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revenantisms · 5 months ago

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fellas, is it gay to have a private service with a man below deck of your ship before you help him pass from this world to the next with your hand gently massaging his throat in a tender final act of love and the following day you are wearing one of his gloves on your hand so that your normally always matching uniform is now mismatched forever in an act of symbolism akin to exchanging wedding rings oooor

#the terror #the terror amc #fitzier #i have to scream inside over them.#crozier x fitzjames #maddie

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chiquilines · 5 months ago

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I have compeltely lost it🥳

#not even watermarking these i dont want to be associated with them #WHY do i always have to pull a rarepair out my ass #shokohime is a beloved classic that actually makes sense why must i rebuke it #(i dont rebuke it i just like them better for no reason)#idk i was watching a yuki edit with the 'all she eat is dick *loud correct ding*' audio #and suddenly my gut said that is NOT right #and i was like wdym gut?#and shokos face flashed through my mind with the force of one thousand suns #so yeah. i fucked myself over #not even gonna pretend other people ship this cause its crazy #like yuki and choso are CUTE i dont MIND them which is crazy for a straight ship #but something inside me screams WOMAN KISSER at yuki #i choose to listen to the voices #anyways their ship name is cute either way its either yoko or shuki #watch that mean dickpussy in japanese id laugh #but yeah ignore me #shoko ieiri #yuki tsukumo #shuki #cw suggestive #suggestive #wlw #(idk why im pretending thats a tag)#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #chiquilines draws

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everbluekisses · 3 months ago

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a silly lesbian kimono yakumond art i did for a dear friend yeah they cute they smile they kiss and yakumo chan have long hair thats what i have for today

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seoulmatez · 9 days ago

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𝒻𝑒𝓂𝒾𝓉𝒶𝓃𝑜 : femi x capitano

the world awakens in spring — sunlight thaws what was once frozen and the soft breeze carries whispered promises of fresh starts. with every flower that blooms, their love for each other grows ever stronger.

for @femivi ♡

#— femitano!#modern femitano for uuuuu~#(though i do have some knight/princess photos saved that i also associate with femitano :3)#(perhaps i will drop them in ur inbox if u don’t mind!)#but this au makes me feel quite warm and fuzzy inside :D #'tis light and airy and warm and romantic!#florist femi and police officer capitano are simply a match made in heaven as far as i'm concerned #and i think how ur relationship develops and grows and blossoms is adjacent with the season of spring!#anyhoooo~ onto some explanations for certain photos :3 #top right screamed femitano to me!!! i saved it a while ago thinking of y'all and finally got the opportunity to use it yay <3 #the bottom right was a little silly addition -- something like capitano going a couple blocks over to get you a bouquet so he can surprise #awww flowers for his flower 🥺#BWAH top left if a bit suggestive but. . . i felt compelled to include it -- it felt right! perhaps a bit further down the line hehe #i won't yap about them all but i had a lot of fun finding pics that reminded me of y'all!#and i hope they aren't too far off from ur perception :3 #okieeee~ hope u enjoy!

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trunklewunjle · 1 year ago

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Woe bone pile sheet be upon ye

Ink belongs to comyet

Error belongs to CrayonQueen

Cross belongs to JakeiArtWork

Dream belongs to Jokublog

#cross sans #undertale au #dream sans #error sans #ink sans #crink #crosserror #utmv #drink rockers #drink #errordream #errink #I promised myself I would draw drink rockers at least once every year throughout the whole year #I would literally walk down the street and take a left turn on my neighborhood and walk to my local pick n save to buy a pillow and blanket #to lay in the middle of the road because the streets are full of snow from the previous day #the snow having coated the whole area in white the children screaming and laughing while they build snowmen that one day in the future they #will think back on such simple days when the only thing they had to worry about was not getting snow inside their boots so their socks #would not get wet and they would have to deal with the cold feeling until their mom told them to go inside #and then I wait for cars to run me over for them I love them so much they’re so silly #silly skeletons they are my whole life #SHHEHEGRHRGRHGRJSGRHRGHRGR CODMIGN OTU FO YM CAGE #WHY SRE THEY DO SILLY EHY ARE THEY SO CUTE WHY ARE JUST THEM THEY HAVE MY ENTIRE SOUL AND HEART I WOULD MELT MYSELF INTO A ROCK IF THEY #ASKED ME TO WHY ARE THEY NOT REAL WHY ARE THEY NOT IN MY HOUSE I NEED THEM IN MY LANE OF SIGHT I NEED THRM LIKE I NEED OCYGEN TO BREATHE #dink

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iniziare · 8 months ago

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Tag drop: Dorian Pavus

#[ dorian pavus. ] he says we're alike. too much pride. once i would have been overjoyed to hear him say that. now I'm not certain.#[ dorian pavus: ic. ] you find joy in it not shame. it shows. / why be ashamed? power should be respected. not swept under the carpet.#[ dorian pavus: inquiries. ] stop talking like you're waiting for applause. / what? there's no applause?#[ dorian pavus: countenance. ] i'm here to set things right. also? to look dashing. that part's less difficult.#[ dorian pavus: introspection. ] selfish i suppose. not to want to spend my entire life screaming on the inside.#[ dorian pavus: meta. ] you inspired me with your marvelous antics. you’re shaping the world. how could i aspire to do any less?#[ dorian pavus: etc. ] you can't call me pampered. nobody's peeled a grape for me in weeks.#[ dorian pavus: magic. ] don't your spells whisper things to you? what is and could be? music in the mind of strange faraway places?#[ dorian pavus: inquisition. ] we're going to get lost and starve to death. aren't we? a glorious end for the inquisition.#[ dorian pavus: tevinter. ] despite appearances. we care deeply. about everything. we have no reserve. not in war and not in love.#[ dorian pavus: felix. ] even in illness he was the best of us. with him around you knew things could be better.#[ dorian pavus: gereon. ] we used to talk about how we could make real change in the imperium. then he gave up. he stopped trying.#[ dorian pavus: halward. ] i only wanted what was best for you. / no. you wanted the best for you. your fucking legacy.#[ dorian pavus: aquinea. ] her blame was cold and smothering. never spoken but always present. he couldn't face that. not yet.#[ dorian pavus: inquisitor. ] you have too many people asking you for everything under the sun. i won't be one of them.#[ dorian pavus: solas. ] you startled me. you're always so... nondescript. / please speak up. i cannot hear you over your outfit.#[ dorian pavus: varric. ] what do you think sparkler? ten royals says the next thing we run into farts fire. / taken i win either way.#[ dorian pavus: cullen. ] gloat all you like. i have this one. / are you sassing me commander? i didn't know you had it in you.#[ dorian pavus: cassandra. ] blue scarf? why would i be wearing such a thing? / It's a painting. work with me. it'll be fantastic.#[ dorian pavus: cole. ] you say you're handsome all the time. am i? i can't tell. / you're all right. might want to rethink the hats.#[ dorian pavus: vivienne. ] i received a letter the other day dorian. / truly? it's nice to know you have friends.#[ dorian pavus: blackwall. ] point is. you should let yourself off the hook. i know bad men and you're not one.#[ dorian pavus: sera. ] you magic me: i'll put three arrows in your eye. / now we can live together in peace and harmony.#[ dorian pavus: bull. ] no qunari would accept a tevinter mage unless it was a ruse. when should i expect a knife in the back?#[ dorian pavus: corypheus. ] one of yours? / one of mine? like a pet? a giant darkspawn hamster with aspirations of godhood?#[ dorian pavus: v. inquisition. ] one of mine? like a pet? like a giant darkspawn hamster with aspirations of godhood?#[ dorian pavus: v. veilguard. ] evil gods. rituals. waiting for the stars. it's about as tevinter as blood magic and hubris.#tag drop

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satoruxx · 2 months ago

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sorry i still can’t stop thinking about the fact that they ended the song with the just a man snippet… like he came home as a “monster” but he really is still just a man who wanted nothing more than to see his wife and kid again…….

#[𐐪— rheya talks. 𐑂]#guys i’m actually so emotional over this #i swear the 360 hug animation will not leave my head #i need to plaster it on the inside of my eyeballs #one of the most visceral and raw animatics i have ever seen #i hate it here #i went through literally every emotion #was sad during the challenge #then got ready to beat a bitch during hold them down #was screaming at odysseus (literal goosebumps as he was killing them wtf)#got happy sad during i can’t help but wonder #and then proceeded to sob during would you fall in love with me again #ugh #i need to process this

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ilikehfjone · 2 months ago

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CRYING AGAIN 🔥🔥🔥

uh. yeah sorry.

#off to eat sticks i go #EWRXDTCFYVGUBHINJHBUGYVFCDSDFYVGVFTCDRXCTFVYGBUVYFC #AAAAAAAAAAAA #cant fucking bite anything because the only thing around is mw #and ma can't know #AUGHJHHHHFYTGUHIJOUIHYTYCRDERX #fucking broke a pen #ZESRXDTCFYVGUBHIUOJ #i swear to god if my history teacher yells at me again i will scream back i hate him so much #please shut up and. let me fo my work i just want some wuit its never quiet anymore not eben on the inside A GSFbFGRBg clawi t odd claw it #ff DTRFYT #ripp them outb claw tear bite AAAAAGG FUCK UFCK FUCK #srotg fro anyone who sses this sorry sorry we're Not Having A Great Time haha #so hungry #please there is nothingb left elt me eat please he's neevr quiet shut up shut up please ill do anything just one peice of goddamn lettice a #this point om so hungry please please it hurts i ate from the spices today nothing but salt #ade me thirsty so. i drank from thte sink #they looked at me ired #please please oh god please take me away where it's safe i cant fucking hear my own voice over htem im terrified of my own mother isnt that #funnny.#sorry #uh #i don'tt think i remember anything from the last ah #entitey offf my evrything??m odd sensations starnge unfammilar lands run back to home help anone here im confuse ertghbiuo #fuck.#AAAAAAAAAA #can't scream out loud so we doin it on the tumblr blog where all the people i know are #sad. aint it.#oh welll #vent post

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melit0n · 1 year ago

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3:35 to 4:10 in Levitate is so unbelievably comforting to me. In the best (and worst) way possible, it truly does feel like levitation.

The best way I can describe it is laying in someone's arms, lover, friend, foe or family, and simply basking in the comfort they give you. One arm wrapped, gently, around your middle, fingers tracing invisible patterns on your clothes, and the other hand softly combing through your hair as they whisper soft nothings in your ear. You're on the brink of sleep; half listening to their words and half being drawn in by the comfort of the drowsy void.

It's a warm hug that you never want to leave. (catch me replaying that part over and over)

#and then the breakdown #(since you all seem to like it so much when I get depressive with these I'll pull out my thoughts)#my mind always conjurs two things with the breakdown; death and mourning #when you think of levitation you either think of magic or death; the soul rising up to Heaven #the choir that joins Vessel singing are angels as he tries to comfort the person dying in his arms.#the breakdown is when he finally realises that's it; they're gone #he brought down Heaven like an ancient bygone for them knowing their own wings wouldn't find it #but by God he'll scream and cry and year himself inside out over it even if he told himself that he would accept it #('death' can either be interpreted as actual death or the act of leaving someone for good ->#those last few seconds of calm is having one last moment with them before they rise to where he can't reach them)#if you can't tell I'm in my sad yearning hours because I didn't sleep last night and I'm stressed about trying to get tickets but we ball 💪#sleep token #st #sleep token analysis #levitate (song)#levitate #sundowning #mel's rambles

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19catsncounting · 3 months ago

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Therapy isn't enough I need the CW to go back and re-film Season 11 to prove that Lucifer could have been saved if Michael didn't abandon him like Dean refused to abandon Sam.

#I'm old enough to know that some ideas are too cinematic and visual to be translated to fic and This Is One Of Them #Amara shows up and wants to eat Lucifer but Lucifer runs off comes back and tosses a bag of stuff for spellwork at Sam #Snaps his fingers and Devil's Dancefloor by Flogging Molly starts to play at an increasing volume #Someone comments that having a hype song is lame and Lucifer says YEAH IT'S REAL LAME ISN'T IT DEAN #Big knockdown fight between Lucifer and Amara and the spell banishes both but Lucifer manages to claw his way back #Michael!Adam clawed their way out of the cage but is living as Adam and Lucifer restores Michael's memories by giving back his blade #Michael and Lucifer working very poorly together but it reaches a head when they're trapped in a town Amara is going to literally devour #And Lucifer's like 'Oh we're both acts of God actually so one of us is going to have to destroy the other in Amara's general direction'#And Michael thinks it's a ploy and refuses and says Lucifer's so tainted he's not anything like what God made and Wow That's Mean #But Michael agrees thinking that sacrificing God's favored son will get dad to come back but Lucifer is genuinely afraid of death #Because angels don't get an afterlife so this has also been a narrative conversation about forgiveness outside of punishment and hell #But right before God does show up Michael has a hand inside Lucifer's glowing chest forcing his light in an attack beam at Amara #And Lucifer is crying screaming clawing growing weaker and Michael just stops and curls his free hand over the back of Lucifer's head #And he Regrets he realizes how long he's refused to let himself love his brother to serve his father and now it's the end #And not the end he prepared himself for but if he gets the freedom to love his brother and choose not to kill him maybe he chooses-#Ahahah Chuck's there now and 3V2 THERAPY TIME #WHO'S THAT IT'S JOHN WINCHESTER'S GHOST WITH A STEEL CHAIR #Anyway Supernatural was good when we still had narrative parallels and in every SamDean moment I am closing my eyes and seeing Them #S8 Sam during the Trials of God? Don't you mean Lucifer begging his brother to help him bear the mark before it warps him?#listen I'll shut up when someone tells me WHY DIDN'T LUCIFER GET TO GO APESHIT ABOUT DEAN DESTROYING THE MARK #LUCIFER BORE THE MARK FOR EONS SO DID CAIN THE MARK RUINED BOTH OF THEM #AND DEAN GETS TO TOSS IT AFTER A YEAR???? AND LUCIFER SAYS NOTHING??????????????????????????????#Not even a “Well now I know how Michael would have done with the mark”

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star-spangled-man · 10 months ago

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living on a high right now because I just scored 3 hard cover Jane Austen books in the most beautiful covers I have ever laid my eyes on irl at the secondhand bookstore today!!!

I don’t know what happened to the previous Jane Austen girlie but let her know I will cherish these with my life and will be my prized possessions forever <3

#JANE AUSTEN GIRLIES I AM OVER THE MOOOOOOON #p&p me was trying real hard not to scream when I saw them!!#they have the beautiful illustrations and perfect hardcover and dust jacket and AHHHHHHH #the gasp I let out! it was meant to beeeee #also in the inside it says billie. the day I am on her cf on insta so surely be3 is coming Jane Austen said so #paige talks #jane austen #pride & prejudice #emma #sense and sensibility

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ronsenburg · 1 year ago

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I can’t believe I started this AU five years ago as a silly joke and now I’m absolutely feral over it.

Because!

Because for Felix it’s like, what if you’ve never been able to trust a single emotion you feel because you can’t be sure if it’s your own or if it’s someone else’s that you’ve mistakenly collected into your subconscious? What if you’ve never been able to trust a single emotion someone’s felt about you because you can’t be sure if it’s what they actually feel or if it’s your own that you’ve mistakenly projected onto them? So you resolve not to feel at all, to train your mind and body until you’re more a weapon than a person, and set yourself on an arrow-straight trajectory, always moving forward. But how do you stay the course when the only person who has made you want to feel is always there, footstep for footstep, urging you along? What truly scares you more, that they don’t mean the things they say, that the devotion they claim to feel is just a resonance of the feelings they inspire in you? Or that they do? You are a weapon, now. You are only capable of inflicting pain. But for a weapon, you do so fear the fresh wound’s sting.

Because for Sylvain it’s like, sometimes you become the thing you fear the most simply by trying to run away. You were born to prove someone else’s point, to provide validity to a interplanetary thesis. Raised by one parent to triumph in a war that ended before you were even born, by the other to carry the banner of a legacy. Little thought was given to your wishes. You sit squarely between two worlds, a human tether, but what—or who—is it that tethers you? You’ve loved him for so long, now. It doesn’t feel the same, loving anyone else, no matter how many times you’ve tried. So what will you do when he leaves, when he abandons you to the emptiness you’ve been trying to drown in the depths of your feelings for him? When it is only you, left in the dark. Without the legacy, without the future that was chosen for you. Who do you become, then?

Because.

#girl help I have been lost in my feelings over this for so long #10k and six different word documents and I don’t even have a single coherent scene because #it’s all just thoughts and emotions and outlines #I should give up and move on but #screaming shaking crying #it’s felix nearly starting a war after two minutes of accidentally glimpsing the chaos inside dimitri’s head #it’s mercedes so full of guilt for abandoning her own brother that she follows felix across the galaxy to be someone he can lean on #and it’s sylvain #sylvain retiring from starfleet at the age of 23 due to an injury that Felix inadvertently caused #one that should be fixable but isn’t because it’s more than just flesh that’s damaged #and having to live a life that’s his alone and not a product of his parent’s influence #and all of them still ending up back on the deck of the uss faerghus because their love for dimitri is so complete #I’m going to delete this in an hour when I’m less emotional #I need a tag for this au so you all can block it #tactility: a primer

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inun4ki · 1 year ago

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me, frothing at the mouth: i don't want casual ! i want complicated, thought out, tragic, and soft !!!

#tbd #/ B[#/ I want him to ugly cry over your muse #/ I want him to ugly cry over deciding to TRUST your muse #/ I want him to lose what's left of his personhood to protect them!!#/ I want your muse to be safe from harm because dumbshit supreme is there to save the day #/ and I want him to suffer severely for it!!#/ I want him to love recklessly both platonically and romantically #/ I want it to eat him from the inside out like cobra venom #/ I want him to sacrifice everything he has or will ever have for them!!!#/ it could be so beautiful. Absolutely bonkers insane #/ but whole and rounded and earnest despite his flaws #/ *screaming into the void like a coked out chimpanzee*#/ absolutely nothing prompted this. I've been daydrinking while cooking up a roast #/ unhinged yodeling is what you could call this

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sevicia · 1 year ago

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Thinking of the way other kids treated me when I was in school makes me crazy like why'd they do all that 😭

& it wasn't even that bad I have always just been really really sensitive. SAD.

It only got physical a few times too like how long has it been, 6? 7 years? And I'm still hung up on it somehow

It's actually so fucked up how whatever you go through as a child will Literally change you forever, can't I like... scrape those parts off.... and be a normal fucking person for once 😭

#I can remember like. being kicked around a few times or having trash thrown at me #or one time that I remember SO CLEARLY is waiting for the school bus inside (it works dif here)#and some kids knocking a bible stand over so it hit my feet like those things were HEAVY and made of like. metal or smth IDK #and I had to bear it until I got home and then I could barely walk around cause it was THROBBING so I just did my chores and went to bed #and another time not necessarily being hit or anything #but boys would take their socks off after PE and throw them at me and laugh #I think they did all that cause I was literally just. stoic. I never reacted even when I wanted to scream #I thought that if I didn't react they'd all get bored and stop #it only stopped around 7th grade when they stopped considering it fun I guess #and then they started being nice to me like WHAT.#I never called anyone out. I just didn't wanna deal with the shame yk #these tags are so FUCKING long. why'd I say all that.#whatever. MY diary ‼️#diary

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diagonal-queen · 1 year ago

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sorry harlan ellison (not really tho lol)