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helplessautomaton · 16 hours ago

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addon to the last post abt yandere daisuke,, sorry gang i lowkey forgor. also, i dont think i can keep using ingame screenshots for the header so i might ditch that because i don't want to use outside sources. tbf i could just draw my own for that- anyways!

i straight up forgot about the please aspect and did not take advantage of that! mightve gotten cared away, apologies hehe, also this is my last post for today, sorry

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its gonna start off slow with daisuke, he just wants praise from the people around him who know better! he just wants to know hes doing a good job so please tell him he is. as his obsession starts to grow hes unaware of his expression with his eyes. staring at you, expecting— wanting praise, just to give him that extra boost. as time progresses along with his attachment towards you, no matter what part you have in the crew, he tries to help you. his cheery smile making it hard to resist and say no. gently grabbing your hands while you two take a break, blabbering on about he managed to do and going off topic about whatever. all this while he has a golden smile directed at you, the way his eyes crinkle at the corners to match.

when you hang around swansea and daisuke, you semi-jokingly praise him to give him more of a boost. its sends him over the moon to know hes doing right by you! swansea makes little teasing comments when daisuke is out of ear. as he starts to get more conscious of his obsession with you, he acts on it more knowingly. trying to push the buttons he know works even when its starting wear off and you hesitantly go along with it.

he wants to share his happiness you give to him, he wants to see you happy. at this point you are his world and hes not willing to give that up to anyone. even if it makes him a little uncharacteristicly harsh to the other crew members. he doesnt risk what he doesnt have to, even if curly or anya warm up to you the same way he originally started out. thats not to say it tugs at daisuke and makes him annoyed, he knows its not irrational but for jimmy he is justified if he dares to try anything. i feel like he would over look or straight up not notice if swansea treat you very slightly better because lets be honest, hes probably getting that same deal as well. theres so much daisuke wants to do but due to the environment he cant, but him stealing a packet or two of sugar just for you can make up for it.

really at this point, daisuke is at your beck n call whether you want it or not, hes so attached he refuses to let go. hes still his usual self when hes only with you, optimistic and bright eyed. even if swansea is hitting him in the back of the head to make him focus. but during this point everyone is starting to notice daisuke's behavior and the frustration sets in. even if curly tries to redirect him back to speed, daisuke needs you. attempting to praise him just to get him to do his job wont exactly work if you have to speed off to your intended chores. jimmy's comments start to become more sharp as he glares at the both of you while all you can do is look away, really just not wanting this either.

after the crash, he uses his tears to just get something, mostly he wants reassurance to refresh his optimism. especially when he gets drunk on the mouthwash, he cant help it, hes still doing a good job despite it all, right? he tries his best to keep you content in anyway shape or form, even if it means hiding you away from everyone for a little while. afterall, what can he do anymore. so please, just let him make you smile for sometime before the situation breaks back through to reality.

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"daisuke can you please keep on? youre doing a wonderful job we can go on a break soon." you try to charm your way through, swansea was getting more snappy at the both of you. daisuke's let his smile takeover, his eyes crinkling, nodding he continues under whatever swansea needs him to do. the tension in the room was clear, your jaw was tensed up, this had been the 6th day you had to do this. you worked beside anya not swansea, yet daisuke needed you or else youd be hearing complaints from 4 people of the crew out of 5. you werent even paying attention to the way either swansea or daisuke worked on whatever they were working on, yet daisuke called out to you. "alright i think we got it all done for now, swansea said im good to get on break now."

you sighed slightly and let daisuke lead the way, joking and telling you whatever crossed his mind. "i was doing a good job right?" his quiet voice snapped you back to where you were at, stopping just in time so you didnt accidentally knock over daisuke. "uhh,, yeah, it did look like you were, um, working hard! just keep doing what swansea wants you to do."

daisuke looks over to you, watching you carefully with his eyes before he breaks out into a usual smile and carries on with going into the lounge.

#mouthwashing x reader #yandere mouthwashing #mouthwashing #daisuke mouthwashing #yandere daisuke #yandere #daisuke x reader

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originalkid-basement · 4 months ago

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I forgot I have to pick what I want to do forever Now

#but im not super talented in any specific area. what am i supposed to do #minutely paralyzing #i dont think theres anything i like doing anymore #ok do i want to do smth with linguistics or bioengineering

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perenlop · 3 months ago

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i know we joke about mirabelle being the beloved token cis because of her quest, but tbh there’s something there maybe about a trans person who doesnt wish to get surgery and feels like they have to to be taken seriously as a trans person…. idk is this anything

#tangentially related but eve’s posts about potential intersexism in vaugarde have me liking intersex mira….#im not trying to distract from the aroace focus of her storyline btw #like thats still the main takeaway altogether #but idk… something to be said about the pressure a trans person feels to ‘’validate’’ their identity in the eyes of other people #maybe a bit tmi but i see a bit of myself in that bc i felt like i had to want top surgery to be a good nonbinary person #(even tho i didnt hold other people to that standard at all (hey mira also does that lol)#but it was something i always felt anxious about and didnt really want to do. and i stressed bc i thought it made me a fake trans person #because if i dont want the surgery then am i even valid in my identity?#to be clear: thats not an issue for me anymore ive moved past it #nor do i think its like. a trans issue to ‘’pressure’’ people into getting surgery bc thats dumb #i feel like that pressure comes more from cis people who dont consider you ‘’really trans’’ til you have surgery #except theyll also get pissed if you have surgery bc trans people cant win with these idiots #its not a 1:1 allegory or anything and i dont think it was intended or anything the same way the aroace stuff is #but idk. theres something there i think #echoed voice #isat spoilers

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kattitude130 · 11 days ago

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saw someone suggest it so i think some people misremember that hakuri wasn't abused for his whole life, and in my opinion it's even more heartbreaking that for a good part of his childhood he was told he was important and special and loved and he really believed it, and then suddenly the same people who hugged and kissed him yesterday are beating the shit out of him the next and they never stop. and he can never go back to those happier days

#the way he keeps recalling that moment his father and brothers hugged him. breaks me #i dont know if we're told exactly how old he was when it started #just that sorcery training started at 8 isou training at 11 and he wasnt allowed to train anymore when he was 12 #it looks like its implied to be 12 but i imagine he was still looked down on at 8-9 when training started and he couldnt do anything #and even thinking back to those happier days might make him feel guilty now because he was also totally fine with the rakuzaichi back then #living this comfy rich kid life while theres literally people in cages #anyway i cant stop thinking about him. what thefuck #kagurabachi #my post

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persy-r-bozo · 4 months ago

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#Reds such a unique and sad character to me #No matter what he does he is in a loop somehow. both actually and mentally.#He wants change - but he's afraid of it - But he NEEDS it - but its too scary.#He wants to be normal - But normal is boring - But its safe.#Too weird for people - too normal for freaks.#He Likes those two - But getting attached hurts. - But he truly does love them - But what if hes the issue? what is HE hurts them.#and thats why i think transport was such a big turning point. because he does hurt them #He tries his best and does what he thinks will be best.#him being alone so he issnt an “Issue”#And them being happy and healthy in a place where thier needs are met. and they dont have to be scared anymore.#but he fails and he hurts them.#His torture here is feeling helpless and whenever he tries it fails to the point he feels awful.#He has such complex and battling emotions they loop in his head over and over. too the point he cant do anything #thus making him a neutral character.#But neutral issnt a Good thing #Yes he doesnt hurt anything. But he doesnt help or comfort either #He is in a loop inside and out.#Hes drowning.#SIIIGHH sometimes it hurts understanding him /hj. (i know theres like a gigillion ways to interpret him lmao.}#im actuly kinda sad i havent seen anyone else have the idea of him being torn apart inside and anxious tho.#or that he sees himself as a big monster. maybe even due to him leaveing before (trying to help but failing again)#or that hes easy to manipulate. thus creating danger for the other two.#But im just yapping and making a comic based on my thoughts :]#(as ive been a lil mentally ill about string man lately.#dhmis #dhmis red guy #dhmis fanart #dhmis comic #dont hug me im scared

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liquidstar · 8 months ago

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a friend who'd wait :)

#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol #finn's ocs #finn's art #i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me #and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun #i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past #he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it #he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned #which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them #they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore #but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird #and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place #though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library #and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together #since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door #eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement #barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate #but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd #he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself #but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov #sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3 #but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh

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reyesranch · 4 months ago

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#yk i still like ******#but ever since those bitches screenshotted my post to make fun of me on twt ive been completely turned off from it in a way #that i dont know how to explain #like laugh at me all you want idc but that truly just showed to me that yall are real nasty mean people #and i really dont want anything to do with them anymore tbh l #theres a handful of blogs thats are safe for me #and i ofc i can filter out ao3 for safe fics #but the way i cant interact with ****** content without running into some sort of t***y hate makes it even harder to enjoy it #i still think its cute and theres potential there if they ever choose to go through with it #but my god have they left a bad taste in my mouth

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sidabro · 5 months ago

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i sometimes think wether the art ive made for people is ever.. remembered? Be it gifts or commisions or trades or else. Ive not ever received gifts, but commissions ive got are in a special folder on the computer and favourited in the phone gallery. and i look at them and i think about them and smile to them a lot..

#some people i dont talk to anymore i have made.. so much art for?#of ocs or ships or fandom characters #i wonder if the art trade i made 6 years ago is still looked at..#and to think i also dont remember all what ive gifted? i can confidently name less than ten things specifically but i know theres.. more #i wonder if it was even saved or if its.. sank in old messages between dead accounts #i remember when i drew portraits of all of my favourite mutuals. sincere effort #in folk clothes of their regions with symbolica feom their blogs and and and..#with some of those people i later fell out due to fights. Do the still have those drawings?they were not *bad*.#I remember them liking them.. do they so still?#do people even.. remember that such event occured?#and i think about this because i found a drawing i made for someone after they commented the names of two characters nder a dtiys ship meme #and i send them without expectation or anything but.. ah. would they even know what i talk about if mentioned?#i have friends who do.. remember.. and are thankfull.. not that i seek that. and remind me and praise my effort without prompt. but i #do wonder how many dont remember.. if #it taws at me like what lost effort #...#but of course if there was no risk of waste there woulsnt be any art at all ever.. mhm

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fyrets · 2 months ago

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so. regarding the goatlings situation. what can we even say about it

#meow.txt #obligatory disclaimer that i dont think theres anything wrong with a person doing 'after dark' esque activities #while also running an all ages pet site. who give a fuck.#what does suck is like. clearly prioritizing one over the other and kinda being disingenuous about why that is.#also im hearing goatlings also sucks when it comes to artist payment. which unfortunately doesnt surprise me much anymore.

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ana-rends · 5 months ago

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i would rather live with ana for the rest of my life than binge like this ever again

#rending.txt #i dont know how to stop binging i was doing so well yesterday and then for no reason it fell apart #i just want to stop #i have so much to do today but i just dont want to do anything im so depressed #im just going to lay in bed and eat all day and think up ways to die #i already know my chosen method i just cant be bothered right now so maybe later #i just want to keep sleeping #i called in sick to work today because i was so so tired and i slept i think nearly 12 hours which isnt bad #i wanna go on a walk and work out and stuff but i just. cant right now. i need to work on my job presentation but i just cant #i just want to keep eating and go back to sleep and then wake up and end it #but i just need to make it to therapy tomorrow and maybe itll get better? who knows #i dont even have the energy to walk up to tesco to get blades or more food so im laying im bed eating dry granola like a pathetic pig #i dont wanna talk to anyone but my boyfriend but hes asleep and i dont want to vent to him anymore because it makes me feel guilty #and it doesnt help to vent to him anymore so i just make him sad for no reason and i dont know how to vent to anyone else #i havent changed my bedsheets in weeks and theres so much trash on my floor you can barely walk in my room and i havent showered in a week #i just dont have the heart to cry anymore i just want it to stop #i did everything i was supposed to so i could prevent binges and it didnt work at all so i think im beyond saving lol

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cutemeat · 6 months ago

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Why do people not want Rob in the writers room this up coming season?

idk i just think rob needs to take a step back from the writing sunny for a little while Lol... in the same way Glenn needed a break from it for a bit yknow

#ive had the same thought abt Hornsby #but idk we dont hear from him as much #i dont want rob just Booted from the show #obv he is showrunner that wouldnt happen nyway hes always gonna be very involved #i'd actually like to see him Direct some eps in s17 #but idk...is clear theres some tension there w Rob from s15-s16.. . and it just doesnt come off like he has a lot of passion for sunny rn #outside using it to boost his other endeavors #and frankly i dont think Rob has anything interesting to say meta/politic wise anymore... . mayb not even character wise #other than the broader arcs that are already being played out...#i think there would be funnier Mac plots/rob meta if rob stepped back #(inflates was a good example of good rob meta lolz)#id like to see more of that but.. more than that id like to see it balanced out by mac having. More to do than that #itd be interesting to see how the season would be w/o him in the writers room for a season or two...#maybe things would veer more character focused than just commentary #but maybe it wouldnt be better! maybe itd be worse! who knows!#i rlly cant imagine him actually not being in the writers room for sunny tho... cuz its His show or whatevrr**

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fuyuoh3 · 3 days ago

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Really not doing super hot mentally rn

Why ! Blergh

#i talk #teaching is kicking my ass #i just dont wanna do it anymore #like all of my old college friends left too #i think theres just three of us hanging in there #and one person transferred to elementary so #its not even anything specific its just *vaguely gestures*

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carcarrot · 6 months ago

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do i really want to make individual drinks again

#reaching back into the file cabinets of my mind to remember how i made certain drinks when i worked at the cafe #in preparation for the possibility of this new job #it would certainly mean far less goofing off time than i have at my current job. and i value my goofing off time dearly #but the people here are so fucking annoying lmao. i hate them soooo much #not that the people at this new job would be any better. we're still dealing with investment bankers #godddddd. what i really would want (which would be impossible)#would be to go back to working at the cafe but like. still have paid time off and insurance lmao #but the cafe was a small business and he was not offering paid time off and insurance. and the pay was way less #but i did get to play whatever music i wanted. unfortunately you cant live on that #like i can always say no to this new job if its offered to me. but is my goofing off time worth:#2 dollars less in pay and a half hour to an hour's more commute. well i dont know #a shorter commute would mean i could sleep more. and have more time at home .#i mean i probably don't Need all this goofing off time. but its nice #i dont knowwwwwww #like even though im a bit nervous abt doing it again i know that i would easily fall back into the routine of making drinks #which i was fairly good at. my one drawback is that i cant do latte art but i dont know that theyd really care here #and (because i found the menu of where id work) theres not a ton of drink options?? just the standard stuff #its being called a starbucks cafe but 1) its not managed by them and 2) it does not have their 5 billion drink options #so thats good. less to worry about #doesnt look like i even have to make anything foodwise which i had to at the cafe #here it looks like people can just buy a pastry and thats it #the hours are like. the same i work now. also good #sorry im like using this post to think through my thoughts.#uhhhh oh i looked up the manager who looks like a weenie so im not keen on the prospect of interviewing with him #but i probably would have thought that about my current manager if id seen a pic of him prior to interviewing. i guess???#and with these kind of catering units it seems you dont often deal directly with the manager that much anyway #i just gotta see if i get good vibes #rn i have unsure vibes. but i need a sign to see if this could be good for me #oh id also save money on transportation. and taxes! bc i wouldnt be working in ny anymore #lol oops tag limit. well i hope you enjoyed my job thoughts you probably didnt i know i didnt

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faggling · 1 month ago

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I love taking care of people omggg 😍😍😍

#i love when i can go into nurse mode and get people what they need and run through the checklist of what helps #especially if i know the person because then i already have a handle on preferences or what they typically need #i have like. half a degree for a few things and i have a specific interest in physiology and psychology #i also used to really enjoy crisis management and peer support stuff but theres a lot of elements of that i cant do anymore #because the toll that shit takes is more than i can pay #specifically crisis related events #theres a lot I have to work through yet before i can manage those situations #anyway. my dream situation would be to work with someone to help them figure out what they need #like. assess the situation. find resources if needed. check on their ability to address basic daily tasks. make crisis plans.#start some basic dbt conversations and try to figure out what help they need and how to get it #i know some people dont want to go to a traditional psychiatrist or psychologist for whole host of extremely valid reasons #so being able to help them with self help or finding other alternatives. or just like. being a person they can regularly talk and vent to #because sometimes people don't have anyone. and just one person in their life can make a major impact #and like. its not exactly like therapy in that way. like i have the knowledge base to incorporate aspects of it in if wanted/needed #i think some people just need to be heard and that can help them move forward #and my goal isnt to like. transform you or whatever. there are people out there who need help but its hard to start #or it's difficult for them to access what they know they need #and i just want to meet people where theyre at and help them take enough small steps to being able to live how they want #like. harm reduction type shit. if you just need clean needles thats a step forward. and maybe its the only step they feel they need #to be happy. and now they can have a little bit of a safety.#like. a little more agency over how they want to live their life while improving quality of life #a step is a step man #anything that moves you toward the life you want counts #you deserve a win #the edible hit part way through so sorry if theres incomplete and tangential thoughts #also how can i do this shit for profesh??#i know similar jobs exist but theres a huge foundation of shit i just dont agree with built into them

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nomairuins · 4 days ago

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i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms

#do i still list my interests somewhere i dont knowwww #i just stopped rly being into fandom a few years ago combination depression antipathy + bad experiences in fandom spaces #but idk. me listing my interests didnt rly accomplish anything for anyone bc it was just like anddd just so you know i was crazy abt this #video game for a rly long time it probably wont ever come up again but it might maybe one day. yk. ig its just sharing info Which is one #supposes the point of all of this but idk #its not that im cagey abt my interests except that one which i cant talk abt publically bc its a triple a game and im embarassed abt it. no #anything bad im just embarrassed . its not anything any of my oomfies have ever posted abt either so its just for me. and lamp . and when #the third game comes out i might post very very very vaguely abt it ......... possibly.#but ya its like. idk i think you guys have to find out abt my plague tale obsession on your own through lived experience. aka just me seein #like the word king and randomly collapsing to the floor and going KING HUGO 😭😭😭😭😭 oh god hugo guys oh god . please play plague tale #i wish i had finished that tw thing i started making but then i got too focused on the color palette and making it look nice and i stopped.#umm tw child death animal death The plague some gorey stuff theres some cult things in the second game ummm. yeah ..... its rly special to #me tho i love those games PLAY PLAGUE TALE!!! and if u need more indepth tws ill give them to you even if i have to replay both games to #refresh my memory... lamp wont play plaguetale with me (not their speed) so im all alone </3 but i miss it i might replay soon... i wish i #was in like discord servers so i could play it on call w ppl or something <- is in discord servers but is shy and Also i feel like playing #game on call is like a level like 2 friendship thing and i cant even do level 1 friendship things like i feel i need to at least be talking #regularly in a server b4 i like try to do Calls in the server esp for plague tale bc its like a 1p game so wed need a rapport to like have #shit to talk abt and etc ..... i could just infodump abt the game but again i feel doing that to like strangers/oomfies would b weird. ik i #come on here and talk abt whatever i want but its like you guys dont Have to read this and its not like a server where Yeah im not talking #to one person but im still like Oh well ive sent a message and its in the channel and everybody just has to look at it and whatever.#but on here i post i nobody cares and it just gets pushed down and its Fine bc its not like anybody has to feel obliged to respond #which is fine. you know.. i just hate being like a nuisance i hate . idk how to phrase. imposing myself on others ig.. which is dumb bc the #i turn around and whine abt how i have no friends and its like Maybe that is bc you donot talk to anyone bc yr scared they will be annoyed #with you and you dont leave the house and have no interests to bond with ppl and etc. but basically the difference is ive written all this #and you guys can just not read it or you can just read it and ignore it and its different. even tho i am like addressing you and i do have #like. weird parasocial thing with My followers or whatever where i talk directly to you YES YOU! reading this. IDKK im rambling so much i #dont know what im talking abt anymore. i proooooobably need to go to sleep im hungry tho but im not but i am. but i think my sleep is getti #off schedule again i had trouble sleeping yesterday too... ugh

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silverselfshippingchaos · 9 days ago

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ugghhh wintertime sucks!! I'm sad and tired and sad all the time.. I need a nap.. and f/o cuddles.. and another nap..

#ash rambles 💚#negative #part of it is definitely the weather #it's so dark and dreary and i never wanna leave my bed #but also just. my mood akdjajs I'm kinda down in the dumps today #im recovering from being sick which always fucks me up #and i just cant shake this feeling of anxiety..? and i feel kinda a lot like my f/os wouldnt like me or would fall out of love or never see #me as more than a friend and other stuff like that #i.. actually got broken up with yesterday irl!#it wasnt messy. he said that this isnt what he wanted and it was fine and we're back to being pals. i wasnt sad at all in the moment and #i dont think i am now..? it's weird. we were laughing like always literal minutes after having the chat. when we got together we said that #if things domt work out we wanna keep being friends. and we're doing just that. honestly i saw it coming and idek if i LOVE him anymore #what even does love feel like..? regardless I'm not upset or sad at my breakup since i saw it coming and I'm honestly happy he just. Talked #to me about it. we communicated and then three minutes later went back to talking about x.enoblade LMAAOO it was fun!#but it is ridiculous for me to expect to feel NOTHING at no longer being in a relationship. i cant just feel nothing. i dont feel sad per s #just... in my thoughts i guess? I don't think the feeling of my f/os not liking me stems from me being dumped though. i think thats just me #being me sjdjaksj I'm very insecure a lot of the time. i dont think being dumped helpd very much though LMAAAOO #I'm doing okay i promise. and I'll be alright. theres just both a lot and nothing going on at the same time and i feel... idk what i feel.#i hope my f/os love me 😭 i hope that a lot #and honestly i know this community is ass and I'm more than happy in my own corner with my couple of followers but. ngl I've really felt as #though I'm not valued here and all that junk as of late. yeah just.. i think everything is happening at the same time and I'm tired and #i feel like I'm a confused kiddo who doesnt know anything anymore BAHAHAHA #holy shit it just sounds like i need a shower and a nap huh- I'll be alright I'm just. dealing with stuff akdjsks but i also hate to always #bring the mood down like this! i always try my best to be haha silly and all that shit. I'm just gonna try to daydream about f/o cuddles #(and try to convince myself they dont hate me ofc)#oh and. i know i mentioned this but. i hate the weather. so much. I'm sad all the time. November is actually my least favorite month too 😭#I've gotta study a lot today and I'll try to sneak in some k.urohyou and hopefully start watching monster too but yeah i apolgize if #I'm acting off these days ajdjajs I'm very stuck in my own mind these days. not exactly the most fun place to be 😭#delete later #i mean akdjajs i literally started crying the other day because my friend said that my husband (k.yohei) loves me ajdkahdb come on ash..

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