#i feel like pure shit

[rebrandedbard]

Dysphoria is kicking my ass today and I feel like I'll never be able to sing punk music. I hate this stupid fucking song I have to work with and its stupid guitar that stole the vocal line. It wasn't written with vocals in mind: there's no breathing room, the beats are rough to match words to (thought I did that part alright), and I have to match the guitar's pitch or be drowned out. I wish I could do something more collaborative so I could have INPUT and we can change things to suit us all. And since I'm not officially in the band yet, it feels like if I can't make this song work, they'll just thank me for my time and say they don't want to try working with me. Like it's an audition. I just want to curl up in bed and cry.

[katyakazanovas]

second day in a row i’ve had a headache

[caspersscareschool]

i fucking hate knowing that anyone can just look at me and form perceptions willy nilly i need to become a shadow man

[malikson]

the allergies have finally gotten to me ✌🏽

[cadaverousdecay]

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[sphylor]

its a random headache and soggy noodle limbs kinda day

[itsrlymine]

lullaby method... distraction technique... subway surfers and f*cking temple run.... why the fuck can't you just decide you have what you want now? manifesting isn't a process and you aren't a f*cking toddler. talkin' bout lullaby method. bitch wake up to your power, stop being pathetic and just decide.

[vaultnewt]

The thing I regret most about the No Gods, No Masters route is the fact that Victor is deactivated after you deal with Mr. House.

I wish there was a way you could repair/reboot/reprogram him and have him be one of your allies after Mr. House is out of the picture. I dunno I’m just really sad that I ultimately cannot save the one who saved me :[

[why-the-heck-not]

maybe maybe a mistake taking astronomy; idk why I thought I'd suddenly be a physics mastermind just bc I have more motivation for it now. It's the first week and I have no actual clue what I'm doing (or more accurately: should be doing. Mostly so far it's been lots of staring and muttering of "what the fuck" in regular intervals)

[rambles-about-minecraft-ocs]

one of my favorite things about zedaph is that on a server full of people that find strange and oft-overlooked minecraft mechanics or rare events and then see just how far they can push them in the name of spectacle or efficiency or world-breaking, zed is over here finding these mechanics in order to do the weirdest things he can think of in as entertaining a manner as possible

like i 100% have faith in zedaph's theoretical ability to be just as efficient or spectacular or world-breaking. if he wanted to do that stuff, i trust that he absolutely could. but thats so far from being his priority. instead, hes going to spend around a week of irl time focused entirely on eventually having the good luck to spawn in something insanely rare so that he can convert it into something even rarer, the result of which being something that 99% of the server reacts with complete and utter shock that it even exists in the first place, just because its zany and funny and he wanted to. and i love that

[hairscare]

self indulgent saturday

[cecoeur]

the vibe for…the foreseeable future

[lienspien]

Barty is provocative as fuck and James is easy to rile up. Usually, it just leads to James storming off with Barty laughing. One time, James was having his own problems, and Barty came by and started a fight. James said the most offensive personal thing ever that got Barty so mad, he got personal too. Then they both are just yelling at each other, and everyone is kind of scared to pull them apart. Eventually James just tells him to fuck off and Barty does, for the first time, storm off.

They were seen making out later that night

[knifeforkspooncup]

my bad i forgot this was the morality ocd purgatory website where thought crimes are more damnable than real crimes and you can catch Being Evil like it's TB in the 1800s just by looking at problematic media

[froggy-nebula]

honestly i just dont get why sometimes people get all weird about quadrants and insist they’re unhealthy always no matter what

like yeah im not stupid i know they CAN be fucked up and can be weird and toxic but so can any romance. human romance has been toxic and fucked up for me many times. tbh if we take a step back and just look at the basic ideas of all of them i don’t think any of those have to be evil and terrible necessarily

like oh no me and my boyfriend have a fun rivalry that we both like being in and both agreed to where we have fun competing with each other and talking shit and then make out! FUCK!!! that’s horrible i would NEVER want that! i would never be guilty of forcing my boyfriend to play tetris with me over and over and insulting him the entire time

oh no my boyfriend has anxiety and i calm him down! oh god we like cuddling and talking about feelings! we both agreed we like this relationship dynamic and feel fulfilled by it! AAA SCARY!!! GET SCARED!!!

oh no sometimes my boyfriends are both annoying and i voluntarily get between that and make people be less annoying! FUCK!!!!!!!! we are going to DIVORCE!!!

[legionofpotatoes]

I know the discourse well is poisoned and no one hates bioware games more than bioware fans, but I am just 🫠 having so much fun with veilguard it's unreal. It is selfishly the dragon age game I always wanted. with less emphasis on cRPG, a more focused story, curated mission based design that spotlights the high fantasy stuff, slowburn structure with companions, significantly less sidequest bloat, and a fully real-time action-oriented combat system that isn't riddled with the growing pains of previous titles. when I first played origins I imagined something almost exactly like this as my ideal version of a sequel; and it was one of those dirty, selfish thoughts that I knew was disrespectful to the then-established DNA of the thing, but I can't help but feel giddy about having it here and now. like down to the shift away from the childishly dark tone and to something more inherently flexible with a baseline aspirational quality. I hate aesthetically depressing games so much. am I not alive right here and right now already

When I say "aesthetically" there though I do mean it. I'm fully on the opposite side when it comes to tone and positions expressed in the story itself. I am just not including that in my analysis because I am not done yet - so please no spoilers! I think I am where most people consider to be the second act, and I definitely have my gripes with the narrative framework and some of the optics, but I won't put the cart before the horse and will see how it wraps things up first. Above that level, in terms of how it presents itself, of how it plays, of how it balances its core pillars - it is such a bioware-ass game and I could not be any cozier in it. So grateful it exists