#i feel like i am about to get judged

[cathacker13]

Okay okay I wasn't expecting to ever get asked to do something like this (wouldn't be surprised if it was also the last time) aaa how do I only choose 10 songs

Okay so before I start I don't think I'll tag anyone mostly because I'm scared of being annoying, but if you see this feel free to participate if you want

(also some of these didn't embed or at least that's how it looks like in the post editor and I have no idea why, sorry about that)

1. Aristotle's denial by Joe Hawley and Cojum Dip

I know joe hawley is a fairly decisive figure but I want to continue the first song being tally hall related theme and this song is really good (it even features cojum dip)

2. Cat Hacks by Lemon Demon

Not my favorite lemon demon song, but it's my name stake so I feel like including it is obligatory

https://open.spotify.com/track/5furpJBXj7zOfs8nh3ubzq?si=iK96XXkPRNOyT9r7PhMnOA

3. Playing By The Rules By Red Vox

I spent way too much time thinking about which red vox song to include because there's just so many great ones and they're all amazing for different reasons but I decided to settle on this one, for no particular reason other than me having to chose one

https://open.spotify.com/track/7ClLoABIQWf5UkGOv0to2k?si=6UtsIsBMRN-gVRoELBXRGA

4. Empire Ants by Gorillaz

This is a big shift from the other songs both musically and in terms of the popularity of the band/artist behind it but holy hell I love this song call me basic I don't care the midway transition is just amazing I love the melancholy of this one

5. Ana Ng by They Might Be Giants

TMBG was once again an artist I just knew I had to include but I had no idea which song to choose because of how many I would want to include if I could, so I decided to settle for a classic

6. Against the Kitchen Floor by Will Wood

I think I exclusively listened to this song on repeat for a week when the album it's from released, how could I not include it

https://open.spotify.com/track/12mfRQYsEi3PxLRaG3Xab9?si=M9OLyJrbS_OmJWPnRXQvtg

7. In The Face Of Evil by Magic Sword

I just think this song sounds really nice and it really comes together beautifully by the end with the guitar tightly holding everything together

https://open.spotify.com/track/6EfP7rkoR1L1OpDzKN5lXX?si=rtjfojBERVeKtuTKpbVN-g

8. Akrillic from Plok! by Tim Follin

Now you may be looking at this thinking to yourself, hey so uhh what the fuck is this? But please give it a try, you'll get it (I hope so anyway )

https://youtu.be/4mmn7siswJY?si=7y6DRdfx3apqbGM7

9. Llueve Sobre La Ciudad by Los Bunkers

I don't know what this song is about because my spanish is not good enough for me to be able to understand it but I've gathered that the title means something like it's raining over the city. I found this song by completely randomly and impulsively decided that fuck it I'll go listen to some latinoamerican rock and this was the first song I found and honestly it's really good (and popular I assume)

10. Šrouby a Matice by Mandrage

I felt like including a song from my own country especially since most of them aren't exactly known world wide, and this one had been one of my favorites ever since I first heard it back in 1st grade during a live performance by a couple 9th graders. Others probably won't think much of it but I like it

And that's it, I showed off 10 songs, some definitely more well known than others (and I assume from the perspective of others also better, I wouldn't blame you for not liking most of these, I am a very basic person, but I tried I really did)

I was tagged by @kores-pomegranate and asked to share 10 songs!

Before I begin, I would also like to tag @mx-menace, @generalb, @cathacker13, @kawaii-pigeon, @catofspades and @zynysm. Of course, you're free to participate whether I tagged you or not!

Now, without further ado, 10 songs I'd like to share 😊

1. 134340 Pluto by Cojum Dip. I know a handful of my followers are big Tally Hall fans, and this has to be one of my favorite songs from a Tally Hall adjacent artist!

2. Fine by The Walnuts. I found this person on tik tok when I used to use it back in like 2020 and have been obsessed with this song ever since

3. Jack Daniel's by Lil Darkie and Wendigo. I'm not usually big on actual country music, but I do like music inspired by country music. So a country-rap song with political commentary is right up my alley.

4. Around by Honey Cellar. A small folk band from Chicago that I saw on my birthday last year, they quickly took the spot as my most-played artist on spotify, and this is my most-played song of theirs. Maybe not my absolute favorite, but I feel like it would have broad appeal.

5. Paper Girls by Vertigo. This band I discovered in 2018 when a local band with the same name was recommended to me by someone who knew the members, but I ended up finding 3 different bands called Vertigo and liked this one the best!

6. Naked in your Arms by Subtle Pride and Silver & Smoke. Subtle pride features the nonbinary actor that plays Casey in Atypical, and you know I love to plug an enby

7. Panacea for the Poison by Flobots. These guys made that song Handlebars that everyone knew in the late 2000s and early 2010s.

8. Monster you Made by Pop Evil. These guys headlined at the first concert I ever went to and I got this album autographed by the whole band!

9. Pyrokinesis by 7chariot. My boyfriend showed me this song last month and I've listened to it like at least once a day since!

10. 157 by Tom Rosenthal. This song is kinda long and kinda stupid but I love it so much it's like a friend to me now.

Anyway, there's 10 songs I think you should listen to. Up to you if you wanna check them out or play along!

[yardsards]

im like the lorax when it comes to women's body hair. we should let it grow.

[scalpelsister]

dark justiciar shadowheart is genuinely so interesting to me as like... a facet to her character. like it really hammers home how desperate she is for shar's love and affection (+ the validation and love from other worshipers of shar). like in a lot of ways I get that it seems shocking to others / some fans because it really does contradict some of the morals we see her express BUT imo that just speaks to the level of desperation she feels. her comments on how shar "must" love her for her to survive the shadowcursed lands, or the bit where she talks about shar nurturing her and loving her and sounds... almost more like shes trying to convince herself more than shes trying to convince you. theres a bit about other sharrans not thinking she had earned her name, and of course the mother superior not thinking she was ready / worthy of being a dark justiciar. like shes just so completely desperate to feel unconditionally and securely loved, and to earn the approval of others that shes entirely willing to injure herself in the process (as well as.... the people who actually love her, of course).

not to mention that mechanically, afaik, she can only end up there if shes encouraged to by the player. ie... she needs to know someone else approves.

[cerealbishh]

"We get to, this season, explore their chemistry and their real love and their intimacy. So we get to have a glimpse into that world that just feels so pure and beautiful and romantic! And then, sort of navigating those other circumstances once they're out in the world, dealing with real... challenges." - Isa in an interview with The Knockturnal(x)

[uncanny-tranny]

Something I realized (which was obvious to me subconsciously) is that... The family that vehemently didn't accept me when I first came out but now do accept me are still the same family that I am most unwilling to be open about things I feel protective over.

I remember that my dad reacted so poorly, not to my coming out, but to my transition specifically that my therapist was the one to ask if I wanted to put it on my file that I wanted nothing to ever be shared with him about my health after I broke down multiple times due to my anxiety that I would never transition. While there are and were protections for me, I was incredibly fearful at the time because I was a minor, and I was so worried that he would have prevented my transition that I couldn't have said for certain what (if any) lengths he would have gone to to prevent that.

He's grown a lot as a person, and made some commendable strides. But he didn't find out from me when I medically transitioned the second I turned eighteen, and I think that's among the things that truly made him realize the scope of the issue.

I'm not here to guilt trip parents, guardians, or other members responsible for the care of the children or teens or young adults in their care.... but this is a cautionary tale. You aren't saving the people in your care when you do this, you simply reinforce an idea that you will never care for them, never want them as they are, would rather them be shoved away.

When you give people reasons to be secretive, they will behave secretively. When you give people reasons to doubt their safety around you, they will become sneaky, defensive, and withdrawn. When you give people reasons to doubt that you value their life, they will believe that you don't care if they live or not.

[vickyvicarious]

Before I began to restore these women to their dead selves through my awful work, [...] Had I not seen the repose in the first place, and the gladness that stole over it just ere the final dissolution came, as realisation that the soul had been won, I could not have gone further with my butchery. I could not have endured the horrid screeching as the stake drove home; the plunging of writhing form, and lips of bloody foam. I should have fled in terror and left my work undone. But it is over! And the poor souls, I can pity them now and weep, as I think of them placid each in her full sleep of death for a short moment ere fading.

I love this framing. First of all, I love that from beginning to end this is not depicted as anything like a triumph. Even though strategically it may well be so, Van Helsing takes no pleasure, not even in a cathartic revenge way, in killing them. He hates every second of it. Not just because he's afraid but because it makes him feel like a butcher, he can't endure the signs of their suffering.

But he frames it as "restoring" them. This wording is consistent with how he comforted the suitors about the necessity of killing vampire!Lucy, and I love how that doesn't suddenly vanish when the vampire is no longer someone they care about. Van Helsing's only exposure to these women has been as a scary story, or them circling him terrifyingly in the night. He never knew them as people and never will. But he still hates having to kill them, and he still finds great comfort in the idea that by doing so he is freeing them from this evil state, and restoring them back to the way they should have been after death. Mina does the same with Dracula tomorrow - even Dracula. And she has some extra reason to be personally invested there (I'll try and find my post from last year about it) but I just like how consistent this detail is.

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Outdrawn

f/f contemporary romance

two cartoonist who’ve been rivals since uni, and now have competing webcomics online, have to work together on the relaunch of a cult classic at the comic press they both work at

they both struggle with art-related physical and mental health issues, and complicated families

[even-disco-baby]

YOU — “No. There is still a chance.”

DOLORES DEI — “You think so?” Her voice is weary.

EMPATHY — Everything about her is weary. She is the Innocence of weariness, of heroically borne suffering.

CONCEPTUALIZATION — That is the picture you have painted for yourself, at any rate.

YOU — “You looked back. That’s the memory, the moment, that I can’t stop returning to. You looked back. I had a chance, for just that moment…”

DOLORES DEI — She meets your eye, gaze still forever cast back over her shoulder. Time stops. The stars are stilled, the ocean silent. There is *nothing* beyond this memory. Nothing at all. All of infinity is contained in this single moment when anything and everything was possible.

“Oh, Harry…” She sighs, soft as eiderdown. “We never had any chance.”

And just like that, the wave of time collapses under its own weight, obliterating everything. This moment was six years ago. She is gone from here. Gone, gone…

PAIN THRESHOLD — You cannot leave. There was nothing outside of this moment, and now there is nothing at all. It’s all gone. There is no point. I’m sorry. I can’t do this any longer.

VOLITION — Please, don’t say that…

“Okay. Well, fuck me, then.”

“How would *you* know?! You gave up! You didn’t even try!”

“We *must* have had a chance, at some point… Doesn’t everyone get a chance, if nothing more?”

“How could you say that…?”

DOLORES DEI — “Because it’s true,” she says, matter-of-fact. “There is no moment in time that you can turn back to, no branching paths, no infinity. There is only what happened. I looked back… and then away.” She closes her eyes, turning her back to you.

“The moment ended. *We* ended. That is all.”

SHIVERS — A wave crashes against an unseen shore, ocean spray tickling the back of your neck. You shiver, but no one shivers with you. You are alone in this intersection. Why are you here?

“Why can’t *I* end?! Why can’t this all just stop? Please, make it stop…”

“Ended? I’ve barely even started! I got a chance to start completely over as somebody new! I don’t need you anymore! You’re just dead weight to me now.”

“No. That wasn’t the real ending. We’re a part of something so much bigger than this intersection, telling a story that encapsulates all of history! There’s *more* to this, it *means* something.”

“Then… What am I supposed to do now…?”

DOLORES DEI — “No, Harry.” She turns back to you again now, and she looks… sad.

“We were not metaphors. We were people. Our narrative was not intelligently designed. It simply followed the patterns of history, because those are the only patterns we *know.* We tried to create something new, but we failed. There is no narrative reward for our failure, no satisfactory ending. There is only the immutable past and the unknowable future.”

RHETORIC — There is no assurance of what is good or deserved or what may bring relief. There is no assurance of punishment, either. There is no assurance of anything. Not even of a future. I don’t know what to say to make this bearable.

VOLITION — Even so… As long as you live, *something* is promised. Can you live with that?

I can’t, I just can’t do this anymore…

I can. It’s enough.

I don’t know. I just don’t know.

I can at least try for a little longer…

VOLITION — That’s all I ask. That’s enough.

[transmechanicus]

Kind of hard to ask as anon

But you doing ok?

Need to vent?

Hi very kind and thoughtful of you to ask, i am doing mmmmm suboptimal but i do not need to vent to a person per se, so much as i need to say absolutely insane shit in my tags and have everyone pretend not to see <3

[wayvtual]

i’m about to go to my dad’s gf’s house to visit my brother n sister everyone keep me in ur thoughts n prayers

[shannonsketches]

lays on the floor do you guys ever think about how in ResF Bulma falls for Vegeta's fake-out with Freeza and both she and Yamcha are worried about Vegeta's villain fake-out strategy in Champa and Beerus' mini tournament and how it's only been a couple of years since the Buu saga and how Vegeta straight up stopped using that strategy after that tournament

[the-ships-to-rule-them-all]

I don’t think people realize how all consuming October 7, the war and the rising antisemitism is to most Jews right now. I was just on a five day family trip and nearly every single conversation ended up circling back to what’s going on in Israel, across the world and at home. My mom knew Vivian Silver, an incredible peace activist thought to be held hostage and I had to sit there and watch her realize that not only was Vivian murdered at her home 38 days before but that she was likely burned if it took this long for her body to be identified. I was forced to sit there and watch my mom, my favorite woman in the world, watch her face crumple. We were sharing updates, accounts to follow, venting and releasing frustrations. It is a constant unbreakable struggle right now for me and most Jews I know to not be glued to our phones, to not pay attention. Because we’ve seen what happens when we don’t. Because we can’t afford to turn our backs on what’s going on. And there’s a deep ever present grief not only for the victims of October 7th, the innocent citizens of Gaza, the hostages and also for my own personal sense of safety and security. I am also grieving what is a shattering beyond measure of my present and future trust in people as I’ve witnessed how easily well intentioned kind hearted people have decided to say nothing, publicly or privately, or who have quickly fallen into vicious antisemitic rhetoric. I’m just sharing into the void at this point but it’s been unimaginably hard on a personal level. I’m not the same person I was when I went to bed on October 6. It’s as though I’m a shadow, made of grief and anger and tiny fractured bits of hope. Every piece of joy feels as though it’s been muted because of how quickly it fades. And even the moments that last are related to my Jewish identity somehow. I am not sure where I go from here.

Have a cat gif for reading all of that

[rick-ety]

I genuinely love and value and appreciate the storyline and writing in The Stanley Parable. I don’t think I say that enough. I ramble about the lore and secrets hidden deep within so much. I’m just not good at putting my appreciation into words. <3

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

the amount of effort that goes into figuring out what to cook and eat every day is RIDICULOUS. i used to think people were so weird and boring for eating the same thing every single day but it truly does make life so much easier

[nylongenesis]

Im just rambling my heart out rn bc im like this but listen hear me out. I think Tim is aromantic. hot take I know but as an aro person maybe its just me but I see a lot of myself in his flirty chatter and playful gestures. In my head he does it as affection, as a way to stretch his wings and engage in a bit of fun banter, and of course, to get what he needs. I inherently see his tendency to draw the eye of people in order to obtain information as a gesture rather detached from the inherent concept of romanticism. it displays a nature in which one understands romance and appeal on a surface level, but does not feel it themselves. I think he likes traditionally romantic stuff. He calls himself a hopeless romantic. He kisses his friends on the cheeks and he treats Sasha as a lover would treat their spouse but they are not dating and both of them know this. He spends passionate nights with people and leaves feeling satisfied. But if you confessed romantic interest in him he would give you a horrifically awkward, apologetic look and let you down easy. I think he was devastated by the realization in his youth. I think beneath all his affection and smiles and toying remarks he knows he will never truly be able to have the romantic relationship he always dreamed of having, because what he desires simply does not exist. I think he indulges in the little things- passing glances, playful flirts, romantic comedies, nights on the town, to taste what he cannot have- and even moreso, to enjoy what he *can* have. To enjoy the fact he can do so comfortably, openly, without concern for what it may look like or if it's really romantic or not. Perhaps he has grown to be happy with the way he lives. Perhaps he is content to be in his lovely queerplatonic relationship. Perhaps he distantly wishes he could be a better partner because he knows he will never meet the standard. I think he loves so strongly, so powerfully, that it simply is not something that could fall into romance. It just isn't. But he loves all the same. He loves so passionately, like a fire, but it is not romance. it is simply love. Tl;dr personal hc is that tim is romance-positive aro (unless it comes to romance aimed at him) and is bisexual. Bc we need more alloaro rep. and more romance-positive aro rep. And i see myself in him.

[deepseawave]

obsessed w the tags on ur last reblog

Omgg, thank you haha, it was a quality post so I just had to appreciate it in full force 😂❤️

Can‘t believe someone would actually enjoy my yapping :,D