#i dont even know what else to say if you're seeing this without context i guess my only advice is. subscribe to dropout

[thewertsearch]

TG: do you want me to set u up w the files now GT: Ooh, these illicit hacked warez which i heartell were recently jimmied piping hot off the interclouds? TG: ahahah i love that you were barely even joking with that statement bup yeah basically GT: The silicon pickpocket strikes again!!! Whom is the wiser? Nobody.

pffffft

You know what this is? This is real, genuine charisn'tma, right out of a Discworld novel. Jake is just so bizarre, with his stilted vocabulary and 'accent' that would be anachronistic in literally any time period that you can't help but enjoy his dialogue. He's likeable, in the weirdest way possible - which sort of parallels John, a guy who's likeable in a very straightforward way.

TG: im not letting either of you run this file on your shitty brainwashy propaganda helmets or anything else u got to wear to run

I'd understand if you were saying that to Jane - but this helmet was inherited from Jade, who should be entirely trustworthy... right?

Does Roxy know something about Grandma Jade that we don't? Something suspicious, perhaps?

GT: Then you have decided to play in spite of your reservations? […] TG: i have every reason to want to play it TG: im actually dying to play it ok

If Roxy's situation is anything like Rose's, then she's living in a remote mansion in upstate New York, with a mother she feels completely alienated from, and no IRL friends to speak of.

Of course she wants to play Sburb. She's desperately lonely.

TG: you believe me right TG: about the bad shit that could hapen GT: Of course i do. GT: What sort of friend would i be if not?

Belief without understanding, like I said before.

Maybe that's the deal with Hope, actually - it's all faith, and no logic. Eridan, who desperately sought out romantic partners with no understanding of why he failed, certainly seems to fit that mold. Hope, then, would be the Aspect of trust, belief, and, in Eridan's case, absolute delusion.

TG: ok well TG: dont say that to jabe TG: *n

Seems that Roxy's also aware that there's something up with Jane. Well, if anyone can undo the damage the Tiaratop has done, it's probably the girl who can look at its source code.

TG: jane never believed my crap TG: never any of my warnings about the baroness TG: didnt believe any of the stuff about my mom TG: and so on and so on and soon TG: til after awhile i just stopped even trying to convince her hard or bring up any crazy shit TG: because u know doing a lot of songs and dances to convince somebody who thinks youre jush shitting them all the time kind of wears on a friendship TG: and who even needs that

...although, Roxy's not describing Jane's repression as if it's artificial. In other words, she thinks Jane's unwillingness to face uncomfortable truths is a real facet of her personality - and perhaps she's not entirely wrong.

Now, let's not get it twisted, here - I do still think that Jane's being brainwashed to ignore any evidence that her corporation is evil, or that her grandmother is the Condesce. But she's also ignoring other uncomfortable truths - ones that are far less supernatural.

B2 Rose - although I hate to admit this - is showing all the signs of being a neglectful and irresponsible Guardian. If Roxy has tried to open up to Jane about this, and she's summarily brushed it off, I really don't think we can chalk it all up to brainwashing. Would the Condesce really brainwash Jane into ignoring all negative information, in any context, ever? How does that benefit her?

No, this feels a lot more like Jane just doesn't want to think about... bad stuff. There's certainly precedent for that, in her family, as John's always shrugging off bad shit - and as we're seeing here, that's not always a good thing. If you're shrugging off your friends' problems in lieu of supporting them, that's not on your evil tiara. It's on you.

[miimo96]

Thoughts on TBHK Chapter 125

The new chapter for tbhk just dropped and I'm not even gonna do an intro this time because already from this cover card ALONE it looks like we're FINALLY going to be seeing the clock keepers backstory play out, specifically, something that has to do with mirai. Words cannot describe how excited I am, so without further ado, let's begin chapter 125

Yo yashiro and this cat are so damn cute and second of all, it looks like aidairo once again is COOKING with these panels because my god just LOOK at the first few pages of this, nothing but beauty every time

Interesting, so it seems that this hourglass is the thing that can REALLY bring people through time and i think if yashiro gets that then that's her golden ticket to basically travelling to the past and ultimately stopping what's going to happen (I.E. Sacrifice theory)

BRUH AIDAIRO KEEPS COOKING, LIKE LOOK AT THIS, this is absolutely fantastic, my god lerche better get their act together because with season 2, they did NOT do aida's artwork Justice, also wait, are we seeing the backstory of clock keepers specifically Kako playout rn, was he just a regular human being who stumbled upon this supernatural artifact before eventually becoming the the clock keepers!? Oh aida what have you cooked up

Bruh this breaks my heart effing so much because not only does it confirm what we already knew about what happened in the red house but also because after all the things she's been through, she's finally able to meet the only person that can probably truly fix things only to be told "No" Straight to her face, like damn

Correct? CORRECT!? you're telling that having hanako become a mureder, tsukasa becoming a vessel and basically kou, mitsuba, and everyone else dying all because of this F*CKING THING IS CORRECT!? buddy i swear if you dont fix this I will make SURE you are the most HATED person in this series besides teru and tsukasa if things aren't back to normal by the end of this chapter

Bruh I don't care how many times I'll keep saying it, lerce better do aidairo's work JUSTICE next season because JUST LOOK AT THIS, these are literally masterpieces, I SWEAR, getting rid of that paneling and otomonapiea shit was their WORSE mistake because it doesn't do TBHK justice, like PLEASE go back 😖

HOLD UP, NIECE!? you're telling me Mirai is kako's niece!? I always thought she was his daughter, actually now that I think about it, her being his niece actually kinda makes sense 😅 also guess I was right about kako just being a normal guy who just happened to stumble upon the most Dangerous artifact,

Ya know it's so nice to the clock keepers finally playout because aside from the entity of the Red house, they've always really been the 1 that is the most interesting to me due to how mysterious they are and because they're designs always looked the Coolest (God the anime did them so dirty) so I'm glad that I can finally see their backstory because knowing aida, this is probably gonna end in tears 😅 Also I love how much of a problem child mira was back then considering her knack for getting into trouble as we see in the clock keepers arc, I also like how Kako is getting some love considering we know absolutely NOTHING about him, so it's nice to see he's getting some context

What did I say? What the eff did I say? I've played these games before aida I knew exactly where you were going with this considering I've seen you do it 7 TIMES already and yet It STILL got me, ya know between Oda's villains and Aidairo's backstories, I gotta say they just don't seem to miss, anyway let's see what the big Twist is, considering it's aida😒

WHAT!? THAT'S WHY IN THE PRESENT SHE'S A DOLL!? Omg, I HONESTLY did not expect this, omg aida what is wrong with you, this is literally probably the most tragic one out of ALL OF THEM, I'd go to even say it's worse than number six's, WOW. JUST. WOW. 😢

Oh and I just when i thought it couldn't get any worse, so you're telling me the clock keepers aren't even human or ghosts, they're just puppets created by distraught man who ERASED his niece and vowed to never let anyone mess with time again!? This is a TWISTED version of Pinocchio Omg 😰

Wait Are you telling me, that all this, this obsession with time, all of these events that have happened, and yashiro able to time-slip is all because of that clock, and that's why amane and tsukasa wanted to use and fix the big clock so bad, because it was literally manipulating them!? Every bad thing that's happened is all because of this THING so that it can be used!?

Yo you're a f*cking troll kako, how you gonna give us this whole effing sad backstory and origin of the clock keepers came to be and then explain basically the reason why most of the story even happens only to troll us by not revealing what that 1 thing you have to protect is, because in the end there's no point, like you just want me to hate you huh

Ive said before all I'll say it again yashiro OFFICIALLY HAS THE BEST CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT, because now she is ready to do whatever it takes to fix the past and save everyone , no longer is she the damsel distress or the shojo doormat people associated her with from the beginning, she is done waiting for people to save her and is ready to do the saving herself, my god aidairo you are absolutely amazing when it comes to writing these chapters and I can't wait to see more of it next month, it's time to OFFICIALLY go back to past, let's effing Go!

(God if we somehow get a happy ending hanako better marry her because this ending alone just proved what I've been saying about yashiro all this time, and shit if i were hanako I'd wanna marry her too if she was willing to sacrifice this much for him like damn)

[nishitanis-left-nut]

finished LaD. I think Ichiban fixed something in me.

but first of all- took em long enough to give us a majima crotch shot in this game (what hes saying with no context makes this funnier. you gotta go 100 times WHAT)

positives first (im gonna make a separate post with all the more stinky complaining and nitpicking-)

(stinky complaining)

"Once you're at rock bottom, the only way forward is up."

i feel like this is one of those phrases that gets so overused in media that whenever i see it it just automatically reads as insincere and a lazy way of trying to say something profound, and maybe im biased since i was in a place where i needed to hear it, but this time around it didnt feel like that. might have made me cry even. whos to say. the story is pretty self contained and simple (by yakuza standards) and ichiban is a nice man so it doesnt come across as it talking down to you?? the scene feels very encouraging and the lack of mean spiritedness in how ichiban talks and carries himself is nice??? i still feel like they set some things up and then subsequently did nothing with them but eh. i think most of my complaints about this game actually kinda boil down to how they spent the entirety of it teetering in between making it feel like a "yakuza game" and dealing with the new game mechanics and direction and not really knowing how to do both at the same time. eh.

do NOT separate them

this entire last scene gutted me actually. i noticed it back when saeko cries at the club but damn the crying in this game feels so visceral and real like- theyre full on ugly crying on screen. i tried looking back at other crying scenes in past games and the only ones that look and feel like this are kiryus reaction to rikiya getting shot and the nishiki forest scene in y0 (i know the animation is a product of its time too but also specifically with women, comparing sayama crying over ryuji and saeko crying over the soapland owner its like night and day. sayama looked pretty and her tears were barely there, not a grimace or wrinkle in SIGHT, saeko at least was allowed to look "ugly" when she cried) i dont think this scene wouldve hit me as hard as it did if they hadnt made ichi look as distraught as he does (also the vocal performance cuz holly shit? holy shit.)

i knew i was gonna like ichiban, look at him how can you NOT like him? but even while playing the game i didnt think he'd end up leaving that big of an impression on me. but here we are. we really do need more media that revolve around "Adulthood" and how different people cope with and adapt to it, i wish LaD had spent more time on those aspects of the story honestly since with each game it feels like the crime drama parts of it keep trying to get pushed to the backburner, but they still suffocate everything else- no, positives, positives-

im not someone who plays a lot of games so before i picked up any yakuza game id been feeling like Something Was Missing and that something was a piece of media. and then i played yakuza 0 and it was like oh. i guess i live here now. i really do need to start playing more videogames because i feel like its one of the phew mediums where we still constantly get adult protagonists dealing with Adult Things aside from romantic relationships or work without it also just being a parody or a comedy? and it taking itself seriously??

i keep thinking about yakuza 3 and how the game had you be with kiryu as he lived a normal life for a while, it felt like a resting point in his life because, well, it was. and how in yakuza 5 we got to go to work with him and i feel like stuff like that was missing from this game. every domestic and "normal" thing ichiban goes through in this game happens off screen, and for a game thats got friendship and the power of community at its center that feels kind of weird?

not sure how the rest of the fandom feels about y5 and the whole taxi substory and the parts of it you had to do for the main story but i really liked being able to see kiryu get somewhat comfortable in his new environment and do "normal" things. and, as flawed as it is, theres no debating the importance the quiet parts of yakuza 3 had on him and the games that came after it. if y3 hadnt had kiryu interact with the kids as much as it did, if it hadnt had us see how HAPPY he is living with them in okinawa, y5 and y6 wouldnt have hit as hard as their supposed to

in y5 you can even send money to the kids through atm's for christmas presents, and every time you do kiryu sends money thinking of a specific kid and he goes on a small tangent thinking about the things they like and how old they are and sending money according to what he thinks theyll want/need and its like- these are HIS KIDS. he knows their interests he knows their birthdays and even though hes not supposed to exist to them anymore he still wants them to have a good christmas because thats what children deserve thats what HIS children deserve-

i went- kiryu tangent. but back to ichiban, my point was that even in those games where they have the crime drama at the center and are extremely action packed, they still took the time to have kiryu do normal things so when he gets ripped from that you feel it. ichiban didnt get any of that, the crime drama isnt really as all-encompassing as it is in the other games and the "normal" bits of it you gotta hunt down around the map or be TOLD they happened

this was uh, this was supposed to be the Positive Thoughts post so ill get back to that rq. despite all of my barely disguised animosity towards how they didnt balanced the action and the character progressions i really did enjoy the game. i think. i adore ichiban so that counts right? im still real confused about why they established how he can get blinded with rage really easily but then didnt. do anything with that? in fact they kind of go back on it and just have him POSITIVE THOUGHTS POST GRAAAFKASFMPJJO

live laugh love ichiban, i wish the writers loved you as much as i do. i kept calling him a shonen protagonist in other posts because thats kind of the impression i got from him at the start and ive seen other people describe him like that too, but thats not exactly accurate to how he is as a character. hes a really nice person, a stubborn man thats got an idealistic view of the world and wants to make it better so his life and the people in it can be better. i love you kasuga ichiban and i hope whatever happens to you in infinite wealth isnt that bad cuz itll make me sad

who the FUCK are you nick and who do you work for

[straightbaittournament]

(shaking, through tears) may the best bait win! propaganda under the cut:

mulder and scully:

Infamously treated and teased by showrunners + writers like how a gay couple would be baited and like a gay couple in general, although eventually they do kiss and have a son (although that falls through and they become kind of divorced)

during the entire original run of the show i'm pretty sure chris carter would have said they never had a romantic relationship (they had a baby without ever having had sex!) however in the revival their sort of ambiguous What Are We deal was made a lot more explicit so feel free to veto based on these grounds LITERALLY INVENTED 'SHIPPING'. YOU'RE WELCOME

while i'm... pretty sure they get together eventually (i've only watched a bit of the x-files), from what i've heard they invented the term "shipping" because of people arguing over whether they would/should be romantically involved, so i think they should be included, for fandom history reasons if nothing else

they are a man and a woman who don't get together until ridiculously late but are hilariously devoted to one another, clingy, self-sacrifice-y, and also Forehead Kisses

They’re together but they’re not they love each other but barely know each other

clara and twelve:

their relationship is heavily romantic coded, but is never explicitly confirmed as romantic or not. the queerbait thing of teasing them on socials but never paying them off in canon applies here! also secret love confessions by way of double entendre or omission

they "arent romantic" but obviously they are

They are a man (I guess?) and a woman never get together but physical contact is filmed with such tension, there's jealousy with one member's significant other, "do you think I care for you so little that betraying me would make a difference," "I'm changing history to save Clara," "run you clever boy and be a Doctor," "people like you and me, we should say things to one another," "I'll be the judge of time," "If you love me in any way..." okay these all have context but trust me it's Insane

They never get to be together and in their last episode together, Clara presumably confesses her love to him and WE DONT EVEN SEE IT. like immediately after he gets his memory wiped.

[coroika-headcanons]

Strangely Detailed Driving Headcanons. there is lile the tiniest bit of army x skull, mask x aloha, and emperor x rider in one part

Nobody in team blue except for Headphones can drive.

- Goggles is too young and/or doesn't have a license because he keeps failing his tests when he's finally old enough to get one. He should not ever be allowed on a road

- Specs gets super anxious and jittery and nearly crashed because of that like twice. He has a license but refuses to drive anywhere and prefers to take public transportation if anything

- god knows how the hell bobble hat is gonan drive with her eyes closed shes gonna like hit 50 people and still be like 😄

The s4. And also rider.

-Skull, in theory, can drive because he has his license and passed the test, but with the sheer amount of things he has to pay attention to on the road he can't do it for long because it overwhelms him. A lot. Which makes him get irritable and tense and jumpy and therefore bad at driving

- Mask can drive just fine he just gets like. Really mad at everything. (Aloha also lieks to make fun of his height by putting a booster seat in the front of his car. Mask hates it and always chews him out for it)

- Aloha can also drive just fine but he always has loud ass music on so he can't take Skull or Mask with him because it will overstimulate the hell out of Skull and make him Mask levels of snappy and it will just make Mask's temper so much worse. Also mask and aloha will start arguing so they cant go together anyway

- Army is the best driver out of all of them he is ALWAYS following road rules and he is extremely strict about what's allowed in his car. NO eating (unless you're skull because army loves his boy wife BUT EVEN THEN NO LITTER ANYWHERE OR ELSE) (aloha brings purposefully crumb filled things just to piss him off).

- rider claims he can drive but he has this huge blind spot BECAUSE HE IS LITERALLY MISSING AN EYE so he really can't. Also he, like mask, will start chewing out drivers on the road for pissing him off. He couls drive just fine before he lost his eye he was a little irritable but nothing too bad

whenever they go on a road trip they force Army to drive. Skull always gets shotgun no matter what because he is the leader and everyone has to do what he says even if he says literally nothing. Anyway they bring Rider along and Rider is like "...Hey if y'all can bring your partners (candycurry & seasonal allergic rhinitis (dont even ask man)) can I bring mi" and before he can even finish theyre all just collectively like "NO" because NOBODY wants Emperor in that damn car. He wouldn't want to go anyway but he'd make everything about himself

Team GAYperor

- contrary to popular belief emperor still doesn't have a license because he keeps failing his driver's test. For context I hc him to be a pygmy squid (related to Pearl-- younger brother) and he is just. Insanely mutated hence his height and red pupils. So his vision and hearing are really fucked. He has like 20/200 god knows how he pulled off all those square king cup wins without glasses. But anyway he cant drive bc the last time he did his drivers test he ran into a pedestrian (cutout) because he couldn't see it (it was right in front of him). Also hed just be really obnoxious on the road like always thinking he has the rightaway even when he literally doesnt. He just gets people to drive him... he has a lot of influence and is rich he can do whatever

- pacer is just like a regular driver She is also strict about what you can and cannot bring in her car but not army levels of strict. She always has tea in like a travel cup in her car somewhere. She needs it or she dies

- squidkid can drive but the rest of team emp has collectively agreed to not be in any car with him when hes driving because hes really reckless. One time he did that when thenrest of them were in the car owned by Someone idk theyre all rich and good lord did he get the earful of a lifetime from Emperor

- Prinz is like just BARELY old enough to drive. He doesnt have a license he would have to fistfight his own anxiety before he is allowed near the wheel of any car. Prinz is also a pygmy squid who is mutated but not nearly as much as Emperor so he has decent vision and pretty good hearing... so that isnt a problem for him. But The Horrors are

X-Blood or whatever I don't like them

- vintage can drive or something i dont like him especially.but he seems like he is one of those really aggressive drivers that if they want to be in that lane they WILL be in that lane get OUT THEIR WAY

- omega can drive but shes also dead silent the whole time and it's horrifying GIRL PLEASE TALK

- Double Egg and Red-Sole can both drive fine seperately but they cant be put together bc theyll start fucking around and giggling like little schoolgirls. And then get lectured by vintage

The. Octo expansion guys

- hachi barely understands road rules so absolutely not. Also he is barely even old enough. When he is old enough he still doesnt get rhem. He does love to tinker with cars though

- ^ Nana is absolutely not better off than hachi so like. Same thing

actually same thing for all of them. Sometimes they have group octopus autism bonding time where they all mess with a car for fun

⭐

[sentience-if]

#i'm a bit surprised no one's been upset at val

oh i can talk about how mine for sure is

Val leaving Io made my MC feel so hurt, especially since she also doesn't like the Religious and didn't want to come here but made to anyway. she doesnt see why he could not have ran out with her hand in his. as a result, once she found him and got say her accusatory "You left me", she left. and she wanted to Val to follow her or stop her or something, but Val didn't (for justified reasons, i wouldnt have stopped Io in Val's place either)

i think something between them has been broken now, likely irreversibly. she might grow to like him again and even have some trust, eventually, but i think Val has been labeled as "would leave you" forever in her mind. i dont think she'd trust Val with her life anymore. i think anytime Val might joke "Have I steered you wrong before?" that there will be a sour, accusatory silence. my Io went from "shame there's no Connie-Val poly in addition to the Klaus-Val poly, because i camt imagine her ever NOT loving Val" into, "well, it's a good thing theres a Klaus-solo route and also that Connie's route never had an option to be poly with Val, bc idk if Val can get Io to that point of love again"

which i do wonder if that makes my Io especially vulnerable, in the sense that someone else can now step into Val's "place" and be a lot less good-intentioned about it. bc my Io had been nigh co-dependent, had been "I don't exist without Val", and now something has just shattered where my Io has now very rapidly developed abandonment issues

and the realization that Val does know where Io came from in the sense of the ending revealing Val saw who Io was before Io's current form?? that is not helping. that is making things actively worse. that is now "oh. so you didnt tell me, so you kept me at arm's length in a way i didnt see that you were, because you were scared of me. you didnt take me with you because you were scared of me. like all the stuff in-between where i was Becoming A Human Being didnt matter, even when i didnt remember what i used to be, because you DID remember. and you kept it from me. because you were scared of me." in a very.......... uhhhhhhhh

have you ever seen Fruits Basket?? im internally comparing Val to Kyo's mom. that's how my Io sees Val now, basically. albeit Val is less extreme than Kyo's mom, obviously

if youve never seen Fruits Basket, this is a spoiler, for sure, but it would also give context(?). Fruits Basket has a scene where Kyo can turn into this monstrous creature anytime he takes off this bracelet. and his mom was ashamed that he could do that, that he could transform like that, but she didnt want him to know that (but he did) so she kept saying stuff like "You're so adorable, I have to keep you all to myself" and "It's okay. It'll all be okay because I love you. That's why I don't want anyone else to see you, to look at you. Nobody look at my son, he's all mine. You're just so cute. I can't help it" and "I'm so proud to have you as my son" while also never letting him go outside or be around others, and even said "No, honey, you're as human as anyone else. You turn into the form sometimes because of evil magic. Not because there's anything wrong with you. You turn back to normal soon after, right? That proves you aren't a monster. It's okay, I promise, I'm not scared at all" and he would think back in recollection and go "Liar. You were scared, weren't you? That's why you checked dozens of times a day to make sure my bracelet was still on". she used love to be in denial of what was happening. eventually, the denial and unspoken shame and self-silenced fear and whatnot became so bad, she "unalived herself". and Kyo's dad blamed Kyo for that (like a dickhead) while also saying "She loved you. Your mother loved you more than anything else in the world". Kyo would come to say (to himself, to the memories of this) "Stop it! Stop it, you're wrong! Don't force that kind of 'love' on me, I don't need it, I don't!". and when he remembered that his mom would say "Sweetheart, I love you. I would die for you, you know that, right?" his internal response to that memory was "Why did you always say stuff like that? How can you love someone when you never acknowledge who they really are?"

now, years later, this gets further addressed via Tohru. as Kyo meets this girl named Tohru, and has a real connection with her but is hesitant about getting closer even though they already are close. because Tohru doesnt know about Kyo's monstrous form. his mother's death impacts his need to keep Tohru in the dark, but other people know Kyo's secret form and force him to reveal it to Tohru without her havung any idea of what is happening and without his consent. he runs away, and Tohru ends up following him. he tries to push her away, even causing her shoulder to bleed because of his claws, and she does initially walk away before realizing, if Kyo didn't come back with her, she'd probably never see or hear from him again; and then turning around and hugging his arm as he thrashes around for her to let go and run already. she begs him "Let's go home, please! We have to go home, right now!" to which he replies "No! Just go away!" and she says "No!" back and he yells "Don't you get it?!" and she says "No, I don't!". she continues, "I'm scared. Even though I know that's your voice, it doesn't sound like you. You're in a form I've never seen before. It scares me. But scared or not, I want to understand. If you need to talk, I'll listen. If you need to be selfish, I'll let you. I want to help you, the way you've helped me. If you're feeling hurt or scared or weak, tell me. I want you to tell me so I can face it with you. Because I want us to keep living together. I want to eat with you, study with you, worry with you. I just want to stay with you, Kyo." to which Kyo replied, transformed back to his human self again, in a mix of words to Tohru and internal monolog "The thing is, if she didn't love all of me, my mom, that would've been fine. Or, even if she were scared, I would get that. Because being scared would've meant she was looking at the ugly part of me. But she never did. My mom used 'love' as a way of avoiding seeing the truth, to avoid even thinking about it. But, I wanted her to understand. I just wanted her to say 'We'd face it together', I just wanted her to say she wanted to stay. Even back then, I knew it was stupid. A kid's dream that would never come true. Because who would ever say something like that to me? That's what I thought, until... Tohru." and he goes back home with Tohru to face everyone again, and keeps Tohru a close part of his life

so, my Io sees Val now as more of a Kyo's mom than she does a Tohru. obviously Val isn't AS BAD as Kyo's mom, vut i think you see my point?? and so now my Io is looking for "her Tohru", so to speak, albeit not conciously. and she no longer sees Val capable of being that. so her love for Val can only go as far as, well, as far as Val can, really. it doesn't bridge the gap between them. no matter how badly Val might insist their own love can bridge it (but it isn't, maybe it can't) or how much Val wishes my Io's love could bridge it (but it won't. it used to. but now she's too scared of being abandoned again after getting her hopes up). and so my Io's every route has Io and Val being "almost"-in a relationship, as close to being in love as two people refusing to label it can be, before this effectively ends the romantic side of their relationship. i guess that means Val is her situationship? that feels weird to put on Val, but yeah. and maybe Val can turn this into a "second chance romance" and "be her Tohru" and bridge the gap, in the sense that idk how you plan to progress and am not a mind-reader and therefore cannot say "never again" because "never say never" and whatnot

but yeah. that's where my Io is right now. very upset and feeling very unlovable. and maybe Connie or Klaus can fix that (i do also love Kat and Ira, but i dont think my Io does, so im currently not playing either's route but maybe that'll change! thatd be nice!!) or maybe Val can fix it. but not right away

but yeah!! cant wait to see how the story goes. im in shock at how damaged my Io and Val's relationship is, how my Io is basically scared of Val and sees them as.... "a flake" feels inaccurate but that kind of same "dont buy into Val's promises so much, you'll only get disappointed. Val means well. but Val still left me behind when push came to shove, Val still omitted all this from me" of self-restraint. she feels very much like a kid who got her hopes up only to be let down, kind of like a kid with a deadbeat dad who promised Disneyland but he never shows up to take her and instead he stays at the bar(?) but not quite. but does that make sense?? not angry, not resentful, just feeling very stupid

but, yeah, add another tally in the "Ios who are upset with Val" box for me lol

ohoho the ANGST the DRAMA this is good food thank you. I've seen parts of Fruits Basket in that I had a roommate that watched it a lot but yeah I can definitely see the parallels

Val will get a chance to fix it but I think I'm definitely going to have to write a route where Io does not forgive them. And for an Io who turns to Connie or Klaus instead- that would sting Val so much, in equal but opposite ways. It's probably a very good thing that Klaus wouldn't want to hurt Val because you're right, it would be really easy to take advantage of Io's emotions right now, and I wouldn't put it past him

oh and as to your second ask re: not gendering Val- genuinely don't worry about it haha. I just use they/them for Val (and Connie) in asks because i don't want one to seem more canon than the others. I don't mind if readers pick one

[duhhtheyellowrose]

hey hi hellow bone-byrd here on main blog (dont mind the notif of me misclicking and having to refollow. perishes) anyway !!! FOR THE CHARACTER ASK GAME !!! 5, 21, 26 I BEG OTL

hihiiiiii! ^^ and what notif~~? i didnt see any notif~~!

BUT THE MAIN EVENT LETS GOOOOOOOO

5: What’s the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

okay so disclaimer in that this says the first song not necessarily the most fitting for his character overall but right now there are a fewww--

mainly i like aikido (neurotic/erotic) by will wood especially in a naegami context (THE [FUCKING] EXTENSION CORD)

but lately ive been enjoying that's enough, let's get you home as well, mainly because i associate it with his characterization in my NEXT fic, IN CASE I DIE (which is also a will wood reference. lots of will wood)

and yaKNOW i gotta drop chemical overreaction/compound fracture for wretch n pule, because like. CAHMAAHN thats where the TITLE COMES FROM!! and also the whole fic has this... manic energy (as opposed to icid's planned more somber one) and is centered around a suicide attempt involving poison that he feels a lot of disdain over-- a literal chemical overreaction!

21: If you’re a fic writer and have written for this character, what’s your favorite thing to do when you’re writing for this character? What’s something you don’t like?

TORTURE THAT BLONDE MAN!!!!! no but fr i really like exploring his psychology and why he is the way that he is and what mightve happened in his childhood aside from the Blood Sport that made him be Like That (im not gonna go on a whole spiel, but abuse all across the board is horrible but its a very specific kind of nightmare when you're abused and also rich. you have zero access to your parents' wealth unless they let you, but everyone assumes youre just as rich as they are and ergo not suffering in any way, and your parents being privileged in society means that they can get away with a lott of shit, and the extra money means fun new ways they can abuse you that, well... cost money.) and the possibilities of like, well if the togami family makes their kids compete in blood sport, what else do they do? and even if the answer is "nothing," what were the consequences of those blood sports?

all im saying is, byakuya might look perfect and act perfect-- but there's a hell of a lot of ways to abuse someone without leaving any physical scars, and most anyone can learn to act well...

26: What’s something the character has done you can’t get over? Be it something funny, bad, good, serious, whatever?

I HAVE A FEW!!!!!!!

going over THH it seems like his reaction to shock (makoto in trial 5, his reaction to that picture, some others i cant remember off the top of my head srry ^^; ) is to go quiet rather than start slinging insults or really say... anything at all? sometimes he muscles through it and says something, sometimes he just... stays silent.

also im gonna make a post about this At Some Point (prolly in may between working on icid and getting my wisdom teeth out) but he seems to have a bit of a twitchy eye, and (very apparent in his dr:s swimsuit sprites) goes VERY pale when shocked. like i think this motherfucker has an anxiety disorder or some shit like brother why are you BLUE

ALSO THE EXTENSION CORD LIKE WHY DID HE DO THAT??? "oh well it was just to make it more interesting" SHUT UPPPPPP also people can have multiple motives for things and only reveal a fraction of the truth to shut people up-- was it to force genocider to expose herself, since he's the prime kind of target for her? was it a repressed yearning thing for makoto? (considering he basically insisted they work together and then grilled specifically makoto during the trial) all three? some secret fourth thing???? god only fucking knows

and i know i KNOWWWW BUT WHAT WAS HE DOING IN THE CHEM LAB AROUND THE TIME SAKURA WAS GOING TO DIE? what was he doing there. why did he pretend not to know what suicide was. during the trial why is he like "she.... drank the poison.... knowing what it was...?!?! why would anyone.... do such a thing......" girl you read case files for fun. you Know what suicide is dont FUCK WITH ME!!! DONT FUCK WITH ME!!!!!!! and yeah yeah whatever maybe he Is just an idiot and doesnt know what suicide is or even have the most basic bad faith understanding or why someone would do it (like idk, thinking she did it bc she was too cowardly to face her own betrayal or smth. REAL bad faith shit; itd be in line w his character) but then why is his unused execution a reference to no longer human. the book heavily associated with suicide. That's Just Fucking Odd!

[nyxi-pixie]

Frankly, that latest post is so real though like people are trying to connect the blorbos to EVERYTHING. The problem though, is that it doesn't WORK unless you take literally everything away except a few thing that you gotta twist till it become unrecognizable to make them fit.

For example, just saw a tiktok going "Dazai doesn't feel anything, so I hc him as having ASPD! And Chuuya feels too much and has abandonment issues, he definitely got BPD"

Which. Hm. First off, I have a slight problem just diagnosing actual mental illnesses on fictional characters, especially when it's based on incorrect readings of their characters but also HOW did you get to this conclusion?

Why try to make characters fit in specific boxes at all, considering how much it flattens them, but even more ones they don't even belong in? Is there even an actual connection there or did you just go "I like this idea and I like this character, so together they go!" Like??? Uuuuugh.

Gotta be violent to myself to remember that this is just silly fandom stuff and people are just having fun and I do not need to be as mad about it as I am. Gotta let people headcanon what they want, it's fiiiiiine.

Completely fine!

...

BUT ALSO DO SOME RESEARCHES ON THE SUBJECTS YOU'RE TACKLING ON?!?!? THAT! IS! NOT! HOW! EITHER! OF! THOSE! WORK!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

putting a readmore hold my hand anon i am having us hate in quiet mode

ANYWAY. my annoying post from yesterday godbless. i was mostly yapping abt the fandom obsession with pretending to be deep while still caged by their odd fear of cringe (fandom person afraid of cringe you would think is an oxymoron but unforch. no) or their inability to read anything ever. but i kinda get this too. tbh a lot of the time ppl are playing mental illness bingo with characters bc they have like one trait that could be construed vaguely as symptomatic of a particular thing if youre directly looking for it to be, just bc theyre looking for representation. which. is fine. i play gay bingo at all times . i mean. my gay bingo has to align with canon bc im annoying about it. but when it comes down to it i am still just playing gay bingo.

HAVING SAID THATTTT. i do think a lot of the time people who are not very familiar with the ins and outs of the disorders in question (or. who dont know anything abt them. at all. like the tiktokers uve unforch run into.) and who actually have quite weird opinions abt them in real life contexts, sort of armchair diagnose a character for whatever reason without really engaging in why the character thinks that way OR fundamentally, why we are being SHOWN they think that way. bc the difference between a character and a patient in a psychiatrist's office is that a character does not exist as an autonomous being. you cannotttt understand a character purely through the same tools you would use to understand them were they to be a real person. theyre a voice created by an author; the way they act and think and whatever else is molded intentionally to fit the telling of a story. so. you know.

the OTHER issue with this is when it becomes Fandom Accepted Truth, people analyse all their actions through the lens of Disorder They Dont Actually Have. and its like. a catch all explain away device for anything they do and that limits genuine engagement with their actions and thoughts. so. yeah! vaguely annoying and i think oft leads people to have further weird takes abt a character and just generally creates an obstacle to accurate characterisation. thats ALSO because people see disorders, particularly personality disorders, as conclusive as to someones entire personhood. and like yes obviously personality disorders are going to affect. your personality. but everyone diagnosed with them is not the exact same guy, and people i think do sort of fall into believing that. especiallyyyy when it comes to characters. "this thing that i decided you have that canon does not say anything about is now your only trait." okay!

should i be annoyed by this every time i see it? no but alas. i do also think its mooooostly a habit of younger people. new to the internet and theyve heard abt psychology for the first time and now need to apply that info to everything. theyll grow out of it but thats just how the young brain works. i get it i get it i doooo but im a hater at heart. you and i bestie anon..... we are so cursed

[spidermanifested]

💔💛🖤 for FMA because you're always correct somehow

💔: If you had to remove one major character from the series, who would you choose?

i cant just say roy mustang a fourth time im challenging myself to come up with a creative answer

honestly? and if you can believe it mostly unrelated to the third question down there. i think if you took out hughes, and had to reframe the military protagonists' motivations to make them less reliant on "we need to avenge this one guy we liked", youd have room to explore more of the actual bad things about the amestrian government. that might lead people to want to rebel. like at least the nina chapter provided insight into why the state alchemist program is inherently corrupt, all we learn from hughes dying is "Breaking News! One Weird Geometry Fact The Homunculi Dont Want You To Know About"

youd have to restructure the maria ross parts too but i figure you could work something out without too much trouble. blame her for lab 5 going down or something idk

💛: What is a popular ship you just can't get behind, and why?

takes a deep breath. This may come as a betrayal to almost all of my devils nest mutuals. it may break my streak of always being correct in the eyes of the masses. but i dont........really see what everyone else sees......... in greed/dolcetto.........

"wow big shocker from captain grido" i hear everyone saying but llet me explain myself. i can rationalize why somebody might like it. and its not even the ship itself i have beef with really. its more, the widespread fandom elevation of dolcetto as Greeds Loyalest Guy, with mainly vibes-based justifications (hes a dooooooog!!!!) instead of textual evidence, that tends to accompany it? which to be fair exists outside of a shipping context as well. like on tv tropes for example

[CITATION NEEDED]

so. My bido loving soul naturally despairs. also the fact that it seems to have achieved almost default status in the fandom spheres im most interested in, so when you go looking for nest related stuff it crops up before long and you know how it goes with overexposure

my final reason is that i do love dolcetto as a character. That guy rules. which means it does me psychic damage to see his personality replaced with that of a shy blushing puppyboy, as he so often is in the ancient fanart i find combing the google search results,

🖤: Which character is not as morally good as everyone else seems to think?

As Per My Last Email: hughes lol

like i know in series hes meant to be a heroic figure but thats kind of my problem. hes just your average nuclear family loving gun toting red blooded american i mean amestrian, who joined the army to defend his definitely-under-attack right to have said nuclear family, and then started dating a girl while he was on the front lines and then used her as an internal justification to keep committing genocide, and then when he has a kid he threatens her (3 YEAR OLD) friends with a gun, and one of his Bonding Moments with winry is giving her a lecture on gender roles because dont you know men never talk about their feelings, and do you see why i thinkmaybe tje fact that he buys his daughter a lot of toys and waves around pictures of his family doesnt inherently make him the best dad on earth. like its really easy to be a good dad when your kid is a toddler and your wife does all the hard work taking care of her and all you have to do is bring home the paycheck. wild beasts are xoming to attack me once hit post on this one i think

[blueskiesfillmymind]

what’s your opinion on each Blue version ? 👁️👁️

I was waiting for another ask!! Oh my god you're gonna be here for a while!! Cuz I'm gonna gush so much!!

Btw im gonna use acronyms for most of the titles of the animations and such so incase u need context.

KM - Kiss Me

LDT - Look Dont Touch

LF - Love Fool

SUASWM - Shut Up And Sleep With Me

BBYHL - Baby Hotline

WIW - wutiwant [one and two]

OTF - On The Floor

KMY - Kuruoze Miy

BMTHD - Bring Me The Horizon / Drown

LTH - Let It Happen

OL - Ordinary Life

So with that out of the way, Here. We. Go!

Kid blue [PRE-TRAUMA]

Blue's baby photos are just adorable!! Makes me wanna give his cheeks a small squishy squish,, I also wanna just- take him to an arcade,, he feels like such an arcade lover,, I wish to pamper him and treat him so much better, I remember when we were kids, we made mud pies and played in the rain together, and honestly those childhood memories makes me all the more happy that we've come so far,, I dont have much else to say other than he's a cutie patootie :3

Adult Blue [PRE-TRAUMA | KM - LDT -SUASWM]

My oh my,, he's such a flirt! His warm soft smug smile, his smaller more awkward moments when i flirt back with him are pure bliss,, the way he peppers me with kisses and always leans on me whenever he needs breaks from his work,, he's my handsy handsome boy!! And he loves me sosomuch,,, The way he'd give me sly glances whenever possible,, and his lovely tooth gap- Have I ever said how much I love his tooth gap? God he's seriously so lovely,, hearing him whistle simple tunes while we walk side by side,, hhrrgsggs

Mild Blue [SLBB - WIW1]

He has such a wounded heart,, it makes me wanna bitch slap pink even more whenever I think of this version of blue, even without his mouth he's quite kissable, he's more quiet than most of the other versions, yet all I can do is softly caress his cheeks, and passionately kiss him, mouth or not,, the way we'd lay together in comfortable silence as he boops his no-mouth against my own mouth, he actually loves doing that with me, kissing my cheeks even though he has no mouth, aside for his devilish smile ofc,, it's like he kisses me through a face mask,,

Heart Blue [BBYHL]

Sly,, Playboy,,, Bnuy,, BLU- no joke he's such a slut for pampering me,, and I mean that in the most loving way ever. I mean cmon, he wears a light pink sweater layered over a button up shirt, his sleazy black pants and lastly his lovely fluffy hair,, his heart glasses adorning his framed face as he looks at me with his tinted glasses,, gosh I'd be here for Years just to gush about his eyes,, The way he sometimes slips his hand near my waist to pull me closer sometimes,, gives me butterflies everytime!!

Hypersexual Blue [KMY]

The fact that when I've fallen for blue,, he was my first taste of- HOLY FUCK HIS TONGUE- May I say that his tongue knows how to knot cherry stems,, his tongue dancing along mine whenever we make out is pure bliss,, sure his mouth tastes like alcohol and booze,, but my god it makes me want to get drunk by his sensual touches,, and whenever we have that special moment,, its all like a wet dream,, his tongue is not only talented but he's surprisingly flexible, in a way he is a little stiff in some places, but he's still flexy,,

Cyan Blue [BMTHD]

Fire, Pain, just his pure denial ignites his rage, the way he sees himself is such a sad feeling, aswell as the way he's stuck in this episode of denying his entire abuse just pains me so so so badly,, During it all, he was so afraid of touching me.. almost isolating himself from me and other awful things, we ended up taking a small healthy break from one another.. but then after he healed,, he apologized for his manic behavior,, and I accepted him in a heartbeat,, having to finally feel his face again was such a blessing,, and I could tell he missed my touch aswell,,

White blue [WIW2]

All I'm going to say,, is I'm proud of him atleast,, finding his scars all over his body made me feel so sorry for him,, and when I watched the video, I felt so hurt.. the way he was silenced for being a man? I'd say that's rlly sexist. but that's not what I'm gonna touch on. I've had to comfort blue, we ended up cuddling when he got back,, I sang the two of us to sleep, and when he woke up, he kissed my cheek softly and mumbled a soft "Thank you",, aaughhh,,,

[Side note 4 paranoid: Whenever blue had those paranoid episodes, I've found another way of comforting them with my voice,, and now whenever he goes through those episodes, he'll either stand there frozen or just get to me for my comfort]

Grey Blue [LTH]

He was in such a spiral,, I felt super super awful for how the aftermath definitely made a number on him, every night he'd cling on me, to which I'd always nuzzle him to remind him how much he means to me,, every night he tears up and cried, whenever I'd see his dried tears, I'd clean them up for him,, aswell as brushing his hair that he was growing out, ngl I missed his mullet,, but hey, I'll love him no matter what <3

End Blue [OL]

... i felt so awful, and absolutely depressed when he began thinking of the things he's always been comparing himself to,, "My existence makes everyone uncomfortable, I'm a peice of shit!" Yet here I am. Thinkin the polar opposite, we both have had therapy times and during the end of it, I'd always ask for a hug, if he accepts, I'd rock him back and forth and hum a soft comforting tune,, if he dosnt want a hug, I'd ask for an alternative, and usually most time we'd always end up cuddling afterwards, I'm apart of his healing, I never want him to go through that ever again,

I'm not gonna talk about the abuser version of blue, he's nothing but a figure of his imagination, he isnt real. Not to me, and never will be real to blue,,

Anyways!!! Yeah,,, as you can tell i love blue :3

[is-this-really--life]

I think we need a new rad polls blog that doesn't just post pro rape content

I kind of think that a radfem polls blog is doomed to fail. All it ever does is start pointless discourse for no reason. It's like a feature.

There are too many people in radfem circles that are very strongly opinionated and not willing to give grace to people who disagree with the on even the little stuff, but this... this is big stuff and just reveals how fractured this community has become. How valueless some corners truly are. So many people who think separatism and just knowing how many men are misogynistic or a possible risk to get attached to them romantically, etc. That being a radfem is thinking men are evil and cant be reformed ever. That this is what make you a radical feminist. That's obviously not what I believe, but the blackpilling and reversing patriarchal norms thinking you can reclaim them (you can't!)... it's gotten to a breaking point. ("Oh are you saying reverse sexism and misandry exist?" Not my fucking point read again.)

Basically I don't trust the values of this community as a whole anymore. I dont think disagreeing makes anyone my enemy, but I think when it gets to a certain extent it becomes completely vile.

I think we need a new understanding of feminism and to accept that if you hold humanitarian values and don't want hate and anger and group stereotyping to take over your entire ideology, you are fundamentally not the same ideology as the rest of them. To believe in an end to hierarchy, that you can create it in your life no matter the demographics you're around, that everyone can hold compassion for everyone else, that this is really possible and maybe you can find it in your own life... Even despite the men that have violated all humanitarian principles. To find hope in this word that patriarchy is not inevitable and we can live in a better world without hate. The idea that hierarchies based on characteristics you're born with are set in stone is a destructive snd regresdive ideology, rather than understanding these hierarchies were created in history and can be unmade.

Ok sorry this turned into a rant about other worrisome trends in the online radfem community and maybe even the left writ large (when I started seeing posts from self-proclaimed leftists against interracial relationships because of the "inherent power dynamic", I got really scared about where that ideology is heading...)

Obviously this is one of the worse kinds of transgressions in spaces that are supposed to have feminist politics but end up being empty of thought and morals and historical context other than the separatism and man-hating.

Trust me, I know the kind of hate crimes men commit against women and I know what being aware of so much of it does to you. I know. I get that more men hate women more than we could ever hate them. I know. I just don't think it's a justification anymore after a certain point.

Tldr; Stop justifying stooping to the level of misogynists. We're better than them.

[crimsonsharked]

you dont have to answer this ask but i'm just curious about it

but dont you write alessio as trans and without surgery? so whats wrong with the other person making their character trans? idk all the details or extents of everything but i'm just a little confused

like yeah if they're being transphobic then thats a fuckin problem and again idk the details so i'm sorry if i'm missing important things

but i just dont see how its weird if you write alessio as trans and without surgery and everything too but please correct me if i'm wrong or anything

regardless its stupid how people are sending you drama and i'm sorry you're being harassed with it

really the best thing to do is just block and black list and let them be weird and obsessed somewhere else

you're doing an amazing job with your blog and art and writing so dont let some idiots ruin your time here

anyways i just didnt know like how its weird that someone else writes a character as trans without surgery and you do the same but i'm probably missing things so i apologize if so

dont let me or anyone else annoy you with stupid drama and i hope you have a great day and please keep giving us more alessio and ambrosi!!

Addendum: I misread the first part: I don't care if people write trans characters, my specific issue with the aforementioned user is how they went about it as a fellow non-cis individual.

I don't have any issue with writing trans people without surgery or getting pregnant, the only reason I said it was oddly transphobic was because of how often and in the context a transmasc character is getting pregnant.

(warning for a looong rant)

I do not care if you sexualize trans bodies, I am transmasc myself, it's cathartic to me. However if your main sexual focus of the character is that he is trans and CAN get pregnant, that might be an issue.

It's not good, it's like focusing on a transfem person having a dick constantly and her being able to use that dick.

Again, I don't think there is anything inherently wrong with sexualizing trans bodies, nothing wrong with trans people getting pregnant or the ability to become pregnant, trans people can and do get pregnant. It's completely how you as a person talk about it and how you present it. If again you are constantly bringing up pregnancy for literally anyone in a sexual context, it's a fetish, and then you tack it onto a trans-masc person? that's a fetish.

This is a fetish: There was no reason to write this post like this. If it was worded differently I might have felt a different way but it's not

"My muse is transmasc and identifies as male. Uses He/Him and The/Them pronouns. They have not had top or bottom surgery. They can become pregnant."

If it was worded like that (not exactly) i'd feel differently.

I am all for exploring transness in a sexual space, but there's a hardline between kink, sexual, and an outright fetish. This applies to anyone EVEN if you are trans yourself. Like I'm black I can be racist to black people, if I call another black person a slur with intent to harm, I'm being racist. If a transperson says and does things that are harmful to the trans community they are being transphobic or at least hurtful.

"I'm not cis" isn't a good defense anymore, yes, you're not cis, so you should know better. My biggest issue with St0ls wasn't even THAT specifically, it's the constant dredging up of drama, after making several apologies REPEATEDLY, then doubling down on past actions and still bringing up people who want nothing to do with them. AKA ME. 2 weeks isn't enough to change. Change takes a long time, months, and years. This is coming from someone who was objectively a TERRIBLE friend and person to be around. I wouldn't have even brought up the entire fetish thing if I had never been brought it up. I'd have kept my thoughts to myself, when I say leave my black ass alone, I mean it.

Also, I do want to clarify I explore transness from the lens of a Black Trans person! So I write all my characters from that specific lens of growing up AFAB and being treated AS a man, and never a woman. So I tend to write Alessio being a transman but wanting to explore his feminity and sexual side of that!

[fabulousest333]

I hope this isnt trauma dumping or sm but i just needed to get this out and also get some advice and i think i really like ur advice. So i have been jn a relationship w my bf for 2 years now and i love him with my heart and soul and we plan to get married ( ee are still young but we see that as the futuregoal) so up tntil a few months back i used to just go to random s*x chat groups and something and would share my nudes nd just stuff like that and would also watch p*rn .. these are both things that me and my bf would a 100% consider cheating and if he did this to me i would kill myself out of sorrow. I absolutely hate myself and am disgusted at myself i was distracted for a little while with my exams but now they are over and now im crying all the time again just thinking about what i did to the boy i love the most. At the time i didnt think much of it and at first i would just talk w people but slowly i started sharing nudes and i did this a couple of times until i realized a few months back how wrong it is. I have no idea how i didnt realise how wrong this is?Up until this i was a really good person i dont think ive ever hurt anybody and i am very nice also but now idk i just hate myself and everything about me .Every day whenever i think aboyt this i cant help but cry and think there really isnt anything else i can do. Of course i have changed and wouldnt think of doing such a thing again but still the fact that i did it in the first place makes me want to die.

Ik its so selfish but i cant keeo thinking that he will do sm like this to me also and that ill get my karma. Does karma really even exist and how do i get myself to atop thinking this now i always suspect him of cheating and talking to other girls. Hes done sm similar to cheating to me but nothing on this level. What he did is nothing ckmpared to what i did.

And in the context of manifesting, should i manifest that none of this ever happened and for me to be a really nice person or shoukd i manifest that this completely gets erased from my memory or what?? This also messes up my manifestion so much i cant helo hut tell myself that i dont deserve good things as im a bad person . Please help. If youre not comfortable answering this then im sorry for wasting ur time

in the future as a boundary I'd prefer to only answer manifestation questions without trauma dumping, so I'll be ignoring any from now on, but it's totally okay as you didn't know ❤️

as for manifestation you can revise, or shift if you'd like! both are easy. revision is changing the past, and all you need to do is say the new story of what happened in your past and the 3d will conform.

as for shifting there's lots of methods you could use, but I'm not an expert so I'd seek advice elsewhere.

and finally telling yourself you're a bad person can't mess up your manifestations, nothing can if you say so. I'd work on your self concept outside of manifestation just to help you feel better about yourself, mistakes are a normal human experience.

personally I don't believe in karma, I'm sure you won't be affected. you can use protection subliminals or spells if it's giving you stress.

good luck!

[blackjackkent]

im so inspired and in lovvveee w u (as a fan!! no parasocial shenanigans here I swear 🫶)

When they said they weren't doing any more DLC for the game, I wasn't sad, actually. I noticed there's a big divide of peeps who like the game right? I realized this when I saw there were people who *always* play Durge and think it 100% hands down better than Tav, and seeing in the forum why people actually *liked* playing Tav over Durge, And it's like because Tav can be anyone with any story. Durge is really just a customizable pre-existing character (That's why they're under origin character, right?)

So that's what I realized the divide of people. There's always going to be certain people who prefer to play Something with a pre-existing story, people who don't enjoy the extra work of making your own character. But for people who do, the lack of DLC is disappointing but not a big deal. Because ask someone who has always enjoyed making her own characters, The end of a story is never really the end for me. And all that jibber jabber to say I see it in YOU too, and I looooooovvvve it! You're such a good writer and it's fabulous 🫶

though, as someone previously non-experienced with D&D, I do admit that makes imagining the future a little bit harder, despite, What really is probably one of the most Fanfiction-Friendly properties 😂

I did want to ask for advice on that if you have any to spare! Like, for example, I'd love to write about my own Tav and Karlach rolling around in Avernus, but I have no idea where to start even looking 😭

:O This was a fun message to receive! c: I appreciate so much that you like my writing and reached out. <3

You def make an interesting point about the Durge vs Tav experience. I think there's a lot of room for character headcanon even when you're playing Durge tbh (certainly I'm enjoying giving Rakha her own sense of personality and such), but you're right that it adds a bit more of a "built-in" framework for people who prefer that kind of experience and not having to think too much about the character details.

(It also, without giving too much away, is very representative of the character experience in BG1/2 - which was more of a Tav/Durge mix, really.)

But yeah, I also feel okay about the lack of DLC because there is lots of room to come up with the story I want outside of the events of the game. :)

As far as advice - I think you're asking specifically for advice on writing within the Forgotten Realms world and D&D sphere in general? Tbh I am not the hugest expert on the subject myself; there is a lot more FR lore than just what comes up in this series and I am by no means familiar with most of it.

My practical advice would be to point you towards the Forgotten Realms wiki, which is where I get most of my info that I can't get from the game's own dialogue. (Sadly it's a fandom.com wiki - if anyone else has other resources that particularly like for FR lore I would love your comments also!) There's lots of info in there that I've drawn from when needed for my fics.

On a more general level though - honestly I think my best advice is to get comfortable with the idea of getting lore wrong. We love to play in this sandbox but we're allowed to bring our own toys too. :D So if something feels like it'd make a better story by being a certain way, then fuckin go for it. :) Any reader who wants to make a stink about details being off isn't actually there to appreciate your story anyway. And the vast majority of readers are there in good faith to see what you're going to come up with and enjoy it. :)

(I've been thinking about this a lot in the context of writing "Open Your Eyes", because they're off to Calimport now and I have realized I know nothing about Calimport. XD So I've been studying the wiki a lot but I've also made an executive decision to not stress myself overly about it and focus on making the setting work for the story and not the other way around. I dont really mind if someone ends up letting me know (politely) that I missed the mark on something, but I'm not going to lose sleep over it if I'm pleased with the story regardless. :D )

I hope this is the sort of answer you were looking for! Sending very supportive vibes for your writing adventures also. c:

[red-dyed-sarumane]

thought dumping without looking at my sources here BUT

i just dont get it right like the line in shoushitsu so VERY directly says "as long as you're a person the old world's legacy will continue in the toroidal direction" mea!ning! (based off other context in both shoushitsu & other songs like maximizer) so long as the characters continue to follow their paths of their own will & desire & don't think of it as only something they need to do or as the only relevant trait about themselves, then they still have their selves/egos and still are full people. and in that case that they're full people they're guaranteed to follow the path of the world into its next iteration, in other words, they get to keep living, or if u want to stick with the terms in shoushitsu they're "reborn" in the new world so to speak.

this isnt even speculation, this is shown to us in both the text in shoushitsu (the text thats like "she slowly closed her eyes, and i gently opened mine. a certain world had disappeared") and also the text in canon (about how she comes to in front of a fountain after it rained, implying the start of a new loop/world)

and even up to the end of oumen mokushiroku it's clearly tenshi still holds her own values, still has her wants & seems to be aware of herself. i dont know if the "'not me not me' those words didnt reach anyone" is referring to tenshi or apoptosis speaking, seeing as its implied apoptosis was the first to be chosen as a sacrifice until she pinned it on someone else (who happened to end up as tenshi). tenshi's hyper aware of time almost like how the laboratory character is, that hyper awareness that can only come with knowing an indisputable end is coming. she knows what's happening & can't find a way out of it. but that doesn't make sense to me. if she's still herself, if she stepped in to take apoptosis' place, that's her own judgement, protecting the other is her own goal in that case. i guess it's possible to only fall on tenshi if she's the one least likely to protest, but even of the event of being forced to be a sacrifice, even if she has to "accept" this fate, that's not real acceptance, that's not really throwing herself away in the sense that this series requires. i guess it can be stretched that far if needed since it seems like the only real option here, that she ended up giving up her own goals to fulfill a role the others demanded, thus became a "thing" rather than a "person" at the last minute. but even then that doesnt add up. shes crying over this. shes ACTUALLY crying over it. despite ALL the stress & psychological torment going on in the entire series, she's the ONLY one shown crying over it (yes several others are mentioned to cry. it only makes sense. they arent SHOWN that way however) & no one who's truly accepted a role, even this dire of a role, would really cry over it right? it's hard for her. her smile looks like it could break any second.

yet even for being an early song in the series, if she wasn't meant to be a "person" there's enough in the song to tie it to the series without it having the motif. the ou itself directly ties it to aru sekai shoushitsu & that's how a lot of people realize its related. the motif isnt really necessary to show its a series song. look at all the more recent songs that dont have it specifically to show the characters dead. so why is she singing hers. it feels like saying she's dying as herself truly, but then she should just wake up again like everyone else if that was the case. what makes it a sacrifice really and why is it different from how everyone else is dying?? the only other thing i can think of is that, if she's singing it, it's like a last wish of sorts. the sort of thing only meant for emotional impact. it's true that it's still the only song besides shoushitsu that has the motif sung instead of added to the instrumentals. i can't help but feel that has a meaning to it. maybe it is to say she's giving it up. i just don't know it doesn't make sense to me given the other details i feel like she should still get to live.

i mean both kyuuyaku and kannagi sing out the rute furute wo a line. touhikou doesn't but those two do. it doesnt seem to bind them to each other any more than it does touhikou.

so i just really don't know how i'm supposed to take the end of oumen. everything else, everything else seems to say she's dead. she's not coming back. the way she says she wishes they could meet again, the way she says everything goes dark. the way how in unplanned apoptosis, the song tied the closest to oumen, she falls apart even worse after the sacrifice is brought up. how in kanon shes deeply regretful over the fact a sacrifice ever occurred. everything else is saying tenshi's dead she's not coming back. except the fact the main motif to say a character lives is in the song. and the thing is, oumen and apoptosis seem to be all magu wants to give us regarding that particular incident. we might not get any more info on what happened there beyond those two. sure kanon's related too, but not as deeply, not enough to give any more clarity to this one situation. sure we get new unexpected info every new song, but coming back to these two feels so unlikely. it's like everything's here already, yet its still not enough to know everything.

[my-gf-is-kazuichi-soda]

The Kazuichi and Papyrus au I have is not just a wacky idea btw. It came to me when I realized that they are both autistic characters misrepresented by their fandoms for their autistic traits.

*btw if you're knew here, I headcanon Kazuichi as a trans girl and use she/her pronouns for the character. You'll have to get used to it.

*also, before it gets pointed out to me, Kazuichi is "canonically a 'stalker' " (in a loose sense of the word, she's a kid who has followed and spied on another kid she had a crush on during a school trip), but many other characters in Danganronpa are also stalkers and are more easily forgiven/forgotten by the fandom, including every Danganronpa protagonist. Autistic people, especially KIDS, can have trouble understanding boundaries, and nobody in the game actually approaches Kazuichi about this and tells her it's wrong, they just insult or make fun of her for being a weirdo. If an autistic person needs to be #cancelled for making neurotypicals uncomfortable, then...that cancels most autistic people, including myself. Autistic people deserve a chance to learn from their mistakes. And yes Kazuichi was also unfairly mean at times. Like I said she was on edge and scared all the time. It is not an excuse but it didnt warrant the harsh fandom treatment.

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Kazuichi is an autistic person who's reaching her fucking limit. She has to perform hypermasculine behavior to keep herself safe, she tries to be a cool fun extroverted guy but her act is always falling apart, she has constant meltdowns, she is mean sometimes to get people to back off and stop hurting her, she is visibly frustrated that people dont appreciate her hard work and just see her as a weirdo. She publicly and vocally expresses how lonely she is and how much she wants people to like her. And thus she is villainized for her worst moments. And called an asshole. And an idiot. And a manchild. And pathetic for her loneliness and unrequited crush. And people assume malicious intent from everything she does. They call her a creep. They call her a freak. Have I mentioned that she's a kid? Because she is a kid! Parts of the fandom say they want to bully her. She gets fanart (that is NOT meant to be sympathetic) where she is openly excluded from her friendgroup, on the sidelines looking sad while they have fun without her, or her friends say the most horrible shit to her and gang up on her to kick her while she's on the floor crying. No this is not missing context, this fanart never has context of her doing *anything* to provoke this treatment, aside from sometimes asking her unrequited crush on a date, and yes it almost always is her asking her crush in a more innocent way than the games did, only to have their reaction be uncharacteristically cruel (I swear I could make a post about how Sonia gets mischaracterized and villainized this way while the fandom ironically thinks they are giving Sonia "girl power", barf).

Papyrus is an autistic person who puts on a similar, cool guy act, though is way better at it because he is not at his fucking limit. Even if he is depressed like everyone else from being underground, he is in a calm peaceful town where people mostly leave him alone and he is allowed to express his weird interests and be silly. He is not on guard all the time like Kazuichi. He feels comfortable and safe but still very lonely, but even when he vocalizes this loneliness he puts on an optimistic attitude, so it gets ignored or put in a superficial light. He makes himself and everyone else feel better with his optimism, but that optimism, combined with his weird behavior, makes some people think he is clueless. They call him silly. And an idiot. And a manchild. They think he cant take care of himself. They assume he is silly and dumb in everything he does. They ignore the moments that dont fit their narrow view of him as an always-happy, doesnt-know-what-sadness-is ignorant manchild. Parts of the fandom act like his overly-controlling parents. They dont let him swear or know what sex is or defend himself in a fight or do anything that an adult is capable of.

The way Kazuichi is treated is often how autistic people get treated when they are visibly frustrated, have meltdowns, make social blunders that hurt others, and make people uncomfortable. The way Papyrus is treated is often how autistic people get treated when they feel safer to be themselves, when they are fun for others to be around, when they make social blunders that make others laugh + dont hurt other people or make them uncomfortable, when they hide and downplay their loneliness and frustrations. And most autistic people have been both of them at some points in their life.

But the takeaway from this is that the treatment you deserve should not depend on how well you can hide your frustrations, how well you can handle social situations, mask your weirdness, how you appear to others, how you appease neurotypicals. Kazuichi deserves to be able to reach a safe feeling and be able to drop her guard and she deserves to be able to have her accomplishments recognized and be appreciated not just for how hard she works but for how sweet she is, because she is a really nice person when she's not spending her energy defending herself against bullies. She deserves to have friends and a partner or partners that love her back instead of being doomed by the narrative to chase people who dont understand or care about her. And she is NOT stupid, she is judged by the wrong standards. Papyrus deserves to be taken seriously and to get in the royal guard (or another respectable title for monsters if the royal guard is dismantled), he deserves to be taken seriously as an adult even when he's weird and silly, he deserves to reach a point where he doesnt have to act optimistic about the future because it's already gotten better. And he's not stupid either.