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the thing about silver is that he does not give a shit about other people until flint and then madi convince him to first through the crew and then through a wider liberation movement. they convinced him there was some good to be found in connecting with people and something to fight for, and Then. And Then!!! they ask him to sacrifice this very same newfound connection to these people for the greater good!!! and it Kills him but he does it because more than they've convinced him to love People, they've convinced him to love Them, and that maybe even he, John Silver, who isn't even real btw, can be loved By them, so he does it, but it fractures him and he can't pick up the pieces as fast as they shatter and it all falls apart so so quickly in his hands because it was all built on conditional trust and he Could not commit to it in the end, a house of cards built on. sand.
#j rewatched black sails#like not to billygirl on main but silver's betrayal of him is just as haunting to me as his betrayal of flint and madi#my first rewatch of that episode rewrote everything in my brain because.#he would not even give a shit about this guy in the first place! if not for flint! and to some degree madi#s1 silver Would Not Give A Single Fuck!! about billy bones!#but now he does Because of them and it's for them that he shatters that friendship#billy was Foundational to silver opening himself up to the crew and actually Caring enough that he lost a LEG for them#and he betrays him For flint and madi#and you can see it kill him but he still thinks he can do it and not face so much dissonance than it'd shatter him like an opera singer's#wine glass#like he tried so hard to be both the kind and ruthless person he thought they wanted and he was simply not cut out for it#i feel. fine š#need to rewatch this episode again i about lost my mind next to my sister who was watching it for the first time and could not comprehend.#The Agony
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LaTanya McQueen, āBefore It All Came Tumbling Downā
#not to worry this did not make me feel insane in the slightest š its all good Iām perfectly fine š#w#lit#if you will grant me one vivid morning I can chain it to me for fifty years
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feeling fine about phil in glasses btw!!!!
#my sillies#i know why he doesnt wear them in videos but PLEASE i love glasses phil#a friend once told me she thinks i have a thing for glasses and you KNOW. PERHAPS I DO. ITS FINE#anyway. feeling normal š#phil lester#amazingphil#dan and phil#phan#nebulae.speaks
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All the jokes about Ken and horses are good but I just wanna say it's such a good parallel to how actual young men get swept into misogyny and the patriarchy.
Like they're told to believe it means men get to be cool and manly and have this power but with that comes extremely rigid commands of what they can be as a man and a cycle of self hatred for never matching those gender roles perfectly. Patriarchy tells men that if they just do exactly what is expected of them, then they get all the "cool stuff" that comes with. That doesn't work though when there's only a small group that actually gets that power, but men will keep trying to fit into those roles in hopes that they can.
In the end there are no horses or the myth men are told, it's just endless cycles of self hatred and ingroup fighting.
#barbie#barbie movie#barbie spoilers#ig#ive got a lot more on how barbie looks at feminism and the patriarchy cause god they did it#not to say there isnt faults such as very little conversation about intersectionality#but i can also understand the impossible task of talking about EVERYTHING in one movie#not everyone will be happy and thats fine#anyway i think something barbie did really well is fight this battle of both wanting so deeply to love (romantically or not) men but also#not dismissing the fact its mens job to solve their problems themselves#that even if women need to be the front runners of breaking the patriarchy men cannot rely on them to solve their own problems completely#also just god im so glad this wasnt a girl boss slay movie#women deserve respect and love and life regardless of accomplishment#we should not have to be ceos and presidents and world problem solvers to gain equality#i can also understand if nonbinary people feel left out/disconnected from the movie#but as always gender abolition and acknowledging the gender binary (ie the one societially impossed) go hand and hand š#just incase cause idfk terfs dni the barbie movie is not for you#barbie literally states constantly that her gender has nothing to do with (non existent) genitals so f off
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It's This Moment (or Nothing)
One of the biggest things that I have run into over the past day with Blink, Gone is the way that it feels incomplete and that is something I still stand by. This could be something completely purposeful, meant to illustrate that the round wasn't ever going to be a legitimate competition anyways, intended from the beginning as a lure for Hyuna and Mizi, to add extra emotional effect to the cliffhanger, or perhaps it really is one half of a wider whole (in a more localized sense than it being one part of the whole series, anyways). I don't really know which I think is more likely, at this point, because I'm not sure enough about any of my theories on that front to make real predictions. I still believe that Mizi will end up on her own when this all finished, all of the people she ever loved dead and gone, the bodies littered at her feet.
With the "special guests" I presume that Hyuna and Mizi will be forced to go up against each other. My friend Zen, (@verdantlights) said that hy thinks that it'll end up being a Hyunaluka round where Hyuna is set to win and then a Hyunamizi round where Hyuna is set to lose (edited because i got the order wrong and zen corrected me lmao). I agree with the idea that, at this point, it's damage control. They successfully lured Mizi (and by extension, Hyuna) in with Till, killed Till and now they're going to make their hostages perform for their lives, as is their brand.
One of the most interesting parts of Blink Gone, for me, is how this was presumably all planned from the start. Zen mentioned something that made me realize this yesterday, that this is the 50th season of Alien Stage. There's no way they would let it get this rowdy with rebels and disrupted rounds unless they were letting it happen, because it was planned from the start, because they were trying to tie up loose ends (Hyuna). Not only that but this round in particular was undoubtedly planned from the beginning, with the amount of preparation that went into it (the giant billboards of Ivan, the chanting of the crowd, the song itself). Till was ranked 2, it was always going to end up this way, Luka's superiority reinforced and his opponent dead on the floor. (btw I'm coming back to Luka. There's gonna be another fucking post just you wait). The way that they used Till's triggers against him, they drugged both of the performers but only gave Till enough to last him halfway through, forced Till to perform against Luka right after Round 6, where he lost one of the people in his life that was most important to him, and then rubbing salt into his horrible fresh wounds.
This is also one of the only rounds where Mizi is one of the POV characters that we have no mentions of Sua, at all. Perhaps that's merely because Mizi wasn't the focus and by extension, neither was Sua, but in another way, you could argue that it's because someone else was busy haunting the narrative: Ivan.
It kinda fucking hurts that the only way we really got to see Ivan was two ways- a direct flashback to the kiss from CURE, a explicit representation of the trauma that Ivan left Till with, and the billboards/Luka manipulations where he mimics Ivan in order to get Till on the back foot. And the thing is, it works. Ivan, despite his every intention otherwise, has become a trauma for Till, the way he thought he never could. To a degree, I was happy about this, because it proved Ivan wrong, that he would just be forgotten in a blink, but it hurts as well, because him only being used as a weapon against Till only reinforces his beliefs about himself that he is a monster and a negative impact on others. He would view himself being used against Till as a bad thing, that he hurt Till when he never intended to, rather than seeing it for what it is- an explicit sign that he was far more important to Till than he previously thought.
(Also something driving me up a wall right now is the way that one of my friend's described the lyrics of Blink, Gone as being in reference to the way that one moment Ivan was there, and the next he was gone, because Till took advantage of Ivan's presence and didn't know how much he needed it until it was gone and I'm sorry I'm going to go scream some more now.)
One thing I've talked about with friends a lot the past day is the way that, if Till is truly dead, then what was Ivan's character even for? And while narratively, it wouldn't make sense to kill TIll here with all of the potential he has and where his arc is going, one thing that @pwippy pointed out to me is how it makes a lot of sense thematically. Alien Stage is a universe full of suffering and pain for humans, forced to perform until they literally die on stage, all for the entertainment of the audience. It's not even meant as a way of exerting control or oppressing them, though it serves that purpose, because why would the seygein bother to oppress something that can't even fight back? Why go to the trouble of controlling something that is just a pet, whose cries are the fuel for a new age?
For Till to die now, reaching out for this glimmer of light when he is an animal caged, surrounded by enemies and bombarded with triggers of his suffering and pain, it would only be fitting. Another confirmation that life isn't fair, especially not in a system that is actively working against you and your attempts at happiness. Yet another sign that none of them were supposed to live very long, that even if they won, they wouldn't be around for much longer anyways. Now, it wouldn't necessarily be in character for Till, as he wants to live and he wants to fight, but he got to see one of the people he loved most in his dying moments, just like Sua and Ivan did. (Thank you this post for grabbing me by the throat and squeezing). In this world of pain and suffering, perhaps death is a mercy. If Till is truly dead, then he no longer a tool for his oppressors, he is free of their control. For Ivan and Sua both of their deaths were mercies to them- Ivan was able to die for the one he loved, as was Sua, and neither of them were forced to live in a world without their beloved.
So, while it might not be in character for Till to die, it makes sense within the themes and the established mechanisms of the universe, and it hammers home just how much more Mizi has to lose, even at this point where she thinks she's lost it all.
Mizi, who at the beginning, was the only one of these characters filled with innocence and hope, Mizi, the apparent protagonist of this story- at the end, she will be alone and she will know the true lengths of cruelty, with all that which she has ever loved destroyed.
#basically i think it's just as likely for till to be alive as he is to be dead! would i like it if he were alive? yes#would i be fine with him being dead as long as we got some more content around that? also yes#feel free to yell at me in the tags because this might be stinky as hell! i've only had coffee and eaten a protein bar today lmao#i am high off of desperation franticness and a general sense of unease š it's great dw about it#also thank you for being my friend Zen i am sorry to mention you so much we've just been chatting a lot#alien stage#alnst#alnst till#alnst luka#alnst mizi#alnst analysis#alnst round 7#alnst spoilers#alnst ivan#alnst sua#alnst hyuna#since they're mentioned and touched upon (if briefly)#rocktalks
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the only person in fontaine who i think should have visibly shredded abs is clorinde. look. listen. i have an essay
furina has maintained a performerās figure for a long time but sheās more of an actress and singer than a dancer. she has the muscle tone of a macaroni noodle, and also her body composition is 80% pastry. but you know what we love her for that
navia is definitely deceptively strong for her hyper femme presentation. girlie puts in the work! shes not a gym rat tho. she has better things to do, and macarons to bake
wriothesley you could definitely make a case for more than the others, but also, consider this. heās not a mangy half starved wolf anymore. heās comfortable, he can get whatever he wants from the kitchen staff, he puts sugar in his tea. itās not like heās lost any of his combat edge but he doesnāt HAVE to be a lean mean fighting machine anymore, he has other strengths, and he likes it that way!
neuvillette is the worldās most pampered dragon. furina summoned him 400 years ago and proceeded to spend those 400 years ordering him premium water and making him do paperwork and try fancy foods with her. he does not want to go outside, except if it is to swim. you may not like it but this is the ideal sea-animal-guy body type (strong swimmer muscles smoothed over by a layer of squish, like a seal)
sigewinne is literally a marshmallow have you ever seen a ripped melusine I donāt think so. but that wasnāt in question, right?
clorinde though!! clorinde. duelist and bodyguard supreme, a well known figure whose athleticism is highly publicized. she doesnāt HAVE to have abs, but sheās definitely the fontaine character I would most readily believe does
#i canāt sleep and unfortunately this is what happens š#apologies to Charlotte and the sibling trio who I do not have clear thoughts on#blazie speaks#genshin impact#I feel very strongly abt neuvillette ppl love to draw him with washboard abs and fhays fine but when I see him im like#who is that#abs discourse
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happy halloween
šštemporary rebrand teehee
#i know i said I won't be drawing much i lied i couldn't resist drawin myself a little halloween pfp (basically just drew over the original)#i'll try to draw smth for reigen's birthday bc in stubborn#but also i didnt feel any pain from drawing with my finger n phone#so as long as i'm not holding any pen im fine šš#I CANT BE STOP FROM CREATING OK ITS A PART OF ME#anyways#serizawa katsuya#mob psycho 100#mp100
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Bad day
#UTDR#UTMV#Been having a weird one for the last couple days so I wanted to try out vent art#I don't think I'll make a habit out of it cause it feels out of place for my style#I'll be fine btw don't worry š#He'll be fine too I'm sure#They always are in my stuff
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Hypothetical question but are we still into windbreaker (nii satoru)? Y'all cool if I put my hyper fixation on center stage?
#wind breaker#windbreaker#wind breaker nii satoru#windbreaker nii satoru#i uh...found my new hyper fixation#once again super late to the party#you would not BELIEVE how long I've been twidling my thumbs waiting for SOMETHING to show up in my dingy space i call a brain to get excited#im gonna be real with yall after writing genshin for 4+ years#(literally started within the first month genshin dropped)#kinda fucking bored of it š#not to say im dropping genshin thats my baby#but i would like to uhh branch out you know#i get super brief fixations (literally had a blue lock phase and why i dropped off the face kf the earth that one time) and wrote like 15#fics on bl that never ended up getting posted cause this was a genshin/hsr blog#but i uh would like to possibly change that you know#i just wanna write more things without feeling like i need to create an entirely separate blog ;-;#but yeah uh super brief fixation windbreaker is a temporary thing (assuming there is even a reader base that's interested. if not#(if not. totally fine. back to genshin we go) but im not dropping anything. i just wanna write about more things#psa over
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#joe keery#38*#i feel sick. i feel soo sick..#whatever don't mind the quality of these i just had a meltdown while walking home last night abt this video it's fine.. whatever..#made these for myself bc i do not have tiktok but would like to see it on repeat š#where's his silly WIG i thought he was supposed to be a lovesick loser in marmalade . this is far too ummm. hhmmm. umm :|
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Love my brown eyes and the way they look demonic possession black when theyāre not well lit š¤ They say eyes are the windows to the soul but mine got some thick blackout curtains š
#also peep that haircuterie šš»āāļø#I may have cleaned up for a date that cancelled on me for the second time but itās fine Iām feeling cute lookin fresh#that just means I finally have time to watch nimona while snugglin my kids so weāre doing that instead š„¹š#gpoy
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i think iāve been possessed or something because yesterday i was struck with the inexplicable urge to draw art for a fic i wrote 3 years ago. so thereās an insight into how iām doing right now
#m*a*s*h#mash#hawkeye pierce#bj hunnicutt#margaret houlihan#trapper john mcintyre#beejhawk#houlifield#ok sorry for all the tags i feel embarrassed. idek who goes there anymore. š#many things wrong with this i will not be correcting bc im lazy.#do not take this as me promoting my fic. itās fine i guess but i was insane and sad and it shows š#also Iāve started using vintage clothes catalogues for references. can you tell
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I bought the comic! š
I have a couple of my usual little minor nitpicks (as I am want to have), but I donāt even want to get into them because there were so few and they didnāt impact my enjoyment of the comic all that much. I thought it was super cute!
I wonāt spoil anything in case anyoneās interested in buying it for themselves (which, I would sayā¦ yeah, buy it, totally!), but what I appreciated the mostā especially since this is the first issue and itās establishing who the girls are for anyone not super familiar with themā is that the girls end up saving the day together. It shows the importance of them not just being heroes, but also being a team (and also being supportive sisters, whichā¦ š„¹š«¶) and that makes me feel like, even on a basic level, they get the characters. And thatās reassuring! Yay!
#and GODDDDDD Ms. Bellum being thereā¦.. justā¦ā¦. thank you š#there were a couple of things that just made me very very happy#MINI SPOILERS AHEAD =>#I thought Himās little robot destiny test-y guys were cute and fun but heās not really a rooobooottt guuuyyyy ehhhhhh but like whatever#the comic was basically Super Zeroes but for a new comic book run for people not familiar with the charactersā¦#ā¦like I said I think thatās totally fine because the characters are being established!#it had a bit of its own twist and it worked!#buttercupās compliment to blossom at the endā¦ yeah sheās a great loner SHE COULD CARRY A SERIES BY HERSELF SHE IS THAT GREAT š¤#but she must be bubbles and buttercupās brain cellā¦ so of course itās imperative that she leads them haha#there were some weird OOC-ish dialogue but again nothing that made me go like ???????#I could complain but I genuinely feel like this was honestly fine and good and cute and you know what?#hooray and good job to everyone involved I like it š#Iāll totally get the next issue when it comes out BUT THE DESCRIPTION OF IT WORRIES ME LMAOOOOOO#comic#powerpuff girls#ppg
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Itās been 0 weeks since the World Cup finale, 17 weeks to go until sgp and 34 weeks to go until next season.
#and we are back š« š#first countdown post is always the worst one#but it will get better just not now or the next weeks#trying to uphold some sense of community with these countdowns#i am not ready for the tag to die#and to not have any comps in the foreseeable future and with that no sj content#I'm fine this is fine#ššš#oh I forgot this is also the first post that gets the offseason tag this is bad#someone sedate me until next winter#yeah I am feeling totally normal about this sure that's a completely healthy reaction#the range of emotions I went through preparing this post#and in case you're wondering I always plan to prepare these posts for a few weeks or the whole offseason in advance and never do it#so of course I frantically open tumblr at 11:59 am on sundays accompanied by muttering shit shit shit and type the post and tags#plans made but chaos reigns#there are no fixed calendars out yet they are usually discussed and approved in the spring meeting in april#but I based this on the last years so it should be more or less accurate :)#ski jumping#offseason2024#sgp countdown 24#actually it's 25 because it counts as part of the new season but that seem awfully confusing so it stays 24 here#sj countdown 24#same with this one technically it's 24/25 but yeaaahhh the season starts in 24 so it's fine
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Yearning <3 ...
#murder drones#murder drones au#menhera drones#comic#fan comic#murder drones uzi#menhera drones uzi#murder drones n#menhera drones n#murder drones thad#menhera drones thad#unrequited crush#art#my art#made with krita#i'll be honest im not that proud of this one#oh well </3 it's fine#i just wanted it to get done because uhhhh i'll feel bad if it isnt šš
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Yāall are excited to watch them pretend to fuck Iām excited to hear the commentary
#unless they do a completely different layout for the video#like are they going to be frotting and then aleksa comes on and says rpf is fine š#do you think they know enough about fanfic to do that? I feel like they would mention researching it or something idk#Aleksa say the words rpf is fine and Iāll idk actually but it would be cool#boy boy#aleksa vuloviÄ#ididathing#alex apollonov
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