#i hate my memory

[cyazurai]

Finally getting around to answering asks (yes I did absolutely forget to answer them after I said I would remember to this last weekend)!!

@theworstsimblr, @tipsy-clouds, @kissalopa, @emzchaos, @nikatyler - thank you all so so so much! I wanted to save each of these for a while just because I felt like hoarding sweet messages. 💖 (One a lot longer than others. D:)

[hnwd]

sjsjds speaking of things that disappear I lost the artist who makes a comic on the past Dream-Night child. i forgot the name i forgot the artist i only remember the story hhhh a masterpiece but sksbsbssnsnsn where is he?!

[soyhasmcaamp]

Grrrrrrr I hate remembering things incompletely!!!!!!! I still think about that one artist who's songs I can't remember the names of or his name and now I remembered an anime that was super cool and had a lot of potential that I never finished and I can't remember the title!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's about a guy who sneaks off to an abandoned building to find a way to reanimate his dog I think? And a girl who goes to a well behind that building every day and screams into that well. They somehow form contact and something happens and the girl falls off a cliff and dies but then she becomes a zombie. The last scene I remember is the girl stitching her wound together and the guy commenting something about rigor mortis.

Ya if anyone knows that anime pls tell me I really wanna know what actually happens there!!!!

[theaudenator]

you ever send someone a video you think they'd enjoy and realize you already sent it to them a month ago? so you just... awkwardly delete it and act like you didn't just send it again?

[exospherethoughts]

You don't feel real anymore, every memory I have of you feels more like a fantasy than a real instance in time. It's breaking my heart.

[mildarka]

Felt like making a reverted AU

[imarandomperson101]

Does anybody else have an issue where people seem to remember you from the childhood to the point they know your birthday but you don’t remember them at all so you just nod and laugh and say “Oh yeah it’s you! :)”

[ba1laur]

2023 darkstalker floating in space doing nothing grinning evily and scary. png 1 and 2

[laurrelise]

okay i gotta be so honest one of the ONLY good parts about season 4 is when five is sketching in his little book and lila goes “dear diary, why do i always wear suits?”

that was fucking hilarious i will die on this hill

[puppyeared]

these two are so interesting to me

characters belong to @canisalbus

[jascurka]

babygirl........

[000marie198]

I don't care how excited it might make some people, I don't like this remake

[shrimpricebowl]

oh thank god

[morganbritton132]

Eddie, in the middle of a live-stream: Hey baby, guess what I just remembered?

Steve: What?

Eddie: Remember when you dad heard that you got married to a woman and was going to un-disown you?

Eddie: Then he saw Robin and clocked her immediately. He threw that hissy fit in the parking lot at the Hideout.

Eddie: Now that I think about it, he clocked me as queer immediately, too

Steve: Yeah, he was a pretty shitty dad, but he had excellent gaydar

Eddie: I don’t know about that. He didn’t know about you

Steve: Base on some of the things he called me growing up makes me think he had an inkling.

Eddie: …Well now this conversation isn’t fun anymore

Steve: Sorry.

[k1tty5]

pearlie based off a photo i saw on pinterest

the photo + version w/out the red moon. because. i can’t decide if it’s better with or without

[fumifooms]

I don’t like minimizing the importance and gravity of Laios and Toshiro’s fight into just being a childish squabble, even if to a degree it is framed that way, because to both of them it has a lot of personal significance and emotional weight and runs very deep to their characters… The fight isn’t nothing it’s a LOT, they made up but it’s not something easy to express and to get over for either of them which makes it all the more meaningful! I’m on both sides but there very much are sides, there’s no "they’re both having a ball, Toshiro and Laios hand in hand yay" side to the fight, that comes after

The fight with Toshiro WAS very scary to Laios, almost existentially so, but it’s moreso the "I thought I’d made a friend!!" bit and my god. My god actually

Like it’s not "just" about oh his friend liking him less than he thought, THAT IS SO MUCH. It’s a bond he thought he had being a lie it’s all the time and moments spent together either being a lie from his perspective or marred now looking back. It’s not only being upset at Toshiro for lying but upset at himself that he’s so easy to fool, it’s being upset that there’s something so wrong with you that you can’t even tell if your "close buddy" even actually likes you or not, it’s like. Holding my head. He can’t trust his own vision of events that happened do you see. There’s always this film of distrust that it could be a lie that should be there when he interacts with people there’s always this sense of cloak and dagger to expect backstabs out of nowhere because you CAN’T see it coming you CAN’T you CAN’T there’s something about you which makes it impossible so you CAN’T-

He’s so scared of not being able to read people. He knows it’s a weak spot he has, he’s always known. All of these bits are centered around social expectations and betrayals, the assumption that he doesn’t belong either in society or with other humans.

And Laios’ level of awareness is actually sort of complex to analyze, but it’s there, there’s how out of him and Falin he was the one sensitive to the ~aura of hatred~ he felt from the townspeople, there’s of course his nightmares whispering to him about the mocking looks, and how yeah actually he realizes that his gold stripper coworker was taking advantage of him. There’s of course the Winged Lion speech about his trauma and how he fundamentally mistrusts/dislikes humans to some deep seated degree, this distrust that he still keeps under control always. There’s how pre-canon he often wanted to suggest eating monsters but never worked up the courage to bring it up with the others. There’s how he gets across as stoic when he isn’t being enthusiastic…… We don’t know how aware and wary he is exactly in the moment but we do know he has some anxiety around social stuff, and looking back he does notice and aughh augh, the sense you have to hide yourself to not get hurt and be on your guard and shit and.

When you don’t know what to look out for and when to look out for it, the general ‘common sense’ of not always trusting people or noticing when someone’s messing with you becomes hypervigilance in social settings

"Man they really know what you hate huh". Being socially unaware literally plagues him, he knows, he knows it so well.

It’s so quick that it’s almost hard to digest how literal and blatant Laios summoning his monster to crush all the people who’ve hurt him is. His literal go-to coping mechanism for comfort in his literal monster-induced emotionally intense nightmares, saving him by taking away the upsetting element (the humans)

"Monsters are his coping fantasy, where they can whisk him away from humanity, all the hurt it’s caused him and its arbitrary rules" with the subtlety of a brick. Monsters are his comfort safe zone "because they kill humans" yes but no it’s because he pits them as the guardians against humans who to him are in the role of the agressors. To him they represent freedom from the shackles of what it means to be part of humanity, a fundamentally social species