#i dont wanna be alone *ends up alone*

[cleabellanov]

they all needed a Loki Who Remains.

but he needed to stay.

[pepperpixel]

Yadda yadda yadda jinx is generally seen as a loose canon, does whatever she wants type of character, totally unpredictable. When in actuality, up until the last few episodes all of her choices and actions r motivated by wanting to please someone else. Hell. Even in the last couple episodes, the very Last thing we see her doing is ENTIRELY MOTIVATED by devotion and love and grief for silco, she’s taking out her frustration at herself and the world, and also honoring his wishes and dreams. By shooting a fucking bomb at piltover, she’s ensuring his life wasn’t in vain, she’s honoring him. In that moment

Her entire, self!!! is centered around love and loyalty. Is centered around other people, She’s motivated by an insatiable urge to prove herself, to be useful to those she loves, to show that she can help them and be there for them and be WORTHY of there love. That they haven’t made a mistake in loving her. To prove that she can be as pivotal to them as they r for her. She goes to the ends of the fucking earth to do this. And it ends. Terribly.

She puts the people she loves on pedestals and supplicates at there feet, she has no motivations most of the show outside of making the people she loves happy… she yearns for connection and love and safety. For a home that will never leave her behind, or crumble under her feet, (an indestructible home, That she can’t destroy just by being her…)

Which is why.. it’s so. Interesting and intriguing. How now, she has no one on that pedestal to worship, no one to drag sacrifices and offerings to the feet of, no one to spiral around and build herself off of. She is a person so *affected* by her relationships w others, but there is no relationship now, no one is stepping up to the plate to love her. She’s too much. For anyone. The one person who seemed to have unlimited patience for her is dead, because of her. and maybe vi could still love her.. but. She’s already soured that relationship. Already broken that one too. Broken all her favorite toys that made her so happy. That were there for her. And scared all the rest away. (There is a limit to what vi can support and forgive to reconnect w her sister. And I believe terrorism is crossing that limit ghgh)

And maybe, jinx is cutting that part of herself out on purpose. To be stronger, she’s realized she just. Isn’t made for love. That she ruins it all in the end. That it just makes everything worse. Messier. More complicated. She’s better off on her own, but for what PURPOSE! Who will she be now! What choices will she make!?! Almost all of her actions in the show were for others, what is driving her now, now that she has this gaping void at the center of her being. Where love used to be… what kind of person will she become, Without a guide to follow… a sun to orbit around. it’s sad honestly ghghg-!!! like yeah it’s not healthy that she is this way but there’s no THERAPY IN ARCANE. THIS IS THE WAY SHE IS! And now. She’s alone… it’s rough. But also intriguing…!! And I honestly have no clue how she’s gonna act in season 2,,, or what sorta shit she’s gonna get up to. but I’m excited.

[killjoy-prince]

DAYBREAK MENTION FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 65 CHAPTERS!!! BABYGIRL I MISS YOUUUU

[moliathh]

heyyyyy forgot to mention! its an interesting phenomenom to me how integra's virginity is put into emphasis by both canon and fandom!!! Saying this to address the argument that she is ace coded against shipping her with alucard, but much people, including those who uphold that statement, ship anderson/alucard and even heinkel/yumi? integra's oath is "virgin til marriage", it does not forbid her from courtship. Anderson, Heinkel and Yumi's oath of chastity as Catholic nuns and priests does. Aren't they more "ace coded" than Integra 😭 How is it that Alucard/Integra is always put to trials im crying we are truly the scapegoat of this fandom we are judged by doing what other people also do? So we are not allowed to "sexualize ace people" (mind that ace people also have sexual attraction and interaction) but youre allowed to "sexualize" nuns and priests??? what is this

[longmaxsilvarg]

will forever have a soft spot for chloe cause yeah dawg i get it we can try to avoid becoming attached out of the overwhelming fear of being abandoned again but miserably fail together

[natandacat]

My partner asked me to actually take the time to talk about the whole like if things continue getting worse at what point do I want euthanasia and how do I want to go about it and what to do if I cant do it myself and like. I should do it and its been at the forefront of my mind since august given how bad things got and how scary it was to be in this spot where i can envision a future where I cant even advocate for my own dignity. But damn I don't want to actually prep for it.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[thelastsaiyanprincess]

why am i good enough to be a fuck buddy or a play partner or a fwb, but not good enough to be a girlfriend? why do people always wanna talk to me, but never pursue me? why am i good enough to flirt with, but not good enough to love?

[kesharik]

Moon and Sun

alt versions under the cut

[gifti3]

today i think about how some men really think all (or at least most) women just dont like sex at all and it still kinda shocks me that they genuinely believe this! being in fandom spaces from a young age the type of shit ill see women saying about some fictional character or actor even has me flabbergasted at times

[fr00tbats]

affirmation for today:

i am so normal and cool about everything

[lonelyplanetfag]

man i never wish that i understood dating enough to actually do it but its been so fucking bad lately

[fauvester]

honestly i never finished mdzs because it's a little too Much for me. but i see all these posts about the ending and how each character finishes and like man this just sounds like... a huge bummer. an epic of a bummer, a Succession level twists and turns bummer, and man, like every single character seems to come out worse for it. like I dont even know if Mr. Iceberg and the chaotic necromancer even end up together because everyone is too focused on how everyone else suffers grievously

[dailynakaharachuuya]

(just some thoughts about things, I think its rather long so you don't have to read ❤️❤️)

[yappinggggg]

Hey guys!

So regarding the wmmap discord server poll: (ik there r still two days left but whatever)

As some have voted for the creation or the discord server even after the link was publicly given -(if those who voted didnt see the reblog with the link then u can go to the poll bc i added the link if it in there)- i decided to create a new wmmap server

My reason is simple: the already existing server is pretty dead

So ye if any of u r interested in becoming a mod then simply slide into my dms ^^

(If u want to join the already existing discord server and r too lazy to look for the link here is the link again)

[rooolt]

The post canon college gothcleats that lives in my head has haunted me for weeks and I have no way of inflicting it upon anyone else