#i jsut don't have words for it rn
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just. came across this panel and got unexpectedly and wildly emotional about aizawa becoming a dad. because like. he cares about his students, he's shown time and time again that he'll push them and fight for them against villains and the media and he'll go to his last breath to protect them but like. they're hero students and he's their teacher and he's tough and strict because he has to be to keep them alive. but then like--
it's morning and he's doing her hair. he's got the hair ties with the little baubles on them and he's doing her hair and she's been through so much crap and aizawa's never shown being demonstrably affectionate or enthusiastic around her the way that izuku and mirio are but like. he's been her dependable quiet shadow every time she's shown up in the manga so far, and he doesn't have to be strict or tough with her because what she needs isn't someone to teach her how to save others, it's someone that she can trust to be there when she needs, someone she can trust to do her hair with little bauble hair ties in the morning.
#i'm rambling i'm like incoherent#i'm sorry i literally just got to this panel and started? crying??#it's FINE i have more thoughts but they're all wrapped up in oboro and eri and how they both underwent experimentation that#remade them so much that they can't remember how to want things or like things or smile#and. how both of them are tied so inextricably to aizawa and aizawa doesn't even know about oboro yet at this point#but like. i want those two to meet#and i also want to explore how aizawa's survivor's guilt intersects with this whole mess bc like.#him becoming a dad--like everything else--is in some way tied up in that trauma#i jsut don't have words for it rn#aizawa shouta#eri bnha#tt reads bnha
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lots of respect for ppl who don't post/talk abt certain oc things due to not wanting to spoil their own stuff, however i will not be doing that. by the time any of this stuff is finished it'll probably be different anyways
#i have this thing where i simultaneously cannot ever find the words to articulate my oc stuff and the inability to shut up about it#who the fuck knows if i'll actually finish it. i mean i'd love to. i WANT to but these are (for now) passion projects and i can't devote#myself to them full time so! i'll hand over the details#nothing wrong with not wanting to spoil things either i get it. i jsut talk a lot. esp if i'm excited abt smthin#actually now that i think abt it there are some ttw things i keep close to my chest#partially for spoiler things but also the canon of the story is so wildly different from what it has been that it is the one case where i#don't want to introduce something cool and neat only to have it scrapped later bc this blog is evidence that i have done that. many times#and thinking abt storytelling the way i imagine honeybee being told is nonlinear so at times it necessitates me 'spoiling' things from#p1 and p2 for instance to explain how they got to where they are in p3#i'm thinking a bit more and with ttw being horror i think the next time i get around to taking a solid jab at it i will actually be more#cagey about certain things. esp in regards to sanguine as a whole#but it's underbaked in the middle rn so. shrugs#i still also don't really mind spoilers in general so i don't give much of a shit abt spoiling my own stuff yknow?#good stories are good regardless of spoilers and my intention is to make good stories. not that i can be the one to judge that tho#but i like what i make and that's the really matters yeeeeeeeehaaaawwwwwww#rambles
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I feel as though so many people failed Lori.
#lori morning#legion of super heroes#losh#i am#so so bad with words so i can't articulate myself rn#but it drives me nuts#and like i don't even just mean the legion#they are kids too and they shouldn't have been responsible for her in the first place#but brande too and anyone else that may have been involved#they were all so negligent with her#you're telling me she didn't even have a legal guardian??#did NO ONE think to get her properly settled and not jsut living out of their base??#her situation is so sad and frustrating to me#i am so desperate to see what led to her being the time trapper#i would die for a spin off comic around her
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idk why but the idea of ducking into a national park general store to buy condoms is just so funny to me
#the fact that they carry them is jsut so funny like. you don't have bread but you have trojans (ribbed for her pleasure)#ig its a more urgent necessity than staple carbs#sorry if i was an hour away from the nearest store id just. well never mind.#p.s the trojan branding is so funny too. maybe theres a reason i cant consider rn but like#first thing people associate w the word is a bunch of guys getting in where they very much should not be#why do you Want this image for your condom brand brother..
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jsut finished watching s2 of invincible and it was some actual bootycheeks i don't even have the words rn i'm gone
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i need like, words or an explanation idk how to call it
what's you real life experience like being a therian? and, if you've told anyone, how did they react? do you get bullied for it?
this is all for my book and you don't have to answer anything you don't want to!
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HIIIII HELLO ROWANNNN!!!!!
well tbh i don't think i'm the best person to ask this purely bc i suck at explaining😭 BUT
for me i don't think anything's really defined or clear is in my mind tbh, i don't even know if what inm experiencing is past life or something else but i just feel really really connected to jellyfish and whale sharks yk? like i feel a part of me is a jellyfish (and whale shark too, i'm gonna say jellyfish but consider i'm saying both) i thought i was otherhearted at first but it feels more like a part of me IS a jellyfish (i still might be wrong tho!)
also sometimes for whale shark i just feel like i'm really big and mostly that i have a huuuge mouth, also sometimes i just really really really miss water like i haven't been in it since forever it's a bit weird to explain but yeah
also sometimes (gonna use this formulation for every start of paragraph istg), for jellyfish mostly, i just feel no thought head empty but like really head empty it's just black no thoughts, i think that's a shift! i'm not sure tho
and i never told anyone irl !! if i tell my family they would like never ever beleive me and jsut think i'm being weird, same for my friends rbh i ddin't really wish to tell anyone at least not for now
there are more things i forgot i think but i can't remember rn😭
#sorry this got quite long and weird#love rowan#ask#jellyfish kin#jellyfish therian#whale shark therian#whale shark kin#therian community#alterhuman#nonhuman
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Sorry for the late review I got the email from AO3 ( I love tumblr but I was an AO3 gal first and foremost) right as I leaving my house and I knew this story needed my full undivided attention for awhile for me to be able to rlly soak it in
This chapter rlly showed how much of a menace stephie is bc first with the car convo that made azzi tell Colleen that she did indeed do the opposite of her plan but also the other car convo with Paige tattling on azzis words
one thing I love about Pazzi is the known passenger princess so making them switch it up and the lil memory was so cutieeee
Stephie and azzis relationship on their own is also so adorable bc like their lil fun time just to the icecream time was so cute
reading how azzi has always felt alone with protecting steohie until this moment I knew that I should feel bad for azzi but rlly I was just making up more theories on where the heck baby daddy is and why he’s not helping miss gurl
The golden state might only be a pit stop makes me sad now so I can only imagine how it’s gonna make me feel whenever the plot develops and it bc a much larger issues between them
Paige with bb Stephie and Tim was awesome I love the fluff you right even thou I come for the angst and even the fluff with azzi while they were still being cordial
Honestly ur flashbacks are what make ur stories the way they are so perfectly crafter and tie in and let me know just the right amount of information and feels like a puzzle is why I love ur writing and truly shows how talented you are but now I’m done praising you bc u r asking for trouble leaving me on a kinda cliff hanger ig but like YOU DIDNT WANT TO MARRY ME excuse me marriage was an option?!? I need like the five ws and h rn When? Where? Who? What? Why? How? Like I reread that sentence so many times jsut to be followed up by YOUR RIGHT I DIDNT WNAT TO SO GO FUND THE WOMEN WHO DID Literlly silenced like what why not I need to know the entire lore and it’s ridiculous your gonna leave me high and dry like this like I’m genuinky so confused but also sooooo excited
anyways love you so much Nivi and am so proud of you for sticking to your schedule I hope you stay sticking to it bc if not I might actually die
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You're actually the sweetest person ever my love and I will try to stay on my deadlines just so you don't die because that would make sad.
Stephie just doesn't have a filter, especially around people she's comfortable with and she's definitely comfortable with Paige so trust her to make sure Paige will always know what's happening.
I have a lot of little tradition ideas for Stephie and Azzi in my head and Paige is slowly going to end up being added to a lot of them.
Ah Azzi's baby daddy is a mystery but we'll get to him one day eventually (I think)
I love writing flashbacks and they're gonna be a big part of the story because to move forward in the present, they're gonna have to unravel what happened in the past. I'm also really excited to write it and have y'all read it even though I know y'all are gonna be yelling in my inbox about how evil I am after a few of them.
LMAO everyone's reactions to the last scene are killing me and I'm ngl it's been very amusing but TRUST!! There's always a method to my menacing madness!
Always happy to see you in my inbox babes and I'm so glad you're along for this ride <3
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HS + Y/I: 2022 (SERIES)
EXTRA (6) (REMAKE) -- ive been procrastinating a lot this yr so i guess we're back on track with hs + y/i
PREVIOUS. NEXT.
HARRY STYLES + PLATONIC!EX-1D MEMBER!FEM!READER
WARNINGS: are ig comments even warnings anymore 😭-- and there will be new uses of face claims.
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Okay, so hi. I’m Reaper, I’m very much new here and I love your account so much.
Could I possibly share any kinda fanfic or really scenario ideas in your inbox? Pls?
hey reaper!! Thanks for the ask!! And I'm really glad you enjoy my stuff makes me smile :)
Alr so I only have two requests in my inbox right now, one of them is ALMOST done, I'm like a couple hundred words from finishing and I was working on it before I checked and saw this lol!! It is a comfort request for Spencer x male!reader that's a relatively simple hurt/comfort abt a rough day at work :)
the second request is one I've had since... last fall 🫠🫠🫠🫠 the only reason I haven't wrttien it is bc like im scared to write it and I don't feel like a good enough writer for it 😭 it's basically abt some paranormal stuff where reader is actually covering it up, and then goes missing and the team finds reader and he has to cover abt why he was missing- it's a bit more complicated than that but that's jsut the synthesized version lol
and then of course I have a ton of ask game stuff and sweet messages from my moots that's I PROMISE I I'll respond to I'm just like drowning in school rn <3
#This is actually so sweet thank you#spencer reid#criminal minds#max's mailbox !!#max's moots !!#Requests#inbox#thabk you reaper <3#x male reader#bau team x reader
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hihihi uhh i finished the epsiode. Thoughts?
(I spent an hour in class just in shock)
SOOOOO MANY THOUGHTS LARK OUGH MY GOD. (this is going to be so long)
i knew the hermie death acknowledgement was going to be bad. but JESUS FUCKING CHRIST i didn't think it would be LIKE THAT. i was NOT prepared for will to hit me with the "wait where's hermie" RIGHT OFF THE BAT??? and then normal couldn't leave hermie behind and he tried to save them and he was LITERALLY USING BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARS TO BRING HERMIE BACK AND IT DIDN'T FUCKING WORK. I AM GOING TO BE SICK.
and then. dear GOD. i was not ready for henry's return. fuck. ok real talk ARE THEY IN OAKVALE. DID HENRY LEAVE AFTER CODE PURPLE AND GO BACK TO OAKVALE. I AM BEATING MY HEAD AGAINST A WALL. also MERCEDES?????? MY BELOVED??? what the FUCK
and!!!! then!!!!! normal STILL BEGGING AND TRYING AND PRAYING TO BRING HERMIE BACK. but there's NOTHING henry can do and so SCAM???? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?? SCAM LIKELY ACTUALLY GETTING EMOTIONAL OVER HIS SON???? cried into my pasta actually. note to self don't try to eat while listening to dndads.
also i feel like they glossed over this but d00d saying henry feels like home/??? i actually had to do a double take because YEAH THIS IS HENRY LOOKING IN THE FUCKED UP NON-EUCLIDEAN EYES OF THE ELDRITCH ENTITY THAT TORMENTED HIM HIS WHOLE LIFE AND???? THEY JUST. MOVE ON??? HELLO??
and don't even get me fucking STARTED on the funeral. god. i was in physical pain. the shade witch bit (which was fucking GOLD btw) couldn't save me from the 1-2 PUNCH THAT WAS THE FINAL WORDS. henry saying you're never ready for something like this but normal insisting on burying the body. the fucked up two-face tree. "goodnight sweet prince." scary saying she noticed him. scary noticing hermie like she noticed terry jr. no one fuckng touch me.
LARK AND SPARROW AND HENRY INTERACTING. AAAGH. FUCK. THE HANDSHAKE BETWEEN HENRY AND LARK. LIKE. IS THAT THE MOST POSITIVE INTERACTION THEY'VE HAD SINCE THE ROGUE CARD??? IS COLD NEUTRALITY THE BEST THEY HAVE?????? and SPARROW GOING IN FOR A HUG BUT HENRY DOESN'T RECIPROCATE. I AM GOING TO BE FUCKING SICK. THE OAK FAMILY ONCE AGAIN GOING FOR MY GODDAMN THROAT.
and i jsut. i couldn't even process the ending. we finally got another hero mention but it's literally her being trained to kill???? ow??? and they were training normal too??? also THE VOICE SAYING NORMAL WAS THE CHOSEN ONE??? like am i the only one losing it over that??!? i cannot for the life of me understand what happened at the end but JESUS CHRIST i am just. AGH. i am not o-a-k rn.
will campos when i find you. anthony burch when i find you. god. i'm going ot throw up. great episode y'all i'm gonna go lie down and die.
anyway that's my thoughts hbu?? :)
#also my dndads tuesday routine is. not conducive for an episode like today's#cause i listened to the ep in the middle of my campus' dining hall and tried not to sob into my pasta#and then i had 4 hours of class back to back and then an hour of work#so i literally could not process the episode until all that was done and then i just completely broke#rambling in tags#ask#thedndgoblinwholivesinyourwalls#dndads spoilers#dndads
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I'll take a turn on the DID-unrelated ramble train, but honestly, most American / English rap / hip-hop just... bores the fuck out of me. I like music - specifically rap and hiphop because I like it as a venue and means for expressing oneself and sharing life and it's experiences in a way that can be very personal / true and yet also extremely impersonal to share. It's a beautiful way to simultaneously be very vulnerable and real for the individual writing it and leaving it out for listeners to either accept or not - but at the same time when its being performed, it isn't like a friend telling you their shit for support, it doesn't even necessarily still present as the vent or expression it was originally made as - it is just A Song, representative of the time that it was made and written.
Personally, I think rap / hip-hop is one of the best mediums to do this because it is largely just spoken-word with a little more musical emphasis. Some have chorus-es and what not, but not all and those that do often use it more in a poetic sense with repetition than necessarily a "catchy main line" and its really great. I love it and its my favorite genre by a mile
But that is only when it is held to what I think to be the "proper" and "best nature of rap / hip-hop." And of course, this is my opinion, I don't genuinely think my opinion is the only "real" way to enjoy the genre, to each their own; but I am just not interested in rap / hip-hop in any other manner.
A lot of American / English rap has really devolved to loose its expressivity and its just.... egos, hedonism, and jsut marketable music that just really doesn't interest me. On top of that, a lot of them just don't even have that emotive and expressive and dynamic tone and attack to the rhythm that just lulls me to sleep and / or has me groaning.
This isn't to say Korean, Japanese, and Chinese rap (the ones I've looked most into) are all full of meaningful lyrics or anything - nor is it me saying that every track has to have that personal edge to it - but it is just so... emotionally bland in comparison. Even where there isn't any real emotion behind the lyrics a lot of Korean, Japanese, and Chinese rap deliver their lines with a lot more tone, energy, purpose, and emotion behind it.
Anyways, I need to get back into the old rap that we used to listen to in all languages. If any of yall have any good raps in any language that actually has an emotional backing and/or sound, I would love any recommendations.
Some recommendations off the top of my head:
English: NF, Ren (literally found him rn, below in Bonsus)
Korean: Song Gunhee, LeeHyunNim,
Japanese: Fake Type., Kazuo
Chinese: We used to listen to it but I don't remember any names since we were less into it
BONUS, I literally found this while trying to remember the name of LeeHyunNim and I just had a laugh over it being DID themed (I don't have a reason to suspect he has DID but I am listening to it the first time over and it was just unexpected
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hi hi asking on anon just bc. idk i don't feel like Being Perceived rn. but!!!! i jsut wanted to say that i really appriciate the way you word things?? bc like. i personally am kinda shit at how i say things and like. obviously we r different people with different experiences but sometimes u word things in a way that makes me go "ohhh that makes so much sense" about Myself and it just. means a lot even tho that's almost definitely not ur intention??? my brain is a mess on the best of days and so it's just kinda nice to be able to see something that's well worded and makes sense and sorta relates to me in one way or another :')
hey hey!!! i appreciate this a lot, actually. i do my best to be eloquent and articulate well here, and find that this is a pretty safe space to do so - i've struggled in the past with not being able to find words, construct sentences or phrases in my brain, or really being able to speak at all, though these are all momentary and psychological related phenomenon, so i can also appreciate when things are worded well in a way that i can resonate with, even if i didn't have the words for it myself
and for that i really appreciate the kindness <3 i'm always really happy that people can relate to the things i say. i have a lot of thoughts about love and healing and reconciling with the past and i'm so so glad i've found a community i can share them with.
hope you're doing well, anon. wishing you much warmth and tranquility in the coming days <3
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jsut thinking of her makes me want to stab myself /aff /pos I love her sm it's almost gross
me bc the meds won't keep working like after a month or two it all comes crashing down or maybe I'm just having an episode who knows all ik is that I need to hold her hand and kiss her and kiss her and kiss her and kiss her and kiss her forever she's mine and only mine I'm her first and last love her first and only ever kiss everywhere i always put our initials tg I feel the need to let every body know how much I love her there's no one that compares if she told me to kms I gladly would honestly I'm in such a shitty mental state rn if she wanted to she could easily manipulate me and I'm aware but I just don't care as long as she keeps saying those words ans calling me those names and saying those sweet things to me I'll only fall harder and deeper I'm so fucking mad I didn't meet her back in December could've saved my mental health and maybe I wouldn't have had to go to yhe hospital but now I realize im just ranting unbelivable crazy shit I seriously can't handle reality anymore it's like 2am I haven't ate in 19 hours my head hurts my eyes hurt and I haven't talked to mi amor in 3 so hours so im might be losing it like actually but in the morning I'll just wake up and realize it really wasn't that deep but godd how I want her to ruin me
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Oooooohh yeah okay that makes hella sense, I'm now on the "Saber was a pegasus" bandwagon (they said, as if it's not just the two of us in a little radio flyer wagon). I didn't even think about the whole Gray thing! god. the day Gray loses her cutie mark (if she'd gotten one yet)... I jsut got off work so I can't words about it but INTERNALLY I AM SCREAMING SOBBING ON THE FLOOR. the horrors of losing your individuality to a dead person and the people around you being *pleased* with it, etc etc.
and duh, I don't know why I didn't think about the fact that OF COURSE the cutie marks of heroes and famous people would be heavily recorded. and in magus society, that;s probably an even bigger deal, keeping track of all that. if your family is trying to claim lineage from certain figures, you def wanna make sure there's some resemblance if possible to help legitimize your claim. Like, it'd be a sign of your family declining if the cutie marks start straying further from the OG family standard. fuck dude I could play with this SO much with my own magus OCs.
maybe it's a whole thing to work cutie marks into mystic codes to invoke certain traits or "blessings"... and it'd probably be relatively easy to hide in plain sight. Your friends all think you're just a bible nerd because your wristband has Sampson's mark on it but ACTUALLY it boosts your strength when activated or some shit.
though that example might be more of a Church thing... I can't think of what they call mystic codes rn, the only thing that comes to mind is Sacraments and idk if that;s right.
EITHER WAY.
I suppose this gives an advantage to Servants whose cutie marks have been lost to time or were erased from history, or those who aren't true figures like Nursery Rhyme or my Swan Maiden. So then you get debates between magi on whether the better move is to summon a powerful Servant with an easily identifiable cutie mark (and weakness), or someone more obscure that preserves the advantage of being less predictable.... Though I guess that's probably a debate they already have??
I did a reply on that post but now its gone and I can;t send you messages so I guess we're using asks for this, I wanna talk most about cutie marks. What do you think, would Servants be summoned with the same mark they had in life, or are they summoned with one that represents their story/legacy? And do you think it changes based on the class they're summoned in? I feel like Berserkers definitely get an altered mark since they're summoned that way on purpose iirc
i've been viewing servants' cutie marks as being like their noble phantasm in the sense that they're a dead giveaway of that servant's true identity so they need to be hidden, so they'd probably be the cutie mark they went down in history as having (not necessarily the cutie mark they actually Had but 9/10 times it is). as for changing re:class i think that'd only rlly apply to berserkers (that said i'm also v anti-f/go and think the introduction of servants (but only the popular ones) being naturally summonable in more than one class w/o smthing being messed w is one of the stupidest concepts they introduced and cheapens the class system as a whole so i might be biased) but i still think it'd basically be the same cutie mark just distorted, so zerkerlot would have a fucked up version of saberlot's cutie mark etc etc (this is also what i was thinking for salter and dark sakura), but casgil and archergil or saberstolfo and regularstolfo would be the same. as for other variants like latoria, castoria etc or junao or jalter i think it'd be a lot more complicated and sort of turn into a bit of a shirou and archer situation (or even a fate route shirou and ubw shirou and hf shirou situation) where due to different life circumstances pre-cutie mark they ended up coming out completely different. out of all the 'what if this servant's life had gone differently' servants, i'd say saber lily's cutie mark is probably the only one that's the same as actual saber's bc their paths diverged After the cutie mark was earned (the one piece of tm trivia i will forever be pedantic abt is that lily wasn't meant to be younger saber she was actually meant to be the anti-salter (saber but if she kept her idealism and hopefulness completely intact) and sometime around when f/go got made takeuchi or someone forgot that and started using 'lily' to mean young. and so obv all the other lily servants will have either the same cutie mark or be blank flanks depending on their age).
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The Bro Strider Meta Post (yikes)
Hi, it took me literally 5 days and a lot of pondering over whether or not to share this. I don’t mean for this to be something to like, start debates, nor do I want to argue with people about it, it’s just. Something I poured a little bit of time into, for the express purposes of my own entertainment.
But jokey jokes or nuh-uh, I promised Bro Thoughts, and I have delivered those thoughts. Some of it is speculation, some of it is me leaving you to your own devices, to draw your own conclusions. I probably sound a little unhinged, if I’m being honest, but after writing a very long fanfiction where this dude plays a main role, it feels par for the course.
So without further ado, I present my little nightmare:
Bro In Context: Speculation and Extrapolation Based on Canon Evidence and In Relation to Dirk Strider (Part 1): Canon Evidence, Speculation, Extrapolation
#it is on google docs so i can take it away if you can't behave yourselves#most of this is about puppets it is in fact almost 20 pages of puppets#the puppets are really integral to the story#tw for mentions of puppet p(o)rn canon depictions of abuse#discussions of that abuse#speculation about that abuse and discussions in relation to that#it's jsut a lot#it's actually not that long word wise but like#it's a lot of reading and looking at pictures#so#that's me i guess#i also take a swipe at the epilogues but that has less to do with the epilogues and more about the perceptions people have abt dirk bc of t#e epilogues so please don't take that the wrong way#also it has a fair amount to do with dave are u surprised lol#yes it's me ao3 user deserts the freak with the 500k+ fanfiction in 2022#i know i'm shocked too#well here it goes i guess#jesus christ i'm fucking regretting this already#also yes i made a new gmail so no one could see my fucking name or whatever ur not the boss of me
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