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Why can't I have time to study everything
#nat talks#studyblr#academia#I love chemistry#but i wish I could also study classics#and history#and physics#i love learning#i just hate exams
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Jesus Christ I feel like I am going mad.
#i just hate exams#why am i even doing this to myself#the anxiety is rising with each day#i kind of feel like an animal that knows the day that it will get butchered#this happens every time I have to do exams#i am not that good at studying#sometimes I just dissociate for hours#like it is morning and i blink and then it is suddenly the evening#and then I panic because I didn't really get anything done#i fucking hate this so much#i can't even sleep because my brain just goes EXAMS!!! EXAMS ARE IN A WEEK#where the hell is my mind#it just feels like i am living in some kind of alternate universe when i have to do exams#when I don't have to do exams i am just normal and happy but as soon as i have to do that shit again i am going completely off the rails#panic panic panic#i feel like i am on my way to the guillotine and i am not even a french aristrocrat#like there are two people inside of me normal june and exam june. i hate exam june she is ruining my life#i hate exams because i know that I will either fail or barely pass with a bad grade#i am just not good at this#but there is no way out#it is as if i have to relieve my worst nightmare over and over again
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exam 5 for me... tomorrow!
honestly have been feeling really nervous for this exam since my classmates have either failed it or just barely passed. and i had less time to study this time around because i rushed to book the exam.
so i drew this little encouragement early cuz i need the reminder that no matter what happens tomorrow, i did what i could and i didn't compromise on my boundaries—and that is its own victory.
and i hope that you'll be reminded to celebrate your own big and small victories too!
"You are nervous and that's okay! You did your best! You set boundaries! You took breaks! We're so proud of you, Starlight! Whatever happens, we'll always be here, cheering you on!"
#fnaf sun#fnaf eclipse#fnaf moon#fnaf dca#dca fandom#crab art#bright colours#traditional art#self-insert#my OC Esther#on a funnier note (gonna ramble)#i realized today that i could technically bring a sprite to drink in my exam#we're only allowed water in a clear drink container without any labels#so like... sprite is clear enough to work right?#and if they ask about the bubbles i'll just say it's sparking water#(i hate sparkling water but they don't need to know that)#but yeah might do that cuz i think the sugars will do me some good#3 hour exams are inhumane#anyways going to sleep now because i need sleep more than sugar#the worst thing that could happen is i fail and i have to pay another $115 to retake the exam and i receive the disappointment of my mom#i could buy a sun and moon plushie with that money#maybe even an eclipse plushie too#so the stakes are pretty high i think#if i pass i'll buy those plushies hehe#maybe just one for now because i still have more payments to make for my program#okay okay no more rambling going to sleep now
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“a sexual awakening so intense it registered on the richter scale” is the single best and most accurate description I have ever heard.
pov: you're 16 years old and doing the final test for your super license ahead of joining f1 as the youngest ever driver. you expect the doubt and hate, and you know you can prove on track why you deserve to be there once you actually get in a car, but until then, you just have to be the subject of everyone's headlines and criticism for a factor you can't control.
then this guy comes along.
race winner who got himself to a top team and is beating his world champion teammate, a cool older handsome charismatic guy with a giant smile and big brown eyes, beloved and kind while still being fiercely talented, competitive, and hungry? the guy who you met in 2011 and who gave you the time of day before you were old enough to sniff at the f1 grid. he's not even going to be your actual teammate (yet), but he still takes the time to tell you he's looking forward to seeing you on the grid when so much of what you've heard is nonstop criticism.
he tells you good luck for your super license with a big grin meant just for you
and this is how it makes you feel.
this is live footage of daniel ricciardo becoming a permanent fixture in max's spank bank. it's one of those foundational crushes you have at a young age that sticks with you for life and unconsciously affects "your type" forever and never truly goes away.
also, i just think everyone should hear the way max very softly says "he's a really nice guy, yeah" with so much affection packed into every word.
how are you not to psychosexually imprint on him? one look at that video and max was ready to risk it all. he's been metaphorically tucking his hair, kicking his feet, and giggling since day one. he found a guy who he could race hard, who would challenge him on track, but who would still make the miserable pr days better for them, who was always laughing at max's jokes every time he did his little glance over to ensure it landed. max is so fiercely loyal to his people, and daniel has clearly earned that trust.
tldr: max verstappen is number one dirlie and if he were on f1blr, he would be writing long posts with onboards, data, and that ☝️🤓 attitude of his explaining in detail why everyone is wrong about daniel, and i hope it haunts all the max fans who get their rocks off to calling daniel a washed asshole loser that max's porn folder is daniel late braking compilations.
#ask#this got long. sorry. i also took a 5 minute crying break over old videos of daniel.#my exams start in a week and this is what i'm doing#anyway#OBVIOUSLY i don't think you have to like daniel ricciardo in order to love max.#but it's perplexing to me that people can look at someone who makes max so visibly happy#and dedicate their entire life to obsessively hate-posting about him.#move on! ignore him!#i couldn't tell you anything about a driver i hate's race besides the basic race coverage#because i don't dig into every facet of it to feed an pathological hatred.#i definitely couldn't tell you things about their personal life/anything what they've been up to/recent quotes/etc#because i just see them and scroll. wish others had that ability.#maxiel
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Are you kidding me.... ARE YOU GODDAMN KIDDING ME!????
You are telling me to abandon the ship i've been shipping for 10+ yrs, that the fandom has been shipping for 20+ yrs?????
I am sorry but, that's just insane. How could you do that to us??? It hasn't even been 2 weeks since Kaishin day and you drop that on us Gosho?????
How could you make kaishin, cousins just to justify their similar looks (and other similarities).....
Yes, I'll forever believe this was the reason why he gave us a cousin reveal (after 20+ yrs!!).... and also cuz kaishin was taking over his canon couple,,, no matter what other reason might be there or what he may give.
You wanted them to be cousins from the beginning? Then why the hell did you wait for over 20 yrs to reveal that??? Yeah no, I am not believing in any of the reasons Gosho gives for "revealing" them as cousins after over two decades.
Canon can go into the trash can and fuck itself (and f u too Gosho).
If they were going to be cousins from the beginning, they should have never given us the kaishin food for all these yrs. Neither in the manga, nor in the movies.
All that poetry Shinichi spouts everytime he is describing Kaito? That one time Shinichi held his dick? Those kissing noises in M 3? That trust they show in each other M 8 (and that train arc??)?? And I can go on and on and on about all the times they added flame to the fire and made kaishin shippers grow into what it is today.
And then suddenly they drop "cousins" on us
And you want me to accept that?? Yeah, no. Not gonna happen.
Kaishin has helped me cope with so many things, I am not gonna drop it, I am not accepting this canon.
If people want to, they are free to do so. If they want to purge their kaishin fanworks, you can do that (tho it would be incredibly sad to loose the fanworks. This fandom has some of the best fics and fanworks i've come across), if you want to leave the ship, you can do that too (which, again, would be very sad, cuz I've met some of the nicest people in this fandom, and it's one of the few fandom ship spaces that is not so tixic... as compared to many other fandom ship groups)
And that's all from me for now over this reveal. I just had to get this out of the system y'know? This reveal sucks. They are giving kaishin akai/akemi treatment, dammit.
#i hope people don't delete thir kaishin works tho... but that's just me hoping.#i have an exam in 3 days and this reveal is gonn eat me up for teo whole days#i just know it#i was gonna stay away from the dcmk fandom from today to until my exams are over y'know?#but I got spoiled about the cousin reveal in the TCF/LCF server of all places....TT#this really blew up... and considering the news... very understandable#🥲#i hate u Gosho#kaishin#dcmk#m 27#m 27 spoilers#movie 27#kudo shinichi#edogawa conan#kaitou kid#kuroba kaito#detective conan#magic kaito
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doodle dump :3
some of these r comic wips that i prob won't get to (the last one is post w7 where an anxious usopp places traps around the sunny and sanji gets caught in one bfhdkjs)
#drawings that weren't good enough to get their own posts so im dumping them here bgfhkdj#op#one piece#art#my art#mintart#sanuso#usosan#sanrio sanuso#sanji#mr prince#vinsmoke sanji#usopp#also adding onto the last one i wanted it to be short and sweet with sanji reassuring usopp that he didn't need to prove his usefulness but#tbh it got too long to become a comic cuz that's a whole ass conversation i wrote out and then deleted cuz no way am i drawing allat#I HAVE EXAMS 💔#i still like the concept tho so im releasing it out into the world do as u please with it#im just not the best Worder#also the yellow and red ones r from lars' strawpage LOL#hi lars if ur reading this im turning u into spaghetti#the winter sanji one is from the sanji collab but i actually kinda hate how it looks#so it's not getting its own post 😭😭😭
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the thing that really gets me in mha is that like. before deku gets his quirk everyone is like you cant be a hero at all. which at the time makes sense bc all might is number one but like at all??? thats crazy. and then woah he has a quirk and he can be a hero and gets into the top class of the top hero school and we immediately meet a guy whose power is just tail. his name is tailman. and another who i kid you the fuck not is a diaper wearing misogynist whose whole schtick is he has sticky balls. and they’re like these r the top students ever!! the future of japan!! and deku is like i could have never gotten here without all might!! meanwhile ojiro is sitting there like a singular fucked up backflip away from being in the same boat as him hello?? looking at him straight on he’s just man?? are you serious right now. and then deku loses his super cool quirk whatevs and has to wait forever for his super powerful best friend/lover/enemy? to buy him a super cool gadget thingy whole time fucking tailman is over here on the same level as the kid who makes lightning bolts strong enough to fry the human brain come out of his hands
#this is not ojiro hate its just truly baffling#like that entrance exam you want to tell me ur furry tail got u in??#literally fuck off#me on my way to fight giant robots with my dog tail#mha#my hero academia#i mean i get that ojiros whole character is to show you dont need a flashy quirk or whatevs#but then#WHY CANT DEKU BE A HERO WITHOUT SUPER EXPENSIVE SUPPORT GEAR#maybe not the number one obvi#izuku midoriya#bakugou katsuki#bkdk#but in a like historical i am a mere historian recounting a tale way#not in a shipping way#a factual one#mineta minoru#denki kaminari#if i was deku and spent my whole life being told i would never get anywhere in life and then miraculously got powers#and walked into the top class of the top hero school#and a red haired mohawk fuck came up to me and was like#hey im kirishima my superpower is i get hard#i would lose my shit#completely#AND THEN#THE GUY WHO BULLIED ME FOR BEING QUIRKLESS (my lover)#DECIDED THE HARD GUY WOULD BE ONE HIS BESTIES#NAHHHH#kirishima eijirou#i just cant
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it is so annoying when people just... refuse to see symbolism in the actions of female characters while at the same time going wild over every single thing male characters do. "why does she do this there are tons of other practical solutions!" have you considered that... maybe.... the author knew that..... and did the impractical one... on purpose??? like authors often do??????? if you can write a 5 paragraph essay on why your favorite man dyed his hair black or something then i am SURE you have to capacity to suspend your disbelief for one moment to understand why the author chose to have a woman make a certain choice. maybe you will even like her better for it, maybe not! but at the very least TRY!!!
#like at this point. holy shit. you just hate women.#shockingly this is brought on by me once again seeing hate on 12yo sakura haruno for cutting her hair in the chunin exams. but#i see it. i see it EVERYWHERE. like?? tell me you think women are irrational and incapable of making logical choices without telling me#that is the ONLY conclusion i get from posts like that. bro you are being ignorant on purpose. that is NOT a gotcha moment
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Can't wait for Colin to be his true self in pt 2 so people can finally understand him as a character
#words are not enough#I need a gun to defend him rn#rake doesn't fit him? that's the point. jobless? he's an aristocrat. ugly? frankly you just need an eye exam#I'm also being optimistic cus some people hate him purely because he's not Anthony#oh and he only likes pen now because he liked the kiss or is lusting? Imma need you to rewatch the series with your eyes open this time#I'm ranting#bridgerton#polin
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so turns out doing homework at 2am was not the right move. i will not be learning from this.
#the scary discussion board is done tho#hate discussion boards#brb vs the call of the academia#im posting this as validation that i should be allowed to nap.#will i? nah#i gonna study for the personality exam i have tomorrow#today's just been like *slow blink* Time to go already?
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Maybe Vos and Jack weren't Sammy's only friends.
#minecraft story mode#mcsm#mcsm nurm#nurm mcsm#Clemont_ine#On a lighter note#Headcannon that Sammy and Nurm used to be best friends when they were like.. 14#Sammy used to visit the village Nurm lived in frequently and they would explore the forests surrounding it#Unknown to the other villagers ofc I feel like they aren't chill with their kids just leaving the village without supervision lol#And as they got older it turned into having picnics in caves and on cliffs n places Nurm finds#And having very juicy gossip sessions together about stuff happening in their different settlements#I have so many Nurm headcannons it's wild BRO#N e ways my exams start tomorrow morning so my disappearance starts soon#I have ENGLISH first#I hate English#UGH#Did this instead of studying#Guys drawing Nurm will help me pass the exam trust (I am so cooked)
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LETS GO GUYS IM TEMPORARILY THE HEADER IMAGE FOR THE TROBED TAG !!
#very chuffed about this#fanks for liking my art guys#i am making more i just also have to pass my near future determining exams ☹���#trobed#❤️❤️❤️#troy and abed my favs#i actually hate this drawing lmfao
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couple of mello + near doodles
#death note#mello#mihael keehl#near#nate river#meronia#bright colors#eyestrain#been having fun w colors recently :3#these are the product of me really really really not wanting to do some discussion boards#like i don’t even hate discussion boards but something about them has been filling me with dread i’d rather just do exams tbh#i'm like dragging myself through the rest of this semester but it's different from last semester last semester i was losing my mind#this semester i've been able to sleep more than 4 hours a night and go outside bc it's not freezing but also i'm just so fucking done#with school i've been here too long i'm tired but i'm always tired and will always be tired it's tragic honestly i think i'd be more cool#with school if i weren't living how i am rn w my family but eh i don't have the money to move out so it's whatever and it doesn't really#help that i know i'll have to get at least a master's to really do anything in my field and the though of doing more of this makes#me so tired i think i might take a gap year after i get my bachelors this fall idk#anyways enjoy my doodles or don't if you don't want to i'm not the boss of you
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I think the description of Benson and Randy's relationship as "parasocial" is quite apt. Benson says "I've been watching you, and I know for a fact..." He posits that Randy is not like anyone else in their small shitty town, that there's something uniquely 'fixable' about him. It's something that Benson stakes most of his motivation on throughout the movie 'it was the only thing I believed' and in some ways this is reflected in Randy as truth, but sometimes the character traits Benson projects onto Randy just fall short of reality. Randy says that his mom held him back a grade and Benson paints the picture of a domineering authority figure that Randy must rebel against, And clearly believes this is the case based on the tenacity with which he listens to--and disapproves of-- Randy's conversation with his mother on the phone. However listening to the conversation is just dull. His mom does come across as over bearing, pointing out the number of rings it took him to pick up, but she's otherwise normal compared to the image Benson seems to have of her. Same with Lisa. Benson strolled into the mall with Randy as though a great revelation was to be made, like Lisa was this monumental event in Randy's life, but Randy and Lisa's relationship was underwhelming. They were briefly dating in highschool and they broke it off rather amicably because Randy was not an emotionally fulfilling partner to Lisa. Randy claims not to know why Lisa broke up with him, and to Benson this is an injustice, but in reality it's just Randy being a little obtuse and naive about Lisa's emotional needs. Lisa could've been more transparent about why the relationship ended but they were kids, and she took the path of little resistance, likely in an attempt to spare Randy's feelings. There's nothing unique or life-altering about Lisa and Randy. Benson seems to project this false narrative onto Randy--and the rest of the world, tbh-- that is further highlighted by Marsha's character, who is another NPC that Benson decides to codify within his world view. Marsha once again deviates from the role Benson believes she fits in, standing up to him and rebelling against the notion that all other people in this town are aimless and complacent. Part of me wondered, after they went to Beard's house, why Randy's 'transformation' felt flat for me, and part of it is because the journey Randy takes is somewhat belied by the fact that Benson did not do any of that for Randy. Not any real version of Randy, anyway. Benson did it for a made up version of Randy in his head and he went along with it because there was a gun at his back.
#idrk#it's an interesting aspect of Bensons psychology#the passenger 2023#the passenger#randy bradley#Benson#like it makes me wonder about Randy's home life#the glimpses we get of it are just incredibly mundane#a sister that does dance an overinvolved mother#he was on good enough terms with Lisa that he knew where she worked years later#like i fully believe randy has friends outside of work#benson sees him as this total loser but like#hes justa guy. he was going to get a promotion#he had an asshole coworker and was maybe a little fixated on something he did when he was seven#but randy just seems very normal to me#i think in deciding that Randy was different and fixable benson was actually just acting out the hope that he himself was fixable#that maybe if he could save this young loser coworker from a job that he hated and a life repressing his emotions and never moving past his#trauma then benson too could have hope for himself#and so the end of the movie is kind of a juxtaposition for me#yes there was hope for Randy#there was#randy got to move on with his life got to have his character evolution got to process the traumatic event from his fundamental years#but benson very much did not#in the end it consumed him#and that's sad#anyways#things i think about instead of the impending biochem exam
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They say you can tell a lot bout an artist by the way they draw themselves how do you draw yourself spitzy if you don’t mind me asking?
i have had limr one lther person ask me to draw myself so bere !!! me .. im just a happy jolly gay girl honestly with a los4r fashion sense im nkt too special i am literally rvery gay girl whos a loser boyfriend
#going to writr little facts aboit myself whatever#my handwriting is actually shit it takes me likr so long to write the dialogur#becaude i keep on wroting it teerrible#my college has asled me to write with a laptop for exams#they literally camt read it#i refuse to ise a laptip idont care i fucking HATE typing on laptops#i also never take off my coat#it was omce lime 30 degrees celsiys on emgland and i was MELTING#woth my coat on becauze i refuse to take that shit off#i likr rock congs !!! honestly any song with shouting ill like#i limr sex songs also !! my playlost has likr 3000 songs and most of those songs are just moaning#also hige fan of britney spears i knoe the lyrocs to ALL HER SONGS i mean EVRRY SINGLE ONE i know the lyrics#by heart
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Day 6 of being hospitalized. I’ve begun having thoughts like “I wonder what Hilda characters would act like if they had to go through long hospital stays” and “I should write a post on headcanons of Hilda characters as patients”. I am climbing up my walls
#I don’t think I told you guys what was happening?#uh sorry I just went radio silent#anyway my kidneys are infected. by some motherfucking bacteria that won’t show up in any exam#I hate being a patient. what is this. this feels wrong#anyway I’m doing fine! imagining says I still have the infection/inflammation but I feel fine#which is why I’m climbing up my walls#let me out. LET ME OOOUUT#not hilda#wife speaks
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