#i just .. dont know what to do

[ashersbraincell]

Folks…is it normal to constantly feel like you’re walking on eggshells around a parent even if it’s not because they lash out/hurt you in any way but instead start spiralling into a monologue of how stressed they are and how they “just don’t have any time nowadays” and how they are suffering so so much.

[madame-mongoose]

why is it so hard to be happy

[nukacourier]

Ngl considering not talking about James and Arcade together anymore. I feel like other people's arcourier artwork ends up getting more popular than mine. And while i know numbers don't mean everything its doing me a lot of stress putting a lot of love into something that genuinely means a lot to me just to see it get constantly overlooked so I'm constantly questioning why

Like am I a bad writer? Is my art shit? Is Arcade too out of character? Am I just getting the shit end of the unspoken prejudice of fans being more uncomfortable abt my courier being black instead of white or racially ambiguous bc I can't paint like DaVinci? Who knows but whatever the case its super discouraging to me seeing months old posts with 20 notes versus other peoples arcourier art getting hundreds within days. And the only time my stuff about James/Arcade takes off is when James isn't even visible/arcade is the main part of it. But even then it's not a lot of interaction still

Sorry if this sounds selfish I'm just genuinely very upset about it

[escapedaudios]

Back when I had a Patreon I couldn't bring myself to make any paywalled content because the idea of some of my fans not being able to listen to Patreon content made me sad.

[stupidlovepurplepeace]

Rest in peace Mateo, I'll miss you

[kaaaaamii]

what do you do when you’re sad

this is an actual question

[urstoryteller]

.

[angelicstalker]

God the more I think about this

[ohnoitsthebat]

I just. I am so sick of this happening. A couple of years ago, I didn't pay my taxes on time. I just didn't have the money. Well, I entered into a payment plan, but they stopped sending me notices after a while, so I thought that I had paid it all off. After my grandma died, I was too much of a mess to think about it.

I received this bill on Friday. it states that the due date is in October, but if I don't pay this amount before Thursday, any income I have (including wages) will be withheld and sent to collectors. This is so unfair and total bullshit. I need what little money i have to pay my own bills.

I don't know what to do. I have no one to ask and I have already spoken to someone who told me that this is something that has to be taken care of. if I can pay it before Thursday, they were reverse the garnishment but if not.....I don't know how I will pay my electric bill, food, and other necessities.

I'm so tired.

[why-its-kai]

god it's so hard seeing your partner experience a terrible loss from a distance and being unable to be there for him in person. my heart's aching, I hate that this is happening to him and seeing how badly he's hurting from this and I can't be there to comfort him

[sunshinexlollipops]

bro the job market where I live is fucking terrible. literally nothing available is doable bc I either need a degree I don't have, years of experience in this specific field that I don't have, they don't provide benefits, or it's something like working at twice daily. I'm about to start selling feet pics fr

[crowleys-dark-sunglasses]

I envy people who know what they want to do with their lives. The people who graduate highschool with a plan, or at least some semblance of one, and they're confident in their decision.

I'm just lost in the abyss. 18 with one dream, no way to make that happen, and no passions. Or at least none that are strong enough that I would want to make my living. School isn't my strong suit, and even if that's changed, I haven't been in a school setting in over 3 years so going back to one could just be a disaster all over again so idk if college is even a good idea.

People all expect me to have a plan or at least an idea of what I want to do but the only things I know for sure are that I don't wanna do something ill end up hating and I want to travel. I just don't know what I even like, and all the things I do like I'm told that they're useless or too hard to get into or that im not cut out for it.

It's frustrating knowing that everyone has their eyes on me and expects me to know what I'm doing when all I wanna do cry whenever I think about it

[andichoseyou]

quick question. so my friend group has been having some "drama" these last few weeks and i need an outside view. one of our friends, lets call him Fred has started dating a guy, lets call him Rusty. fred and rusty have been together a while but the rest of the group doesn't really know anything about rusty. one night, we end up at fred's house and rusty is there. that night, rusty says some really nasty and antisemitic things while we're watching a movie, none of us know what to say and we're all hoping that fred will call him out and tell him to stop. rusty continues and says things like "this is making me hate jewish people even more" and called a jewish female character a "dirty jew bitch." that night we also learned from one of our friends in the group that rusty has said "yellow people" when referring to asian people. he has also said the G slur when referring to asian people. we sat down and talked to fred a couple days later to tell him how uncomfortable and disappointed we were. its been almost a month later and fred is still with rusty and keeps deflecting when we ask him about it. saying things like "he says racist things but i dont believe he is racist" and "i am trying to challenge him." i don't think he understands how hurt we all are that he continues to stay with this guy who has said some really fucked up shit. it has gotten to the point where none of us even want to be around fred. i wanna know if anyone thinks we're overreacting or handling this wrong... we have poc in our friend group, and fred is a white/non-jewish man who has never experienced racism and never will. it feels really strange to me that he would bring rusty around knowing he says those fucked up things. we literally have an asian friend in our group who has expressed they cannot be friends with someone who has a boyfriend who is xenophobic. like DUH???? from an outside view, knowing only these details, do you think we should try to continue being friends with someone who is not willing to break up with their racist/antisemitic boyfriend? or is it valid that we're still hung up on the fact that he would even want to be around that guy?

[squidosphere]

having mommy issues is so heartbreaking because its like god i hate my mom. she traumatized me… but also when i get too stressed out i just cry because i miss her and want to be held still while she plays with my hair. when does wanting your mom to hold you end? do you ever grow out of it or are you cursed to miss the mom you only had in passing moments forever?

[murdockthenerd]

I think there's something so fucked up about never feeling like a kid and, simultaneously, not being ready for adulthood. like it's hard, it's hard growing up and being excited for the future until you get there.

it feels like when Mitski said "And I was so young when I behaved twenty-five, yet now I find I've grown into a tall child" or when she said "crack baby, you don't know what you want"

like maybe it's early adulthood angst but shit- it's hard