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shdwtouch · 4 months

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taking a short break ♡ I know I haven't been here / doing much anyway, but I've just been dealing with some really bad anxiety, to the point I feel sick whenever I'm here, so I think I should just. not be here ? I've deleted the app from my phone, may pop in from my laptop if I feel like it I guess. gonna focus on school and playing v rising with my friends and reading the new graphic novels I got.

thank you, everyone, for your patience and understanding ! if you need me you can add me on discord ( sealkii ), just lmk who you are. otherwise... I'll be back on friday with an update; I have therapy on thursday this week, and I hope afterwards I'll be in a better place. I don't plan on leaving permanently, I'm just currently not in a headspace to be present here, much less active.

again, I apologize if anyone is waiting on a starter, thread reply, or DM reply from me. I really love Shade and I'm excited about all the different interactions and dynamics I've already been able to develop for her, so again I don't intend to leave ! I'm just riding the struggle bus as it is and don't know what else to do, honestly.

anyway. sending love to you all. ♡ take care of yourselves ! again, feel free to add me on discord, otherwise I shall see you on friday ! ( also, I may post some stuff to the potential blog I want to make for rosenrot, which can be found here. )

#《 ° puffin.exe 》 im a puffin ! i dont do much #° personal !#i posted something like this late last night but figured i should post it when people are actually likely to see it orz #i feel bad for fucking off like this but being here with anxiety has me feeling worse #its really a no win situation for me :c #i want to be here. i want to engage. i want to write and talk about shade ! but my anxiety has me in fight or flight mode and i just.#i dont know why. i just want it to stop.#i think im just. overwhelmed.

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tea-cat-arts · 4 months

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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

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dukeofthomas · 3 months

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Here's my controversial opinion; if you're trying to write Bruce as a non-abusive, good parent, you should also write him respecting his kids' privacy, boundaries, and not stalking&surveying them.

#my dc posting #dc #batfamily #batman #bruce wayne #dick grayson #jason todd #tim drake #damian wayne #looking thru ur kids phone tracking them giving them no privacy etc etc is deeply damaging #but yall aint ready for the ''stalking is their love language' is super toxic' conversation </3 #also can we retire the JL being completely chill about it. 'batman just knows things' not being bothered their secret identities were found #out etc can we. stop coddling the batfam #i just need someone anytime to please just call them out like 'hey dont fucking surveil me' like that is actually extremely unethical #and its frankly not hard to write a batman who doesnt invade his kids privacy n boundaries etc #controversially when reading fic where theyre supposed to be healthy n getting along i want to actually feel like its deserved n good for t #hem #instead of sitting there going 'woo thats toxic' 'oh that even worse' 'why are we passing over all that'. like i dont wanna be thinkin they #should go no-contact when its supposed to be fuffy n good :(#like if you can write away the hitting n other abuse why is this the one thing that just must always stay #like genuinely it aint hard to write a parent not stalking their children. actually maybe i should remind you all that stalking is not good #or funny #like i feel like w all the joking some of us are actually forgetting its not good. ever. like absolutely never dont stalk ppl #eh idk. this is why i cant stay in any one fandom too long bc i start developing Opinions which inevitably make me hostile to like #90% of the fandom's content 😔

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heartorbit · 1 year

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so when's the wxs phantom of the opera set

#project sekai #pjsk #prsk #emu otori #tsukasa tenma #nene kusanagi #rui kamishiro #ruis hair continues to piss me off forever. and ever #Yes i stole their phantom outfits from the revue gacha game. Whos gonna stop me. I WAS SO MAD THAT PHANTOM NANA IS AN OBSOLETE CARD OK #the discerning revsta + pjsekai fan can see i gave emu nanas outfit and rui michirus. Becaude i am crazy. Edel de/light was crazy.#polysho #proseka #why are there so many fuckfign tags. Why so tagging. -the tumbler #Ok sorry #Watch me go insane. Phantom is such a fucking rui role inknow ok i know i know. thats why i gave it to him. but also. I have emu disease #INSTEAD OF THE BRAINTHEREIS EMUUUUUU!!!!!!#Trying to figure out if i should render these and how sucked. cause the first one was drawn on paper and scanned . i shoildve just left itA #Its ifne idekc. I did another emu phantom drawing but i dont feel like posting it alone so ill have to draw more of this. bye #i dont even like the phantom. and i want to kill andrew llyoyid webber with a hammer. And so should you

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bruciemilf · 1 year

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I wonder how many times Clark and the batkids + Alfred revived Bruce with the Lazarus Pit and just never told him abt it

#he pieces it together later but i mean. its so hard for him to miss now that hes looking back at it #like why is he always always always cold with a turtleneck on and heating blasting #why is his appetite so scarce? how come his sleep deprived body withstands hours - sometimes DAYS - of patrol #and functions perfectly? how come time passes by but he stays the same? why wont clark and dick stop giving gim #*him looks of loving grief?#why does harley slam her fists on her head when she sees him? ' no no no you're gone. you're GONE. I KNOW you are!'#why does selina smile at him with such heavy pity ' sorry bruce. i don't do ghosts'#bruce wayne #dc #dc comics #batman #batfamily #clark kent #dick grayson #jason todd #bc they def exclude the cloning. they dont want another bruce. they want THEIR bruce. tim #like can you imagine jason getting up in tim's face and just ' if you're not gonna stand by us then stay out of our way'#dark bruce? tired. dark BATKIDS? sign me the FUCK up #batdad #text

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intotheelliwoods · 6 months

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Can someone please hold my hand and explain to me how I am supposed to draw them in nice outfits when I give them hump backs larger than camels

#2 arms left #PLEASEEE #I want to draw them in outfits sometimes #but them im like.#hmm #how do I fit a shirt over that #thats why I also like the poptart in a poncho idea because well!!!!#then it can fit his whole back!!!!!#and not look awkward #“ell why do you draw them with such large backs” I DONT KNOW??? because I like too????????#“ell just stop drawing them with such large backs” uhhh no <3 <3 <3 <3

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redysetdare · 1 year

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I'm going to explode every writer that uses romantic love as character development. I'm so tired of "They aren't interested in dating" being used as a flaw that needs to be fixed by making the character fall in love with someone.

#text #aro #aromantic #non-partnering #arospec #aspec #aroace #romance repulsed #romance mention #'Character A doesnt know how to love so Character B needs to teach them' Im going to kill you #exploding you exploding you exploding you #like shut up!!! a character not wanting to date isn't a flaw!!! stop treating it as such!!!#it doesn't matter WHY they dont want to date stop treating it like they just need to meet the 'right person'#so that they can be 'fixed'#i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you

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casualavocados · 1 month

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…It's nice. You're so noisy. […] Actually, it'd be better if we died together. That way, neither of us would have to suffer the pain of losing the other, right? Shut up.

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 13

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #ai di x chen yi #chen yi x ai di #nat chen #chen bowen #louis chiang #chiang tien #jiang dian #userspring #uservid #userspicy #userrain #userjjessi #pdribs #*cajedit #*gif #AI DI'S FACE IN THE LAST GIFFFFFF IIIIIIIIII. LOOOOVE. HIIIMMMMM.#this might be the most romantic thing ive ever seen full stop #if you dont want to die with me so neither of us have to live without each other then why would i want you.#(but also ai di would have been okay with that. again. hes like. hes taking what he can get.#he thinks chen yi isnt as All In as he is....and this is the scene he realizes chen yi is just as insane about him and he is SOOOOO. happy!#i also love the face chen yi makes as he's getting in the car while ai di is calling at him to promise. he ROLLS HIS EYES.#he looks at ai di like. SURE jan. SURE ill let you die before me. SUUUURE i wont go insane if you die.#i just love how now theyre completely on the same page with each other. they know how much each loves the other #and both of them are so so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AGH.#'youre so noisy.' 'shut up.' chen yi just wants to kiss (hes laughing & fond & in love & not as good with words & its really. really cute.)#and the way he leans back and clears his throat like he cant believe what he just said but he would never take it back...baby...

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clairedaring · 5 months

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Ming + being proactive in getting to know Joe and his works

MY STAND-IN (2024) | 1.03

#poom phuripan #up poompat #my stand in #my stand in the series #userbunn #userrain #usersasa #userjamiec #tobelle #msiep3 #usertoptaps #tuseralexa #userrlana #userjap #rinblr #my stand-in #clairedgifs #msiedit #thaidrama #justice for my misunderstood meow meow ming #this gifset is dedicated to sasa bc i actually came up w this while venting with her in the dms abt how viewers are mostly misreading ming #ming actually cares you know #like no matter how small joe feels whenever he's with ming... like ming does care #ming doesn't even want the new nice fancy things... he's okay living in joe's humble abode and using old things #ming stops being picky with his food and attempts to cook for joe #this was a bit more detailed in the novel since we had more time #i love the parts in the novel where joe 1.0 would come home very tired from work and ming's passing thoughts are like why dont u just quit #and i'll take care of you for the rest of your life and you dont even have to work so hard for so little wage

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delicatepointofview · 3 months

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gonna have to deal with people missing the point of louis singing 1d songs in festivals... don't get me started on the other covers

#festivals is for exposure #once again: festival is for exposure!!!!#for the people that know him only from the band its like oh its him? let me check him out #for the indie ppl that he wants to appeal to its like: oh isnt this from [band]? let me check this dude's redemption of it #why must it be said every time!!!!!#same thing can be said even for tour #have we not seen the clip go viral on the first time he said 505?#and people will be buying tickets to hear a 1d song live out of nostalgia even if they dont know much of louis' own stuff #and come out of there thinking hm i actually enjoyed his as well #thats the way it goes #it doesnt say anything about his solo abilities and he's not selling himself short #there will always be people that are there not fully entirely for all of his songs either #it happens to mainstream artists and their big hits #the way this fandom want to complain about everythinggggggg #edit: sorry this isnt direct shade #i just have to see it multiple times everywhere because i update dailytomlinson 💀#last one add because AJSKAK truly irates me #stop trying to make this as some hard task for him that he's only doing it because he's not as big or something #i promise you he doesnt need you fuming over this my god #i know its mostly pettiness disguised as a real constructive opinion over how louis manages his career or whatever #but my god. arent we tired of focusing on the stupidest things? end rant

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puppyeared · 1 year

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The garment, worn by those in good standing with Hyrule royalty, has been reworked with the latest improvements, such as a new shoulder guard.

#I miss my wife tails. I miss her a lot. I’ll be back #I love the champions leathers design but the story behind it is so sweet too like. she wanted to thank him so she went and #got some improvements added to it?? and she wanted to see his face when she surprises him with it hello?????#I think my favourite part is the half chest just for angst. I like imagining she was very particular about the armour placements #and had a chest piece added because yknow. right over the heart might I add #originally I wanted this to be more angsty but halfway through I was like wait this would completely miss the point #in my mind the armor isn’t just ‘I don’t want you to die again’ but also ‘I want to keep you safe as best I can’#in her diary she was like links armor is wearing down so you know what? I’m gonna add more armor to better protect him!!!#and with her upbringing in mind (and the conversation she had with him about whether he would still choose to be a knight if things were #different) she could have totally asked him to stop doing it altogether. but she made the armor for him instead #sidenote she also got to be a teacher and scholar like she wanted and that is so. dont look at me I’m crying #I don’t know if ANY of this makes sense I’m just rambling. yes I wear the champions leathers every chance I get why do you ask #btw if you squint the leathers chainmail and sweater are taken from the hylian armor chestpiece! slightly modified on the tunic but cool #my art #myart #tears of the kingdom #totk #totk spoilers #totk zelda #totk link #botw spoilers #botw #breath of the wild #loz #loz fanart #comic #tw blood #blood

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potatobugz · 28 days

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i was hacked by a very unhappy man!

#dimension 20 #never stop blowing up #nsbu #d20 nsbu #g13 #g13 nsbu #usha rao #MY TASTE IN FICTIONAL CHARACTERS GETS WORSE AND WORSE BY THE DAY!!!!!#sorgy. i cant help it every time a character is even slightly sympathetic i fall for it every time #i acknowledge that he is rude to everyone around him and the reason why he is so isolated from every body #is that he is egotistical and drives people away on purpose #like if u are not useful to him then he doesnt like you #but that in and of itself is so sad. hes just really sad #and a dick. and its funny #“we can have an old ladies night out” “maybe you can have that one by yourself” LMAO #ALSO USHA IS SO FUNNY U HAVE NO IDEA HOW HARD I WAS LAUGHING TODAY #“i made my own alcohol during the prohibition” SHES 100 YEARS OLD AT BEST. AND FROM INDIA #i think these two are my favorite characters this far and i dont know what that says abt me #oh not even mentioning the inherent tragedy of fictional character who knows theyre not real and wants to escape into the real world #tell me g13. why do you want people? huh? HUH?#im also being influenced by his nature of being a loser and also i like computers and computer symbolism #im normal you can trust me #i could go on about how usha and g13 are alike in their refusal to change #but i need to sleep #nsbu spoilers

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redbuddi · 9 months

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the James Somerton thing really shows how hard people are willing to go to bat for a white cis guy who seems to say all the right things and makes content they like no matter how much everyone else has proof of them being a bad person. That is, until a more popular white cis guy who says all the right things calls them out.

This isn't a criticism of Hbomberguy at all, but of everyone else for refusing to listen to the voices of the people James hurt until Hbomb made it cool. This happens all the time and is still happening and it drives me insane. Y'all need to do better.

#coughquintonreviewscough #everyone's willing to believe victims until a white man they like says not to i guess #even when said white man a) has a history of being very creepy to various female youtubers #and b) is literally contradicting his own stated beliefs #dude literally said “victims should be believed because a woman can stand to loose everything when they call out a man”#but then was like “oh but dont believe this woman shes just a creepy stalker who wants to force herself into my life”#i wont say everything i know since it's not my story to tell but #i want yall to wonder why while quinton's editors came to bat for him #literally none of the people quinton has collabed with did #if theyre his friends or at least like him why didnt they say anything #also it took way too long for game grumps to fall from grace #yknow despite how consistently racist and sexist they were non stop

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ourflagmeansgayrights · 10 months

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thinking abt one of my favorite asinine izzy takes which is that a conversation starting with “i should’ve let the english kill you” and ending with “[you] better watch your fucking step” contains absolutely zero death threats

#ofmd #our flag means death #izzy hands #dizzy izzy #israel hands #s1e10 #if this post is in the izcourse tag no it isnt u just dont know how to use tumblr #txt #mine #og #i miss s1 deranged izzy so much tho he was so fun #why do ppl want to argue that this isn’t a death threat it’s so much juicer if it is????#the DRAMA yall cmon. stop making izzy boring

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baeshijima · 10 months

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this truly was our jujutsu kaisen, huh...

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#sophie's idle chatter #for the sake of my sanity i havent touched s2 of jjk purely bc i dont want to see shibuya arc a second time #i just saw this from the hourly nanami account and cried bc i now know we are at that point in shibuya.#man fuck the manga i will never recover this is why i stopped at chap 200 smth #i shouldve stopped sooner gdi #AND THE FACT *THE* EP IS TMRW........ ALONG WITH KENJIRO TSUDAS TWEET ABT IT....#IM UNWELL NANAMI ILYSM IM SOHDJFGHDFKJGHKSAFDHGLSDKGJ;S #i will now disintegrate so that no one can perceive me :D

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sockdooe · 1 month

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I don’t know if maybe it’s just me, but is anyone else seeing a rise of people claiming that they could do a better rewrite of Voltron and then immediately say they’d make K/L cannon or Adash/ canon?

I don’t know about anyone else but I genuinely don’t think making ships canon would make the show better.

In fact I think It’d make it worse.

And considering shiro isn’t even mentioned in these and if he is it’s just to be Keith dad…. Is telling.

#listen do what you want but I’m really tired of people genuinely thinking they can do better and then forget the main story of Voltron #I’m being so dead serious #Voltron was never supposed to be about ships or which ones would be canon #it’s about 5 teens/young adult forced into space to be the ‘hero’ against a empire that’s been around for more than their entire life times #and the fact this shit keeps populating the shiro tag is what pisses me off more #I feel like I’m the only one in this fandom that enjoys ships for what they are: FUN #I have tons of ships!!! I don’t want any of them to be cannon!!! even if I love them so much!!!! why? because ships don’t need to be canon!!#you can just simply enjoy having your headcanons and making art/writing and have it be fun!!!!#nothing has to be canon #I don’t know why especially this fandom is so obsessed with it but it’s driving me CRAZY #and what makes it worse is that every time they talk about making K/L cannon is that ‘it deserves to be’#NO IT DOESNT #IT REALLY DOESNT #VOLTRON HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ROMATIC RELATİONSHİPS #UNPOPULAR OPINION BUT IT REALLY DOESNT #you want to do a re-write do it! but dont do it just because you want to make a ship CANON #because that’s not re-writing it’s just fan fiction #you are just writing a fanfic #I want to re-write Voltron too but I actually want the show to improve and be BETTER AND LOVE ITS CHARACTERS #I WANT THEM TO BE BUIKT UO THE WAY THEY SHOUKDVE BEEN #ships don’t belong in canon #sure is it maybe nice when it happens cool but let it happen without dismissing the other characters #not because fans wanted it #also stop fucking populating the shiro tag lest I come at you with a lead pipe #Voltron #voltron legendary defender #vld

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