#i just generally avoid interacting

[clueless1995]

so my mum had me download signal so we can talk more easily while she’s travelling. but now my sister has made a family group chat for the First Time Ever and well. it’s a lot already

[chryblossomjjk]

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[katyspersonal]

Also @ to anon (or maybe there are two of you? :p) sending me new ER and DS asks almost daily!

I really appreciate the interest and I hope I will be able to get to all of them eventually! You are so kind for this! It is just not only focus and time stuff.. I am also catastrophically unpopular all things considered and not used to attention and interest in my opinions beyond same couple of friends sending me things! Sometimes I even get anxiety and bail on a conversation I myself started when another person shows genuine engagement in it, because I am just not used to it;; Or I remember I once bailed on the idea of drawing doodle requests because I didn't expect to get many of them and got shy

I don't take attention and curiosity for granted at all! It is the opposite problem: I am so used to having to do various attention-seeking and people-pleasing behaviors to get even minimal interaction that I never know how to react when someone shows an interest first, let alone when people want to know my opinions as I literally just sit here and do nothing hjghjjgjhh All this is just to say, I am very thankful but if I am ever too slow or negligent it is not because something was wrong. Brain just starts to lag in unfamiliar situations -_-" Again, it applies to all manners of frozen convos and "ignored" positive interactions, not just asks!

[days-of-candy-222]

please remind me to not fcking talk to my mom in a nicely way again

[scorchedhearth]

your jason's view of his own body essay made me think of how he would react to someone (most possibly kyle) expressing lust for his body. due to being killed so young he would prob never have experienced that in his teens and definitely not after he came back. even though he does know he looks good and he knows how to use it, like you said, i wonder how'd he view it when somebody would express such a strong reaction to it just exisiting

i think jason is able to deal well with feelings of lust/desire when he is in control, say when he’s trying to manipulate someone or throwing taunts in a fight, but he would lose his footing in a genuine situation, or as genuine as u can get when jason is involved. if someone were to express sincere desire toward him just existing as u put it, that would throw him off, not confuse him because he’s aware of how he looks but since he didn’t start the interaction or engage in behavior that would justify such reaction he would feel unsettled and default back to this disconnect between his body and his self as a mean to regain control, viewing the body as a separate entity that allows him to not take the attraction as personal and deal with it with a more rational or cold headed attitude

but if it’s in a setting where he can’t get that mindset or have control, it would definitely make him uneasy, mostly because it would force him to recon that his body is a reflection of his self and they affect one another. he would deflect and try to stir the interaction into safer water, topics he can feel in control. that would show for the person facing him as a stand-offish attitude, appearing distant, bored or uncaring about the desire expressed or his own desire without hinting at the inner conflict going on for jason, maybe even arrogant or haughty if it’s a more antagonistic situation like with kyle, his attitude being read as full of contempt for the other person instead of unease at the situation

this is especially interesting if, like me, u view him on the ace spectrum. i think his lack of general experience with other people in regular contexts (ie not training or fighting) but specifically romantic/sexual experiences doesn’t make it easy for him to understand that aspect of himself. he’s so distanced from what normal interaction between people should be that it’s hard for him to clue into the fact that he doesn’t relate to desire like others do, beyond the first barrier of his messed up relationship with his body that doesn’t help either

[rapidhighway]

game, awesom, can you tag your sonadow now 👍

[twoheadedsam]

Things have calmed down over on Twitter and well! It surely is a hellhole! A mutual of mine got called delusional and mentally ill for liking a rarepair and when we told them to knock it off they were like "omg it's not a big deal... Telling a stranger that they're insane is not mean..." and kept insulting her. But of course they think they hold the moral high ground because they don't write about incest (and of course they shared one of my fics to tell me I'm insane. Because it's so triggering that you need to show it to all your followers)

[opalthea]

also, hello padisarah nonnie !! it's good to see you again :>

i decided to not answer your ask regarding the wholeeee stuff.. because i don't really care what they want to do anymore. i've done my part of speaking up about their behaviours and calling them out - which made a lot of people open their eyes for once instead of ignoring the warnings they got from me or other people. and i think that's all i want to do.

THIS WILL FORMALLY BE THE LAST POST ABOUT THEM. I will not answer any asks regarding it anymore, so if you want to make your own posts regarding those users, please use your own platforms, thank you.

as much as i encourage speaking up, i also don't want to give a flying duck about them anymore. y'know, like, i spoke up because i couldn't tolerate them and their behaviours anymore - couldn't just keep quiet when my mutuals are knowingly or unknowingly talking to shitty people like that. if they started a new blog, just let them. i don't really care anymore 😭 all i hope is that my mutuals and those that see this are more aware of internet safety and who you surround yourself with. it was already exhausting trying to warn others about them and not being listened to until i made this shit public — i'm not going to start becoming a blog that runs on discourse just so some can finally realise that this person was shitty and that person was the devil.

thanks for also caring abt me and informing me of their new url, i appreciate that a lot! it's on my blocklist now + the mutuals they've tagged on that post too 💀 if, however, i blocked you without a good reason why, or if i blocked you before you knew of this and had already cut ties with them, feel free to send me a message or ask on a different blog! i took precautionary blocks when it comes to having those kind of people as mutuals so .. yeah.

[imwritesometimes]

posts that are like ~hehe irl arsøn is actually so harmless and cute actually~ those ppl should be beaten like idk as a victim of arsøn eat my shit maybe....

[smallishdruid]

holy shit mr president a second fwhip "no lore" explanation post has hit the fandom

[dailyfigures]

can you give any advice for someone who wants to start a figure posting blog? also is it okay to post figures other people have already posted? not sure about the "rules"/etiquette

oh sure! i can't speak for any other figure blogs but personally i think anything is fine as long as you aren't purposefully copying any blog and think of your content (like your caption layout and which figs to post) yourself. obviously there aren't unlimited figures, and it makes sense to post popular ones that people will like, and there's only so many ways in which you can write a caption so similarities will always happen. as long as you know you aren't copying anyone, you're good. good luck and have fun! :)

[nordic-language-love]

god i’m so tired of not be able to actually speak japanese. gonna work on a plan to fix that once i’m done with this stupid jlpt.

[skinnymeanfaggot]

also

[p0tat0-g0ddess]

[turbofagstic]

I'm nosey n wanted to ask, what's w/ the main Pizza Tower community? Like, is it The Whole Shebang on tumblr n everything or is it just like. A Specific Chunk of the fanbase you don't want anywhere near you? Like. I feel you but im nosey. I might join but i have anxiety bout joinin' servers o people i dont know lmao.

its mainly the discord and its all due to personal experiences impacting me with trauma from it. the discord is a mess of rampant toxicity that never gets dealt with so don't join it.

I recommend private/community run or just only experiencing it through social media like tumblr/twitter lol. I DO have one i intend to make public later but I'm waiting to think on that further

[orcelito]

Yes I am scared of mascots/fursuits. I think I had a traumatic memory at Chuck E Cheese's when I was a little kid. Idk why else I'm so put off by proximity to them lmao