#i just had to get this off of my chest

[aozui]

psa

one: if you have something to say to me say it to my face. instead of subposting or spreading lies, I highly encourage starting a polite and civil discussion with me (not someone else, not my friends or your friends).

I’m very far past the point of confronting people who lack the decency to be mature about the ‘issues’ they have with how I carry myself or how I interact with my mutuals. I am not running for president. I have zero requirement to fit your standards of “real writer” nor do I need to prove myself to you. this is a fanfiction platform. click off of my page. it is not that serious.

two: I am on this app to share my works and talk to fellow writers. I am NOT on this app to gain followers or piggyback off of any of my friends. I couldn’t care any less if they were the only ones reading my stuff. I’m eternally grateful that I have readers at all.

three: I am not lazy. that is, in my opinion—the worst thing to call a creative. I stay away from ai. <- things take time, especially if you expect “actual good fics”.

I HAVE A LIFE. the effort to chase me down from my old account to this one makes it very clear that you don’t. please, for everyone’s sake, get one.

[wildskissed]

OPEN

Eve likes to pretend that not a lot rattles her, but it's clear in the way her translucently green skin becomes even more green, that something has spooked her. The warm glow she usually dawns, and that smile that alights her cheeks, is gone now, and only fear crosses her irises as she stands by the vendor. Her hand grasps tightly around the pendant she was looking to purchase, and for a moment, it's clear that she's holding her breath.

Her grip becomes tighter as grey eyes bore into her own, and then he's gone, slipped back into the crowd like he was never even there to begin with, as her knuckles grow white around the item. She can't hear anything, just a loud hum of the noises around her all becoming one as she feels a painful tightening in her chest, making it hard to breathe even if she could, so if her companion is talking to her, she's none the wiser in the moment. It's not until she feels the blood trickle from her palm that she is brought back to it, grossly overpaying for the now ruined pendant as her legs begin to lead her anywhere but here.

There's a gasp and then a terrified keen that escapes her throat as she wraps her free hand around her own throat and tears cloud her vision, a lump forming in her throat making it hard to swallow. 'Not here...not here.' The mantra repeats over and over as she shakes her head, not stopping until she's out of the city and closer to camp. Eve knows she isn't going to make it though, and manages to find a tree, pressing her back against it and sliding down to sit on the ground, drawing her knees to her chest and burying her face in them to try to hide the sobs she couldn't hold back now even if she tried.

"Please don't be here, please don't be here..." she hears herself say.

Suddenly her whole body aches and she knows the tadpole is projecting images of the way he was smiling when his claws tried to rip out her throat. That sinister way he tried to make her still feel loved even when he was trying to snuff every bit of life out of her. The worst part being that she doesn't want the other's pity--she doesn't want anyone to know. If he's truly here though, in Baldur's Gate, then what was it all for? He was supposed to be dead.

[itistimetodisappear]

Yes we've all heard aroace people complain about the 'you haven't met the right person' line. But to the idiots citing this as the reason aroace people 'aren't oppressed’: No, micro aggressions aren't what's oppressing us.

I could talk about corrective rape, but I'm not going to because that's not what scares me the most. The worst thing about being aroace (aromantic, and asexual to a certain extent) is that society is set up for couples.

Being aromantic is a crushing economic disadvantage. As a couple, you can save more. As a legal couple, you can borrow more. This puts Mortgages out of reach for a lot of aromantics. Adopting too. Although aro people can adopt, you must have a similar income to a couple, which again, rules out a lot of aros. Don't forget Immigration, spousal visas will never be an option for us.

Being poor and aro means you're denied housing, family, international movement, basically anything that allos of a similar income would get. And anything you can get, you'll have to jump through many more hoops for. But we can't fix this by legalising aro marriage, like we did for the gays. Until our society's economic system is completely revolutionised, we'll be waiting.

It's impossible to compare oppression. You can't objectively say which minority group has it worse and I really mean that. But also I'd rather be called slurs and hated by Christians all fucking day.

[basslinegrave]

pin-up

b&w originals

[dancinghannigram]

flea-biting is a sign of companionship :) - thank u therexorcist for uploading the one video i havent been able to get out of my head since 2020 (X)

[palmettios]

at the end of the day, andrew and neil were just two people who matched each other’s freak and i think that’s beautiful

[benaturalandautomatic]

honestly, it always baffles me how everytime we hear about someone doing the most depraved and inhumane things imaginable, that person is somehow always a man......... like when we hear about someone that uploads videos of animals being brutally tortured, it's always a man. or when we hear about someone who was arrested for having 2 terabytes of child pornography, it's always a man. or when we hear about someone who murdered a random woman that they know nothing about, it's ALWAYS a man, but that's not the part that baffles me, the thing that i'm confused about is how people continue to insist that men aren't the problem. like do u honestly think it's a coincidence that all of these horrible crimes are mostly committed by men?? even if u believe that it's not all men, u have to ask yourself why it's ALWAYS a man. at this point it's just denial. why are people ignoring something so obvious just because they're afraid of offending males?? even 10 year old boys are becoming rapists and it just doesn't make sense to act like it's a problem with humanity when it's really a problem with men.

[tearsofcalamity]

boothill who gets way too worked up before the two of you have even started any intimacy.

you don't even have to do anything, straddling him while he's practically strip teasing you himself, removing each garment oh-so slowly so that he doesn't rush it and ruin everything. every peek at your bare skin has his circuits going into a tizzy, his breaths slowly devolving into needy panting.

"god, ya look so gorgeous..." he murmurs, huffing as he tries to keep himself composed. his cold hands brush along your bare shoulders, down your back, feeling up your waist until he's back at your chest. "fuuuudge..."

he would be doing a good job at keeping himself decently composed. that is, if his circuits and inner workings weren't whirring so loudly you could barely hear each other's voices by this point.

you chuckle to yourself as his face lights up, unwilling to meet your gaze and instead focusing right on your chest like a pervert to avoid your mischievous eyes.

"getting a little excited, boothill dear?"

"y... you keep your mouth shut!"

[sydneys-adamu]

I just want it known that sydney adamu is a person. a human. with human feelings which now more than ever will be annoyed. angry. frustrated. regretful. and she has every reason to be. she shouldn’t need to be defended with every argument as to why she is allowed this room for her feelings. what she is, is a human, not the obedient little girl so many people seem to think she should be. where as her white male counterparts can scream and yell and nearly tear the place apart, she can’t even be mad about it without being called “annoying” or “ungrateful”. she may scream for the first time. she may yell. she may decide that she’s fucking over it and she may have to be convinced this is still worth her time. carmy may have to fucking convince her that HE is worth her time. she cares about him, and about every other person in that damn restaurant but that doesn’t mean she has to smile about it 24/7. I don’t want to fucking hear your stupid reasons as to why a young black woman isn’t allowed to be overwhelmed into making decisions you might not personally make. literally shut the fuck up.

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

i'm not trying to start anything, but i just saw a post criticizing misha collins for not choosing to quit spn when the network was homophobic and he was "profiting from homophobia" and i just think it's kind of... wild? that young people think that a person could just. decide to not work for a prejudiced corporation when they have a family to provide for?

i don't know, i don't even really want to debate or go into it more, but it's just kind of surreal to see opinions from people who weren't there in 2013 when misha collins was literally the only person willing to support not just destiel shippers but actual queer and trans and ace fans. i have no doubt that he saved lives through the care he showed to vulnerable young people who desperately needed to see someone give a damn about them. he's significantly flawed in many ways, but he will always be a saint in my eyes for how much he cared.

like i just don't think that people accustomed to this modern era where hardly anyone blinks over two men kissing on tv can understand what it was like when we were mocked and silenced, when we weren't allowed to breathe the word 'destiel' without getting booed, and misha was the only damn person who spoke up for us. the only one. who was probably risking his job in saying the things he did.

things have changed. that's wonderful. don't judge people surviving previous eras by the standards of today.

[bowielit]

embarrassing to admit but about two or three times a week i think about when paul mcartney got a cartoonishly big cigar gifted to him by a fan during a press conference and the paparazzi started going crazy and telling him to put it in his mouth. like, okay, if girls in the 60s had the lexicon for it he would be titled the century's it boy and it's not even close.

[ohcaptains]

JJ has a girlfriend that’s got expensive taste. and it’s not even as if you’re rich or anything. you just have a part time job that allows you to buy shit. sprays, lotions, oils, scrubs, perfumes…you always smell good and feel soft.

JJ got a look at your bathroom and thought he’d walked into a bath and body works. stood there for literally half an hour, just going through all your stuff. opening bottles and sniffing them. even put a little on himself and rubbed it in. made a face as if, yeah, that shit is nice.

came out smelling like lavender and sea salt.

when he walks back to your room, you look up from your phone and make a face. “there you are, thought you’d fallen in.”

JJ just gets back into bed with you, and burrows his face in your neck, looking at whatever you’re scrolling through. it’s a few seconds later that you lean back to look at him.

“did you?” you start, before frowning and sniffing his head.

“did you use my hair spray?”

JJ frowns, “…no.”

“then why do you smell like spring on the sea front?”

“is that what it’s called?”

you hit his arm, “jay that shit cost me $30!”

“what!” he exclaims. “for that tiny bottle?” he shakes his head and goes back to laying on you. “you shoulda told me you wanted that, babe, i’d have just robbed it for you.”

[eleanorcrane]

i’m sorry i’m the one you love

[remuspenus]

also I hate people implying that Patton somehow changed Janus or is the first side Janus actually cares about and is friends with. as if Janus’s love for the other dark sides isn't deeply important to the story as a whole. The fact that Janus’s role as Thomas self care/preservation leads him to care about EVERY aspect of Thomas, including the most unloved parts of himself, the parts that Thomas was desperate to deny and accept. Thomas wasn't ready to accept them yet, but Janus WAS. It's so obvious that the reason Patton and Janus get along is because of the deep care they have towards Thomas and the rest of the sides, not because Patton changed Janus to be more caring or something

[o3o-lapd-o3o]

i like to imagine that as soon as the words "someone arrived today, they said they're taking you away" left calypso's mouth, odysseus "sat at the beach every day for 7 years crying for his wife & son" of ithaca immediately jumped up wiped his tears away

then swiftly (without a glance at calypso), walked over to a bush/foliage near the beach and grabbed all the stuff he had been accumulating for 7 years during his prison stay, ready for the day he can leave this place.

[demilypyro]

The fact is that most “crossdressing boy” mangas we have nowadays can trace their lineage back to Stop Hibari-Kun (1982) which carried the same general premise of the male lead being confused by an amab love interest who dresses as a woman, but critically also had the context of Hibari explicitly being a trans woman who hid this fact from her peers. This gave her a real, grounded reason to be the way she is.

Without the love interest being trans, the modern crossdressing boy trope just functions entirely on make-belief scenarios of a guy just randomly deciding to come to school as a girl one day while skirting around the obvious trans implications with little more than a “nuh-uh he’s still male because I said so”, and once you recognize that’s what’s going on it becomes hard to see most crossdressing boys in media as little more than a kind of tourist version of attraction to trans women, letting cis readers live out a fantasy of trans sexuality without ever having to engage with the reality of the problems real trans people face. We saw this in action recently with the confirmation that Bridget from Guilty Gear is canonically a transgender woman: a lot of people were outraged at the idea of not being able to have sexual fantasies about her without acknowledging that she was transgender.