#i guess this is kind of a vent?

[undeniablycandycane]

I'm gonna be honest, the reason I don't write these days is that it's no longer fun. When I write I'm constantly worried about what people will think about it and worried that I'm not writing fast enough, my work is never good enough and I'm not willing to put in the effort these days to try and improve it because it's just distressing, constantly comparing myself to my favorite writers and not feeling like I'm getting anywhere. Writing has become a chore at best. I appreciate when people leave comments on my fics but I'm not really seeing any new comments on my old fics anymore so I don't bother.

That could change, but what has to change first is that I have to genuinely enjoy writing again and learn to do it for myself and not to please a crowd. I'm not going to put time and energy into something that makes me miserable. My time is much more valuable than that and I have less of it than I once did. (Btw none of you are to blame, this is a Me thing)

[yalibat]

you arent alone, roy

[jazzy-flowerr]

Y'know if I had a nickel for everytime I really liked a horror game where the main character is a small child with a talking toy as a companion and the game is also really relatable to me due to its depictions of alcoholic and/or verbally [sometimes even physically] abusive parents,

I'd have two nickels.

Which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice, right?

[deoidesign]

I met the me who made different choices

[heartless-aro]

As an aro ace woman, there’s something fascinating to me about seeing people, including acephobes and arophobes, in recent days talk passionately about the 4B movement and discussing the backlash against it. It’s interesting how, now that a substantial number of the people doing it are straight alloromantic allosexual women, choosing not to have sex and choosing to be nonpartnering are being spoken of as radical acts that society punishes women for. How come it isn’t radical or subversive when I do it?

Aphobia and misogyny intersect in so many ways, but when they do intersect, so many people only want to acknowledge the misogyny aspect of things (which is important, but still not the entire picture). I’m aware that aromantic and asexual women are not the only women affected by politicians declaring “childless cat ladies” to be worthless or sexist men resorting to rape threats at the slightest hint that some women may choose not to date or have sex with them. But I do wish that people were more willing to acknowledge how aromantic and asexual women are disproportionately harmed by the violent reactions misogynists have towards women who say no.

[inkly-heart]

please don’t be sad little sprout, you are loved 🌱 🖤

🌱

[fun-k-boards]

I've never understood the excitement around marriage. I've never understood the 'rush' around the idea of a relationship. I've never understood the heartbreak or annoyance people feel when they're alone for valentine's day, or when their partner doesn't give them a gift for it. I've never understood why someone would like kissing with their tongues or on the lips. I've never understood why naked bodies are sexual. I've never understood why I should feel my world shatter when someone rejects me. I've never understood why I should be expected to 'just give the relationship a try' when someone confesses to me. I've never understood why friends will demean someone by implying they just 'aren't good enough' because their friend got rejected by that person, no matter how gentle or respectful the rejection was.

I've never understood why sex and romance need to be brought up and hyper focused on in every conversation imaginable.

I'll probably never understand.

[mormonforgetmenot]

I love being queer and I love being a mormon, but there are times when I'm just so tired.

[cheatsykoopa98]

realizing pomni feels infantilized and joked at by the game since it made her room too big and filled it with toddler toys and the fact her avatar is a jester is not the level of relatability I was expecting from this character

shes 25, she probably has a job and some mental issues to deal with irl, considering how anxious she is, at the same time we can tell she doesnt enjoy being pushed around and not being taken seriously by anyone (except maybe ragatha)

that dichotomy of "im not a baby, please take me seriously" and "Im a failure, someone please help me, im overwhelmed" is like... literally me

[charrfie]

[buckys-arm-and-rios-dagger]

I had a rough day and needed to word vomit this out to cope, which is why it doesn't have my usual formatting. GN!Reader, warning for some brief mentions of crying, but other than that it's just Bucky taking care of his partner 💙

Bucky holding you after a bad day at work, keeping you close to his chest and gently wiping your tears with his thumb as you recount the events of the day, listening intently to you vent. He presses little kisses to your forehead as you cry it out, and gets you water once you've calmed down. He refuses to leave your side until you've downed the entire glass because "you cried a lot, Doll. I just don't want you to get dehydrated."

Bucky carries you into the bathroom once you're done, cradling you against his body as he runs you a bath. He was just going to let you lay back and relax while he cooked your favorite meal and turned down your bed so it was nice and ready for you to fall into when you got out, but how could he say no to those pleading eyes you gave him when you asked him to join you? He opts to put in an order at your favorite takeout place and strips down before settling in behind you. You're in his arms as soon as his body hits the water, flesh and metal enveloping you in a cocoon of love and warmth. He takes his time washing your hair, peppering your back and shoulders with with kisses.

Bucky helps you out of the tub after he excuses himself so that he can throw on some clothes and grab you something warm to wear: your favorite pair of jogging shorts, the Henley that keeps disappearing from his top drawer, and a hoodie that he's been wearing a lot lately, knowing that you love how it smells like him. He turns down the bed as you get dressed, and somehow timed the food delivery out perfectly, so he gets you settled in bed before running to meet the delivery driver.

You and Bucky eat in bed, and once you two are done he lays in your lap and lets you play with his hair, knowing that it helps you calm down.

Bucky watches you start to sway, the way you fight to keep your eyes open, and asks if you're ready for bed. You beg him for some skin-on-skin, though you really don't need to. He would give you the universe if you asked him to. He helps you out of his your shirt before stripping off his own and hugging you to his chest. You nuzzle into him, stroking your fingers up and down his happy trail as you happily fall asleep on his chest, your bad day long forgotten as you doze off in his arms.

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Had an absolute nightmare of a day at work and when I told my family about it my mom made it all about her like she ALWAYS does and my dad was at least sympathetic but just gave me like a sympathetic shoulder pat and all I want is a hug but no one in my family really does that so now all I want is a Bucky to hold me and tell me it's all gonna be okay and take care of me so... This happened

[harpoonsnotspoons]

Kills self in front of you and changes the trajectory of your life

[goldenappledelicious]

Why has the EAH fandom felt so weirdly hostile these past few months?

[rapidhighway]

I can't believe people give advice that's basically "be less stressed". How can I explain to you that I've been scared of walking down the stairs since I learned to walk and I get an intrusive thought every time I cross a road. And then I have a lot more, actually real and important stuff to be anxious about!!

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

[aychama]

I think the reason why i have art block rn is because of one of the panels in the comic 😅

Its just in a weird angle that i really want to do and i dont have any references for it

I think its time to hit up sims...