a promise. Heâd never let anything happen to you if he could stop it.
His reassurances wash over you. His voice was a soothing balm to the raw edges of your panic. Gradually your fear subsides and is replaced by a weary relief. As your breathing evens out Hotchâs arms remain a gentle, unyielding presence around you. In this quiet space with the security of his embrace shielding you from the world outside you finally allow yourself to feel the full weight of your vulnerabilityâand the strength of the trust you have in him.
The panic attack recedes like a tide going out. It left you drained but inexplicably more grounded than before. Hotch holds you a little while longer making sure you're completely calm before he speaks again. "Youâre not alone in this," he assures you as his tone is imbued with an earnestness that makes you believe him. That there might be a way out of the darkness.
As the last of your tears dry Hotch steps back slightly giving you space but keeping his presence comforting and solid. He ushers you to sit without words before pulling up a chair close to yours. His demeanor still radiating calm and concern. You notice his jaw tighten for a moment, a silent tell to his anger at seeing you hurting so openly.
As you finally voice the painful truth, "He's been hurting me, Hotch," the words echo starkly in the quiet office. Saying it aloud makes it all too real. A wave of embarrassment washes over you. Your gaze drops to your hands, fidgeting with the ends of the scarf. You can't bear to meet his eyes as you were afraid of what you might see thereâpity, shock, or worse, disbelief.
Your fingers tremble as you slowly unwrap the scarf from around your neck, exposing the harsh evidence of your partner's violence. The bruises are stark against your skin. A palette of black and blue that makes your stomach churn. When Hotch sucks in a breath, a sound of sharp distress, you flinch, the sound bringing home the reality of your exposure.
"I'm so sorry," Hotch breathes out. His voice thick with emotion. You still can't look at him being too overwhelmed by a mix of shame and the relief of finally sharing your burden. The room suddenly feels too small. The air too thick with the weight of your confessed reality.
"You donât have to go through this alone anymore," Hotch continues. His voice a steady, grounding force in the chaos of your emotions. Despite his words a knot of anxiety tightens in your chest. The vulnerability of the moment making you acutely uncomfortable.
Hotch's chair scrapes softly against the floor as he moves slightly closer. "I'm here, and we'll do whatever it takes to ensure he can't hurt you again," he says with a resolve that is both reassuring and overwhelming. You finally risk a glance up at him, meeting his gaze. Instead of the judgment you feared, you find only deep concern and a protective firmness. You shouldnât have expected any less than that from him.
Seeing your hesitation and discomfort, Hotch reaches out slowly, giving you time to withdraw if you choose. When his hand gently takes yours, it's a lifeline, solid and warm. "We'll figure this out together," he assures you. His voice low and calm. "Letâs focus on what you need right now."
Tears well up in your eyes as you meet his steady gaze. Your fear of your partner bubbling to the surface. "I'm scared, Hotch," you whisper, your voice breaking with the weight of your admission. "I'm afraid of what he might do if I leave. He could do something drastic..." The possibility hangs heavily between you. A dark cloud of fear.
Hotch squeezes your hand gently. His touch reassuring as it always is. "We'll take every precaution," he promises with his tone imbued with determination. "You're not alone in this. We have resources and procedures to protect you. Trust me Y/N. You're safe."
His words were spoken with such a conviction that slowly penetrate the fog of your fear. The immediate comfort of knowing you're not alone, bolstered by Hotch's unwavering support, helps to steady the tumult inside you. The future may remain uncertain but with Hotch by your side you feel a spark of hope. A hope that perhaps you can break free from the shadows and rebuild your life once again.
The conversation with Hotch stretches late into the evening as a mix of detailed planning and moments of quiet support. Once the office empties and the building quiets Hotch makes a decision. "Why don't you stay with me tonight?" he suggests gently. "It's late and I'd feel better knowing you're safe." You agree, feeling a mix of gratitude and anxiety about the imposition. Hotch reassures you it's no trouble. Together you leave the dimly lit office, stepping into the cool night air that seems to offer a breath of tentative freedom.
The drive to his home is quiet, filled with the soft hum of the car and the distant glow of streetlights. Upon arriving, Hotch introduces you to his home with a warmth that's both inviting and respectful of your space. He shows you to the guest room making sure you have everything you need before he leaves. "Make yourself at home," he says. "We'll figure out the next steps in the morning." You give a grateful nod before heading to bed yourself. It didnât take long for you to fall asleep after your head hit the pillow. Youâd truly never felt safer than you had right then.
The next morning as you make your way to the kitchen, Jack spots you and his face instantly lights up. "You're here!" he exclaims before running towards you with arms wide open. You kneel down just in time to catch him as he launches into a big hug. His enthusiasm bringing a genuine smile to your face. "I missed you!" he chirps, and you can't help but laugh, the sound mingling with his giggles.
Hotch watched the interaction from the doorway and smiles warmly but also feels a pang of concern given your recent ordeal. As Jack wraps his arms around you, Hotch steps forward and gently places a hand on his son's shoulder. "Be careful, buddy," he says softly, his voice tinged with protective caution. "She's a little hurt."
Jackâs expression immediately shifts to one of concern as he pulls back slightly. His bright eyes scanning your face with a mix of confusion and worry. "Did I hurt you more?" he asks, his voice small, his usual cheer replaced by a serious, almost adult-like concern.
You shake your head quickly making sure to offer him a reassuring smile. "No, Jack, you didnât hurt me at all," you explain while ruffling his hair gently. "I'm just a little sore, thatâs all. Your hug is actually just what I needed."
Relieved but still slightly cautious, Jack nods and gives you a gentler, more measured hug this time. Hotch watches this exchange. His own heart swelling with mixed emotionsâgratitude for the innocent care Jack shows and a renewed resolve to ensure that both you and his son are kept safe from any harm.
Later as Jack plays outside, Hotch joins you on the porch with a thoughtful expression on his face. He watches his son for a moment before turning to you. His gaze serious yet open. "This morning, seeing you with Jack⌠the way he lights up around you. It reminded me of something important I've been meaning to share," he chooses his words carefully as he speaks to you.
Your gaze lets him know he can continue. "I ended things with Beth a few months ago," he reveals letting the statement hang in the air for a moment to gauge your reaction. "It was the right decision. My heart wasn't fully in it, and I realized I needed to be honest with myself about my feelings."
You're taken aback. Your surprise evident. "Oh, I... I had no idea. She seemed so lovely," you reply trying to mask your confusion. Beth had always appeared perfect for him. She seemed kind, attentive, and good with Jack.
Hotch nods, acknowledging your point. "She was lovely," he admits, "but she wasn't what I was looking for. Not what Jack needed either." His gaze drifts towards his son, watching him play with a gentle smile.
He then turns back to you with a thoughtful expression. "We needed someone who could really be a part of our lives, understand us. Someone who already fits so seamlessly into our little world," he adds. His eyes held yours for a moment longer than necessary, hinting at deeper layers to his words.
The implication of his statement hangs between you, stirring a mix of emotions between the both of you. His revelation not only adds a new dimension to your understanding of his current situation but also subtly places you at the center of his thoughts. The gentle hint that you might be the answer they needed feels both overwhelming and heartening.
"I just want you to know that I'm here for you, especially now," Hotch continues. His tone sincere. "It's been a tough time and you shouldn't have to go through it alone. Whatever support you need. I'm here."
As you absorb his words, a sense of safety envelops you coupled with a budding realization of the importance of your presence in his life. Not just as a colleague but potentially something more. The careful balance he maintains in offering support while subtly revealing his personal reflections provides a comforting stability as you navigate the complex emotions of your current situation.
Several days had passed since you sought refuge at Hotch's home after breaking things off with your ex. Each day Hotch gently suggests reasons for you to extend your stay. His concern palpable. "Just until weâre sure youâre safe," he reassures you, but his eyes betray a deeper plea for you to remain longer.
One evening after Jack is safely tucked into bed Hotch opens a bottle of wine and pours two glasses. He hands you one with a soft smile that doesn't quite mask his underlying nervousness. "Thought we could use this," he says as he joins you on the couch. The house is quiet, the subtle buzz of the evening creating a cocoon of calm around you.
As you sip the rich wine, the warmth it brings is matched only by the comfort of the familiar space. Hotch breaks the silence first, his voice low and laden with unspoken thoughts. "Iâve been doing a lot of thinking," he starts. Hesitating as he chooses his words carefully. "About whatâs important... about what I want for the people I care about."
He pauses before taking a deep breath before meeting your gaze with an intensity that makes your heart skip a beat. "I want you to stay here a little longer. Not just for safety but because it feels right having you here. These days with you and Jack... theyâve felt more like home than anything I've known in a long time."
The atmosphere shifts charged with an emotion thatâs both tender and terrifying. Hotch continues with his voice softening, "I think we could be good for each other⌠if you're willing to see where this might go."
Moved by his candidness and the earnestness in his eyes you find yourself nodding slightly. Your own emotions mirrored in his expression. "I've felt it too," you whisper. "Itâs easy with you. With Jack.."
Hotch reaches out, his hand covering yours. His touch warm and sure. "I can love you so much better than he ever did," he says with a confidence you hadnât heard from him. His voice deep and resolute. Then, taking another deep breath, he adds, "I love you. I love you with everything in me. More than I ever thought possible."
His confession, raw and powerful, cuts through the last of your reservations. Tears well up in your eyes as you take in the depth of his feelings laid bare in the quiet of the night. This isn't just a moment of comfort. It's a turning point, a beginning of something profound and life-altering.
As you sit there, the night deepening around you, you lean into him with your head resting against his shoulder. "I love you too, Aaron," you admit to him. Your voice steady despite the whirlwind of emotions inside you. In the soft glow of the living room, you start to imagine a future that holds not just safety, but a shared life filled with love and understanding.
Two years have woven themselves seamlessly into the fabric of your life with Hotch and Jack. What began as a sanctuary in times of turmoil has blossomed into a full, shared existence, each day deepening the bond between you all. The BAU team, integral to your journey, has watched this transformation and played a part in nurturing your collective happiness.
On a sun-drenched Saturday, Hotch has orchestrated a gathering under the guise of a simple spring barbecue at a picturesque local park. The team is there, along with Jack, whoâs energetically darting around with Rossi and Prentiss in a spirited game of soccer. Garcia is setting the mood with a carefully curated playlist while you and JJ are laughing over a shared joke by the picnic tables.
As the afternoon wanes with everyone sated by laughter and good food, Hotch taps his glass gently with a fork drawing eyes with the subtle, familiar command of his presence. The conversations taper off, leaving a blanket of anticipatory silence.
âIâve spent much of my life dedicated to understanding momentsâcapturing them before they slip away,â Hotch begins, his voice resonating with a rare tremor of vulnerability. He looks over at you, his eyes shimmering with unspoken words. âBut the moments Iâve cherished the most have been with all of youâmy team, my family. And especially with you,â he turns fully towards you, taking your hand in his.
Jack, picking up on the significance of the moment, quiets down and moves closer. His young face alight with curiosity and excitement. Hotchâs gaze softens as he kneels in front of you. A gesture that pulls at the heartstrings of everyone present.
âSince you entered our lives, youâve brought light into shadows I didnât even know existed. Youâve made a house feel like a home again, and youâve taught me that love isnât just a remnant of the past but a promise for the future,â he continues. His voice thick with emotion. From his pocket, he produces a small, velvet box, opening it to reveal a ring that captures the late afternoon sunlight.
âWill you marry me?â His words, simple yet profound, hang in the air.
Tears stream down your cheeks, joyous and unrestrained, as you nod emphatically. Words were lost in the swell of emotions. âYes, Aaron, yes!â
Jack jumps up, cheering, "She said yes!" His delight infectious bringing the team to erupt into their own cheers. Garcia captures every second, her lens fogging slightly with her own tears.
Spencer, who has been quietly observant, steps forward with a bottle of champagne. âTo new beginnings,â he says. His voice steady but emotional, reflecting his deep affection for both of you. He pops the cork, and as the champagne flows, so do the congratulations.
Morgan playfully nudges Hotch, while JJ, ever the emotional heart of the team, hugs you tightly, whispering, âHeâs never looked happier.â
You grin to one of your very own best friends. âIâve never been happier.â
As the evening unfolds with laughter and shared stories, the sense of family deepens. The park was bathed in the glow of sunset, feels like a snapshot of a new chapter. One filled with love and the quiet promise of forever. Your heart, full and overflowing, knows this is just the beginning.
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a night in the rain
i have such a fat crush on him but at the same time he looks terrifying đ
caught in a relentless storm, you are pursued by villains after witnessing their crimes. just when fear overwhelms you, deku appears, guiding you to safety in a hidden alcove. as rain pours around you, an intimate moment unfolds. you share your fears and discover deku's own vulnerabilities. amidst the chaos, a tender kiss solidifies your bond, promising to face the dangers ahead together.
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the sky was a dark canvas, painted with heavy clouds that rumbled ominously. the rain poured down in relentless sheets, turning the city streets into rivers. you hurried through the alleyways, your heart pounding in your chest, the sound of your footsteps masked by the constant drumming of raindrops.
you werenât alone. somewhere in the labyrinthine network of the cityâs underbelly, a group of villains was on your trail. you had stumbled upon their illegal activities, and now they were hunting you. fear gnawed at you, but you kept moving, hoping to find a place to hide until they gave up the chase.
as you rounded a corner, you collided with a figure dressed in dark, rain-soaked clothes. strong arms wrapped around you, steadying you before you could fall.
âitâs okay. iâve got you,â a familiar voice whispered, cutting through the storm.
you looked up into the intense green eyes of deku. relief flooded through you, mingling with the rain on your cheeks.
âtheyâre after me,â you gasped, clinging to him.
âi know,â he said, his voice calm and reassuring despite the chaos around you. âwe need to find a place to hide.â
with a firm grip on your hand, deku led you through a series of twisting alleys. his knowledge of the cityâs hidden paths was impressive, and soon you found yourselves in a small, covered alcove, shielded from the worst of the rain.
you leaned against the wall, catching your breath. deku stood close, his presence a comforting shield against the fear that had gripped you.
âare you hurt?â he asked, his eyes scanning you for injuries.
you shook your head. âno, just scared. thank you for finding me.â
he smiled, a brief, warm flash that lit up his features. âi told you iâd always protect you.â
the rain continued to pour outside your little refuge, creating a cocoon of sound that seemed to isolate you from the rest of the world. you could see the concern in dekuâs eyes, the way his brows knit together as he looked at you. despite the danger, there was something comforting about being here with him, sharing this moment.
âwhy do you do this, deku?â you asked softly. âwhy risk your life every night?â
he glanced away, the rain casting shadows on his face. âbecause someone has to. the heroes canât be everywhere, and there are people who need help.. people like you.â
you reached out, touching his arm. âbut what about you? who looks out for you?â
he looked back at you, and for a moment, you saw the vulnerability behind the mask of the vigilante. âi guess⌠i just hope that someone will.â
the air between you was charged with unspoken words. the rain created a barrier to the outside world, and in this small space, it felt like you were the only two people that existed. you took a step closer, your hand sliding down his arm to entwine with his fingers.
âmaybe⌠maybe i can be that someone,â you whispered.
dekuâs eyes widened slightly, his breath hitching. he looked at you, really looked at you, as if seeing you for the first time. then, slowly, he lifted his free hand to cup your cheek, his touch gentle and hesitant.
ây/nâŚâ he murmured, your name a soft plea on his lips.
you leaned into his touch, your heart beating in tandem with the rhythm of the rain. time seemed to stand still as you gazed into his eyes, seeing the emotions swirling within the fear, hope, and something deeper, something that mirrored your own feelings.
without thinking, you closed the distance between you, your lips meeting his in a kiss that was both tender and desperate. the rain outside seemed to intensify, as if reflecting the storm of emotions within you. deku responded, his kiss filled with a longing that matched your own, his arms wrapping around you to pull you closer.
in that moment, under the cover of rain and shadows, you found a connection that transcended the chaos of the world outside. for a brief, stolen moment, you were not a hunted witness and a vigilante, just two souls seeking solace in each other.
when you finally pulled away, breathless and trembling, deku rested his forehead against yours, his eyes closed as if savoring the contact.
âweâll get through this,â he whispered, his voice filled with determination. âtogether.â
you nodded, feeling a renewed sense of strength and hope. âtogether.â
as the rain continued to fall, you knew that whatever challenges lay ahead, you would face them side by side, finding solace and strength in each otherâs embrace.
#anime#mha#mha x reader#mha izuku#bnha#bnha x reader#izuku midoriya#izuku midoriya x reader#izuku x reader#deku#deku x reader#faithfulren
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Hey itâs the anon that had the nightmares. Headcanons about dealing with nightmares would be absolutely amazing if youâre up for it, thank you so much. You truly have no idea how much youâve helped me đĽş
Of course dear!!! Here you go!!! (sorry this took so long sweetheart)
Edit: This ask has been sitting in my drafts for months and I am so sorry I didn't post it until now. Writers block and general insecurity does crazy things to me.
How the Bat Boys would help you with your nightmares!
Rhysand
Okay, the thing about Rhys is that I think he remains fully aware of your presence at all times, even in his sleep. He can feel you next to him, your body pressed against his, your heart beat thumping at his side, the weight of your head on his shoulder, he can feel it.
He also, is very in tune with your emotional state. Maybe it has to due with your mating bond, but tbh, I think his love for you has brought him a number of powers that allows for the deepest sort of connection to you. He can feel the emotions that you feel. It can go as far as Rhys feeling the roof of his mouth ache when you burn your mouth from drinking too hot tea, it can go as far as him feeling like someone has poked him hard when he is entirely alone in his office (when it is Cass who is poking at you, whining at you to share your summer imported mandarain oranges with him) and if Rhys really sits on it, he can also feel your mixed emotions of amusement and teasing towards Cass in that moment.
So I think that if you were having a nightmare, Rhysand would know. He would feel your heart racing from fear, it would make his own stutter. He would feel the panic pumping through your veins, and it would nearly send him into a frenzy.
Rhys would be awake, shushing your tired whines, and peppering the softest kisses all over your face to slowly ease your mind. The high lord of night would absolutely slip into your mind like butter, easing all the fired up neurons that have built up from your nightmare, slowly detangling the knots of emotion twisted inside your mind without waking you. He would pull you impossibly close, his heart beating against yours, his hands tangled in your hair, rubbing at your scalp, and naturally, you tuck your forehead into his neck, a quiet sigh leaving your once quivering lips.
Your nightmare would have dissolved without your knowledge, and you would be lulled into a dreamless sleep with your mate holding you close, his warm cheek resting on your head with one hand resting at the back of your neck and the other hand stroking up your spine, protecting you from anything and everything, even your own mind. You would wake up without any memories of the nightmare, and if I am being honest, Rhysand wouldn't want to remind you of it either, so he keeps this part of his duty towards you to himself.
Cassian
I am not gonna lie, this male is a heavy sleeper. He is dead to the world once his head hits the pillow. And he freaking snores too. Actually, he is famous for how loud he snores. Cassian can be heard snoring from across the house of wind. And initially, it was really hard for you to fall asleep to. In fact, you would force Cass to stay awake until you fell asleep because you just could not with his snoring.
And now?? Now this fucking male has you unable to fall asleep without his snoring. You need his heated, and I mean this male is a literal furnace, nearly naked body beneath you, with his burly arms wrapped tight around your waist, with your head pressed against his male tits, your legs tangled with his, in order to fall asleep. The snoring has become its own sort of white noise to you, and without it?? You will stay up the entire night and be extremely grumpy the next morning, often resulting in the back of Rhysand's head getting smacked for his taunting. (if Cass is out on a mission for longer than a day or two, Rhys actively avoids you for fear that you will end up choking him for sending his general away. Not that that has ever happened before.... nope... never................)
So. On good nights, you are usually snoozing it away with your hunk of a male, and you end up waking up to a lovely "surprise" poking at your tummy and a male who is too turned on by you to be ashamed in the slightest.
On bad nights though, on nights where you worry about Cassian, on nights where all of your fear of losing your loving mate culminates into nightmares, don't ever doubt that Cass wouldn't be there for you. Cassian is the general of the night court of a reason. He, like Rhys and Az, has been trained, for centuries, to be aware of his surroundings, even in his sleep. So while he might sleep heavy, his body are attuned to taking note of his environment, and that means, his body and his bond is focused on you throughout the night.
So he does wake up to you tensing, to your quickened breathing, to your restlessness, immediately too. His eyes would snap open, with his arm around your waist firm and tight, his other automatically reaching for the dagger he has hidden under his pillow, looking out for any signs of immediate danger to you. Not to himself. To you. His instinct does not edge towards self preservation. It hasn't since he met you. His instinct is to protect you at all costs.
Once he realizes that there isn't any physical threat that is causing your distress, his attention goes back to you, an ache burrowing itself in his chest as he notices your hand is clenching into a fist against him, as he notices your face is screwing up in fear, as he notices your body shaking. His mouth drys at the sight of you looking so scared, and he wouldn't be able to help himself.
Cass would murmur quiet reassurances, rubbing at the space between your shoulder blades and planting kisses onto your furrowed brows, "wake up sweetheart, s'jus a nightmare" and "shhh, I got you love, I'm here" and "s'okay baby, you're fine" and "c'mon, that's it, that's my girl, wake up f'me beauty"
When you wake with a start, he hushes your cries and pulls you in even closer. He would turn you both onto your sides, your front melding against his with his arm tucked under your head and around your hip with his leathery paper thin wings shield you both from the outside world. It's this warm cocoon that he forms around you where you spend the rest of the night and into the early morning.
At first, you would apologize for waking him up so early, knowing that he has training in the morning with Az and the others, but he dismisses that immediately, stressing to you that his only concern, at this time and forever, is you. He would stay awake with you, attentively listening to your ramblings about your nightmare, playing with the ends of your hair while you tell him all your secret fears. And he would kiss you and promise to protect you no matter what, and he would promise to keep you safe. Eventually, you would end up falling asleep, the closeness of your mate, his gentle breathing, and the warmth he brings relaxing you enough to a dreamless rest. And Cass, the ever diligent and loving male, would stay awake for the rest of the morning, skipping out on training to watch over the love of his life and make sure that you don't have any other nightmares.
In the morning, after you wake up feeling rested, Cass would finally let you go, a soft kiss to your lips and a wink in goodbye, only to come back within ten minutes, bringing you some warm, fresh chai that he made for you with some oatmeal that you both share in bed together. You spend the rest of the day cuddled up with your mate with slow and sweet love making, hushed oaths to each other to protect one another, and long naps in between.
Azriel
Azriel is a completely attuned to you. And so are his shadows. He has one that you have noticed that constantly follows you around, that learns every single thing about you to report back to its master. And then there are a couple that you haven't noticed. Ones that stay hidden in the darkness with full intent to take care of anything that puts you in harms way. And it stays that way always, regardless of the timing.
So at night, when your heart rate jumps, your blood pumping through your veins, your eyes furrowing shut too tightly, the slightest bit of sweat breaking out on your skin, they are the first to notice. And they are the quick to notify their master about it, hurridely slithering to his ears to wake Az so he can help you.
Azriel would initially try to soothe you in your sleep, his heart aching at the thought of you being afraid of something he can't control. A quick command to his shadows has the curtains to your balcony eased apart, the light from the moon and stars beaming in through the large glass doors. His scarred hands would stroke at your cheeks ever so gently, your mating bond humming at the barely there touch. Az wouldn't hesitate to place his lips in the space between your brows, moving from one soft edge of your face to the next with small pepperings of kisses.
He would thumb at your edge of your jaw, the calloused tip of his finger reminding you in your sleep that he is there. That he didn't leave sometime in the night. That he would never leave. That he would always be there to protect you. To care for you. To love you. He knows that you have your own traumas that you deal with, and he wants you to feel in control of your problems. Nightmares... they make you feel out of control. And he is there to give the power right back to you.
Most nights, Azriel's simple touch is enough to soothe you. I'm ngl, it does stroke his pride a little (a lot) that he is able to calm his mate with just the touch of his hands. With something that he used to keep hidden behind his back when he talked to others, something that he would cover up from the shame of his past, something that he feared would one day lead to a disgusted look on your face. And on those nights that his touch is enough, once you are settled, he pulls you closer to him, tucking his arm around your waist and wrapping one of his large wings around both of your figures, burying his face into your neck so he can fall back asleep to the feel of your pulse against his skin.
On the nights where the nightmares are just too much, where you are too deep in the dream that you can't feel anything but the fear, Azriel will wake you. He loathes the thought of disturbing your sleep, he hates that you will most likely not feel rested in the morning, but his heart shatters into the tinest pieces when he can feel the end of your mating bond crying out for him in your sleep. So he lays a firm hand on your forehead, his other hand rubbing at your shoulder, tenderly shaking you awake: "wake up my love, it's alright," and "you're fine my sweet girl, I'm here," and "I promise I'll always be here my dove, now be a good girl for me an wake up"
He would hush you as you startle awake, the jolt of your body causing him to wrap his arms tightly around you with mumbled, "that's it, there's my starshine" and "s'okay moon, it was just a bad dream" and after a good long while of him calming you down, he would whisper into your hair with a final kiss to the top of your head, "c'mon love, let's get you something to drink."
Azriel wouldn't let you lift a finger or a toe for that matter. Male would take your comforter and wrap you up like a burrito and then carry you all the way down to the kitchen where he settles you onto the counter, sending you the most beautiful, tired smile while he makes you some chamomile tea. He would be slow in each of his steps, the small smile on his pretty lips never leaving his face as he feels your gaze watching his every movement. He adores doing things like this for you. He craves doting on you. He thinks you are his treasure. A gift from the mother herself. And he plans to make sure you feel that way, all the time, forever, until you and him only exist as stars in the night sky.
A/N: đŤđŤ 𼲠Sorry this was a bit repetitive, but I hope you liked it â¤ď¸â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
#rose rambles#rose answers#rhysand x reader#cassian x reader#azriel x reader#rhysand acotar#azriel acotar#cassian acotar#acotar#acotar fanfic#acotar fanfiction#acotar headcanons#rhysand headcaons#cassian headcanons#azriel headcanons#acotar fluff
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do you have some thoughts on how Grimmjows obsession with Ichigo is gonna turn out in AIEWAM later?
he is in my mental microwave again
Nobody, least of all Grimmjow, understands his obsession with Ichigo until they remember the other two souls that are almost irrationally obsessed with him.
I'm AEIWAM, Kon is a cat. Or at least, a mod soul possessing the taxidermy body of an orange tabby. But he's a lot more cat this time, as opposed to like. A random pervert.
Kon loves Ichigo. He loves how Ichigo's idea of quality time is sitting next to someone and doing an activity together and not talking. He loves how he can always bully his way into Ichigo's lap, or giving him A Little Cheese Treat. He's devoted to Ichigo. He'd die for him. He'd kill for Ichigo. He may have already done so, but don't tell him that.
Yoruichi also adores Ichigo. Something about his vibe feels like a natural bond. He's just pleasant to be around. Training Ichigo leaves Yoruichi with a sense of peace and fulfillment like nothing else. She'd kill for nearly anyone, but Ichigo? She'd live through the horrors for him.
Orihime is the first to realize it, when she's prisoner in Las Noches. Something about Grimmjow's mannerisms is strangely familiar... Then she hears the name of his resurrection and everything falls into place.
Ichigo is a Cat Person.
Of course Grimmjow is obsessed with him! Cats are naturally drawn to people they share a vibe with, and Ichigo has been attracting random strays to him for as long as she's known him. Orihime herself is technically one of them
Grimmjow is just a really big stupid cat, so naturally his attraction to Ichigo is also huge and stupid.
She uses this realization to her advantage immediately.
"Kon." She addresses the friend she managed to smuggle in with her. "I need you to keep Grimmjow distracted. Kind of indefinitely."
"Grimmjow? Tall, blunette and psychotic? That Grimmjow? I'd die for you but that's just stupid." Kon protests.
"Don't worry, you're uniquely suited for dealing with him!" She cheers. "The name of his resurrection is "Pantera"! He's just another Tom for you to put in place and you've been doing that since before he even had thumbs."
Kon blinks, the pieces suddenly falling into place.
"You're RIGHT!" He grins, claws flexing in anticipation. "I don't even need to be physically present to drive him to madness and break him! In fact, it most effective if he never sees me at all! Ohhh- this is gonna be fun..."
"You've got a plan then?" She asks.
"Yeah! Hand me that glass of water, I'm gonna start by pissing all over his stuff!"
#bleach#bleach fanfic#aeiwam#an elephant is warm and mushy#grimmjow jaggerjack#kon bleach#orihime inoue#ichigo kurosaki
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can you do something with ryan leonard. like best friend to lover. something with angst maybe because ryan or trader is seeing somebody else. with slight smut maybe. thank youuu!
YOU BELONG WITH ME - R. LEONARD
Ryan leonard x reader
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requested? yes
warnings: use of y/n. slight smut
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It was one of those brisk autumn days when the leaves crunched underfoot and the sky was a clear, piercing blue. The Boston College campus buzzed with activity, students rushing to classes, laughter echoing across the quad. Y/N made her way to Conte Forum, where the Eagles were set to have their afternoon practice. She pulled her jacket tighter against the chill, her mind racing as it always did when she was about to see Ryan Leonard.
Ryan and Y/N had been best friends since freshman year, a bond forged over late-night study sessions, endless coffee runs, and a mutual love for hockey. Ryan, with his boyish grin and effortless charm, was the star forward for the BC Eagles, while Y/N was pursuing a degree in sports medicine, often helping out the team with injuries and recovery.
Their friendship had always been easy, natural, and unforced. They shared everything, from their hopes and dreams to their fears and insecurities. But lately, things had begun to change. Y/N found herself drawn to Ryan in ways that went beyond friendship, her heart fluttering whenever he was near. She tried to push these feelings aside, convincing herself that it was just a phase, a crush that would eventually fade. But the more time she spent with Ryan, the stronger her feelings grew.
There was just one problem. Ryan was seeing someone.
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Practice was in full swing by the time Y/N arrived. She stood by the boards, watching as Ryan skated across the ice with a grace that never failed to take her breath away. He was completely in his element, the puck seemingly glued to his stick as he weaved in and out of his teammates. The coach barked orders, the sound echoing through the arena, but Ryan was focused, determined.
As practice wrapped up, Ryan skated over to where Y/N was standing. He flashed her a smile that made her heart skip a beat. "Hey, Y/N. What brings you here today?"
Y/N shrugged, trying to appear casual. "Just wanted to see my favorite hockey player in action. Plus, I have some new tape for your ankle. Thought you might need it."
Ryan's eyes lit up. "You're the best, you know that?" He hopped over the boards, landing lightly on his feet. "I could use a break anyway. Want to grab some coffee?"
"Sure," Y/N replied, her heart doing somersaults. "Coffee sounds great."
They made their way to the campus coffee shop, falling into an easy conversation about classes, upcoming games, and everything in between. But there was a tension simmering beneath the surface, an unspoken question that hung in the air.
"So," Ryan said, breaking the silence as they sat down with their drinks. "I wanted to tell you something."
Y/N's stomach twisted. She had a feeling she knew what was coming, but she forced herself to smile. "What's up?"
"It's about Jenna," Ryan began, referring to the girl he had been seeing for the past few months. "Things are starting to get serious between us."
Y/N felt a pang of jealousy but masked it with a nod. "That's great, Ryan. I'm happy for you."
Ryan studied her for a moment, his brow furrowing. "Are you sure? You don't seem that happy."
Y/N forced a laugh. "Of course, I'm happy. Why wouldn't I be?"
Ryan reached across the table, his hand covering hers. "Y/N, you're my best friend. I need you to be honest with me."
Y/N swallowed hard, the weight of her unspoken feelings pressing down on her. She opened her mouth to say something, anything, but the words caught in her throat. Instead, she squeezed his hand and forced another smile. "I'm fine, really."
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As the weeks went by, Y/N couldn't help but notice how Jenna seemed to be everywhere she used to be. It started smallâlittle things like seeing Ryan and Jenna studying together at the library, where she and Ryan used to spend countless hours. But it grew more significant, and with each passing day, Y/N felt her presence in Ryan's life being overshadowed by Jenna.
One afternoon, Y/N made her way to Conte Forum, her usual spot to catch Ryan after practice. But instead of finding him alone or with his teammates, she saw Jenna sitting in the stands, waving and smiling as Ryan skated over to her. Y/N's stomach twisted, a familiar pang of jealousy gnawing at her insides. She forced a smile and waved back, but her heart wasn't in it.
"Hey, Y/N!" Ryan called out, his face lighting up when he saw her. "Come join us!"
Y/N walked over, trying to hide the unease that threatened to overwhelm her. "Hey, guys. How was practice?"
"Great, but exhausting," Ryan replied, taking a seat next to Jenna and draping an arm around her shoulders. "Jenna brought me some snacks to refuel."
Y/N's smile wavered. "That's nice of you, Jenna."
Jenna beamed, leaning into Ryan. "I know how hard he works. Just wanted to show my support."
Y/N nodded, feeling like an outsider in a space that used to feel like home. "Well, that's great. I just came to drop off the new tape for your ankle, Ryan."
"You're a lifesaver, Y/N," Ryan said, standing up to give her a quick hug. But as he pulled away, his attention immediately shifted back to Jenna.
"Thanks, Y/N," Jenna said, her smile polite but distant. "We'll see you later, okay?"
Y/N nodded, her throat tight. "Yeah, sure. See you guys later."
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The pattern continued. Y/N found herself increasingly excluded from the moments she had once cherished with Ryan. Jenna was there at every turnâat their favorite coffee shop, at study sessions, even at the casual hangouts with the team. Y/N tried to tell herself that it was natural for Ryan to spend more time with his girlfriend, but the jealousy gnawed at her, a constant reminder of what she was losing.
One evening, as Y/N was heading to the library, she saw Ryan and Jenna sitting in the corner booth that had always been her and Ryan's spot. They were laughing, their heads close together, and Y/N felt a sharp stab of jealousy. She turned to leave, not wanting to intrude, but Ryan spotted her.
"Y/N! Over here!" he called out, waving her over.
Y/N forced a smile and walked over, her heart heavy. "Hey, you two. What's up?"
"We're just studying for the upcoming exams," Ryan said, pulling out a chair for her. "Join us?"
Y/N hesitated, feeling like an intruder. "I don't want to interrupt. You guys look busy."
"Nonsense," Jenna said, her tone cheerful but with an edge that Y/N couldn't ignore. "There's always room for you, Y/N."
Y/N sat down, but the dynamic was different. The easy rapport she shared with Ryan was strained, replaced by Jenna's presence. Y/N tried to focus on her work, but her mind kept wandering, the jealousy festering like an open wound.
As the evening wore on, Y/N felt more and more like a third wheel. Jenna and Ryan had their own inside jokes, their own rhythm that Y/N couldn't penetrate. She watched them, feeling a mix of sadness and anger. She wanted to say something, to reclaim her place in Ryan's life, but fear held her back.
"Y/N, are you okay?" Ryan asked, his brow furrowing in concern.
Y/N forced a smile, her heart aching. "I'm fine. Just tired, I guess."
"You should get some rest," Jenna said, her voice smooth and reassuring. "We'll catch up later."
Y/N nodded, gathering her things. "Yeah, I think I'll do that. See you later."
As she walked away, Y/N felt a tear slip down her cheek. She wiped it away quickly, not wanting anyone to see. The jealousy burned inside her, but she didn't know how to confront it, how to tell Ryan that she felt like she was losing him.
She made her way back to her dorm, the weight of her unspoken feelings pressing down on her. She loved Ryan, but she was terrified of ruining their friendship, of pushing him away even further. So, she kept her jealousy hidden, burying it deep inside, and hoped that somehow, things would go back to the way they used to be.
But deep down, she knew that nothing would ever be the same again.
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Y/N sat on her bed, staring blankly at her open textbook. The words blurred together, her mind unable to focus. The past few weeks had been torture, watching Jenna slip into every corner of Ryan's life, replacing her. She wanted to tell him how she felt, but every time she tried, the words caught in her throat.
A sudden knock on her door jolted her out of her thoughts. She wasn't expecting anyone, but she had a sinking feeling she knew who it was. She opened the door to find Ryan standing there, his face a mix of concern and frustration.
"Ryan? What are you doing here?" she asked, her voice shaky.
"Can I come in?" he asked quietly.
Y/N stepped aside, letting him in. The tension in the room was palpable as they stood there, neither of them knowing how to begin.
"Y/N, what's going on?" Ryan finally asked, his eyes searching hers. "You've been acting so strange lately. Are you okay?"
Y/N forced a smile, trying to mask the turmoil inside her. "I'm fine, Ryan. Just busy with school, that's all."
Ryan shook his head, his frustration evident. "No, it's more than that. You're my best friend. I can tell when something's bothering you. Please, just talk to me."
Y/N swallowed hard, the weight of her unspoken feelings pressing down on her. She turned away, unable to meet his gaze. "There's nothing to talk about, Ryan."
Ryan stepped closer, his voice soft but insistent. "Y/N, you're shutting me out. I need to know what's wrong. Did I do something to upset you?"
The question pierced her heart, and she could feel the tears welling up in her eyes. She wanted to tell him everything, to pour out her heart, but the fear of losing him held her back. Anger and frustration bubbled to the surface, and she couldn't hold back any longer.
"Oh, I'm shutting you out?" Y/N snapped, her voice rising. "Please, Ryan. I haven't even seen you without Jenna in weeks. And I don't want to third wheel."
Ryan's eyes widened in shock. "Y/N, that's not fair. Jenna's my girlfriend. Of course, I spend time with her."
"But what about us?" Y/N shot back, her voice trembling with emotion. "We used to do everything together. Now it feels like I don't exist to you unless she's around."
Ryan ran a hand through his hair, looking conflicted. "Y/N, I didn't mean for it to be like this. Jenna's important to me, but so are you."
Y/N laughed bitterly, wiping away a tear. "It doesn't feel that way. It feels like I'm being replaced, like I don't matter anymore. I miss you, Ryan. I miss us."
Ryan's face softened, and he took a step closer, his voice gentle. "Y/N, I'm so sorry. I never wanted to make you feel this way. You're my best friend, and I care about you so much."
"Do you?" Y/N asked, her voice breaking. "Because it doesn't feel like it. It feels like I'm losing you, like I'm just an afterthought now that Jenna's in the picture."
Ryan reached out, but she pulled away, the pain too raw. "I don't want to lose you, Y/N. You're one of the most important people in my life. I need you to believe that."
"How can I believe that when everything's changed?" Y/N said, her tears falling freely now. "When I'm not the one you turn to anymore?"
Ryan's face crumpled, and he took another step closer, his voice pleading. "Please, Y/N. I don't want to lose you. Tell me what I can do to fix this."
Y/N looked at him, her heart breaking. She wanted to believe him, to trust that things could go back to the way they were, but the fear and jealousy were too strong. "I don't know if you can," she whispered. "I don't know if anything will ever be the same."
Ryan stood there, his eyes filled with sadness and desperation. "Y/N, please. You're my best friend. I can't lose you."
Y/N took a deep breath, trying to steady herself. "I need time, Ryan. I need to figure out how to deal with this. I don't know if I can just pretend everything's okay."
Ryan nodded slowly, his expression pained. "I understand. Just... don't shut me out completely. Please."
Y/N nodded, her heart heavy. "I won't. I promise."
As Ryan left, Y/N sank to the floor, her body wracked with sobs. She had finally told him the truth, but it felt like she had shattered something precious. The weight of her unspoken feelings had been lifted, but the fear of losing him remained, a constant, gnawing ache.
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In the days that followed, Y/N found it increasingly difficult to stick to her promise. Every time she saw Ryan, the pain of their conversation and the rawness of her emotions threatened to overwhelm her. She started avoiding places where she knew he would be, skipping their usual study sessions and avoiding the coffee shop they frequented. She even altered her routes around campus, anything to keep her heart from breaking all over again.
Ryan, for his part, tried to give her space, but his concern for her was evident. He sent her texts, asking how she was and if they could talk, but Y/N couldn't bring herself to respond. Each message felt like a reminder of what she had lost, and she couldn't face the reality of their changed relationship.
One afternoon, Y/N was walking back to her dorm when she saw Ryan and Jenna coming from the opposite direction. Panic surged through her, and she quickly ducked into a nearby building, pressing herself against the wall. She watched as they walked past, Ryan's arm around Jenna's shoulders, both of them laughing about something. The sight was like a punch to the gut, and Y/N had to fight to keep her tears at bay.
She slipped out of the building after they were gone and made her way back to her dorm, her heart heavy with a mixture of jealousy and despair. She knew she was breaking her promise to Ryan, but the thought of seeing him with Jenna was too much to bear. It felt like every time she saw them together, a piece of her heart was being ripped away.
That evening, Y/N was lying on her bed, staring at the ceiling, when her phone buzzed. It was another text from Ryan.
Ryan: "Y/N, we need to talk. Please."
Y/N stared at the message, her finger hovering over the screen. She wanted to respond, to tell him everything she was feeling, but the fear of losing him completely kept her silent. She turned off her phone and rolled over, tears streaming down her face.
Days turned into weeks, and Y/N continued to avoid Ryan at all costs. She threw herself into her studies, hoping to distract herself from the ache in her heart. But no matter how hard she tried, the void left by Ryan's absence was impossible to fill.
One evening, as she was leaving the library, she saw Ryan standing outside, waiting for her. Her heart leapt into her throat, and she considered turning back, but it was too late. He had seen her.
"Y/N, wait," he called, his voice filled with a mix of relief and frustration.
She stopped, her body tense, as he approached. "Ryan, I..."
He held up a hand, cutting her off. "Please, just let me talk."
Y/N nodded, her eyes downcast.
"Why are you avoiding me?" Ryan asked, his voice tinged with hurt. "I thought you said you wouldn't shut me out."
Y/N took a deep breath, steeling herself for what she needed to say. She looked up at Ryan, her eyes filled with sorrow. "I'm sorry, Ryan," she whispered, her voice trembling. "I can't do this anymore."
Ryan's brow furrowed in confusion. "What do you mean?"
Y/N shook her head, tears threatening to spill over. "I mean... I think it's better if we're not friends anymore."
Ryan's expression shifted from confusion to shock. "Y/N, no. You can't mean that."
"I do," Y/N replied, her voice breaking. "It hurts too much, Ryan. Every time I see you with Jenna, it feels like my heart is being torn apart. I can't keep pretending that everything's okay when it's not."
Ryan took a step closer, reaching out to touch her arm, but she flinched away. "Y/N, please. We can work through this. I don't want to lose you."
Y/N's emotions boiled over, her voice rising in desperation. "Please, Ryan, I can't do this!"
"Why are you doing this?" Ryan's voice matched her intensity, a mixture of confusion and frustration.
"Because, Ryan," Y/N yelled back, tears streaming down her face. "Because I love you!"
Ryan froze, his hand dropping to his side as he stared at her in shock. The words hung in the air between them, heavy with the weight of unspoken truth.
Y/N wiped angrily at her tears, her chest heaving with emotion. "I've tried to bury it, to ignore it, but I can't pretend anymore. Every time I see you with Jenna, it tears me apart inside."
Ryan stood there in stunned silence, unable to form a coherent response to Y/N's emotional outpouring. Her words echoed in his mind, each one piercing through the confusion and shock that gripped him.
Y/N wiped angrily at her tears, her voice raw with pain. "I never meant for this to happen. I never planned on falling for you, but damn it, you crept into my thoughts, into my dreams, and now you're embedded in my heart like a relentless thorn. I see the way you smile at her, the way you laugh, and it feels like a thousand knives stabbing me in the chest."
Her voice cracked with emotion, but she pushed on, her words pouring out like a floodgate opened. "Do you have any idea how it feels to want someone so much it hurts? To know that every smile you give to Jenna is a stab in my gut because I wish it were for me? I've tried to ignore it, to bury these feelings deep down, but they keep clawing their way back to the surface."
Ryan's chest tightened with guilt and regret as he listened, absorbing the full weight of Y/N's confession. Her pain was palpable, her vulnerability cutting through him like a knife.
"I can't help but remember how it all started â those late-night conversations that stretched into dawn, the way you looked at me with such understanding and kindness. It felt like we were the only two people in the world, like we shared something special."
Y/N's voice trembled now, her words filled with longing and sorrow. "And now? Now you're with her, and I'm left here grappling with this unbearable ache, this longing that won't let me breathe. I hate that I love you this fiercely, this desperately. It's tearing me apart, but I can't turn it off. Every fiber of my being screams your name."
Ryan's throat tightened, his heart breaking for Y/N and the pain he had inadvertently caused. He struggled to find the right words, to offer some solace or explanation, but his mind was a whirlwind of conflicting emotions.
Unable to bear the weight of her gaze, Ryan turned away, his footsteps heavy and filled with regret. He couldn't face her right now, couldn't confront the truth of what she had laid bare. Leaving was the only thing he could think to do, a temporary reprieve from the intensity of the moment.
Y/N watched him go, her tears falling unchecked now, a mixture of relief and despair washing over her. She had finally spoken her truth, had bared her soul to him, and now she was left alone with the echoes of her own words.
As Ryan disappeared from view, Y/N sank to the ground, her sobs echoing in the empty space around her. She had known this outcome was a possibility, but the reality of it still cut deep. Love had brought her to this precipice, where the only path forward was through the pain.
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After Ryan had abruptly left following their emotional confrontation, Y/N found herself grappling with a whirlwind of emotions. She hadn't expected Will and Gabe, Ryan's friends and teammates, to approach her about his absence. They were also her friends, having shared countless moments on and off campus together. Now, they stood before her, concern etched on their faces.
Gabe was the first to speak up, his voice laced with worry. "Hey, Y/N. Have you heard from Ryan? He's been off the grid for a couple of days now, and we're getting a bit worried."
Will nodded in agreement, his brow furrowed. "Yeah, he's missed a few practices too. Is everything okay between you two?"
Y/N hesitated, unsure of how much to disclose. She and Ryan had always been close, and his absence was weighing heavily on her conscience. "We... had a disagreement," she finally admitted, choosing her words carefully. "Things got complicated."
Gabe exchanged a glance with Will, both of them sensing the gravity of the situation. "Do you want to talk about it?" Gabe asked gently, his concern palpable.
Y/N shook her head, a small, sad smile tugging at her lips. "I wish I could, but... it's between Ryan and me. I think he just needs some space right now."
Will nodded understandingly, though worry lines remained etched on his face. "If you hear from him, could you let us know? We just want to make sure he's okay."
"Of course," Y/N replied softly. "I'll keep an eye out for him."
The three of them stood there for a moment, the unspoken tension hanging in the air. Y/N appreciated their concern, their loyalty to Ryan evident even in this difficult moment.
"Thanks, Y/N," Gabe said finally, offering a supportive smile. "We're here for you too, okay?"
Y/N nodded gratefully, touched by their gesture. "Thank you, both of you."
As Will and Gabe walked away, Y/N couldn't help but feel the weight of their unspoken questions and concerns. She knew she owed it to Ryan to give him the space he needed, but the ache in her heart reminded her of the fragile bond they had once shared.
Days turned into a week, and still, Ryan remained elusive. Y/N focused on her studies and tried to maintain a sense of normalcy, but her thoughts often drifted back to him. She wondered if he was hurting as much as she was, if he regretted their confrontation, if he even cared anymore.
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Late one evening, as she sat alone in her dorm room, Y/N's phone buzzed with a text message. It was from Ryan.
Ryan: "Can we talk?"
Her heart skipped a beat as she read the message, uncertainty and hope warring within her. Without hesitation, she typed out her reply.
Y/N: "Yes. Where are you?"
The reply came almost immediately.
Ryan: "Meet me at our spot?"
Y/N's heart raced as she grabbed her jacket and headed out into the cool night air. She didn't know what would come of their meeting, but she knew she couldn't ignore the pull to see him again, to confront the unresolved feelings between them.
As she walked towards their designated meeting spot, Y/N couldn't help but wonder if this would be the moment everything changed, if they could find a way back to each other despite the heartache that had torn them apart.
As Y/N arrived at their spot, a secluded bench overlooking the campus lake, she found Ryan already waiting there, his silhouette outlined by the soft glow of the nearby lamppost. He looked up as she approached, his expression a mix of relief and uncertainty. They sat down side by side, the tension between them palpable.
"Ryan," Y/N began softly, her voice wavering slightly. "What happened? Why did you disappear like that?"
Ryan ran a hand through his hair, his eyes avoiding hers for a moment. "I needed time to think," he admitted quietly. "I... I didn't expect things to escalate the way they did between us."
Y/N nodded, her heart aching with the weight of unspoken words. "I didn't either," she confessed, her gaze fixed on the shimmering water below. "I didn't mean to put you on the spot like that."
Ryan turned towards her, his hand accidentally brushing against her thigh in the process. Y/N flinched slightly at the touch, a jolt of electricity shooting through her body. Ryan quickly withdrew his hand, his cheeks flushing with embarrassment.
"I'm sorry," he murmured, his voice barely audible.
Y/N shook her head, trying to steady her racing heart. "It's okay," she managed to say, though her voice was unsteady.
Silence settled between them once more, broken only by the gentle lapping of the water against the shore. Ryan took a deep breath, gathering his thoughts.
"Y/N, I... I've been a mess these past few days," Ryan began, his voice filled with sincerity. "I didn't know how to face you after everything that happened. But I've realized something."
Y/N turned to look at him, her eyes searching his face for answers. "What is it, Ryan?"
Ryan hesitated for a moment, his fingers fidgeting nervously in his lap. "I can't stop thinking about you," he admitted finally, his voice tinged with desperation. "Even when I try to distract myself with hockey or hanging out with friends, you're always there, in the back of my mind."
Y/N's heart skipped a beat at his words, a glimmer of hope flickering to life within her. "Ryan..."
"No, please," Ryan interrupted, his hand tentatively reaching out again, this time resting gently on her thigh. "Let me finish."
Y/N swallowed hard, her breath catching in her throat as she looked into his eyes, searching for sincerity. She nodded silently, urging him to continue.
"You've always been in my mind," Ryan continued, his voice earnest. "I was just confused with my feelings. You mean so much to me, Y/N."
Tears welled up in Y/N's eyes, her heart aching with a mixture of longing and uncertainty. Ryan's touch on her thigh sent a jolt of warmth through her, reminding her of the closeness they had once shared, and the possibility of what could be.
"I know I've hurt you," Ryan whispered, his voice thick with emotion. "And I'm sorry for that. I never wanted to cause you pain."
Y/N took a shaky breath, struggling to contain the flood of emotions threatening to overwhelm her. "Ryan, I... I don't know if I can do this," she admitted, her voice barely above a whisper. "I've been trying to move on, to accept that maybe we're better off as friends."
"No, Y/N, don't do this to me," Ryan pleaded, his voice cracking with desperation. His hand tightened around hers, clinging to the fragile connection between them. "Please, don't shut me out. I can't lose you."
Y/N's heart ached at the anguish in Ryan's voice, the sincerity in his plea cutting through her resolve. She turned to look at him, tears glistening in her eyes as she struggled to find the right words.
"I don't want to shut you out," Y/N whispered, her voice trembling. She took a deep breath, gathering her courage. "But I need to know... do you love me, Ryan?"
Ryan froze, his eyes widening with a mixture of surprise and realization. He opened his mouth to speak, but no words came out. Y/N's heart sank as she watched him struggle, uncertainty flickering in his eyes.
"Dammit, do you love me?" Y/N pressed, her voice breaking with emotion. She needed to hear the truth, to know where they stood.
Ryan closed his eyes briefly, a myriad of emotions crossing his face. When he finally looked at her again, his gaze was intense and unwavering.
"Yes," Ryan said softly, his voice filled with conviction. "Yes, Y/N, I love you."
Y/N felt her heart skip a beat at his words, a rush of emotions flooding through her. Tears welled up in her eyes as she looked at him, the weight of uncertainty lifting off her shoulders.
"From the moment I saw you, god, Y/N, you make me crazy," Ryan continued, his voice filled with raw honesty. "But I love you crazy. You've poisoned me in a way you will never know."
Y/N's breath caught in her throat, her pulse quickening at his confession. She reached out, gently placing her hand over his heart, feeling its steady beat beneath her palm.
"Ryan," she whispered, her voice barely above a whisper. "I... I love you too. More than I ever thought possible."
Ryan closed his eyes briefly, savoring the moment, before opening them to meet her gaze once more. "I don't want to lose you," he admitted softly. "I've been a fool, trying to deny what's been right in front of me all along."
Y/N listened intently, her heart racing with anticipation as she waited for him to continue. Ryan took a deep breath, his voice tinged with relief and vulnerability.
"I broke up with Jenna," Ryan confessed, his eyes searching hers for understanding. "She already knew how I felt about you. She told me to confess, to stop pretending like I could be happy with anyone else."
Y/N felt a surge of emotions at his words, a mixture of surprise, relief, and a profound sense of hope. She reached out, taking his hand in hers, a silent gesture of reassurance and support.
"I'm glad you did," Y/N replied softly, her voice filled with warmth.
Ryan nodded, a small smile tugging at his lips. "I couldn't keep denying how I feel," he admitted. "Not when you've always been the one who's been there for me, who understands me like no one else."
Y/N squeezed his hand gently, overwhelmed by the depth of his words and the sincerity in his eyes. "I've always cared about you, Ryan," she murmured. "More than I ever knew how to say."
Ryan leaned closer, his forehead resting against hers as he whispered, "I love you, Y/N. I've loved you for so long."
Tears welled up in Y/N's eyes, her heart overflowing with love and gratitude. "I love you too, Ryan," she whispered back, her voice filled with certainty.
Y/N looked at Ryan, her heart still racing from their emotional conversation under the stars. The weight of their confessions hung in the air, and she felt a surge of courage and longing.
"Ryan," she began softly, her voice barely above a whisper. "Do you want to come back to my apartment?"
Ryan met her gaze, his eyes reflecting a mixture of tenderness and desire. He took a moment to respond, his voice steady but filled with emotion. "Yes, Y/N," he said, his tone tinged with certainty. "I want to be with you."
A wave of relief washed over Y/N as she reached out to take his hand. "Let's go," she said, a small smile playing on her lips.
Together, they walked hand in hand through the quiet streets, their footsteps echoing in the stillness of the night. The journey back to Y/N's apartment was filled with a comfortable silence, their hearts beating in sync with the promise of new beginnings.
As they approached her door, Y/N turned to Ryan, her eyes searching his for any lingering doubts. Instead, she found only warmth and affection mirrored back at her.
Ryan leaned in closer, brushing his lips against hers in a tender kiss.
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The air between them crackled with unspoken desire as Y/N and Ryan stood in the dimly lit kitchen of her apartment. The weight of their shared confession hung heavy in the air, igniting a fire that had long smoldered between them.
Y/N leaned against the counter, her heart racing with anticipation. She could feel Ryan's intense gaze on her, his eyes darkened with a hunger that mirrored her own. The tension between them was palpable, a magnetic pull drawing them closer with each passing second.
Ryan closed the distance between them in a single stride, his hand coming to rest on the counter beside her, effectively trapping her against it. His touch sent a shiver down Y/N's spine, awakening a longing she could no longer deny.
"Y/N," Ryan murmured, his voice low and husky, filled with raw desire. "I've wanted this... wanted you... for so long."
Y/N met his gaze, her own eyes smoldering with need. Without a word, she reached up, threading her fingers through his hair and pulling him closer. Their lips crashed together in a desperate kiss, a collision of passion and pent-up longing.
Ryan's hands roamed over her body, his touch igniting sparks of electricity wherever it landed. Y/N gasped into his mouth, the sensation sending a rush of heat straight to her core. She arched against him, seeking more of his touch, more of the fire that threatened to consume them both.
Their kisses grew deeper, more urgent, as if they were trying to convey all their unspoken desires through the meeting of their lips. Ryan's hands traced the curve of Y/N's waist, pulling her closer until there was no space left between them. He tasted of longing and promises, each kiss a declaration of the passion they had kept hidden for far too long.
Y/N's fingers fumbled with the buttons of Ryan's shirt, urgency driving her movements. She needed to feel his skin against hers, to erase any lingering doubts that this was real. Ryan groaned softly against her lips, his own hands moving with purpose as he lifted her up onto the counter, his body pressing intimately against hers.
Their breaths mingled, hot and ragged, as they explored each other with a fervor born of longing and newfound connection. Ryan's lips trailed down Y/N's neck, leaving a blazing trail of kisses that made her head spin. Every touch, every caress, fueled the flames of their desire until they burned brightly, consuming everything in their path.
In that moment, there were no more words, no more doubts. There was only the raw, unbridled passion that had simmered between them for so long, finally unleashed in a torrent of need and belonging.
And as they lost themselves in each other, the rest of the world faded away, leaving only the heat of their bodies and the promise of a love that had waited patiently to be set free.
#hockey#nhl x reader#boston college#ryan leonard#ryan leonard x reader#ryan leonard imagine#Ryan Leonard x y/n
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Can we please talk about the relationship between Fink and Roz?? đĽšđĽšđĽš
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Thinking about how naturally and instantly Roz and Fink took to one another. They meet under the most tense circumstances, but soon after, they become an ordered pair. I love how dedicated they both become to raising baby Brightbill. Thereâs nothing in it for Fink except for being part of a family, and you can tell he really enjoys it even if he never outright says it. Heâs deeply sensitive and loving and maybe he hates it about himself, thinks heâs weak for it, but itâs true. Roz sees right through his nonchalant exterior. She understands him better than anyone else.
They raised a kid together and they will always be bonded for it. Only they know how much work it takes to raise a runt. They know the rejection inflicted on them by society, and they constantly fight nature that tries to kill their son like it does with any unfit creature. Iâm so warm for the soft moments of concern shared between two parents; âHeâs never gonna learn if he doesnât get out there, Roz,â and, âYou canât be up there with him / then weâll find someone who canâ and they go together, in search of a flight instructor for their boy. :,) And how they both actively involve themselves in his flight training. Carving his âbaby picturesâ into wood and displaying them by his nest. Quiet conversations like âThings still weird between you two? / Yep, still weird.â Telling him stories about the âbeautiful robotâ that fell from space. I just⌠maybe itâs the mommy AND daddy issues in me, but seeing two parents fight for their disabled coded kid makes me feel so tender.
I was so soft during the âhow do you know if you love someone?â scene because you see it in his eyes that he does know, because after all this time he realizes heâs come to love her. He wants her to say it. He wants to say it but he has internalized that when he loves something, it never stays. Despite this, we can see at the end of the movie when heâs telling the animals a story just how much he admired her for not only bailing him out of his chronic loneliness, but for everything she did for the island. Heâs the main one that keeps Rozâs memory alive after she leaves.
Hopefully in the sequel, we get an âI love youâ scene between these two. Itâs wholly deserved. I want to be upset that we didnât get it in the film, but Iâve come to feel that the absence of it is somehow even more poignant. Some things are just obvious and donât need to be outright said, however, I think hearing it would heal some of Finkâs negative internalized beliefs that came from his childhood.
#the wild robot#movie discussion#fink the fox#rozzum unit 7134#brightbill#dreamworks animation#Roz and Fink#Roz x Fink#They can#I choose to see Brightbill as an allegory for disability#found family#iâm not okay
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just me flipping out over landoscar over the past 48hrs :)
ohhh GOODDDDD the way the commentary here is already perfect but just to add!! both shuffle about and seem to do a little of their creepy unspoken communication and then both immediately slip their arms around each other at the same time before they both look over to Max at the same time. bc the slightly scary bonded little McLaren creatures need to remember the rest of the grid exists sometimes ;__;
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also the fact that Oscar's growth spurt over the winter really is visible when they're stood this close
and yet he's still the same awkward recent-growth-spurts young lad that got delivered to Lando's driver's room last season. he doesn't know what to do in front of cameras and his instinct is still to have Lando dancing and sparkling like the natural star he is so that Oscar can stand just a bit behind and fulfill his own publicity quota by reacting to whatever Lando is getting up to
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THE CHEST TAP ohhhh the way that Oscar requires very little physical touch and Lando craves it and they've just⌠figured it out !! Lando squeezes Oscar's shoulder, taps his arm, initiates a handshake, shuffles back a little bc Oscar's always standing just behind him, snuggles closer to him when they're in cars for the drivers parade and it's remotely cold⌠and taps Oscar's chest as a 'thank you'
bc for Oscar, he gets his emotional fill through his eyes. while he's perfectly content with most people to do glances and hold eye contact when someone's speaking directly to him. but his eyes l i n g e r where he's especially fond or affectionate or in love. he watches Lily when she's looking at other people, he watched Logan for when he seemed lonely or when they were talking and Logan would stare out at the crowd, and g o ddddddd does he love to watch Lando. you can track his eyes as they trace Lando's features and the way his smile responds to watching Lando's mouth.
yet there's also the way they've learned each other's ways of expressing care/affection/checking in bc Lando can trust that Oscar will be looking to him when something is awkward or unsure, and Oscar can trust that Lando will come to him and let him know how he's feeling aaaaaaand I just think that's !!!
bc no bromance, no cultivating a dynamic or relationship by blending their social lives, no performing in any way. all of their little hallmarks are the most unplanned, unintentional sweet things like the nicknames Lando accidentally started and only continued bc it makes Oscar so happy, to Oscar's hearteyes that he absolutely surely must know fandom teases him about but doesn't bother to change. them being opposites in certain things and then eerily similar in others.
all of it comes back to the way they communicate in ways everyone else has to interpret to understand - and even then it's not like we ever get to see the stuff they think and talk about behind their little privacy door and in the downtime we know they have but that isn't documented. like, I don't want to stretch too far by implying something too intense or specific but there's definitely a Their Own World kind of thing happening. whether or not it's smth they've specifically knowingly cultivated or if it's just naturally how their dynamic shakes out.
bc we all love to joke that Oscar's jealous of Carlos or Daniel or Franco - but then he brings them up on his own in friendly ways and is a very definite carlando! and ppl wanted to make a lot out of Lando openly complaining to an audience that Oscar doesn't like enough of the same thing as him so they don't hang out as much as he does other drivers he knows. but then after that they immediately start playing padel and oh it's okay now! it literally was as simple as Lando not knowing Oscar was up for padel even if golf and regular partying won't be! and that shared activities are not a defining quality of a relationship and Lando said "spends the least time with off track" about Oscar and not "likes the least" or "has the least interest in" lasfgslajgfsalf
and like, I'm always saying how of course they'll have the usual teammate fights or spats or tensions at some point! it happens! Lando is deeply ingratiated into Max V's life socially - moreso than anyone else on the grid with Lando - but they're ever so slightly on ice at the moment bc they're too similar when it comes to competitiveness. but they'll be back to normal when the season - or the WDC race - is done and finished. and nobody likes to document it for good reason but Carlos and Lando have had plenty of challenging moments and many a 'see?? we're fine!!' golf excursions or fan service videos to smooth an issue over (including the worst gifs of all time that I can't find anymore where Lando straight up looked murderous). and then ofc the "I don't feel sorry for him" Lando/Daniel DTS stuff that caused such a fandom headache. and Oscar's always had a very simple, on track the job is to win unless instructed otherwise and then off the track we interact as people not drivers. so it's fully normal to expect situations where they're not happy w each other and it shows! but it hasn't yet and that's honestly kind of weird!! esp when they don't have the big broey type of friendship that Lando's had with his other two teammates - you'd honestly expect him to feel more at ease in showing it when he's pissed off with Oscar bc there's nothing to keep up for fandom/PR sake and no messiness with shared friend groups etc to worry about. but he's cultivated an exceptionally and very pointed approach of This Is My Team and My Job/I'm Established, He Is Not Yet/I'm The Experienced One where he sees the team unity as especially important for him to publicly present and assert. like, for all he hated the idea of being the older one and no longer baby brother, he's responded to Low Maintenance Watchful Oscar in the long run as someone's he needs to take care of and whose place in the team is partly his own responsibility. he's not just one of the drivers, he's The Guy at McLaren and Oscar's extremely painful induction into the team and F1 with basically the whole world praying for his downfall was so vastly opposite to his own gradual and loving introduction that it's clear he's taking their disparities into account. a LOT. this moment being a prime example of him correcting fans because of that. and probably also an uncomfortable awareness of the segment of his own fandom who are able to inflict a special kind of hell on anyone they view as not 100% serving Lando, the object of their unhinged obsession and bias.
like, it's a side note I'll prob never be able to go too deeply into for just that reason^^ but this viewing Lando as a permanent victim whose every good deed is seen as Not Necessary and ignoring the huge differences in position within this sport and within McLaren between him and Oscar - and simply slotting Oscar into a space Carlos and Daniel held - totally undermines Lando's real life growth as a man who does understand that disparity and does appreciate that Oscar inhabits a space totally his own and nothing to do with his older, experienced teammates - and also a man who is saying and doing these things about teamwork and appreciation for Oscar in a way that responds to those differences while not remotely expecting Oscar to mimic or parrot it back because they're not equals in the sport or with the team (which makes logical sense !!) and they're not what Lando was with Carlos or Daniel. and in all the insanity I feel like this coddling, constantly pitying and victimized approach that still hearkens back to Lando being The Baby on the team - completely fails to show him appreciation for who he actually has become and what he actually does and says that is so specifically commendable and shows such growth and strength that is so admirable. the constant expectation that he's saying and doing these things in any way that expects Oscar to copy or mirror him - when their positions could not be more different or imbalanced !!!! - and ignoring the way Lando actually doesn't expect that and that he receives gratitude and appreciation from Oscar in a way that is unique to Oscar bc everyone is different !! by viewing Lando as always perfection and never in the wrong and any good deed being automatically greater than anyone else's good deed, he is cut off from authentic appreciation and praise of the individual real life complex person he actually is and that such flat, default levels of adoration will ring meaningless to him compared to people who can objectively give him praise him as objectively as they see his flaws !! and that's why Max F is his lifelong best friend above all others ! anyway !!!!!
and like. idk. part of me feels a suspicion that this private little world Lando and Oscar have - that they cultivated around the time they decided to pull a lot of their relationship off of social media and not use it for PR (apart from the bog standard team media) - is also them wisely deciding to keep their negotiation of this new front runner craziness entirely to themselves. bc of course things aren't all sunshine and roses between them all the time, but what's clear is how mutually and maturely they've approached each new bout of drama. especially considering they're so young and everyone expected that to be the downfall to Zak's plot to have two young generational talents. and EVERY time it would make perfect sense for them to snipe at each other through the press or be caught feeling cold toward each other - or someone strategically edits or crops media to make it look so - they're huddled together somewhere giggling or playing board games or sharing junk food ;__; the brain rot of stan culture threatens to destroy fandom experience for everyone else but meanwhile the objects of their obsession are sharing a conspiratorial look and grinning at each other.
like⌠Netflix AND an F1 reporter have quite literally goaded and begged for them to fight and hate each other and each time Oscar boldly steps forward with that cool expression and undermines the effort, with Lando literally cheering him on <3 <3
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i canât stop thinking about WHY zutara bonding in the crystal catacombs scene is so moving and its just so!!!!
like. katara is someone who specifically addresses her motherâs death to empathisze with other people, like haru or jet. and while they do connect with her on this level (and i have lots of <3 feelings about haru and katara), she is always the one initially extending the empathy. she is always the one in that caretaking role.
and when she brings up her mother in the crossroads of destiny, itâs different! because itâs the first time sheâs taking about it in anger, as she yells at zuko about what this war has taken from her, personally.
and ZUKO is the one who reaches out to empathize with her in addressing the loss of his own mother by the hands of the fire nation. zuko, who has thus far not been more than an enemy or very brief, reluctant ally to her says: âiâm sorry. thatâs something we have in common.â because he hears her crying and her grief and her anger and gets it, he does. and instead of katara being the one to reach out, to provide this kind of care for someone, for once, itâs the other way around.
and for zukoâs part! we actually see time and time again that he is someone not only capable of empathy, but rather prone to it. but itâs a part of himself he HATES. heâs been taught a very harsh lesson by his father: caring for others is a weakness. so, up to this point, heâs always not only shied away from empathy and connection with others, but actively set out to not be seen that way and perform a lack of care for them. even when he does start forming new connections, like with song, who empathizes with him through the shared pain of their scars, he canât bring himself to return the compassion of sharing his own experience. (actually, iâd go so far as to say stealing the familyâs ostritch horse at the end of the episode goes beyond the simple motivation of âwe need to travel, this will make it easierâ; itâs a way of reasserting to himself that whatever kinship or care he may have felt for song, he is not WEAK, he can still be the son his father wants by performing this act of disregard for others.)
but in the catacombs, he doesnât just NOT shy away from empathy, he actively embraces it, actively makes the CHOICE to reach out. and like, he didnât need to. while WE know katara as an extremely kind person, there was no real reason for him to expect this would be met by anything but hostility. and he chose to reach out anyway! because the thing is: he genuinely HAD grown. itâs just that healing isnât linear.
itâs why zukoâs choice in the catacombs is so tragic, and such a betrayal for katara. because however brief it was, for a moment, they shared something real and honest and vulnerable. with someone neither of them ever would have expected it from.
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Hi Hi! I love your blog! The way you write speaks to me so well ⨠Any chance you could do some more 11th house planets specifically Neptune and Uranus? I noticed they're both not there and I have an 11th house stellium đ totally okay if you're busy but would love your opinions on it 𩷠much love
Hello love, thank you so much for loving my blog! I have already posted that Uranus placement analysis, here it is.
Neptune in the 11th house
These natives are very intuitive and empathetic in their social relationships of all kinds, deeply feeling the emotions and needs of their friends or members of any group to which they belong, often offering emotional support and understanding. It is because of this that their friends tend to see them as reliable and empathetic advisors. They may have deep spiritual connections with their friends, they may even feel karmic bonds or predestined relationships quite often. These people have a strong sense of friendship, enormous devotion and respect for those who give them this title. It is likely that at some point in their life they will make the mistake of trusting someone they shouldn't, and may feel that they took advantage of their trust. They seek deep and meaningful connections with their friends and groups, since they do not settle for superficial relationships and seek to share transformative and meaningful experiences. These people have the ease to solve issues of other people, however, they may struggle with handling their own. Many times their friends can see them as people who have supported and guided them on a path towards a better mindset or life in general, since these natives not only will seek to encourage, support and make their friends feel accepted and loved just as they are, but they will make them see in themselves someone capable of achieving big things by making them turn their dreams in something tangible and real.
These natives stand out for being idea machines, with this placement their creativity increases by mixing it with originality, giving them the ability to create amazing things. They dream big and really love to fantasize about the future, they can even spend a lot of time daydreaming. It is very likely that they have artistic interests and hobbies and, in addition to that, enormous talent regarding them. They choose to experiment, try new ways of doing things and above all, not have a scheme or demand too much of themselves. Here we find people who hate tension in any form, choosing to prefer environments where they feel tranquility and peace from doing the things they like most. They reject unnecessary conflict and will easily walk away from anything that brings chaos and discomfort into their lives. These natives dream of a better world, some may decide to have a job in which they help others or contribute positively to society, many others have the way of thinking that, although they cannot completely change the world, they can contribute even a little, and they will do it without hesitation.
These people have a knack for inspiring others, an effect that can lead them to attract people who admire them either for a trait or talent. It is very likely that people place high expectations on them or idealize them in some way. They value working for a cause and a purpose, they will never be in a job for which they do not feel that passion and dedication. Many of them, despite being great friends, may prefer to take refuge from issues or problems by isolating themselves. They are those types of people who try to be reliable for others but hardly feel that there are people who are reliable for them. They may enjoy spending a lot of time on social networks or doing their hobbies, losing track of time. They may be able to earn money through jobs or projects that involve humanitarian, spiritual, charitable causes, creative or artistic activities. These natives have no difficulty working as a team and will always seek to help and support other members. They are very sensitive to the energies of others and can easily feel the vibrations of the environments they are in, so it is normal that after a while socializing they need a moment alone to recharge their batteries.
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Headcanons of Lucifer watching his s/o and Charlie getting along and maybe even having a little musical note together I just know he'd be getting all teary eyed and shit seeing his baby girl having some form of mother figure or someone she can really look to for advice currently present in her life â¤ď¸ Thanks sm hope u have a good day/night!
Absolutely!
I think at first the relationship between Charlie and anyone her dad dates is awkward because she's so nice and trying to be supportive and Lucifer's new s/o would be trying too hard to create that bond. But steadily, you two would find real things you have in common and begin spending time together.
I'm going to use myself for reference here, but I personally really like arts and crafts kind of stuff and am willing to listen to pretty much all genres of music as long as I like the beat/rhythm. So I imagine most of your bonding is done making posters for the hotel, doing crafts with the guests, and just in general vibing to music together.
Like, one suggested activity for the group is coloring because it's a good outlet and it becomes so popular you guys just have a permanent stack of coloring pages and books available with marker, pens, colored pencils, and you, Charlie, Lucifer, and Vaggie are all just coloring and talking, Lucifer's telling embarrassing stories about baby Charlie for you and Vaggie, and you share a few embarrassing stories of yourself to make Charlie feel better and the absolute relief on her face is palpable.
Charlie is nervous because some sinners critiqued her hotel, her appearance, how her dad had to bail her out in the fight against heaven and it's all just making her upset. And of course her dad and her girlfriend are gonna say stuff about how she's beautiful, the hotel is a wonderful idea, and she was so brave in that fight. And like, yeah you're dating her dad and you've been super nice so far, but when you sit down next to her and ask quietly, "Can I offer you some advice?"
"Please? I feel like I don't know what I'm doing."
You laugh, patting her shoulder. "You're young, Charlie, you're not supposed to have it all figured out. But one thing you can do, is decide not to let judgemental pricks get to you. Take every criticism with a grain of salt. Improve, adapt, and filter out bullshit. You can't make everyone happy, and you'll exhaust yourself if you try. So as long as you're happy and at the end of the day you can say you're proud of what you've done, that you tried....well, that should be enough, right?"
Charlie thinks about it and nods. There's a visible shift in her attitude. "Thanks, I needed to hear that....Do you think you could help me read through some of the reviews and stuff? I want to improve if there's any genuine issue that I can address and Dad and Vaggie are....a lot. They just keep trying to tell me everything is perfect."
"They're just trying to hype you up. They love you a lot, so naturally they want you to feel successful and excited. Come on, let's go make some big bowls of ice cream and read through those reviews using silly AI voices. It'll be hilarious."
You and Charlie head off to do just that, talkin and laughing, and neither one of you notices Lucifer absolutely melting into the floor from a few floors up, as he clings to the railing he was leaning against to ease drop. He's gonna need a few minutes to recover. He's crying happy tears. His little girl is grown up and getting along with his partner and they're spending time together and enjoying things together. You're giving her advice and offering her comfort and meeting Charlienat her level and he's just more convinced you're perfect.
He may or may not be ring shopping in the near future. Probably with Ozzie and Bee. They've always had good taste and will probably be thrilled to help him. And if Ozzie is also casually looking for a ring while they're out, well, Lucifer won't say anything.
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