#i just had to let this out

[myrquez]

rosquez reconciliation is just not going to happen like never in their life ever (except, maybe, in just one case. maybe)

and i’m almost sure of that bc. listen. i have so many thoughts and it’s early in the morning and it’s gonna be so messy and i don’t even know if someone has already said this but.

what i’m really convinced of is, valentino didn’t believe marc sabotaged him. i think the whole sabotage story is bullshit. like, it IS really bullshit even for them. it’s as believable as that polleria osvaldo prank.

ofc uccio didn’t check any telemetry shit. ofc valentino didn’t really think marc was sabotaging him in phillip island. marc had a rough start of the season that year, made many mistakes, but at some point he eventually started to get his shit back together and even tho he wasn’t a contender for the title anymore he could’ve been very much of an obstacle put in the middle of the road of his climb to the 10th. that sabotage conspiracy theory really was nothing but a means to “scare off” little marc, to try to make him take a few steps back and get him off the hook or whatever. he NEEDED marc out of the games bc that was his last chance to get his 10th and he truly wanted it at ALL costs. plus, he really loved his silly little mind games. he pulled that shit with gibernau, biaggi, casey AND jorge himself. but it BIBLICALLY backfired bc marc has always been one tough mf and of course he served vale a little taste of his own medicine (showing him what it would have been like to have him as an actual sabotaging agent on track) and OF COURSE he had to show that he wasn’t scared or anything. OF COURSE he had to show that he would’ve never bent down for anybody. should he have behaved differently? probably. but he literally was 22. and it’s not to babey him or anything, it’s how it is. 22 years of age and FIRE in his veins, headstrong, impulsive, and all of that. of course it didn’t end well, that was the only possible outcome, no variations. vale ended up losing his 10th and marc.. well we know what he had to go through

but that’s it. vale’s own ambition outweighed his talent (for mindgames) (quote) and he lost the championship the exact moment he went and poked the wrong bear. vale never felt betrayed, he STILL does not feel betrayed or anything. it’s not about genuine delusions or hurt feelings, it’s about ego, truly. vale doesn’t need and doesn’t want any apology. vale just doesn’t want anyone to reach HIS greatness. HIS status as a god. which is why he ended up being friendly with all of his past enemies on track, they’re out of the games now, of course! they couldn’t (and won’t now) reach his status as a god not even if they wanted to. except for the one that is still riding despite everything he went through

this is why, or at least i think it is, they will never really fully reconcile, IF not, maybe, in just one case: marc retires before he has reached (or surpassed) vale’s number of championships.

even in that case, i wouldn’t be really sure it could eventually happen. but it’s really the only scenario that seems probable to me.

[unpuffedreese]

I’ve been having the biggest brainrot and I just can’t stop thinking of how limbus company is such a perfect setting for a crossover AU.

Just the idea of putting characters from other media in The City, a cruel and bleak dystopia, is already great, but specifically grabbing twelve very traumatized characters that under normal circumstances would never cross paths, shoving them in a bus, sending them into extremely dangerous missions where they’re expected to die over and over while also making them literally fight their trauma one by one, and worst of all, forcing them to get along.

Just imagine, Azula having to fight her own father manifesting some phoenix E.G.O. alongside Shinji, Homura and Kazui.

[poopiefart420]

How it feels to see any content of ozai, hakoda, unalaq, tonraq, or Lu ten

[shrewmingledotcom]

i physically cannot get over gyjo like oh my god look at these two gay cowboys they are so in loveh oly fucking shit *crashes in to a wall* *explodes*

[luvyeni]

JUST A SMALL RANT ❗❗

lately i've been feeling so much better , like back when i was getting tons and tons of hate , i wanted to quit , like i genuinely hated writing , i only wrote because i felt like i had to , i felt trapped.

now i feel like since i don't rush to put out work anymore , and im moving on my time , writing when i want , and taking breaks when i feel like it , im loving writing again.

for any writers , if you're ever feeling like that , take the break of you need it , don't write when you aren't feeling your best , don't lose your passion.

[awastulpatafi]

a lil rant

general TW before reading, it's a bit of a sob story but I need to get it out

It's very hurtful to see SO many anti-endos say "I dislike endos because they are always xyz" and generalizing this entire group saying we take away resources for traumatized systems, invade their safe spaces, and tell them hurtful things (like threatening or insulting)

because a lot of us don't do any of those things, but it seems like quite a few anti-endos feel the need to call out endos on these things they assumed they have done simply because they are an endo system

This generalizing needs to stop, especially for systems like mine who are mixed origins. No, we do need our trauma resources, we are traumatized and we aren't taking up your resources, we are using the resources that we need too

We have OSDD-1b and understand the crippling difficultly that comes with our disorder and how important having resources, but telling people that are trying to find ways to cope with their situations that they are not valid and not worthy of trying to help themselves is not helpful for anyone

Having DID/OSDD exclusive spaces is awesome and can be super helpful for many different reasons like sharing struggles and resources, but we don't see how anti-endo spaces are at all helpful

Like we said before, we have OSDD-1b, however I myself am an endogenic headmate, I was NOT formed from the systems trauma and was instead formed by an alter within our system with a role to help us better function

Excluding our system, other mixed origins system, and pro-endo traumagenic systems from these DID/OSDD spaces is restricting their access to these resources that they need too!

Not understanding endos or questioning endos is a normal thought process for one who isn't endogenic or educated on endogenic systems, and in fact it's great to do your own research and come to your own conclusion rather than conform to what everyone around you thinks

However to conclude within your head that endos are all terrible people who "steal" resources and invade safe spaces is jumping to a very big conclusion

Again, it's ok to be endo neutral or to question/not understand, but to attack, demonize, slander, and harass endo systems, endo safe spaces, and endo supporters isn't a positive thing

Nobody is perfect, not everyone agrees with everyone, but by no means is bullying acceptable

[osgoodsblog]

So I caved and watched episode two already (thoughts under the cut)

The episode immediately starting off with people working the fields made me realise straight away what was happening in terms of flashbacks. Then we see Mary and their comments of “she talks to herself and she’s always alone” oh my heart.

Of course they didn’t show the actual trials only that these two were planning to set her up for the crops failing so they wouldn’t get blamed. But then in episode three Mary is very indignant about the fact she “took the blame for something she didn’t do”. I thought we might get another flashback here, but I can understand why they didn’t want to show the actual trial cos they want to keep the show family friendly and they showed just enough that you knew what was going to happen but nothing too bad as to scare any kids watching I guess. Perhaps further on we might get a little more. Anyway, the fact that Mary kept to herself even in death for the first 50 years or so was so sad. It looks like it was just her and Robin and Humphrey at this time. She did interact with Humphrey at least since we saw her pick him up off the stairs but then he starts a dialogue with himself as if she was asking about his day so maybe she didn’t speak at all during this time? Then Annie comes along and oh my heart I love them so much. I love that Annie was the one to help Mary find her voice and become the sassy little gremlin we all know and love. Also whoever’s decision it was to bring Bridget Christie back, I love you. She was so good in this role, interestingly we see both Annie’s death and her ‘moving on’ in the same episode. The fact it happened whilst Annie and Mary were just taking a walk in the grounds and talking about things, oh poor Mary I felt for her so much. I wonder if Annie’s death made her retreat back into her shell for a little while, also wonder the timeline of her death cos we know she was still there when Thomas died and at that point most of the main ghosts were already dead but did she meet Pat or Julian? It is a shame anyway and I kinda hope we might get to see Annie again before the series ends. I guess the way to do it when you can’t add new characters so easily is through flashbacks like this. Still worry the main ghosts might move on by the end I think that would break me, lol.

[cherrysugcr]

there is gonna be loads of drama at my work this afternoon and i'm not involved but some pals of mine are involved and i'm like DYING because they don't know it's happening but I DO and lowkey like they were wrong so it's fair and all but omg omg omg omg omg

it's wild -- note no one is gonna get fired but my pals are gonna be pisssed

[theshadowrealmitself]

I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them

People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human

“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”

“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”

“Yeah!!”

“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”

“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“

“How illogical”

“That’s what I’m saying!!!”

[hinamie]

I'm always pushing you away from me / but you come back with gravity / and when I call, you come home

[chloesimaginationthings]

Jumpscare Balloon boy returns in FNAF 2 movie..

[sentimental-idiot25]

(sentimental-idiot25 story time)

TW: Abusive friendship/self-harm Nothing to do with my usual ships/ prompts/ one shots/ ficsBut part of me aa much as anything in this blog. Yesterday I was with a group of people and we were playing a game where we had to draw cards that asked questions that were meant to make us think/ deep questions. One of the questions that arose was 'who is someone you want to know on a deeper level' And instantly my mind when to the (verbally, mentally, and emotionally) abusive relationship I was in (not romantic but work relationship and a twisted version of a friendship...I def know I cared for him and he claimed to love me as a friend and all but the actions never reflected that). And I thought of him. This dude and me had to work together for a little under a year for this organization where he was the president and I was the vice president. So obviously we had to work close together. And we started out as almost entire strangers. But all my seniors in the organization told me to be wary of him. They warned me that he was not a good person, like none of the accusations against him were entirely bad. It seemed like immaturity issues or personality issues. So I started off with an open mind, but still had a bit of my guard up. And it was okay for a while, I personally think it was good. We stayed up texting, on calls, etc. It was nice. For a few months. slowly things within our organization became strained. and obviously he and I were the heads of it. So we felt the most pressure. But we were so incompatible as co-leaders. He was unreasonable, it was either his way or no way. He didn't seem to lead with any regard for anyone else but himself or his self interests or ego. I am a very people oriented person and am super empathetic. Our relationship became so strained. He verbally abused me, emotionally manipulated me, would gaslight me constantly. Everyt time I had a concerned and voiced it-- he would make me think I was in the wrong and I was the bad guy. Like this dude got into my face and yelled at me before. Mind you we are peers. The emotional abuse became so bad I started to self harm once again-- after being clean for 6+ years. We were (and still are) attending the same university. And at the time of the abuse, it took such a toll on me that I got actual letters from the school telling my professors that I could not attend my classes, had to turn in assignments late, etc. Because I was under heavy unforeseeable and debilitating emotional and mental stress. I stayed as Vice president because our tenure was only for a year. And as soon as the new vice president was elected I was free! I was no longer under any obligation to work with him. But of course I still feel the after affects to this day. I think of him everyday still even thought he is out of my life. Because of course what he did to me affects me to this day. Every time I see my self harm scars I think of him. He did that to me. He pushed me to harm myself. I went to therapy, psychiatry, and went on medication because of how distressed I was. Anyways enough context... I instantly thought to myself that I wanted to get to know my abuser on a deeper level (despite use being close in proximity for a year and having to constantly communicate with one another-- we maybe had less than 4 deep conversations-- we didn't know each other as regular friends would yk). Because what could possibly push someone to treat another person in such a way? How could you treat someone you said 'I love you' to in such a dehumanizing way. Even though I brought up these concerns with him he always told me I was the bad one in the relationship. Later that night I had a dream where I interacted with him again. We were both together in the context of our organization in present day. (He stepped down as president, but is still in the org. But I left entirely because of the negative experiences I went through) In my dream he was questioning why I was there-- and I got upset at him and was asking him why he treated me the way he did.

Granted in my dream I kinda exploded on him and called him names. He sat down and spoke in a soft voice. He didn't address what I was saying to him in that moment. Rather he began to speak about the accomplishments I earned after my term ended (I got a job with a company I want to work with post graduation). I woke up and thought to myself...despite everything I went through last academic year. I'm doing better-- or I'm trying everyday to do better. I'm so much further now in my life than I was when working with him and was in that abusive relationship with him. I need to acknowledge I've come so far. I no longer self harm. I am out of that organization that just gave me anxiety and paranoia. Of course the collateral of that experience still affects me-- but I'm going to classes again! I'm able to enjoy my life a little bit more. Be more myself. Get back into my interests like writing again!! But that dream hit me because it was my abuser telling me that I'm doing better...I'm doing what I always wanted to do, working with the company I wanted to work with for about a year. "look how far you've come"

[deans-asscot]

*The Walking Dead Spoilers*

Yes, I know I'm hella late but I finally got around to watching TWD. I'm only like half way through but OH MY GOD. I got to the part where Glenn died and I was so angry like I wanted to kill that other guy all over again. I was too angry to cry, but I did tear up a bit after. And then these mofos TOOK HIS NAME OUT OF THE OPENNING CREDITS for the next few eps. And I was like wow rude af. I was lowkey contemplating to stop watching cuz he's one of my favs if not THE fav. But its too good a show to stop. And these little fuqers.... when I tell you I cried tears of joy when they finally revealed he survived 😭 and then they put his name back in. I mean, I was in hopeful denial but at the same time I shoulda known cuz they never take out an actors name in the opening credits even if they die mid-season. But I was like well maybe they did it since he's an OG and to like honor him and shiz but naaaah, they was being little delinquents. Smh. I can't even imagine watching that live....I woulda been screaming on the internet like I am now 😅 I bet ppl were hella pissed and us Glenn truthers mapping out "here's how we can still win". God, then he almost got got AGAIN saving Maggie, UGH. I was like BOOOOI NOOOO. Thank u Daryl and crew coming at the nic of time as always 🤧. Also, Negan has been mentioned by name so I'm like FINALLY. I been waiting 6 seasons for this mofo to appear, so that should be soon now. Ugh, good stuff. Frustrating at times, but good.

[whetstonefires]

You know what I realize that people underestimate with Pride & Prejudice is the strategic importance of Jane.

Because like, I recently saw Charlotte and Elizabeth contrasted as the former being pragmatic and the latter holding out for a love match, because she's younger and prettier and thinks she can afford it, and that is very much not what's happening.

The Charlotte take is correct, but the Elizabeth is all wrong. Lizzie doesn't insist on a love match. That's serendipitous and rather unexpected. She wants, exactly as Mr. Bennet says, someone she can respect. Contempt won't do. Mr. Bennet puts it in weirdly sexist terms like he's trying to avoid acknowledging what he did to himself by marrying a self-absorbed idiot, but it's still true. That's what Elizabeth is shooting for: a marriage that won't make her unhappy.

She's grown up watching how miserable her parents make one another; she's not willing to sign up for a lifetime of being bitter and lonely in her own home.

I think she is very aware, in refusing Mr. Collins, that it's reasonably unlikely that anyone she actually respects is going to want her, with her few accomplishments and her lack of property. That she is turning down security and the chance keep the house she grew up in, and all she gets in return may be spinsterhood.

But, crucially, she has absolute faith in Jane.

The bit about teaching Jane's daughters to embroider badly? That's a joke, but it's also a serious potential life plan. Jane is the best creature in the world, and a beauty; there's no chance at all she won't get married to someone worthwhile.

(Bingley mucks this up by breaking Jane's heart, but her prospects remain reasonable if their mother would lay off!)

And if Elizabeth can't replicate that feat, then there's also no doubt in her mind that Jane will let her live in her house as a dependent as long as she likes, and never let it be made shameful or awful to be that impoverished spinster aunt. It will be okay never to be married at all, because she has her sister, whom she trusts absolutely to succeed and to protect her.

And if something eventually happens to Jane's family and they can't keep her anymore, she can throw herself upon the mercy of the Gardeners, who have money and like her very much, and are likewise good people. She has a support network--not a perfect or impregnable one, but it exists. It gives her realistic options.

Spinsterhood was a very dangerous choice; there are reasons you would go to considerable lengths not to risk it.

But Elizabeth has Jane, and her pride, and an understanding of what marrying someone who will make you miserable costs.

That's part of the thesis of the book, I would say! Recurring Austen thought. How important it is not to marry someone who will make you, specifically, unhappy.

She would rather be a dependent of people she likes and trusts than of someone she doesn't, even if the latter is formally considered more secure; she would rather live in a happy, reasonable household as an extra than be the mistress of her own home, but that home is full of Mr. Collins and her mother.

This is a calculation she's making consciously! She's not counting on a better marriage coming along. She just feels the most likely bad outcome from refusing Mr. Collins is still much better than the certain outcome of accepting him. Which is being stuck with Mr. Collins forever.

Elizabeth is also being pragmatic. Austen also endorses her choice, for the person she is and the concerns she has. She's just picking different trade-offs than Charlotte.

Elizabeth's flaw is not in her own priorities; she doesn't make a reckless choice and get lucky. But in being unable to accept that Charlotte's are different, and it doesn't mean there's anything wrong with Charlotte.

Because realistically, when your marriage is your whole family and career forever, and you only get to pick the ones that offer themselves to you, when you are legally bound to the status of dependent, you're always going to be making some trade-offs.

😂 Even the unrealistically ideal dream scenario of wealthy handsome clever ethical Mr. Darcy still asks you to undergo personal growth, accommodate someone else's communication style, and eat a little crow.

[baeshijima]

thoughts on being engaged to duke!sunday, the head of the oak family, an incredibly influential figurehead within society, the close subordinate of emperor gopher wood who brought him and his sister in and raised him like his own, and the villain who faces a tragic ending in a novel you recently finished — the very same one you just so happen to find yourself transmigrated into. he is as cunning as he is blinded, a trait which brought ruin to many in the empire, and one which ultimately brought ruin to himself at the hands of the protagonists.

as luck would have it, you became a barely mentioned side character from a marquis family, whose role was to be the villain's wife stuck in a one-sided love who, too, would get caught up in the tragedy alongside him. however, now that it's you who is stuck in this position, you're determined to try any means necessary to deter him from going down that path, all in an effort to escape your predestined doomed fate!

of course, you didn't expect it to be easy. the day of your arrival in this world was already the night before your wedding, so you had little time to prepare yourself for the nonchalance of your supposed family, how they viewed you as but a means — a tool — to boost their influence and prosperity, the dismissive mannerisms of the household servants, and the absolute beauty of a man you will be married to.

(seriously. the novel descriptions did not do him justice. he was like... like... like he was handcrafted by god himself! and not to mention his sister, robin, was the very epitome of an angel! perhaps you're destined to perish by the god-tier visuals instead...)

to say the least, the wedding ceremony went by quickly. safe to say you didn't spend the night; he was cordial and gentlemanly upon letting you know that he won't do anything until you're ready, that you can take this relationship slow, but somehow you ended up feeling a tad insulted. like, who leaves their newly wedded alone in a big cold bed as they walk out on their own? a sick bastard that's who!

well, whatever. it's not like you need nor want to consummate with him! besides, you have bigger things to worry about — things such as your impending death. and, of course, the only way to stop sunday that you can imagine working is by chipping away at his resolve bit by bit, and opening his eyes to reality.

he is a tragic character, one who cares more about the well-being of penacony and its people than anyone else, but was manipulated into getting his hands dirty in the emperor's stead. you knew this. you sobbed over his story, cursed out the protagonists, and even fought internet randos on novel forums about sunday's motivation and how,

no, he is not just a stupid villain. he is a complex character with flaws and humanity and was cruelly taken advantage of by someone he considered family. he was deceived through the suffering the emperor wanted him to see to make him easily manipulated, creating a rift between him and robin to have that prominent separation. you know what? maybe you're just a !%#@ who can't even #@?"% read properly!

and yet you still find yourself at a loss when faced with the walls he has in place. your initial efforts went as well as it possibly could have; you trying to earnestly help him, while he "kindly" dismisses your offers! well, "kindly" being more condescending since you could read between the lines of his mannerisms and amiable demeanour, but that's fine! you expected this! that just means you have to double down on your sincerity, get through to his heart (somehow), and help him realise humanity isn't as weak as he's led to believe!

you have three years until the novel's plot officially starts, and another year after that until your demise. that's plenty of time to get him to warm up to you!

it was easier said than done, but after your valiant effort and abundance of time put into this relationship, which admittedly you could do with some of that lost time back, you could give yourself a pat on the back with the progress you made! while you definitely could have done without a lot of the headaches, it's safe to say sunday has significantly warmed up to you in comparison to your wedding day. he now willingly eats all his meals with you with some real conversation, takes garden strolls with you in the early evenings, invites you out for dinner at a restaurant at least four times a week, hell he's even joked and laughed with you more frequently! but most importantly, he has begun asking for your opinion before finalising any decisions he is required to make. and he actually listens and considers your side! now, that certainly is the best outcome you could hope for after all this time, and it most definitely will help in your endeavour to save you both from the protagonists!

however, you've noticed he's been more... affectionate? well, at the very least he now willingly holds your hand when in private (not just in moments when you're in the public eye and he has to make sure the family's reputation is spotless), sometimes he will hug you out of the blue ("i just need to... recharge. you have a way of calming me down. i hope you don't mind." ...how could you say no to his supreme god-tier face card? that's just a losing battle you won't even bother fighting against.), oftentimes he opts to just gaze wordlessly at you (robin had mentioned over one of your tea times how it almost appears as though there is no one but you in the world when sunday gazes at you with, in her words, "the eyes of a man so deeply in love!" ...whatever that's supposed to mean...), but a more recent development has been his sudden interest in kissing you; well, more specifically giving you a kiss to the back of your hand or on your forehead — certainly not anywhere near the lips! (besides, he's probably just gotten comfortable with you, enough where he can freely act without judgement. nothing more, nothing less.)

well, either way, development is development! soon enough, the time for the main plot to start has arrived. it of course follows what you remember, from the organised balls to the protagonists meeting to the political aspects of it all. the only difference is sunday's less active involvement in all the schemes and the emperor's ploy. rather, he seems more focused on you and the future of your marriage and even displayed a sudden interest in your practically non-existent relationship with one of the foreign diplomats, aventurine— wait...

"[name]," he calls your name out so sweetly you nearly disregarded it as someone else he was talking to. well, perhaps you would have done had he not suddenly appeared before you, a tight-lipped smile tugging the corners of his lips as he steadily approaches you.

oh. he doesn't seem very happy, if his tense figure is anything to go by. you wonder if one of the nobles grated his nerves a little too much this time?

sunday comes to a halt a step away from you. "i don't like that... gambler being so close to you. it... it brings me a rather unpleasant feeling." there's a slight, trembling pause. not a moment later does he close the gap between you, one knee on the ground as he matches your seated height on the fountain rim, your hands gently enclosed in both of his.

you idly wonder if this is what robin meant by the so-called "eyes of a man so deeply in love" she constantly gushed about, for the way in which he gazes up at you is enough to render you breathless.

"tell me, [name]," he begins once more. there is an underlying desperation woven within his tone, one which has your head spinning and heart thumping wildly as his trembling gaze holds you in place. "tell me, what am i to do with this fervent love and overwhelming adoration i hold for you?"

oh.

...oh.

perhaps your impending doom should be the least of your concerns when you now find yourself in the arms of a clingy husband...

(though, it's safe to say you did, in fact, manage to prevent him from succumbing to his tragic fate! you just gained a loving, yet slight slightly emotionally challenged husband along the way.

well, you can help him work through it; you have the rest of your lives now to figure it out, after all.)

[introspectivememories]

was it casual when i sat in your lap in public? was it casual when i said "recently my heart is crying because you're leaving"? was it casual when we decided how your last name would fit with mine? ("yuki tsunoda-gasly" / "no tsunoda, only gasly" / "yuki gasly?") was it casual when we sang adele's "someone like you" together at your going away party? was it casual when i knew it was you just by touching your ass? was it casual when i knew it was you by smell alone? was it casual when "will you miss me?" / "for 2-3 minutes maybe" / "i'll take that. even if it's just 2-3 minutes, i'll take that"? was it casual when that bus was completely empty and we still sat right next to each other, all the way in the back? was it casual when i picked you up multiple times so you could dunk a basketball? was it casual when i begged to come over to your house multiple time and then you finally let me and we cooked fried rice together? was it casual when we played christmas twister together and i said "your big eggplant is touching my ass"? was it casual when we were pressed up against each other on a scooter going two miles per hour? was it casual when-