#pansy talk

[pansy-placebo]

This is your sign to get That Thing that you've thought would be useful for a long time, but didn't think you should get it for whatever reason. This is the sign to get that thing.

I bought a shower chair, a phone holder for the shower, and a powered scrubber. And my life is forever changed.

Context: I've been pretty open about how, for the past year or so, I've been increasingly struggling with bathing. I used to shower roughly every other day, and gradually that became about once a week, and then further, and then to the point where I genuinely don't know how often I've been bathing. It's just been deodorant and dry shampoo for a long, long time.

This is because I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS) and dissociative issues. Everything way is way more mentally and physically taxing with CFS, and the dissociation makes it doubly hard to focus. My phone would be blasting some video outside the shower to keep me present, but afterwards I'd still be exhausted for at least the rest of the day.

I got around the problem a little by taking "spit baths" or "bird baths", basically washing the important parts in the sink. Then I'd use deodorant for the rest (which, as long as I semi-regularly changed my clothes, went well /gen). I went a long time using primarily these methods, as it uses overall less energy than a full shower.

But smelling good and being basically hygienic ≠ feeling clean. I was getting the important parts, but I only ever feel clean when I've thoroughly showered.

So. After a great deal of consideration, I decided to get a shower chair and a water-resistant phone holder, and while I was on the webpage, I saw a neat powered body scrubber thingy I've always wanted, and ordered it in the spur of the moment. The phone holder arrived yesterday, the chair and scrubber today.

I've included some reference pictures for anyone who doesn't know what I'm talking about

And today, I finally took a shower with all the little things I've wanted. The phone holder and the shower chair and the electric scrubber thingy and. Holy shit. I feel better after this shower than any shower I've had in well over a year. Maybe even two years at this point.

It was a little awkward at first, I'm not used to sitting in the shower, but once I got used to everything it was an overall amazing experience.

I actually started laughing at some point, because all those things I've wanted, but for some reason had been afraid of getting, made it so much easier that it felt absurd and delightful and I enjoyed bathing for once!!

Once the shower was over, I grabbed the towel and sat on the shower chair to dry, something new for me. And, once I got out, I immediately got changed into fresh clothes instead of spending hours laying in bed recuperating.

I went and made myself dinner just now!!! Granted, it was just microwave baked beans, but I can never cook after bathing!!!

Anyway I'm sitting here drying and cozy in my usual Warm Things and feeling very, very happy about my purchases.

The moral of this story is that if you have the ability to get something that you suspect will make your life easier, get it.

It doesn't matter whether you're sick or not, it doesn't matter if you're diagnosed, it doesn't matter if you can technically get by without it. It doesn't matter if the thing is for "old people" and you're young, it doesn't matter if it's for disabled people and you're not sure if you "count" because you "only have" [the mental or physical issue that's affecting you].

Get the fucking thing. If it will make your life better, you should get it. It won't be a waste of money if it makes you less miserable, whatever it is.

Do not deny yourself the tools you need to live comfortably and happily.

You have my permission and my endorsement, if that means anything to you.

Xxx. Pansy

P.s. stay tuned because I'll be getting a powered wheelchair or scooter in the coming months. The moment I figure out how to do it, I will. I should have gotten one when I was first diagnosed but I didn't. I will not be repeating my past mistakes and denying myself the tools I need to live comfortably and happily.

[iamnmbr3]

Draco in second year like: Did you hear? Ginny Weasley fancies Harry Potter. How embarrassing. Can you imagine? Can you imagine someone being attracted to Harry Potter? I couldn't. I mean what's he got besides his stupid scar and his stupid hair and his stupid green eyes and his Seeker skills and his heroics?

Can you believe someone is actually attracted to that? I can't. It must be so embarrassing for her friends. Imagine having to put up with that. Imagine if someone just talked about Harry Potter all the time. It would drive me mad.

The entirety of Slytherin House: ...........

[ziggystqrdust]

chika ng isang bading na walang kwenta <3

[pansiesanddaisies]

I still keep thinking about this moment ever since I first saw it in Side Order. Marina really went through some character development after Splatoon 2's final fest.

[thekidsfromyestergay]

I need you all to understand that putting "PANSY" in giant sparkly lettering on your guitar in 2004 was like putting a target on your back that said "faggot"

[ghostiekins]

Shinsengumi+Mitsuba!

Kondou - Daffodil: I read on a hanakotoba website that daffodils can represent “respect” and “unrequited love” which I feel encapsulates Kondou and his relationship with the Shinsengumi and Otae.

Hijikata - White Rose: Roses felt like an obvious choice because of the Baragaki arc, so I drew Hijikata with roses and thorns. I think Hijikata also has a sort of innocence to him too? Like when he fantasized about the mayo factory lmao so I thought white roses which represent innocence was fitting.

Okita - Forget-Me-Not: I thought forget-me-nots were fitting for Okita because it makes me think of his feelings of not wanting to be left behind by Kondou and Mitsuba.

Mitsuba - White Lilies: White lilies symbolize purity and dignity so I thought it was fitting for Mitsuba who personified both attributes to the very end. They’re also the flowers on her kimono I believe.

Saitou - Marigold: I read that Marigolds can mean loneliness, which I thought would fit Saitou who is extremely shy and has trouble making friends.

Yamazaki - Pansy: I just thought the color scheme of pansies worked well with Yamazaki when I was thinking about animal crossing flowers (Sorry for not having a deeper meaning Zaki...)

[daddiesdrarryy]

Pansy: Seduce me with your knowledge

Hermione: Hogwarts is established around the 10th century

Pansy: Yeeeeees!

Hermione: …

[quillkiller]

butch dyke ginny is actually the only ginny that exists

LITERALLY!!!!!!!!

that girl has 6 older brothers!!!!!!! molly must’ve been overjoyed when she had a girl and could finally start buying girls clothes. and the comp het…… ginnys crush on harry when she was TEN ? and then she just never fell out of love with him ??? and i know for a fact that molly watered that seed whenever she could so harry could finally become part of the family fr. she dates around at hogwarts looking for male validation because all she knows she knows through femininity and how she’s being percieved through the male gaze. molly wants her to be her perfect princess daughter. shes not allowed to get down and dirty with her brothers. she’s ALWAYS seperated from them. molly wants her help in the kitchen and to go shopping and to learn how to be harrys perfect wife. and i dont even really blame molly for this either she got overly excited after being surrounded by boys and its the early 2000s!!! late 1990s!!!!

but finally ginny gets to go to hogwarts and she gets to play quidditch and she gets to be loud and brash and take space. she finally gets to be unpleasant and ’like her brothers’. which always sort of makes her ’one of the boys’ however she never ever will be because all her male friends want to fuck her. she’s still a girl to them. and im suuuure she was a pick me girlie and ’not like other girls’. then shes the saviours girlfriends and shes the wizarding worlds darling and she doesn’t have her own personality outside of being a woman. a daughter. someones girlfriend. sister. someone men want to fuck. SHE WAS POSSESSED BY VOLDEMORT WHEN SHE WAS 11 AND IF THAT ISNT A METAPHOR FOR COMP HET I DONT KNOW WHAT IS…………… her entire life is ruled by men, surrounded by men, while also having to be the good and perfect girl.

after the war and post hinny breakup she starts seeing a therapist/mind healer and they work through all of this and how femininity feels like a costume on her and how she can’t stand seeing herself in the mirror and how mens eyes on her make her feel dirty and she wants men to find her repulsive. she wants to be like her brothers, wants to fit in with them, doesn’t want them to feel like shes a ’girl they have to protect’. she cuts her hair short and starts wearing charlies jumper he forgot at her place once and she stops wearing makeup and men stop looking at her and she’s so relieved and so free and then she meet pansy in the waiting area (shes seeing the same therapist) and pansy calls her handsome while trying not to drool

and then they start dating and pansy talks about her own experience with lesbianism and her experience being femme and how she cant avoid men wanting her but she’s comfortable presenting herself the way she does and after everything that’s happened, her comfort means so much to her. pansy talks about how she knows shes subscribing to patriarchal standards but sometimes just existing as a lesbian is radical enough. she feels good about herself and she’s tuning out mens eyes on her but she wants ginny to watch her. she wants ginny to think she’s hot and she wants to straddle ginny and be her girl. its not a perfect world but having dinner with a handsome woman darting her eyes all over her body makes her forget about that and maybe that’s enough!!!!!!!! maybe desire isn’t bad!!!!!!! maybe being desired feels good and doesn’t have to feel violating!!!!!!! maybe excluding men entirely makes them both free!!!!!!!!!

im a little insane about them. 🧍

[idliketobeatree]

rereading the book omens again and I must admit, Aziraphale really is That Bitch most of the time. that being said, I really enjoy the special kind of uwu and sluttiness Michael brings to the table

[flowerakatsuka]

quick doodle before i head out to the movies, i wanted to draw what high school!kuroba looks like in kara's memories. since he can't remember their name, he just calls them " pansy-san. "

[potionofinstantdamage]

in a very slightly alternate universe they were team pansy thats all im saying

[pansy-placebo]

I want y'all to know that your dungeonposting has had a major effect on my life.

I honestly thought the show was just like any other overhyped anime that Netflix was pushing on me, so I never even gave it a chance.

Your posts- little screenshots and memes and shipping art and reposted manga pages and all of that- changed that, and for a few weeks now I've been watching it with my partner.

I'd probably have finished the whole show on my own by now, if it weren't for our little routine:

My partner makes dinner. Sometimes I make my own, but often he's cooked a meal to share. Usually it's something that I've never tried before. Then we watch the show and enjoy our food together, along with the protagonists :3 🍲🍜🥘

Thank you for filling my dash with your dungeon meshi posts, because that show has warmed our hearts💝, given us a fun daily ritual🍚📺 and blessed our screens with Senshi's panty shots.🩲📸

And yes I am talking specifically to everyone who has ever put dungeonmeshi on my tl. Who are usually the same 2-3 moots.

[patrophthia]

i love writing theo as the loser with no game even though girls all over hogswart are down bad for him —they won’t make a move bc he looks like he eats babies for breakfast though

[ginerva-mollyweasley]

"the three of us were sort of leaders"

THE SILVER TRIO [GINNY WEASLEY & NEVILLE LONGBOTTOM & LUNA LOVEGOOD] → my top 50 fictional characters [10/50]

[pansiesanddaisies]

If I had a nickel for every time I was hyperfixated on a piece of media that had an autistic black cat I'd have two nickels. Which isn't a lot but it's weird it happened twice, right?

[eryanlainfa]

important thought i just had. how do you imagine hugo’s gender nonconformity like how does he identify with any label in particular or is he just Like that. and more importantly do you think he’s already figured it out by the time he meets the gang or do you think the egg breaks later. BC SEE i’ve always imagined up until the trials shes never had the time to think about herself at ALL, like she obviously knows shes kinda *flicks wrist* yk but otherwise she’s never really actually come to any real conclusions about herself. so i think as soon as they move in with varian and once they’ve finally settled and they have SO much free time and so many things going on in their head, they’re trying new hobbies and finding all sorts of things to tinker with and most importantly they finally have the opportunity to care about their appearance and suddenly the gender crisis hits them like a fucking FREIGHT TRAIN

all this is to say because. I was thinking about that again today and then i remembered aiden and it was like my third eye opened bc i realized the sheer potential in that scenario with airigo. like i feel like aiden would’ve seen that shit coming a MILE AWAY and i think that’d be so cute and also so fucking funny and. I need to hear your thoughts ok

[Hi. Future Ery talking. I started rambling and I have no clue if what I said is actually coherent or even answers your question at all- But the idea was there! Also I personally headcanon everything and anything, I love switching labels of one character and making a whole new au for it. But covering EVERYTHING would be too long so I answered regarding Aiden's main timeline only- but if you want me to talk about transfem Hugo in particular I'd love to!!]

Sobbing and crying this is so cute and funny your brain is wonderful mwah mwah. I think all you said could 100% work and I can see a version where it would make sense for Hugo to not had the time to discover themself properly. And Aiden just clocking her right away is so funny 😭

Saddly it wouldn't work in Aiden's original timeline simply because, in this case, Hugo wouldn't be Hugo if he hadn't transition already.

I've never really openly delved into my headcanons for the whole gang, because I like people being able to interpret my art however they want (and also because I can change my mind whenever and no one would know-). But in Aiden's universe, Hugo isn't amab.

But to go back on how I imagine Hugo's gender noncomformity!

Firstly, in universe, I'm not sure neither Hugo nor Aiden really identify with a gender label. They don't really have a word for it so they're just how they are. But I personally label him as bigender transmasc. And I do still label them as gay. Cuz. Queer homosexuals representation. Yay.

Secondly- Hugo actually transitioned before figuring out his gender. Being an orphan is already harsh, being poor is terrible and he figured being female generally made things more difficult. So she didn't want to be one. When he got recruited by Don for the first time he was already dead set on not wanting to be a girl and didn't have a name anymore so Donella is the one who named him Hugo. I think Don was "supportive" as in she really didn't care, and if helping Hugo transition meant he would be more useful then that worked for her just fine. So Hugo got to transition but it wasn't really because he didn't feel like he wasn't a girl, she just didn't think it would be advantageous for him to be one.

Sorry I got sidetracked- cough- Back on topic.

One thing I wanted regarding Hugo's relationship to gender is the fact that he is comfortable being fem BECAUSE he got to transition.

For work they would play whichever role worked best no matter the gender. At first, looking like a guy needed more work, which bothered him because it was his goal, so for a while he had a clear preference for appearing masculine. But years later, after having transitioned to a comfortable point, she figured she really didn't mind being either gender. And it made playing different roles even more fun and easy for them. Not necessarily in a fluid way, he's just everything at once most of the time.

So he already got herself figured out quite well when 7k starts. Actually, Hugo being openly queer is another reason why she caught Aiden's interest so fast. And I wanted them to mirror each others in a way, with Hugo being comfortable because he transitioned and Aiden being more comfy doing the absolute bare minimum-. Also I had this one joke that sometimes Nuru and Hugo would have girls nights during the journey. So I needed she/her Hugo for all of this to work lol. But I do believe Hugo still gets to affirm and discover himself even more after he settles, it's just mostly about other things.

BUT YOU KNOW WHO'S EGG GOT TO CRACK DURING THE TRIALS IN MY MIND-??? Varian. He's agender. My whole gang is trans and the joke was that Varian is the token cis guy of the group (because I thought it was funny). But he isn't. He just doesn't know because he's always too busy thinking of literally anything else and he never really registered that was an option. He still uses he/him tho. Because I enjoy gender fuckery.

In summary :

○ Bigender ○ agender ○ genderfluid ○

Also, since I decided to finally talk about my headcanons, I think too many people assumed Aiden is the one pregnant -in that one comic-. They aren't.