#i have to meet with my ex because he wants to talk and i a) can't wait to make him buy me dinner and b) really tell him how i feel
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Hi, Jamie! My brain wonât stop thinking about your Buck/Shannon snip from the other day. Does Buck find excuses to hang around and talk to her at the coffe shop until he realizes heâll look desperate if he names one more reason he can stay? Or yâknow any other Thoughts you might be having about Them đ
I keep thinking about her having to go back to work in the afternoon and she doesn't really want to go because they're having such a great conversation. She hasn't really talked to any guys since she left Eddie and they got divorced via lawyers (because they're divorced here it's less messy), and Evan Buckley is sweet and funny and okay very very hot, and he's a firefighter! He saves lives. So when he asks for her number, she's like. a little hesitant because she's still working things out for herself and trying to get the courage to work her way back into Christopher's life, and maybe dating is the last thing she needs to do. But she says yes anyway because it's just nice to be flirted with. eddie was her last relationship and she was never flirted with in the end. it was never really good in the end. all they did was fight. so they meet for coffee a couple more times before he gets up the courage to ask her on a real date, and he ends up taking her to a really nice place and they talk about their exes - his a woman that left him and then just stopped texting him, hers an ex that was complicated and confusing and she's honest about just walking out but she maybe leaves out chris because she wants him to like her before she finds out he's kind of a horrible mother.
The thing is he really likes her and she likes him and he's kind of a gentleman. She tells him she hasn't dated in a while and he lets her take it slow. They kiss after the first date, on her doorstep, like fucking teenagers whose parents are waiting inside. It's so *nice*. And so they start dating.
And sometimes Buck mentions her at work but for some reason it just never dawns on Eddie that Shannon is his Shannon. Shannon is a common name, you know. But after a few dates when they finally sleep together, he says, hey, you should stop by the station after work some day. I'll show you around. You can meet the crew. They're family! It's basically home!
And so she does. She stops by on a random Wednesday. It's a normal day! They've been going out for about a month. She wants to meet his friends. She doesn't really have many people to introduce him to at the moment. Maybe Chris, some day, if she can get the courage to tell Eddie she wants to be back in their lives.
But then she asks to see Buck and the nice man who greets her goes upstairs and she hears Buck say
"Come on, man! You're going to love her. She's so beautiful. Just wait."
And Buck is coming downstairs with another man, and --
"Oh fuck."
"Shannon." Eddie just blinks at her.
"Hey, you know Shannon already?" Buck smiles. He goes over and greets her with a kiss to her cheek. "Eddie's my partner and best friend."
Of course he is because Shannon is very very unlucky.
"Buck." She frowns. "I know Eddie because he's my ex-husband."
"But that - that means you're - "
"Shannon is Chris' mother."
--TBC!!!!
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The other half of me
Popular Boy! Lee Know x Loner Photographer! Black fem reader
Summary: Lee Know the schools heartthrob, Mr perfect, the pretty boy, sees you getting bullied by his ex and decides to step in. He offers to take you to the nurse and when you two meet again after you rejected his offer her learned that he doesnât have to lie to himself when near you (College AU)
Troupe- Heartthrob x Loner (kinda)
Trigger Warnings! Fluff and angst, crying, cursing, bullying, a tad bit of fighting, blood (lmk if I missed anything!!)
You were sitting down in your seat on the train looking down at your camera as you made your way to school. When the train finally stopped you stood up and walked over your bag and camera in hand. You connected your Bluetooth headphones as you began walking out the train station and toward the campus.
You were eventually across the street from the campus. You looked at the gates and you took a deep breath before walking across the street and making it to the other side of the road. When you made it to the other side you walked towards the entrance, not before the same group of girls came beside you pushing you over and knocking you down causing you to hurt your leg.
âFuck-!! Ow!!â You said as you sat up holding your bleeding knee. âAww is the baby gonna cry? Gonna cry!! Grab her camera and take a picture too!!â Amia, your main enemy laughed loudly as another girl, Jio, grabbed the camera. When she picked it up you quickly stood up and snatched it back. âLeave me alone!â You said clenching your camera. âWho do you think youâre talking to!?â Just as Amia was about to slap you, Lee Know, the school heartthrob stopped her hand.
âAmia what the hell are you doing? Leave her alone.â Lee know said looking at Amia with a stern voice standing there waiting for her to leave. âBut-!!â âGo.â âUGH!!â Amia stomped off with her friend mumbling underneath her breath. Lee know turned around coming closer towards you to get a look at your face before you backed up. âI didnât need help..but thank you..â You said as you looked away from him and back away. âYouâre welc-shit youâre bleeding come here let me help.â He reached out to grab your arm when you snatched it back from him. âDonât!!..Donât touch me. I can do it myself.â
You grab your bag from off the ground and limp to the nurses office. She wasnât surprised to see you as this was normal for you by now. She sat you down on a chair as she disinfected the wound. As you sat there patiently waiting for her to finish the door to the office was opened again and in came Lee know. You were about to protest and tell him to stop following you when you saw him sit on the chair need the window and just look outside. Completely ignoring your presence.
You could tell he seemed a bit out of it so you decided to maybe snap him out of it. âWhatâs little Mr. Perfect doing here? Thought boys like you were too good to get into fights.â You said sarcastically rolling your eyes as you looked at him waiting for his response. âWell seeing as defending you got me dumped, I thought Iâd come check in you.â He said honestly making you feel bad.
âOh..I-Iâm sorry I didntâŚâ
âItâs fine. She was annoying and bitchy anyways..just using me for my popularity and money..â For the first time in forever you felt like you knew him..? You and Lee know never spoke. Never even a wave but here he was pouring his true emotions out to you. You looked at him softly. âSo whyâd you get with her..?â You said softly but also sounding concerned. âMy parents forced me to do it. They force me to do all of this.â He admitted as he looked at her.
You two made eye contact but it felt deeper than just a glare. âSo you donât want to be the schools âHeartthrobâ the âpopular boyâ the-â âGuy everyone wants to become because Iâm rich and get girls? yeah. I hate it, wish I could just be left alone, kinda like you.â He said chuckling to himself dryly.
â..Why would you want that.. I mean being alone is well, lonely of course.. No friends and everyone thinks youâre just a weirdo. Being like this sucks.â You say chuckling as well looking down at your leg as the nurse walked in. âOh? Is something wrong Lee know?â The nurse said looking at your leg and wrapping it as she spoke. âNo just came in here to get away.â He said his voice quiet, almost like he wanted to go unheard.
âWell good thing I just went to restockâŚ.â She paused briefly. âYou know.. you two are really the same.â She said with a soft smile as she finished wrapping your leg throwing away some of the bloody cotton balls. âHow? Weâre polar opposites.â You two said almost at the same time and then made eye contact.
âThatâs how.â She giggled. âWell you two need to get to class now yes?? Iâll write you both a pass!â You awkwardly shifted in your seat before standing up preparing to leave as she finishes writing the note you find yourself gazing in Lee knowâs direction. As you look at him, you find yourself lost in his presence. The way the sunlight hits all his features perfectly, the way his eyes shimmer, his slightly pink cheeks.. You find yourself unable to control your movements and you take out your camera and snap a picture of him. When the picture comes out the Polaroid you shake it and then look at it. Gorgeous. Pure perfection. You then snap out of your head when you hear the nurse snap.
âStuck in la-la land over him arenât we?â She chuckled. Nervous that you had been called out you just run out the room with your camera but dropping the picture. Lee know saw that you dropped something and he stood up to pick it up when he saw that what you droppedâŚwas a picture of him.
He smiled and picked up the photo. The nurse who was watching it all smiled too as she crossed her legs
âSeems you found your other half.â
âSeems so..â
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A/N- AH I spent SO long writing this!! I hope you guys like it!!! Lmk if you want this to be a series too(*â§ââŚ*)
#stray kids#skz fanfic#skz angst#skz fluff#lee know angst#lee know x reader#skz lee know#lee know fic#fanfic#kpop#quxyivs
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Hi guys so if u live in CT and want to go to an art highschool
don't go to Arts of The Capitol Theater.
Trigger warning for ableism.
There at that school, the principal is a fucking bitch. Now I don't use that term too lightly, but it definitely fits her.
At that school currently, there is a problem involving sexual harassment. This has been brought up to her on multiple occasions, as well as multiple reports have been filed against the harasser by multiple victims.
Sarah, the principal, has done absolutely nothing. She has said that she's talked with the student and his parents as well as other students' parents about the situation, but she NEVER emailed my mother or my boyfriend's mother about anything involving the situation.
So we had to take this small, itty bitty information she gave us at face value and just believe her.
Obviously, I didn't, and MANY students involved with this didn't believe her either. In fact, they were repulsed by this small information.
Me and multiple students took part and organized a sit-in, which is a form of peaceful protest where the protesters sit in a designated place until their needs are met or they were forced to move by authority. Unfortunately, we were suspended for the rest of the day for this protest movement.
This created a large change in students' views of the principal and the academics, so we gained more traction. More people reported their experiences and the reports piled up.
It was on December 19th that I was suspended until further notice alongside my boyfriend and a now ex-friend for creating a disturbance in the academic environment and for bullying.
Originally I wasn't meant to be suspended, however my boyfriend texted me to come to the office because he and the ex-friend were being expelled and/or suspended.
Now I do not run unless I absolutely need to. For context, I was on the basement floor. The office is on the second floor. I am not allowed to use elevators. So when I say I sprinted as fast as I could up 3 flights of stairs into that office to fight tooth and nail for my friends, I mean it. I was up those stairs in 5 seconds and in the office in 8.
I screamed my lungs out at the principal and guidance counselor for not doing their jobs and for condemning the wrong people in this situation so loudly that an alumni walking by heard me and stopped by the door to watch me. I saw admiration in her eyes.
My boyfriend was sobbing hysterically and pounding his head on the table because he was so horrifically deregulated and the guidance counselor didn't do a single thing as a support staff. If anything, she sat there and watched. Her face didn't change a bit from a cold stare.
I was told to leave. I didn't. I would not leave because if they went down fighting for their fucking rights, so would I. I organized the protests and posters and reports. I convinced girls and boys alike who were affected to report the boy who harassed them. I made people feel like there were options.
And so, I was suspended until further notice alongside my boyfriend and ex-friend.
I do not regret it.
Now today my mother had an online meeting with Sarah and the school's board to determine what would happen next involving me and school.
They wanted me to come back tomorrow, and had said that I should have been doing the work from home because I was only suspended for 5 days. That was a lie. Sarah told me I was suspended until further notice and there would have to be a re-entry meeting if I were to come back.
My mother fought for me when I wasn't awake yet for the meeting, which I wasn't even supposed to be there for but my mother let me sit in silence on the floor to listen, and the amount of lies coming from the board was absolutely astounding.
Sarah, Jane, and Nina spouted lies upon lies and blamed my defiance and such on my disabilities.
For reference, I have ODD, otherwise known as oppositional defiant disorder, ADHD, ADD, and others I won't list.
They never took accountability for their actions once during that meeting.
So when I say do NOT go to that school if you can help it, I fucking mean it.
That school is ableist and everything under the sun that a youth would never want to experience in what is supposed to be an educational environment.
Fuck that school.
#maintaining mutts#ricochetfuel#psa#connecticut#arts of the Capitol Theater#fuck that school#announcement#tw ableism#cw ableism#ableism#tagging that just in case
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HELP! I've fallen down a Bering and Wells hole again and can't stop watching fanvids. I misssssss them!!! đ˘
#I'm also thinking about a platonic Pete & Myka soulmate AU and all the bickering that would come with it#Like Pete trying to feel out what the rules are for him dating someone if she and him are soulmates#and Myka's like 'I literally never want to talk about who you have sex with ever'#âBut-â / âNOPE! Just do whatever you want Pete!â#And then later as joke (but delivered completely seriously) she says she wants full approval of any serious relationship he has#And she'll be the one planning the proposal for him#(No no no! That's not happening.)#Actually! She might just play matchmaker for him too because she's not sure she can trust his judgement#... or his ability to make a good first impression.#âYou wanted my input remember?â / âNot like that!â#And then even LATER when she meets Amanda for the first time she's like 'Wow that's your ex-wife? Man you really fucked up there."#âYeah thanks for that Myka. That's very helpful.â#âNo chance of winning her back?â#âWinning back my ex-wife who's about to be remarried? No I think that ship has sailed.â#âYeah.... My ex girlfriend is a hologram now so at least this is a step up from that.â#âI never agreed to HG being your girlfriend.â#â.... Yeah but I wanted to.â#â.... Okay this is getting way too gloomy for a wedding day. We need to stuff ourselves with cake.â#Warehouse 13#Myka Bering#Pete Lattimer#Helena Wells#Bering and Wells#my fic#(I guess accidentally in the tags lol)#(idk I'm tired man. My head is all over the place today :P)
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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I always get detained at da border because PROFUNC never ended but basically I'm like if a targeted individual didn't even care
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I sincerely think if Dennis Reynolds and Jeff Winger were to makeout, it would benefit them both immensely, in fact, itâd be good for their health
#jeff winger#dennis reynolds#wait wait okay they run into each other because Jeffâs a student and Dennis is out looking for his usual college girl type heâs so set on#but like they both come to the realization thatâs not what they want anymore/never what they wanted or what will make them happy#because they see reflections of themselves in each other#and after having a wild whirlwind affair or one night stand they part ways each changed by the experience#and Dennis comes home and tells Mac how he feels#and Jeff tentatively accepts the deanâs invite to a dinner or something#text#anmmbposts#and also the next time the gang needs a lawyer Dennis is like I know a guy so they donât have to use uncle jack anymore#and Jeff takes The Lawyer completely off guard and absolutely destroys him#and Charlie gets to excitedly talk with him about bird law to which Jeff either tells him hey greendale actually has a class on that#or hey you could teach a class on that at greendale#ignore me writing my silly crossover fanfic in the tags Iâm at work and the thoughts are suddenly vibing#and they become like amicable sorta exes and if they ever meet each otherâs friends do you think Mac and Shirley would bond over religion?#do you think Britta and Dee would get along?#I think Charlie might have fun playing games or building forts with troy and abed they could play night crawlers together#help me my mind keeps going
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new curse dropped: having fic ideas but i refuse to write rpf/don't think i even could
#coriolis posts#ignore the part where there's extremely vivid scenes and even dialogue showing up as if written out in my head. ignore that#but if anyone wants to take my ideas and run w them.... đ#1. is just sort of . oscar's experimental hookups in the junior series (max f + arthur l)#well they backfire on him when he gets to f1 and meets lando and charles#no actual endgame with that one#to be clear i do not think . that actually happened (duh) (the f in rpf stands for fiction) i just think it would be funny#lando: ive heard a lot about you!#oscar: (fuck fuck fuck what the fuck) ... yeah?#lando: yeah max said you were rly interesting to race :)#yeah fuck it i'll tag this#f1 rpf#oscar piastri#hes not the only one but hes the main one and its all in the tags anyway#the 2nd idea is a college au#charles and oscar are friends and they're talking about. something. idk maybe charles went on vacation to paris#and Oscar is like well i simply dont believe you that french people are more romantic than anyone else#and charles goes That sounds like a challenge. let me set you up with my good friend pierre#(he does not tell pierre its basically for a bet. pierre is just Like That or something) anyway pierre takes oscar out on a few dates#and maybe charles sort of has a point from a technical pov#but theyre not like. falling in love#because 1. aromantic oscar anyone? aro? hit him with the aro beam?#and 2. pierre is in love with charles (and vice versa)#Also featuring the college's rc car club (oscar esteban liam + a few more idk)#and oscar finds out pierre and esteban have beef but he figures out its either 1. silly childhood grudges#or 2. misunderstandings (e.g. pierre thought esteban keyed his car but it was actually a jealous ex gf)#anyway point is oscar sets up charles and pierre and then makes pierre and esteban be friends again#and he gets to dogsit simba and leo while piarles go on dates (this was his end goal all along. đ§ĄđśđŠ)#thats so many tags jfc#anyway if anyone else wants to write either of these i give you full permission
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ok let's catch up quickly
#so i went on a few dates w this guy. long hair beautiful face kinda looked like a girl (good) said yes ma'am when i told him to do smth#(also good) film student great at photography including candids. made a sheath of leather for a sword pin i have . et cetera.#he asked to cuddle and i was like iggg and then i felt Nothing and i was like ohhh yh ok ok yep lesbian#like he meets almost all my criteria but. yeahhh no . also at the end of that date he had some weird takes. anyway broke up w him and told#him actually im p sure im a lesbian (again) and he was like yk thats the second time this has happened to me this week but its ok bc ive#fallen for this girl from berlin. and then we cooked together. anyway . met a beautiful butch lowk in love w her. weve been on (1) date.#have two exams in a few days havent studied enough going to like end it all basically. my research partner kicked me off our research#(expected(it was always skinda sketchy)) which was devastating + it happened in a lidl 15 hours into a journey from bordeaux#to go back to the UK. my friends were kinda busy paying for baguettes but also they heard this whole exchange and are kinda mad at him#my friend of 10+ years is coming over in a few days. my evil ex situationship person that i decided to stay friends w because i kept#insisting they are a good friend and not evil and also extremely beautiful? turns out shockingly enough they were evil. tried to fix them#and then i realised due to their entire friendship group being ppl like me (Every Single One of their friends are ppl they met on dating#apps then led on then dumped and proposed staying friends w) and are collectively extremely attracted to them and not over them they#keep validating the most diabolical shit they say/do to hace a chance w them. they broke up w their ex and the way they keep leading#this poor girl on and making her heartbeeak worse and saying that they want more power over her and want her to beg for them back etc...MY#JAW HAD DROPPED esp bc i didnt even know the ex was in the picture BECAUSE ME AND ONE OF OUR FRIENDS (that they also dated) HAD JUSR SLEPT#NAKED TOGETHER IN THEIR BED W THEM. GIRL. anyway that is the least of the diabolical stuff they said but no we are moving onnn#this was b4 the beautiful butch btw. anyways . i have a mitski concert tmrw i think?? idek anymore#i used to have a crush on this guy very briefly and then it disappeared and then i realised if he fundementally changed everything abt#himself then maybe id like him but ofc i didnt tell him that but i still think abt it sometimes but anyway thats irrelevant now bc 99% sure#even if he did id still not find him attractive (lesbianism). please recommend good overnight moisturisers btw i have super dry skin#right. the friend of 10 yrs. we had a hard convo abt why she essentially bullied me in year 8 and it made me highly bitter but i also love#her and ik things are diff now its been like . Many Years . and shes going to stay a while I HAVE TWO EXAMS I DONT HAVE TIME but i love her#its fine. i think i might just switch into medicine and do the whole become a neurosurgeon thing (which was my plan B) bc plan A is looking#kinda impossible rn. I WANNA TALK MORE ABT WHAT THE EX SITUATIONSHIP PERSON SAID but i wont bc i dont wanna be too mean but also . MY GOD#i had a conversation w a philosopher friend about whether i have a moral responsibility to try to fix them bc unleashing this on society#feels wrong and he said 'probably but...run' so yeah im not talking to them atm. second date w beautiful butch on monday btw IDK WHAT TO#WEAR. she said she likes fems. im just gonna wear the shortest ralph lauren skirt i have w the cute leg warmers and hope 4 the best#its 1:15 AM im abt to drink coffee and start studying bc what the FUCK man. also almost finished watching the boys its very good#one of my best friends is struggling rn it is breaking my heart i want to take the burden from her i miss her very much
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so sore from the gym.... tonight as a treat i will work on my next Instagram post.....
#i have to meet with my ex because he wants to talk and i a) can't wait to make him buy me dinner and b) really tell him how i feel#we'll see how it goesss#anyway#i make these like. little collages. maybe i'll post them here too! i want to do before my birthday so i can make a birthday post.....#HEHEHEHE
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#My little sister is an asshole- dad was warned by mom when she was like 14 and he did nothing by mom of all people#she's callous-hurtful-abusive-underhanded-crass-and somehow draws people to her despite giving the aura of âtoxicâ#He was asking me if I liked the new car-I said no because she was in it- that she didn't bother meeting my eyes nor greeting me#Only reason she was driving was to rub it in that âdaddy loves me the best- look at my car he bought meâ#It has taken every ounce of restraint I have to not look at her son and tell him every beating I've taken because of and on her behalf#But that is between me and her until it isn't- I hated being pitted against my parents even when they were being vile#Dad's excuse for letting it all happen is that he wasn't the one in the crosshairs cuz somehow that negates the EVIL she did to us#I have been made aware of TWO other instances besides mine of her literally trying to get someone to off themselves- unforgivable#Makes me wonder if she has gotten away with it before and is chasing that high again- I'd like to think not but I am not discounting my gut#I really wish that at least one adult in my life had given a fuck about how we were going to end up- one emotionally mature adult#Then! Dad tried to defend himself about pulling a gun on her ex- like taking a dog was worth a fucking life- give me a break asshole#If you cared at fucking all about the kid you wouldn't have immediately sided with the monster just because of shared blood#But hey- I'm the one that needs to inherit the shitshow from him- if I outlive him- Kinda hope the universe is spiteful and lets me off 1st#Is having a place to get away from this so I don't have to rely on them so much to ask for? I don't want their affection anymore#I really want out of this family- I don't even want to help the kids anymore- does that make me selfish?- I don't know#I have been trying to talk to babysis about any of this given our small bond- but it's so gd fleeting- we're all terminally lonely people#I long for a place I have never been- people I haven't met- warmth I've never known. spirituality has nothing for me#neither does the mundane#Let me get this story out of my head and hands and we'll circle back to the topic of escape. I just want to sleep now- so I'll do just that
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don't know how to tell my bestfriend that im a little bit upset with her because like i don't want her to think im toxic and drainingđ
#because like see. itni choti si baat pe gussa hona allowed nahi hai na#yehi seekha hai maine even if something is killing you on the inside if it is choti si baat for samne wala#then you're crazy and exhausting and toxic#and we were just talking about how we're so perfect because we never fight because she and her now ex kept fighting#and he constantly drained her drains her even now he's that clingy ex who can't let go#so it means she doesn't like people who get mad at her she wants peace and jist fun#buf like. i don't have the energy to pretend more you know? i spend the whole day pretending to be normal and happy and okay#because that's just the way things are i don't like my work i don't like the people there not enough to make me genuinely happy#with her i never have to pretend. but i would have to now#and i can't. i just want to get over it on my own without telling her anything because like she has exams next month and she's tired#and depressed we both are#but then weekend is the prime time for js to meet#ugh
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Thicker Than Blood
Max Verstappen x Charles Leclercâs Ex!Reader
Summary: you didnât think things could get worse after your long-time (ex) boyfriend chose his team over you ⌠until you see those two pink lines, but little do you know that his rival will soon prove that a found family can be thicker than blood
Warnings: includes depictions of labor complications and Jos Verstappen
Based on this request
âCharles, this isnât funny.â
Youâre half-smiling, half-laughing, like youâre expecting him to crack any second and say something ridiculous, something that would make you roll your eyes and shake your head at his poor attempt at a joke.
But he doesnât. He just stands there, his eyes fixed on you with a seriousness that makes your stomach twist.
âCharles,â you repeat, the laugh in your voice now entirely gone. âWhat are you talking about?â
He runs a hand through his hair, the way he does when heâs trying to find the right words, but theyâre all jumbled up in his head. You know this Charles. This is the Charles who struggles when things arenât easy, when he has to explain something he doesnât want to. But this ⌠this is different.
âWe need to break up.â The words come out so softly, so carefully, like heâs afraid of them. But they hit you hard, a punch in the gut that leaves you breathless.
You blink, trying to process what heâs just said, but it doesnât make sense. It doesnât fit. You and Charles are solid. Youâve been through everything together â the highs, the lows, the uncertain days before he was anything more than just another young driver trying to make it in the big leagues. And now, after all this time, after everything, heâs telling you this?
You shake your head. âNo. No, we donât.â
âYes, we do,â he says, his voice firmer now, like heâs trying to convince himself as much as you.
âCharles, no,â you say, your voice rising, a mixture of panic and disbelief. âWhat the hell are you talking about? Where is this coming from?â
He sighs, a long, weary sound, and looks away from you, his gaze falling to the floor as if he canât bear to meet your eyes. âItâs not what I want,â he says quietly.
âThen why?â You demand, stepping closer to him, trying to catch his eye, to pull him back to you. âWhy are you saying this? Weâre fine, Charles. Weâre good. Whatâs going on?â
He finally looks at you, and the pain in his eyes makes your heart skip a beat. âItâs not about us,â he says, his voice almost breaking. âItâs ⌠itâs the team. Ferrari.â
âWhat?â You say, blinking in confusion. âWhat does Ferrari have to do with us?â
âThey ⌠they think itâs better if Iâm single,â he says, each word forced out like itâs costing him something. âFor my image. For the brand.â
You stare at him, your mouth open, but no words come out. Youâre frozen, your mind struggling to catch up to the words heâs just said, to the reality heâs trying to force on you. âYouâre breaking up with me ⌠because of Ferrari?â
He nods slowly, miserably, like he hates himself for it. âItâs complicated,â he says, trying to make it sound like itâs not the most absurd thing youâve ever heard.
âNo, itâs not,â you shoot back, the anger finally starting to break through the shock. âThis isnât complicated, Charles. This is insane. You canât seriously be telling me that youâre ending things because some PR team thinks itâll be better for your career.â
âTheyâre not just some PR team,â he says, a hint of defensiveness creeping into his voice. âThey know what theyâre doing. Theyâve seen the numbers and the trends. They know whatâs best for the brand ⌠for me.â
âAnd what about us?â You ask, your voice cracking despite your best efforts to keep it steady. âWhat about everything we���ve been through? Everything weâve built together? Youâre just going to throw that away because someone told you to?â
He winces, like your words are physically hurting him, but he doesnât back down. âItâs not like that.â
âThen what is it like? Because from where Iâm standing, it looks a hell of a lot like youâre choosing your career over me.â
His silence is deafening. You can see the conflict in his eyes, the way heâs struggling with what heâs saying, but heâs not fighting it. Heâs not fighting for you, and that realization hits you harder than anything else.
âWhy now?â You ask, your voice softer now, the fight starting to drain out of you. âWhy are you doing this now?â
âItâs just ⌠itâs the timing,â he says, fumbling for an explanation that makes sense. âThe seasonâs starting, thereâs so much pressure. They think itâll be easier if Iâm not-â
âIf youâre not what? Tied down?â You snap, the words laced with bitterness. âIs that what they told you? That youâll be better off without me weighing you down?â
âThatâs not how they put it,â he says, but thereâs no conviction in his voice.
You feel tears pricking at your eyes, but you blink them away, refusing to let them fall. You wonât cry. Not now. Not here. âCharles, weâve been together for years,â you say, your voice trembling. âWeâve been through everything together. And now youâre telling me that none of that matters? That all of that gets erased because it doesnât fit with Ferrariâs brand?â
âI donât want to do this,â he says, his voice breaking, his eyes pleading with you to understand.
âThen donât,â you plead back, stepping closer to him, reaching out to take his hand, but he pulls away, and the rejection stings.
âI have to,â he says, his voice barely a whisper.
You shake your head, trying to make sense of the senseless. âHow can you say that? How can you just ⌠give up on us like this?â
âIâm not giving up,â he insists, but it sounds hollow, even to him. âItâs just ⌠itâs not forever. Itâs just for now, just to get through the season. Then we can figure things out, we can-â
âYou canât be serious,â you interrupt, the tears finally spilling over despite your best efforts. âYou think Iâm just going to wait around for you to decide when itâs convenient for you to be with me again? You think thatâs how this works?â
He doesnât respond, just looks at you with that same pained expression, and itâs enough to break your heart all over again.
âCharles, please,â you whisper, one last attempt to reach him, to get him to see reason, to see you. âDonât do this. We can figure something out. We always do.â
But heâs already shaking his head, and you know, deep down, that heâs already made up his mind. âIâm sorry,â he says, and you can hear the finality in his voice, the way heâs closing the door on this, on you.
You stare at him, the boy youâve known for so long, the man youâve loved for years, and it feels like heâs slipping away from you, like heâs already gone. âYou really think this is whatâs best for you?â You ask, your voice hollow, defeated.
âItâs not about whatâs best for me,â he says, and you almost laugh at the irony of it.
âThen what is it about, Charles?â you ask, but youâre not sure you even want to know the answer.
âItâs about ⌠whatâs best for everyone,â he says, but even he doesnât sound convinced.
You take a step back, the distance between you growing, and it feels like a chasm opening up, one you canât cross. âI never thought youâd be someone whoâd let other people decide whatâs best for you,â you say quietly.
He flinches at that, and for a moment, you think youâve gotten through to him, that heâll take it back, that heâll realize how ridiculous this all is. But he doesnât. He just stands there, looking at you with those sad eyes, and you know itâs over.
âGoodbye, Charles,â you say, your voice breaking on the last syllable.
âGoodbye,â he whispers back, but itâs lost in the sound of your footsteps as you turn and walk away, leaving him â and everything youâve built together â behind.
***
The morning sun filters through the curtains, casting a soft, golden light over the room, but it does nothing to warm the cold knot in your stomach. Youâve been feeling off for days now â nauseous, tired, the kind of bone-deep exhaustion that sleep doesnât seem to touch.
And the vomiting. It started a few days ago, just once or twice, but now itâs every morning, like clockwork.
You sit up slowly, careful not to move too fast, but itâs too late. The wave of nausea hits, and you barely make it to the bathroom before youâre hunched over the toilet, retching until thereâs nothing left. You stay there for a moment, gripping the edge of the sink, trying to steady your breathing, trying to make sense of whatâs happening to you.
Itâs just stress, you tell yourself. The breakup, the uncertainty of everything, itâs all finally catching up to you. But even as you think it, you know itâs not true. This is different. This is something else.
You rinse your mouth, the taste of bile lingering, and catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror. You look pale, drawn, like you havenât slept in days. Your eyes are dull, shadows lurking beneath them, and thereâs a tightness around your mouth that wasnât there before. You almost donât recognize the person staring back at you.
As you leave the bathroom, your mind races through the possibilities, trying to find some logical explanation. Maybe itâs a bug, something you ate. Maybe itâs âŚ
You stop in your tracks, the thought slamming into you with all the subtlety of a freight train. No. It canât be. Itâs impossible. But as you think back, counting the days in your head, you realize itâs not impossible. In fact, itâs very possible.
You sink onto the edge of the bed, your heart pounding in your chest. Itâs been weeks since ⌠since Charles broke up with you. Since you last ⌠Oh God.
The realization leaves you cold, your skin prickling with fear. Thereâs only one way to know for sure, but the very thought of it makes your throat tighten, your heart race even faster.
You canât. You canât be.
But thereâs a part of you â a small, terrified part â that knows you need to find out. You canât just ignore this, hope it goes away. You need to know. Now.
The walk to the pharmacy is a blur. You barely register the people around you, the sun beating down on your back as you make your way through the streets. It feels like everyone is looking at you, like they know what youâre about to do, but you push the thought aside, focusing on the task at hand.
Inside, the air is cool, the fluorescent lights harsh as you make your way to the back, where the pregnancy tests are lined up in neat rows. You stand there for what feels like forever, your eyes scanning the shelves, your hand hovering over the different options, but you canât bring yourself to reach out and grab one.
âCan I help you with something?â
The voice startles you, and you turn to see a woman in a white pharmacy coat standing beside you, her expression polite but curious.
You force a smile, shaking your head. âNo, Iâm fine. Just ⌠looking.â
She nods, but doesnât move away, and you feel a flush of embarrassment creeping up your neck. You need to do this, and you need to do it now.
Taking a deep breath, you grab the first box you see, then another, then a third, just to be sure. You avoid the womanâs gaze as you make your way to the register, your heart hammering in your chest as you hand over the boxes, praying she doesnât say anything.
She doesnât. She just rings you up, sliding the tests into a small paper bag before handing it to you with a neutral smile. âGood luck,â she says, and you canât tell if she means it or if itâs just something she says to everyone.
âThanks,â you mumble, grabbing the bag and hurrying out of the store, the door chiming as you leave.
Back in your apartment, the silence is deafening. The tests sit on the counter, staring up at you, and you canât bring yourself to move, to do what needs to be done. But you know you have to. You canât put this off any longer.
Finally, you reach for the bag, pulling out one of the boxes, your hands trembling as you tear it open. The instructions are simple enough â pee on the stick, wait three minutes, then check the result. But as you hold the test in your hand, you realize those three minutes are going to be the longest of your life.
You follow the instructions, then set the test on the counter, stepping back like itâs something dangerous, something that could hurt you if you get too close. You glance at the clock, the seconds ticking by at an excruciatingly slow pace, and you force yourself to breathe, to stay calm.
But calm is impossible. Your mind is racing, a thousand thoughts and fears tumbling over each other in a chaotic mess. What if itâs positive? What if itâs not? What will you do? How will you handle this? Youâre alone now â Charles is gone, and heâs not coming back. Youâre on your own.
The minutes crawl by, and finally, you canât wait any longer. You step forward, your heart in your throat, and pick up the test, your eyes locking onto the small window where the result will appear.
Two lines.
Positive.
You stare at it, uncomprehending, your mind struggling to process what youâre seeing. You pick up the second test, the third, repeating the process with shaking hands, hoping against hope that the first was a mistake, a fluke. But the results are the same. Two lines. Positive.
Youâre pregnant.
The realization crashes over you like a wave, and you sink to the floor, the tests clattering out of your hands as you press your palms to your stomach, feeling the beginnings of a life growing inside you. A baby. Charlesâ baby.
Tears blur your vision, and you donât know if theyâre from fear, from shock, or from something else entirely. You never thought youâd be here â sitting on your bathroom floor, alone, pregnant, and terrified of what comes next.
This isnât how it was supposed to be. You were supposed to have Charles by your side, holding your hand, telling you everything would be okay.
But heâs not here. And now, you have to figure out what to do next. You have to figure out how to take care of yourself, how to take care of this baby.
You drag yourself to your feet, your legs weak, and stumble into the living room, collapsing onto the couch as the weight of it all presses down on you. How did this happen? How did you end up here, in this mess, with no one to turn to?
Your mind drifts back to the day Charles convinced you to quit your job. Heâd said it was for the best, that you didnât need to work, that heâd take care of you. He wanted you with him at the races, wanted you by his side, supporting him, and youâd agreed, because of course you did. You loved him. You trusted him.
And now ⌠now you have nothing. No job, no income, no safety net. Just a positive pregnancy test and a future that feels terrifyingly uncertain.
You wipe at your eyes, taking a deep, shuddering breath. You canât afford to fall apart. Not now. You have to be strong, for yourself, for the baby. You need to figure out what to do next.
You reach for your phone, your fingers trembling as you pull up a job search website. There has to be something â anything â that can get you back on your feet. But as you scroll through the listings, your heart sinks. Youâre overqualified for some, underqualified for others. You havenât worked in years, and the gaps in your resume feel like gaping wounds that no employer would overlook.
Finally, something catches your eyeâan ad for a cleaning agency. Itâs not glamorous, itâs not what you imagined for yourself, but itâs work. Itâs a start. And right now, thatâs all you need.
You tap the number on the screen, your heart racing as you bring the phone to your ear. It rings once, twice, three times, and you start to think no one will pick up. But then, a voice crackles through the line.
âHello, CleanSweep Agency. How can I help you?â
You swallow hard, your voice trembling as you reply. âHi, I ⌠Iâm calling about the job listing. The cleaning position.â
Thereâs a pause on the other end, and you hold your breath, waiting.
âYes, of course. Are you available for an interview tomorrow?â
âTomorrow?â you repeat, your mind racing. âYes. Yes, I can do that.â
âGreat. Weâll see you at 10 AM. Our office is on Rue de la Paix. Just bring your resume and any references you might have.â
âThank you,â you say, your voice barely above a whisper as the call ends.
You stare at the phone in your hand, the reality of what youâve just done settling over you. Youâve taken the first step. Itâs not much, but itâs something. Itâs a start.
But as you sit there, the weight of everything presses down on you again. Youâre pregnant. Youâre alone. And the path ahead feels impossibly daunting.
You place your phone on the coffee table, staring at it like it might offer you some kind of solution, some way out of this mess. But itâs just a phone, and the reality of your situation doesnât change.
The room is too quiet, the kind of quiet that seeps into your bones and amplifies every fear, every doubt. You wish you could call someone, talk to someone, but who? Your friends? Theyâd be supportive, sure, but they wouldnât really understand. Your parents? The thought of telling them is too overwhelming to even consider right now.
Charles? The name echoes in your mind, but you shake your head. Heâs the last person you should be calling. He made his choice, and you need to respect that. Besides, what would you even say? That youâre pregnant? That his decision to break up with you for the sake of his image has left you in a situation neither of you ever expected?
No. You canât go there. Not now.
You push yourself off the couch, pacing the small living room, trying to clear your mind. You have a job interview tomorrow. Itâs not much, but itâs something. You canât afford to think beyond that right now. You need to focus on getting through the next day, the next hour.
The baby. The thought is like a knife in your chest, sharp and painful. You press a hand to your stomach, trying to imagine what comes next, how youâll navigate this new, terrifying reality. But the truth is, you have no idea. Youâre scared, more scared than youâve ever been, and the future feels like a black hole, pulling you in with no clear way out.
But you have to keep going. For yourself. For the baby.
You head to the bedroom, opening the closet to find something suitable for the interview. Your clothes feel foreign, relics from a past life that doesnât quite fit anymore. You settle on something simple, professional, trying to ignore the gnawing fear that none of this will be enough.
You sit on the edge of the bed, the clothes laid out beside you, and take a deep breath. Tomorrow is a new day. A new start. You donât know whatâs coming, but you do know one thing: youâre not going to give up. Not now, not ever.
And as the night settles in around you, you cling to that thought like a lifeline, hoping it will be enough to carry you through whatever comes next.
***
Max pushes open the door to his Monaco apartment, dropping his keys on the console table with a tired sigh. The morning training session has left his muscles aching, and all he can think about is a long, hot shower and maybe a quick nap before the next round of meetings and commitments.
As he steps inside, heâs greeted by the familiar scent of cleaning supplies â a smell thatâs become synonymous with Tuesdays, the day his cleaner comes to tidy up.
He doesnât usually pay much attention to her, exchanging only a few polite words if their paths cross. Sheâs efficient, quiet, never in the way. But today, something feels different the moment he steps into the living room. The sound of soft scrubbing reaches his ears, and he glances toward the source â his gaze falling on a figure kneeling by the coffee table, wiping down the glass surface.
It takes him a second to register what heâs seeing, but when he does, he freezes, his breath catching in his throat. Itâs not just any cleaner â itâs you. And youâre pregnant. Very pregnant.
âHoly shit,â he mutters under his breath, the shock rolling over him in waves. For a moment, he wonders if heâs seeing things, if the exhaustion has finally caught up with him and heâs imagining things. But no â thereâs no mistaking it. Itâs you, and youâre here, in his apartment, on your hands and knees, cleaning.
You look up at the sound of his voice, your eyes widening in surprise. For a moment, neither of you says anything, both too stunned to speak. Then, slowly, you rise to your feet, one hand resting protectively on your rounded belly as you try to compose yourself.
âMax,â you say, your voice barely above a whisper, like you canât quite believe heâs standing there.
âWhat ⌠what the hell are you doing here?â He asks, his voice rough with confusion and something else â something darker, angrier, that he canât quite put into words yet.
You blink, looking down at the rag in your hand as if seeing it for the first time. âI ⌠I work here,â you say quietly, your tone laced with embarrassment.
âWork here?â Max repeats, his mind racing to catch up. âWhat do you mean, work here? Youâre ⌠youâre pregnant! Why the hell are you cleaning my apartment?â
You flinch at his words, and he immediately regrets the sharpness in his tone, but the sight of you â pregnant, exhausted, and clearly struggling â ignites a fury in him that he hasnât felt in a long time. âWhat the fuck is Charles doing, making you work like this?â
At the mention of Charles, something in you seems to break. Your face crumples, and before Max can process what���s happening, youâre crying â really crying, your shoulders shaking with the force of your sobs.
âHey, hey, itâs okay,â Max says quickly, closing the distance between you and reaching out to steady you. âI didnât mean to â look, just sit down, okay? You shouldnât be on your feet like this.â
You let him guide you to the couch, your tears falling freely now, and Max feels a pang of guilt deep in his chest. Heâs never been good with tears, but seeing you like this, so vulnerable and hurt, stirs something protective in him.
âIâm sorry,â you choke out between sobs, your hands covering your face as if trying to hide your pain. âI didnât want you to see me like this. I didnât want anyone to see me like this.â
Max sits beside you, his mind spinning as he tries to make sense of whatâs happening. This is all wrong. You shouldnât be here, shouldnât be working some labor-intensive job, not in your condition. And where the hell is Charles in all of this? How could he let you get to this point?
âWhatâs going on?â Max asks gently, reaching for a box of tissues and handing it to you. âWhy are you working here? What happened with Charles?â
You take a tissue, dabbing at your eyes, but the tears keep coming, and Maxâs concern deepens. Heâs never seen you like this before â so defeated, so broken.
âItâs ⌠itâs over,â you manage to say, your voice trembling. âCharles and I⌠we broke up. Seven months ago.â
Maxâs heart drops at your words, and a sick feeling churns in his stomach. Heâd heard rumors, of course â whispers in the paddock, speculation in the media â but heâd never imagined it was true. Heâd seen how much Charles loved you, how much you meant to him. But now, seeing you like this, the reality of it hits him like a punch to the gut.
âWhy?â He asks, though heâs not sure he wants to know the answer.
You take a shaky breath, trying to steady yourself. âHe said ⌠he said it was for the best. That the team thought heâd be more marketable if he was single. That it would be better for his image.â
Max feels a surge of anger flare up inside him, hot and fierce. âHe broke up with you because of PR? Are you kidding me?â
You nod, and Max can see the pain in your eyes, the betrayal that still lingers there. âI didnât know what to do. I ⌠I didnât have a job. I quit when we started traveling together, and now ⌠now Iâm on my own. I have to take care of myself, and âŚâ You glance down at your belly, your voice breaking again. âI didnât know where else to go.â
Max runs a hand through his hair, trying to process everything youâve just told him. Charles left you â pregnant and alone â all because of some bullshit advice from his team? The thought makes his blood boil. Heâs known Charles for years, seen him under pressure, seen him at his best and his worst, but this ⌠this is something else entirely.
âDoes he even know?â Max asks, his voice low, trying to keep his temper in check. âDoes he know youâre pregnant?â
You shake your head, fresh tears spilling over. âI havenât told him. I couldnât ⌠I couldnât face him. And I donât want to force him into something he doesnât want. He made his choice.â
Max sits back, stunned. He canât believe what heâs hearing. Youâve been going through this all on your own, with no support, no help. And now youâre cleaning apartments just to make ends meet? Itâs too much. He canât let this go on.
âListen,â Max says, his voice firm, though he softens it when he sees the way youâre looking at him, like youâre about to fall apart. âYouâre not doing this alone, okay? You shouldnât have to.â
You look at him, eyes wide, searching his face as if trying to figure out if he means it. âMax, I donât want to be a burden-â
âYouâre not,â he interrupts, his tone leaving no room for argument. âYouâre not a burden. Youâre my friend. And youâre ⌠youâre carrying a child. Thatâs not something you should be dealing with on your own.â
âBut what about Charles?â You ask, your voice small, uncertain.
âFuck Charles,â Max snaps, then immediately regrets it when he sees the look on your face. âI mean ⌠look, I know this is complicated. But right now, you need to take care of yourself and the baby. Thatâs the priority. And if Charles isnât going to step up, then I will. Whatever you need, Iâm here, okay?â
Youâre silent for a moment, and Max can see the conflict in your eyes â the fear, the doubt, the overwhelming sense of helplessness. He wishes he could do more, that he could take away the pain, the uncertainty, but all he can do is be there for you, in whatever way youâll let him.
âThank you,â you whisper, your voice thick with emotion. âI ⌠I didnât know who else to turn to.â
âYou donât have to thank me,â Max says gently. âJust ⌠promise me you wonât try to do this on your own anymore. Youâre not alone, okay? Not as long as Iâm around.â
You nod, but Max can see the hesitation still lingering in your eyes. He knows this isnât going to be easy for you â to accept help, to let someone else in â but heâs determined to be there for you, to make sure you donât have to face this alone.
âCome on,â he says, standing up and holding out a hand to you. âLetâs get you something to eat. You need to take care of yourself, and that means no more scrubbing floors, okay?â
You take his hand, allowing him to help you to your feet, and for the first time since he walked through the door, Max sees a faint glimmer of hope in your eyes. Itâs not much, but itâs a start.
As he leads you to the kitchen, Maxâs mind races with everything he needs to do, everything he needs to figure out. But one thing is clear â heâs not going to let you go through this alone.
***
Max sets a plate in front of you â a simple sandwich, some fruit on the side. Heâs not exactly a chef, but itâs something, and he watches as you take a bite, the tension in your shoulders easing just a little. You look exhausted, and Max wonders how long youâve been running on empty like this.
He pulls out the chair across from you and sits down, his eyes never leaving your face. âSo,â he begins, trying to keep his tone light, âtell me everything. Whatâs been going on since ⌠since Charles, you know âŚâ
You pause, swallowing the bite of sandwich, and Max can see the flicker of pain in your eyes at the mention of Charles. Itâs like youâre bracing yourself to tell the story, and Max hates that itâs something you even have to relive.
âItâs been ⌠hard,â you admit, setting the sandwich down. âAfter we broke up, I didnât know what to do. I had some savings, but it wasnât enough to keep living in Monaco. So I had to move.â
âMove?â Max echoes, his brows furrowing. He hadnât heard anything about this, hadnât realized things had gotten so bad for you. âWhere did you go?â
You hesitate, as if ashamed to tell him, but then you sigh, the words spilling out in a rush. âI found a small place in France. Itâs about an hour away. A tiny village. I couldnât afford to stay here, not without a steady income.â
Max feels a pang of guilt, like he should have known, should have done something sooner. âYouâre commuting to Monaco every day for work? Thatâs crazy.â
You shrug, a faint, humorless smile tugging at your lips. âItâs not ideal, but itâs what I had to do. I tried looking for jobs closer to home, but nothing paid enough. And I didnât have many options, not with the baby coming.â
Max leans back in his chair, running a hand through his hair. The thought of you struggling like this, traveling back and forth every day, working a physically demanding job while pregnant â itâs almost too much to bear.
He wishes he could just write you a check, cover all your expenses, but he knows you too well. Youâd never accept it, not without a fight. Youâre proud, stubborn, and fiercely independent â qualities Max admires but wishes youâd set aside just this once.
âYou shouldnât have to do this alone,â Max says softly, his voice filled with concern. âI know youâre strong, but you donât have to prove anything to anyone. Especially not now.â
You meet his gaze, your eyes reflecting a mix of gratitude and exhaustion. âI know, but ⌠I need to be able to take care of myself, Max. I need to know I can do this, for me and the baby.â
Max nods, understanding even though it frustrates him. Youâve always been this way â determined to stand on your own two feet, no matter what. But that doesnât mean heâs just going to stand by and watch you struggle. There has to be a way to help you without making you feel like a charity case.
Then, an idea starts to form in his mind, something he remembers from the past, from the days when you were always by Charlesâ side, supporting him in ways most people never even saw. âYou know,â Max starts, leaning forward, âI remember how you used to help Charles with his social media. His accounts were always engaging, relatable ⌠fans loved it. That was you, wasnât it?â
A small smile flickers across your face, the first genuine one heâs seen since he got home. âYeah, that was me. Charles never really cared about social media, so I took it over. It was fun, in a way, creating content that connected with people.â
Maxâs heart lifts at your smile, at the spark of something familiar in your eyes. This could work. This could be exactly what you need.
âWell, Iâve got an idea,â Max says, trying to sound casual even though his heart is pounding in his chest. âRight now, Red Bullâs PR team handles all of my social media. Iâve never really been into it, you know? But honestly, theyâre pretty ⌠corporate. The posts are fine, but they donât really have that personal touch. Not like what you did for Charles.â
Youâre watching him now, curiosity piqued, and Max takes that as a good sign.
âWhat if,â Max continues, âyou took over my social media? I mean, Iâve seen what you can do. The fans love that kind of content. You could work from home, set your own hours ⌠it wouldnât be physically demanding, and Iâd pay you well. I mean, really well.â
Your eyes widen at his offer, and for a moment, you just stare at him, like youâre trying to figure out if heâs serious. âI donât know ⌠Iâve never done that professionally. It was just something I did to help Charles.â
âAnd you did it better than most professionals,â Max insists. âLook, Iâm not asking you to do anything crazy. Just ⌠think about it. Youâd be helping me out too, you know? I could really use someone who gets what the fans want, who can make my social media feel more ⌠real.â
You bite your lip, clearly torn. âI donât know, Max. Itâs a lot to take in.â
âI get that,â Max says quickly, not wanting to push too hard but also not wanting to let this go. âJust ⌠think about it, okay? Youâd be great at it. And it would mean you donât have to keep doing jobs that are hard on your body. You could focus on the baby, on yourself. Itâs just an idea, but I think it could work.â
Youâre silent for a long moment, your gaze dropping to the plate in front of you as you consider his offer. Max waits, his heart pounding in his chest, hoping he hasnât overstepped, hoping youâll see this for what it is â a chance, an opportunity to take some of the weight off your shoulders.
Finally, you look up, and Max can see the conflict in your eyes. âI appreciate it, Max. Really, I do. Itâs just ⌠itâs a big change, and Iâm not sure if Iâm ready for it.â
âI get that,â Max says, his voice gentle. âBut you donât have to decide right now. Take some time, think it over. I just want you to know that the offerâs there. No pressure, no strings attached. Just ⌠a way to make things a little easier for you.â
You nod slowly, your fingers toying with the edge of the napkin on the table. âIâll think about it,â you finally say, your voice soft but sincere. âI really will.â
Max feels a rush of relief at your words, and he canât help the small smile that tugs at his lips. âThatâs all I ask. And, in the meantime, you can stay here tonight. No more commuting back and forth, okay?â
You start to protest, but Max cuts you off before you can even get the words out. âNo arguments. Youâre staying here. Iâve got plenty of room, and you shouldnât be traveling so much. Just ⌠stay, and weâll figure things out together.â
You open your mouth to argue, but something in Maxâs expression must convince you otherwise, because you close it again and nod. âOkay,â you agree, though you still look a little uncertain.
Max stands up, picking up the empty plates from the table. âGood. Now, you get some rest, and weâll talk more in the morning.â
As he carries the plates to the sink, he feels a strange mix of emotions swirling in his chest. Anger at Charles for putting you in this situation, frustration that youâre too proud to accept help, and something else â something deeper, a fierce determination to make sure you and the baby are taken care of, no matter what.
He doesnât know what the future holds, doesnât know how things will play out between you and Charles, but one thing is certain: heâs not going to let you go through this alone. Youâve been there for him in the past, supporting Charles, cheering Max on from the sidelines, and now itâs his turn to be there for you.
As he turns off the kitchen light and heads to his room, he makes a silent vow to himself. Whatever it takes, heâs going to make sure youâre okay. Heâs going to be the friend you need, the support you deserve, and heâs not going to let you down. Not now, not ever.
***
Max enters his apartment, the familiar sounds of his footsteps echoing softly against the hardwood floor. Heâs looking forward to a quiet evening, maybe some time with his cats before bed. But when he steps into the living room, he stops in his tracks.
There you are, stretched out on his couch, resting. Jimmy and Sassy have claimed spots on either side of you. Jimmyâs large frame is draped over your legs, purring softly, while Sassy is curled up protectively near your stomach, her eyes half-closed but alert. The sight is so domestic, so peaceful, that it makes something tighten in Maxâs chest. Itâs a scene heâs never imagined but now, seeing it, it feels ⌠right.
Heâs struck by how well you fit here, in his home, in his life. The way youâve naturally fallen into this space, as if youâve always belonged. Thereâs something about the way youâre lying there, with Jimmy and Sassy close by, that tugs at his heart. He wonders if they sense the life growing inside you, if they somehow understand the significance of the new presence in the apartment.
Max approaches quietly, not wanting to disturb the serene moment. He can see now that youâve fallen asleep, your breathing slow and steady, a slight smile playing on your lips. You look peaceful, more so than you have since you arrived. Itâs a relief to see you like this, to know youâre finally resting.
He stands there for a moment, just watching. Heâs not sure how long heâs been standing there, time seems to stretch as he takes in the scene. Thereâs something intimate about it, something that makes him feel protective, like heâs responsible for making sure you and the baby are safe, comfortable. Heâs not sure when that shift happened, when he started to care so deeply, but itâs undeniable now.
Carefully, Max leans down and gently scoops you into his arms, trying not to wake you. You stir slightly, mumbling something in your sleep, but then settle back down, your head resting against his chest. Max holds his breath, half-expecting you to wake up and question what heâs doing, but you remain blissfully unaware, lost in whatever dream youâre having.
Heâs careful as he carries you down the hallway to the guest room, taking slow, measured steps so he doesnât jostle you too much. Itâs strange, carrying you like this. Not that youâre heavy â far from it â but the weight of responsibility he feels is almost overwhelming. Youâre so vulnerable right now, so trusting, and it makes Max even more determined to make sure youâre okay.
When he reaches the guest room, Max pushes the door open with his foot, grateful that itâs already ajar. He steps inside, the soft light from the hallway spilling into the room. The bed is already made, and Max lowers you onto it gently, careful not to disturb your sleep.
He takes a moment to tuck the blanket around you, making sure youâre comfortable. You murmur something again, shifting slightly, and Max freezes, worried he might have woken you. But you just settle deeper into the bed, sighing contentedly, still fast asleep.
Max lingers for a moment, his hand hovering near your face. Heâs not sure what compels him to do it, but he finds himself leaning down, pressing a soft, hesitant kiss to your forehead. Itâs a simple gesture, one filled with a mix of affection, protectiveness, and something else he canât quite put into words. He pulls back quickly, almost embarrassed by the tenderness of it, but you donât wake.
He steps back, watching you for a moment longer. You look so peaceful, and Max feels a strange sense of contentment, like heâs done something right for once. The dayâs exhaustion is starting to catch up with him, but he canât quite bring himself to leave the room just yet.
Thereâs something about the way youâre sleeping, surrounded by warmth and comfort, that makes him feel ⌠happy. Itâs a feeling heâs not used to, but one he finds himself embracing more and more as time goes on.
Finally, Max turns and quietly leaves the room, closing the door behind him with a soft click. He heads back to the living room, where Jimmy and Sassy are still curled up on the couch, seemingly unbothered by the absence of their human pillow. Max sinks into the armchair across from them, running a hand through his hair as he tries to process everything thatâs happened today.
He thinks back to the offer he made you earlier, wondering if youâll actually take him up on it. Part of him worries that youâll say no, that youâll insist on doing everything yourself, but he hopes that maybe, just maybe, youâll realize that accepting help doesnât make you weak.
Max has never been good with words, but he meant everything he said. He wants to help you, to make things easier for you, and not just because he feels responsible. Thereâs something deeper at play here, something he canât quite put his finger on, but itâs there all the same.
Heâs never been in a situation like this before, never had someone depend on him in this way, and itâs both terrifying and exhilarating. Max isnât sure what the future holds, but for the first time in a long time, he feels like heâs on the right path, like heâs doing something that actually matters.
As he sits there, the sounds of the city outside muted by the thick walls of the apartment, Max lets himself imagine what it would be like if this became a regular thing â if you stayed, if you became a part of his life, more than just a guest in his home. The thought sends a wave of warmth through him, a sense of belonging that heâs not sure heâs ever felt before.
But he pushes the thought aside, not wanting to get ahead of himself. One step at a time. First, he needs to make sure youâre okay, make sure youâre taken care of. Everything else can come later.
Max finally gets up from the armchair, heading to his own bedroom. The dayâs events have left him drained, both physically and emotionally, and he knows he needs rest if heâs going to be any good to you tomorrow.
As he climbs into bed, pulling the covers over himself, Maxâs thoughts drift back to you, sleeping soundly in the guest room just down the hall. He hopes youâre dreaming of something peaceful, something that takes your mind off all the worries youâve been carrying.
And as he closes his eyes, the last image that flits through his mind is of you, smiling softly in your sleep, with Jimmy and Sassy curled up protectively around you. Itâs a good image, one that brings a small, contented smile to his own lips as he finally drifts off to sleep.
Tonight, for the first time in a long time, Max feels like heâs exactly where heâs supposed to be.
***
The smell of coffee fills the kitchen, mingling with the soft morning light that streams through the windows. Max is already at the table, scrolling through his phone, but he looks up as you enter, offering a small, warm smile. Heâs still not quite used to this â having someone else here in his space, sharing these quiet moments â but it feels right in a way he hadnât expected.
âMorning,â he says, his voice a little rough from sleep. âHowâd you sleep?â
âBetter,â you admit, reaching for the kettle to make your own cup of tea. âThanks for ⌠everything yesterday.â
Max waves it off, trying to seem nonchalant, but thereâs a flicker of something in his eyes â concern, maybe, or something deeper. âYou needed it,â he says simply. âAnd itâs not over yet. We still need to talk about that job offer.â
You nod, pouring hot water over the tea bag and watching as the steam rises. âIâve been thinking about it,â you start, your voice hesitant. âAnd ⌠I think I want to accept it.â
Max feels a surge of relief, though he tries not to show it. âYou sure? No pressure, if youâve changed your mind.â
âNo, Iâm sure.â You take a seat across from him, your hands wrapped around the warm mug. âIâve been thinking a lot about what you said. I need something ⌠something to focus on that doesnât involve cleaning floors or worrying about everything all the time. Plus, itâs something I know I can do. And Iâll be able to take care of myself, of the baby, without pushing myself too hard.â
Max nods, his relief turning into something warmer, almost like pride. âGood,â he says, leaning back in his chair. âIâm glad youâre taking it. I think youâll be great at it.â
Thereâs a pause, the two of you just sipping your drinks in comfortable silence. But Max canât shake the feeling that thereâs more to this, that thereâs something else you need but arenât asking for.
âSo,â he begins carefully, âwhere are you planning on staying? I mean, if youâre going to be working for me ⌠youâre going to need somewhere closer than ⌠wherever youâve been staying.â
You look up, caught off guard. âI ⌠I hadnât thought about that yet. I was planning on going back to France and just-â
âStay here,â Max interrupts, surprising even himself with how quickly the words come out. âI mean, it makes sense, right? You wouldnât have to travel so far every day. Plus, itâs safer for you and the baby. Youâll have everything you need, and Iâll be around to help if you need anything.â
You hesitate, clearly torn. âI donât want to be a burden, Max. Youâve already done so much-â
âYouâre not a burden,â Max says firmly. âYouâre my friend, and you need help. Itâs that simple.â
Thereâs a long pause as you consider his words, weighing your options. Finally, you sigh, nodding slowly. âOkay. Iâll stay. But only until I figure things out.â
Max grins, feeling a weight lift off his shoulders. âDeal.â
Thereâs a moment of shared relief before Maxâs mind drifts to a more practical matter. âRight, so ⌠thereâs one more thing,â he says, scratching the back of his head. âI donât really have much in the fridge besides, like, trainer-approved meals and protein shakes. Weâre gonna need to do some shopping.â
You laugh softly, the first genuine laugh heâs heard from you in what feels like forever. âOkay, I guess we should take care of that then.â
Max stands, grabbing his keys from the counter. âLetâs go before it gets too busy.â
***
The grocery store is bustling with the mid-morning crowd, but thereâs something oddly comforting about the normalcy of it all. Max pushes the cart as you walk beside him, selecting fruits and vegetables, adding them to the growing pile.
Max watches you closely, noting the way your shoulders relax a little as you focus on the mundane task of picking out produce. Heâs glad to see you like this â calm, in control. You seem to know exactly what you need, even as you pause occasionally to consider an item before adding it to the cart.
âMax,â you ask after a moment, turning to him with a slight frown, âdo you even like any of this stuff, or am I just buying what I want?â
Max chuckles, shaking his head. âIâll eat whatever, really. Just make sure thereâs enough for you and the baby.â He hesitates for a moment, then adds, âYou know more about this stuff than I do, anyway.â
You give him a small smile, but itâs clear that the reality of your situation is still weighing heavily on you. Max wants to say something reassuring, but before he can find the right words, someone else does it for him.
âY/N?â
The voice comes from behind you, and you both turn to see Pascale Leclerc standing a few feet away, her eyes wide with shock. She looks between you and Max, her gaze lingering on your rounded belly before returning to your face. âI âŚI didnât expect to see you here.â
You freeze, your heart pounding in your chest. âPascale,â you manage to say, trying to keep your voice steady. âHi.â
Pascale takes a step closer, her expression shifting from surprise to concern. âYouâre ⌠pregnant?â she asks, her voice tinged with disbelief. âWhat happened? Charles said you broke up with him-â
You shake your head, your throat tightening. âNo, Pascale. I didnât break up with him. He ⌠he broke up with me. Said it was because of the PR team at Ferrari. They thought heâd be more marketable if he was single.â
Pascaleâs eyes widen in horror. âWhat? He told me ⌠he told me it was mutual, that you both agreed it was for the best.â
Tears prick at your eyes as you shake your head again. âNo, it wasnât mutual. It wasnât my choice.â
Max, whoâs been standing silently beside you, finally speaks up, his voice filled with anger on your behalf. âCharles lied to you, Pascale. He left her, and he doesnât even know sheâs pregnant.â
Pascaleâs hand flies to her mouth, her eyes welling with tears. âOh, mon Dieu,â she whispers, her voice trembling. âI had no idea. Y/N, Iâm so sorry.â
You swallow hard, trying to keep your emotions in check. âPlease, Pascale,â you say, your voice barely above a whisper, âplease donât tell Charles about the baby. I ⌠I donât want him to know.â
Pascale looks at you, torn, but eventually nods. âOkay. I wonât tell him,â she promises, her voice gentle but firm. âBut âŚY/N, I want to be a part of my grandchildâs life. I want to be there for you, for both of you.â
The sincerity in her voice breaks down the last of your defenses, and you find yourself nodding, unable to hold back the tears any longer. âOkay,â you manage to say, your voice choked with emotion. âI ⌠Iâd like that.â
Pascale steps forward, wrapping you in a gentle hug. âYouâre not alone, ma chĂŠrie,â she whispers, her voice soothing. âIâm here for you. Whatever you need, Iâm here.â
You cling to her for a moment, taking comfort in her words, before finally pulling back. âThank you,â you say, wiping at your eyes. âThank you so much.â
Max, whoâs been watching the interaction with a mixture of relief and concern, gently places a hand on your back. âWe should finish up,â he says softly, giving Pascale a nod. âTake care, Pascale.â
Pascale smiles through her own tears, giving Max a grateful look. âYou too, Max. And Y/N ⌠call me if you need anything. Anytime.â
You nod, giving her a small, shaky smile before turning back to the cart. As you and Max continue shopping, the weight of the encounter settles over you, leaving you emotionally drained. Max notices, his usual silence becoming a source of comfort as he quietly takes over, finishing up the shopping and paying for everything without another word.
***
The drive back to Maxâs apartment is quiet, the earlier lightness of the morning replaced by a heavy, lingering tension. You stare out the window, lost in thought, replaying the encounter with Pascale over and over in your mind.
By the time you reach the apartment, youâre exhausted â physically and emotionally. Max parks the car and helps you carry the groceries inside, his movements careful and deliberate as if heâs trying to shield you from any further stress.
Once everything is put away, Max leads you to the living room, where you sink onto the couch, your body sagging with relief. He sits beside you, watching as you struggle to hold back tears, and finally, the dam breaks.
You bury your face in his shoulder, sobbing uncontrollably, all the fear and uncertainty and pain youâve been holding in finally spilling out. Max wraps his arms around you, holding you close, his hand gently rubbing your back as he whispers soothing words into your ear.
âItâs okay,â he murmurs, his voice steady and calm. âLet it out. Iâm here.â
You cry until there are no tears left, until youâre too exhausted to do anything but lean against Max, your body trembling with the aftershocks of your sobs. Max doesnât move, doesnât say anything, just keeps holding you as if his presence alone can shield you from everything thatâs gone wrong.
When you finally pull back, your eyes are red and puffy, your face wet with tears. âSorry,â you mumble, wiping at your cheeks with the back of your hand. âI didnât mean to-â
âDonât apologize,â Max interrupts gently, his voice soft but firm. âYou have nothing to be sorry for. Youâre going through a lot, and you donât have to hold it all in.â
You nod, still feeling raw and exposed, but thereâs something comforting in the way Max is looking at you â like heâs not judging you, like he genuinely cares.
âThanks,â you whisper, your voice barely audible. âFor everything. I donât know what Iâd do without you.â
Max offers you a small smile, his hand still resting on your back. âYou donât have to do it alone,â he says. âIâm here, okay? And Iâm not going anywhere.â
For a moment, neither of you speaks, the weight of his words hanging in the air. You take a deep breath, trying to steady yourself, and Max watches as you slowly regain some of your composure.
âDo you want to rest?â He asks after a moment, his voice filled with concern. âYouâve had a long day.â
You shake your head, wiping the last of the tears from your face. âNo, Iâm okay. I think I just need to ⌠distract myself.â
Max nods, understanding. âOkay,â he says, standing up and offering you his hand. âHow about we make dinner? Something simple, but better than those pre-prepared meals.â
You take his hand, letting him pull you to your feet. âYeah,â you say, your voice steadier now. âThat sounds good.â
***
Cooking with Max is surprisingly easy. Heâs not much of a chef, but heâs attentive and eager to help, following your lead as you guide him through the steps of preparing a simple pasta dish. The kitchen fills with the comforting aroma of garlic and herbs, and for a while, you lose yourself in the routine of chopping vegetables and stirring sauces, the earlier tension easing with every moment.
Max watches you closely, noticing the way your movements become more relaxed as you focus on the task at hand. Heâs relieved to see you like this â more at ease, more like yourself.
âI didnât know you could cook,â Max comments as he carefully stirs the pasta in the pot, a hint of admiration in his voice.
You shrug, a small smile tugging at the corners of your lips. âI used to cook a lot,â you say, your tone a little wistful. âBefore everything got ⌠complicated.â
Max doesnât push for more, sensing that youâre not ready to delve into the past just yet. Instead, he focuses on the present, on the simple pleasure of cooking together, the warmth of the kitchen, the shared sense of purpose.
By the time dinner is ready, the earlier tension has all but disappeared, replaced by a quiet, comforting camaraderie. You and Max sit at the table, eating in companionable silence, the simple meal a balm for your frayed nerves.
After dinner, you help Max clean up, the two of you working together in easy harmony. Thereâs something oddly soothing about the domesticity of it all â like a glimpse of a life you hadnât dared to hope for, a life where things could be simple, where you didnât have to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders.
When everything is finally cleaned up, Max suggests watching a movie, and you agree, grateful for the chance to keep your mind occupied. You settle onto the couch with him, his cats Jimmy and Sassy immediately curling up beside you, their soft purring a comforting background noise.
Max flips through the options on his streaming service, eventually landing on an action movie. âThis okay?â He asks, glancing at you.
âYeah,â you say, nodding. âSomething mindless sounds perfect right now.â
The movie starts, and for the next couple of hours, you lose yourself in the fast-paced action, the explosions and car chases providing a welcome distraction from the turmoil of your own life. Max is a solid, comforting presence beside you, and for a while, you let yourself believe that everything might actually be okay.
When the movie ends, you realize how exhausted you are, the emotional rollercoaster of the day finally catching up with you. Max notices too, and he turns to you with a concerned look.
âYou should get some sleep,â he says, his voice gentle. âItâs been a long day.â
You nod, not having the energy to argue. âYeah. I think I will.â
Max helps you to your feet, and you can feel his eyes on you as you make your way to the guest room. Before you can close the door behind you, he stops you with a soft, âGoodnight, Y/N.â
You pause, looking back at him. âGoodnight, Max. And ⌠thank you. For everything.â
Max smiles, a warmth in his eyes that you hadnât noticed before. âYou donât have to thank me,â he says. âJust get some rest.â
You nod, giving him a small smile before closing the door behind you.
Once inside the guest room, you sink onto the bed, finally letting out a long breath you hadnât realized you were holding. The room is quiet, the only sound the distant hum of the city outside.
You lie down, pulling the blankets over you, and for the first time in what feels like forever, you allow yourself to relax, to let go of the constant worry and fear, if only for a little while.
As you drift off to sleep, the events of the day swirl in your mind â Pascaleâs unexpected appearance, Maxâs unwavering support, the strange comfort of being here, in this place thatâs starting to feel like home.
And somewhere, deep in your heart, a tiny seed of hope begins to take root.
***
The apartment smells of freshly baked cake and anticipation. Max is in the kitchen, moving about with a nervous energy, double-checking everything â again. The cake is already on the counter, perfectly frosted, with a single pink and blue question mark piped on top. The knife lies beside it, waiting for the moment that feels almost too monumental to be happening in the cozy confines of his living room.
Youâre sitting on the couch, absentmindedly stroking Jimmy and Sassy, who have taken up their usual positions on either side of you. Your hand rests protectively over your rounded belly, feeling the slight flutters of movement from the baby. Despite the warmth of the room, your fingers are cold, a mix of nerves and excitement pulsing through you.
âEverythingâs ready,â Max says, breaking the silence. Heâs trying to sound casual, but you can hear the edge in his voice.
You offer him a small smile, trying to steady yourself. âThanks, Max. For everything.â
He just nods, his gaze lingering on you for a moment longer before turning back to the cake. Thereâs something in his eyes that you canât quite read â something beyond just friendship and support. But before you can dwell on it, thereâs a knock at the door.
Max visibly relaxes, glad for the distraction. âIâll get it,â he says, moving to the door and pulling it open.
Pascale is the first to step inside, her smile warm as she takes in the sight of you. âMa chĂŠrie,â she greets, leaning down to kiss both of your cheeks. âHow are you feeling?â
âBetter,â you reply, feeling a genuine warmth at seeing her. Pascale has been a rock for you since she found out about the pregnancy, offering support and reassurance in a way that makes you feel less alone.
Lorenzo and Arthur follow her in, both of them grinning widely as they approach you. âHey,â Lorenzo says, giving you a quick hug. âExcited?â
âNervous,â you admit, glancing over at the cake. âBut excited too.â
Arthur chuckles, nudging his brother. âSheâs having a girl, I can feel it. Iâm gonna win the bet.â
Lorenzo rolls his eyes. âYou always say that, but Iâve got a good feeling this time. Iâm thinking boy.â
Max laughs, shaking his head as he closes the door behind them. âYou two and your bets,â he says. âLetâs just focus on whatâs important, yeah?â
Pascale gives him a knowing look, but doesnât say anything, instead turning to you with a soft smile. âYou look lovely, dear,â she says, reaching out to gently touch your arm. âAnd glowing.â
You feel a flush of warmth at her words, though part of you still feels a bit of that anxiety knotting in your stomach. This is Charlesâ family, after all, and the weight of whatâs unsaid lingers in the air between you.
Max clears his throat, drawing everyoneâs attention back to the cake. âShall we?â He asks, looking at you with an encouraging smile.
You take a deep breath and nod, standing up and moving over to the counter. Max stands close beside you, his presence steady and reassuring. The others gather around, their faces expectant, and you feel the weight of the moment settle over you.
âHere we go,â you say softly, picking up the knife. Your hands tremble slightly, and Maxâs hand comes to rest on yours, steadying it. You glance up at him, and he gives you a small nod.
You press the knife into the cake, cutting through the soft layers until you reach the center. The room holds its breath as you pull the slice away, revealing the color inside.
Itâs pink.
For a moment, thereâs silence. Then Pascale lets out a delighted gasp, her hands flying to her mouth. âA girl!â She exclaims, her eyes shining with joy. âYouâre having a little girl!â
Lorenzo and Arthur start laughing, both of them shaking their heads in mock disbelief. âI told you,â Arthur says, clapping his brother on the back. âLooks like you owe me fifty euros.â
But you barely register their words. Your eyes are fixed on the cake, on the pink filling that seems to glow with its own light. Youâre having a daughter. The realization hits you like a wave, overwhelming and beautiful, and before you can stop yourself, youâre crying.
Max sees the tears and reacts instinctively. He turns toward you, his hands coming up to cradle your face. âHey, hey,â he murmurs, his thumbs brushing away the tears. âItâs okay. Itâs good news, right?â
You nod, laughing through the tears. âYeah,â you say, your voice trembling. âItâs just âŚa lot.â
And then, before either of you can think, Max leans in and presses his lips to yours.
The kiss is soft, hesitant, as if heâs not sure if he should be doing this. But then you kiss him back, and something shifts, deepening the moment. It feels like the world falls away, like itâs just the two of you, and everything else fades into the background.
When Max pulls back, his eyes wide with the realization of what heâs just done, he starts to apologize. âIâm sorry, I didnât mean to-â
You shake your head, cutting him off. âDonât,â you whisper, your voice soft but firm. âI liked it.â
Max searches your eyes, looking for any hint of doubt or regret, but all he sees is the truth in your words. He lets out a breath he didnât realize he was holding, a small smile tugging at the corners of his lips.
âI liked it too,â he admits, his voice barely above a whisper.
The moment between you is tender and full of unspoken feelings, but itâs broken by the sound of Pascale clearing her throat. You both turn to see her watching you, a knowing smile on her face.
âAh,â she says, her tone gentle but teasing. âI see.â
You feel your cheeks heat up, but Pascale just smiles wider, moving closer to you. âMa chĂŠrie,â she says, taking your hands in hers. âI want you and my granddaughter to be happy. Thatâs all I care about.â
Your breath catches in your throat, and you squeeze her hands in return. âThank you,â you manage to say, your voice thick with emotion.
Pascale nods, glancing over at Max. âAnd I can see that Max will stop at nothing to make sure that happens.â
Max looks a little embarrassed, but he meets Pascaleâs gaze with a quiet determination. âI promise,â he says, his voice steady. âIâll do whatever it takes.â
Lorenzo and Arthur exchange glances, both of them grinning like idiots. âWell, this just got interesting,â Lorenzo quips, earning a light smack on the arm from Pascale.
âBehave,â she admonishes, though thereâs a twinkle in her eye. âThis is a celebration.â
You canât help but laugh, the tension that had been building in your chest finally breaking. Itâs a strange, wonderful feeling, being surrounded by people who genuinely care, who want whatâs best for you and your baby. And as you look around the room â at Max, at Pascale, at Lorenzo and Arthur â you realize that maybe, just maybe, everything is going to be okay.
The rest of the afternoon passes in a blur of laughter and conversation. Pascale insists on taking a thousand pictures of you with the cake, with Max, with everyone, and by the time sheâs done, your cheeks hurt from smiling so much. Lorenzo and Arthur argue good-naturedly over baby names, each of them convinced they have the best suggestion, while Max listens with a bemused smile.
Eventually, the party winds down, and Lorenzo and Arthur say their goodbyes, promising to visit again soon. Pascale lingers a little longer, giving you one last hug before she leaves.
âRemember,â she says as she pulls back, her eyes warm and full of affection. âIâm always here for you, no matter what.â
You nod, feeling a swell of gratitude. âI know. Thank you.â
Pascale smiles and gives Max a quick hug as well before finally making her exit, leaving the two of you alone in the apartment.
For a moment, thereâs silence. Then Max turns to you, his expression softening. âHow are you feeling?â He asks, his voice gentle.
You take a deep breath, feeling the weight of the day settle over you. âTired,â you admit, but thereâs a warmth in your chest that wasnât there before. âBut ⌠happy.â
Max smiles, and itâs the kind of smile that makes your heart skip a beat. âGood,â he says simply.
You look at him, at the man who has done so much for you in such a short amount of time, and you feel something shift inside you â something that scares you a little, but that also feels like hope.
âMax,â you begin, your voice uncertain. âAbout earlier-â
He cuts you off with a shake of his head. âYou donât have to say anything,â he says. âI just want you to be comfortable, to do what feels right for you.â
You nod, appreciating his understanding. âI just ⌠I donât know what Iâm doing,â you admit, your voice small. âBut I know I donât want to push you away.â
Maxâs eyes soften, and he takes a step closer to you. âYou wonât,â he says, his voice gentle but certain. âIâm not going anywhere, okay? Weâll figure this out together.â
You take comfort in his words, the sincerity in his voice wrapping around you like a warm blanket. Youâve been so used to handling everything on your own, and the thought of having someone beside you, someone who genuinely cares, feels like a lifeline you didnât know you needed.
âOkay,â you whisper, meeting his gaze. The air between you is charged, filled with the weight of unspoken possibilities.
Max reaches out, hesitating for a brief moment before gently cupping your cheek. His thumb brushes against your skin, and you lean into his touch, feeling a warmth spread through you. Itâs as if time slows down, the world outside of Maxâs apartment fading away until thereâs only the two of you, standing close enough to share the same breath.
âI meant what I said earlier,â Max murmurs, his voice low and earnest. âIâll do whatever it takes to make sure you and the baby are safe, happy, and loved.â
You search his eyes, finding only honesty there, a depth of emotion that takes you by surprise. Itâs been so long since youâve felt this kind of connection, this certainty that youâre not alone.
âThank you,â you say, your voice thick with emotion. âFor everything.â
Max shakes his head slightly, as if to say thereâs no need to thank him, but you know better. You know how much heâs done, how much heâs given, and you feel a rush of gratitude so powerful it almost overwhelms you.
Without thinking, you close the distance between you, wrapping your arms around him in a tight embrace. Max holds you just as tightly, his chin resting on top of your head, and for a moment, everything feels right. The world outside, the uncertainty of the future â it all fades away, leaving just the comfort of his arms around you.
After a few moments, you pull back slightly, looking up at him. Thereâs something in his eyes that makes your heart skip a beat, and before you can talk yourself out of it, you press a soft, tentative kiss to his lips.
This time, thereâs no hesitation. Max kisses you back with a gentle intensity that sends a shiver down your spine, his hands cradling your face as if youâre something precious, something heâs afraid to break.
When you finally pull away, youâre both breathless, your foreheads resting against each other. Maxâs eyes are dark with emotion, and he looks at you like youâre the only thing that matters in the world.
âStay,â he whispers, his voice rough with need. âStay with me. Let me take care of you.â
You nod, your heart pounding in your chest. âOkay,â you say, your voice trembling slightly. âI will.â
Maxâs expression softens into a smile, one that lights up his entire face. He leans down and presses another kiss to your forehead, a promise in the simple gesture.
âGood,â he says, his voice full of quiet joy. âThatâs good.â
You smile back at him, feeling a warmth in your chest that you havenât felt in a long time. With Max by your side, it feels like maybe, just maybe, everything is going to be okay. As you both stand there, the quiet of the apartment wrapping around you like a cocoon, you realize that this â right here, right now â is the start of something new, something beautiful.
***
Itâs early morning, the kind where the light hasnât yet broken through the curtains, and the apartment is still wrapped in the quiet hush of dawn. Youâre half-awake, swimming in that space between sleep and consciousness when you hear it â Maxâs voice, low and soothing.
You keep your eyes closed, letting the sound wash over you, not wanting to break the spell. His words are soft, like heâs speaking to the most delicate thing in the world, and you realize heâs talking to your belly.
âMorning, little one,â Max whispers, his voice full of warmth. You feel the slight movement of his hand on your stomach, gentle and comforting. âDid you sleep well? I hope youâre taking it easy on your mama.â
You canât help the small smile that curves your lips, but you stay still, wanting to hear more. Thereâs something so tender, so intimate about this moment, and you donât want to interrupt it.
Max continues, his tone playful now. âYou know, Iâve been thinking ⌠youâre going to need a name for me, right? Something special. How about Maxie? Does that sound good to you?â He pauses, as if waiting for an answer. âOr maybe, one day, youâll call me Papa. Iâd really like that.â
Your heart swells, and you feel a warmth spread through you that has nothing to do with the blanket youâre curled under. Maxâs words are like a promise, one that wraps around both you and the baby, binding you together in a way that feels unshakable.
He continues to talk, his voice filled with love and a hint of wonder, as if he still canât quite believe this is real. âI canât wait to meet you, you know. To see your little face, your tiny hands ⌠Iâm going to be right here, every step of the way. I promise. You and your mama ⌠youâre my world now.â
You feel the gentle pressure of his lips as he presses a kiss to your stomach, and it sends a shiver through you, a mix of emotion that you canât quite put into words. Itâs the kind of feeling that settles deep in your chest, making you want to cry and smile at the same time.
Max shifts slightly, and you feel him lay his head next to your stomach, his breath warm against your skin. âIâll be here to teach you all the important things, like how to kick a football or how to drive really fast â though, your mama might not like that last one,â he chuckles softly, and you have to bite your lip to keep from giggling.
âAnd Iâll be here for the hard stuff too,â Max continues, his tone growing serious. âIâll make sure youâre safe, and that you always know how loved you are. Because youâre already so loved, little one. So much.â
The sincerity in his voice makes your eyes sting with unshed tears. You can feel the depth of his commitment, the way heâs already made space in his heart for this child, and itâs overwhelming in the best possible way.
Max falls quiet for a moment, his hand still resting on your belly. You can feel his thumb tracing small circles over your skin, like heâs trying to memorize the feeling. âI know Iâm not your real dad,â he says quietly, almost as if heâs talking to himself. âBut Iâm going to love you like youâre mine. And Iâm going to love your mama with everything I have, because she deserves that. She deserves everything.â
Your heart clenches at his words, a rush of emotion so strong it nearly takes your breath away. Youâve never felt so cared for, so deeply cherished, and itâs all because of him â this man who has stepped into your life and turned it upside down in the most unexpected, wonderful way.
Max leans in closer, his voice barely above a whisper now. âI promise, Iâll always be here for you. For both of you. And I hope, one day, youâll call me Papa. But even if you donât, Iâll still be the luckiest man in the world, just to be here with you.â
You canât keep your eyes closed any longer. They flutter open, and you glance down at him, your heart full to bursting. Max looks up, catching your gaze, and thereâs a moment of quiet understanding between you â a recognition of the enormity of what heâs just said.
âDid I wake you?â He asks softly, his hand still resting on your belly.
You shake your head, your voice thick with emotion. âNo ⌠I was awake.â
Max studies your face, and you can see the concern in his eyes, the way heâs always so attuned to your feelings. âYou okay?â
You nod, reaching out to brush a hand through his messy hair. âIâm more than okay.â
His lips curl into a soft smile, one that makes your chest ache with how much you care for him. Max shifts, pressing another kiss to your belly before moving to lay beside you, gathering you into his arms. You rest your head on his chest, listening to the steady beat of his heart, letting it soothe you back into that half-asleep state.
âYouâre going to be an amazing dad,â you murmur, your words slurred with sleep.
Maxâs arms tighten around you, his lips brushing against the top of your head. âOnly because I have you.â
His words wrap around you like a blanket, warm and secure. As you drift back into sleep, the last thing you hear is Maxâs voice, soft and full of promise, whispering to your belly again. âIâll always be here,â he says. âFor both of you. Always.â
And with that, you let the sound of his voice carry you back into sleep, your heart filled with a deep, unshakable sense of peace.
***
The contractions start in the early hours of the morning, sharp and unyielding, ripping you out of a restless sleep. At first, you think itâs just another false alarm â your body playing tricks on you like it has for the past week. But this time, something feels different, more urgent. Max is beside you in an instant, his instincts kicking in the moment you clutch at the sheets, your breath hitching in pain.
âAre you okay?â His voice is full of concern, his hand already on your back, trying to soothe you through the discomfort.
You shake your head, biting your lip as another wave crashes over you. âItâs time,â you manage to gasp, your hand instinctively reaching for his. âMax, itâs time.â
Maxâs eyes widen, but he doesnât hesitate. Heâs up, grabbing the hospital bag thatâs been packed for weeks now, guiding you carefully out of bed. The ride to the hospital is a blur of pain and tension, Maxâs knuckles white as he grips the steering wheel, driving with a focus that betrays his worry.
When you arrive, everything moves too quickly and too slowly all at once. Nurses and doctors swarm around you, getting you into a gown, checking your vitals, assessing the babyâs position. Max stays by your side through it all, his hand never leaving yours, his voice a steady presence in your ear as he tries to keep you calm.
Hours pass, the pain intensifying until it feels like your body is being split in two. But youâre not scared â not until the doctorâs expression changes, his calm professionalism slipping as he exchanges a glance with the nurse. Itâs a look that sends a spike of fear through your heart, and suddenly, the room feels too small, the walls closing in.
âWhatâs wrong?â You ask, your voice shaking, trying to keep the panic at bay. Maxâs hand tightens around yours, his eyes fixed on the doctor, demanding answers without saying a word.
The doctor clears his throat, his tone gentle but serious. âThe baby is in distress. Her heart rate is dropping, and weâre concerned about a potential placental abruption.â
âWhat does that mean?â Maxâs voice is hoarse, his face pale.
âIt means,â the doctor says carefully, âwe may have to make some difficult decisions. Weâll do everything we can, but in situations like this, thereâs a chance we may have to prioritize-â
âNo,â you interrupt, your voice rising in panic. The room starts to spin, your vision blurring as the reality of what heâs saying crashes over you. âNo, no, no ⌠you canât do that. Save the baby. If it comes down to it, you have to save the baby.â
Maxâs grip on your hand tightens to the point of pain, but itâs nothing compared to the anguish in his eyes. âDonât say that,â he chokes out, his voice cracking. âDonât you dare say that.â
The doctor nods, his expression somber. âWeâre not there yet. We still have time to try and turn things around, but we need to act fast.â
You nod numbly, tears streaming down your face as the pain intensifies, the fear now mingling with the physical agony. Max leans in close, his forehead resting against yours, his breath hot and ragged as he struggles to hold it together.
âYouâre going to be okay,â he whispers, though his voice shakes with the weight of his own fear. âYou hear me? Both of you. Youâre both coming out of this. I need you to believe that.â
Your heart aches at the desperation in his voice, and you want to believe him, want to cling to the hope heâs trying so hard to give you. But the terror is overwhelming, and all you can do is nod, too afraid to speak, afraid that if you do, it will make everything too real.
Max pulls back just enough to look you in the eyes, his expression fierce despite the tears shining in his own. âListen to me,â he says, his voice stronger now, a command wrapped in a plea. âYouâre strong, okay? The strongest person I know. And sheâs strong too. Youâre both going to make it through this. You have to. I canât-â His voice breaks, and he swallows hard, his thumb brushing a tear from your cheek. âI canât lose you. I canât lose either of you.â
His words break something inside you, and you sob, clutching at him like heâs your lifeline, because right now, he is. The pain, the fear, the uncertainty â itâs all too much, and you bury your face in his chest, trying to draw strength from him.
The doctors and nurses are moving around you, the room filled with a flurry of activity, but all you can focus on is Max. Heâs your anchor, the only thing keeping you tethered to reality as the world spins out of control. His hand never leaves yours, even as the contractions grow stronger, more intense, your screams echoing off the walls.
âIâm here,â Max keeps repeating, his voice a constant in the chaos. âIâm right here. Iâm not going anywhere.â
But then, the situation worsens. You hear the doctor call for an emergency C-section, and your heart plummets. The pain is unbearable, and you canât breathe, canât think. Theyâre wheeling you away, Maxâs hand slipping from yours as they take you to the operating room. The last thing you see is his face, pale and stricken, his eyes wide with fear.
âI love you,â he calls out, his voice cracking with the weight of everything he canât control. âI love you so much. Please â please be okay.â
The operating room is cold, the lights too bright, and all you can think about is the life inside you, the baby youâve grown to love before sheâs even taken her first breath. You canât lose her. You canât. But the fear is suffocating, and as they prepare you for surgery, you feel a wave of despair crash over you.
Maxâs words echo in your mind, a desperate mantra that you cling to with everything you have. Both of you are making it out of this. You have to.
The anesthesia takes hold, and you feel yourself slipping away, the world fading around you. But before the darkness consumes you, you send up a silent prayer, a plea to whatever force might be listening.
Please. Please let us both make it out of this.
And then, thereâs nothing but darkness.
***
Max paces the waiting room, his heart pounding so hard it feels like it might break through his chest. Every second that ticks by is torture, every minute without news a knife twisting in his gut. Heâs never been this scared in his life, not even in the most dangerous moments on the track.
His hands are shaking, his mind racing with worst-case scenarios. He keeps replaying the last look you gave him, the fear in your eyes, the way you clung to him like he was the only thing keeping you grounded. The thought of losing you, of losing the baby â itâs unbearable.
He canât breathe, canât think straight. All he can do is wait, and itâs driving him insane. He feels so helpless, like thereâs nothing he can do to fix this, to protect you, and itâs killing him.
Finally, after what feels like an eternity, the doctor emerges from the operating room. Max rushes to him, his heart in his throat, fear choking him.
âDoctor, please â tell me, are they okay?â Maxâs voice is raw, barely above a whisper, his eyes pleading.
The doctor looks tired, his face drawn, but thereâs a small, reassuring smile on his lips. âThe surgery was successful. It was touch and go for a while, but both your partner and the baby are stable.â
Maxâs knees nearly buckle with relief, a sob escaping his throat as he covers his face with his hands. âThank God ⌠thank you,â he chokes out, his whole body trembling with the release of tension.
âYou can see them soon,â the doctor adds gently, placing a hand on Maxâs shoulder. âSheâs going to need a lot of rest, and weâll be monitoring them both closely, but theyâre out of danger for now.â
Max nods, unable to speak, his emotions too overwhelming to put into words. Heâs ushered into a recovery room, where youâre lying on the bed, pale and exhausted, but alive. The sight of you sends a fresh wave of tears to his eyes.
âHey,â you whisper weakly, your voice barely audible, but the sound of it is the most beautiful thing Max has ever heard.
âHey,â he breathes, moving to your side and taking your hand in his. His other hand brushes the hair from your face, his touch reverent, as if heâs afraid you might break. âYou scared the hell out of me.â
âIâm sorry,â you say, tears welling up in your eyes. âI didnât mean to ⌠I just ⌠I had to make sure she was okay.â
Max shakes his head, leaning down to press his forehead against yours, his tears mingling with yours. âDonât apologize. You did it. You both made it. Youâre both okay.â
You squeeze his hand, drawing strength from his presence. âI couldnât have done it without you. I heard you, Max ⌠I heard you telling me to hold on.â
Max pulls back slightly, his eyes searching yours. âI meant every word. Iâll always be here, for both of you. I promise.â
A nurse enters. âWould you like to meet your daughter?â She asks.
The nurse wheels in the bassinet, and you canât take your eyes off the tiny bundle wrapped in a pink blanket. Max looks at you, his heart in his throat, as the nurse gently lifts your daughter and places her in your arms. Sheâs so small, her eyes closed, her tiny fists curled up against her chest. The world narrows to this moment, the overwhelming surge of love crashing over you both as you stare down at her.
Max sits beside you, his arm around your shoulders as he looks at his daughter, his breath catching in his throat. âSheâs perfect,â he whispers, his voice thick with emotion. âSo beautiful.â
You smile through your tears, nodding as you trace a gentle finger over the babyâs soft cheek. âShe is. I ⌠Iâve been thinking about what to name her.â
Max looks at you, his heart pounding, waiting for you to speak.
âI want to name her Emilia,â you say softly, looking up at him with tear-filled eyes. âAfter you. I want her to have a part of you with her always. Youâve done so much for us, Max. Youâre a part of her, a part of us. It feels right.â
Maxâs breath catches, and for a moment, he canât speak. His middle name is something heâs never thought much about, but hearing you say it now, giving it to your daughter â it takes on a whole new meaning.
âEmilia,â he repeats softly, as if testing it out. A smile tugs at the corners of his mouth, his eyes bright with unshed tears. âItâs perfect. Thank you.â
You lean your head against his shoulder, feeling the warmth of his body as he wraps you both in his embrace. Emilia stirs in your arms, making a soft noise as she opens her eyes for the first time, looking up at you and Max with wide, curious eyes. It feels like time stands still, the three of you cocooned in this perfect moment.
âSheâs going to be so loved,â Max whispers, his voice full of awe and determination. âIâll make sure of it.â
You nod, knowing he means it with every fiber of his being. Max has already proven that heâll do anything to protect you and Emilia. Itâs in the way he looks at you, in the way he holds you both as if youâre the most precious things in the world.
As you sit there together, your new family, you know that no matter what challenges lie ahead, you wonât be facing them alone. Max is here, by your side, and with him, you have all the strength you need.
âWelcome to the world, Emilia,â you whisper, kissing her tiny forehead. âWe love you so much.â
Max kisses the top of your head, his lips lingering there as he closes his eyes, letting himself feel the full weight of the love he has for you both. This is what heâs been waiting for, what he didnât even realize he needed until now.
âIâll always be here,â he murmurs, his voice a promise. âFor both of you.â
And as you hold your daughter close, you know that those words are true. Max will always be here, and together, youâll face whatever comes next as a family.
***
Max carefully pulls the car up to the curb outside his Monaco apartment, his hands gripping the steering wheel just a little too tightly. Heâs driven this route countless times, but today feels different â monumental. He glances over at you in the passenger seat, Emilia cradled in your arms, bundled up in a soft pink blanket. Sheâs asleep, her tiny mouth forming an âOâ as she breathes peacefully.
Maxâs heart feels like it might burst from his chest as he watches you both. The love he feels is overwhelming, so much that it almost scares him. Heâs not sure how to carry it all, but he knows he wants to try â no, he needs to.
âReady?â He asks, his voice soft, not wanting to disturb Emilia.
You nod, smiling down at your daughter before looking up at him. âReady.â
Max steps out of the car and hurries around to your side, opening the door for you and helping you out, his hand warm and steady on your arm. You both move carefully, as if the world might shatter if youâre too rough. Emilia stirs slightly as you adjust her in your arms, but she stays asleep, oblivious to the world outside.
The front door of the apartment clicks open, and you step inside, the familiar scent of home wrapping around you. Max closes the door behind you, and suddenly, the apartment feels different â more complete, more alive. He watches as you walk into the living room, a sense of awe filling him as he realizes that this is your home now, Emiliaâs home.
Jimmy and Sassy are lounging on the couch when you enter. They lift their heads lazily, eyes narrowing with curiosity as they spot the new addition to the household. Max watches them closely, his heart racing slightly. He knows how territorial they can be, and the last thing he wants is for them to feel threatened by Emilia.
You lower yourself carefully onto the couch, cradling Emilia in your arms, and Max sits beside you, his arm around your shoulders. âGuys,â you whisper to the cats, your voice gentle, soothing. âCome say hi.â
Jimmy is the first to move, hopping down from the couch and approaching slowly, his eyes wide as he takes in the sight of the tiny human in your arms. He sniffs the air cautiously, his ears twitching, and then, to Maxâs surprise, he rubs his head gently against Emiliaâs leg, purring softly. Sassy follows suit, jumping up onto the armrest to get a better look, her green eyes curious and bright.
Max lets out a breath he didnât realize he was holding, a smile spreading across his face. âLooks like they approve,â he says, his voice full of warmth.
You laugh softly, the sound like music to his ears. âI guess so. Theyâre so gentle with her.â
âYeah,â Max agrees, his eyes never leaving Emiliaâs face. âThey know sheâs important.â
For a while, the three of you just sit there, basking in the quiet joy of the moment. Emilia shifts in your arms, her tiny fingers flexing as she begins to wake up. Her eyes flutter open, and she lets out a small, contented sigh. Jimmy and Sassy watch intently, as if fascinated by this little creature thatâs suddenly become the center of their world.
Max reaches out, his fingers brushing lightly against Emiliaâs cheek. She turns her head slightly, her eyes trying to focus on him, and Max feels a lump form in his throat. âHi, meisje,â he whispers, his voice thick with emotion. âWelcome home.â
You lean into him, resting your head on his shoulder, and for a moment, everything feels perfect. But then, as if the weight of the world suddenly returns, Max feels a pang of dread deep in his chest. He tries to push it away, but it lingers, gnawing at him.
You notice the change in him immediately, lifting your head to look at him, concern in your eyes. âMax? Whatâs wrong?â
He hesitates, not wanting to ruin the moment, but he knows he has to tell you. âI just ⌠Iâve been thinking about the races,â he admits quietly. âIâm going to have to leave soon, and ⌠I hate the thought of being away from you and Emilia. Especially now.â
Your expression softens, and you reach out to take his hand, your thumb brushing over his knuckles. âMax, itâs okay. I know how much racing means to you. Weâll be fine.â
He shakes his head, his eyes searching yours. âI know you will. Itâs just ⌠I donât want to miss anything. I donât want to miss her first smile, her first laugh, her first steps âŚâ
âYou wonât,â you assure him, squeezing his hand. âWeâll make it work. And when sheâs old enough, weâll come with you to as many races as we can.â
Maxâs heart swells at the thought, but then another worry creeps in. He hesitates, glancing away for a moment before looking back at you. âBut⌠what about Charles? I donât want you to feel like you have to be in the same paddock as him. I donât want you to be uncomfortable.â
Youâre quiet for a moment, considering his words, and then you shake your head, a determined look in your eyes. âMax, Iâve thought about it a lot, and I want to be there with you. Emilia and I will cheer you on, and Charles ⌠well, heâs in the past. Youâre our future. I want to support you, and I want Emilia to see how amazing her papa is.â
The relief that washes over Max is palpable. He hadnât realized how much he needed to hear that until now. âAre you sure?â He asks, his voice almost trembling. âI donât want you to do anything youâre not ready for.â
âIâm sure,â you say firmly. âBesides, I want Emilia to grow up surrounded by people who love her. And that includes you, Max. Youâre her papa.â
Maxâs breath catches at the word, his chest tightening with a mix of love and fear. Heâs been called many things in his life â champion, prodigy, competitor â but âpapaâ is new. Itâs terrifying and exhilarating all at once.
âPapa,â he echoes softly, the word feeling both foreign and right on his tongue. âI like the sound of that.â
You smile, your eyes shining with warmth. âMe too.â
The rest of the day passes in a blur of small, beautiful moments. You and Max take turns holding Emilia, watching as she discovers the world around her with wide, curious eyes. Max canât stop marveling at how tiny she is, how perfect. Every little coo, every small movement feels like a miracle to him.
When evening falls, you feed Emilia while Max busies himself in the kitchen, preparing something simple for dinner. Heâs not much of a cook, but heâs determined to take care of you both in any way he can. As you sit at the table together, Emilia cradled in your arms, Max watches you with a sense of contentment heâs never felt before.
But as the night grows darker, that lingering dread creeps back in. Max knows he has to leave for the next race soon, and the thought of being away from you and Emilia feels unbearable. After dinner, he finds himself pacing the living room, his thoughts swirling.
You notice his restlessness and approach him, Emilia sleeping soundly in your arms. âMax,â you say gently, drawing his attention. âTalk to me.â
He stops, running a hand through his hair as he looks at you, his eyes filled with uncertainty. âI just ⌠I donât know how Iâm going to leave you both. I hate it.â
You step closer, reaching out to touch his arm. âMax, I know itâs hard. But weâll be okay. And you can call us anytime, video chat, whatever you need. Weâll make it work.â
Max nods, but the worry in his eyes doesnât fade. âI just donât want to miss anything,â he repeats, his voice strained. âI want to be here for everything.â
âAnd you will be,â you promise, your voice firm. âWeâll figure it out together. Weâre a team now, remember?â
Max lets out a breath he didnât realize he was holding, the tension in his shoulders easing slightly. âYeah,â he says softly, his voice filled with gratitude. âWe are.â
You lean up to kiss him softly on the lips, a kiss thatâs full of reassurance and love. When you pull back, Max looks at you with a mixture of awe and affection.
âThank you,â he whispers, his voice thick with emotion.
âFor what?â You ask, tilting your head slightly.
âFor being here. For being you,â he says simply, his eyes locking onto yours. âI donât know what Iâd do without you.â
You smile, your heart swelling with love for the man in front of you. âYouâll never have to find out.â
Max pulls you into a gentle embrace, careful not to disturb Emilia as he holds you both close. In that moment, he knows that no matter how many races he has to go to, no matter how far he has to travel, this is where his heart will always be â with you and Emilia.
And as you both stand there, wrapped in each otherâs arms, Max makes a silent promise to himself: to always be there for you, no matter what. Because this â this little family youâve created together â is the most important thing in the world.
***
The doorbell rings just as Max is finishing up with Emiliaâs bottle. He glances at the clock â 10:30 a.m. Whoever it is, theyâre too early for lunch, too late for breakfast, and entirely unexpected.
Youâre in the kitchen, humming softly while packing away the groceries Max picked up this morning. Max smiles to himself as he looks down at Emilia, her tiny fingers wrapped around his thumb. It feels like everything in his life is finally in place.
But that sense of contentment shatters the moment he opens the door.
Jos stands there, his presence immediately filling the entryway with tension. The older manâs eyes flick to you in the kitchen, then back to Max, his mouth curling into a sneer.
âMax,â Jos says, stepping forward before Max can say a word. His voice is cold, sharp. The man doesnât even bother with a greeting.
âDad,â Max replies, swallowing hard as he shuts the door behind him. Jos is already walking into the apartment, his eyes scanning the place like heâs looking for something to criticize.
You turn around, startled by the sound of footsteps you werenât expecting. The soft smile on your face fades when you see Jos. Max can see the recognition in your eyes, followed by a flash of concern. You know about Jos, the kind of man he is. Maxâs jaw tightens.
âWhat are you doing here?â Max tries to keep his voice steady, but thereâs an edge to it, a warning.
Jos ignores him. His gaze is fixed on you now, his expression unreadable but undeniably harsh. âSo this is her, huh?â He waves a hand in your direction. âThe one Charles tossed aside.â
You freeze, hands trembling as you instinctively clutch the counter behind you. Maxâs blood runs cold.
âDonât,â Max warns, stepping between you and his father. âDonât talk to her like that.â
Jos scoffs. âRelax, Max. Iâm just stating the obvious. Sheâs nothing more than your rivalâs sloppy seconds. And you ⌠youâre playing house with another manâs child.â
The air leaves the room. Maxâs vision narrows, and all he can see is Jos â the man who made his childhood a battleground. The man who pushed him so hard he could barely breathe under the weight of his expectations. Now heâs here, trying to break apart the life Max has built for himself.
âThatâs enough,â Max snaps, his voice rising in a way thatâs unfamiliar, even to him. Emilia starts fussing in his arms, sensing the tension, and it only makes him angrier. âYou donât get to walk in here and insult my family.â
Jos raises an eyebrow. âFamily? Donât kid yourself, Max. This isnât your family. This is Charles Leclercâs leftovers. Youâre raising another manâs child, and you think that makes you a father?â
Max feels like heâs been punched in the gut, but he doesnât flinch. Heâs not that scared little boy anymore, the one who craved his fatherâs approval more than anything in the world. Heâs a man now â a father â and he wonât let Jos tear him down again.
âYou donât know anything about this,â Max says, his voice shaking with fury. âI love her. I love Emilia. Sheâs my daughter, and Iâm her father, no matter what you think. And if you canât respect that, then you donât belong here.â
Josâs eyes flash with something dark, something that Max recognizes all too well. But before he can say anything, you step forward, your voice trembling but determined. âPlease, just go.â
Jos glances at you, then back at Max. For a moment, it looks like he might push further, but then he shakes his head, a bitter laugh escaping him. âYouâve gone soft, Max. Youâre making a mistake, and one day youâll see it.â
Max tightens his grip on Emilia, whoâs starting to cry now, her small voice cutting through the tension. He turns his back on Jos, cradling his daughter close to his chest, and says, âGet out.â
For a moment, thereâs only silence. Then, with a huff of disdain, Jos turns on his heel and leaves, the door slamming shut behind him. The sound echoes through the apartment like a gunshot.
You rush to Maxâs side, reaching out to touch his arm. âMax, I-â
âDonât,â Max says, his voice cracking. He closes his eyes, leaning into your touch as he struggles to keep his composure. âJust ⌠donât.â
He doesnât mean to snap at you, but the anger, the hurt, itâs all too much. You say nothing, just move closer, wrapping your arms around him and Emilia, holding them both as tightly as you can. Max can feel the tension melting away, replaced by a deep, bone-deep exhaustion.
âIâm sorry,â you whisper, resting your head on his shoulder. âIâm so sorry.â
âItâs not your fault,â Max replies, shaking his head. âItâs ⌠itâs just him. Heâll never change.â
You pull back slightly, looking up at him with tear-filled eyes. âHeâs wrong, Max. You are her father. Youâre already everything she needs.â
Max looks down at Emilia, whoâs slowly calming down in his arms. Her tiny hand grips his finger, and the simple, innocent gesture makes something in him break. He swallows hard, blinking back tears.
âI donât care what he says,â Max whispers, more to himself than to you. âIâm not him. Iâm never going to be him.â
You reach up, gently brushing a tear away from his cheek. âYouâre not. Youâre a good man and youâre already a great father.â
Max canât find the words to respond, so he just leans down and kisses you, a slow, desperate kiss that says everything he canât put into words. You kiss him back, your hands gently cradling his face, grounding him in the moment.
When you finally pull away, you smile at him, and itâs like the sun breaking through a stormy sky. âWeâre going to be okay,â you say softly. âAll three of us.â
Max nods, pressing his forehead against yours. âYeah,â he murmurs. âWe are.â
You both stand there in the quiet of the apartment, holding onto each other and to Emilia, who has finally fallen back asleep. The storm has passed, but Max knows there will be more to come. But as long as he has you and Emilia by his side, he knows he can face anything.
And for the first time in a long time, Max feels like heâs finally home.
***
The room is silent except for the soft hum of the baby monitor, its rhythmic buzz a constant backdrop to the night. The apartment is dark, save for a thin sliver of moonlight seeping in through the curtains, casting a pale glow over the room.
You stir, groggily reaching for the warmth of Max beside you, but find only cold sheets. Instantly, youâre more awake, your heart quickening as you sit up and squint into the darkness. Itâs late, or maybe itâs early â time has blurred into an endless loop of feeding, changing, and trying to snatch sleep in between.
Max isnât in bed, but you can see his silhouette across the room, standing over Emiliaâs crib. His back is to you, his posture tense yet somehow fragile, as if heâs holding something inside thatâs threatening to spill over. You watch him for a moment, the quiet of the night wrapping around you both like a blanket, before you gently call out his name.
âMax?â
He doesnât turn immediately, and for a second, you think maybe he didnât hear you. But then he shifts slightly, his shoulders dropping as if heâs finally exhaling a breath he didnât realize he was holding.
âSorry,â he says, his voice low and rough with emotion. âDid I wake you?â
You shake your head, though heâs not looking at you. âNo. I just noticed you werenât in bed.â
He glances back at you then, just briefly, his eyes shadowed and unreadable in the dim light. âI couldnât sleep,â he admits, turning his gaze back to Emilia. âI kept thinking about ⌠everything.â
Thereâs a heaviness in his tone that makes you push back the covers and swing your legs over the edge of the bed. You stand up, crossing the room to where heâs standing. When you reach him, you place a hand on his arm, feeling the tension thrumming through his muscles.
âWhatâs going on in that head of yours?â You ask softly, trying to meet his eyes.
For a moment, heâs quiet, staring down at Emilia with a look thatâs a mix of awe and fear. Then he speaks, his voice barely above a whisper. âI keep saying sheâs mine. Iâve said it so many times, but ⌠I donât think it really hit me until just now. Iâm her dad.â
He finally looks at you, his blue eyes shining with something raw and unguarded. âIâm her dad, and that means ⌠everything. It means Iâm the one whoâs supposed to protect her, to make sure sheâs safe and happy. Iâm the one whoâs supposed to teach her, to love her, to be there for every moment of her life.â
His voice cracks on the last word, and you feel your heart break for him, for the weight heâs been carrying. You squeeze his arm gently, encouraging him to continue.
âIâve spent so much of my life trying to be what my dad wanted me to be,â Max continues, his eyes dropping back down to Emilia. âI pushed myself so hard because I thought thatâs what I had to do, that I had to prove something to him, to everyone. But this ⌠being her dad, itâs different. Itâs not about proving anything. Itâs just about being there for her, for you.â
You can hear the fear in his voice, the uncertainty, but also the determination. Max has always been a fighter, always pushing himself to the limit, but this is different. This is about love, about responsibility, about a future thatâs no longer just his.
âI promise,â he says, his voice stronger now, more certain. âI promise Iâll always do the best for her, and for you. Iâll make mistakes, I know I will, but Iâll always try to do whatâs right. Iâll always be here.â
His words hang in the air between you, heavy with meaning. You step closer, sliding your arms around his waist and resting your head against his chest. You can hear the steady beat of his heart beneath your ear, a comforting rhythm that grounds you in the moment.
âYouâre already doing it,â you whisper against his chest. âYouâre already an amazing dad, Max. Sheâs so lucky to have you, and so am I.â
Max wraps his arms around you, pulling you even closer. You feel the warmth of his body against yours, the steady rise and fall of his chest as he breathes. Itâs a simple, quiet moment, but itâs everything.
âIâm the lucky one,â he murmurs, pressing a kiss to the top of your head. âI didnât think ⌠I never imagined this. Having a family. But now that I do, I canât imagine life without it. Without you. Without her.â
You pull back slightly, just enough to look up at him. His eyes are soft, full of love and something else â something deeper, more profound. Itâs the look of a man whoâs found something he didnât even know he was searching for.
âI love you,â you say, the words slipping out before you can even think about them. But theyâre true, and you realize with a start that youâve been feeling them for a while now.
Maxâs breath catches, and for a moment, he just stares at you, like heâs trying to memorize your face, your words, everything about this moment. Then he smiles â a real, genuine smile that lights up his entire face.
âI love you too,â he says, his voice thick with emotion. âSo much.â
You lean in, pressing your lips to his in a slow, tender kiss. Itâs not the first kiss youâve shared, but it feels like the most important. Itâs a promise, a commitment, a beginning.
When you finally pull away, Max rests his forehead against yours, his hands still holding you close. âThank you,â he whispers. âFor everything. For trusting me, for being here, for giving me this family.â
You smile, reaching up to cup his cheek. âThereâs nowhere else Iâd rather be.â
He kisses you again, softer this time, a lingering brush of lips that sends warmth spiraling through you. Then he turns his attention back to Emilia, whoâs still sound asleep in her crib, blissfully unaware of the world around her.
âSheâs so perfect,â Max murmurs, his voice full of wonder. âI still canât believe sheâs ours.â
âShe is,â you agree, leaning against him as you both watch your daughter sleep. âSheâs everything.â
Max nods, his eyes never leaving Emilia. âIâm going to do everything I can to make sure she has the best life possible. I donât care what it takes. Sheâs my little girl.â
Thereâs a fierceness in his voice now, a protective instinct that you know will only grow stronger with time. Itâs the kind of love that canât be measured, the kind that changes everything.
âAnd you,â Max adds, looking down at you with a softness that makes your heart swell. âIâm going to do everything I can to make sure youâre happy too. That you never have to worry about anything.â
âI know you will,â you say, reaching up to run your fingers through his hair. âBut you donât have to do it all on your own, Max. Weâre in this together, okay? Weâre a team.â
He nods, his expression serious. âYeah. We are.â
You stand there in the quiet of the night, wrapped up in each other and in the future youâre building together. Itâs a future thatâs still uncertain, full of challenges and unknowns, but itâs yours. Itâs yours, and itâs beautiful.
After a while, Max guides you back to bed, and you both climb under the covers, your bodies fitting together perfectly. He holds you close, his arms wrapped around you as you settle against his chest. You can hear the steady beat of his heart, feel the warmth of his skin against yours, and it lulls you into a peaceful sleep.
As you drift off, you hear Maxâs voice one last time, a soft whisper in the darkness. âIâm never letting go of this. Of you. Of her. I promise.â
And with that, you fall into a deep, dreamless sleep, feeling more loved and more secure than you ever have before.
***
Max is darting around the private jet, a man on a mission. Heâs checking every corner, every surface, making sure itâs all baby-proofed, while you sit on the plush leather seat, watching him with a mix of amusement and affection. Emilia, cradled in your arms, is blissfully unaware of her fatherâs nerves as she gurgles happily, her tiny hands waving in the air.
âMax, itâs fine,â you call out, but heâs too busy testing the security of a cabinet door to hear you.
âWhat if the turbulence knocks something over?â He mutters, more to himself than to you, as he gives the cabinet another pull to ensure itâs locked tight. He moves on to the safety straps on the seats, tugging at them to make sure theyâre secure.
You canât help but smile at how seriously heâs taking this. Max Verstappen reduced to a bundle of nerves over the safety of a half-year-old baby on a private jet. Itâs endearing, seeing him so out of his element, so completely focused on making sure everything is perfect for Emilia.
âMax, sheâs going to be fine,â you say gently, but with a hint of laughter in your voice.
Max finally turns to you, his expression a mix of determination and mild panic. âI know, I just-â he pauses, running a hand through his hair, âI donât want to take any chances. What if something happens? What if-â
âMax,â you cut him off, âeverythingâs going to be okay. Youâve checked everything three times already.â
He lets out a breath, his shoulders finally relaxing a little. âYeah, youâre right. I just ... I want her to be safe.â
âShe will be. And besides,â you add with a teasing smile, âyouâve already won the overprotective dad award.â
That gets a small smile out of him, and he walks over to where youâre sitting, leaning down to press a kiss to Emiliaâs forehead. âYouâre right,â he says again, though this time it sounds more like heâs trying to convince himself.
You reach up to touch his cheek, your thumb brushing over the stubble there. âYouâre an amazing dad, Max.â
He covers your hand with his, his blue eyes softening as he looks at you. âI just ... I never thought Iâd be this worried, you know? Driving at 300 kilometers an hour doesnât scare me, but this ...â
âBecause this is different,â you finish for him, understanding completely. âSheâs your whole world now.â
âYou both are,â he corrects, and you can see the emotion in his eyes, the depth of his feelings for both you and Emilia.
The flight attendant comes by to offer refreshments, and Max asks for a bottle of water before turning his attention back to you and Emilia. He takes a seat beside you, carefully cradling the baby as you hand her over. The moment Emilia is in his arms, the tension in his shoulders eases, and he looks down at her with the kind of adoration that makes your heart swell.
âLook at her,â he murmurs, as if he still canât believe this little person is real, is his.
âSheâs beautiful,â you agree softly.
Max leans back in his seat, holding Emilia close. Sheâs starting to doze off, her tiny mouth making little sucking motions even in her sleep. âI canât wait for her to see her first race,â he says quietly, his voice full of anticipation and pride.
You smile, watching the way he looks at Emilia, as if sheâs the most precious thing in the world. And to him, she is.
âDo you think sheâll like it?â You ask, leaning your head on his shoulder.
He chuckles softly. âI donât know. But I hope so. Maybe sheâll be my little lucky charm.â
âShe already is,â you say, closing your eyes for a moment, just soaking in the warmth of the moment.
The plane starts to taxi down the runway, and Max holds Emilia a little tighter, his other hand reaching out to take yours. The takeoff is smooth, but Maxâs grip on your hand doesnât loosen until youâre well into the air.
âShe didnât even stir,â you note, nodding towards Emilia, whoâs still peacefully asleep in Maxâs arms.
âSheâs tougher than we give her credit for,â Max replies, smiling down at his daughter.
As the flight progresses, Max eventually relaxes enough to stop checking every detail of the cabin. He spends most of the time just watching Emilia sleep, occasionally glancing out the window at the clouds passing by. You can see the wheels turning in his head, and you know heâs already imagining what it will be like to have her at the track, to share that part of his life with her.
After a while, you start to feel the effects of the early morning and the flight. The gentle hum of the plane and the steady warmth of Max beside you lull you into a state of drowsiness. You lean against him, resting your head on his shoulder, your hand still holding his.
Max looks down at you, his heart swelling with a fierce protectiveness. This is his family, his girls, and he would do anything to keep you both safe, to make sure youâre happy. He kisses the top of your head, the gesture so natural, so filled with love, that it almost surprises him how right it feels.
As the plane flies steadily towards its destination, you drift off to sleep, the last thing you hear being Max whispering softly to Emilia, telling her about the first time heâll take her to the paddock, how heâll introduce her to everyone, how heâll teach her everything he knows. His voice is filled with so much love and promise that it makes your heart ache in the best way possible.
And then, youâre asleep, resting peacefully against Maxâs shoulder, while Emilia snoozes in his arms. Max stays like that for the rest of the flight, holding both of you close, his heart full and content.
***
The paddock buzzes with the usual pre-race excitement, but today, there's an extra layer of curiosity. People are craning their necks, whispering to each other, their eyes widening as Max Verstappen strolls through, an unusual sight to behold. Emilia is strapped to his chest in a baby carrier, her tiny hands grabbing at the fabric of Maxâs shirt, while you walk beside him, pushing a stroller thatâs more a mobile storage unit for all the baby essentials.
Itâs your first time back at a race since everything changed, and the significance of the moment isnât lost on you. Every step feels heavy with the weight of anticipation, not just for the race itself, but for the reactions you both know are coming. Max, usually so composed in these environments, seems a little tense. His hand rests protectively over Emilia, his thumb gently stroking her back as he navigates through the crowd.
As you walk together, you catch the eyes of team members, fans, and media alike, all of them stunned by the sight of Max â stoic, single-minded Max â suddenly a father. The whispers grow louder, cameras discreetly capturing the moment, and you feel the eyes of the entire paddock on you. But Max, despite the tension in his shoulders, keeps his focus on you and Emilia, blocking out the stares as best he can.
You try to smile, to project confidence, but you canât shake the feeling of being exposed, vulnerable. Itâs not just that this is your first time back in the paddock â itâs that this is the first time the world is seeing you, Max, and Emilia together. You brace yourself for the reactions, knowing theyâll come.
Max senses your unease and squeezes your hand, a silent reassurance that heâs with you every step of the way. âIgnore them,â he says quietly, his voice firm. âThis is about us, not them.â
You nod, taking a deep breath as you push the stroller forward. Emilia, blissfully unaware of the attention, coos happily against Maxâs chest, her tiny head resting against him. Itâs that sound, that innocence, that gives you the strength to keep going.
As you walk further into the paddock, the sea of familiar faces starts to part for you, some people smiling warmly, others too shocked to do much more than gape. Max acknowledges a few of the team members with a nod, his usual stern expression softened by the presence of his daughter.
Then, as you turn a corner near the Red Bull garage, you see him. Charles, dressed in his Ferrari red, stands talking to a few engineers. His back is to you, and for a moment, you think you might pass by unnoticed. But then, as if sensing your presence, Charles turns.
The world seems to slow as his eyes lock onto Emilia. He freezes, his expression shifting from confusion to disbelief in a matter of seconds. His gaze flickers between you, Max, and the baby, and you can see the moment it all clicks for him. The green eyes, so like his own, staring back at him from the face of the baby strapped to Maxâs chest.
âMax,â Charles says, his voice low, tight. His face flushes with a mix of emotions â shock, anger, betrayal. âWhat the hell is this?â
Maxâs jaw tightens, but he stays calm. âLetâs not do this here.â
But Charles doesnât seem to hear him. He takes a step closer, his eyes locked on Emilia, and you instinctively move closer to Max, as if you can shield your daughter from whateverâs about to happen.
âYou had a baby?â Charles spits out, his voice rising with each word. âMy baby?â He points at you, disbelief and fury written all over his face. âYou stole my girlfriend and now youâre raising my child?â
The words hit like a slap, and you feel the blood drain from your face. You knew this confrontation was coming, but nothing could have prepared you for the intensity of it, for the venom in Charlesâ voice.
Max steps forward, placing himself between you and Charles. âWatch what youâre saying,â he warns, his voice dangerously low. âEmilia is not your daughter. You gave up that right when you left her mother.â
Charles scoffs, his eyes narrowing as he looks at Max. âYou think you can just replace me? That sheâll ever be yours?â
âShe already is,â Max replies, his voice steady, unyielding. âSheâs mine because Iâm here for her, every day. Because I love her. And because you walked away.â
Charles looks like heâs about to explode. His fists clench at his sides, and for a moment, you think he might actually take a swing at Max. But instead, he turns his anger on you.
âAnd you,â he snaps, his voice dripping with contempt. âHow could you do this? How could you let him take my place?â
The accusation stings, but before you can respond, Emilia starts to cry, the tension and raised voices too much for her to handle. The sound cuts through the air like a knife, and suddenly, all eyes are on the three of you, the scene unfolding like a car crash that no one can look away from.
Charles looks stricken at the sound of Emiliaâs cries, but his anger doesnât dissipate. If anything, it seems to fuel him further. âYou think you can just replace me? That she wonât know who her real father is?â
Maxâs composure finally breaks. He steps forward, his face inches from Charles, his voice deadly calm. âYou lost the right to call yourself her father when you walked away from her mother without a second thought. Donât you dare try to claim her now.â
âMax, please,â you whisper, your voice trembling as you reach out to him. But before you can pull him back, Charles lashes out.
âYou think this is over? You think Iâll just let you play happy family with my daughter?â
âStop it, Charles,â you plead, but your words fall on deaf ears.
Charles opens his mouth to respond, but Emiliaâs cries grow louder, her tiny fists clenching in distress. Maxâs expression hardens as he looks at Charles, then at his daughter, whoâs clearly terrified by the escalating confrontation.
âThatâs enough,â Max says, his voice firm. âYouâre scaring her.â
But Charles doesnât back down. He takes another step forward, his voice rising. âSheâs mine, Max. And Iâll make sure she knows it.â
Emiliaâs wails reach a fever pitch, and Maxâs patience snaps. He takes a deep breath, his jaw clenching as he turns to you. âTake her,â he says softly, carefully unstrapping Emilia from the carrier and handing her to you. You can feel his hands shaking slightly as he passes her over, his control fraying at the edges.
You cradle Emilia close, trying to soothe her as you watch the standoff between Max and Charles with mounting dread.
Max squares his shoulders, turning back to Charles with a look that could freeze over hell. âIf you ever come near her again,â he says, his voice cold as ice, âIâll make sure you regret it.â
Charlesâs eyes flash with anger, but heâs out of words, out of retorts. He glares at Max, then at you, before turning on his heel and storming away, his footsteps echoing down the paddock.
For a moment, everything is silent except for Emiliaâs soft cries. The crowd that had gathered disperses, but not without a few lingering looks of shock and curiosity. You can feel the weight of their stares, the buzz of gossip thatâs sure to follow, but all that matters is calming Emilia and holding it together for her.
Max stands there, his chest heaving, the adrenaline from the confrontation still coursing through his veins. He watches as Charles disappears from sight, then turns back to you, his expression softening as he sees the tears in your eyes.
âIâm so sorry,â he whispers, his voice rough with emotion. âI didnât want it to happen like this.â
You shake your head, unable to find the words to respond. Instead, you focus on Emilia, her cries quieting as she nuzzles against your chest, seeking comfort.
Max steps closer, his hand reaching out to touch your arm, grounding both of you. âAre you okay?â He asks gently, his eyes searching yours.
You nod, swallowing the lump in your throat. âIâm okay,â you manage to say, though your voice is shaky. âItâs just ... itâs a lot.â
âI know,â Max says, his voice filled with regret. âI wish I could make it all go away.â
You take a deep breath, feeling the tension start to ease as Maxâs presence grounds you. âWeâll get through this,â you say softly, more for yourself than anyone else.
Max wraps an arm around you, pulling you close, his other hand resting on Emiliaâs back. âWe will,â he promises, his voice steady and sure. âWeâre a family, and nothingâs going to change that.â
As you stand there, the chaos of the paddock fading into the background, you realize that no matter what happens, no matter what anyone says, youâre not alone in this. You have Max, and together, youâll face whatever comes your way.
***
Max paces the length of his driverâs room, phone pressed to his ear, his voice low but urgent. Outside, the hum of the paddock continues, but inside, the tension is palpable. He runs a hand through his hair, the stress of the day catching up with him. His mind is a storm of thoughts, all centered on you and Emilia.
You stand at the doorway, hesitating as you hear his voice, too focused on the conversation to notice your presence. You canât make out every word, but the ones you do catch make your heart pound in your chest.
âNo, I donât care what it takes,â Max says, his voice firm. âI want to make sure he has no rights. None. He canât just walk back into her life and take her away.â
Your breath hitches, and you step closer, just out of his line of sight. Max pauses, listening to whoeverâs on the other end of the call, his jaw clenched tight. The room feels smaller, the walls closing in, the gravity of what heâs discussing weighing heavily on your heart.
âYes,â he says after a moment. âIâve thought about that. Adoption. I want it to be official, as soon as possible. I want to be her dad in every way that matters.â
You feel like the airâs been knocked out of you. Your hand flies to your mouth, trying to contain the emotion that surges through you. Youâve always known that Max loves Emilia as his own, but hearing him talk about adoption, about making it official, is overwhelming. Itâs everything you didnât know you needed to hear.
Maxâs back is to you, his shoulders tense, his free hand on his hip. âNo, I donât care about the PR fallout. Sheâs my daughter, and Iâll do whatever it takes to protect her.â
You canât stay quiet any longer. âMax âŚâ
He turns so quickly that he nearly drops his phone. His blue eyes widen in surprise, then soften when he sees you. He quickly wraps up the call, telling his lawyer heâll be in touch soon, and hangs up, his attention solely on you now.
âHow much did you hear?â He asks, a touch of worry in his voice as he approaches you.
âEnough,â you admit, your voice trembling with emotion. âYouâre serious about this? About adopting her?â
Max stops in front of you, his hands gently taking yours. âOf course, I am,â he says softly, his thumb brushing over your knuckles. âSheâs mine, in every way that matters. I donât want there to be any question about that. I want to make it official.â
Tears well up in your eyes, and you blink rapidly, trying to keep them from falling. âMax ⌠I donât even know what to say. Youâre amazing, you know that?â
He smiles, but thereâs a vulnerability in his eyes that tugs at your heart. âI just want to do whatâs right for you and Emilia. You both mean everything to me.â
Your heart swells with so much love that it feels like it might burst. âI love you,â you whisper, the words tumbling out before you can stop them.
Maxâs eyes light up, and he pulls you into his arms, holding you close. âI love you too,â he murmurs against your hair, his voice thick with emotion. âSo much.â
You bury your face in his chest, the steady rhythm of his heartbeat grounding you as you let the tears fall, tears of happiness, relief, and love. Maxâs hand runs soothingly up and down your back, his touch reassuring, solid, and everything you need.
âI didnât know if youâd want that,â you admit after a moment, your voice muffled against his shirt. âThe adoption, I mean. I didnât want to pressure you into anything.â
Max pulls back just enough to look at you, his hands cradling your face. âThis isnât about pressure,â he says earnestly. âThis is about what I want. I want to be her dad, officially. I want us to be a family.â
His words hit you like a wave, and you canât hold back the smile that breaks across your face. âWe already are, Max. But ⌠making it official ⌠it would mean the world to me.â
He kisses you then, softly, sweetly, as if sealing the promise with his lips. When he pulls away, thereâs a determination in his eyes that makes your heart race.
âWeâll get this sorted,â he says, his voice steady and sure. âCharles wonât be able to touch her. Iâll make sure of it.â
You nod, trusting him completely, knowing that whatever happens, Max will be there, by your side, protecting you and Emilia. Heâs already proven that in so many ways.
âThank you,â you whisper, leaning into his embrace. âFor everything.â
Max presses another kiss to your forehead, lingering there as if he never wants to let go. âIâll always be here for you,â he promises, his voice a gentle vow. âFor both of you.â
You stay like that for a long moment, wrapped up in each other, the weight of the world outside the room forgotten. Itâs just you, Max, and the love thatâs grown between you, a love thatâs only getting stronger with each passing day.
Eventually, Max steps back, his hand slipping into yours, his thumb brushing over your knuckles again. âCome on,â he says softly, a small smile playing on his lips. âLetâs go check on Emilia.â
You smile back, feeling lighter than you have in days. âYeah,â you agree, squeezing his hand. âLetâs.â
***
The FIA Prize Giving Ceremony is a glittering affair, with the most celebrated drivers in the world gathered under one roof, all eager to see who will take home the eveningâs highest honors. The room is abuzz with energy, cameras flashing, and the air thick with anticipation. Itâs a night of recognition, where the best of the best are acknowledged for their achievements on the track. But for you and Max, tonight is about something much more personal.
You sit beside Max at one of the front tables, your hands clasped together under the tablecloth. Max looks sharp in his tailored suit, but his usual air of calm confidence is tinged with a nervous excitement that he canât quite hide. His eyes are fixed on the stage, where the host is just beginning to announce the next category: Rookie of the Year.
â... and the Rookie of the Year award goes to ... Emilia Verstappen!â
The applause is instantaneous, loud and enthusiastic, as the cameras pan across the audience. You squeeze Maxâs hand, and he turns to you, his eyes shining with pride. He doesnât say anything, but he doesnât have to â you can see everything heâs feeling written all over his face.
You both watch as Emilia makes her way to the stage, her long, dark hair cascading over her shoulders, the bright lights catching the sparkles in her gown. She moves with the grace and confidence of someone whoâs been in the spotlight her entire life, but thereâs still that youthful energy in her step, the excitement of someone just beginning to make her mark on the world.
When Emilia reaches the podium, she takes the award in her hands, the applause still roaring around her. She takes a moment to look out at the audience, her eyes searching until they find yours and Maxâs. She smiles â a smile thatâs a little bit of yours, a little bit of her biological fatherâs, and completely her own. The room gradually quiets down, and when she speaks, her voice is clear and steady, carrying through the hall.
âWow, this is ... incredible. Thank you so much to the FIA, to my team, and to everyone whoâs supported me this year. Itâs been a wild ride, and Iâm so grateful for every moment.â
She pauses, glancing down at the award in her hands, turning it over thoughtfully. âBut there are two people I need to thank more than anyone else, because without them, I wouldnât be standing here tonight.â
You feel Maxâs grip on your hand tighten just slightly, as if bracing himself for whatâs coming. Heâs always been proud of Emilia, but tonight, the emotion is running deeper than ever.
âMy parents,â Emilia continues, her voice growing softer, more heartfelt. âMama, Papa ... I owe everything to you.â
The crowd is silent now, all eyes on the young woman at the podium, the daughter of one of the greatest drivers in Formula 1 history, but tonight, itâs clear that this is Emiliaâs moment.
âMama,â Emilia says, her gaze finding you again, âyouâve been my rock, my biggest supporter, and the person whoâs always believed in me, even when I doubted myself. You taught me what it means to be strong, to never give up, and to follow my heart. I wouldnât be who I am today without you.â
A lump forms in your throat, and you feel tears welling up in your eyes. Youâve watched Emilia grow from a baby into the remarkable young woman she is today, and hearing her speak these words is almost too much to bear. You squeeze Maxâs hand again, finding comfort in his presence beside you.
âAnd Papa ...â Emiliaâs voice catches slightly, and she takes a moment to steady herself. âI know I might not look like you, but no one can deny that I drive like you. Youâve taught me everything I know about racing, but more importantly, youâve shown me what it means to be passionate, dedicated, and fearless. Iâve always wanted to make you proud, and I hope Iâve done that.â
Max canât hold back the tears any longer. He blinks rapidly, trying to keep his emotions in check, but itâs no use. His eyes are wet, his chest tight with pride and love for his daughter. He nods, his lips pressed together in a tight line, as if trying to keep himself from breaking down completely.
You lean into him, resting your head against his shoulder, and he wraps his arm around you, pulling you close. In this moment, itâs just the three of you â everything else fades away.
Emilia takes a deep breath, her gaze sweeping across the audience one last time. âIâm so lucky to have parents like you. Thank you for everything. This award is as much yours as it is mine.â
The applause that follows is deafening, the crowd rising to their feet in a standing ovation. Emilia smiles, a little shy now that the speech is over, and nods her thanks before stepping back from the podium.
As the applause continues, Max turns to you, his eyes still glistening. âSheâs incredible, isnât she?â
You nod, too emotional to speak, your heart full to bursting with love for both of them. Max leans down and presses a kiss to your forehead, a silent acknowledgment of everything youâve been through together to reach this moment.
The ceremony continues, but youâre not really paying attention anymore. Youâre too lost in your thoughts, in the warmth of Maxâs arm around you, in the overwhelming pride you feel for your daughter.
When Emilia returns to the table, the award in her hands, Max immediately pulls her into a tight hug. âIâm so proud of you,â he murmurs, his voice thick with emotion. âSo, so proud.â
Emilia hugs him back just as tightly, her eyes bright with unshed tears. âThanks, Papa,â she whispers, her voice full of love. âI couldnât have done it without you.â
They hold each other for a long moment, and you canât help but smile through your own tears. This is your family â your beautiful, wonderful, extraordinary family.
As the evening draws to a close and the final awards are handed out, you find yourself reflecting on the journey that brought you all here. It wasnât always easy, and there were times when you werenât sure how things would turn out. But standing here now, with Max and Emilia by your side, you know that every challenge, every hardship, was worth it.
As you all make your way out of the ceremony and into the cool night air, Emilia holds her award close, her eyes still shining with happiness. Max keeps his arm around you, his other hand resting on Emiliaâs shoulder, as if he canât bear to let either of you out of his reach.
When you reach the car, Max opens the door for you and Emilia, and you both slide inside. As Max takes his seat behind the wheel, he glances over at you, his expression soft and full of love.
âReady to go home?â He asks, his voice gentle.
You nod, smiling at him, your heart full. âYeah,â you reply, reaching over to take his hand. âLetâs go home.â
As Max drives through the quiet streets, Emilia leans her head against your shoulder, her award still clutched in her hands. You glance at her, at the peaceful expression on her face, and feel a surge of contentment wash over you.
This is what itâs all about, you realize. This is the life youâve built together, the family youâve created. And as you sit there, surrounded by the people you love most in the world, you know that no matter what the future holds, youâll face it together â just as you always have.
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effortlessly yours ⧠jeon jungkook
summary: in an effort to catch a break from the people around him, jungkook stumbles into a bar on the other side of town and meets youâthe one serving his drinks. things happen quite effortlessly between you and before you knew it, youâve welcomed him to change your life for the better.
⧠genre/au: banker!jk x bartender!y/n [she/her. afab]. strangers to lovers. smut.
⧠16.9k words
warnings: smut. heavy plot. oc is lowkey broke as helll and jk is lowkey a chaebol but humble fr đŠ. princess treatment. beware ocâs ex is taehyung and heâs not great. slow burn. smutâriding. missionary. oral [both receiving]. heavy make outs. heavy petting. breast play. use of protection. needy af. â jkâs friends kinda rude but also not? rich boys. financial problems. mention of economic differences. damn near love at first sight. everyoneâs an ex boyf hater. oc forced to live with ex bc of money. love at first sight? jk is whipped :(. for once heâs not a fighter, heâs just a pretty boy with money to spoil his gf <3
song inspo: wasnât looking â eliza, love between â kali uchis, blue â billie eilish, salvatoreâ lana del rey, I wanna be yours â arctic monkeys
I forgot but god bless @vngelicc for putting up with my constant plot changes and helping me out đ
Many of your nights have been spent at this small place serving drinks to the same people, engaging in the same conversation, going through the same thing. Without a fail youâve lived in this cycle of mundaneness and it drive you insane.
Nothing ever happened to you and when it did, it was never for the better. Thatâs what youâve always thought anyway.
âAny Macallan? I'll have a glass,â You stared at the stranger with a blank expression, he met you with an unwavering gaze looking every bit out of place here as you felt.
Heâs asking if you carry an expensive bottle of Bourbon that a place like this could not afford keeping in stock. If you did, no one here would want to pay the price of a glass. Compared to the regulars around the bar he clearly stood out to everyone. The college guys who lived a couple blocks down looked at him just as strangely as the two office workers down the bar did.
âWeâve got Buchannanâs,â You said plainly, taking his attention away from the aged jukebox in the corner that now had a big screen attached to it. It was your typical bar with its dark countertops, pool tables, darts, et cetera. It was the first place he could find on this side of townâclearly not a place of luxury.
âIâll take it,â He tried to sound happy about it, biting down at his bottom lip as his phone screen lit up with notifications. He had nearly a dozen texts from close friends asking him what his plans were for tonight but he didnât want to talk right now and theyâd want to know why.
Soon you had his glass of whiskey in front of him and he was opening a tab while you helped others. You didnât think much about the man aside from how attractive he looked. Many stragglers found their way here but after one night theyâd return to wherever theyâre from and never look back.
âYou drink that expensive whiskey because you like it or because you can afford it?â
An older man spoke up from across the bar, looking at the stranger with a mixture of curiosity and suspicion. Heâs one of those guys that gets a few drinks in him and either wants to spark conversation or a fight. Part of you paid attention to the conversation, part of you looked at the line of messages on your phone.
âIâm sorry?â The guy from earlier asked seemingly unimpressed by the attempt to get to him. The older man was dressed in a dirty t-shirt and flannel while he wore some expensive suit like heâd just gotten off work.
âOr is it to impress?â
âImpress who?â A light scoff left his lips, looking around the bar, eyes hesitating on you for a moment. Aside from you there were a few others who might catch his eye but not enough for him to point out or feel the need to impress.
You werenât even looking at anyone or him for that matter, your attention was solely on your cell phone and by the look on your face, whatever was on there was more important. Your bottom lip was caught between your teeth and your brows began to furrow with concentration as you tried to make sense of what you were seeing.
unknown: can we talk when ur done working?
unknown: itâs about us
What?
âY/n maybe? I doubt any of us are your typeââ
What? You looked up immediately at the call of your name, ready to make someone another cocktail or close someoneâs tab. Instead you were called in the middle of a conversation that you wanted no part of.
âAnother beer?â You tried to cut in and shut the regular up but it was a useless attempt because everyone around the bar was already staring at youâincluding the stranger. How did you miss whatever they were talking about? You were too focused on the texts from a certain someone that you had lost attention to people at the bar.
âWhat is your name anyway? Iâve never seen you here before,â The customer told him, ignoring you and trying to push for more talk. You just sighed and leaned back thinking back to your phone.
âJeon Jungkook,â He said in his usual confident manner, gaze flickering to you for a moment but you were distracted once more, this time typing rapidly. You were pretty, too pretty to be serving these guys on a Tuesday night.
Another man appeared from behind a door holding more bottles of liquor. He looked indifferent to whatever was going on out here but when he looked at you, you said something. Jungkook was more interested to hear what that was than whatever the people around him had to say.
The two of you talked for a while and he distracted himself with his phone.
hobi: doubles tomorrow with jimin and jin? đž
jungkook: I couldnât think of anything worse
jimin: watch urself
jin: and whereâd u run off to tonight
Your coworker, Yoongi, looked at you with concerned eyes. Youâve known each other long enough to know when somethings wrong and Yoongi was able to tell so fast, âIf you need to make a call just go, Iâll take over for now.â
His friend asked the question heâs been trying to ask himself all night. Howâd he find himself here on the other side of the city with the only people to entertain him being drunks and⌠you?
âIs he always like this?â Jungkook found himself asking now that the man from earlier had moved on to someone else to bother. You looked ready to run out but stopped to look at him. Yoongi was giving you time to sort whatever problem you had at the moment but now a customer was talking to you.
You shrugged, âYeah but heâs harmless, a little annoying but funny.â
jungkook: some bar but Iâm leaving soon
Jungkook looked at you up close now. You wore all black, somewhere between casual but dressed up enough. From what he can tell youâre pretty, like an effortless kind of pretty. You barely cared to engage with him, completely unaware of how he looked you over.
âCan I close my tab?â He asked as he fished for his wallet.
âNo problem, remind me the name,â Yoongi came up from behind you, hand on your back urging you to go and heâll take care of it. Jungkook looked at him with disinterest as you ran off in a hurry and sighed, âJeon Jungkook.â
jungkook: itâs boring
The place he called home was about thirty minutes away from the bar he visited a few nights ago. He lived on the upper side of the city where buildings towered sky high and rent was at high rates, lavish nightlife and lounge rooms he could spend all night in drinking with his friends. Thatâs why it baffled him to sit somewhere like the place heâd gone to and feel so comfortable. It felt secretive, a mutual understanding of where one goes when they want to be alone and have a drinkâno matter how bad it is. He wouldnât have been able to do that around here without running into someone.
âHave you decided who your date will be?â
No, he had not. In fact it was the last thing on his mind and something Jungkook would prefer to fully ignore. Itâs all heâs heard about for the past month and he doesnât think he can go any longer talking about it. A date to a charity event hosted by his parents was too overwhelming of a task. They have to be polite, well maintenanced, proper, et cetera. Heâs sure he can call up whatever woman heâd taken on a date these last couple of years but not a single one did he find⌠good enough? Terrible phrasing but the truth.
âHave you?â Jungkook asked one of his close friends, Hoseok, as the two sat in his office wasting time before they could be done for the day. His office sat on one of the top floors of a national banking center just a few minutes from where he resided. He sat behind his black oak wood desk spinning a pointed leather opener against his notepad creating a small dent in it.
âObviously,â Hobi rolled his eyes playfully, making Jungkook look at him seriously. âWill she be as embarrassing as the one last time?â
âI hope not, last yearâs date was a total mess. I couldn't look your parents in the eye for three months,â He said back, sitting down on the black leather daybed just a few feet away from Jungkook. The office was big with tall bookshelves and floor to ceiling windows overlooking skyscrapers and the Han River not too far behind. There was a desktop with two monitors along with a laptop and television, a closet and storage roomâeven a few dumbbells and a treadmill in the corner. âDo you know how hard that is when your fatherâs the CFO of the company I work for?!â
âI couldnât imagine the difficulty of that,â Jungkook couldnât help but chuckle knowing firsthand how his dad can be when he feels disrespectedâespecially in front of the press while hosting an important, annual event.
âIâve got dinner with the girl tonight, sheâs been telling me about this friend whoâs been dying to meet you,â Hoseok said with raised brows, âSheâs pretty hot.â
âWho? The girl or her friend?â Jungkook asked, typing away on his desktop, searching for the bar heâd visited the other night. There was very little overview about the place, but he didnât expect much anyway. It looked like it brought a decent amount of business to get by but nothing more than that. You mustâve been local to the area or why would you be working there? Hell, for how little you seemed interested in him, he couldnât stop thinking about you. What was it that got his attention?
âBoth,â Hoseok said in response.
Jungkook let out a small sigh watching the time pass by, âIâll think about it.â
It was unlikely he ever would, he thought, attempting to focus back on his friend and who he was talking about. As arrogant as it might sound, thereâs always someone dying to meet him. Usually it never works out and instead itâs used as a bragging right that they were taken out by him. He would like to meet someone organically, nothing forced or ingenuine. Someone he runs into and charms them without his reputation involved. How could he meet someone like that?
There was moisture lingering in the air as you left the small cafe you worked at during the week. It was midday and you wouldnât have to be at work again till later tonight so the only thing on your mind was a good sleep.
You barely made it onto the bus when your phone began to ring and you put on your headphones to answer, âHello?â
âGreat, youâre alive. I was getting paranoid after the third ring,â Your friend said immediately once the call connected, âAre you off!â
âYeah, until tonight,â You told her, staring out the foggy window of the overcrowded midday bus.
âIs Taehyung home? You want to come to mine instead?â Yeaun asked, sounding concerned but you just shook your head no even if she couldnât see it.
âItâs alright, heâs not home anyway,â You said to her with a sigh, âI live there too and if heâs going to make a problem or it then maybe he should move out sooner.â
Yeaun was quiet for a moment, not sure if you were being serious or not. Or course itâs not the first time you and your âboyfriendâex boyfriendâboyfriendâ break it off suddenly but this is different. You live with each other now and have for a few months. Why would Taehyung ask you to find a place with him if he was going to end it a few months into the lease? What an asshole.
âAlright, well Iâll talk to you later, maybe Iâll stop by the bar and catch up,â Yeaun finally said to which you mumbled back your response and ended the call.
You arrived at an empty apartment with a stack of blankets and pillows on the couch and a large bed with one person claiming it now. You tucked yourself into bed hoping that you ex boyfriend wonât be home when you wake up.
By the time the sun set and the only plan Jungkook had was to go home, he began to think about the place he visited a few days ago. There was nothing special about it but it was somewhat comfortingâeven with some of the elderly regulars getting on his case, he kind of liked it. It was amusing and harmless banter that he could put up with for some time alone. When he was off and his friend asked him to go out for dinner, Jungkook turned him down to drive across town on his own.
Like last time, the same people sat around the bar but a few new faces took up some of the tables scattered around. You stood behind the counter indulging in conversation with the bartender next to you and Jungkook found himself sitting at the corner of the bar top and away from the loudness.
âI see they didnât scare you off,â You said once you spotted him alone. Thereâs not many new people coming by, especially ones that looked like him so he was easy to remember. He looked at you with rounded, curious eyes and shook his head, âNot yet.â
You asked if he wanted the same as last time and once he said yes, you were turning your back to him. Heâs going to be honest⌠he couldnât help but stare a little longer this time. You wore a short black skirt with dark stockings and a fitted tee making you seem casual and comfortable but at the same time he thought you were pretty. He couldnât tell if you were into makeup or not but he assumed youâd be attractive either way. Last time you seemed glum, but tonight you were smiling.
âAm I that forgettable?â Jungkook asked when you made your way back to his side, he nodded toward the old man who bothered him last time and how he barely acknowledged him today. He wonders if he asked because he cared or because he wanted to have something to say. There was nothing better going on and unlike before, tonight he's up for talkingâto you.
âNo, heâs just a Drunk,â You whispered jokingly, moving just a little closer his way. To be honest, he nearly forgot all about you. The two of you had such a small interaction days ago that his life just got in the way. It felt meaningless and like it was never going to happen again but here he is, finding comfort at the little bar you worked at. He couldnât help but be entertained by it.
âI asked my boss about the bottle you wanted last time and he said we canât afford it for just one person, so youâre out of luck if you start stopping by more often,â You said casually, looking indifferent but he caught a glimmer of curiosity in your gaze.
âIâll have to bring you some then,â Jungkook sat up straighter, âGive you a little taste.â
âIâm not into whiskey,â You gave him a small shrug, âI prefer the drinks where I canât taste the alcohol.â
That made him laugh a little harder than he needed to, âY/n, right? I think I remember hearing one of them say it.â
Your only form of response was a nod of your head but he didnât mind the lack of enthusiasm. Thereâs something about the way you seem reserved but not scared to talk back to him sort of draws him in. You looked at each other with the same intensity and he wanted to see how long it could go.
âY/n.â
You rushed away from him finding whoever needed help and he thought of what to say.
âSo how many nights do you spend working here?â He asked once you came by him again. So far both nights he stumbled into this place youâve been behind the counter with a blasè look to your eyes. It was a shame considering how pretty you were for you to be stuck behind a counter getting stressed over who knows what.
âPractically all of them,â You sighed leaning against the counter.
Jeon Jungkook doesnât care for meaningless conversation ike this. It was such a waste of time and he always found himself struggling for what to say.
âSo what happened the other night?â He blurted out before he could think clearly. He blames it on the whiskey for sounding so blunt as it rushed to his face. You couldnât read him as easily as he thought and tried to figure out what he was asking about. The other night?
Oh.
âNothing too concerning,â You brushed off your breakup with Taehyung hoping he knew nothing. The situation with Taehyung was not someone you wanted everyone to know aboutâespecially not a stranger. It was embarrassing to admit you were still living with your cheating on and off ex boyfriend because itâs better than sleeping outside.
âAnd here I was hoping for a story time,â Jungkook muttered under his breath, checking his phone and the dozen messages and missed calls. Like earlier, you left him to help someone else and this time instead of him trying to find something to say it was you.
âIf you start visiting more regularly maybe Iâll fill you in,â You said half-heartedly.
Youâve always thoughtâhopedâthat home is where the heart would be. You should live in a place that doesnât give you anxiety or depression. Living in this apartment with your ex boyfriends gives you both. When he was home youâd avoid leaving your bedroom at all and when heâs gone youâre worried about the time heâd get home.
You werenât scared of him, but you hated him.
The two of you have broken up so many times at this point itâs embarrassing to admit how he has you now. After cheating on you and treating you like shit, you still moved in with him just those few months ago and now youâre paying for it.
âAre you going to work?â He asked curiously as you came out of your now solo bedroom. Taehyung was gentleman enough to sleep on the couch but apparently not enough to keep it in his pants.
âNo,â You answered shortly as you slipped your shoes on. For some reason he thinks youâll forgive him soon. Heâs been trying to talk to you about it since the morning after he bothered you at work but you werenât listening. How could he do something on impulse and expect you to let it go?
Are all men this stupid? Most? Oh, definitely, but surely not all? Who would want to be on good terms with a cheating ex so recent after the breakup?
âWhat are you gonna do then?â
What he really meant was, âWhere were you going and who with?â
âNothing,â you closed the door after yourself, choosing to shut him out rather than tell him anything. He didnât need to know your whereabouts. For once you werenât going to be at work and although you didnât have big plans for your free night, you werenât going to tell him or worseâspend it locked up in your room that still had his belongings.
You settled into place at your best friendâs place, filling her in on whatâs been exciting or lack thereof.
âNot to feed the delusions but what if heâs stopping to see you?â Yeaun asked as you sat on her couch watching her look through her vinyls for something to play. After a while of telling her boringly endless tales of your life you came to the topic you were currently discussing.
Jeon Jungkookâthe irregular-regular whoâs begun to frequent the bar lately. Jungkook has been coming by for a few weeks now and although theyâre always small interactions with him they leave an impression on you. Heâs not like the usual guys who go there for a drinkâor anything like the ones when you go out with your friends. Every now and then you wonder if heâs catching a flirty tone with you or not but then you think harder and tell yourself; not likely.
Itâs too unbelievable,â You rejected the idea immediately even if it hurt you to do so, you had to be realistic, âHe probably has a girlfriend or wife or someone, I donât know.â
Call it a crush, whatever, nothing would ever come of it and you told your friends the same, âEither way Iâm done with men, theyâre all shitty.â
Yeaun shrugged, no longer pushing the idea of Jungkook. You havenât told her anything that made it seem like Jungkook had any interest in you at all so really she was just wishfully thinking. You know very little about the man aside from what the two of you have gone over but itâs enough for you to know it would never happen.
Youâre not crazy enough to believe otherwise.
Jungkook spent most of his day dreading for him to leave work and get ready for a dinner plan that was arranged for him. In all honesty, he practically disassociated himself from it the second he heard the tone the woman spoke in. Why did he let Hoseok talk him into doing this?
For nearly an hour heâs had to hear this woman compliment him on everything under the sun. Sure he was flattered but so? Did he really need to hear about himself from someone else? She didnât seem like a bad girl but she knew too much about him that he never told her. She was too in his space and not understanding to slow down.
âIâm happy our schedules aligned to be able to meet like this,â She said as she picked at her salad, âI know youâre very busy.â
âIâm pleased too,â Jungkook raised his glass of wine to his lips, searching around the restaurant for a clock. Jiwon was a sweet girl but he wasnât interested for some reason. She was attractive like Hoseok said but heâs not sure what is but thereâs something that seems to draw him away from her.
By the time the bill came and she pretended to look through her mini bag for her wallet, Jungkook was ready to call it a night. He never expected someone with him to pay but something just drew him back⌠seriously what was it? She waited outside with him in hopes of knowing if their night would continue from here or not but Jungkook couldnât wait to be done. He probably seemed rude with how he brushed her off and directed her into a cab, paying her fare with a lie that heâd see her again, but he couldnât think of that right now.
It was taxing to meet new people and try to feel anything romantic toward them. Jimin is looking out for Jungkook and heâs well aware of that but Jungkook does not want something forced. Heâs not asking for birds chirping and bells chiming but give him something thatâll make him feel things.
When he was alone in his car he found himself taking a familiar route in the opposite direction of his house. Heâd left his date with Jiwon and for some reason was heading toward the bar heâs been going to lately. It took him a while to realize where he was going and about a block away he stopped to think.
What was he doing here? He could find any shitty bar where he knew his friends would never go and be just fine. He could be out with his friends or maybe getting to know Jiwon more in hopes of something blooming but instead he was going out alone. It was a bad idea to make this a regular thing. People he knows will begin to question where he goes and invade his privacy, he just knows it.
With a deep sigh he turned the engine off looking up at the brightly lit building in front of him. It was a small convenience store and deciding to not make his drive all the way over here pointless, he went inside.
He is starting to believe the universe in playing a trick on him. Whenever heâs gone to the bar youâve been working at and tonight he decided not to go⌠bummed that he wouldnât see you but clearly the universe had plans that couldnât get changed. Instead of serving two drinks to customers, youâre walking down a refrigerated section of cheap flower bouquets. Itâs like he was going to run into you tonight one way or the other. Just because he wasnât going the bar after all didnât mean he could escape you as easily. It was crazy.
You hadnât yet spotted him as you opened the door to grab one of the cheapest bouquet of orchids you could find. It wasnât until you were ready to walk back down that you saw him looking a little too interested in the small pints of ice cream. There were two options you could do, One: pretend you donât know him and head to the counter or Two: acknowledge him? What if he was the kind of person that didnât like being approached? It would be embarrassing for you.
âNo work tonight?â
You stopped in your tracks, ready to walk past him when he spoke up. You looked around shyly, âNot tonight, Is that where youâre headed now?â
âOriginally yeah, but good thing I changed my mind. You wouldnât have been there,â Jungkook said, glancing down at the small shopping basket in your hands. He missed the way your face flushed at the comment, unsure if he meant it flirtatiously or not.
You had the small orchids, a couple ramens and drinks in the basket that made him smile just a little, âIâm assuming you live around here?â
âI wouldnât be working here if I didnât,â You say lightly, a smile playing on your face when you saw his, and glanced down at your basket with embarrassment. All Jungkook had in his hand was a single bottle of wine that he grabbed so he wouldnât look strange approaching you, âDo you live around here too?â
âNo, I uh, Iâm kind of far actually,â He scratched the back of his head nervously, âBut, I was doing some work over here.â
His face tensed at the way he must have sounded lying to you. It wouldnât have been a good look for him if he said he went on a blind date with someone his best friend set him up with but raced here right after. It feels like the conversation shouldnât end yet but he doesnât know how to make it go on. Usually heâs able to tell what he should say to get someoneâs attention on him for longer but he doesnât know with you.
After a while, you began walking toward the register with Jungkook not far behind and you tried to act normal when you set your things down to be checked out.
Please, donât decline, you thought as you tapped your card to pay. When you were done and hesitating to leave or not, Jungkook spoke up again, âWhen do you work next?â
âWhy? So youâll visit me?â You asked him with a little more enthusiasm. Maybe you were overthinking it but was there a chance that he wanted to talk to you too? It felt like he asked you something so you wouldnât rush off before he was done paying.
He smiled, pleased to have you respond the way he wanted and he grabbed his things off the counter and turned to walk with you. You held your bag in one hand and your cellphone and wallet in the other and it was hard to miss the way your screen lit up with a phone call. You ignored the ringing but Jungkook was distracted now, âDo you need to take that?â
He held the door open for you wondering if it was your boyfriend or not and if he was just wasting his time. You shook your head, âIt's no one important.â
âSo youâre not seeing anyone?â Jungkook found himself asking, too impatient to beat around the bush any longer, âOr would you like to see me this weekendâor when youâre freeâ over drinks?â
You didnât say anything for a moment, staring up at the handsome man in front of you with a baited breath. Jungkook was attractive, very attractive but did you need to be seeing anyone right now? Sure, itâs been a couple weeks since you and Taehyung fell off but you still live together. If he found out he would lose his shit⌠but at the same timeâŚ
Jungkook was intriguing and charming and so attractive you couldnât wrap your mind around anything else.
âIâm free this upcoming Sunday.â
Before you split ways, you made sure to exchange information and you were practically rushing to tell your best friend.
jungkook: next time we should have stuck around and talked longer
When Sunday evening rolled in, Jungkook wore one of his black Prada shirts and black jeans. He tried dressing casual but this was as casual as he could go for seeing you out on a night like this.
âI could meet you halfway,â Jungkook insisted on the phone as he stood outside your building. It was a rundown apartment complex just like all the others in the area and even he felt unsafe, he canât imagine how you feel every night. Okay, maybe heâs not used to anything outside of the private, gated community he grew up with.
âItâs fine, Iâll be down in a second,â You practically whispered as you hurried to hang up. With a final spritz of perfume, you left your bedroom as quiet as possible but it was no use. Taehyung sat there watching you.
âIâll be back late so donât wait up,â You practically grumbled as you went to put on your heels.
âSince when do you dress like that?â Taehyung asked with a slight scoff. Unlike your usual attire of baggy pants, sweaters, tees and the occasional skirt, tonight you wore a short, satin pink dress with heels to match. You looked pretty and it annoyed him because he knew why.
âSince I stopped being with you,â You told him, fishing for your key before closing the door on him like last time.
It took a lot of convincing on Jungkookâs part to let you let him pick you up and you had many reasons why. One, you didnât want him to run into Taehyung or feel awkward. Two, you didnât want him to drive all the way here if youâd most likely be in the inner city which was on the other side of town. And three, you were slightly embarrassed at your housing complex. Youâve seen Jungkookâs dress attire and the expensive watches, chains, drinking preferences he wears. Heâs got money while youâve got two jobs still struggling to pay your half of the rent on top of all the debt tied to your name.
âWell donât you look stunning,â Jungkook said with a nervous chuckle as you approached him, eyeing his all black Porsche and how perfectly it matched him. The silk of your dress felt soft against his touch when you hugged him politely in greeting. You were slightly flushed by his comment and let him lead you to the passengerâs side.
âWere you waiting long?â You asked when he got into the driverâs side, looking you over one more time before starting the car.
âA l-little,â Jungkook couldnât help but feel flustered as you turned your body enough to look at him better. Your dress rode up on your thigh and he tried to focus on the road, âBut itâs my fault for being impatient. Next time Iâll give you all the time in the world if I get to see this pretty view.â
To be clear Jungkook has always thought you were attractive but this was different. This wasnât just him finding the bartender serving him drinks hot or the woman at the convenience store pretty. This was you dressing up for him in a pretty color while sitting pretty in his car and looking at him with your pretty eyes.
âNext time?â You laughed softly, sitting upright and trying not to seem affected, âDonât make promises just yet. You might not be able to keep them.â
âI always keep my promises,â Jungkook said, diving over the small bridge that separated your neighborhood from the rest of the city.
You went quiet after that, looking out the window curiously. Usually you stick to your area, the bus fare to go shopping downtown or eat at a fancy restaurant wouldnât be too bad but the time. On the bus it would be at least an hour long drive full of stops everywhere in between and you didnât have the time to make it a round day trip. It was nice seeing all the city lights when most of your neighborhood is dark aside from the occasional street lamp.
You were pleasantly surprised when he pulled the car in front of a large building and a valet came to the doors, directing you both out of the car. Jungkook instructed the valet on something you didnât care to hear as you looked around. It was obviously a hotel but with a large restaurant inside.
âReady?â Jungkook asked, suddenly at your side with a soft hand on your waist and you let him lead you in.
You felt oddly out of place when you looked around at everyone else but Jungkook didnât seem to care. He was significantly underdressed but that didnât stop him from pulling attention without meaning to and it made you slightly more comfortable. The restaurant sat on the top floor of a large hotel with a beautiful view of the city and amazing interior as well, âDo you like this place?â
âI have never been here before,â Jungkook admitted as he helped pull your chair, âIâll give you an answer after dinner.â
âYouâll decide once youâve gotten food?â You asked playfully but he just shook his head. âIâll decide when you do.â
You werenât sure how to respond but something about the way he looked at you told you he was being serious. Has he always been this forward? You didnât think so. Usually he asked you a couple things and that was it. Or maybe you didnât think there was any more to it. Sure, sometimes youâd catch him looking from across the bar but you always assumed he just needed something. When he asked you out the other night you assumed it was on a whim but now youâre not so sure.
It was far from a problem but you werenât sure how to take it. Something tells you Jungkook comes from a different world than you do. When the server came you ordered a drink and tried to focus on the menu. All the prices were high and you couldnât find anything in your normal price range. There were a lot of good options but what were you willing to choose?
âSo, when you think of an ideal type, who comes to mind?â Jungkook asked, picking around his plate. The two of you had talked about practically everything you could on a first date. He was a couple years older than you, worked at a banking firm, lived in the upper east luxury apartments, studied abroad, et cetera. He learned that you have two jobs and dropped out of school because it was too expensive and honestlyâŚyou thought you lost him then. You thought he was unimpressed and no longer interested judging by the look of disappointment in his face but then he asks you what your ideal type is?
âHm, I donât know,â You started awkwardly, feeling his gaze shift toward you and looked you in the eye waiting, âWell I would want someone honest⌠and loyal buââ
You stopped yourself feeling embarrassment edge on, it was ironic of you to say that was your type when clearly the past men youâve been with have been anything but. A light scoff left your lips as you laughed a little, âI donât know.â
âThatâs it? Shouldnât that be expected?â Jungkook asked. He was very loyal to his partners in the past but those relationships have long since been over and hold no meaning to him. He didnât even think he wanted to dateâconsidering how bored he was when the Jimin set him onâbut here he was having the time of life trying to get to know you.
âAlright, well what about you? Maybe I need an example answer,â You joked, trying to shift the attention off you but Jungkook didnât hesitate.
âI want someone I can relax around?â Jungkook was honest, âSomeone I want to introduce to people close to me and someone that makes me think about them all day.â
âHow do you decide who that person is?â You asked, moving your hair off your shoulder as you ate.
Jungkook smiled, âI donât know. I just feel it.â
You talked about random things here and there. He explained what exactly he did at the banking firm and you told him your aspirations to be a hair stylist when you were younger. He asked why you never pursued it and you told him financial issues which made the conversation slightly awkward but it never ended.
By the time you finished and Jungkook footed the rather expensive bill, you rode down the elevator peacefully and walked out the building. Once the valet brought the car back around, you were less nervous to be riding in it than earlier and sat comfortably.
âI hope you donât mind but I got you something,â Jungkook said once he was seated, âI wanted to wait till after dinner and then I forgot it.â
He reached under his seat where he had placed a small box earlier. You sat beside him watching him feel around for it, âOh you didnât have toââ
âI wanted to,â Jungkook said, placing a small box on your lap as he drove onto the street, âThink of it as a thank you for coming out with me tonight.â
âItâs nice but⌠isnât it too much?â You swallowed dryly, looking at the simple Cartier bracelet, scared to even touch it, âI don't know what to say, thank you?â
âDonât think about it, I just⌠I liked it and I wanted to gift you something,â Jungkook said honestly. He liked giving gifts and yesterday he was shopping for a new watch with Jin and he ended up finding the bracelet instead. For some reason he thought of you and before he could stop himself he bought it. It was one of the simple ones, not that expensive at all so he hopes you donât think heâs stingy with money or anything. Heâll get you something better the next time you see each other. He cleared his throat awkwardly, âDo you need help getting it on?â
You nodded shyly, unsure if you should take the gift but would it be rude to turn it down? What did he expect you to do after? You donât mean to compare but Taehyung would never give you something like this. The most he spent on you is when he helped you get a new flatscreen but even then he only paid for half of it. When the car stopped at a red light, he quickly shifted in his seat to reach you better. With a hand around your wrist he pulled you forward as he helped you with the clasp. He was quite particular with how it looked on you and made sure the pearl motif sat at the center of your wrist.
It didnât go unnoticed how he held your hand now as the light turned green. You didnât pull back and let his thumb graze over your soft knuckles, âPretty.â
Confusion rendered you silent on the ride back. Itâs not that you were ungrateful but you were skeptical. Youâve never met let alone gone out with a man like him and you had no idea what to make of this gift. Was he seriously giving it to you or did you have to do something to earn it? Was he interested in you or just bored? Would a man like him just give someone a thousand dollar bracelet for no reason?
âYou can just park right here,â You mumbled quietly as you pointed to a spot in front of your building. He opened your door for you and looked up at the building. Earlier he missed how the street lamp flickered giving everything a ghostly shadow. You let him walk you up feeling slightly embarrassed by the appearance of the staircase and hall but he didnât seem to mind.
âThanks for everything, seriously,â You said as you stood at your front door. At some point his hand had found its way to yours again and was softly running his thumb against your knuckles, âAre you sure about the gift?â
âI donât accept gifts back,â Jungkook laughed softly, âBesides, it looks better on you than it would me. Iâm showing my gratitude for having you out tonight. I enjoy your company.â
âGood, I like talking to you too,â you smiled warmly and he couldnât help but mirror it.
âSo when can we go out again? Whatâs your schedule like this week?â Jungkook asked hopefully.
âSo youâll visit me or take me out?â You asked playfully, more forward than earlier and his smile grew.
âBoth, perhaps?â He asked.
Now, you donât usually do anything on the first date. There was a big âIfâ about the possibly of going out with the person again but Jungkook has been better than you couldâve imagined. It doesnât make sense why heâs single and interested in you of all people.
Before you could think of what to do, he was moving closer. His touch was soft but there was no denying the way his hand wandered up to your waist, pulling you into him gently. You wrapped an arm around his neck before you could overthink it and leaned onto your tiptoes. Jungkook smiled, his other hand cupping your chin and tilting your face up. His lips brushed against yours teasingly, taking a moment before pressing them together in a first kiss.
You both were nervous at first but it was like something inside you came to life and you kissed him with more intent. Jungkook welcomed it, smiling a little into the kiss as he pulled back to catch his breath.
âI should go inside,â You giggled softly, turning away feeling flustered.
A small sigh left his lips, holding you close to him, âIâll call you.â
It took less than a week for Jungkook to reveal to his close friends who the mysterious person heâs been seeing was. He was not trying to keep you a secret at all but there was only so much he wanted to say to them all and it was the basics. You were a just nice girl heâs met and went on a date with, but even that was enough for all the interrogations to arise.
âSo how far did you guys go?â Hoseok and his hyper sexual mind felt the need to ask, âOr were you a true gentleman and settled for a hug?â
âWe kissed,â Jungkook said, licking his lips at the memory, dealing his own cards for their next round of poker, âIâm taking it slow as of now.â
âWhyâs that? The gala is not too far, shouldnât you be focused on who is attending with you?â Namjoon asked, ashing his cigarette in the tray to the left of him. Jungkook ignored half of what his friend said as he readied to play.
âY/n seems very different from me and I just donât want to scare her off just yet,â Jungkook said honestly, thinking back to your reaction when he gave you the bracelet. He, of course, never assumed you came from much money especially considering he knew where you worked and lived but it wasnât a problem to him. He was more worried if youâd manage in his life with the people heâs close to. Itâs something he often wonders when the possibility of a relationship comes to mind but usually this is weeks into dating. The two of you have barely gone on one date and for some reason heâs already envisioning the future and what it could look like.
âHoly shit, thatâs like a thousand bucks,â Yeaun looked over the bracelet, âAnd he just gave it to you? Where can I find a guy like that?â
âI guess,â You said, shifting your eyes to Yoongi as if he had the answers. The two of you stood behind the bar while Yeaun sat at the counter. It was early in the evening and youâve been since 2:00pm and ready for your shift to end. Your friendâs been here âstudyingâ for over an hour but sheâs been too distracted listening to your date stories. The bar was empty aside from a couple stragglers who got off work early but nothing crazy and it put you at ease.
âDoes he know about Taehyung?â Yoongi asked curiously.
âNo, it was a first date. I didn't think I had to dish out all my problems so soon and scare him off,â You joked as you looked down at the bracelet, âBesides, who knows how long this will last.â
âHave you talked since then?â Yeaun asked, leaning against the counter with interest.
âA little, yeah. He works at a bank so heâs got long hours at the office so I donât really expect him to reach out to me much,â You told them honestly, âAnd who knows, it mightâve just been a one time thing.â
You shrugged it off like it wasnât a big deal but part of you wondered if heâd reach out for another date or not. He said he would but who knows. People make promises all the time.
âUgh, but he sounds like a dreamâa dream with money,â Yeaun pretended to swoon as she gathered her things and stuffed them into her book bag, âAlright, Iâve gotta go home and study, keep me updated though. Bye guys.â
You waved her off and turned to Yoongi as he polished some glasses. He gave you a small sigh, âI like the guy, he always tips well.â
As your shift came to an end and you left Yoongi to deal with the night people, you got on the bus to take your usual route home.
jungkook: will you be working tonight?
you: I just got off actually
jungkook: I wanted to see you :(
You read the message at least three times unable to think of a response.
jungkook: have you eaten? shall we get dinner?
Just as you hurried to type, your phone began to ring and a smile came to his face, âYou really are impatient, giving me no time to answer.â
Jungkook smiled as he drove over the familiar bridge that closed the gap between you, âSorry, Iâm not used to waiting. What are you doing then?â
âIâm on the bus, a couple stops away from home,â You told him looking at the passing buildings and the way the sun had fully set now, âWhat time do you want to meet for dinner?â
âNow?â Jungkook asked, âIâm not too far from your place, Iâll waitâor better yet whatâs the next stop and Iâll meet you.â
Jungkookâs Porsche looked strange parking at The bus stop waiting for you and you felt slightly embarrassed by your appearance. Compared to last time you were nowhere near as out together and it was clearly evident youâve just gotten off work. Jungkook was in his office attire but he still managed to look good.
âIf you had given me a little more time I wouldâve gotten dressed up for you,â You said light heartedly as he greeted you with a hug and kiss on your cheek.
âBut I like seeing you like this too, reminds me of that black skirt you wore the first night I met you,â Jungkook said, taking your hand in his, âSo whereâs the restaurant you were talking about?â
Something has begun to really sprout between the two of you. Part of it still feels superficial to an extent but thatâs how itâs supposed to feel. Youâre not supposed to jump into anything so fastâŚ
Yes, youâve been meeting up a lot more regularly but you still keep each other at a distance. When you meet itâs usually out and tonight Jungkook wanted to be somewhere comfortable with you. He understood you got off work at the bar late and the last thing you wanted to do was go out so he opted for another way he could see you.
âCan I come over instead?â He asked as he sat at the bar one night. It was late, Yoongi had shut the music off and the lights turned on giving everyone a hint that it was closing time. Jungkook had arrived a couple hours before midnight to keep you company. Now that youâre closing he knows thereâs a chance the night would come to an end soon and itâs the last thing he wanted. He had a stressful day at work that involved a meeting with the CFOâhis father, about some reports. It spiraled into a conversation about the gala and who he thinks Jungkook should go with.
He had wanted to tell his father then that he wasnât interested in being set up on a date because he had you but he struggled saying it. He doesnât know where the two of you stand but he wants to figure it out. Jungkook watched you wipe the counters as Yoongi counted registers and he even helped wipe down a few chairs for you as he waited for a response. If the people at the office or his friends saw him cleaning up after strangers theyâd laugh in surprise. He wasnât the type to get his hands dirty and thatâs exactly what heâs doing just to be with you.
Usually you always changed the subject when he asked, or hinted at him to go somewhere else instead but it was so late nothing would be open. Taehyung would be asleep if he was home but that was very unlikely. It was the weekend and he was most likely with his friends getting drunk somewhere and looking for an after party. Thereâs a chance he wouldnât come home at all so what excuse did you have to turn Jungkook down?
In the end, you gave in and once the bar was closed, Jungkook drove straight to your apartment. He climbed up the familiar stairs, walked down the familiar aisle and stood behind you as you unlocked the door, warning him about a possible mess. Now, you werenât cruel. Jungkook wasnât walking in completely blindsided by the idea that you had a roommate but you werenât totally up front with him. He knew your roommate was a guy but he wasnât so sure about the relationship between you two.
Taehyung was half-asleep on the couch and Jungkook looked at him with furrowed brows as he followed into your room. You sighed, âSorry, my roommateâs here.â
âItâs fine,â Jungkook said with a shrug as he began to unbutton the cuff of his shirt so he could roll the sleeves up, âHow do you know him again?â
He wanted to ask more but he had to be patient.
âDo you want me to be honest?â You asked nervously but he nodded his head and waited.
âHeâs my ex boyfriend. Thereâs still over six months on our lease but weâve been broken up for⌠I think as long as Iâve known you now. Weâre stuck living together until the lease is up,â You confessed in a single breath, âHe sleeps on the couch now.â
âYour ex boyfriend?â Jungkook looked at the closed door, imagining the man who slept on the other side of it and his chest tightened. Why didnât he just move out or why didnât you? Was it a money issue, no one to let you crash out their place?
âYeah but donât worry, we donât talk at all,â You tried to reassure him but you could tell he was too busy in his head, âWhat are you thinking?â
âIs this you?â He asked, holding up a picture frame in hands and staring at who appeared to be you but years younger. A small smile played on his lips that made you feel flustered as you took the frame from him, âYes, donât look at it. I was in a phase.â
âI can tell,â he joked playfully, looking around for something new to take his attention. Admittedly your place was small and it seemed like you had everything that expressed you shoved into your small bedroom. He understood you lived with someone else but is that what itâs like? What in this room belonged to Taehyung? You once shared it so there had to be something and that didnât sit right with him. He had no need to get jealous but it made his throat dry to think about.
âWhat? You didnât have something you were obsessed with growing up?â You asked, sitting against your row of pillows as he took a seat on your armchair. There was a vase of orchids on your vanity and books surrounding him as he stayed back.
âI was hyper fixated on water polo as a kid,â He confessed randomly, âBut then there was an accident with my horse and I couldnât do it anymore.â
âWait, thatâs kind of sad,â You sat straighter, âBut water polo?â
âYeah, I switched to rowing and tennis when I was in college,â Jungkook said, and you looked at him curiously. Even in his business attire you can tell he had a lean, muscular body and you couldnât help but stare. With an awkward clear of your throat you looked away, âWould you like a drink?â
âI canât, I have to make it home tonight,â Jungkook said with a sigh as he stared out the window to his side. It was late and he wanted to spend more alone time with you but he probably couldnât.
âAlready?â You asked patting the left side of your bed as if calling for him. He looked between you and the spot, heart beating fast and he thought about it.
âOh, if you insist,â He watched the way you rolled your eyes playfully, and laid back in your bed a little more, âYou know, for some reason Iâm comfortable around you even though we still donât know each other that well. I think you did something to me.â
âLike?â You asked with a hint of amusement.
âYouâre easy to talk to and Iâm not used to that,â Jungkook said, noticing the distance between you getting smaller, shoulders nearly brushing against each other, legs angled in and your hand right in his reach. He took it shyly, looking over the bracelet he gave you last time.
Jungkook was being honest now. He doesnât understand how or why but once he met you, he felt good.
âYou like me that much?â You smiled teasingly and he couldnât help but smile too. In the beginning he always took you to be indifferent. You didnât pay more attention to him than you needed to and clearly you had things going on in your life that stressed you out.
When you began talking to him he finally got a hint of interest in your part but he found you hard to readâhe still does. You smile more often now and joke around, go out with him, but want more. If youâre closed off because of the relationship with the guy who slept outside the bedroom then he really canât stand him.
âI do,â Jungkook smiled harder, leaning into you, âAnd Iâve been thinking about kissing you again.â
Alone in your bedroom with a guy whoâs nice and handsome and charming and⌠overall dreamy made things hard to resist. You kissed him shyly, lips pressed against his and he felt himself sink into your bed even further. His hands found the belt loops of your jeans and he hooked a finger using it to pull on top of him. You both were still dressed in your work clothes but neither of you seemed to care.
He hugged your hips, soft lips hungry for more of your touch and his mind went blank. Your hands cupped his face and you didnât shy away from his wandering hands that snuck under your plain black tee and felt along your spine. With your body pressed to his, you rolled onto your back with him following after you, never wanting to break apart.
You donât know how long you stayed like that, kissing heavily and hands roaming but never straying too far. He didnât push you for more even when you felt the way you affected him. Instead he kept the pace mutual, made you feel good and cared for.
By the time your lips were too swollen and sore, you had to pull back. His breathing was heavy and his hair was a mess of tousled black hair. He looked more of a wreck than you did and you couldnât help but laugh softly trying to fix the collar of his white button up.
âIâve got a meeting in a few hours,â Jungkook mumbled against your skin as he checked the time on his watch. It was way past midnight and he had to be ready by 7:00am. The drive home was nearly a half hour and he hadnât prepared himself that well. As much as he wants to stay in your bed he knew he had to go.
You whined softly, hugging him closer before easing off. You let him stand up and he tucked the part of his shirt that had slipped out and attempted to fix his hair. There was an obvious bulge in his slacks that he tried to ignore even when you looked so inviting. It would be so easy for him to fall back into bed and keep going but he had to be responsible. Sadly, responsibility came in the form of having self control and remembering heâs got work tomorrow.
âIâll walk you out,â You said with a small sigh. It was late and you had to be up early for the morning shift so it was right to end things. You needed to get out of your jeans and into bed. The two of you left your room quietly. His hand was on your waist, following you blindly out with his shoes in his hands and a calm smile.
âI'll call you tomorrow,â Jungkook whispered his promise as you unlocked the front door. He stood in the brightly lit hallway now. The goodbye was sweet and he found himself lingering behind when you shut the door. He couldnât make out the full conversation but your ex didnât seem to have been sleeping at all.
âWho was that?â Taehyung asked, sounding tired or irritated. He was laying down but with the light from the hall shining in you can make out the shape of his open eyes.
âA friend,â You said blandly.
âCan you do me a favor and keep your friends out of here?â Taehyung asked bitterly, âItâs my apartment too. Iâve already given you the room, the least you can do is respect me enough to not bring guys over on my bed.â
He stood alone in his office, trying to take a break from the busy day heâs had. Back to back meetings, lunch with his father, endless paperwork, hearing Hoseok scold him about not going further with you, etc., he needed a break. His phone sat on his desk and it was taking everything inside him not to call you. Heâs tried distracting himself with the view outside his windows but it wasnât working.
âIâm just saying, whatâs taking you so long? If you actually liked this girl wouldnât you have gone for it?â Hoseok asked with a shrug of his shoulders, âSheâs got you whipped and you havenât even done anything, thatâs crazy.â
âItâs not even like that, Y/nâs justâŚâ Jungkook looked nervous like when he had a school crush and would get teased about it, âI wanted toâshe lives with her ex.â
âRed flag,â Jimin chimed in from his corner of Jungkookâs office, âWhy?â
âBecause she still lives with her ex, obviously. Thereâs still something there or else she wouldâve moved out by now donât you think?â Jimin explained making Jungkook run his fingers through his hair anxiously.
âMaybe moneyâs tight. Y/n said their lease still has another six months,â Jungkook bit his lip.
âHelp her pay to end it then, duh,â Hoseok said with a shrug, knowing money wasnât a problem for him or his friends, âFree her from the shackles of past relationships.â
This time Jungkook didnât say anything because he was too busy thinking about it. He could help you pay it off, maybe even find you a new place but would you want him to? You always seem so tired after working both jobs and although he hasnât made it official, he doesnât like seeing the person heâs dating stressed all the time. He could easily take the weight off your shoulders if you let him.
âIsnât Jungkookâs problem that he hates dating women after his money? Why are you volunteering him to pay for some random girlâs rent?â Hoseok asked with a scoff, âThe girl I set you up with would never, FYI.â
He rolled his eyes, sinking back into his chair, âI donât care about that girl. I care about Y/n.â
âSo make it official, offer her help, and take her to the gala. Boom!â Jimin clapped like he solved world hunger.
He was going to, he planned to at least, he was just thinking of how to do it. It should be something simple but for some reason heâs nervous to do it. Everyone has already been nagging him about his personal life and as much as heâd like to keep you to himself, part of him also wants to show you off. Youâre not what he expected
When he was alone in his office, he spent his time thinking about what you could be doing right now and how badly he wanted to see you. All youâve done is make out and he wants to do more but heâs also happy about the pace youâre taking things. It seems right. Heâs not jumping to get into your pants and youâre not running to his pockets. He respects you and finds you too stunning to let go even if you lead different lives.
After work, he headed right to where heâd find you and you were talking with some college guys who ordered shots at the bar. They were in some university jackets and seemed perfectly content taking up your time.
âAre those for me?â Yoongi asked, stepping out from the walk-in fridge of alcohol. He pointed at what Jungkook was holding and it seemed to catch your attention too, finally making you look over at him. Your eyes softened, standing up as he got to the bar.
He held a large bouquet of orchids, various types of the flower, some pink, some white, a little bit of both, a hint of yellow. They looked pretty and he held them out to you as he responded to Yoongi, âSorry, hyung. Maybe next time.â
âI didnât know you were stopping in tonight,â You said, taking the flowers graciously. Now that youâre sort of seeing each other he hasnât been stopping regularly. Usually he sees you in your free time and occasionally if he goes to the bar but itâs usually at the end when not many people are left and youâre about to close.
âI meant to call but I forgot, forgive me?â He asked with a teasing smile, eyes glazed over as he watched you, âI just wanted to ask you something.â
You didnât hesitate to step out with him, alone in front of your job, clutching the bouquet in your hands.
âSo, Iâve been kind of pushing it off because Iâm not sure what youâll think, but Iâve been thinking about it a lot lately and I canât wait much longer to ask,â Jungkook started off with a nervous scoff, âAnd now that weâre out here and Iâve distracted you from work, itâs probably shitty timing butââ
âJungkook,â You said, looking up at him, âWhat do you want to ask me?â
âWill you go out with me? I mean⌠I know weâve gone on a few dates here and there but I donât think to keep going with this without asking you for a relationship. I want to get to know you more and more and I donât want to think about you possibly misreading my intentions and I just⌠really want to be your boyfriend,â Jungkook finished.
A smile spread on your lips as you leaned into him, one hand around his neck while the other held the bouquet from falling. His hands fell effortlessly on your waist, pulling you closer, feeling you nod your head against him, âIs this a yes?â
âYes,â You kissed his cheek, âOrchids are my favorite also.â
âReally?â He asked feigning surprise, âI guess I was lucky picking them out.â
âAre you staying for a drink?â You asked pulling back despite his hold.
âI donât think so, Iâve got another crazy day tomorrow and Iâve got some errands to run. Do you close tonight?â Jungkook asked, tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear, âYou work too much?â
âI work too much?â You asked with a laugh, âYouâre the one with back to back meetings.â
It was oddly endearing seeing the way he pouted despite his tough exterior. He wore a black suit and his hair was combed back, driving his usual Porsche but then pouting at you rather cutely and delivering you your favorite flowers.
âYouâre right, Iâll take a few days off and spend all my time with you,â Jungkook said playfully, âIf you think Iâm clingy now just you wait.â
âOkay, okay,â You pushed against his chest lightly, âI have to get back inside before Yoongi kills me. Thank you for the flowers.â
âMhm,â Jungkook bit his lip, keeping you close to him still as he refused to let go of your hand, âCan I get a kiss before you go?â
You sighed, pretending to find it bothersome but let him pull you back. You kissed him goodbye with a promise to call him when you get home and went inside as he drove off.
The flowers looked pretty in the clear cylinder vase you fit them into once you got home that night. You ignored it when Taehyung slammed the door and set the flowers on your vanity, smiling a little to yourself as you got ready for bed.
It took a week for him to officially ask you to be his date for the event of the year. He wanted to appreciate the tranquility he had with you at least a little before he brought you to everyone close to him. He didnât want your opinion about him changing but he also wanted to show you off finally. In the end, he asked you over dinner and you had no reason to turn him down.
You didnât fully understand what he was inviting you to and the gift he left for you one day only left you more confused.
âJust try it on, baby,â Jungkook urged you on as he busied himself in your bedroom while you stared at the box on your bed, âIâm sorry I couldnât find anything better at the last minute but youâll look beautiful either way.â
He already thought you looked pretty with how you styled your hair and makeup, you just needed a pretty bustier gown with orchids to match. It was a vintage Dolce & Gabbana dress that accentuates your figure nicely. Your neck looked plane but he fixed that with a few gold pieces and rushed you out the room. Taehyung wasnât homeânot that either of you cared if he wasâbut if you could avoid him the better. You didnât need him looking at you some type of way and youâre sure Jungkook could go without it too.
âI couldâve found something to wear, you didnât have to,â You tried to say but it was clear he wasnât listening.
âI wanted to,â Jungkook fixed the cuffs of his suit, checking the time on his watch. âWeâll be late if we donât get going now.â
When he first told you about the charity gala, you werenât sure what to expect. Maybe a few auctions, some guest speakers or small press but this was so much more than that. Hundreds of people filed into the large venue, chandeliers held high and disco balls spinning. Everyone wore suits and beautiful dresses who wore them more confidently than you did yours. There were performance acts happening all around you and a few people youâve seen on television in attendance. Without meaning to, you leaned against Jungkook as he navigated through the seating and found your table.
âLook whoâs finally decided to let us meet his girlfriend,â Someone said from the table as Jungkook searched around for his place card. Usually, he sat with his parents and his brother and his family but he started with his friends first. The others were busy speaking on stage and right now the guys seemed less intimidating.
âY/n, this is Jimin, youâll learn he never thinks before he speaks,â Jungkook joked, making you want to smile but unsure if you should.
âYou clean up nicely for a waitress,â Someone else said and Jungkook looked up immediately. Hoseok was obviously jokingâperhaps to impress the girl heâs been seeing and the one he set Jungkook up with for a date [who was surprisingly on Jinâs arm now]. One of the girls snickered, making your brows furrow.
âDonât be an asshole,â Namjoon told him off, directing Jungkook to sit down, noticing how ready he was to speak up.
âYouâre prettier than he said,â Namjoon told you with a polite smile. Jungkookâs hand rested on the back of your chair as he looked around for his parents before asking you, âJust ignore some of the stuff they say. Iâll handle it.â
âIâm not worried,â You admitted, sitting straighter as you looked at your name plaque on the dining set in front of you. He smiled down at you, âYou are prettier than I first said.â
âSo whatâs it like busting tables, Y/n?â Some woman asked you and Jungkook turned, clearly annoyed. He couldnât understand why Hoseok would bring the girl he went on a date with to the gala as Jinâs date instead. It didnât make sense and once again his dear friend was bringing questionable guests.
âAbout as pleasant as your company,â You said with a smile, âPerhaps a bit more, Iâd assume? I donât know, I'm not a waitress.â
You were a bartender and a cashier, if this random woman is going to insult you could she at least be accurate? Either way, thereâs nothing wrong with being in the service industry but judging by everyone around the table, they all look down it. You looked at Jungkook, in his designer suit, wearing the designer dress he bought you and feeling very obviously out of place.
âIâm gonna go to the washroom,â You whispered to him and concern flickered in his eyes. Your hand barely grazed his shoulder as you stood up and he placed his hand over it keeping you from leaving just yet.
âEverything okay?â He asked, not caring for anyone else at the table but you at the moment. You nodded with a gentle smile, âYes, Iâll be right back.â
When you left the table it seemed like everyone was able to catch a proper breath, all looking at Jungkook as if he had something to say. He didnât let you get too far out of his sight before he stood up too.
âWhere are you going?â Jimin asked with an amused expression, âI want Y/n back, sheâs cute.â
âIâm gonna find us better company,â Jungkook said as he looked at the women and Hoseok, âSober company.â
âCome on man, weâre just messing around,â he said turning to Jin hoping for some help but Jin chose to stay out of it, âSheâs great, honestly. Not what I expected.â
âHobi,â one of the girls complained but Jungkook was taking his drink and leaving.
You tried to fix your appearance in the mirror but there wasnât anything specific you could point to. There was just something that felt wrong and maybe it was being here at all. Maybe youâre moving too fast? Youâve already agreed to go out with him and you have strong feelings for him but if those are his friends⌠and these are the parties he attends⌠maybe youâre not cut out for it.
The women were flooded in designer and a sort of elegance youâre sure you didnât possess and the others seemed just as luxurious. You work two jobs to keep a shitty roof over your head while youâre attending a ball in a dress worth more than what you make in a month. You might act like youâre not nervous but youâre anxious. It feels like youâre pretending to be comfortable. Do you deserve this sort of treatment from him? All heâs done since you met him is keep you company, shower you in gifts, listen you every word you said, and⌠brought you around those close to him but were you right for him?
He seemed too good for you.
âI was beginning to think you ran out on me,â Jungkook said with a chuckle as he watched you jump in surprise. He stood near the entrance to the washrooms and waited for you to come out for what felt like forever.
âYou really are impatient,â You teased as he pulled you into his arms, pressing a kiss to the corner of your lips, âIs everyone still at the table?â
âProbably,â Jungkook said, taking your hand in his and walking through the crowds, âBut Iâm sick of them, letâs do our own thing for now.â
Jungkook was as attentive as ever. He introduced you to anyone who came up to him and he looked genuinely happy to have you there by his side. You havenât been seeing each other for long at all, but it feels right. At one point you reunited with his friends, except Jimin was off somewhere with Jin and the two girls. The rest welcomed you just fine and asked you questions about yourself. Sometimes Jungkook would say something about you that you had no idea he knew. Hoseok found it adorable how he spoke for you with a sense of pride or excitement. It was obvious to anyone who paid attention that Jungkook felt strongly for you and you for him. Although hesitant to let you in, you seemed to charm your way with his friends and it made him happy to see how well you fit in.
âLeaving already?â Namjoon asked when Jungkook made his rounds of farewell to everyone he knew.
âYeah, weâre⌠tired,â Jungkook said but the smile on his face said otherwise, âAnd itâs late.â
âHm,â Namjoon seemed amused as he looked down at the arm Jungkook had around your waist and how it ran along your hip, holding you close. The two of you looked like proper lovers on their honeymoon and he couldnât help but laugh, knowing neither of you were close to tiredâjust ready to leave.
He smirked, âHave fun.â
âWhat did that mean?â You asked as Jungkook led you out but he just shrugged. Valet brought his car and you got in with him.
âDonât know,â Jungkook said leaning over the middle consoled to kiss you, âWill you spend the night at my place?â
âI donât have clothes,â You said, smiling at the way he seemed to deject, worrying at his bottom lip.
âI mean⌠we wonât really need thaââ
âJungkook!â You hit his arm playfully, making him laugh. He drove to his place with one hand on the steering wheel and the other on your thigh. He lived in a penthouse in the sky, at one of the most expensive apartments in the whole city. The entire ride up the elevator was filled with his rough hands holding you in his arms, telling you how beautiful you looked tonight.
âI canât take too much credit,â You teased, arms around his neck as you went to the top floors, âYouâre the one who picked out the dress.â
âItâs not about the dress,â Jungkook whispered, cupping your face in his hands, âItâs about the person wearing it.â
âAnd what about when Iâm not wearing it?â You asked, stepping out of the elevator once it got to his floor. You walked ahead of him and he couldnât help but look after you. Your hips swayed with each step, walking so effortlessly in a dress that accentuated your shape. It had his attention all night and he knew tonight was the night heâd have you. You were hard to resist but he was patient, he waited for the right timing to make sure what he felt was right and it was. He was so into you it was all he could think about.
âY/n,â Jungkook called for you before you could skip too far from him. The two of you stood in the foyer now and he was taking your hand in his to keep you from wandering too far inside. His place was huge, the entrance alone had a level of class you didnât expect. It was a two level penthouse with a grand staircase and pool on the balcony. Your heels created an echo that felt never endless and in the middle of the foyer was a rounded table with a small stack of mail and a large vase of orchids.
Now you feel bad always dragging him to your small bedroom in an apartment you shared with an ex boyfriend. It was something Jungkook never seemed bothered byâeven when Taehyung would make a fuss about somethingâand that made you feel even more embarrassed.
You were too distracted to notice when he closed the space between you, hands on your waist as he pulled you against him.
âYouâve been handsy all night, yâknow,â You teased him with a smile, turning in his arms to face him. He let his forehead lean against yours, and closed the space between your lips until you were kissing.
There was a hint of a smile into the kiss as he deepened it by dipping his head low, mouths moving in sync. Even with your heels, you couldnât quite reach him and tried to lean upward.
Jungkookâs hands traced down your waist, falling to your hips and without pulling away, pulled you onto the table, sliding his mail to the floor. A light squeal left your lips, holding him tighter, âJungkook.â
âI canât help it,â He began to trail soft kisses down your neck, nibbling here and there to get a reaction out of you, âIâve been good all the time.â
You couldnât help but laugh, a cute and amused laugh that made him smile. One of the straps of your dress slipped down your shoulders and he hooked a finger into the thin fabric and pushed it back into spot. Jungkook didnât hesitate to help you down from the table, not yet letting you go but walked toward the staircase âAnd Iâve got you all alone now. Nobody asking you for another round of drinks, or your⌠roommate, just you and I. I donât think I can hold back any longer.â
With that being said, he guided you up the stairs taking you down a hallway toward the main bedroom. It was modern and dark with a wall of windows that overlooked the city lights. His bed was at the center with black sheets that he set you down and begins kissing you again.
Your hands ran down the front of his suit, pushed the jacket off and untucked it from his slacks. Every time you see him heâs dressed so nicely but you wanted to see what it looked like underneath. One time it had been late and last minute when he saw you and was dressed in a casual hoodie and sweats. You made out on your bed but never got far enough to take your clothes off. You know heâs muscular and lean but you needed to see it all.
Although your pace of undressing him was quick to your knowing, it wasnât enough for him. He yanked at the buttons, pulling it off and your jaw nearly dropped.
"Tattoos?" You questioned with surprise, as he sat back on his haunches playing with the buckle of his belt. He unclipped the back of his silver watch, throwing it on the floor and pulled his belt fully out of the loops.
âSurprising?â He responded looking down at. Your dress was ruffled up around your waist and your legs looked smooth. You sat back on your hands to meet him halfway for another kiss and while his mouth was concentrated on yours and your tongues danced against each other, he slipped his hands down your back. Your dress had a lower back cut, barely held together by a ribbon that had been tempting him all night. How easy it would have been to undo it and kiss along your spine.
A soft gasp slipped past your lips and swallowed by his as he pushed the straps off your shoulder and let it pool around your breasts. He slipped it further down exposing more of yourself to him and he kissed down your neck. You were slowly fall back into his pillows with his mouth against your collarbone, guiding you to your back so he could take the dress off you.
He left wet kiss down your chest, hands tracing along your ribcage as you arched into him and your breasts fell and rose with each heavy breath you took. mouth left wet kisses down to your collarbone and between your breasts. You let out a sigh feeling his gentle touch and he cupped your soft mound, squeezing lightly before he brought his lips to your hardening bud.
âIs this good?â Jungkook asked almost shyly, tongue sneaking a touch on your nipple as his thumb swiped over it feeling it begin to stiffen. You could barely form words to respond when he repeated the actions a couple times.
"Jungkoângh," you whined wriggling around a little for more. He looked up at you through a mess of hair and his teasing tongue flicked your nipple as his other hand groped the flesh of your left breast.
You touched along his back wanting to feel more of him pushing your breasts in his face and he drooled all over your boobs, sucking and licking your skin while you arched into him.
Once his tongue had grown sore, Jungkook moved along down your stomach pulling on it in hopes that he could get it off. With a small huff in annoyance, he sat back, looking down at your half naked body and tried to work out a way to take it off you. He raised your legs against his shoulders, sliding the flimsy fabric off and throwing it to the floor next to his shirt.
It didnât go ignored the fact that you had been completely bare underneath, your pubic area exposed to him as youâve gone all night with no panties and it was only now he realized.
âYou had nothing under this entire time?â Jungkook asked, finally pulling his own pants down, not bothering to wait to get his briefs off and did them both at the same time. He barely gave you time to appreciate the veins leading down his V-line toward his hardened cock before he was leaning down to kiss you again, âIf I wouldâve known we wouldâve never left your apartment.â
âGood thing I didnât tell you then,â You said between gasps when he licked the shell of your ear, pressing his naked body against yours.
Tonight had been something heâs known for months and a yearly event that he needed to attend. If he had known and seriously kept you in bed youâre sure he wouldâve heard an earful. You only chose to go bare so you wouldnât get a panty line on the dress.
He mustâve liked your chest because he went back to your breasts hungrily latching onto a nipple again, choosing not to respond anymore as he got lost in your warmth.
Like earlier when he got the dress off, he hitched your right leg up until it was bent close to your stomach, exposing more of your wet pussy to his greedy eyes. Silky strings of arousal glazed over your folds making him run his tongue along his bottom lip. Jungkook was focused on your wet cunt, dragging a finger along the center where your juices puddled at your entrance. It was a wet, creamy sort of slick that coated his fingers and your clit.
You released a moan at stimulation, jaw going slack when Jungkook gripped your hips with his free hand and pressed you firmly to the bed. Making sure you wouldnât squirm away, he dropped to his stomach, face between your lips as he went for a taste.
His lips were soft against your folds, eyes locked onto the sight of your puffy lips and let his tongue lick up the puddle of arousal. He practically sucked on it for a taste and left open mouth kisses on your cunt. You gripped the bed sheets tightly, legs threatening to shut but whenever you tried to squirm his head followed your movements.
Jungkook could barely breathe but it felt unnecessary as he nipped at your labia, sucking it into his mouth and letting your clit rut against the tip of his rounded nose. In all honesty, there was only one thing on his mind right now. He wanted to please you and make you feel good. He wanted to make you forget about any other guy and make you think of him and only him. His mouth closed over the stiffened clit suddenly and he began to lick and suck, feeling the outline of your slit get his chin wet like a dog lapping at water with thirst.
You had to be the sweetest thing to ever grace his tongue and it was making him lose his mindâaimlessly rutting his stiff cock against the bed.
Your head had fully tipped back, no longer paying attention to the pleasure he brought between your legs and sunk into the pillows, staring up at the ceiling moaning. Jungkook watched you succumb to what he gave you and he snaked a hand along your body, feeling the way your stomach caved in with deep breaths and settled a grip on your tits. His fingers were wet and he used the liquid to coat your nipples, rubbing them between fingers and quite literally tongue fucking you with your hips humping his face.
You were in ecstasy with his mouth slobbering all over your cunt. You couldnât remember the last time you let someone touch youâpleasure you. It surely wasnât with the ex you lived with. You stopped letting him in long before you broke up and even then he didnât make you feel the way Jungkook did.
"Ohâ" you moaned softly, hands in his
dark hair keeping him in place. He didn't say anything only guided you through an orgasm, feeling the way your legs shook and your breath hitched. Your clit twitched in his mouth and he tried to soothe the feeling with tender lips, tongue lapping at your release as you came down from your high.
Your eyes opened, looking right at the red tip of his cock, aching with need and pointing straight at you. He leaked with precum just from what he had done to you and he needed more. You tried to sit up on shaky legs, meeting him halfway for a messy tongue kiss, licking your arousal off his lips and some spit mixed into it. It was nasty but it made him grown with lust, especially when your hand snaked around his mushroom tip.
Jungkook dropped his forehead against your shoulder, staring down at your naked bodies and focusing on the hand you had on him. Your thumb was rubbing against the slit, smearing clear arousal around his head. His brows knitted together, a confused expression as you tried leaning back, managing to pull him into bed. It didnât take long for him to get the hint and get on his back.
âBaby,â Jungkook tried to warn as you shifted to sit between his legs, leaning down to his stiff member. He was so close already and wasnât sure how much heâd be able to handle before he had a chance to be inside you. A dry gasp left his lips as you went in without warning.
You flattened your tongue on the underside of his length, teasing a long lick from his base to the tip. Spit pooled in your mouth that you let drool out of your mouth and cover his tip, eyes on him the whole time. His eyes felt heavy but he refused to let them shut, wanting to see the way you took his cock into your mouth seductively.
A deep, throaty men left his lips as you swallowed as much of him as you could; never pulling your eyes off him and his head nearly tipped back with pleasure. Holding the base of his cock with one hand, you begin to bob your head setting a good pace, with your other hand on his muscular thigh.
Your eyes lock on the obvious muscles flexing under your touch, his abdomen more prominent than before and you eyed his tattoos curiously. Whatever you couldnât fit into your mouth was jerked off by your free hand that would occasionally run a little lower to massage his scrotum.
You can tell he was close which left you with a sense of pride. Your nose pressed into his pubic bone, taking steady breaths as you flattened your tongue and relaxed your throat to fit whatever more you can. Jungkook panted feeling the throb of his cock as his tip hit the back of your throat.
You roughly swallow around him, suppressing a gag and resume to deep throat him.
"Fucking hell," he groaned tossing his head back in bliss, hand hiding his face as it scrunched together in pleasure. Moans were pouring out of his mouth, sounds muffled into his hand, "I'm soâclose."
It hit him at once, hips nearly licking from how hard his muscles tightened with pleasure. His cock twitched warning a gag from you before he couldnât take anymore. You didnât pull away, swallowing what you could of his release.
Jungkook slowly comes down from his high, hand petting your hair. His eyes were hazy and his mouth dry. It felt like he couldn't move a muscle but he needed to feel your mouth on his. He could taste himself on you and with your aftertaste on his he wished to kiss more, pulling you onto his lap.
It was the best head heâs ever received yet his cock ached for more.
âCondom?â You asked, nipping at his ear lobe making his eyes roll. He didnât bother to shift you off his lap as he blindly felt around his nightstand for protection.
He let you slide it onto his member, watching it bounce back up, too stiff to budge and held placed a hand at the base as you moved to straddle him.
The expression you made as you sank onto his length was utterly beautiful and you radiated a confidence in taking him that he hadnât seen before. Every time heâd seen you has led up to this moment where you could finally be as intimate as you please and he wasnât the only one jumping for the chance. He didn't push to move even if he really wanted to and instead let you adjust. He wanted this to be pleasurable to you too.
"Jungkook," you whined, hands flat on his chest making your tits perk up and he carefully shifted his hips, rolling them up to dig just a little deeper.
âThatâs it baby,â he muttered under his breath, watching your hair fall forward as you tried to concentrate on his thrusts. You ground your hips against him and he watched your body shudder with pleasure. It was hypnotic the way you pulled him and he couldnât help but lean upward, kissing one of your breasts as you rode his dick for the first time.
He groped at your ass, spreading the soft cheeks apart and rammed into you when you threw your head back with a whimper, "Feels good."
You threw your arms around him, suffocating him against your chest as he bounced you on his dick, moaning against your nipples and drooling. Jungkook's nail dug into your soft flesh as he lifted your hips up and down on his cock.
He felt stuck, unable to move his hips as much as he wanted to and with a low grunt, he rolled you onto your back, knees digging into the mattress as your legs wrapped around his waist, âFuck, I canât.â
You didnât pay much attention to his words as Jungkook began to quite literally drop dick inside you, grinding his pelvis into you with each deep thrust and it felt nasty to be fucked this way.
A familiar ring of nerves clenching around his member as it sucked him into your folds. He wasn't going to last much longer either.
He hasn't slept with someone in months and it definitely didn't feel like this. He didnât give it up to just anyone despite what reputation he might have, and it took him time to sleep with you. He had to feel intimate in other ways before he let himself feel the pleasure you brought him.
âGonna cum for me?â He asked softly, kissing your jaw and hugging your waist as he dug your pussy out, feeling your nails claw at his back.
âPlease,â you begged, snuggling into his neck and his chest tightened with want. He put more purpose into his thrusts, bringing you and himself so close to the edge that you would tip over any moment. You sounded too pretty begging for him to just ignore.
A wave of pleasure washed over you, skin rising with bumps as a shiver ran down your body. He held you tightly as you moaned in euphoria, coming undone once again. Jungkook couldnât hold on much longer and your legs around him gave him no choice but to fuck the rest of length in you until he came into the condom.
You laid together for a moment, both shaking and softly petty each other as you came down. Jungkookâs fingers combed your hair back and you straightened your sore legs as you let him pull out.
You donât remember much aside from the drowsiness and he cleaned you up better than you couldâve.
He lied back in bed, pulling the covers over your naked body and fell asleep in your arms.
Once the sun rose into the sky, sneaking into the bedroom through the blinds and waking you from a heavy sleep, you found yourself feeling sore. You attempted to stretch but Jungkookâs arm trapped you against him.
âWhat time is it?â You mumbled to yourself, looking down at your naked body feeling self conscious as you rolled onto your side to find your phone. It was somewhere out in the foyer with the rest of your things youâd forgotten.
The time on Jungkookâs alarm clock read ten minutes past the bus. You shouldâve been on it and on your way to the cafe.
âY/n,â Jungkook mumbled sleepily, sitting up a little to see what was holding your attention, âBack to sleep.â
âIâm going to be late to the cafe,â You said, attempting to get up but failing miserably once he pulled you back down.
âWho cares about that one, letâs sleep a little longer,â He said and although your heart raced, you canât help but roll your eyes.
âDonât you have work today? Weâll both be late,â You tried to reason but your now clingy boyfriend wasnât hearing any of it.
âIâm in line to be CFO, I can do whatever I want and today Iâm choosing to spend as much time with you as possible,â Jungkook said arrogantly but it was so easy to look past when he kissed your palm affectionately.
âNot all of us are as lucky,â You sighed, pressing a quick kiss to his lips as you tried getting out of bed. Instead you just ended up underneath him.
His smile was mischievous, âSo Iâve been thinkingâŚâ
âYes?â
âWe already barely have time to see each other,â Jungkook said with a small pout, âAnd you live so far with someone who doesnât deserve to see you as often as he doesâŚâ
âWell, maybe you should come stay with me. I know you said Yeaun doesnât have the space to let you move in with her and I really donât want you stressing about rent or living with someone you donât want to live with,â Jungkook told you, slowly rolling off you once he felt he had your attention, âSo what do you say?â
âYou live far,â You tried to say, sitting up and clutching the sheets to your front. You werenât completely opposed to it but shocked nevertheless.
âThatâs why I think you should quit at the cafe,â Jungkook said eagerly, âThat way you could focus on just one job and have so much more free time. Iâll take you or get you a driverâa car?, whatever you need to get to the bar. I know you like working there but at least you wouldnât be running back and forth between jobs. I live far but Iâm asking you, will you move in with me?â
âI have to think about it,â you sighed, sinking further into bed and the thought of getting up to answer missed calls from your job made you want to hide under the covers. You really did not like working there. It was early hours, shitty pay, and rude people. At least at the bar it was nighttime and the people knew you. And it would be nice to no longer live with TaehyungâŚ
Jungkook couldnât help but smile, pulling you into his arms knowing you were seriously considering it, â⌠And if you ever decide you donât want to be at the bar either⌠youâll be with me and have all the time in the world to do what you want.â
âYouâre offering too much,â You said playfully, hugging him lovingly, âIâll really start to think about it.â
âPlease, I could give you whatever you want if you just let me,â Jungkook says.
In some strange, unexplainable way, he fell for someone so unlike him. It was effortless and comforting to the point that nothing would bother him about it and all he wanted was to be with you. He could ignore everything else, or solve anything just to be with you.
Itâs like youâre what heâs been looking for and heâs what you needâsomeone trusting, reliable and loving.
Ever since he saw you buying orchids at the convenience store, he canât help but think of them when he thinks of you. You remind him of one.
Beautiful, charming, graceful. It didnât matter if you had different upbringings or experiences, all he knows is youâre fit for him and heâs fit for you. Heâll show you things youâve never seen, treat you to luxuries and care while you teach him more about yourself. Let him really get to know you and what makes you smile.
To do that, you have to let him in.
âSo no work?â Jungkook asked hopefully making you roll your eyes, trying not to smile.
âI guess not,â You sighed, feeling him begin to smile against you and hurried to stop him, âBut I should still go home.â
âTo pack?â
âNo, to shower and get dressed,â You corrected him, laughing at how he whined, âWell talk about it more later, last night wasâŚâ
âA lot?â
âYou can say thatâ
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warnings: brief suspicion of cheating, established relationship, soft!rafe, proposal, fluffy
ârafe!â you groan out, tired of hearing his phone constantly dinging for the past ten minutes.Â
when rafe doesn't answer, you slap your laptop closed, frown on your face as you head up the stairs, muttering to yourself about him interrupting your work that he KNOWS is important.
ârafe!â you shout, entering his bedroom. you can finally hear the spray of the shower, explaining why he was letting his phone go off.
you grab it from his bedside table, yanking the charger free as you go to silence it, but upon trying to stop the dinging, you skim over the notifications.
you don't believe it at first. it must be some kind of mistake, you're sure.
you click on the name of rafes ex girlfriend, opening up the text message thread.
rafe: when can we meet?
ex: whenever works for you đĽş
ex: i miss you a lot btw
ex: this friday at 6pm? we can meet at the country club like we always used to. maybe get dinner? can't wait to see you xxx
you frown at the messages, quickly locking the phone and setting it down when you hear the shower turn off.
rafe steps out with just a towel wrapped around his waist.
âhey princess.â he smiles. âhow's the essay going?â
âfine.â your tone is cold, surprising rafe. âyour phone was ringing so i silenced it.â
you walk out of the room without another word, needing to return to your homework, but when you sit back down at what has become your desk, you can't concentrate on the words on the screen, your anger bubbling over.
you want to confront rafe, but you need time to breathe otherwise the entire conversation will be unintelligible as you simply sob.
you head upstairs, grabbing your backpack and slinging it over your shoulder as rafe emerges from the closet, fully dressed.
âwhere you going babe? got study group?â he questions, glancing at the clock on the wall, realizing there's no way study group would be meeting this late.
âgoing home.â you mumble, making sure everything you usually leave at rafes is stuffed in your bag.
âyou are home?â rafe questions, his expression turning sad when he sees you're not joking.
âno, im not rafe.â you sigh. âi want to sleep in my own bed tonight.â
truth is, you've practically moved into tanneyhill since you started dating rafe, but technically you still live at your parents house, only a few doors down from rafes.
âis everything alright?â rafe asks, trying to reach out for you. âwhat did i do wrong?â
you can't help it anymore, his obvious disrespect for your relationship, something you put years of work into only for him to go back to his ex girlfriend.
âhow about you ask your ex?â you question, tears streaming down your cheeks.
âmy ex? what are you talking about?â rafe asks, again trying to hold you by your shoulders, but you take a step back before his palms can land on you.
rafe: ive asked you a million times to give that ring back. you never should have taken it in the first place. it was my grandmother's and now it belongs to y/n, not you.
âi saw your texts, rafe. when can we meet? are you fucking kidding me!?â you shout the last sentence.
âbaby, wait.â he says softly, grabbing his phone. he opens up the messages, scrolling up so you can see the full context.
ex: i don't know where it isÂ
rafe: bullshit. give it back or ill call the cops
ex: fine.Â
rafe: when can we meet?
âsee, baby?â rafe places a soft hand on your shoulder. âi was just trying to get my shit back. i have no interest in my ex at all. i love you.â
âoh, rafe!â you coo out, throwing your arms around his shoulders. âim so sorry i doubted you.â
âit's okay, id also be pissed if you were texting your ex. i didn't tell you just because i wanted to keep it a surprise.â
âkeep what a surprise?â you furrow your brows together.
âwhat do you?- ohhh.â rafe finally catches on, letting out a chuckle. âi see what you're doing.â
you giggle, rising to your tiptoes to press a kiss to rafes soft lips.Â
ânow let's get back to work on that essay, yeah?â rafe says. âi can help you.â
âand what do you know about microbiology that could possibly help me?â you snicker.
rafe rolls his eyes dramatically. âfine, but i can at least be there for moral support.â
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you've been expecting it for months now, wondering when rafe will pop the question. you know he got the ring back, and while he's taken you on romantic dates and moonlit walks on the beach, you're not sure when he will actually drop to one knee.
âwhat are you thinking for your nails this week?â your girlfriend asks.
originally, you were doing all white and plain, but recently for summer you've been branching out to bright colors again.
âwhy, is there a certain color i should get?â you raise your eyebrow at her.Â
âwell i was gonna get a sparkly white, maybe we could match.â she shrugs. it's no discredit to your friend, but her acting isn't good enough to fool you, and you're sure that rafe asked her to make sure you get something appropriate and properly bridal.
you of course get simple nails that you hope will compliment a silver ring on your finger.
you look at the calendar hanging on the wall, reading through your events for the upcoming week, trying to figure out when rafe may ask the question.
you ultimately give up on trying to figure it out as you head further into the house, calling out for rafe.Â
âbaby? where are you?â you shout, surprised when you don't get a response. you head up to your bedroom, figuring he must be in the shower, but the bathroom door is wide open when you enter.
you almost miss it, so set on finding rafe, but the dress laying on the edge of the bed ends up catching your attention.
put this on and meet me outside.
you recognize rafes handwriting instantly. you set the paper to the side and look at the dress. its a soft light pink material, nearly white.
you are quick to undress and put on the flowy dress, admiring yourself in the mirror before touching up your hair and makeup next. rafe knows how you like to prepare for big events in your life.
your steps are slow, or at least you attempt to keep them slow, as you want to cherish this moment. your eyes light up with the glow of the backyard, string lights hanging from every tree, and on the edge of the sand, is rafe.
âoh.â you cover your mouth, feeling tears well up in your eyes. this has to be the moment. you run to him, arms wrapping around his shoulders as he spins you.
âbaby, i havenât even asked yet.â rafe chuckles, setting you down.
âand iâm already saying yes.â you giggle, although itâs no secret to rafe what your answer would be.
âstill-â rafe places his hands on your hips, stilling you before he drops down onto one knee, pulling a box out of his pocket. he flips open the lid to reveal the most stunning ring youâve ever seen, itâs exactly what you envisioned and somehow so much more.
âyouâve made me happier than i ever thought possible. you fixed all my broken pieces and made me whole again. thereâs no one else iâd rather spend forever with.â
rafe looks up at you, tears brimming in his eyes, overwhelmed with the emotion of the moment. âwill you marry me?â
âyes!â you squeal, falling to your knees alongside rafe and pressing your lips against his. âyes, yes. a million times yes.â
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i know it sounds bad but we got high and he's hot!!
â§Ë*°ŕż: 18+ only, no minors.  â§. â âplug!ryomen sukuna x f!reader
Genre: porn with a plot Notes: thank u 2 @chososdoll for beta reading for me!! this is part of @ohkento's reddit-inspired collab! (ps this isnt a true form fic i just think he looks SEXY IN THAT PIC HNNNNGN) Warnings: 18+, dubcon, mean dom!sukuna, sub!reader, cheating, hate sex âĄ, drug taking, weed smoking, blowbacks/shotgunning, heavy degradation, slight praise, fingering âĄ, vaginal sex, sixty-nineing âĄ, face sitting, squirting âĄ, pussy spanking, noncon filming, coercion, manipulation, daddy!kink, creampie, cervix fucking. Words: 10.6k
âIâve heard about you.â Yuuji starts, turning his head from looking up at the stars to facing you. Your mind feels cloudy, but you return his stare. He thinks your pearly smile belongs in the sky; a permanent constellation to remind him of this moment. âHow come this is my first time meeting you?â
You sigh, reaching over as he hands a lit spliff to you. The bonfire rages in front of you both, the smoke burning your eyes until they fill with water.
At least you have the perfect cover if you burst into tears.
âThings got⌠hard.â you tell him, not really wanting to elaborate. But golden-brown puppy dog eyes will you to continue. Itâs stupid, really, how clichĂŠ people become when they smoke. Youâre no exception. The intoxication and the setting make you feel as though youâre in an indie movie, longing to share your scars and become closer to the one attractive boy giving you his attention. âMy ex, he cheated on me. I was with him for two years so it hurt.â you confess, taking a thick drag before passing it back to him, he tuts as he takes it from you.
âIâm really sorry,â he expresses, holding eye contact while he smokes. The feeling rushes straight to his head and through his blood. He laughs a little as he gets comfortable in his seat. âSorry⌠Iâm not laughing at you.â he clarifies, laughing again.
You start to laugh too, leaning over to grab the spliff from his hand before he sets the back garden on fire with it. Both of your attention is pulled from each other as you hear a scream from inside. The party is still going on indoors, and the scream soon turns into a girly laugh.
No doubt one of your friends flirting with one of the other guys.
âItâs okay.â you assure him, getting just as comfortable in your own seat as you smoke the remainder of the joint. You wrap yourself in the blanket you brought outside and turn your body slightly to face him. âIt was with my best friend, too.â you continue, your deepest wound not seeming so scarring as you allow the high to expose your secrets on your behalf.
âShit.â he shakes his head.
âIâve been doing therapy and stuff so Iâm better. I just wasnât in the mood to see peopleâŚâ you explain, jolting upright a little as you realise youâre oversharing. âIâm sorry, I didnât mean to get so deep and make you feel uncomfortable.â you tell him.
âIâm fine, Iâm the one who asked.â he chuckles, getting comfier under his own blanket as he turns to look at you.
His warm eyes make you feel relaxed, safe. And you hate it. You hate how much of a clichĂŠ you really are becoming and you hate that you canât help it. This moment feels so much bigger than anything, but deep down, youâre paranoid, because youâre sure itâs the drugs talking.
Youâve heard about Yuuji, too.
Youâve heard about how sweet he is and how he doesnât have a bad bone in his body. He has a sports scholarship of some kind, and after a quick stalk of his socials you noted how reflected this is in the form of his chiseled body. Could he really be so nice? He seems, perfect.
And apparently he, gives the best head.
âI have a secret.â he tells you, quietly. His voice almost drowned out by the crackling bonfire beside you. You arenât sure what makes you heat up so quickly. The implication of his words or the way he said them. A lustful look in his eyes as the fire dances wildly beside you both.
âYeah?â you tell him, cheeks fill with warmth as you try to ignore how fucking hot it is in pursuit of looking cool. And that makes you giggle, for some reason. Yuuji isnât the one making you flush with heat, itâs the fire, idiot. âT-Tell me.â you encourage him, throwing off your blanket and fanning yourself dramatically.
So much for looking cool.
He grins, almost coyly, as he leans across the arm of his chair. And for some reason, you instinctively mirror him. Is it so secret that you need to be close? He might whisper it to you.
He tilts his head, smirking. His eyes flit from your eyes to your lips a few times. Enough times that you make a note of it. And your heart is fucking racing with each flicker of his gaze. You think you know whatâs coming. But you stay still, watching him, waiting for him to make the first move.
â⌠I really wanna kiss you.â he admits. And if you werenât hot before, you certainly are now. You try, and likely fail, to keep it cool. A wide grin spreads across your face and you burst into giggles. But your eyes meet his again, and you see a smile just as wide as yours on his face as he observes you.
âYeah?â you ask, dumbly.
âYeah.â he nods.
You gulp, shallowly, leaning in closer to him and letting your eyes fall closed. He smirks, again, leaning in until your lips meet. Itâs sweet and passionate, until he pulls away. It surprises you a little. Worries you, even. Are you a bad kisser? Maybe you are when youâre high. But worry turns to astonishment as he pulls your chair closer to until the arms of both of your seats touch. He smirks, again, wrapping his arm around your neck as he leans in to kiss you.
And now, you really do hate yourself.
You moan into it.
You arenât even sure where it came from. Was that really you? He grins, nonetheless, a feeling of pride swelling in his chest as his tongue meets yours in a more than welcome manner. You pull away, a string of spit connecting you both. A kiss infused daze covers your features as you look at him under heavy eyelids, and you pant, deeply.
âI have another secret.â he whispers, stealing another sweet kiss from your raw lips. Gloss smeared over your lip line and a dewiness transferred to his.
âIs it as good as the first?â you tease, giggling as his hand cups your face. You mewl, melting into his touch as his thumb strokes your cheek delicately. Your eyes widen. A look of curiosity replaces the majority of the lust, though you both know itâs still lurking.
âWell,â he starts, his eyes begin to wander. You observe him as his vision roams from the sky to the flames beside you. He takes his time, the anticipation of his words runs rampant through your bloodstream. Until, finally, he blesses you with his gaze once more. âI want to stay with you until the sun comes up. I want you to sit on my lap, with my cock inside you, under our blankets. All night.â
Youâd hoped once he told you that your anxiety would have diminished. Though youâre sure with the way his eyes are fixated on your lips, your heart is surely surveying an escape route from your slack-jawed mouth as it pumps hard and violently through you. He doesnât seem worried that you havenât said a word, and his gaze doesnât falter.
âOkay.â you nod.
It excites you. You havenât been with anyone since your ex. And it might be a bad idea, but it doesnât stop you. Itâs not like youâre rushing into being with someone. Itâs been months since things ended with your cheating ex-boyfriend. You stand up, bringing your blanket as you stand over Yuuji, and he holds your hips gently.
He feels under your skirt, smiling when he feels how soaked your panties are but he doesnât comment. He moves them into the crease of your thigh and encourages you to straddle him.
You do.
Hovering slightly as he pulls down his joggers and his semi springs free. Itâs big and pretty, like him. You kiss him as he jerks himself until heâs aching. Heâs desperate to bury it inside of your gummy walls, his cock catches against your eager hole with every purposeful stroke.
He throws his head back as you sink down on him, and your hips stutter slightly from the stretch. Youâre trying to focus on concealing your bodies with the fuzzy blanket wrapped around you, but your lips fly to his in a bid to silence yourself as he sheaths himself fully.
âFuck, youâre tight⌠so wet, too.â he mumbles, hips rolling ever so slightly as he enjoys the feeling of being inside of you raw.
You jolt, panicked, as you hear a knock from the kitchen window. Both of your attention is stolen to see the origin, and you spot a group of partygoers hollering from inside. Two of his friends and one of yours, they all cheer and whoop as they can only assume whatâs going on under the blanket.
Yuuji smiles, shaking his head before turning back to capture your lips in another soft kiss. Youâre too distracted to notice him flip them off until they disappear.
âDo I remember the night the most perfect woman in the world let me hit her raw after a few minutes of talking under the stars? Yes, baby, I remember the best night of my life, why?â Yuuji asks after you recall that first night you met. âVery cool of you, by the way. I didnât think you were gonna say yes.â
You giggle, punching his arm softly as you curl into his side in bed. And you sigh, dreamily, thinking about it again. Itâs been over a year since that night and you feel just as hazy around him as you did then. You were worried about him thinking of you as a one night stand. Worried that youâd just given in to this stranger for no real reason only to get your feelings hurt again.
But as the sun began to rise and wake you both up in that horrendously uncomfortable chair, he kissed your forehead and held you tightly against his chest. He stroked your hair until you managed to blink the blurriness from your eyes and see his in a new light. The crackle of the orange and white flames had gone from them. Instead, they were honeyed and soft. The kindest eyes youâd ever seen.
âThe McDonaldâs breakfast in the carpark was better than the sex in the garden, by the way.â you tease him, earning a tickle attack into your sides.
âYeah, Iâm sure thatâs why you were begging me to fuck you in the backseat afterwards.â he laughs, stopping his assault as you begin to scream. You cuddle into him again, his fingers tracing over the flesh of your upper arm. âIt was good though, really good. Should we order hash browns?â
âYes.â you nod, excitedly.
He sits up and reaches over to his bedside cabinet to grab his phone. He sighs as he checks his notifications. You sigh, too, watching him as he gets out of your warm bed in search of his clothes.
So much for hash browns.
âYuujiâŚâ you start.
âDonât start, please, I donât wanna leave in a bad mood.â he tells you. He smirks when he realises youâre checking out his abs, only focusing on him again as he pulls his t-shirt over his head. âI donât want to rush moving in just because you feel sorry for me.â
âIâm not rushing you, and I donât feel sorry for you!â you tell him, shuffling onto your knees and crawling across the bed until youâre kneeling beside the edge of the mattress. âI hate your brother. Heâs a creep and he treats you like shit. I have plenty of room here⌠you can move in here and have your own space andââ
âI know heâs a dick.â he agrees, pulling on his socks and slipping his feet into his sneakers. âBut heâs my only family. Iâm not just gonna ditch him. Why donât you move in with me?â he wonders.
âUm⌠I live in a townhouse instead of an apartment and itâs better, itâs in a better neighbourhood and your brother isnât here.â you smile, smugly, and it earns a chuckle from him.
âOkay, youâre right about that. Speaking of which though I canât stay tonight but you can come over if you want. Iâll order those hash browns for you tomorrow when Iâm on my to the gym. Iâm booked with PT sessions my entire shift.â
âIâm not waking up at 6am to eat hash browns alone, Yuuji.â you roll your eyes.
âYou can text me when you wake up and Iâll order them for you. Pleeeeease?â he flutters his eyelashes dramatically before kissing your forehead. âGood girl.â
âI didnât say yes?â you respond, flabbergasted. âIs Sukuna gonna be there?â
âWell, yeah. He lives there.â Yuuji tells you, earning an eye roll from you. He is in complete agreement on how much his older brother sucks. He understands why you hate him. Heâs irritating, heâs crass and seems to have no concept of personal space or privacy. Yuuji doesnât care for his brother in the least, and he has no doubt the feeling is mutual. There is love there, of course, but only out of necessity. âYou donât seem to mind him when the family discount applies for weed, though. Interesting.â he says with faux suspicion.
âOkay, that is literally the only thing heâs good for.â you remind him. He laughs, agreeing.
He kisses your lips chastely, hurrying to grab his backpack to hurry home to his expectant brother. The only two reasons he ever leaves you in haste are for work, or for Sukuna. Today was meant to be a day you could spend together since you both have the day off.
But of course, Sukuna ruins everything.
YUUJI: FORGOT TO ASK YUUJI: ARE WE SMOKING TONIGHT? YOU: DUH! YUUJI: BETTER BE NICE TO SUKUNA FOR THAT FAMILY DISCOUNT THEN đ
You stand outside of your boyfriends apartment complex, shivering, waiting for somebody to answer the door. He ordered a taxi for you since he knows you always worry about your car getting broken into when you visit, his own car suffering numerous break-ins in the span of your relationship.
And really, you donât want somebody to answer the door. You want it to be Yuuji, specifically, the thought of Sukuna answering the door and tormenting you until you get to the safety of Yuujiâs room is entirely too much to handle. Your nerves are already shredded by being here, the thought of having a battle of words with Sukuna will surely tip you over the edge.
âOh, hey, I didnât think youâd get here so quickly.â you hear a voice from behind you. You turn around to see Yuuji. Fuck. You see the hallway light flicker on from under the crack of the front door to his apartment and you realise too late that a demon has been summoned. âI went and got cookie ingredients, I thought we could bake some before we smoke later.â
âSounds fun.â you smile, his sweet idea assuages the tension you feel, albeit briefly, before his elder brother swings open the front door. Yuuji pulls his lips into a thin line when you can barely contain the scoff that scratches through your throat. Sukuna rolls his eyes, moving aside to let you both in. He peaks inside the bag Yuuji is holding before his little brother smacks his hand away. âDo not touch or I will kill you.â Yuuji warns him, carrying the ingredients to the kitchen before putting them away.
You decide to help, hoping it will go quicker if you pitch in and you can escape his brotherâs intimidating stare faster. Sukuna approaches, leaning over a counter as he watches you both.
âNice of you to grace us with your presence, princess. Itâs been a while.â Sukuna taunts, but you ignore him. He clacks his fingernails against the countertop, and the sound is jarring. He smirks when you shoot him a pointedly aggravated stare, giving him reason to do it more. âWhat do we owe the pleasure?â
You sigh, nostrils flaring as you put two bars of chocolate in the fridge.
âWeâre just hanging out, gonna bake these cookies and smoke.â Yuuji answers for you. So you smile, falsely, and rest your back against the wall once youâre done. âOh, speaking of which⌠family discount?â
âIâm busy now.â Sukuna looks at you and then back at his brother. âAsk me later.â he expresses, red eyes fixed on you for a moment before he turns to leave.
Itâs like you can finally breathe again when you hear him go to his room and close the door. You kick yourself away from the wall and into Yuujiâs open arms. He smooths his heavy hand over your hair, hoping youâll relax a little. He spends some time figuring out what you can do to pass some time, knowing youâll need a distraction.
âLetâs just bake the cookies.â you speak, words muffled as you talk into his shirt. You pull away as he looks down at you so that you can speak to him clearly. âI just wanna stay in your room all nightâŚâ
âSure, baby, whatever you want.â he nods. âOkay, lets get all of the ingredients out again.â
He takes his time trying to remember where everything is. You, on the other hand, are rushing to gather them all. Sukuna has a way of making your anxiety spike. Heâs too⌠commandeering. He has a way of forcing everyoneâs attention to remain solely on him whether you try to ignore him or not.
Youâre intimidated by him, heâs more muscular than your boyfriend and heâs a drug dealer for fuck sake.
It brings shame to you when Yuuji has to snap his fingers to get you out of your trance as you think about his brother. You start cutting up the chocolate bars while he puts ingredients in the stand mixer.
And your mind wanders, again. Itâs not like youâre scared of Sukuna. Well, you are, terrified would be more apt. But you know he wouldnât do anything to you. Heâd risk losing Yuuji. And as much as they donât really get along, theyâre extremely co-dependent. Especially Sukuna. He likes the presence of his little sibling and has a slight superiority complex due to being older.
The reality is, you think Sukuna would be lost without Yuuji. Lonely, even. And having Yuujiâs steady income is a nice sense of security for him. He makes plenty of money being a dealer, of course, but he knows itâs a fools game. Itâs not reliable and itâs risky.
You put the chocolate chunks into the mixer and watch him as he masterfully fills the ingredients into the bowl. Your thoughts calm for a moment as you can do nought but watch the whisk whir.
âYou know I wanna move in with you eventually, right?â Yuuji tells you, and it fully breaks you from your train of thought. You look at him, staying silent so that he can feel free to continue speaking. He leans against the counter as the ingredients continue to mix. âI wanna live with you⌠marry you⌠all that.â
His talk of marriage makes your cheeks fill with heat, though youâve gotten better at playing things cool since your first encounter. You just smile, and nod, as you drink in the delicious information.
âIâm just worried about him.â he tilts his head, indicating he is referring to his elder brother. You nod in understanding, though you donât have much sympathy for your future brother-in-law. The thought sends a shiver down your spine. âWe arenât like you, we donât have a big family. Itâs just us.â
âWell my family isnât thatââ you stop yourself, looking into Yuujiâs disappointed eyes. Itâs foolish to pretend you arenât blessed with an adoring family. Youâre your parents only child, though. You canât imagine what itâs like to have a sibling. And, of course, youâre spoilt rotten. The reality is that if you didnât come from privilege, you and Yuuji could have been neighbours. But your parents werenât about to let you live in a dangerous neighbourhood when they can easily afford to subsidise you. âIt must be tough, baby. I know you feel guilty for wanting to leave him.â you rub your hand up and down his arm as a show of comfort.
âYeahâŚâ
âButâŚâ you start, his eyes locking with yours again. âHeâs a grown man, Yuuji. Youâve lived the same life and look at you now⌠Youâre nothing like him.â
Youâre right. He knows you are, thatâs why youâre standing in silence until the timer goes off and he checks the ingredient bowl. Itâs sticky. He scoops a little on his finger and dots it on your nose. The kitchen fills with laughter as you try to retaliate. Heâs too fast for you, though.
âIâm sorry! Iâm sorryâŚâ he tells you as the situation calms. He licks the chocolatey dough from your nose and presses a gentle kiss onto the tip. And dammit you canât help but smile.
You begin rolling the dough into balls on a tray. The silence has dissipated, but your thoughts still run rampant. Should Sukuna really be Yuujiâs responsibility? No, of course not. But Yuuji wonât see it that way. Heâs sensitive and caring. God, he cares so much.
It makes you dizzy as you watch him smile and walk with the cookies to the oven. They smell so great already, you could have eaten them raw. But theyâll be even better when theyâre baked to perfection.
Youâve made these cookies so many times now. The pair of you have process committed to memory. Theyâre so good. Especially with a tall glass of milk. You always tease Yuuji when you do this since heâs always left with a milk moustache after devouring his plate of cookies.
The sound of the timer rings through the kitchen again. You clap excitedly as Yuuji covers his hands with some oven mitts. The chocolatey smell hits you both like a train, the pair of you moaning involuntarily as you inhale it. He brings them over to the countertop, setting them down to cool.
Sukuna smells it, too. He loves it when you bake cookies because he knows neither of you will deny him one. Heâs been smoking and playing video games since he retreated to his room. Heâs thoroughly stoned and would very much enjoy a sweet treat right about now. He pauses his game, and the sound of his door opening and closing brings back all of the tension to your body.
âHere.â Sukuna speaks as he enters the kitchen. He tosses a baggie onto the counter and looks at his brother expectantly. Yuuji nods, reaching into his pocket for his wallet so he can pay him. Sukunaâs eyes are fixed on you in the meantime. And as you go to grab the weed, he places his hand over it and pulls it back towards himself.
âThanks, man.â Yuuji smiles, handing the cash to his brother who pockets it without even checking itâs right. Though Sukunaâs stare doesnât waver, you find yourself looking down at his hand covering the weed and then turning away completely. He internally beams with pride at that, thrilled to know itâs still so easy to intimidate you. But on the outside itâs simply portrayed as a slight curve of the corner of his mouth. âIs something wrong?â Yuuji wonders.
âYeah, actually,â Sukuna speaks, finding your eyes again before he looks into Yuujiâs. âI want a cookie, call it family tax.â
âTake two.â you tell him, sternly, a new ferocity in your eyes he hasnât seen before. You walk over to them and place two cookies on a little plate for him. You go to hand it to him, but as he reaches out to grab them you place them down on the counter. âLet them cool.â you smile, sarcastically.
âArenât you sweet.â Sukuna snarls, teeth bared as he slides the plate towards himself. âSweet enough for your turn. Pay up, you know what I want.â he chuckles. He turns his head and taps his finger against his cheek.
âCâmon, dudeâŚâ Yuuji tries to interject. You know Yuuji is furious, deep down. But he wonât call him out on it. Last time he did he wouldnât give either of you any weed for two weeks. It wouldnât be a problem if you knew anyone else you could buy from. And the shit Sukuna gets is good. Yuuji has given up on trying to be a dominating presence when it comes to living with his brother. Sukuna is always one step ahead and Yuuji canât quite keep up.
You go to him, reluctantly, and plant a soft kiss to his cheek. It makes your skin crawl. He makes your skin crawl. And despite your sense of urgency to flee the scene, you canât. His hand grabs your wrist, and Yuuji is ready to spring to action. Sukunaâs face is unbearably close to yours. His red eyes piercing your own as he does all he can to make you feel small and pathetic.
âThatâs a good girl.â he sneers, placing the baggie on the top of your hand after releasing your wrist. He chuckles, darkly, as he walks away with his plate of cookies, taking a bite out of one before he disappears. He kicks his bedroom door shut behind himself, the sound of laughter and guns shooting loudly from his TV are the only thing either of you can hear.
âIâll bring the cookies and clean up.â Yuuji sighs as he ventures to the sink. âGo and get comfy and pick a movie.â
You donât say anything, leaving your boyfriend to tidy up in silence. Youâre seething with rage. This isnât right. He does this every single time youâre here and you buy a deal from him. And Yuuji just lets him. You know you neither of you have much choice if you want the access and ability to smoke. But itâs getting to you, badly.
Around fifteen minutes pass after you left the kitchen. Youâve since gotten into your sweatpants and comfortable vest. Shorts would have been preferable, since thereâs still an uncomfortable sizzle to the November air, but youâve learnt your lesson about what you wear when you visit the Itadori household. Youâve had Sukuna leer at your thighs more times than you can count. And itâs never subtle, his eyes lingering for a moment too long to have it potentially be an accident. Itâs always so lecherous and purposeful.
You decide to watch Clueless, again. Youâre sure Yuuji will be defeated when he sees your choice, heâs lost count of how many times youâve watched it recently. Itâs been a comfort movie to you, for some reason, since Halloween.
âHey.â Yuuji smiles as he enters the room, somehow managing to carry two glasses of milk and two plates of cookies. âWhat are we watching?â he asks, looking at the TV. You rush to grab a plate and a glass from his hands to ease his load, putting them on your bedside cabinet as he does the same with his own.
âClueless.â you smile, happily. âHer step-brother has been hitting really different for me, lately.â
He closes his eyes and stifles a sigh. You can see a laugh desperate to break free as his mouth shakes through a smile. But to his credit, he manages to compose himself, eyes opening again once the reality has set in. Clueless. Again!
âSounds great baby.â
Itâs been a week since you last got to spent time with Yuuji. Your work schedules have been clashing, it feels like a lifetime since you got to spend any time together.
You enjoyed your hash browns in bed after he ordered them for you when you stayed over at his place. Though he ended up ordering Sukuna breakfast, too, leading to uncomfortable extended time with him that you prefer to avoid at all costs. He tried to make conversation with you, he often does, but you took it upon yourself to go back to bed with your hash browns. You tried to enjoy them. You tried to relax. But itâs near impossible when youâre under the same roof as someone you loathe. You watched a Youtube video on your phone while you ate, and then quickly got ready and booked a taxi home.
Youâd hoped next time you got to see your boyfriend it would be at your house and away from Sukuna. But, alas, that was not the case. You received a text from him at 10am asking you to come over ASAP.
YOU: is something wrong??
YUUJI: no
YUUJI: just stressed
YUUJI: pls can u come? Iâm working tomorrow so I cant stay over âšď¸
YOU: okay âšď¸ omw đ
Youâve never had a text like this from him before, and it scared you. Something was telling you that he was downplaying how he was feeling. It took you barely any time to get ready. Forgoing makeup and making an effort in favour of rushing to your boyfriendâs side. Maybe something had happened at work.
Maybe he cheated on you.
He could be dying!
âShut upâŚâ you whisper to yourself as you pack your toothbrush into its travel case and throw it into your overnight bag. You pick up your car keys, not wanting to waste time waiting for a taxi.
You throw your bag on the passenger seat and speedily drive off. Your anxiety and the adrenaline was getting to you, you knew youâd have to calm down or youâd end up getting into an accident. As you focused on getting to your destination in one piece, you took several deep, slow breaths.
Youâre safe.
You park up your car and lock it up. With your bag in tow, you rush to your boyfriendâs apartment. Your left foot taps impatiently after you knock on the door.
No answer.
You knock a little louder.
No answer.
And then you find yourself knocking louder, repeatedly, while you wait for your boyfriend to answer the door. He knew you were coming. He said it was urgent. So why are you waiting here, freezing, for him to answer the door? Youâre filled with relief when you see his figure obscuring the light trickling through the cracks of the door. Your teeth chatter, and you begin stepping from foot to foot in a bid to warm through.
But your blood runs cold as the wrong Itadori opens the door.
âHeh. What do you want?â he asks, a cocky grin permeating his features.
âMove.â you demand, barging past him with your bag so that you can hurry to Yuujiâs side. Maybe something is wrong. He could be sick and resting in bed.
âHeâs not here.â Sukuna informs you, halting you in your tracks. You turn to face him, a scowl that could kill adorning your face. Did he do something to him? All fear youâve ever felt from him dies as you approach him, setting down your bag so that you can hit or punch or scratch him if needs be. âRelax.â he tells you.
âWhere is he?â
âAt work. I thought you had your entire relationship on a Google calendar, you didnât know?â he laughs, angling his body so that he can bypass you in the skinny hallway. You huff a little, picking up your bag again so that you can follow him.
âBut he asked me to come over, he said it was urgent.â you explain, though he doesnât stop walking. You hurry after him, grabbing his arm until he stops. And he does, his eyes slowly dart down to where your hand holds onto his bicep until you awkwardly let go. âS-Sorry. Iâm just confused. Why would he text me if heâs not even here?â
âSweetheart, Iâm not his PA. I donât fucking know.â he turns away from you again, opening his bedroom door. You huff, again, utterly defeated as you try and decide what to do. You look towards his bedroom door and then to the entrance. You suppose you could go home until he finishes work. Or you could go to the gym he works at and find out whatâs happening. You head towards the front door, thinking youâll decide once you start driving. Sukuna hasnât fully retreated into his room yet, leaning against his door frame as he calls out to you. âIâm making a bucket, want one?â
Your eyebrows knot as you turn to face him, another involuntary scoff turning to laughter as you look at him in disbelief. Heâs got some nerve. You donât even want to respond, opting to carry on your journey towards the entrance before you look at him again.
âAre you out of your fucking mind? I donât want to smoke with you.â you roll your eyes.
âAwe, why not, princess? I wonât even add any tax.â he smirks, already heading towards the kitchen as if youâve given him the answer he clearly wants to hear. And you hate him with your whole heart, because fuck, if you arenât intrigued. Itâs been a while since youâve had a gravity bong. âExcellent choice, good girl.â he winks as he sees you out of the corner of his eye, as he grabs an empty one litre water bottle from beneath the sink.
You donât say anything, leaning over the island counter as he prepares the bong for you both. Itâs embarrassing, after some time, that you find yourself having to avert your gaze as realise youâve been staring at his defined back muscles. Heâd decided to forgo any form of clothing to cover his torso, only wearing a low riding pair of grey sweatpants, though theyâre a darker grey than yours.
It isnât much better as he whistles, tilting his head for you to join him by the sink. Youâd close your eyes if it didnât make you look like a complete freak, only to hide them from his flexing abs and his juicy pecs. The tattoos arenât helping, either. It only serves as a reminder that youâre hopelessly trying not to ogle your boyfriends, older, larger, and scarier brother. Heâs behaving interestingly, though. Heâs never been like this before. Heâs dismissive and almost uninterested in you.
âCâmere.â he orders you, dragging you closer to him as he lights the weed in the bowl. You gulp, a little intimidated. Gravity bongs are something you donât partake in often, you canât even remember the last time you did one. He moves his finger from the hole heâd poked into the bottle and the water begins to drain from it. Smoke fills the bottle in itâs wake, and when empty, he screws the lid off for you. âQuickly.â
You begin to inhale everything. Not caring how fucked up you feel in the least. You show no signs of stopping, and it impresses him. Your fingers hook around the kitchen counter as you finish, knowing when your bones feel like jelly that youâve had too much.
âAtta girl,â he comments before repeating the process for himself. He pays you no mind as you wander towards the corner counter space, lifting yourself up like youâre the queen of the kitchen taking her throne.
He continues to ignore your presence as he smokes, inhaling and entirely draining the smoke that had filled the bottle. He tosses it into the sink, walking by you to grab a bag of ice from the freezer, filling two glasses to the brim with the frozen cubes. He fills them with water, sliding one to you.
âDrink.â he commands, and you do, not realising how thirsty youâd become. Your throat burning and eyes flooded with red veins. You drink the water and immediately need to refill. He shows you a kindness, though, handing you his glass to drink before filling your own again. âYouâre a real lightweight, huh?â
âOh shut up. Iâm just gonna go.â you tell him, jumping down from the counter and going to collect your bag again.
âYou canât, youâre high.â he reminds you, and in your stoned state the sentence makes you burst into laughter. âYouâll end up crashing your car. Fool.â he gives you another glass of water, refilling his own for a second time before turning to leave the kitchen.
âGreat, so Iâm stuck here with you and nothing to do?â you pout, opening the fridge to see if thereâs anything to eat. âWhy did we not make cookies?â you mumble to yourself.
âI have snacks in my room.â Sukuna looks over his shoulder at you, like a snake offering an apple in the garden of Eden. Youâre tempted. God, youâre tempted. What else are you going to do until Yuuji gets home? He grins, widely, as he hears your feet follow after him as he walks into his bedroom.
Youâve never been in here before. Itâs quite tidy, all things considered. Itâs very tidy, actually. Youâd expected it to be some dimly lit shit hole. It smells nice, save for the weed, the windows are open wide and the sheets smell fresh as you sit on his bed.
He throws a sleeve of Oreos at you and you turn into a giddy child. The two of you kick off your shoes, not caring for where they land as you both get comfortable on his bed. Youâre above the duvet, sitting adjacent to him but angled away with your legs crossed. He gets under the covers, though, picking up his Xbox controller as he mindlessly plays GTA V.
You spend far too much time licking the cream of your first Oreo, utterly entranced by the characters, the plot and the violence of the game heâs playing. He doesnât seem to mind when you ask him a million questions about it, either. Heâs more amused that youâre so clueless.
âHere,â he tosses the controller at you. âGo for a drive, itâs fun when youâre stoned.â he tells you.
Youâve played video games before, you arenât a total idiot. Though he had expected you to ask for more help when he gave you the controller. He thinks itâs cute that you try to obey the speed limits and stop at every red light.
He reaches into his bedside cabinet, pulling out a joint. Itâs ignited quickly, his eyes squinting as he inhales and watches the screen to make sure youâre not getting him into trouble on his game.
âYouâre not bad when youâre high.â you tell him, passing the controller back to him. He takes it from you, saving his progress before reaching out to smoke again. He sits upright, and you barely react when he pulls you away from where you were sitting until you're facing him. âU-UmâŚâ
Heâs giving you a look. That look. The look Yuuji gave you when he told you he had a secret. God, they could be fucking twins if Sukuna wasnât covered in tattoos, itâs scary. But he doesnât say he has a secret; he doesnât say a word. He simply watches you with a pondering stare, but an aim behind his eyes nonetheless.
Your own eyes shift when you see him bring the spliff from his ashtray to his lips. The cherry end of it igniting holds your focus before your eyes are on his again, enraptured by the moment and what heâs thinking. He sucks the smoke deep down into his lungs, and you canât help but watch the way his chest moves from his heavy breath.
You gasp, softly, as he snatches your stare once again. His thumb and forefinger grasp your chin and tug downwards until your jaw is lowered. His face is barely a centimetre from yours, you know heâs going to kiss you. But why are you about to let him? His lips ghost yours, and youâre taken aback as you feel a plume of smoke invade your mouth. Heâs impressed when you breathe it in, though, but smirks wildly as you begin to cough it up.
âYou taste like cookies and cream.â he whispers into your ear, the sensation of his words rushes straight to your heat. But your sense comes back, pushing him away from you as you look sternly into his eyes.
âI didnât say you could do that.â you remind him, preparing to move back to where you were sitting prior. But he stops you, easily, pushing your body down until your head is in his lap but over the duvet cover. âSukunaâŚâ you sigh, your head and your limbs feel too heavy to move on their own anymore.
âMm?â
âIâm wi- Iâm with Yuuji⌠Iâm with your brother.â you remind him, you move your head a little so that you can look up at him. He doesnât look at you, though, still focused on his game. You can hear dialogue again, and guns, youâre not as exciting in comparison to that, you suppose.
âI know.â he speaks, his jawline bulging as he swallows and clenches his teeth slightly. âDonât tell me you thought I was gonna kiss you. Silly girl.â he speaks, still not bothering to grant you with the eye contact youâre so desperately craving for some reason.
But your body betrays you as a whimper escapes from your throat. And that does get his attention. His game pauses, and he looks down at you. But you hide your face, scrunching your eyes shut so he canât read your expression. But your shy little display tells him all he needs to know.
âOh? You minx,â he torments you further, and you want to scream. You canât hide your face anymore, your cheeks becoming too warm and your entire body sizzling with heat. Youâre panting, uncomfortably as you try and cool down. âYou wanted me to kiss you. Youâre with Yuuji, remember?â
âI didnât! I- I- would never. I love Yuuji, Iâm in love with him! Iâd never kiss you. Yuck.â you fib, if you werenât high, you know youâd never be in this predicament. You know youâd never have agreed to hang out with him. But really, itâs a lie. You werenât high when he asked if you wanted to do buckets. He intrigued you, and youâre a fool, because you fell for it. Hook, line and sinker.
âHmâŚâ he hums, his spliff resting between his lips as his eyes linger on your cleavage before roaming down your body to your sweatpants. He places the blunt back in the ashtray, his eyes setting their sights on your hands. He moves one with ease above your head, though you instinctively pull it back. But itâs too late, the other one joins, a singular hand of his pin both of your wrists down above your head. You wriggle against him, but you donât pose a challenge in the least.
âS-Sukuna?â you question as his fingers breach the waistline of your sweatpants. A sadistic smirk sprawls across his face as he realises in your haste to be here youâd not bothered putting on panties. You mewl, desperately, as his fingers find your petalled flesh. He doesnât do much, simply feeling your slick and teasing your folds as he examines your facial expressions.
âYou didnât want me to kiss you?â he asks again. He drags two fingers up your slippery slit until he finds your clit, rubbing targeted circles around it slowly. The tension makes your hips buck, but his face is stern as he watches you keen for him. âThen why is this cunt soaked?â
His words almost bring you to tears, and he can tell. The way they fill with water so rapidly and your face becomes sweaty. Youâre ashamed. Youâre embarrassed. Heâs humiliating you, but youâre too turned on to tell him to stop. You donât want him to stop.
âI hate you!â you tell him, and there is certainly venom behind it. Because you mean it, you really fucking mean it. Heâs the absolute worst. Youâre so in love with Yuuji, but heâs ruined everything, now. You should have known this would happen. Heâs been flirting and teasing and bothering you throughout your entire relationship with Yuuji. But you never thought it would come to this, ever. Especially after what youâve been through, youâd never want to inflict that same agonising betrayal onto Yuuji.
âI know. You think Iâm so beneath you, yeah?â he grins, and your mouth falls open in surprise, though his circling touch doesnât stop. âIâm a drug dealer, Iâm a bastard, Iâm a piece of shit. But, sweetheart, me ân Yuuji didnât grow up with daddyâs bank account like you. But look at you, princess. You hate me and youâre still letting me play with your sloppy cunt.â
âFuck you.â
âYou can, I know you want that. Youâre drenched. My fuckinâ fingers are pruning.â he laughs, you want nothing more than to cover your face in shame, but you canât while Sukunaâs heavy hand trap your wrists. âAwe, youâre cute when youâre embarrassed. Much cuter than when youâre trying to be tough fâme.â his rubbing halts, though the sense of abandonment is short lived as he plunges two thick fingers into you tight hole, his thumb rubbing circles into your clit again.
âO-Oh, fuck, hnngââ you groan, eyes meeting his as he pleasures you. And he drinks in the sight. Your tongue lolled from your mouth as you accommodate his touch, the pads of his fingers batter your g-spot again and again until your back arches. âSukuna, s-stop, we canât.â you warn him.
He smirks, ignoring you, opting to do the opposite. He increases the pace in which his fingers torment you, his cock leaks when he sees a few tears spill from your eyes. Heâs that good, huh? Maybe his little brother isnât as talented.
âYouâre fucking tight. Youâre gonna cum, arenâtcha?â he taunts you, you attempt to clamp your thighs around his hand, but it only spurs him on more. His fingers sink deeper. Your mind and rationale become lost to him. âYouâre gonna cum for a bastard like me? Your boyfriends brother, too. Gonna cum in your pants like a virgin just for me? Pathetic little girl.â
âOh FUCK, GOD!â you cry out, thighs trembling around his hand as you orgasm. Your chest heaves, and he doesnât fail to notice how your nipples have began to poke through your vest. âC-Christ, okay, lets just forgetââ
âIâm not done with you.â he speaks, it cuts through you as he lets your hands go. You massage them quickly, before he pushes his full weight on top of you as you lie flat against the mattress atop the sheets. He holds your jaw, roughly, and kisses you.
He humps his clothed, hard cock against your soaked sweatpants, your slick dampening them with each roll of his hips. He breathes heavily as you kiss. An exchange of saliva and clashing teeth as you moan and break away before licking at each otherâs tongues again and again.
You shudder when you feel him put his hands down your pants again, collecting the dewiness at the apex of your thighs before forcing it onto your tongue. And you suck, gratefully, replacing the loss of his lips with his monstrously thick fingers. You can hardly believe he fingered you so easily.
Your lips wrap around his digits beautifully. He moans as he watches your little hands in comparison to his own hold it in place so you can bob your head up and down the length, your tongue licks and laves until there isnât a trace of your dewiness left.
So he kisses you, again, tongues tangling as he dry fucks his cock into your clothed core. His hands roam and pinch and squeeze every inch of your body that he can grab. He yanks your sweatpants down, tossing them aside with little care to where they might land. And he surprises you, again, when he manoeuvres you seamlessly so that youâre straddling him.
He thinks itâs cute as you look around, unsure of how you got into this position. But he brings you back to him when he humps up into you so that you fall forwards. You kiss him again, but he breaks it to speak.
âLet me taste you, baby. Sit on my face.â he tells you. Youâre nervous, but you move yourself so that youâre hovering above him. He pushes a finger into your hole and you throw your head back in satisfaction. âI said sit. I wanna know what a slutty princess cunt tastes like, so fucking sit.â he orders, his arms hooking around your thighs and forcing you down until you smother him with your heat.
âFUCK,â you moan, loudly, as his nose nudges against your throbbing clit. You arenât sure what to do with so much freedom to move. The way he slurps and feasts on your dripping flesh sends wave after wave of embarrassment through you. And heâs loud heâs so fucking noisy as he moans into your heat and drinks every drop that your heavenly cunt has to offer. âJ-Jesus⌠ahâ!â you yelp, feeling his palm come down hard to strike your behind.
You begin to roll your hips, rubbing your pussy up and down over his face and stimulating your clit with his nose. He reaches under your vest, tweaking your nipple as you hump his face. He spanks you again, quickly, as you stop moving. Youâre too gone, completely lost in the moment as you use him for your pleasure. Youâd never have expected this from him.
He relinquishes your nipple to free his cock from itâs material prison. You heard the sticky sound of it ring through the room as he jerks himself off. His moaning becomes louder. The divine taste of your cunt and the ability to stroke himself goes straight to his head. Youâre gone, youâre fucking gone. But heâs right behind you. The way youâre smothering him makes him lightheaded, but heâs not letting you go until heâs ready.
You see the pink silhouette of his cock as you look over your shoulder, but youâre desperate to get a better view. He groans, so loudly that you think he might have came, as you tug on his pink hair. Using it to your advantage as you ride his face into your next toe-curling orgasm. And at that, you do collapse. Practically singing his name as you cum in his mouth, only when youâve reached your high does he let up on you.
He admires the view of your tits as you back up to look down at him, throwing your vest over your head as carelessly as heâs discarded your pants. His face is shimmering with your juices, and you feel another searing tidal wave of embarrassment as the reality sets in that youâve done this to him. And youâre still cheating on your boyfriend. But youâre past the point of no return, you think. Yuuji is barely on your mind, all of your attention is on his brother, now.
And heâs still not through with you yet.
âDo you need some cock?â he asks.
âY-Yes.â you nod, pathetically.
âLook at it, then. Look at my cock and beg for it.â he tells you.
You adjust your position so that youâre hovering above his face again but facing his cock perfectly. Itâs beautiful, you think. More defined than Yuujiâs but around the same size and width. His cockhead is more prominent and the veins are unmissable. Youâd have begged without even being asked if youâd gotten the chance to see it earlier.
âGo on,â he starts. You feel his hands between your shoulder blades and he pushes you down roughly. âBeg for my cock, whore.â
âPlease, please Sukuna. I need you to fuck me.â you start, completely reduced to tears as you look at it as your mouth waters. You hold him with both hands, and youâre still unable to hold the entire length of it. âWanna cum on you. W-Want you to b-bruise my cervix. Need to feel you inside, please, please please.â youâre practically sobbing as you continue.
âKiss it.â he demands. âWorship my cock, and Iâll decide if your slutty cunt is worthy.â he tells you. Your eyes widen, but you kiss his tip without question. Itâs so sweet and affectionate despite how sordid and lewd it is. But you canât help it. Itâs worthy of worship. Youâre sure itâll hurt, but youâll take it. You donât mind in the least.
You lick your tongue across his slit, poking your tongue into it slightly and relishing in how he hisses from the sensation. He buries his face in your cunt again, moaning into your soaking folds as you please him.
His length is freed from one of your hands, making the decision to cup his balls as your kiss down his shaft towards his pubis. His head is thrown back as you make contact with his balls, the grunt he releases is ethereal, youâd never have known such beautiful sounds could from him.
You scream, slightly, as he spanks your ass. It encourages you to take him down your throat and ignore your gag reflex and you bob and suck and run your tongue along each vein it can detect. He can barely focus on eating you out, too bewildered with your near pornographic performance.
âSuch a good little cocksucker. No wonder Yuuji likes you.â he spanks you again. âThink heâd still like you if I told him Iâve been balls deep down your throat, slut? Iâm not so sure. But I like you, a lot more now.â
âS-Shut up.â you tell him, defiantly. You silence him as you lower your pussy to his lips again, distracting him momentarily with your sweet taste.
You feel his cock flexing in your hand, like heâs ready to blow his load right down your willing throat. Even though you donât want him to cum like this, you wouldnât mind. Youâll swallow every last drop for him.
He stops you, though, shoving you away from him so that he doesnât cum prematurely.
âHands and knees, now.â he speaks coldly. He admires your face quickly before you get into the position he wants you in. Itâs glistening with sweat, tears, spit, and his precum. âGood fucking girl.â he spanks you as you arch your back and wait patiently for him. Your legs spread apart and your cunt pulses in anticipation for him to slot himself inside.
He doesnât though, not right away. Instead, he leans over to his beside table and pulls his phone off charge. He kneels behind you as he pulls up the camera app and swiping to video mode. His sweatpants are shoved down his thighs and rest at his knees. He takes a few photos of your glittering, pulsating cunt, spreading it open as his fingers dig into one of your ass cheeks.
âPretty fuckinâ princess pussyâŚâ he moans, and you mirror him, following it with a giggle. You feel a sense of pride at his praise, arching your back deeper. âOhhh there she is, good girl, good little slut.â
He drags his cockhead through your shimmering folds, gasping each time it catches against your hole.
âP-Please fuck me, daddy, n-eed it.â you whine, earning another hard slap against your ass. Heâs happy, of course. He didnât expect you to be such a slut, heâd never have expected you to utter such a filthy title for him of all people. Heâs certainly never heard you refer to Yuuji as daddy whenever he hears you fucking through the thin walls.
âYouâve got good manners, for a whore.â he speaks, your hole flutters with each word, but he sees how hard you clench as he degrades you. A new understanding of what your body likes. Heâd only been doing it for his benefit, but now, he knows you like it too. âDo you like being a whore for daddy, hm?â
âY-Yes,â you pant, âLove beinâ a whore for you, daddyâŚâ
âCute. Iâll give you my cock, then.â he pushes the tip in before pulling out completely again, chuckling at how whiny you are from the loss. âBut you know, princess, good whores like to be cummed in. Youâll let me, wonât you?â
âPlease⌠please cum inside. W-Want you to fill me up!â you tell him, and itâs enough. Itâs more than enough to have him bullying his cock into your desperate cunt. You moan, boisterously from the stretch. Youâre sure their neighbours wonât be happy if theyâre home, the whole complex probably heard you. But you donât care, and neither does he.
Heâs glad that you said he could cum inside.
Itâs not like you had a choice, though.
âDo you still want me to bruise your cervix?â he asks, angling the phone in his hand to capture how fucking deep he is inside of you. Your ass pressed flush against him as you swallow his cock hungrily. You nod, dumbly, yelping again when you feel a stinging slap against your cushioned ass. âWords.â
âWant you to br-uuise my c-cervix, daddy.â you wince.
âYouâre such a good fuck toy, arenât you?â he laughs.
He begins to pound into you, his brute strength and weight behind every aggressive pummel of his hips. It hurts, God, it fucking hurts as his tip nudges against your cervix. But you donât care, youâre sure you will when youâre sober and your logical train of thought returns.
But now, in this moment, you truly are Sukunaâs fuck toy.
And it feels fucking sublime.
He captures on film the way that you moan and gasp and plead for something you arenât even aware of. The way your hands grip into his pristine white sheets. But is favourite part is watching how your pussy stretches open as you swallow his coke can cock. And the way your ass ripples with each pulverizing thrust into you.
âF-Fuck,â he moans, âYouâre fucking suffocating me.â he speaks, barely able to contain himself as he feels heady with lust. He doesnât stop, though, he doesnât care if you cum anymore. Heâll finger you again to finish you off if needs be, but for now, he needs to be selfish. Thoughts of filling you up and flooding your unprotected womb make him feral.
âSukuna! S-Stop!â you warn him.
âHuh?â he responds, showing no intention of stopping or slowing as he rams his cock into you repeatedly. The only thing on his mind is finishing, he couldnât care less about your change of heart or guilty conscience.
âF-Feels funny, I- I canât! Hnnngâ!â you finish, cunt squirting and gushing like a fountain all over him. âOh my godâŚâ you pant, burying your face in the pillows as you hide your shame from him.
âHoly fuck,â he responds, thrilled that heâd captured the moment on film. You show no signs of stopping either. You squirt as much as a backed-up teenager getting his first handjob. He spanks your pussy and rubs his hand all over it, making a complete mess of the two of you and the sheets below. âDirty little squirter, hah? Fuck, youâre like a pornstar.â he tells you, chuckling again.
You donât dare show your face, but you mewl into the pillows as you ride out the rest of your high as he shoves his cock back into you.
âDo it again, on my cock.â he demands.
âC-Canât, canât cum anymore.â you tell him, utterly spent and defeated as you allow him to use your body for his own benefit.
âBrat. Youâll cum on daddyâs cock and be grateful that Iâve been so good to you.â he explains. And true to his word, he manages to build it up in you again, somehow, as he continuously batters his length into your g-spot until your vision turns white.
Heâs not doing much better, either, still enraptured by the sight of your dripping wet pussy and soiled sheets. Itâs something he needs to see again, a sight he will treasure âtil the day he fucking dies.
âCum, slut. Make a fucking mess.â he speaks through gritted teeth.
âMmmnf, hah, aaaahâ!â you moan, granting his wish. The sight helps him topple over into his own bliss. His cum flooding your ruined walls, he fucks it further into you, but pulls out eventually to see his sperm dripping from your filthy cunt.
âAre you embarrassed, brat? You sprayed yourself again.â he snickers, spreading your pussy open with two fingers to see the mixture of his cum and your release spill from your twitching hole. âHas Yuuji ever made you do that? No⌠Iâm sure he doesnât know youâre this much of a dirty whore. But I do, I know now.â
The mere mention of the man youâve betrayed has you bursting into tears. The sex was mind-blowing, yes, but at what cost? Youâve been begging him to move in. Hell, he was talking about marrying you. But you canât have that with him, now, not after this.
You sobered up a little after a shower, making sure to keep the door locked as you washed yourself of your indiscretion. You even waited in there until you dried off to get changed, not wanting to risk Sukuna seeing you naked again. The damage is done, of course, but you at least want to be able to proudly say it was a mistake that will never happen again.
Maybe Yuuji will forgive you.
Thereâs no way you can keep it from him. Not after what you went through. Itâll break his heart, of course it will. But you canât hide it, itâll just get worse over time when it eventually comes out, because it will. Whether you tell him or Sukuna does through a weed induced stupor, the truth will come out.
Youâve been checking the time on your phone repeatedly to see if Yuuji has finished work yet. Eager and filled with fear and anxiety so that you can tell him, honestly, what happened. Heâs going to hate you. Thereâs no way he wonât hate you after this. But you owe it to him and you owe it to yourself to be truthful.
You tense up as you hear a knock at the door. Yuuji wouldnât knock, so you know who it is.
âGo away.â you warn him, but it doesnât deter him.
âAw, donât talk to daddy like that.â he smiles, a shit eating grin that you want to smash against concrete.
âYouâve ruined my life, get out of here.â you tell him, crossing your legs as you check the time on your phone again. You sigh, throwing it further down the bed so that itâs out of reach. Youâd missed how he shrugged his shoulders with a laugh as he turned to leave. But you stop him. âDonât tell Yuuji, please. I want to be the one to tell him.â
âTell him⌠what?â
You look at him, bewildered, unable to process if heâs being serious or not.
âThat we fucked.â you remind him, deciding you arenât about to spend all day trying to decipher his tone. âI need to be the one to tell him, so donât say anything.â
âOh, tell him that?â he questions, laughing again as he realises he knows something you donât know.
âItâs not fucking funny, Sukuna!â
âYeah, it is, youâre a little slow on the uptake.â he laughs some more, sitting on the edge of the bed. His ruby red eyes piercing into yours intimidatingly despite the smile on his face. âYou donât need to tell Yuuji anything.â
âYeah, I dââ
âYuuji knows.â he laughs, louder, almost bursting into hysterics as he sees the astonished look on your face.
âW-What?â you sigh, looking around the room in horror.
âYeah⌠I mean, câmon.â he smirks. âWhy else would he text you to come over, when he wasnât even home?â
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