#i dont have much to post beyond doodles

[ironwarriorsdawn]

[lara-cairncross]

i noticed in one of your tags on a post a bit ago about fairy au you mentioned Shelldon. is there anything you wanna tell about him? and/or anything you posted earlier i may have missed? even if you dont want to share that right now, thank you for sharing other parts of your au, its really cool!

HSHFJSF Shelldon is Donnie’s emotional support pet rock!!! Bc he hates bugs and most animals lmao. I did a bunch of silly doodles of them in this post, if that’s what you’re looking for? :D

I don’t have much to share about Shelldon beyond. like. stupid shit I made up bc it made me laugh. Including but not limited to:

Leo, Raph, and Mikey all have beef with Shelldon for various reasons and in various ways

Donnie believes Shelldon is sentient. This infuriates Leo to a degree that scares the rest of the family

Raph also believes Shelldon is sentient but bc Shelldon has never spoken to him, he just assumes that Shelldon hates him personally

Kendra ALSO believes Shelldon is sentient and is constantly trying to steal him from Donnie and/or lure Shelldon to her side with promises of better benefits and a higher pay rate for his job as “emotional support pet rock”

Shelldon. May or may not actually be sentient.

Shelldon has been the victim of three attempted murders (thanks Leo), 17 attempted kidnappings (thanks Kendra), and has been implicated in a single instance of breaking-and-entering as the rock used to smash through the window. Donnie sat at Shelldon's bedside for three days while he recovered. I would like to reiterate that he may or may not actually be sentient.

Shelldon has only survived all this abuse bc he's literally indestructible and nobody can figure out why

Shelldon has his own, smaller, cuter emotional support pet rock called Shelldonite

[moonshynecybin]

you cantttt just say rosquez feminization and not elaborate…. penny for your thoughts

shout out to @lestelledreams who sent me another ask like this but tumblr ATE my response when i tried to post it. luckily i draft in notes app…okay so it would be easier to list thoughts i DONT have about rosquez feminization… under the cut bc we do in fact get a lil nasty here

so i’ve talked a bit about some of the non-racing oriented things marc does for his body like his hot girl routine (laser hair removal. skin creams. slutty workout videos) like my girl enjoys being SMOOTH he enjoys being conventionally SEXY (personally. bush til i die but whatever live your truth marc) and the first time he’s doing it as. okay i’m famous and photographed all the time AND around my hot older crush/idol who has fucked more people than i’ve ever even met in my lifetime… like a little insecure part of marc is like this is what vale wants… and one thing about my man marc is he will COMMIT. so he waxes himself hairless the entire time they are fucking the first from 2013-2015 (and beyond) and frankly vale would like him either way but MARC gets off on it so hard… making himself pretty for vale… and maybe vale says something like that in the moment, just like mindless dirty talk about how good he looks how he made himself all pretty like a girl, and marc jolts like he’s been electrocuted and whines and comes right then even though vale had like JUST got inside him… and he’s curled around vale panting eyes shining leg hitched around vale’s hip asking him to keep going and it’s SO clear he liked whatever that was a LOT.

so vale uh. catalogs that information. and starts to test some hypotheses #olditalianmeninSTEM by which i mean the next time marc is blowing him he curls his hand into marc’s hair and tugs a little until marc looks him in the eye and vale just sends it like they’re whipping 310km/hr around the track— like breathless mischievous confidence… starts feeding him a stream of dirty talk, calling him gorgeous telling him nasty stuff about his tits riding that lovely edge of complimentary and degrading and getting sooo gender about it, and he watches marc’s eyelashes flutter and his hand on vale’s hip tightens and then marc like. literally chokes himself on valentino’s dick he’s clearly so so into it and vale feels crazyyyyyyy… SORRY..

and then it’s onnnnn baby it is. using the feminine forms of italian endearments in bed. playing with his tits. losing the condom. weird roleplay where they laugh so much. it is delightfully horny and slightly goofy gender transgression that they are both SO obsessed with… like the sex whiplashes through tonal dissonance it is simultaneously the most intense thing they’ve ever felt and like. lethally campy. at one point they are BOTH the baby girls bc they love being hot and are not serious people

that being said it culminates with vale just like. buying disgustingly expensive neon yellow designer lingerie and leaving it in marc’s motorhome with a lil note that has like. a dumbass turtle doodle on it instead of his signature. like something very silly and valentino. and then they have the WORLD’S most insane sex about it where vale says all kind of nasty stuff about marc being his best girl and spits in his mouth and tries to get him pregnant. hashtag catholic weirdo moments. crucially it is never formally discussed until like. genuinely ten years later when vale is like impish nervous smile WE REALLY SHOULD HAVE TALKED ABOUT THAT EH? and marc’s like ? best sex of my life? wdym?

[eggwishing]

LORD alfuckingmighty i don't think there is a single string of words i could piece 2gether to properly describe the absolute magnificence of ur art . you have such a vast understanding of art & so many of its intricacies. ur character designs are ALWAYS incredible, so so endearing & memorable. every time i see one i get incredibly excited & am strangled by the urge to make fanart because just. oh my god. you have some of the BEST color work i have ever fucking seen like it is genuinely fucking spectacular what you are able to create & look good with combinations of colors i would NOT think to place in the way you do if i were given the same palette. i feel like calling your doodles just "doodles" is like, WRONG, because every single one is something u could spend ages looking at on its own. i'd pick favorites to describe but we would be here for hours . you have the insane ability to keep your style consistent but are able to stretch it & change it for whatevers appropriate/the receive your desired result for the particular drawing and its just SO. SO. COOL. take literally all of this and add it to the fact that you can fucking ANIMATE !!! while still keeping all of these features of ur style intact and that fact is just OTHERWORLDLY to me in the best way possible . not only that but ur stories r always so very intriguing and it makes me SOO ANGRY that oc artwork & original stories dont receive the same attention as fandom work or otherwise because i swear 2 fucking god you go absolutely ABOVE and beyond in terms of creativity for ur stories & DESERVE THE RECOGNITION AAAAAAAAUUUUUUGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRORWGGGGGGGGGGGGRWGGGGGGGGGGRGGGGGGGGGRGGGGGGGGGGGGGRGGGGGGGGGGGGGG okay im done. i hav been up for almost 24 hours and saw one of ur drawings and got real emotional ihope uhave an awesome day eebrt i hope to be at least 10th place in ur list of biggest fans .

oh my god . I'm responding to this on a computer which doesn't have any of my usual images OR emojis that I would usually throw at you like. I don't know Someone who's really really REALLY good at throwing stuff. so I'll just use my words. THANK YOU SO MUCH !!!!!! this means the absolute world to me.. I did not expect to be blasted in the face by one million kisses when I checked my inbox, I had to sit back in my chair like WOW.... I love you .... I love youuuu...... thank you so much for the encouragement, I've been feeling not so confident And kind of afraid (leaving to study animation in college very soon) for the last few days n your words are lifting me out of the void like bingbong's rocket from inside out. not gonna lie your comments are one of the highlights of posting on Tumblr, I love reading them so much when you reblog my stuff. they're beautiful and always make me feel better when I'm feeling down... you were there from the days of homestuck dragons... you were always there for my ocs... You are a "real one." If I had a heart locket I'd print out your icon and put it in there along with all the other people I treasure ^_^ so yeah, definitely in the ranks... when I'm up on stage wearing a solid gold tuxedo (they had to wheel me in because I could not walk in the Solid Gold Tuxedo) and giving my speech to the world before I take it over my i will start by saying First of all I'd like to thank Mel Tumblr user Melissa-titanium On Tumblr for always hyping me up... could not have made it this far without him. And then I'd press the doomsday button and blow up every world leader.

I wish I could respond with something that appropriately returns the energy of what you sent me, but this is all I've got. Just know I am vibrating in my chair right now... hope you got some sleep!!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

[fanofthelamb]

yall it turns out i have TWO boundaries.

minors please do not interact

proshippers pls dont interact

REQUESTS OPEN BTW

OOH PINNED POST IDEA: im going to take over this with the list of everything i want to be workong on(This list is not exhaustive I know I'm missing a good amount of shit, I'll add it as I remember it but there's just so much.) :

Comic Redraws

Dashcon Lamb Drawings (I already have all the lambs I wanna draw I just need to draw em now)

Kissing Booth Wrap-up (I have how I want it to end finally. I BTG'd that shit. bAHAHAHA)

Dream Eater Aniamtion

Discovery Comic. (FOTL comic about nari finding out about the seal.)

Kallamar Lore comics: His Birth, Shamura's Memory of the Boat, How he acquired his crown.

Kalladad Art: The graves he made his 2 kids, him travelling to Gilded Peaks and befriending the Lamb's friend, Him talking with the Goddess of Greif.

Drawing the minibosses.

God of Peace Reference , Goddess of Greif Reference, God of the Sea Reference, Moon Deity Reference, She who Lurks in the Trenches (Sea Demon).

Finish the Design of Gilded Peak's Leader (Crowned Goat, but not The Goat. I only made them a goat bc they live on a mountain LMFAO.)

Alternative Narinder Design (Not being used, but a fun exploration for the people curious on how i would've went with him.)

Beyond the Grove Chapter 1.

Comic about Narinder and Aym's strained relations.

Comic where Aym discovers Notre and Brejul's relationship with Narinder.

Narinders Twitter Announcement animatic

Ratau (Always)

Leshycat + Leshylamb (Requested)

Wedding Comic (As soon as the trauma connected to that comic stops freezing me up when I work on it)

BTG concept art for later chapters. Outfit changes, monsters, and Gilded Peaks.

Comic where Narinder confronts Hermes.

Kallamar with Longer hair.

Comic about Narinder's Nightmares.

Comic about Heket acquiring her crown.

Lamb and Nari at the Smugglers Sanctuary.

Lamb's Button (NSFW, wont be posted here but just put on this list for myself to remember)

Unfinished Pieces in the WIP Stack. (Paintings, doodles, etc.)

Asks

Leshy + Heket Nightmares comic

Young Heket and the Fox

Dissenter comic

Crusading with the Goat

Beach episode with rue and Spiders babies

Nari info page

Ratau's past

start up doing studies again

strawberry chapstick narinder

valefar meets the goat

crown sex (rick request)

Conveyor Belt Lambs (Winter, Huntsers, rick)

Sticker Nari

Lambs eating breads

GOAT LORE (finally)

hips gif

lamb cant fuckin read comic

nari's gay ass moms comic

hot make out sesh with rue

vitas biting the FUCKING FUCK!!!!!!!!! out of humphrey

Cotl vore

[theoldoor]

a little late for summertime dont you think

just some post-talia bummery from these two i love them to the point that i have to remind myself that one isnt even canon like this is torture.

I dont have much to say for this post as ive said pretty much everything about post-talia them posts prior, I DO however, have a lot of talia rambling to do- which will be saved when i doodle enough stuff for it

They still have that little bickering and bantering thing going on, passive aggressiveness with one another and being the one who gets the other into silly troubles despite both being elites. Like how Jade said Topaz and Aventurine bickers like kids, these two however, bicker like those alt older brothers in coming of age movies and his bromantic bro bestfriend (ive said this before so manu times but i cant find a better way to describe them)

mayeb something like todd and wallace but theyre vashwood if you get what i mean - i’ve also been subconsciously projecting vashwood onto these two considering fenrir calls aventurine “vasha/vash/vashu” while aventurine calls fenrir “that wolf/wolfy/dumb dog” and ive yet to realize that until very recently when i was writing something for fenrir that goes like “he valued life as others and he also bets it on me.” and i get reminded of “he feared death twice as others” and it just hits “ive been projecting vashwood onto these two oh my god”

fenrir cares for aventurine more than he wants to, but he does regardless.

"You should never ask anyone for anything. Never- and especially from those who are more powerful than yourself. They will make the offer and give it of their own accord."

It’s something that Fenrir live by, is that genuine help would come without the need for obligations afterwards. During Talia, Fenrir actively create scenarios around him that make people that he’s dependent on rely on him, out of obligations or respect. So whatever help Fenrir gives, he calculated them all so that they’d be beneficial “technically” to him.

Yet for certain individuals, those he love dearly such as Hermia, Boothill and Aventurine- He was willing to suffer a loss for them, which, for a person all for survival like Fenrir, is a tough decision to take. He broke his own ideals and virtues so that he could protect and satisfy these people, his family and he hates whenever he does that because it showed him that someone is having control over him and he’s at their mercy, which means they could just leave him and he’s very vulnerable to them. To put trust in these people so much that he’d voluntarily help them is like to trust them with his life.

i also like the concept of Talia recycling everything, even people considering some people would see that they’ve been “used” beyond so they were given a chance again. that’s why i felt like aventurine was suitable for this considering his past and his potential inferiority complex there.

the foundation between aventurine and fenrir relies on a lot of trust, and gamble as they could not read one another. it connects back to aventurine’s eidolons being game theories and avidity’s being about desires and non-co-operative game theories (one wins at expense of another while game theory is both party wins through trust and cooperation). fenrir’s eidolons are still in writing, but i want it to be based on 7 deadly sins or something, he does have a lot of religious references for the new lore rework.

fenrir was created before i know of aventurine, but i did tweaked a lot of things about him when aventurine came out. though the fundamentals still stayed, they were just made for each other rurururouuouogugh….

[twinleafsystem]

YOU'RE RIGHT I DO WANT TO ASK ABOUT YOUR LOOP SYSTEM AU. PLEASE TELL ME EVERYTHING (I AREADY SAW THE POST ABOUT AFFECTION SEEKER(I DONT WANT TO OPEN GOOGLE TRANSLATE RIGHT NOW TO SPELL THE FRENCH VERSION RIGHT(IM LEARNING FRENCH ITS HARD OK)))

:D YAAAYY!!! um um um okay id need a little more direction if you wanted something more specific?? but heres some quick bullet points that i have abt cda & loop ^^

cda's pronouns are they/them to everyone save for loop, who is allowed to toss a she/her in there if they so wish

(pretending like vaugardian isnt just fucked up french) both cda and loop can speak the same amount of french. cda just retains it better. sometimes they speak in it exclusively just to piss loop off. they get a kick out of it

their relationship is extremely strained at first, but eventually they start to understand each other. loop really learns to appreciate cda and, in return for feeling appreciated, cda stops trying to cause trouble just for the sake of it

eventually loop gets their human head back whilst retaining their star body. they look as you would expect both outside and inside the headspace. cda does not <3 their face shape is the same, but their face has much darker skin (compatible to bonnie's) before fading to white starting just below their shoulders and getting more intense as it goes down. their hair texture similar to mira's and have said hair pulled up into loose space buns. said buns are held up with two ribbons, which are decidedly not a hat, but since a hat would disrupt their cutesies little look, they went for the next best thing. sometimes they have a halo and wings too, but not often. loop is Beyond pissed they managed to beat the devil allegations

whilst loop is famously spiky with a star motif, cda is fluffy with a heart motif!

cda has a tail, but only in their star head forme. it looks like the tip of a luxrays

once the two of them get along better, cda's personality is much easier to discern. imagine if the front loop puts up was real and they also seemingly didnt have the first filter. thats cda. they are unironic and unrelenting with their affection toward their loved ones at all times and are extremely touchy

once theyre much less Sadness than they are System Member, cda adopts the name Treasure! ^^

if we were to use strict did terms, cda would be an emotional part & trauma holder. as these terms most likely dont exist in their world though, loop has taken to calling cda a shard of themself, which holds a similar weight. cda likes this term as well!

aaand heres a doodle i made of their human forme in headspace ^^ ~!

[seumyo]

OMGGG CONGRATS ON 1K EUMY MY LOVE!!! im beyond words that describe happy for u ur such a sweetheart u deserve it sm<3 I SAW THE SCRAPBOOKS POST AND ID LOVE A SHOTO TODOROKI ONE!!!! 💗

im an enfp so im a loud extrovert, and i try to make sure ppl dont feel awkward or embarrassed around me bc im 10x worse HAHA 😭 i have insane attachment issues like i was crying so hard when my friend ignored me for a day. big lover with big emotions, hopefully that counts as an emotional intelligent person hehe<3

i am also a complete art kid and i never stop drawing, im also in choir and stage band so im basically all of the above (except sports. does watching haikyuu count?🤔) HAHAHAHA

id love a little description about our dynamic or something!!🥹 and be free w ur colour palette and do what u think deems best 🗣️!!! a song would be velvet ring by big thief, one of my favs rn<3

THANK USM EUMY UR THE SWEETEST AND ONCE AGAIN CONGRATUALTIONS ON THAT DESERVED 1K!!!

ᯓ★ SHOTO + SAKU!

★ Todoroki Shouto hated did not like you at first. The first time you two met in U.A., not once did he glance in your direction. Don’t take it too personally, he’s battling inner turmoil stemming from his complicated family life and upbringing.

★ Skipping to when he does warm up to the rest of the class, he still keeps his distance from them as he tries to test the waters. Now, you, dear Saku, are the first to invite him to have lunch together via the crumpled paper you left on his desk during free period (he almost threw it in the trash, but he telephatically felt your distress thought it might contain something important, so he decided to read it). He accepts, of course.

★ Lunch together was awkward, but Todoroki appreciates your effort to fill in his shortcomings in the conversation. So to say, he just listens to you while you ramble about anything and everything.

★ When he gets home that night, he definitely tells Fuyumi that someone invited him to eat together at lunch, and that it was nice. He doesn’t realize that he kept your note neatly folded in his wallet.

★ Do you know the concept of personal space? Todoroki does not. Whenever you’re doing something, whether it’s doodling or writing notes, he will peer over and check whatever it is that you’re doing. Completely unaware that he, too, has attachment issues (trust).

★ “Am I too close? I’m sorry, I didn’t notice.” And you guys were inches from kissing each other!

★ Romantically, it takes him a long time to understand that what he was feeling is clearly not platonic anymore. But when he does realize thus, he skips the steps in his head and wants to spend the rest of his days with you (you’re not even dating yet, and he’s already thinking of the future ten years later). Todoroki’s hesitant to engage in a romantic relationship because he thinks that you deserve someone who wouldn’t hesitate to court you and love you openly (he’s worried that he’ll end up like his father).

★ The initial dynamic is someone who talks a lot and the other listens (with the most lovestruck eyes yet still unnoticeable). When you do get into a relationship, he’ll still treat you just like when you were friends, but with a bit more effort to show you how much he cares. Acts of service & Quality Time are his love languages. This man is your ride-or-die forever and would go through lengths just to spend time with you (cue to Todoroki just appearing by your side whenever you’re not busy).

★ Whenever Todoroki talks to other people, it’ll always be, “Oh, where are Saku and the others?” You will always be the first person that comes out of his mouth, an unconscious habit of his.

★ Matching bag charms, candid photos (of him, mostly), handwritten notes that are passed to each other during class, enjoying each other’s company even if you two are just walking to the cafeteria together or him waiting for you to tie your shoelaces (he does them himself further into the relationship), finding out that Todoroki kept most of the things you gave him (especially your little notes and doodles), and the tips of his ears turn a bit reddish whenever he’s flustered—and you’re the only one to notice because it only happens when he’s with you.

[honeyconez]

Cone cave

there’s cones and pans everywhere… I wonder why…

I go by Conez or Ed

transmasc somewhat probably?? Give me cock!!!

He/She/It????? Im not sure pick one

I’m a minor so no super weird stuff please

I’m learning French (ew spy reference)

I LOOOVEVEE tf2 i will mostly be posting tf2 related stuff and soldier is my favorite

My favorite ships are helmet party, boots n bombs, and fruit scones/american healthcare

Some other of my smaller interests are SCP, HLVRAI, No Man’s Sky, Mouthwashing, Portal, Half Life, Dogman, and BINARY I LOVE BINARY SO FUN HEHHRHA

I’m pretty socially awkward so if I don’t respond to a comment or I respond in a weird way it’s because I don’t know how to respond 😭😭😭

I don’t mean to be an asshole but sometimes I can come off as one but I don’t mean to be offensive

Potentially autistic??? Getting a diagnosis soon

✨ My Tags ✨

old tags will be listed under cut

Conezdumbideas - shitposts

Conezmakeart - art tag

Conedoodledoodle - doodles

Conezyappityyap - me rambling

Conepookies - me irl frens

Conezdoesthegmog - gmod sillies

Conezgoofyassocs - my gooby ocs

🧦 Tags to find my shitty comics idk ✨

Conezsillyvoidcomic - void comic (on hiatus rn sorry)

🥖🥖🥖 Old Tags 💔🥖🥖

conezeatspencils - pencil drawings

wholetconezcook - drawings

(copied from old intro lol) Other general stuff I find neat

•Computer viruses(stuxnet……)

•World Wars 1 & 2

•Patterns in math…. My beloved….

•Paradoxes

•Spaceeeeeeeee

•Geology

•Math in general I guess

•Death of the universe(I could go on and on… please ask me…)

•Coding

•Rules of robotics

•History

Games

• Undertale/Deltarune

• Minecraft

• Celeste

• Rayman

• Subnautica

• Cat Quest I & II

• Stardew Valley

•Cuphead

Movies

• Emesis Blue

• Deadpool 1, 2, 3

• Howl’s Moving Castle

• Magnificent Nine

• Steven Universe the Movie

(Will add more I remember)

Cartoons / Shows / Series idk

• Lil Pootis

• Adventure Time

• Fionna & Cake

• Adventure Time Distant Lands

• Steven Universe

• Minecraft Storymode (I watched the Netflix thingy before it was removed)

• Captain Underpants

• Team Neighborhood

• Over the Garden Wall (one of my favs)

Books / Comics

• Curse Of the Werepenguin

• Dogman (huge inspiration)

• Breaking Cat News (huge inspiration)

• Bunnicula

• The Outsiders (could yap forever)

• Midsummer’s Nights Dream

• Adventure Time Comics

•Countdown to Zero Day

Youtube series or Youtubers I like

*(by youtubers I mean their videos if they don’t really have a series) **(if any of these Youtubers are actually bad people please tell me I live under a rock)

• Honorcrocketts

• Rubberfruit

• Kostamonien

• STBlackST / Unusual Troubles

• Kitty0706

• Requiem For A Pizza

• Badwatervideos2009

• HoovyTube

• Team Neighborhood

• Kugawattan

• TheInvertedShadow

• DamashiDX

Musical Artists

• Lemon Demon

• Neutral Milk Hotel

• Penelope Scott

• Weird Al Yankovic!!!!

• ARTHUR

• The Scary Jokes

• Metric

• Beck

DNI

Homophobes, transphobes, racists, pedos, pervs, proshit, pro-Israel, zionists, zoophiles, completely NSFW blogs, TERFs and SWERFs yknow like basic peoples who are shitty

Also some very specific stuff

-People who ship emesis blue solly and spy (it’s spy’s fault that everything happened to them fight me it’s not toxic yuri anymore it’s abusive yuri! Beyond unhealthy) (also I don’t hate freedom fries just shipping those 2 specifically 😭😭😭)(I DONT MEAN DNI TO PEOPLE WHO SHIP THEM I JUST REALLY DONT LIKE IT AND DONT BRING IT UP U WONT BE BLOCKED DW😭😭😭) -People who genuinely like lunchly gtfo you’re witerawy an npc… lunchables are so much better -That girl from 2nd grade who told me to smell her ass bc it smelled liked bubblegum and also told me that adventure time made me stupider fuck you -People who are like really aggressively vegetarian or vegan??? I’ll eat as much steak as I want. I’ll respect your life choices if you respect mine -Ppl who don’t like Bluey? I didn’t even know Bluey haters existed -IF YOU LIKE JIMMY FROM MOUTHWASHING I HAVENT PLAYED THE GAME IDK THE STORY BUT IK HE DID SOMETHING PRETTY SHITTY -People who like brussel sprouts wtf? No one likes them also my stepmom is terrible at making them which makes them even worse -People who say Minecraft was ruined and the old versions were better GET OUT GET OUT I’LL POLITELY HOLD THE EXIT DOOR OPEN FOR YOU JUST PLAY THE OLDER VERSIONS THEN -People who aren’t comfortable with objectum, nothing against you but there will be the occasional jokes about objectum so just block me for your comfort :] -People who still use Dr br*ght or support him. What the fuck?

[frecklystars]

fic anon ;-; thank you so much for the ken fic you put in my inbox. i was actually going to reach out to you a couple of weeks ago to see if you were available to do some sort of doodle/fic trade because i was really desperate for some F/O reassurance, but i drafted my post and got too nervous to ask lol. but then you sent me the ken fic. and wow.... this ken fic ;-; wow.........................

i am weeping. you wrote-- ken wrote? a song? for me? 😭😭 thank you, my friend. i have been hurting so bad, and this is such a comfort to read. was it an intentional parallel to the other star!keri one you wrote for me, where ken slides off of the couch and cradles star!keri in his hands, sitting on the floor with her? i thought about that when you wrote him sitting on the floor by the bed. i thought that was a cute detail. something very childlike, doll-like about it. same energy (kenergy, if you will) as the kens sitting on the edge of their mojo dojo casa houses and swinging/dangling their legs over the edge of the second floor. something soft about it.

that line you wrote where he said "there's my girl" when seeing the star on the pillow ;-; that line punched me so hard in my heart guts. i've been thinking about that line on and off for the last two days. i'm always scared that my f/os wouldn't love me when i'm like this. i feel really hard to love when i'm going through such hard times. but reading about him still loving me even when i'm not myself, when i'm a scared little star unable to even take human shape, it just - it felt really comforting to read that. i love my f/os so much. i want to believe they love me too even when my cptsd flares up and they have to take care of me. i havent felt this bad since the cptsd actually started over a year ago, so i've felt, like... back at square one, just a total complete wreck, completely beyond repair. so shaken up all the time, always crying, just a mess. i worry my f/os don't love me when i am like this. but your fics help me so much. makes me think maybe they really wouldn't mind having to take care of me so often.

and your fics are ALL appreciated all the time. i dont think i go two weeks without re-reading at least one of the little stories you write for me. i take screenshots and save them to my phone so i can read them when i'm at work. i think of them in the back of my mind sometimes. i love chocolate glazed donuts already, but gosh. i am so... fond of them now, because you wrote about six getting them for me. i already loved those donuts, but now, it's like -- those donuts are extra special. i get to think of my husband when i see them. i love to associate joy with f/os through physical items. food, jewelry, plushies, music, anything. i like that i can add chocolate cake glaze donuts to the list now. i still love the very first fic you wrote for me where he looked over my shoulder while i was drawing. a few weeks ago, i was spiraling really bad, anxious out of my mind, and i reread the fic you wrote where ken reassured me that he would never hurt me, even if someone tried to force him to do it, or manipulate him into doing it. it felt so... reassuring, reading him thinking how silly of a concept it is to him that he could ever be tricked into disliking me or hurting me. i still think about that final line you wrote in that one. kenough, kerinough, him trying out the phrases on his tongue. it makes me smile when i think about it. him saying, with a comforting hug, "see? we just fit." out of everything you've written, i think i recall that line the most.

i love you. i am giving you big hugs. thank you for writing things for me when i've been hurting so damn bad. your fics have been helping me through so much. please let me know if i can do anything for you in return. i really do cherish every single one of these, and i appreciate you taking the time out of your days to make these for me. i know writing takes energy, and writing for someone else certainly takes energy. thank you for spending your precious time and energy trying to cheer me up and send me some comfort. your kindness never goes unnoticed; quite the opposite. 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙

[apollo-not-in-space]

Hellom my dear fremd I would like to give some questions-

(I had to place this meme here, I couldn't resist)

So 3, 5, 6, 8, 30

I know I gave you many questions

But you are nice and I wanna know you a little better :3

I hope you'll have a great day <3

STOP UR SO NICE IMM GONNA SCREAM

3. What ideas come from when you were little: Oo many things! but mentally I am still stuck in my warrior cats phase the most. I started drawing because of it and I still have some cat oc's that I doodle! I was (and still am tbh) also super obsessed with space, so now every time I draw I have to draw stars. Doesn't matter where, I have to. A lot of them disappear after the sketching phase but they're there in my heart.

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself: Honestly I'd say a good 60/40? I post a lot of my art here and the ones that get kept to myself are either oc things or doodles! Not that much gets left in the offline world, even then I share a lot of them with my friends :>

6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously: oo I mean,, probably the movies and series I watch! both art style wise and story wise. There's a lot of times where I look at either my art or a story I wrote for a character and just go "hm,,, I've seen this before". TMNT and spider-verse being the most often of offenders

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in: The Beyond the grave AU I think pff. It's a shame because I think I could salvage it,, maybe, but! My spirit (ha) just isn't in it at the moment. Also I was really into embroidery for like a month and now I have a bunch of unfinished pieces in my closet :(

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated: DONT MAKE ME ANSWER THIS hfdj I feel bad saying this because like I appreciate any amount of notes on any of my art posts! The fact that I get any is awesome and I honestly didn't think I would get this far <33 If I do have to choose I would maybe choose this one ! I spent a lot of time on it (read: I spent a lot of time trying to pick outfits lmao) <333

I HOPE YOU HAVE AN AWESOME DAY!!!

[motorclit]

I've mentioned several times as posts that I make (like this one) as well as sharing my story via reblogs about how I went to counseling to try and get therapy for my body image issue (relating to my face and the fact that my body didn't look "womanly" enough to me because I was so skinny) and abandonment issues, only to have an eating disorder specialist tell me, without asking about my history with food or how often I use a weight scale (see: almost never), tell me I was anorexic because she wanted to make money off me by trying to get me to consent to put me into in-patient care. She spent the whole fucking time telling me the only reason why she diagnosed me was because of my BMI and spent her efforts trying to convince me to go into in-patient care. She ignored everything else I've said and even ignored my muž when he was brought in and took *my* side instead of hers. (Context, I have a fast metabolism and didn't know how to eat properly for my metabolism to gain weight.)

While I'm at a healthy weight now (no thanks to her), her ass and my years of trauma still have me feeling like shit when I look into a mirror. When I got a second tattoo (my first one was about a decade ago), I felt improvement in how I felt looking in the mirror.

But before the second tattoo, I tried very hard to find a therapist that met my needs, and all of who I found not only live across the state, but cost way too much money and don't take my insurance.

Tattoos and tarot cards are far more affordable and accessible to me and don't care that I'm Autistic.

I bring up being Autistic because the help a neurotypical or an allistic person would get will not be helpful to me. My brain is not wired for that kind of help. But the moment I mentioned to that counselor that I wanted to be assessed for Autism, her professionalism devolved into her seeing me as easy cash if she got me into patient care because she wanted to milk my insurance. (She had a smirk when I inquired about the assessment and she said, "Oh don't worry. We'll get to that." Like it was a funny joke or something.) If I was formally diagnosed, I probably would have been submitted to in-patient care for a disorder I didn't have against my will and who knows what else, but because I wasn't, she had to try and convince me to consent to it.

Tattoos and tarot cards are safer for me than seeing a therapist. That is why I still have a good chunk of my stimmy money in a box as well as money I make from my dad paying me to do certain chores he can't do around the house squirreled away into another box. (Luckily I have just three decks of tarot that I got over time. I dont like collecting decks, just needed to find what deck worked for me.)

As far as my face is concerned, I want ear piercings and a septum piercing, but I'm beyond terrified of any piercing getting caught on something. Otherwise, I'd jump at that opportunity, too. Don't know if clip-ons exist or not for septums.

I have a loving muž who says there's nothing wrong with my face or body. The problem is that despite being together for almost 20 years, the trauma from all the bullying I've had to endure growing up has done some serious damage to me. It's to the point where I can't wear shorts without tights. I still don't feel fully comfortable being around the man that I married despite how enthusiastic he is when talking about how much he loves the way that I look. That's how bad it has affected me.

Tarot has helped me with abandonment issues, including giving me the courage to talk to my muž about it. Tattoos are gonna help me feel comfortable in my own skin. This second one has made a noticeable impact on how I feel when I look in the mirror. And I hope to get more once I get concept sketches of my third one doodled up for the artist to give an idea what I'm going for. I hope to get 2 or 3 more before winter months (to avoid covid). Then I'll start getting more during the spring (avoiding the spring peak of the avoidable but inevitable covid wave). If things go according to plan, I'll be covered enough by the end of next year to start wearing shorts with no tights in public, as well as more tanktops more often.

It's ridiculous how tattoos and tarot cards are more accessible to me than quality therapy...

[sendmetoremnant]

oc sketch/doodle :)

they are each the kid of 2 of my protagonists from the first story generation/part, and know each other through their parents having known each other mostly

first one is kinda like a vampire, i haven't fleshed out how they work in my world but it's not an undead thing, it's a race sort of? i haven't figured it out fully but his mom was that race so he's half Fanged Being™ and half human, probably has some form of ice magic like his father

second one is fully human, elemental swordsman. summons blades made of elemental energy which i think is fun and interesting because the first one's dad was the magic swordsman of the original protags, not this one's dad. but still, elemental swordsperson who probably also carries a real blade just in case they run out of energy

i dont really know their dynamic but the first one probably does Not care about much, not out of hating everything but he just hasn't found something that actually gives him the motivation/energy/dopamine to bring him to care about it beyond a surface level, and the second fella wants him to lighten up and keeps tugging him along to places and new experiences to try and get him to lighten up. second person is a lot less cheerful than their dad but they still try to bring a positive vibe to any encounter.

if it isn't obvious these guys are little more than a concept in my head but i hope that posting about them and my other characters will hopefully motivate me to create more story things :)

[deathandthemaiden23]

Bro idk who's around me rn idk who's really still here in this fandom idk who will even see this or read it and i dont wanna get into it (proceeds to get into it) but ive been on a grand fucking expedition to confront past trauma and shit lately which whoopeee what else is new for what basically amounts to a dreamworks adult obsessed with the grim reaper from shrek specifically i think there's probably an actual good reason this is my biggest blorbo yet (which by the way, my good bitches, is truly saying something) beyond "big scary wolf sexy" but like anyways its been a hot fuckin second of me just sort of existing in purgatory with basically only this character to keep me real company the whole time chipping away at fanfic and makin doodles here and there while trying to solve the great big fuckin mystery of hey pal is there any particular reason you spend most of your free time fantasizing at length about being loved and cared for by literal fuckin death but um i kinda sorta had been making peace lately with the very real possibility that probably the only reappearances from Death we'd see going forward in this franchise would kinda just be relegated to stuff like being a playable character in that dumbass mario kart game they made recently that they had the audacity to charge $50 for the version with him in it and I was immediately prepared to shell out the fuckin money regardless anyways tldr this is my longwinded way of saying bless harvey fuckin guillen for supposedly saying he wants to reprise his role as perrito in shrek 5 and specifically mentioning he wanted to know more about his backstory including the near death experience he had in the sock that he still wears like ok let me be clear im not getting my hopes up for shit im super excited about the idea of harvey and everybody reprising their roles for future shrek installments but i know shit be disappointing sometimes and it just be like that sometimes blablabla alright nothing is set in stone in this cursed ass timeline we're in bbbbbbut

✨️H O W E V E R✨️

I cannot help but think in some kind of weirdly jaded optimism that surely dreamworks would not fucking let the absolute furry cashcow that Death is go to fucking waste if they're bringing shrek back to the big screen it just seems incredibly fuckin stupid this big fuckin bastard gave everyone a boner when last wish dropped to the extent that i actually didnt know anything about last wish going in to see it in theaters the first time knew nothing of the plot who was in it whatever right THE ONLY FUCKIN KNOWLEDGE I HAD OF LAST WISH PRIOR TO SITTING DOWN AND WATCHING IT WAS "OH I GUESS THERE'S A WOLF CHARACTER AND EVERYONE WANTS TO FUCK HIM" LMFAO UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE FUCKIN YEAR RIGHT LOL anyways if dreamworks doesnt seize the opportunity to give him at least one more like visible cameo appearance anywhere in whatever they can squeeze out of the shrek franchise after it was dead (lmfao) for like years (the puss in boots show is little known to anyone sadly and also it seems vaguely noncanonical if that makes sense stuff gets said on the regular in that show that just seems too batshit even for shrek standards) I'll genuinely like die of shock the entertainment industry is chock full of companies just like dreamworks always achin to get their hands on another iconic character they can squeeze money out of ad infinitum and like i dont want that to happen with Death I dont but also... please just let him show up at least one more time dreamworks throw this bitch a bone im begging you you will make so much money i promise u the thirsty tumblr fans are no joke we'll bankroll your ass to the moon and back

I feel it would be remiss of me not to offer some form of content after all this impassioned war and peace length solilioquy about the scu (shrek cinematic universe) so here's an old WIP from forever ago im like 90% i havent posted here (if i have oh fuckin well tbh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) its a lil scene from chapter 2 of my death fic where he gets caught redhanded picking flowers for his crush because he's a dork ass loser and wants to impress her without coming on too strong lmao like bro she's so into you just go for it

[kogameh]

whenever i draw fanarts, the biggest satisfaction to me is when i was able to draw...an idea that is unique to the source material, something that i cant just simply recycle to ocs or any other fandoms, and especially, something fans of the source material can appreciate the most... its also something i knew i cant achieve with ocs. because at least with fanarts, at least someone get the context behind the art. i couldnt care less if im not drawing for a bigger or more popular fandom if i was able to share my love for something like this to the same people who love the source material as much as i do... im fully aware that my artstyle is not the most desirable. or the most social media-favored. or just anything thats worth being stared at anything for more than 5 minutes, haha. thats why i rarely post my doodles or rarely draw headshots because...i often find to look the most boring... but thats also why i really. tried really hard to get rid of my shortcomings by focusing more on the composition and "story" side of it over anything else. i tried. again. really hard to put my style in the backburner so the flaws of my unappealing style wont overshadow the "story" i wanted to tell in my art....

but yknow i just...feel like lately its all pointless hahaa...

so just when my mimi fanarts gets the most attention solely because it has mimi on it and not because of the art that i drew...im starting to ask...whats the point anymore if i even spend any extra time beyond just drawing the character. i might as well just draw the most soulless headshot or even stickman of the character and i'd guarantee it'll still get as much attention only because of the subject i drew. and the last important thing being...my art.... and this isnt just limited to one character or fandom, haha. every time any more replies to any of my art starts focusing on the subject over anything i put in the art, i knew that i failed to deliver the "story" i wanted to tell. at that point its starting to feel like...my art is nothing more than an accessory to a conversation starter. haha. i get it. my art isnt all that appealing. and my composition is still extremely amateur. but i guess no matter how much love and soul i tried to put in my art, it still doesnt matter if the subject is not creating any interesting conversation...

and its lately more and more apparent when i start to draw more oc artworks and obviously? theres less things to talk about now since theres 0 prior attachments existing with my ocs! :')

you could say that its mainly because im drawing for a small fandom. you could say its because i drew for a fandom where 90% of its contents is untranslated. but i just cant help but think...its simply because im still not good enough.....

i cant translate. im not fluent in any languages that isnt my mother tongue. im not the most talkative and hardly ever fit in any friend group. and every skills i have any inch of knowledge of is barely useful to anyone. and i know that i’ll never be remembered for anything. so i just....in the end, when i love something, the last i could do to say that "i love it" is to tell them with my art, despite its shortcomings and imperfections... but i guess thats...still not enough... to prove even that... :')

so just. haha. idk. even right now i kinda...lost all my motivation to draw. every single time i tried to i started to ask "is this even worth it?" and wonder if i shouldnt finish the art and put the bare minimum on it now, even if its gonna be the most soulless thing i've drawn. ultimately, a part of me just felt like i shouldve changed my priorities and focus starting this year. haha.

(and i'll just be real. if someones gonna say "draw for yourself!!! not for others!!!!" i would...rather not just post them at all to solve that. period. saves MUCH more of my time and anxiety if i just stopped posting them!!! :'))

i just. really dont know anymore...

[kochei0]

i never left tumblr i just dont have much to post bc im working nonstop on french only things :[

having 0 time for fandoms, i'd love to share this lil arthuriana comic but alas the translation is beyond my control

i'm still here looming with sometimes doodles popping up with no context