#i hate my skin

[born2d1elover]

[lyra-heartstring]

The feeling of making amazing outfits but then remembering im ugly makes me hit a newer low.

[cloudnuggett]

"fuck it, we ball," i say as i disobey doctors orders (your boy did not lube up before beddy byes tonight)

[hoernypie]

me: having tomorrow a job interview pimple appearing on my face:

[garfzai]

clawing at my skin i need it off i need it off i need it off i need it off i need it off i need it off i need it off i need it off i need it off take it off get it off me it hurts its burning god why does it hurt there are hairs all over my body where do they come from i cant get it off my nails are ruining the skin what the hell is wrong with me

[moonysprettypoison]

“Lipstick on a pig”

confidence after having severe cystic acne will never be the same📉 the way im off acctane and I hate how my face looks, like all the acne scars that look like pores :(

[acroagoraphobe]

I fuvking hate veins. like if I can see my veins, or anyone else's veins it makes me physically sick. Like I get nauseous.

Don't even exactly know why.

Could just be because WHY CAN I SEE THE BLOOD NOODLES IN MY FLESH???

or that it reminds me of my own mortality

Or that they look too exposed and it feels not safe

(I saw a man with really veiny arms a little bit ago and I almost threw up)

[kiwidotcom]

why am I so ugly 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩

[haruchiyos]

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[lyra-heartstring]

TW: Mentions of Sh, suicide, Od, racism ( self directed/internalized )

Before i start, the racism part of this is genuinely only to myself. I dont care what race other people are, i just hate mine.

Letter for the boy in the mirror that i wish to kill.

Spending the past 16 years of my life being ugly has been my enternal hell. I have to live everyday knowing im conventionally unattractive and no matter the clothes i wear and the way i style myself ill always be ugly. I have wonderful outfits that i think are really fucking cool or just nice and casual, but the only issue is my face and my skin. I dont want to deal with this shit, i hate my skin tone and i hate everyone trying to tell me to be proud of it. " Black is beautiful "Go fuck yourself, im not and for some reason everyone feels the need to let me know like i havent had to live with this body that i wish wasn't nine. "You're ugly" " who would like you" " you can atleast try to be funny " all of you can die, im tired of you and your fake sympathetic bullshit or the rejections in which i get infantalized bc people dont wwnt to be mean, just for me to find out wbt what they were thinking later. I get it im ugly and i tucking hate my race every issue i have stems in some way shape or form from those 2 factors (gender is another but that's a seperate rant on its own ) and don't give me that bullshit " its just your style " " dress nicely " fashion is a looks thing irregardless of how u want to spin it. Outfits look good because of how the person looks and for some fucking reason nothing works with me. My parents are trying to style me as some proper black christiwn boy, thats litterally the entire opposite of what i want to be. i have to deal with everyone tell me shit like " your outfit looks good", hoping one day they talk about me. " your shirt is nice " what about me?, " your outfit is cute ", what about me?. Ive spent years living as the billshit excuse of a human being with people shoving it down throat that im ugly, but THE SECOND I TRY TO KILL MY SELF OR I CUT MYSELF EVERYONE IS SUDDENLY THE GOOD SAMARITAN READY TO SAVE ME FROM MY TROUBLES. " Im jealous of you ", " i wish i looked like you ", " you arent ugly " I swear to every single celestial being i will rip off the head of the next person who tries to spoon feed me this bullshit. Im the person who is better off taking the photos, the one in the back of the pictures being blocked by people and thanks to my fucking skin tone i looked like some fucked up horror monster in polaroids. Now that its been 16 years of not a single person being there for me, suddenly everyone is some empath and knows how i feel. " i relate " " i understand how you " NO YOU FUCKING DONT, YOU POST AESTHETIC PHOTOS OF YOURSELF WEEKLY, HAVE PEOPLE HITTING ON YOU, WEAR WHATEVER YOU WANT BC U ARE ATTRACTIVE ANYWAYS SO ANYTHING U WEAR IS A " fit ". GO FUCKING KILL YOURSELF, TRY BEING THE PERSON THAT EVERYONR IS SUPRISED MANAGES TO DATE SOMEONE, ITS NOT THE SURPRISED OF " we didnt know " ITS THE BULLSHIT SURPRISE WHETE THEY ACY LIKE YOUR PARTNER IS BLIND OR YOU ARR PAYING THE PERSON TO DATE YOU. ITS THAT BULLSHIT SURPRISE YHAT SOMEONE ON GOD'S GREEN EARTH LIKES YOU. IF YOU EVEN GO THROUGH A PORTION OF THAT THEN MAYBE SAY U UNDERSTAND ME, DONT TRY TO RELATE TO MY STORY WHEN YOUR BIGGEST WORRY IS BEING HIT ON. MY BIGGEST WORRY IS BEING CALLED CREEPY BC I SAID I LIKE SOMEONE, OR A WEIRDO BC I CONFESS TO SOMEONE " i like you " BC ITS CRAZY THAT MY ABORTED FETUS LOOK-A-LIKE SELF HAS YHE AUDACITY TO DEVELOP FEELINGS WHILR LOOKING THE WAY I DO. EVERYONE ELSE CAUSE DO THE SAME SHIT AND ITS A SILLY FUN HIGHSCHOOL EXPERIENCE, ITS FUNNY, AKWARD, ROMANTIC. What i would give to be a different person, different hair, different face, different race, different voice, the amout i would throw away just for that is unmeasureable. To the higher beings i hate you for what you have

done to me, people worship you for what you have fone for them, and im suppossed to join along and be thankful of the gift of life when my life has been nothing but a curse. I hate you for how i look, i hate that everyday i have to find new methods to not think or look into mirrors bc my immediate reaction to commit suicide. Im 16 with a violent hatred towards my face, a waste of space incomplete cell called my body, the urge/desire to kill myself the second i think abt how i look, pure hatred and negativity. I spend all my time cutting because the moment the blade leaves my skin i remember im ugly. The many nights i stare into the mirror with the pills in my hand as i cry for being dealt this shit of a hand from life. I hope for happiness one day but ik that i will never find it nor will i let go of this anger. To the few people reading this

[postingunholystuff]

i got the jacket i wanted for a while but now i feel like i don’t deserve it because it doesn’t look THAT good on me (bitch i wonder why 😐)

[pansy-placebo]

*after yet again having completed my carefully-crafted, years-of-trial-and-error made skincare routine*

My skin: hmm :/ is this what you call skin "care"? It's... not very much. But, I can see you're still... trying, I suppose? So, in fairness, I will remove 1 entire pimple tonight, and I will add only 1 more to another place. This seems fair.

Me: thank you, your majesty, for your generosity. Truly.

*1 day substituting 1 step of my skincare routine*

Me: I'm sorry :( I'm out of my usual cleanser :( I hope this will do :(

my skin: You dare to neglect me?! You don't expect me to believe this filth could possibly be a soap, do you? Who runs out of something so simple? So basic? A caveman could get that brand of cleanser, surely, so this must be malice! Well, since you insist on insulting me... 24 NEW PIMPLES ON THE HOUR, EVERY HOUR until you give me the humble, inexpensive, bare-basics I need to survive. I won't stand for this, you SKIN-CARELESS PEASANT!

[tbirb]

I hate my pores. But I’m tryna love the skin I’m in anyway.

[why-fucking-bother-anymore]

I'm so tired of being alive.

[tarisagay]

Oh boy, I love having psoriasis /sar

[petricorah]

when your uncle realizes your feelings for your best friend before you do (from @bisexuallsokka) happy prince and the fool day! [ids in alt]