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I want to submit a perspective on "afab transfemininity" from. an afab multi gender person. I know my experience isn't representative of everyone who calls themselves this, but I wanted to at least share
I don't call myself a trans woman, I hesitate to call myself transfem. nonetheless, I feel connected to femininity in a distinctly transgender way. when I first came out, I hated being a girl. I was a transmedicalist and validated myself by invalidating others. I had to face a lot of internalized misogyny and transphobia in order to really learn what it meant to be a man. after I started testosterone about 3 yrs ago, I realized I was a lesbian, and started feeling more comfortable being, at least in part, a woman. it was different this time because it was something I liked, something new and my own, not something ascribed to me. it's not cisgender in any way, it is transfemininity
this being said, I know my experience toward transfemininity is extremely different from the norm. I am not what most people are referring to when they refer to transfems, and there are many definitions of transfem that do not include me. despite that, I do have some experiences that overlap, things I can relate to. my femininity is at its core transgender in nature. my gender now is more complex... I feel like both a man and a woman, neither and both. but that doesn't mean my feelings about my gender are predatory or invalid. I don't want to talk over transfems, I am very aware of my place in these conversations. but I still have a place, and it frustrates me to see you share posts that minimize my experience into a stereotype
Why do you view transfemininity as being, at its core, the experience of being “both a man and a woman” lmao
Get back to me when you start viewing trans women as actual women and transfemininity as actual femininity, and not an aesthetic or a vibe or “some other third thing” apart from femininity.
You “feel femininity in a distinctly transgender way?” Congrats! You’re nonbinary! But that is NOT what being a trans woman is — Their womanhood and femininity is not essentially different from cis women’s.
What you are describing is a very generic experience of being a feminine nonbinary person, and I don't say that to insult you; but to compare that experience to those of trans women’s betrays the fact that you don't view them as the same gender as cis women. Which is transmisogyny. It’s textbook third-gendering.
Call yourself a nonbinary woman- Call yourself whatever you want, in fact. But trans women and TMA people are never going to feel safe around you so long as you continue insisting that transfemininity is essentially the same as the nonbinary femininity you experience, and essentially different from “real” cis women’s femininity.
Also, can I just say that it’s a little condescending that you would end your ask by saying “I’m aware of my place in these conversations, but…”
Like, if you were really “aware of your place” and were actually listening to transfems when we talk about transfeminism, you would be able to recognize the enormous amount of transmisogyny baked into your message. On top of the third-gendering, you also managed to:
Imply that TMA people don’t understand the complexities of gender and nonbinarity like you, a TME person, do
Imply that TMA people creating the language and spaces to discuss our experiences in a way that excludes you, a TME person, is invalidating and somehow tantamount to labeling you as “predatory” (what does that even mean?)
Sent an unprompted ask to a transfem’s blog venting your frustrations with the language of transfeminism, despite the fact that I’m not even the one who made those posts?
Showed a pretty absurd amount of entitlement by insinuating that it’s somehow my problem that you feel frustration over misunderstanding the basics of transfeminist theory
Subtly demanded that I do the emotional labor of managing your frustration, which, frankly, is just classic misogyny
Displayed a complete lack of understanding towards what transmisogyny even is, nor why we, as the direct targets of transmisogyny, need the the language and spaces to discuss it
I really don’t care what transfem “experiences” you think you relate to, the fact that you perpetuate and can benefit from transmisogyny will always separate you from us, and if you actually gave a shit about us and our struggles, you would recognize that and try to be a better ally to us rather than co-opting and redefining our language in a shallow attempt to define us out of existence.
As has been said countless times now:
“Transfeminine” does not mean “trans + feminine,” it is a term coined by TMA people to describe our specific experiences with being denied our femininity. That is something which you, as a person for whom (as you said) womanhood/femininity was ascribed by the system of patriarchy, cannot understand in the way we do.
#I don’t normally respond to asks (bc I don’t usually check my inbox) but this really pissed me off#read my pinned ffs#this blog does not exist for TME people’s benefit anymore#it exists for ME to curate posts that *I* find useful#I really do not give a shit how that makes TME people feel#literally just call yourself a fem nonbinary it’s not that hard!#I’m literally transfem and I still call myself a nonbinary femme when it’s more relevant bc guess what?#those are distinct experiences!!!
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Love Game - Part 3
A/N : After MONTHS of waiting… here is Love Game pt3 ! For those of you who weren’t there, you can find the first 2 chapters in the Masterlist (pinned post on my blog !).
If it weren’t for Denaun and his wisdom, you would have told Marshall to go to hell. Or rather, you would have sent him there yourself. After all, you weren’t exactly short on ideas how to kill him. You went over them in great detail as you vented to Denaun about his friend’s audacity. This lack of trust and complete disregard for the friendship you’d shared was enough for you to consider raising that baby on your own, but your best friend advised you against it. « We both know you’d come to regret your decision, Y/N » he said calmly over dinner, trying to level with you. You looked at him, crossing your arms, frankly pissed that he was siding with Marshall. « Oh, so you think it’s ok that he called me a slut?! Me, the mother of his child ?!» you asked with a glare. Denaun shook his head again, not backing down. « I’m not saying it’s ok. What I’m saying is : you’re a great mom and you want what’s best for this baby. And you do want them to know their father, don’t you? ». His tone was extremely calm, and he was annoyingly good at making valid points that didn’t go your way. « Well, if he thinks I’m such a whore, I don’t see why he would want to co-parent anyway » you mumbled.
It was clear that you were hurt, and that the few weeks that had passed since the confrontation hadn’t done anything to soften the blow. Denaun seemed to understand it, as he took your hand and looked not your eyes. « You have every reason to be mad. Hell, if you need me to say it out loud, I will : he’s an asshole. But you know as much as I do that, once he has proof that you’re carrying his baby, he will be a good father for this child. And your little one deserves to grow up, knowing who their dad is. It’s all about the baby». You looked down and nodded. As much as you wanted to make a point and prove that, if need be, you’d be an excellent single mom. But ultimately, he was right : it wasn’t about you. It was about the little one. You grabbed his hand and gave him a smile, full of gratitude. « Thank you, Nauny. I don’t know about the dad, but the baby is very lucky to have you as an uncle ». He gave your hand a gentle squeeze and looked into your eyes with the utmost seriousness. « I’ll always be there for you, Y/N. Both of you ».
You weren’t sure whether it was the hormones or just a regular emotional reaction to his kindness, but you couldn’t help the tears from welling in your eyes. « I don’t know what I would do without you, Nauny » you sighed. « You know… Sometimes, I wish you were the father ». He stared at you, staying silent for a couple of seconds. « Yeah, well… I’m not the one you took home that night » he sighed. You nodded, rolling your eyes. « That’ll teach me. No more fucking around with friends » you hummed before taking another bite of your burger, rather oblivious to the look of despair on your friend’s face.
A week later, the results came in : as predicted, the baby was, indeed, Marshall’s. To be fair, you had absolutely no doubt whatsoever regarding the matter. If they’d been any different, you would have been quick to fly to the Vatican and ask for an audience with the Pope so that your name was officially added to the Bible. You weren’t exactly fond of the idea of talking to Marshall directly so you arranged for the results to be sent to him in the mail, not even bothering with a letter or note. After all, the results spoke for themselves and all that was left was for him to eat his words. That same day, he called you and, though you debated for a quick second, you ended up taking the call. « Hey. It’s me. I, um…. I got the results » he said. « Right » you said in a tone that was as neutral as you could muster. « Are you… Are you free on Friday? We should talk. » he hummed rather awkwardly. « There’s nothing special to say for now, Marshall » you replied. « That baby isn’t due for another 22 weeks. Somehow, I don’t think there’s much for you to do, right now». You heard him let out a loud sigh on the other end of the line, and you could tell he was trying really hard not to go off on you. « We’re going to be parents. Both of us. Together. I think it’s actually important that we have a talk. So that we can… Prepare » he explained. You stayed silent for a couple of seconds, debating whether or not you were in the mood to do the right thing. But ultimately, the rational part of you brain, in which Denaun’s words were still echoing, ended up winning. « As you wish. My place. Friday. 6PM. Don’t be late ».
When Friday came around, you were thankful that Denaun had agreed to be with you. Somehow, you figured that the mention of you murdering Marshall was what convinced him, rather than the excuse of you needing emotional support. You knew your friend wasn’t keen on being caught in the middle of you and your baby daddy but, as much as you wished there was a way you could spare him, he was the person closest to you, the only one you confided in. When Marshall walked into your apartment and saw Denaun, he immediately froze. As far as you knew, they were on good terms, but he clearly wasn’t expecting him there. He quickly dapped him and looked at you with a confused frown. « You asked him here? » he asked in disbelief. You had promised Denaun that you’d be on your best behavior but you couldn’t help but clap back. « Well, unlike some people, Denaun has been here from the start. I trust him when it comes to the important decisions » you replied coldly. You could see Denaun stare at you disapprovingly, silently telling you off. Marshall sighed and shrugged. « Well, since we’re getting straight to the point… I have paperwork for us to go over » he said.
Your eyes opened a little wider. Paperwork. Seriously ? You gestured for him to sit on the couch and waited, as he handed you a small stack of paper. The first form was a non-disclosure agreement. As soon as you saw the title, you handed it back to him, absolutely refusing to have anything to do with it. « First you doubt my honesty and now what ? You decide to keep the baby a secret ?! » you exclaimed before turning to Denaun. « I gave it a try, Nauny. I really did. But if you think I’m going to-» you began yelling before Marshall interrupted you. « Will you just shut up and fucking read before you start screaming? » he asked in exasperation before continuing. « It’s not about keeping the baby a secret. I mean, of course, I want them to have privacy but I’m not going to hide the fact that they’re mine ! Who do you think I am ? Drake ?! It’s just standard procedure, so that nothing about our relationship as co-parents ends up in the media. My lawyers insisted ». You glared at him and took another look at the NDA. « Of course. You questioned my honesty in the first place. Why wouldn’t you think I’m after money ? » you scoffed. He stared at you in silence and rolled his eyes. « Again. Lawyers. Not me. Not that you care » he sighed, before glancing at Denaun. « I don’t know how or even why you put up with her. She’s fucking crazy » he mumbled. Your friend crossed his arms and looked at the two of you. « Stop. Both of you. You’re acting like children. You’re grown-ass adults, about to have a kid together, have some shame ! Marshall, you better show Y/N some respect. She’s carrying your baby ! And you, Y/N, you need to stop painting him as a villain. You guys obviously liked each other enough to mess around in the first place. So how about you show some of that appreciation when it comes to dealing with the consequences ?! » he thundered.
Both you and Marshall stared at him in silence, obviously not used to any outburst coming from Denaun. You stared down, while Marshall glanced sideways. « Now, I’m going to let you handle this as grownups and future parents. If you need me, I’ll be in the kitchen. And I better not hear any yelling » he threatened before leaving the room. The silence remained for a couple of minutes, before Marshall let out a sigh. « Look, it’s just… I told Paul about the baby, alright ? And he figured that paperwork might help figure out things. If it’s any comfort, it also states I’m not allowed to slander you or mention you in any track. And the rest… it’s just formalities. Like ensuring my name is on the birth certificate, making sure I have a legal right to see the baby, and that I give you child support » he calmly explained. You looked at him and nodded. « Alright » you said as you started to peruse the forms. « Denaun’s right, you know ? We need to act like… adults » he hummed, to which you nodded. « I know. It’s just not easy when the other co-parent pisses you off » you quietly replied. « But I suppose we’ll need to get used to it ». He let out a chuckle and leaned back in the couch as you read the forms. « Yeah, I guess ». When you finished going through the paperwork, you looked at him and sighed. « So… that’s what you wanted to do ? Paperwork? » you asked. « Mostly. I also wanted to know how you were doing. If the baby’s ok, or if you need something » he said. You hummed quietly, wondering if it your interactions would always have the same clinical and official undertone from now on. « Let’s see… Still nauseous but it’s definitely better. Craving for Italian, lately, if that’s of any interest. And, um… I have another ultrasound coming up. Other than that, that’s pretty much it » you reviewed. He thoughtfully nodded, as if he were making some mental note, though you weren’t too sure how that might concern him directly.
You made small talk for a bit and ended up calling Denaun back to the living room. As he walked in, he stared at both you and Marshall with a stern look on his face, much like a parent willing to make sure their kids had behaved as directed. « Everything alright? » he asked in an inquisitive tone. Both of you glanced at each other and nodded. « Yeah we’re good », Marshall assured him. « I should probably get going. Do you want to come by the studio later ? I’ve got beats ». Your friend looked at you and scratched the back of his head. « I would have loved to, man, but we made reservations for that Italian place Y/N is obsessed with, these days » he replied apologetically. Marshall paused for a second and hummed. « Right. Well… see you around, Y/N. And uh… you’ll call me if you need anything, right? ». You nodded and gave him a tentative smile. « I mean, sure. But unless you’re willing to hold my hair when I puke, I don’t think there’s much for you to do, you know? » you replied. He stared at you intently, his eyes going from your face to your belly, and shrugged. « Well, yeah, but… I don’t know. Like… if you have updates ? » he asked awkwardly.
The whole thing seemed haphazard. If a stranger were to walk in the room, they wouldn’t have been able to tell you and Marshall had ever been so… intimate. In that moment, it felt like you were two strangers learning to communicate. You but your lip, the realization being rather painful. After all, before all of this, he had been one of your favorite people on earth. Why he had turned his back on you this way, you weren’t too sure… but now, you didn’t have much choice, and you needed to do your best to mend things. Even though it felt like you weren’t at fault. You gave him a smile before grabbing an envelope from your handbag. « I don’t know if you… uh… I can show you the latest ultrasound if you’d like? » you offered. At your words, his eyes opened a little wider and he blinked even faster than usual. « Yeah. Ok. » he nodded. He got closer and you showed him the closest thing you had to a picture of your baby. You tentatively pointed the shadows on it. « So, here, there’s the head. And over there, that’s an arm » you explained. He seemed kind of fascinated by it, much to your surprise. « That’s really crazy » he whispered. You could see a smile form on Denaun’s face as he encouraged you, while Marshall was focused on the picture. « Do you want to keep it? » you offered. « Can I? » Marshall asked. « Yeah, sure. I have copies ». He grabbed the picture from your hand and carefully placed it in his pocket, before staring at you. « Thanks, Y/N » he said in a solemn tone. He leaned forward and, for a second, you almost thought he was going to hug you or kiss your cheek. But instead, he patted your shoulder in a way that made you wonder if he had actually ever interacted with a human being before. You even noticed Denaun raising an eyebrow. He went to dap Denaun and, before he left, you had to ask an important question.
« Uh, Marshall ? » you called as he stepped in the hallway. « Yeah? » he asked. « You… you said you were going to legally acknowledge the baby as yours, right? » you questioned nervously, to which he nodded, as if the answer was evident. « I mean, yeah. I think it’s what’s best » he replied, visibly wondering where this was getting. You thoughtfully hummed and bit your lip. « So…don’t you think we should tell the other guys in the group as well? ».
#eminem fanfiction#marshall mathers x reader#eminem fluff#marshall mathers imagine#eminem imagine#eminem x reader#love game fanfiction#Eminem love game
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i remember i made this blog back in may, frustrated as hell by the utter bullshit i’ve been seeing in tra spaces, wanting to finally vent my frustrations out & be my true authentic self– just to encounter a bunch of piece of shit radfems, be faced with rape & death threats from tras, and unwillingly receive more attention than initially thought. i wanted this to be a silly little butch-celebrating gender critical blog, but then i realized that i was way too trans for the radfem crowd to handle. and way too feminist for the tra crowd. i hate it here!!! i hate being passionate about same-sex attraction while simultaneously respecting medically transitioning people. i hate acknowledging & putting emphasis on sex-based oppression while still being fucking normal about dysphoric & trans people, not giving into the conservative tendency to be violently gncphobic & homophobic like i’ve seen some radfems on here be. i was genuinely so sick of constantly having to Prove I’m Not a Bad Feminist while i wasn’t openly gender critical– but now that i’ve gotten myself more immersed in gender critical spaces, i hate having to Prove That I’m Gender Critical Enough. i thought “radfem conservative” was an oxymoron, but hell, even if some of you aren’t actually conservative– you are pieces of shit, to say the least. i don’t want to pander to either side. i’m not one of you, cause none of you want me. i have my own beliefs and i’m both trans enough and gender critical enough and neither cancel out the other. i’m not trying to “spread misinfo about radical feminism”, for fuck’s sake– i’m a random ass person using tumblr.com to vent my frustrations & voice my opinions. holy fuck.
one of my first encounters on radblr was a person coming to attack me for saying i found women on t attractive, claiming i was actually a fake lesbian for that. like. do you hear yourselves?? you’re gonna say lesbians are incapable of finding males on e interpersonally & sexually attractive (which is true), and then in the same breath claim finding females on t is somehow “fakebianism”. i wanted a safe space away from extremist tras who are incapable of being normal about feminism & sex-based oppression & homosexuality– but instead i found a space full of misery, hatred, and bigotry. no, calling people mutilated isn’t progressive. neither is calling people slurs & making fun of gender nonconformity in a way you find it to be feminist-acceptable. it’s weird as fuck.
#radical feminism#gender abolition#gender critical#radblr#trans#radblr being crazy#radblr bs#tra bs#tra nonsense
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I'm currently participating in the "Write Frictious, You Idiot, You Have One Chapter Left" challenge. I am the only participant, and yet I am somehow still losing
#don't worry i will get the chapter written#i just have to vent about it on my blog first#the joys of being a writer#writer stuff
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i JUST realized this might be related to one of my other friends in the mvk fandom suddenly hardblocking me so uh
hey y'all! if you frequent the mvk tag, there is a regular blogger there who i will not name, but who has some sort of pathological attachment/obsession with me. they and i were tumblr mutuals but we were not close. we DM'd twice and had scattered interactions here and there.
they are accusing me of:
being abusive toward them
being otherwise cruel to them
being ableist against disabled folks who are high-support???
sending suibait/having my friends send suibait
probably other things.
EDIT: someone's informed me they're accusing me of posting private stuff from their vent account? the only account i know of theirs is the one we were mutuals on
i can't stress enough that none of this is true. there is no proof of it and if you press this person they will have none. all that happened was some time about a year ago when we were mutuals, i feared they might be vagueblogging about me when i was having depressive episodes and i sent them this message about it:
i was being honest here, but they then turned around and said i was spot on--they were vagueblogging about how badly they wanted me to shut the fuck up, stop whining, etc (paraphrasing, but that was the vibe exactly) every time i needed social support. they have since deleted their message admitting to this. i am so sorry i cannot prove it.
since then multiple mutual friends of ours have unfollowed them because they squat on ym blog and, again, pathologically blog about me. they revel and make posts about "justice" and "karma" whenever i am upset on here. they scream and yell and cry whenever i am happy. they have admitted to wanting to convince their mutuals to abandon me:
again, i can't prove this is about me but i have a lot of testimonials from people who noticed this being in both our circles and can vouch for it. initially i was just going to roll my eyes and move on but i think they might be telling other people i'm some horrible fucking abuser who mistreated them when i wasn't even close enough to them to do so.
anyways, sorry to everyone who tracks the tag! i don't know how to prove that i didn't hurt this person. but... like... if they approach you, please do your best to use best judgement and consider the facts in front of you.
again, i will not be naming them. this is not a callout post. this is a preventative measure, because i am a traumatized wreck and i really cannot deal with things of this nature.
#manfred von karma#wordy wendy#literally someone in the mvk fandom who i never had a bad interaction with#just suddenly blocked me out of the blue#and i was heartbroken and reached out with no response#it happens to me p often but it seemed particularly random...#and then by chance i stumbled upon this blog#whose vent tag has hundreds upon HUNDREDS of posts about me despite not having spoken to me in almost a year#and i know they are friends#so i am like. 90% sure they accused me of some horrible shit in private#given how much they post about wanting to turn all our mutual friends against me#really ugly behaviour overall. their vent tag is full of some absolutely reprehensible things.#including talking about how much they hate minorities#and very thinly-veiled posting about how they want palestinians to die and suffer#because theyre tired of seeing donations#i do not know how a person like this slipped into my circle back then#they seemed normal when we first met and just kinda... i don't know. i'm not going to speculate on what changed.
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Me: *lists all the things I'm going to do today* :)
Me: *doesn't do them*
#surprised pikachu face#not really venting just chatting#i had all these plans of important tasks and replying to messages and writing and blogging#and then my first important task took all my spoons :(#the rest shall have to wait until tomorrow 🤷♀️#i hung out with my mom which was nice -- just kinda parallel playing but i got all the tea on some recent stuff haha#i did a bit of art and kept Thinking of what ill write/reply/blog - if that counts 😂#mmm and i got good news about a class next semester#hope everyones doing well ❤️#rose rambles
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#this isn't the yandere fantasy i was looking for#i at least wanted him to be hot#or interesting#not some ugly loser ass misogynistic homophobe with no money#basically theres this weird dude that I see all the time at the dispensary I frequent#and I was just warned by the owners that for the past couple of weeks that he keeps asking them about me whenever im not there#and bringing me up to other customers (who I haven't met)#and telling them about me and talking about me when I'm not there#and I'm apparently the only person he does that about/to#and he keeps lying to me about things like living on his own#and having a job#and having siblings??#like just lying about anything and everything for no reason#unfortunately he does know where I live because he had to pick something up from me at some point#so I'm going to have to try and resolve it very carefully#hoping to confront him today#vent post#personal#honestly its not that deep I find it more funny then anything else#but it just seems ironic considering I just made this blog a few days ago and just wrote my first yandere fanfic#makes me feel like i manifested it#the monkeys paw sure did fuck me over on this one
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I took a nap earlier tonight which was a luxurious and great choice on my part but now I'm fighting the impulse to fuck around online til 9am when My Stand-in 5 drops and just catch up on sleep on Saturday lol
#i won't do this! i promise i won't do this#but part of my brain very much thinks i will do this#we're so close... just 8 more hours#dear diary#i only have a few weeks left of this job and i have tried to not publicly shittalk so i don't get doxxed#so that i 1. sustain my professional relationships 2. don't have my ass eating mafia torturer blog associated with my worksona#but the closer i get to the end the closer i also get to the end of my rope#it is so hard not to vent or to fantasize about publicly venting as soon as i'm set in a new job#so that's the other reason my brain won't let me sleep#so many moral quandaries this year i could not post my way through#but either i will finish working here in 2wks or bluesky will let you have private accounts#whichever comes first. one way or another the end is nigh
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i fell asleep drawing these hai chat
#art.png#zephyr sona#intrj posting#tw blood#i would tag that first one but i kinda don't wanna reveal what Happened yet#in-system trauma dw about it haha!! (i lied on my personal blog i almost drew it sorry chat)#fly on the wall is such a positive vent song lmaooo (i have complicated feelings about our prev host)#i don't think these count as a vent anymore SO just take them! lmaoo!
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Little friendly reminder to be nice to me in my ask box :) if I haven’t gotten to your ask yet, it’s just because I’ve been busy or I don’t have an idea for it yet- I’ll get to it! Just don’t be rude if it takes me awhile-
#like I have a life and job-#and I do this for fun 🤠👍#sending in asks about why I haven’t answered yours yet is fine btw!!’#but don’t tell me to ‘hurry tf up it’s been a week!!’#I’m sorry??? is this your blog?#no.#it’s mine :)#and I never said I answers ask in any kind of order-#usually I answer what catches my eye first#sorry this is just me venting a bit jshsjhs#but like- don’t be rude on anon-#it’s fuckin’ annoying and it won’t get your ask answered faster 💀#yelling into the void
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with any oc. if you're not going to give them the effort of reading all their headcanons and backstory or the like. the least you can do is read their basic stats. i don't mind helping people with cat's long ass backstory and intricate details.
but when people have no idea her basic stats then it just feels demeaning tbh.
#just thinking about how in the past#i have had people just. not know basic shit#due to previous fcs even i've had people#not even know i was an oc#i had people follow me and make me starters as a KITTY PRYDE#due to my very first fc#like all you needed to do was GLANCE at my blog to know i was an oc#give ocs or ANY BLOG the decency to read basic stats#you have no idea if they're canon divergent or the like#stop making assumptions about characters or#trying to lump them into what you want#respect your rp partners everyone#....this rant is for NO reason other than passed experiences lol#like from a ways ago#there's a reason i don't follow others first anymore (:#&&. to be deleted#negative //#sort of but will tag just in case#vent //
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mkay its been a few days and i dont have the most perfect words to express this but uh. please remember just bc i reblog certain kinks on this blog and am publicly horny in general doesn't mean that you can try to engage in that kink with me without asking first, especially if we are not mutuals.
#i feel like I'm pretty open in my tags and rbs and vents about being actually Very anxious re: sex and penetration#and I know I've said a couple times the way to flirt with me is thru my ego#but like. pls dont come in my inbox detailing how u (a stranger i dont follow who follows me) are going to submit yourself to me & knot me#like (A) im a switch yes but i do not dom freely. its a very intimate act for me bc i am not like a hard dom. i am basically mommy in bed#(w/o liking being called mommy) when i dom so yk. and (B) yes i love knots and i even have publicly talked abt taking some mutuals knots bu#that doesnt mean i want Everyone to knot me yk? and it was a mistake so im not sharing this person's name or anything else i just yk#general reminder uh. if we're not mutuals and u wanna send me a fantasy about what u wanna do To me pls just do like a 2sec check#i promise it'll be better for both of us if u go “omg i had this fantasy wanna hear it” first#(** misunderstanding not mistake)#tldr: please just like. if we have never spoken or we're not mutuals Ask me before sending fantasies that Involve me esp if dynamics based#also if we are mutuals like i follow ur side blog/u follow me from main ik thats a different circumstance#and in those cases uh. if u don't interact frequently from main just lmk Who u are first bc i am actually very bad at social cues#and do not pick up on if a side blog and main are run by the same person unless its spelled out for meeeee
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#full transparency i didn't read the whole the whole live-blog twitter thread about the podcast episode#but i started reading the first one#because i kept seeing people talk about them#and idk they were giving me bad vibes. like parts of it felt. idk victim blamey???#also it started off by being like 'this isn't a power imbalance if it's just a fan and a famous author'#which i just simply don't agree with#to me it is an imbalance if one of you is a literal celebrity and the other is a barely adult fan of yours#that's just my own opinion#but the whole thing just gave me a bad taste. like there was a lot of 'what she just laid there and didn't say anything?'#which is so. maybe i'm jaded but idk maybe she did even if she didn't like it#and also there's been multiple cases of confirmed abuse/assault that i've read about/seen where everything looked happy on the outside#like the fact that she sent him 'loving' messages the day after isn't enough for me to conclude that this woman is lying#and like. i'm not saying she can't be lying#but i also don't think there's enough evidence either way#at worst the allegations are true#and at best they're false and the people who published this piece are capitalizing off allegations of SA#both fucking suck#i said i'd stop talking about this but a lot of people's talk of the situation is rubbing me the wrong way#i was talking to a friend abt this and she was like 'the outlet and the journalists being sketchy doesn't mean the accusers are too'#which is personally how i feel as well#like yeah you're right the people who broke the news have red flags all around#but i wouldn't put it past people like this to capitalize off SA. real or not.#vent#rant
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'nother big post of closed species guys i've designed since folks were nice abt the last one :)
mignyans (alien parasite crabs that infect a host and cause the thing-esque meat to manifest on their bodies):
^ free anniversary event design! they do a scavenger hunt every october for traits and it's always a good time
^design i did as a guest artist for the species! using the new mineral deposit trait that was added after the last anniversary event
^ this is one of my favorites i've ever done. i love you channel wvmb you will always be famous to me.
^ this one and the next one were designed based on premade crabs! this one's the same species as the first mignyan i ever designed
^ this one goes with the sun & moon one :) wizard & apprentice
^metalhead!! bloody remnants logo designed by my wonderful fiance
starlyngs (avian creatures that are personified stars i think? i'll be honest i'm less clear on the lore i just think they're neat):
^ shithead extraordinaire who is in trouble all the time for stealing & conning people out of valuables
^ freak.
#ibis art#i forgor what i tagged the last one of these i did#but if anyone wants to see all the beasts i've designed they're up on my toyhou.se same username as here#p much the only stuff on tumblr i've ever seen abt closed species is drama/vent blogs and i want to stay faaaar away from that#so i don't post much about these here but i like them a lot and they are fun to make#they feel like good creative exercises! ive seen a lot of people complain abt cs being too restrictive#and i've definitely had that experience in SOME cs... there's a few i abandoned bc design stuff was too strict#but you can find a lot of spaces that are much freer with design guidelines and working with those rules is really fun for me#i'd say rule of thumb is never join a species if they don't offer a free way to make your own and only make yr first one on a free myo#that way you don't lose money if anything Sucks and can hit the bricks no problem#i like to buy slots for mignyans bc i like making a lot & it supports my friend on the mod team#but i seriously sideeye any species without a free myo option or that puts time limits on free myos from events & the like#and anyway you can just make whatever you want forever and you don't have to make it part of a species. that's also always an option#ok tag ramble DONE ibis AWAYYYY
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I love when I'm talking to someone and someone else who I don't know like that butts in to ask a really personal question that informs the conversation they are not a part of
#joked to a coworker that shes gonna get in trouble for breaking dress code and ahe asked abt my shirt#and i said i have a special exception and was gonna leave it at that and tell her abt it later when ppl werent around#and my fucking old supervisor who was literally demoted for being bad at their job goes 'whats your special exception'#first of all who was talking to you. not me#so i said i am disabled and constricting clothes cause discomfort and they said 'why don't you just buy plain shirts'#BITCH WHO ASKEDDDD. first of all they do not pay me enough for that second of all they should just comply with the fucking ada#so why are they interrupting my fucking conversation to ask about my clothes#im just too tired and frustrated and stressed for this. theyre lucky there were people around or i would've lost it probably#lol when an ex coworker decides its ok to share what you post on your personal blog with people you still work with#if any of you are looking at this post again stop. leave my blog. its incredibly inappropriate to share a private blog without permission#i don't tell anyone at work about my blog for a reason. this has been my blog/diary since i was 12 years old#i say things on here I wouldn't say irl because this is where i vent thoughts that are harsh. please respect my privacy#and stop fucking snooping on me. thanks.#and please do no not mention anything you saw here to anyone ever. including me.
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Years ago I held some fucked up opinions, as you do when you’re 15 or so. In a pre-turn off reblogs post that gets thousands of notes telling me I’m a piece of shit and dozens of asks full of rape threats and suicide baiting kind of a way. I don’t really remember most of it because I deleted everything related to it immediately/as I encountered it. I probably have a few hundred blogs blocked that I would consider good and decent people because i was blocking everyone who interacted with that post in bad faith. And because I couldn’t tell who was sending gore and sexually explicit stuff to my inbox and who wasn’t.
I do remember this one blog though. They messaged me asking if I was okay - acknowledging that the blogs in the notes and in my inbox had taken it too far and that I was entitled to being upset by the harassment. They lied initially (claiming to agree with me, although a quick scope of their blog suggested they didn’t but I didn’t bring it up) but eventually admitted that they thought my opinion was harmful, but that it wasn’t just cause for the harm I was being dealt. I remember that their icon and blog theme was something purple-y black.
I deleted the convo as I was with most messages that rolled in at that time - I didn’t want to remember it, and I was in a pretty deep depression spiral well before it took off. But I wish I could thank them. It took one person from thousands to tell me ‘hey your hurt in this moment is real and unjustified. but you do need to critically examine this opinion you hold’ and wouldn’t you know? Years later I cringe at the opinion I held so dear and proclaimed so loudly.
If you’re out there satanist blog with purple and black blog theme thank you; you have no idea how much our short conversation helped me.
#ra speaks#personal#vent ish#sorry I just think abt them sometimes like. fuck. I want to thank them so badly for something they probably don’t remember.#honestly the first three days after that post broke containment I was legitmately considering traditional* self harm I was so upset#*I have trichotillomania and it did indeed get severely triggered by this harassment#but then this complete stranger who thought I was in the wrong reached out and it was like a promise#that it would pass and I would feel better no matter how helpless and isolated I was feeling then#I don’t want to about what would have happened if they didn’t reach out. I would be in a much worse place now I imagine.#congrats to that blog you probably saved my life/influenced my sexuality and gender revelations and acceptance#not turning reblogs off on this post so don’t be an ass in your tags or comment if you do reblog it
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