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kopivie · 2 years ago

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aaaand i'm 21 years old today!

happy birthday to me, i guess!

#[ 🌱 — blah blah. ]#i'm... not so sure how i feel #because in all honesty i never thought i would make it this far #i don't feel the same anticipation and excitement for my birthday as i used to feel #and i don't think i will ever feel it again #i miss it. truly i do.#i miss having joy on the one day where i'm supposed to celebrate my life #and it's not like it's always been this way. i had HUGE parties when i was a kid and we often celebrated in fun ways #but now i just... can't. i don't.#it doesn't feel good.#i can't accept presents or goodwill anymore.#so i dunno how today is gonna go. i tried to be optimistic but... i dunno.#i hope i can be happy #i hope 21 treats me well #because i really and truly just want to be happy

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mroddmod · 11 days ago

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uhhhhh happy halloweiner

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corviiids · 11 months ago

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my top bit of advice going into the new year: compliment people. especially strangers. literally everyone you interact with if you can. when you buy coffee in the morning compliment the barista's tattoos. when you're chatting with a coworker tell them that by the way you like their outfit. always find something they've chosen to do on purpose. nail polish, jewellery, tattoos, hair colour/style, statement accessory, outfit, etc are all good bets. things people hope will be noticed. things that aren't too personal so it doesn't make them uncomfortable (eg probably not their physical features). i've gotten into the habit of scanning everyone i talk to for something about them that i think is cool so i can tell them. it's a great habit because it makes me notice people and realise just how many neat little details there are in people's presentation of themselves that might pass me by if i wasn't paying attention. and it brings out so much joy. you'd be surprised how much it disarms people to receive an unexpected compliment from someone they don't know. it is the most sincere smile you will see all day long. it feels nice to make people happy but it also means you win the social interaction. establish dominance by complimenting a stranger's earrings and disappearing into the fog

#rookposting #the little 'oh!' followed by a big grin is now my highlight in every interaction i have with a stranger #you can always spot the things people hope will be noticed and you have no idea how happy it makes people when it gets noticed #i find it's always better to compliment things they did deliberately vs complimenting stuff like their voice or their face or other things #that are inherent or they cant change because that can make people uncomfortable for one thing to hear that from a stranger #but it's also just less meaningful imo because they didnt do that on purpose

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draconym · 16 days ago

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Years ago my friends and I went to see Rocky Horror Picture Show at a community theater out in the middle of nowhere. After the show we stopped at an empty little diner to get pancakes, still dressed up in our shitty hot topic fishnets and thigh high plastic boots. Toward the end of the night, just before she gave us the check, our elderly waitress touched me on the shoulder and said "the cook back there thinks you're the most beautiful girl he's ever seen" and I looked over toward the kitchen door to see a terrified young man duck down from where he was peeking out of the round window. Not a day goes by that I don't think of that interaction.

#I can probably count on one hand the number of times a stranger has complimented my appearance.#I hope you're happy wherever you are small town diner cook

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hinamie · 2 months ago

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in spite of everything, I had fun <3

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk leaks #yuji itadori #fushiguro megumi #nobara kugisaki #itafushikugi #jjk 271 #well we made it :'>#im kind of ignoring a lot of the tag rn ghsdff ik people are upset #if u follow me u know th full extent of my thoughts on the wrapping up of the series but tl;dr the caption says it all #this series meant a lot to me and im working on a bigger tribute to fully express that love and gratitude #but take a redraw 2 tide u over for now #im just so happy. its bittersweet but those r my kids n theyre tgt and theyre okay #i think the return to normalcy is good fr them. i say let them rest n b together n process everything in time #/i'm/ satisfied with what i got out of jjk as a whole and that's all that matters to me #however ik that not everyone shares tht sentiment n thats valid!#regardless of how u feel abt the finale i hope that u at least take time to remember things abt the series that brought u joy #thats all i can say #oh yeah anyway i lightened up megumi's expression his face is so funny in that panel i can't believe he really said -_- until the very end #still tho i think megu deserves a content lil smile

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 1 year ago

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getting older can be so amazing? you get more familiar with yourself. learn tips & tricks for troubleshooting your own brain. trial & error helps you build routines that minimize discomfort, maximize reward. your preferences/interests don't get set in stone, but you do find out which ones are going to stay with you in the long-term, and which ones are fun but transient joys to appreciate in the moment.

you learn that the world is so much more complex than you were taught, and that that's okay, and that there's an endless supply of things you can learn or watch or experience or think about if you want to. if you're lucky, you loosen up, stop putting so much pressure on yourself. if you're lucky, you learn to recognize that negative inner voice, and whack it with a baseball bat until it hushes up. if you're lucky, you learn to treat yourself gently, not because you are fragile but because you are worthy of gentleness. (i hope you are lucky.)

and some things will change. some things will get better. some things will get good. and maybe you start to recover from the dehumanizing stress of childhood/education. maybe you learn the power of your own autonomy. maybe you learn how to walk away from bad situations (which is a superpower even if you don't realize it yet). and you get to choose your own clothes. and your own food. and which relationships to pursue! and what you do with your free time. and with your life (but don't worry you get to choose that gradually). and that's crazy! and sometimes scary. and extraordinarily, indescribably precious.

#not a shitpost #and as long as you are alive there will be another good moment waiting for you in the future #the profound joy of your favorite foods #the incalculable luxury of waking up and lounging in bed and falling back asleep #a cold glass of water after a walk in the hot sun #petting an excited dog. a cat rubbing up against your ankle. the sight of a confused chicken #glorious these beads we string together to form our own existence #getting older means time is passing. and i hope you are passing that time in ways that make you happy #i hope you have so many moments of joy that they can be as easily counted as drops of water in the ocean

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matd0 · 1 month ago

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HELLO HELOO i am. alive. ermm. ok so long story short i am very very tired and unable to do like. anything. :P oof.

here's a toby drawing i completely forgot??? that i did??? like months ago??? found it in my files while looking for any drawings I've actually finished recently and im pretty happy with it so I'm posting it here :''3

honestly i just haven't been happy with anything i've been drawing so only stuff i've done are studies because i want to improve but idk. i feel really self critical. yk how it is being an artist, never feeling happy with your skill level :p i'm working on it though, got pretty into traditional painting for a change? idk i'm trying new stuff to find inspiration. hopefully more art SOON (for sure this time) (idk if i can promise that)

okok health update:

been very very stressed out, basically. got bad again, getting better again?¿? got more help though, so i should be getting therapy maaaybe and help getting back into school, not sure, trying to make something work out. not looking at my phone has been helping

in other news; fall is awesome, love halloween !! birthday is coming up aswell, which is pretty cool 👍👍👍 been hanging out with friends again, which is very nice too. uuuhhhhh the silent hill 2 remake finally came out!!! and it's actually good!!! like really good!!! life has meaning again!!!!

TLDR: I am so very tired. but it will get better, for sure !! just need more time? maybe? in any case, i will be back to post more whenever i am able to. thank you for enjoying my art, it does mean the world to me.

#creepypasta #creepypasta fanart #creepypasta art #ticci toby #ticci toby creepypasta #creepypasta ticci toby #toby rogers #drink some water fellas #thank you for enjoying my silly little drawings it makes me so very happy. really hope i can stop being a dumb dumb idiot and make more

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erabu-san · 6 months ago

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