#i had to get this off of my chest

[mitsvriii]

to @fionaifi - tw for talks abt ed & sh

mentioning other people's names who have nothing to do with this is actually insane. not to mention that you're mocking disorders, people who have them, and trying to build this facade that you're the victim here. not only are your words contradictory, such as the statement about your "pets"; ""i have pictures of my pets utc" & "i have of them have someone i know irl in them because im not normally one to take pictures of my pets" but you're trying to make it seem like the people who called you out for your shit. revealing someone's blog that was supposed to be secret for a personal reason is horrific. that was their safe space and you just pull the blanket off of it. the entirety of the ed/sh shit you put out is crazy. as someone who had an ed and scratched myself as a form of sh from a very bad mental state last year, and has just now started to eat breakfast normally (with some off and on's) it is so much deeper than what you're saying. self-harm is not what you're listing it as, either, it's more than just this edgy way of how you're putting it. i did not want to have to share either of those, especially the latter, but sometimes you have to get a point across. you're 13. you do not need to be lying about your age, faking an eating disorder, faking self harm, and causing other people to be uncomfortable and putting weight on their shoulders. you should be fully ashamed with what you've done and go study in school instead of making things worse for others and yourself.

[shadythetortie]

Warning: long post about life, the universe, and how important we are in it. Whatever the opposite of existential dread is.

I've been on a space fix for the last few weeks, and I keep coming back to these two videos.

They are incredibly well made and offer voice-overs by Brian Cox, Steven Hawking, Janna Levin, and more. However gorgeous it is, a theme in the comments is people having an existential crisis after watching them and saying how small they feel. The second one has more of those comments, probably because it goes to the end of the universe's existence.

And that baffles me. Don't get me wrong, I know why people are feeling that. I felt it at first too - the dread of the realization that everything has to end, and one day there will just be nothing. But then I watched it again. And again. And again. And I came to realize that instead of feeling very very small and insignificant, we should be thinking of the opposite.

Our universe was made with a bang. Stars were forged, and in their cores created the elements to make other stars, and other stars made more elements, and it went on in a cycle. Those stars died and other stars were born from the ashes of the last star. Gas and dust clotted together to create planets, and solar systems, and moons. Eventually, after a very long and complicated process, one planet gained the strange phenomenon we call life, and here we are.

We shouldn't feel small about our place in the universe. Yes, size speaking, we are microscopic on the cosmic scale. But billions of stars died to create the elements we are made out of - hydrogen, iron, oxygen, nitrogen, carbon, calcium and phosphorus. Billions of stars grew and exploded to let those elements loose into the cosmos, and after a very long time, they came to create you and me.

We are not small. We are a statistic improbability. We are quite literally forged from stardust. The elements that are in all of us were made billions and billions of years ago - merely atoms - and somehow they found their way through all of space, through all of time, to come together in the most specific, delicate pattern to create us.

Yes, maybe we are just a bundle of chemicals and electrical signals. So is a thunderstorm. So is a star. But we are a bundle of chemicals and electricity that can think, and move, and breathe, and live. As far as we currently know, this is the only place in the universe that has been able to create something so intricately complicated.

"The universe doesn't care," some people say. "The universe is dark, and cold, and empty, and we are so insignificant in the grand scheme. Nothing really matters."

Of course the universe cares. Look at everything that had to fall into place to keep us alive - The Earth's magnetosphere, the Sun's warmth, Jupiter's shield of gravity... the universe cares so much for us that it has literally put everything it can in the way to keep us safe. Just look at the Moon! The craters, the scars of every battle they've fought for us. I don't feel insignificant. I feel protected. I feel like this is the most important part of the cosmos. Everything matters. And it is right here, on this planet. We may be just grains of sand in a never ending hourglass, but we are here, and we are alive, and that in itself is beautiful.

The universe is trying as hard as it can to keep the little sprout of life going. Life is so very fragile that even the slightest error could obliterate it in less than a heartbeat - and in the lifespan of the stars and everything around us, less than a heartbeat is the only time we have to exist.

So the universe took those stars, crushed them into dust, and used that dust to mold us into existence. It wrapped us in a blanket of darkness and warmth. It nurtured us, guided us, protected us and allowed us to grow, and has only just begun to tell us its stories. We are the children of suns that allowed us their death so that we may look back up at the vastness of space and see all of its glory and wonders and long to return to the forges that created us.

If there are such things as miracles, life would be it.

[pandorablook]

ok, so here is something I do NOT like about the last wish: the cat paws.

A movie full of cats, being adorable and shit, but the paws. Look at this:

the FUCK kinda paws are these???!!!! they look all weird, almost like a dog. -The pads are all wrong and very uncute. These do not look squishy.

Cat paws are some of the best paws in the animal kingdom.

THESE are cat paws. Cute little beans, with just enough fur. Squishable and perfect. Not some weird looking Flintstone toes.

C’mon dreamworks, if you���re gonna make cats, you have to get the beans right.

(i hope people realize i’m joking, but also that i’m right)

[sweetpupii]

cw - breeding.

venom taking control over eddie's body while you two (well, three) have sex to make the poor man go faster and stay inside you long enough to make sure not a single drop of cum goes to waste.

yes, he promised he wouldn't do that without asking but silly guy can't help it! :((

venom just wants to start a cute little family like the ones on TV with a dog and cute babies—even if eddie's feeling like he might pass out the second he stops and he will need a few days to start feeling his legs again. jeez, can't even fuck in peace with this symbiote.

the bed bangs against the wall so harshly it wouldn't even sound like sex if it wasn't for the moans and loud grunts. It's like someone's violently arranging and moving furniture around the apartment.

when venom fully fronts there's drool EVERYWHERE; the bed, the floor, your body, even the goddamn wall. it'll be a pain to clean up.

insanely wet tongue trailing down your face and body while he growls “not full yet... one more” for the ninth time. how are you even conscious at this point?

expect ( messy ) breakfast in bed and sex every day until the test turns positive because he ain't stoping anytime soon. good luck!

[puppyeared]

renaissance dogys

characters belong to @canisalbus

[weepynymph]

are people seriously not understanding that the whole point of colin's arc this season is him trying to be something he's not??

like sure the brothel scenes are a little weird and jarring but like they're meant to be??? because he's not actually that into it, he's just trying to do what all the other men his age are doing so he can fit in??

the writers aren't trying to 'turn him into anthony or simon' or make him a rake because that's what we're used to - HE'S trying to turn HIMSELF into anthony or simon or basically any of the other guys who this comes naturally to; who enjoy sleeping with lots of different people somewhat emotionlessly and don't get lonely because of it (and no judgement to that it's just not him)

he literally kisses Pen ONCE and absolutely loses his mind over it because its obviously never felt like that for him before. that moment is his 'oh so that's what that's supposed to feel like' moment and that's how he knows he's in love with her its literally so good???

i understand people feel like its rushed but honestly to me it feels perfectly in character for him to discover the solution to his loneliness he's been searching for all this time and immediately dive into it headfirst. that moment right at the end of ep4 where he asks her to marry him is the most authentic colin i think we've seen all season. he's sweet and funny and playful and passionate and impulsive - he's finally stopped trying to be someone he's not and now that he knows who he is and what he wants he's all in.

[itistimetodisappear]

Yes we've all heard aroace people complain about the 'you haven't met the right person' line. But to the idiots citing this as the reason aroace people 'aren't oppressed’: No, micro aggressions aren't what's oppressing us.

I could talk about corrective rape, but I'm not going to because that's not what scares me the most. The worst thing about being aroace (aromantic, and asexual to a certain extent) is that society is set up for couples.

Being aromantic is a crushing economic disadvantage. As a couple, you can save more. As a legal couple, you can borrow more. This puts Mortgages out of reach for a lot of aromantics. Adopting too. Although aro people can adopt, you must have a similar income to a couple, which again, rules out a lot of aros. Don't forget Immigration, spousal visas will never be an option for us.

Being poor and aro means you're denied housing, family, international movement, basically anything that allos of a similar income would get. And anything you can get, you'll have to jump through many more hoops for. But we can't fix this by legalising aro marriage, like we did for the gays. Until our society's economic system is completely revolutionised, we'll be waiting.

It's impossible to compare oppression. You can't objectively say which minority group has it worse and I really mean that. But also I'd rather be called slurs and hated by Christians all fucking day.

[basslinegrave]

pin-up

b&w originals

[tired-hellowl]

this, alongside the fact that artists of spindlehorse had to submit nearly over 40+ original drawings for different pin variants, acrylic standees, DESKMAT FULL SHADED DRAWINGS, AND ON TOP OF IT DIFFERENT T-SHIRTS AND NEW ART MERCH AFTER THE FACT THAT SPINDLEHORSE WAS UNDERPAID TO ANIMATE ALL OF THE HAZBIN SEASON FINALE EPISODE, I FEEL SO BAD FOR CURRENT SPINDLEHORSE ARTISTS BECAUSE THIS IS NEARLY 60 PLUS PIECES OF DIFFERENT MERCHANDISING FOR VARIANTLY COMPLEX CHARACTER DESIGNS WILDLY VARYING SHAPES AND COMPLEXITY-

IF YOU'RE A SPINDLEHORSE ARTIST THIS PLASTIC POLLUTION DESIGNING HER MERCHANDISE ISN'T WORTH IT VIV JUST SEES HER CHARACTERS AS DOLLAR SIGNS AND NOTHING MORE-

PLEASE STOP SUPPORTING SPINDLEHORSE AND SUPPORT THE ORIGINAL ARTISTS BEHIND VIV SHE IS NOT DRAWING OR ANIMATING SHIT AND IS FORCING PEOPLE TO ON HER BEHALF AT THE COST OF CONSTANTLY PRESSURING DEADLINES OVER NEWLY GRADUATED ANIMATION FANS PLEASE JUST QUIT BUYING THE MERCHANDISE-

IF YOU STILL ARE NOT CONVINCED THEN WHY IS IT JUST HELLUVA BOSS VALENTINES MERCH AND NO HAZBIN MERCH? VIV LOST HER HAZBIN CHARACTERS TO AMAZON/A24 COPYRIGHT SHE PROBABLY CAN'T RELEASE 'INDEPENDENT' MERCHANDISING PROFITTING OFF OF THOSE DEMONS SO SHE JUST CONTINUES HELLUVA BOSS SHITTY MERCHANDISING I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THESE YEARLY NEARLY MONTHLY TO THE TEE PRODUCT AFTER PRODUCT SEASON INBETWEEN SEASON-

PLEASE STOP SUPPORTING VIVZIEPOP SHE JUST USES ARTISTS TO GET WHAT SHE WANTS. MERCH SALES ONLY GO TOWARDS THE LITTLE PAYMENTS TO THE ACTUAL ARTISTS BEHIND THE SCENES IT ISN'T AS MUCH SUPPORT AS YOU THINK YOU'RE GIVING ://///

A FAN RECENTLY ATTEMPTED THEIR LIFE AND ALL VIV HAS TO SAY ABOUT IT IS 'HERE'S THE VALENTINES COLLECTION THIS YEAR HAPPY HAZBIN RELEASE?" NO I'M TIRED OF VIV'S CHILDISH ANTICS ANYMORE.

Ok I’m gonna be a little bitch for a second because I think it’s fun but in the new Helluva Boss Valentine’s Day merch is it kind of weird that Mammon, basically the only fat character, is the only character that isn’t in revealing clothing

[dancinghannigram]

flea-biting is a sign of companionship :) - thank u therexorcist for uploading the one video i havent been able to get out of my head since 2020 (X)

[buckysteve]

Challengers (2024), dir. Luca Guadagnino // Joan Tierney, The Elektra Complex & Matthew Aucoin and Sarah Ruhl, Eurydice

[palmettios]

at the end of the day, andrew and neil were just two people who matched each other’s freak and i think that’s beautiful

[benaturalandautomatic]

honestly, it always baffles me how everytime we hear about someone doing the most depraved and inhumane things imaginable, that person is somehow always a man......... like when we hear about someone that uploads videos of animals being brutally tortured, it's always a man. or when we hear about someone who was arrested for having 2 terabytes of child pornography, it's always a man. or when we hear about someone who murdered a random woman that they know nothing about, it's ALWAYS a man, but that's not the part that baffles me, the thing that i'm confused about is how people continue to insist that men aren't the problem. like do u honestly think it's a coincidence that all of these horrible crimes are mostly committed by men?? even if u believe that it's not all men, u have to ask yourself why it's ALWAYS a man. at this point it's just denial. why are people ignoring something so obvious just because they're afraid of offending males?? even 10 year old boys are becoming rapists and it just doesn't make sense to act like it's a problem with humanity when it's really a problem with men.

[spainy-spoon]

This whole submarine situation is a grim reminder that safety features are there for SAFETY rather than inconvenience, and that regulations are often written in blood.

The juxtaposition of the company going from "isn't it great that we built such a cost effective submersible without having to deal with clunky equipment or pesky regulations" to "we regret to inform you that 5 passengers including our CEO are sealed inside a death pod with very little chance of rescue" is absolutely haunting but is an outcome that you could have seen coming from miles away unlike the submersible due to a lack of safety features

[tearsofcalamity]

boothill who gets way too worked up before the two of you have even started any intimacy.

you don't even have to do anything, straddling him while he's practically strip teasing you himself, removing each garment oh-so slowly so that he doesn't rush it and ruin everything. every peek at your bare skin has his circuits going into a tizzy, his breaths slowly devolving into needy panting.

"god, ya look so gorgeous..." he murmurs, huffing as he tries to keep himself composed. his cold hands brush along your bare shoulders, down your back, feeling up your waist until he's back at your chest. "fuuuudge..."

he would be doing a good job at keeping himself decently composed. that is, if his circuits and inner workings weren't whirring so loudly you could barely hear each other's voices by this point.

you chuckle to yourself as his face lights up, unwilling to meet your gaze and instead focusing right on your chest like a pervert to avoid your mischievous eyes.

"getting a little excited, boothill dear?"

"y... you keep your mouth shut!"

[zarnzarn]

i see all these comments talking about this after the new episode, but. i would like to state for the record that stolitz isn't. toxic.

first off, the concept of a toxic and a healthy relationship are such... vague terms. when you're online, drenched in language and tight moral boundaries, trying to put a nuanced story like helluva boss's into boxes is easy to attempt and impossible to do.

a toxic relationship is one where one or both parties is maliciously affecting the other. I'm talking fetid, nasty, rude interactions where there is more hurt than love. they're unhappy more often than not when they're with their partner, there's no respect or give from the other side.

stolitz is nothing like that.

Stolas actively cares about Blitz and actually has no fear or hesitation in ADMITTING IT OUT LOUD TO OZZIE. he has been calling, texting, commenting, laughing and finding ways to spend time with Blitz. he's throwing everything he has to the wind, finding the courage to move forward with the divorce, putting everything he has into trying to keep him. he's been alone in a palace since he was born, on medication, with such less people dear to him that he remembered the circus boy who spent a day with him DECADES ago- so when blitz comes into his life and brings back in laughter and color and sex, he's holding on with everything he's got.

and blitz does care!!! he cares a LOT, the whole series we see him falling in love with stolas through SHOW NOT TELL (his expressions, his choices, his fear, his lashing out) and utterly unable to process that stolas cares about him too when talking to fizz; almost a desperate kind of denial-

cause yknow. the first time he tried to confess something to someone he really liked, he accidentally killed half the people he knew and ruined the lives of the rest?

thats gonna leave just a teensy impact on the will to express your emotions in the future, methinks.

even before that, he clearly felt like on some level that he was unworthy and he's said twice that he despises himself for the accident even though it wasn't actually his fault. being self aware doesn't stop the emotions from emotioning.

he keeps insisting its only sex so urgently to anyone who doesn't ask because he can't even imagine it being anything else. he's both disappointed and relieved when he repeats that stolas sees him as a novelty, because what else can it be?

(there's a whole other spiel of how brave both Stolas and Blitz have to be to say it out loud even when asmodeus can't afford to, considering how publically and completely beaten down both were at the club.)

(there's also another whole spiel about how frustrating it has been for ME to see all these comments over time with such bad takes based on like,, 20 min worth of info of a show that takes months to release an ep. like godDAMN have some patience?? let the story UNFOLD MAYBE? IT WAS ALWAYS GOING TO HAVE AN EXPLANATION WHY WOULD YOU CRITICIZE THINGS THAT ARENT EVEN FINISHED ESPECIALLY AN INDIE ANIMATION- i digress)

mind you, this has NOTHING to do with abuse. an abusive relationship is one where one is actively harming the other with full awareness. Stella is an abuser and their marriage is abusive.

and stolitz isn't that; it isn't even unhealthy or toxic. it's a consensual, transactional fuckbuddy relationship that slid into something more for both of them.

but!!!!! one of the main reasons for the problems that everyone looks over is-

they're in a BDSM relationship.

I can't possibly delve into dynamics without making this a 10k research paper BUT even though we've gotten only hints and costumes and dialogue- they're very clearly and undeniably in a BDSM contract. Behind the scenes of this crazy show is a whole different story, of these two delving into the most hardcore kinks out there- knifeplay, painplay, bondage.

if you've gotten into the community, if you've read a couple dozen particularly good fics by authors who know what they're talking about, hell; even if your only experience is fifty shades or 365 or whatever- you gotta know that BDSM scenes are crazy fucking emotionally heavy. there's so much that has gone down between them during their full moons that helluva can't get into!!

but you know how in so many of these popular medias and fics, the dom in the relationship is also like,, the billionaire/mafia heir/prince, etc, the one with financial and physical power? this isnt that. it has been very clearly stated that stolas is subbing, blitz is domming.

now take a moment and think about how much that fucks up the dynamics.

in stolas' eyes, blitz is a confident, dangerous individual who's an old friend and cherished memory of his, who he's trusted wholly with his safety during sex and he's lucky to have; and he has been in an abusive arranged marriage for the past eighteen Years, he's probably not going to be pushing his luck with his dom that much in the first place. plus, blitz is never cowed by him during their conversations- think back to the first phone call right after he stole the book, completely unafraid.

and for blitz, it's someone trusting him again- but it's also a royal- a blue blood who's nearly untouchable and so much more powerful- who couldn't possibly like a piece of shit like him, apart from the sex he gets out of it. he only flirts once he gets some sort of cue from Stolas; he's desperately trying to view this as only a Goetia trying to get his rocks off, despite all the evidence to the contrary, because anything else is unfathomable to him, no matter how clearly Stolas shows it, because of the ptsd.

both of them thinks the other has the power. both of them aren't expecting the other to keep shut if something's bothering them.

and there's so much conflicting messages from the other too!

stolas calls him a plaything when trying to intimidate the humans; stolas cups his face gently and asks if he's alright

blitz asks him on a date and tells him to get better soon; blitz yells that it's only sex and doesn't reply to his messages

ya see?

bring it to fizzozzie for a second now; even though they do look all good on surface, you can still see fizz's trauma and doubt in all their interactions, they're still forced to keep the relationship secret. do you see his face when Ozzie says in hyperbole that he's never leaving the house again, or when someone accuses him of being a pampered house pet or when he got sexualized in the 7th ep? whatever happened in the interim between the accident with mammon, it fucked him UP. even though oz seems to be well aware of this when he tells him not to apologise and in their general interactions, fizz still visibly has trouble separating plaything/commodity from healthy relationship.

shout the fuck out to Ozzie btw, man knows whats UP. rooting for these two so much omg.

i forgot where I was going with this point, I'll edit it when i remember. but yeah! lovely fucking relationship, but damn what angst filled issues.

anyway, to sum up- stolitz is not a toxic relationship. the relationship is stuck sludging through misunderstandings and careless microaggressions and trauma responses, but it's not unhealthy or toxic because of the simple reason that most of the current hurt comes from... a misunderstanding. stolas didn't realise blitz would need reassurance about what they were and blitz didn't see stolas as someone who could get hurt.

unecessarily calling it toxic, even online, is more impactful than people think too. almost all spindlehorse ARE on all social medias; so MANY YouTube animators i know have found jobs there; they see your words, especially since a lot don't tag posts with "anti hb" correctly to keep them out of the main tag. there are Very few queer medias made BY queer people that haven't gone through heavy corporate revisions- helluva boss is practically a historical landmark in its success. it's very very very fucking easy to forget that not ten years ago some of the only queer videos on YouTube were butter lover (one kiss at the end post credits), dirty paws and welcome to hell (subtext).

the amount of "critical talk" helluva boss gets for what it is is very unprecedented. it's a beautiful show. can't wait for the next episode.