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dramashii · 2 years ago

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Love does not grow at a fixed rate; CW: The Interest of Love

I couldn't fall asleep so I decided to try and catch up with all the latest eps.

I initially attempted to see this on its premier week, but my friend called me in the middle of watching the second episode, and so I just lost focus. Now that I no longer have any currently watching Korean drama in my list, I decided to get back on this. I watched the first 8 episodes, and if I can describe my experience so far with one word, it would be frustrating.

The Interest of Love is a Kdrama starring Yoo Yeon Seok and Moon Ga Young. It follows a messy love affair between 4 people in a workplace.

When I first heard the drama was set in a bank and the title was The Interest of Love, I thought to myself: “That actually makes perfect sense”. Interests and banks are often hand in hand with each other. We put money in banks, and the price of putting them there (or lending it) is called interest. It might seem corny or on the nose, but I think it’s a great nod to the setting and it perfectly summarizes the drama: the payment of love.

For me it’s actually the recurring question in the drama: “How much are you willing to pay for love?” The drama shows the attempts of 4 people in a messy love square answering it.

The drama is actually interesting to me. There’s so much symbolism involved which makes me analyze everything in different angles (maybe I’m just overthinking this whole drama lol). The main characters have a lot of layers in them which makes watching them intriguing. The drama largely talks about classism which is very prevalent in society. A lot of times, how people treat you depends on how much money you have. The drama portrays many different situations where this is the case. The characters involved in that love square depicts different social classes, and so you get to see how differently they react to common situations.

I do understand where the criticisms are coming from. Like I said in my first paragraph, this drama is frustrating. A lot of the problems in here could be solved if people would just sit down and talk. There are so many hesitations and assumptions between characters that as a viewer, just exasperates me. If the characters spent less time looking at each other from a far, and more at being honest they wouldn’t be in this knot in the first place. Not to mention that the drama also brushes on toxic working environments, there are a lot of characters to dislike here.

I also don’t really see that much chemistry between the main leads for some reason, neither do I like their characters individually. I find myself rooting for the second male lead a lot.

I’ll probably just continue to watch this just to see how far all of them will go.

#the interest of love #kdrama #yoo yeon seok #moon ga young #netflix #netflix kdrama #kdrama gif #kdrama edit #cw:kdramashii #i just feel really anxious #but this drama is making me feel more anxious #k:interest of love

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lilybug-02 · 3 months ago

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City of Tears. But Mini.

I wanted to make an atmospheric art piece with Dewi. And the City of Tears is one of the most sorrowing, beautiful, and grand places to do that. This is a lot of firsts for me regarding the architecture and lighting. The shadows cover a lot, and it may have been too much. I'm happy with how it turned out tho.

No idea how Dewi found his way into the City. Probably magic. Probably plot too :) But oh boy, he is experiencing childlike wonder in his raincoat!

This is a better show of the line detail I needlessly covered up in the final lol

#I love the idea that Ghost's resting spot is always on Dewi's hat. It's a great vantage point for spotting potential threats!#Quirrel doesnt mind the rain. But he'd rather not be walking around with Dewi 20 stories above him #Hornet is on the look out so that Dewi doesnt mess up anything #And Hollow is just enjoying the rain #dewi's adventures in hollow knight #hk fanart #Im really happy with it turned out #hollow knight #pure vessel #city of tears #dewi #hk #urg I still need to figure out human noses and I was getting really anxious about showing this just for that one fact alone.#trying my best. I have to keep my head up even with my imposter feelings. Otherwise i wont post

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year ago

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Hey, if you have speech impediments, you are so amazing.

If you stutter or have a lisp or misspeak easily or you have a flat affect or a limited verbal vocabulary or if your voice is AAC or if you just have a difference in your vocality, you are so incredibly important and amazing.

Just know that your voice is yours. Nobody will ever be able to truly take it away. Your voice is part of you, and you deserve to make it as true to you as you deem fit. I hope you have the space to grow with your voice and whatever about it makes it unique.

#positivity #disability positivity #partially because so much of voical differences arise from disability #i've developed a really annoying lisp-ish issue #and it's hard to be positive about it because it makes me feel like i'll be treated as lesser because it's a 'childish' affect #but i literally can't help it unless i spend 110% of my focus on it. and i don't have that amount of energy #but it makes me think about others and especially those who have it more intensely than i do #and i just want to uplift everybody because vocal differences are neutral at worst #man my dad always tells a story about this coworker he had who had a stutter like you wouldn't believe...#...and he was fucking BRUTALIZED for it... 'c-c-c-c-CAN YOU GET TO THE POINT?!' is how people would talk to him...#...and obviously that made his stutter twice as fucking worse and i can't imagine the shame and humiliation that followed...#...i hope he learned that those assholes were a fucking waste of time and that he doesn't have to deal with that...#...like i'm sorry but there is no fucking need to be that sadistic toward somebody who is obviously already anxious and worried

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nordidia · 9 months ago

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having a very rough night so raph doodles needed to be made

when in need, mash two interests together

#i love him so muhc ghghgh #and uh please stop sending me asks straight up demanding me to draw more /nm #if u've sent me an ask just regarding art before pls dont feel anxious this is about people actually DEMANDING like im some sort of machine #im absent due to my work/mental health situation going up and down #tmnt will ofc always be special interest but right now its in the back row #theres little time for anything but work and meetings and thinking about work and.. well.. monster hunter escapism egsfkhjhh..#but yeah i promise im still here #and i want to draw him when i can #but stress is high right now and drawing takes too much wrist stamina to do often now #i hope u understand #sorry if i worded myself badly im very tired and stresed n its ... oh its 5am great. wellp. goodnight skafklgsjdklfnshh #my art #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #nordidia art #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt raph #id in alt text #also one would think my art style is easy on my wrist but #i gorilla grip my pen and when i learned to write as a child i held the pencil jank #and it stuck like that #so its really rough on my hands #sadly

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royalarchivist · 8 months ago

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[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]

Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?

[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*

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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.

Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!

Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.

* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.

#Pactw #QSMP #Pac #March 18 2024 #As much as I love keeping people updated about Pac / the other Portuguese-speaking creators #I think I might not make as many transcribed posts for their clips anymore #I just don't think I'm qualified enough to be transcribing things for a language I don't know #like yeah we have the Qlobal Translator and Aypierre's translators to rely on #And I'm always upfront when I'm not 100% sure about a translation #but I've been thinking about it a lot and it kinda makes me feel a bit icky. Idk.#I might be overthinking this but I just I don't want to spread around translations I'm not super confident about #esp. since I know a lot of people cite my clips in analysis posts or link them to other people as resources #and 90% of the time I'm like ''Hell yeah I love seeing people getting a lot of use out of the archive''#but sometimes I get a bit anxious like ''Did I do a good enough job translating this''#''Am I ruining someone's entire perception of a conversation or character because I left one word out or mistranslated something?''#And like I said that's normally not a HUGE concern since if I'm not certain about a translation I just won't post a clip. but you know #idk it might just be the anxiety talking but I really really don't want to spread bad info #Happy to hear other folks' perspective #I'm really grateful for people like Bell and Pix and others who translate clips and I always try to reblog those #but we don't have a ton of people posting clips & translating things on Tumblr since we're so English-centric #which is part of the reason WHY I like sharing clips of the non-English-speaking CCs #but at the same time I want to do an accurate job representing what they're saying #Maybe I'll just start posting things and give a TLDR context of what they're talking about but not a transcript #that way native-speakers can hop in and add translations if that's something they're comfortable doing #and if not then well. at least I'm not sharing something that isn't super accurate #idk I'm just thinking out loud a bit in the tags #But I'm open to hearing other people's thoughts on the matter #Anyways giant rant aside. q!Pac is NOT doing ok rn

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asukiess · 1 year ago

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I think about this scene all the time and I don't think its talk about enough tbh

#compare this to beginning of pefection???#because then he IS happy and he IS excited to tell her #but ive talked about that. lets talk about how absolutely PETTY adrien can be #and I do not mean that in a mean way !!!#not only are they just teens so like. expect it. that's the fun.#but he really does have an anxious-style attachment imo #and when he feels a bond is threatened he's going to lash out #get a response from that person #it's like a sickening feeling really searching like that #gughghgugughughguh THEM THEM #anyway.#miraculous ladybug #asukies ramble #but like then he's immediately repentant because her answer is SO genuine and happy for him #and he's back to not wanting to lie to her.

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caligvlasaqvarivm · 6 months ago

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Okay challenge mode. You are a therapist and Eridan Ampora from Homestuck has just walked right out of his intro page into your office. How do you fix him?

put him and karkat in a room with a pile of stuff and tell them they can't leave until they've jumped into it and talked about their feelings

#realtalk therapy doesnt work unless the person getting the therapy puts in the effort to make it work #eridan starts the comic in complete and utter denial that he's in need of help #so there's really nothing i nor any stranger could do about that #HOWEVER he does talk to karkat often about his feelings (and vice versa) and #the reason they didnt hang out during the game seems to be #1) they were on separate teams and didnt realize the teams were the same team until later on #2) by then it was too late and eridan had aggro'd all his angels #3) gamzee was deliberately keeping eridan away from karkat and vice versa (likely bc gamzee had a palecrush on kk)#4) karkat was too busy falling victim to his own insecurities abt being a leader to pay attention to his actual friendships #4a) eg. it shouldve been the time player doing the frog hunt with kanaya & not the blood player #like im not saying moirallegiance with karkat would have fixed all of eridans problems but i am saying #what eridan really needed was a friend who took his problems seriously and could see past his bullshitting #and karkat already WAS that friend - they just never hung out #so by the time the meteor rolls around eridan has spent WEEKS feeling abandoned anxious and alone on his death planet #and karkat has gotten used to not thinking about eridan too much #so karkat - who is basically eridans only actual friend at that point - isnt able to get through to him & eridan snaps #like the thing about sburb/homestuck is that it really stresses the importance of friendship and working together #letting each other help with each others' problems #thats why the smallest viable game is still two people by necessity #so when we see things like gamzee snapping or eridan snapping or vriska snapping #as much as these are the 'fault' of the person snapping they also need to be viewed as comprehensive team failures #the people who should have spent the game together didnt and the people who shouldnt have spent the game together did #vriska was allowed to bully tf outta tavros and nobody intervened #eridan was left all alone and nobody tried to help him #and everybody was mean to gamzee and nobody tried to connect with him #and you know whose job it is to make sure the right people are hanging out together? the blood player #and unfortunately our blood player was so insecure that he was doing jobs that werent his to do #im not saying pale erikar would fix homestuck but i am saying pale erikar is a symptom of things being fixed in homestuck

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angelpuns · 1 month ago

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Deep deep fear that one day all my friends are gonna decide they just don't wanna talk to me anymore for whatever reason and unfortunately, I won't get the memo and will keep trying and that'll just make them hate me more :(

#Logically in my LOGICAL brain I know that's silly #I wish I was not like this cause it causes so much fucking stress #for no reason #for imaginary reasons that don't exist #I also shouldn't be this anxious cause my friends aren't like that #they are all very good to me #and they probably don't have reasons to do that but I could give them several #I have very good friends that I really don't deserve but I'm too afraid to push people away so :)#vent tw #urghh sorry it's gettin so bleak on main #just having a rough night after a nice weekend #I think the combo of nightmares + feeling good lately has destroyed me lmao #anyway Kid Leo Update tomorrow #yayyy #don't respond to this it's just me yeling at the void #if you see this and we're friends uhhh no I will not elaborate actually I am just gonna sleep it off

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ferryfoam · 4 months ago

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He has no idea he's like a daughter to me. My middle aged male daughter

ASIT is making me real sad and lately I have been spending every waking hour thinking about nothing but Elim Garak

I have also been reading this wonderful fic by Cucumbermoon and it is making me sadder but it's beautifully written and very good https://archiveofourown.org/works/30310065 I am very enthusiastic to read the sequel once I am finished (it is possibly correlated to the fact I am menstruating as of current but I cried multiple times while reading so. Really good!!!)

#ferry yaps #ds9 #star trek #deep space nine #elim garak #I might be mildly going off the deep end here #I feel a bit silly for being so strongly attached to a character #I'm not really sure why #I've had negative experiences in previous fandoms that have made me try to approach the #m #with a lot more caution I suppose #and I think that's making me anxious about everything I do #even though everyone's been lovely to me so far!#I'm also in general a very sensitive person #which makes posting things on the internet that other people can see and interact with #very scary #eek #just had to get that off my chest I guess??#now you know!

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pnfc · 4 months ago

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i haint watched the dang chibisode and idk if ill actually watch it with sound on sdfjk but i have a hurt feeling about them casually imbuing perry with speech for a one off gag because the idea that he needs to talk to communicate is fake. we had 4 seasons of wacky magic hijinks cartoon where perry never needed verbal speech to communicate. they couldve done this gag at any point in the show but they didn't, and the fact that they didn't felt significant. perry's muteness is such a core part of his character, to me, to the way i conceive of him/write him. i don't wanna overreact to a goofy little side cartoon (even tho i'm doing it anyway) but it's still the characters, and it still upsets me! ok that's it i've said my piece

#ill watch it at some point but despite my silence i have been like obsessively anxious about this cartoon #and pestered my friend to watch it for me sDFJKL #in a month this will have either ruined pnf for me forever or i'll have changed my mind and i like it actually its fine #for now anyway i have tons of comic sketches about perry's muteness that i no longer wanna finish and share...maybe someday but not now #i had a rly great day actually but now im falling asleep in bed tipsy and a little teary over this. cuz i love perry a lot he's #really special to me. i also got that star wars perry shirt in the mail today btw. and. it's such a good pj shirt #but back on topic #it sucks when an aspect of a character that is CORE to your appreciation of them becomes casually disregarded by the writers at some point #like im certainly not ever accepting an interpretation of perry like 'secretly hed really like to be able to talk' because its #never ever been communicated. like the idea that heinz wd prefer if perry was human. its just not in the show. the opposite is true in fact #so im left feeling stupid for caring about something that some writers(inc. dan) felt was unimportant. makes me not wanna continue my art #which sux cuz i like my comic ideas! id love to finish them. i hope i get over this.#i overreact to live-updating media when im fixated on it wh is why i prefer getting into dead fandoms haha #but they keep on bringing them back to life dont they...im never safe #it was funny me trying to explain to my friend why i efel so strongly about this meanwhile hes tried to explain why he feels so strongly ab #ut AYA and my stance on that episode has always just been “cute! its fine�� lmao #@ dwampy you guys made the show that follows a specific rhythm and set of rules designed to appeal to obsessive autistic brained people ok #you invited my overreaction. unsheathes katana etc #ok im goint to sleep #meta

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graciousdragon · 11 months ago

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OH MY FUCKING GOD

I JUST WENT TO MY LOCAL HOT TOPIC THAT I'VE BEEN GOING TO FOR LIKE. 5 OR 6 YEARS NOW RIGHT??

I GOT SOME MCR STUFF BECAUSE. OF COURSE. IF YOU'VE SEEN MY RECENT POSTING HABITS YOU KNOW. THE BRAINROT IS REAL

I WAS TALKING WITH THE CASHIER ABOUT THEM BECAUSE HE WAS ALSO A FAN AND HE FUCKING SAYS "you wanna know a fun fact? this is the hot topic the lead singer used to work at! :D"

FUCKING WHAT

GERARD WAY USED TO WORK AT MY LOCAL FUCKING HOT TOPIC?!?

AND AFTER I LEFT I LOOKED IT UP TO MAKE SURE HE WASN'T FUCKING WITH ME AND YEAH. HE WAS RIGHT. WHAT THE FUCK

SORRY FOR THE ALL CAPS THIS IS LIKE. WORLD-SHATTERING INFORMATION TO ME AND HE JUST DROPPED THAT SHIT SO CASUALLY WHAT THE HELL BRO. I NEEDED TO SCREAM ABOUT THIS SOMEWHERE

#rys.txt #tw caps #caps #LIKE. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME??#I KNEW THEY WORKED AT A HOT TOPIC WHEN THEY WERE YOUNGER BUT I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS THAT ONE #ok. its ok i'm normal now (i'm not)#on another note. why are all hot topic employees like the nicest people on this earth. at least they are at mine #they always greet you when you walk in and ask if you need help and if you don't they leave you alone which is nice #and then when you check out they're always really chill and don't rush you and if you're buying or wearing something they also like they'll #talk about it with you #like. i know you have to be nice to people for a retail/customer service job like that but it always feels really genuine from them #same thing goes for spencer's employees too they're also like that #idk its just really nice for someone like me who's scared shitless of social interaction with strangers. it makes me way less anxious 👍#anyways. light and love everyone 💖 i'm gonna go recover from learning that information now #my chemical romance #mcr #gerard way

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arsenicflame · 3 months ago

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Bootblacking is my favourite kink to give Izzy, because of course this guy would get his rocks off doing precise, repetitive, manual labour. OF COURSE he gets off on what is essentially just another chore on his list.