#i don't want to get into it but i just had a flashback to a terrible group of friends lol
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I don't have enough time to go looking through the books unfortunately, however I will point something out:
The quote implying that James heard about the prank secondhand comes from Remus. Remus is very much canonically a liar, he says not the truth but what would avoid the truth. Look at the other thing he says, about James and Snape's "rivalry" and why it even happened: "Jealous, I think, of [James's ] Quidditch skills". Yet in any of the flashbacks where we see the Marauders, there is zero mention of Quidditch between them and Snape. Remus lied about that detail to give a reason for Snape's hatred in particular, almost implying that Snape was the aggressor. We know it's not, it was James right at the start, but Remus is clearly lying about it- he was a witness to it all and clearly saw James and Sirius start everything.
And in this particular quote, Remus is doing the same thing- downplaying James's role to make him look better to Harry. The way he tells Harry makes it seem like James was mischievous and goodhearted and that Sirius was the irresponsible one. But from what we see in the flashbacks,James is far from that, he's just as bad as Sirius.
And then we have Snape, who told Harry that James was one of those who had the idea and merely got "cold feet". That directly contradicts what Remus said. One of the two isn't telling the truth. Considering Remus's record, it's far more likely to be Remus than Snape.
There's also another thing Snape says, that makes me think that he's more truthful about what happened than Remus. He also tells Harry he's as arrogant as James. James's arrogance is something nobody touches on. It's only when we see Snape's memories that we find that Snape was right in describing James as arrogant.
Snape's biased against Harry, don't get me wrong, and when complaining about him to Dumbledore in DH, Dumbledore says Snape is only seeing what he wants to see (James's traits) and that everyone else found Harry agreeable. However this bias is caused by James's actions, actions which Snape seems to be the most accurate viewpoint on. Unlike Remus, and even Sirius, who soften what James and Sirius did, Snape never does. Of course Snape never mentions his own part in it, but he rarely had much of a part as they came onto him.
Snape, when telling Harry, describes everything about James that was exactly true. Good at Quidditch which made him arrogant, strutting around, disobeying the rules, all things that James was. He then tells Harry that James and his friends played the joke on him. And that James got cold feet. And that James was saving "his own skin as much as (Snape's). Had their joke succeeded, he would have been expelled from Hogwarts".
And that's the truth. Snape's word is most likely truthful, because the entire time he's spoken the truth. Additionally, he doesn't specify what the joke was. He's furious, but he isn't going to spill Lupin's secret to prove his point, despite that the lack of elaboration weakens his story. He doesn't even lie about what the prank was, he avoids it entirely. That, in my opinion, is a sign that he sticks to the right thing even now, in his rage. He's not betraying Lupin even when he would have dearly wanted to. To me, that adds to his honesty right now. Keeping Lupin's secret because that's the right thing to do (because even if he did betray Lupin, nothing's gonna happen to Snape, Dumbledore needs him too much to punish him) means, in my opinion, that he also isn't being untruthful either.
So anyway, based on what Snape said, James did know about the prank. We have either Snape's word, or Lupin's, and Snape hasn't actually ever lied about James the way Lupin has, so I'm more inclined to believe James was part of the prank. Especially because it makes no sense for Sirius to do it without James considering their infamy at being a double act.
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I need arguments, quotes, or something that confirms that James knew about the prank
I'm arguing with a snater convinced that James didn't know about the prank, He says James finds out about the prank at the last minute and goes quickly to save Snape.
If you answered yes, pls tell me why.
I'm convinced that he did know, James and Sirius were inseparable. It is impossible that he did not tell him. James probably thought it funny at the time, but as night drew nearer he saw the seriousness of what was gonna happen and the consequences and went to save Snape at the last moment.
I even sent him this quote
"If it hadn’t had been for James’s last-minute change of heart, he could have been responsible for Snape’s death " Written by The Wizarding World Team
And his answer was....
As I recall, there is no mention of a change of heart in the book. I don't know if he doesn't know how to read or what, but in the quote I sent him it's implied that James did know.
But he's very convinced that James is innocent and didn't know anything.....
He sent me a quote from the book, which also does not specify that he did not know. It doesn't say when James HEARD or from who he hear about the prank. "went after" it doesn't say that he went Immediately after knowing it.
Like ok he heart it and went but, it does not specify when he found out or if he went immediately after he found out about the prank to save snape
Tbh I'm very confused
Any comments will be appreciated 🥺🩷🩷
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The Dobrynin family is a corpo family through and through, rooted in Arasaka and Orbital Air going back by several generations; though their powerful position within the corporate world ends with the children of Nadya and Matvey Dobrynin. With Vitali and Daniil fired from Arasaka and Kang Tao respectively— the former indirectly getting his parents fired, too— and Roksana having refused to set foot within a megacorporation from the start, the family begins crumbling apart at the very seams when clashing interests lead to grudges, betrayal, and pointless acts of revenge. ↳ read the unrevised fic here if you're interested!
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#cp2077#edit:daniil#edit:matvey#edit:nadya#edit:roksana#edit:vitali#nuclearocs#nuclearedits#the fic has a proper title now thank you everyone who voted in that poll ^_^ i'm very excited to start working on a rewrite!!#it's gonna be a lot bigger because i'm going to be including chunks of previous events that take place between in-game and this fic#all in flashbacks. so like. vitali's death and how he stabs mikhail while brainwashed and how he snaps out of it#and the fight they have later on. because all of those events are key moments referenced in the fic#but they're not explicitly mentioned because past me went with the assumption people had already read those fics#so i just described the events if that makes sense. but if i want this to work on its own i NEED to include them#anyway. night city's most dysfunctional family fr i have so much to say about them but i'll keep it brief for now#nadya and daniil have nadya's last name because matvey and nadya end up getting divorced#initially roksana also gets her mother's last name but she changes it back sometime later#because she doesn't want to be associated with her mother anymore#daniil's stats are very bad because he's a useless loser sorry for everyone who took a liking to him. he doesn't deserve your love#the word count still makes me :0!! also because like. i did that... i wrote that...#also made this template myself so i don't have a link for it sorry :( and also i made it in firealpaca and not ps#anyway yes very excited to see what you guys think of this and also if you have any questions feel free to shoot me asks!!
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2024 reads / storygraph
A Dark and Drowning Tide
gothic fantasy romance
a folklorist is chosen as the co-leader of an expedition to find a fabled magical spring for the king, along with 6 nobles
when her mentor, the other leader, is found dead on their boat in the middle of the night, she has to figure out who did it; while continuing the mission through the wilderness and navigating the potential political fallout
and the only one she can probably trust is her academic rival, a naturalist, who she hates
dark folktales & creatures
Jewish lesbian MC
arc from netgalley! out sep 17
putting both covers here because they’re both so beautiful!! (artists: Audrey Benjaminsen, & Erica Williams)
#A Dark and Drowning Tide#aroaessidhe 2024 reads#I really loved this! so atmospheric and full of things I like. Love the characters and folklore and the creatures…..#I think it was well balanced between the plot worldbuilding and romance -#though if you’re not into any of the elements it might all fall flat for you. but I love all these things. so I had a good time.#I did feel like some parts of the narrative/character relationships went a bit fast and I wanted a little more detail in between?#Plus the ending wrapped up easier than I expected. I wanted to get to know the side characters a bit more#and a bit more of the backstory/leadup (how they all knew each other; sylvia’s time in the war??)#I also couldn’t stop thinking about how taxing the environments they’re in would be on their bodies/gear..aghjs you mght have seen my post#I was getting distracted from the plot thinking about it. Not to say that it mentioned at all and I’m aware too much would have taken#away from the story. Lets take it as an indication of just how lush and atmospheric the writing was. I was having flashbacks.#I put the book down three separate times to draft three separate fanarts.#but listen. you stick two lesbians in a forest/mountain/cave and put a couple Creatures in there too and I will eat that up#one thing I did note is that I don't recall any non-white characters? I may have missed a description.#I try to take notice if a book has an entirely white cast bc like....does it need to#sapphic books
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stop.
stop it.
#bnha#bnha manga spoilers#mha spoilers#mha 423#I didn't hate this chapter before that#but now I am#because this is just cruel level of REMEMBER THIS?????#yes. I do remember this. I rewatched and reread this arc VERY recently#so... he killed Kurogiri with a punch like the one he did in USJ and again to save Izuku#I don't care honestly.#I reread this chapter and I cried again bc I REALLY refused to believe that Kurogiri died then#but he did with a death words to Shirakumo's friends and recall of old chapters#even if people want Tenko alive I doubt that Kurogiri will ever materialize again#and I'm deadly serious when I say that this is the worst part of this chapter#I worried for Kurogiri's existence ever since it was revealed that Shirakumo is in there#but that literally took FIVE YEARS TO APPEAR AGAIN HAVING AN IMPORTANT ROLE#and he left while crumbling just like Tomura's body before Katsuki hit him#and the last thing he thought about was about protecting Tomura even though he was partly Shirakumo's dead corpse appearing more and more#even Mic now understood that it's really is him in a way ending his arc from back in Tartarus with Aizawa#and you know what's worse??? TOMURA KNOWS THIS#the way he used “...........” with Kurogiri's name while the page literally showed his black smoke disappearing was heartbreaking before#it's worse now#like... okay he's dying too and he doesn't even know if spinner is ALIVE or not and he saw Kurogiri disappear#all while protecting him from harm one last time#AND WE STILL HAVE NO FUCKING FLASHBACKS OF HIS TIME WITH TOMURA OUTSIDE OF WHAT WE HAD IN MANGA#I'm getting more and more furious by the minute HAHA#I need to find that one sketch I did way back in 2019 with them after spoilers of Kurogiri in Tartarus#I NEED SOMETHING LIKE THAT NOW AND I CAN'T DRAW#I want to just curl up and cry myself to sleep like a 13 y.o that found out the bird that she looked after died while she was sleeping#kurogiri
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I'm calling it and I hope I'm wrong about it.
If Gege drops a backstory for Sukuna, folks are still going to be like "well, it's not the backstory I want for him".
#now I'm a sukuna fan and i said it before#i could actually give no fucks about a backstory for him#like at all#the story ain't about him#two backstories in jjk haven't actually been fleshed out fully so why would the big bad get out but not the mc hello?#pieces of a backstory yes#that has happened#and I'm not counting the pre hidden inventory arc as a full one#that was just the flashback needed to understand future events#and it wasn't just gojo's backstory BTW it was geto's toji's riko's hell even yaga and shoko#now would i be mad about a sukuna backstory? no I'd love it#but do i think it's actually necessary especially since we kinda already know who he is...#because of the pieces of his background shown before? no no i don't#unlike some folks i don't feel entitled to it#i feel like some of you want a backstory to excuse his actions let's be honest#because lately if a villain has a sad backstory people ignore that they have made terrible decisions they did not have to do#or just excuse their actions#but their actions is a part of the story how do you ignore PARTS OF A STORY?! YOU WOULDN'T UNDERSTAND IT!!#i don't care what sukuna had going on in the past he still is a curse to yuji#just kiya's thoughts#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#sukuna#sukuna ryomen#ryomen sukuna
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i unironically love the Rat Grinders so much and its so funny to me that everyone on tumblr has jumped onto hating them so vehemently; these kids are transmigration light novel protagonists and it's hilarious. they reached level 100 killing nothing but slimes etc etc
that crap is some of the most soul crushing work imaginable. i will forcequit any video game the moment it's clear that grinding is the only way to advance because i hate it so much. they're not having fun. they're not enjoying the work. they got stuck with a DM who thinks XP leveling is worthwhile and they're slogging through it in the most tedious and boring way possible. they're 'powergaming' in only the most loose definition of the term. they're having the worst high school experience of anyone. they've traumabonded over spending 33 hours a week in abject misery and have now turned feral
#fantasy high#di20#i also absolutely believe they have beef we haven't even heard of yet#like WHY have they been rat grinding? literally no one could EVER want to do that!#i ASSUME they don't WANT to be doing that so there must be an interesting story about how this all happened!#anyway i'm adopting all of them. holding their hands gently. showing them the healing mercies of milestone leveling#honestly that revelation just gave me flashbacks to the time one of my players really wanted to do XP leveling#and I had to like. actually SHOW them what I was doing at the end of every single encounter and session#before they were like 'oh. ok i get why you say this sucks'
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"Every Shatterspace contains a shard: creates a distorted version of our reality"
"If we bring them back here, and connect them to this real one— then maybe there is a chance..."
(Sonic Prime is not a multiverse story, it's one universe that got destroyed/distorted)
"They're not your real friends"
"Nine and all the rest of them are real!"
Sonic, you do understand that if reality gets restored, and the Shatterverse stops existing (because it wouldn't be shattered anymore), so would the shatterspaces, and everyone who lives there: everything would just go back to the way it was before.
But if you consider them real, you only have two choices:
Bring the shards together and restore your reality, bringing back your friends in the process, but the people created by the shattering of the Prism would go back to being just parts of your friends and seize to exist separately?
Or leave it be, and lose your friends forever, but their counterparts would still exist as their own entities?
So what would it be, Sonic?
Who has more right to exist?
#though I don't really feel like sonic had shown us that he considers the shatterverse counterparts separate people#even disregarding the way he acted in new yoke the first time (since it was the first time and he had no idea what's going on)#later he still expects nine to shrug off his issues the way tails did in the flashback#(and apparently always does since 'tails never gets upset')#he projects knuckles's personality traits onto dread — traits that dread doesn't have. sonic just expects him to because to him he's knux#idk man. there's a lot of examples in earlier episodes too. like him refusing to fight thorn because she's amy. but you could say#it was a long time ago and his attitude changed: well clearly not since he's still acting the same way at No Place#sonic prime#sonic prime spoilers#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#I know the palm tree plays into this somehow but idk how#and I want Sonic to actually struggle with this#not some 'untying people from the tracks before the trolley runs them over' type of bs. make it interesting!
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Finally got around to watching ep 11 (´;ω;`)
#I'm late...#I'm sorry I wasn't able to watch the episode by time last week but again. Food poisoning. And then the new chapter came out#I feel like I had much more to say when I started watching it last week...#Mmmmhh. I really like when bsd animation uses the colored lineart effect for flashbacks / subspaces (Anne's Room‚ Poe's books).#I think it's one of the prettiest and most original things of the bsd animation.#I've always felt like the Natsume reveal was a bit coming out of nowhere lol.#Here's this legendary ability user everyone knows but no one has ever seen with this immensely unthinkable powerful ability...#That the reader literally wasn't ever made aware of in the previous 49 chapters lol#After all that build up‚ his ability even feels a little underwhelming.#Which I suppose was the intended result‚ but I'm not sure it really works all that well in the end.#Then Naomi's words “Come to think of it‚ the things that happen when Mii-chan vanishes [...]‚ disasters are stopped every time”#really feel soooo out of place when so-called Mii-chan was never before mentioned up to this episode (╥﹏╥)#But I'll stop complaining. It's nothing big really#Fukuzawa and Mori's relationship is very homoerotic. Tbh#I looooove the ss/kk I don't even have much to say just watching scenes of them interacting together fills my heart of a warm feeling :')#The animation quality is very poor and the drawings are very undetailed but really I love ss/kk too much to care.#A lot of emphasis is put by the fandom on Atsushi's cruel remark towards Akutagawa in this ch/ep and it *is* cruel but really...#Akutagawa had literally just attacked Atsushi in a death-threatening way‚ futilely and completely unprompted#I can't find it in myself to blame Atsushi if he was irritated and lashed out at him.#And all their other moments are just so cute. What do you mean Akutagawa is deeply interested in understanding Atsushi's motivations.#What do you mean Atsushi can't get Akutagawa out of his mind!!!! They're so cute#So many more cute moments were cut out too rip lawnmower line you'll always be missed rip date line you'll always be missed#I feel like Pushkin's character is another instance of‚‚‚ Wow me and the author's morals really don't align at all#I really don't like the narrative of “weaker people will constantly try to harm and take advantage of strongest ones”#random rambles#Fun fact when I watched this episode for the first time I asked my mother to join me. Because I know a ss/kk scene was coming and I really–#didn't want to watch it alone. Well as it turned out the whole first half of the episode was dedicated to old man fighting–#and she gave up after that 😂😂 But I'm still grateful to her for trying.
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thank god i've come back to tumblr after all this time bc where else could i say "i've been simping for the scarecrow from batman begins lately" with impunity. anyway thank you cilian murphy for your service
#idk his take on scarecrow fascinates me bc of his progression through the trilogy#like we're all familiar with the 'villain descends into madness' trope and how it's usually played as a tragedy#we see traumatic backstories & flashbacks & the underlying narrative is 'i don't want to be this way' or 'i just want it to stop'#so i'm obsessed with the fact that when we see crane again in dark knight & dark knight rises he's Even More Confident than he was in bb#he goes from quiet meek-ish schemer to wise-cracking criminal who smirks at the batman when he's unmasked#and then to the preening judge of bane's mock court doling out death sentences like it's a game to him#and like we Could have had the scarecrow that we saw in the end of bb: straitjacketed & descending into madness#we Could have had a harvey dent-ish downfall where he becomes someone to pity rather than someone to fear#but we didn't! we got a guy who said 'what drives you crazy makes you stronger' and went on to have a whole lot of maniacal fun#and i think that's really the essence of how batman villains Become iconic batman villains: being utterly ride or die for their public imag#scarecrow: oh i got gassed & went a little delulu? i'm a known criminal who will never hold a job as a doctor again in my life?#scarecrow: so what i'm getting here is that i'm free to become Worse~#batman#jonathan crane
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what is there to even say lol. rip jenny schecter, always in my heart
#someone should've gone to prison for her ''murder'' for the lols#the season would've been so much better had they done the 3 months or whatever flashbacks + flashforwards in each episode instead of just#the first and the last. it was all just super weird#and i'd heard that the finale sucks but it's different when you're watching that mess with your own two eyes#poor jenny for once she wanted to do the right thing :(#also i genuinely think shane x jenny would've worked had they started dating around s02-03 before jenny started completely losing it#also NO DANA???????#anyway that's a wrap on girls in tight dresses ig 🚬#the l word lb#the l word#how much you wanna bet that i will start rewatching s01 in ~2 weeks#i guess the moral of the story here is don't get involved with lesbian friend groups because you'll end up dead in a pool during a party#rip jenny schecter you would've loved the [insert song here] but you're drowning in a pool yt videos
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bad news gamers. I think the lesbian at work has a crush on me
#she's a weeaboo lolita aesthetic lesbian alright she is not my type at all. i dont even like her as a friend#like we Do not get along#i keep thinking maybe she's just bad at making friends and doesn't realize she's flirting but its getting hard to ignore lmao#the good news is that i am certain that if i continue acting apathetic abt it she will stop#(bc even if she is just being friendly i do not want to be her friend. her personality is like a cheese grater)#but like. she emailed three of my coworkers yesterday asking if she can take their shifts so that she can work with me#........ dog. i have made it quite clear i don't really like you lmao#anyway the emailing people thing really gave me the ick and gave me 2012 internet creep flashbacks#so i hope that isn't the case#please leave me alone lmao this is making me tense on the days she's in the office#i spent 2k on my car and then my cat had surgery and then my dog died. i do not need this lol#she jokingly suggested we get a mortgage together and then showed me her bank information#please stop! i am a stranger to you#ugh
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god do not trust queers who hate gay men
#i don't want to get into it but i just had a flashback to a terrible group of friends lol#anyway if they don't already hate you they will find an excuse to hate you too#rum.txt#also just remembered that one of them was my trans boyfriend's ex and they had a Huge problem with him being a man#they would only use they/them and use an older (gender-neutral) nickname#i actually don't remember if i ever interacted with them? i feel like i would have fought them#but i remember my friends being like 'yeah we know [REAL NAME] HE is our friend's BOYFRIEND'#and they just... didn't stop.#yeah 'cause that's not transphobic at all 🙄#anyway.#so happy not being in college anymore
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Hmhmhmmmm. Thinking about. Monkeys. (< MK and shadowpeach)
#THE LEAVING MOTIF IS DRIVING ME INSANE RN#AAAAA#One of the best feelings while watching a piece of media is picking up on something and then a character just saying it outright later#''Leave like you always do-'' ''No that's YOU!''#Subodhi asking about MK's past outright when I had noticed that seasons 1-3 don't have a single MK flashback#Ink MK also going ''how the fuck did you get all this power'' which is something I had ALSO been asking#Me predicting Azure would become his own undoing (we are like. 4 for 4 on that one though lol)#''Oh MK's smartie kid arc! Starts in 1x10 and then is a common thread throughout the whole show— there's an episode called the Plan Man''#LITERALLY ACKNOWLEDGED MK BECOMING THE TEAM'S PLAN GUY OUTRIGHT IN THE SPECIAL.#''What's the plan monkie man'' *sobs*#Like. MK only became the plan man because that's what his friends needed right#He didn't want to put them in danger by being completely reckless#This is why I owe 1x10 my life#imp tag#lmk#lmk rant#lego monkie kid
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y'know I feel like I deserve some kind of award for putting up with so many triggers (both for our PTSD and for our OCD and psychosis) while sleep deprived, essentially jetlagged (from flipping our sleep schedule in one day), experiencing a migraine so bad we can't stop shaking, experiencing sensory overload for 8+ hours a day from loud noises that are also making the migraine worse, and getting constant flashbacks for multiple days in a row
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#we have to wake up at 7am to sort stuff out before the bathroom fitters arrive each morning#and now I understand why we had so many issues with that in college#I woke up struggling to even move while just shaking uncontrollably#and when I finally managed to sit up I immediately almost passed out#if we fall asleep at the wrong time and happen to wake up at 7am it's not as bad#but being woken up by an alarm at 7am and having to then try and get up and do stuff is uhh... I feel like I'm dying#moving my head at all right now makes me completely lose my sense of balance and go really dizzy#also waking up at this time gives us flashbacks to college and that hasn't been fun in the slightest#and the symptoms I've got right now really aren't helping with that#we've also had flashbacks to stuff from like late 2019 to mid 2020 and that's its own set of shit we don't want to deal with right now#but we can't get away from any of the triggers
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Technically, the season ended on Shallow Lake's opening night. In theory, the camp could last another week to mimic a stage production with several performances.
And if the camp begins on a set date rather than a day, then the three week camp could conceivably fall across four separate weeks, this explaining the S1 'month-long' theater camp thing.
#high school musical the musical the series#hsm the series#hsmtmts#loophole#or fixing a plothole#i kind of want flashbacks to the days we dont see#like when did Kourtney get her friendship fieldtrip with maddox#Ash built sets#Gina learned camp games#maybe kourt helped adjusting costumes#or maybe they had a conversation on why scaring the hell out of people is not a great olive branch on maddies part#i would say a heart to heart about social anxiety#but i think we all know how that would go#kourt: don't you ever just get overwhelmed by the thought of expressing yourself#Maddox: i talk to people sometimes. with words
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I'm sorry for not posting good stuff, I just feel so useless at the moment. To keep it not so brief, one teacher is being an utter bitch and as a result, my entire life is crumbling around me. I was sick during an exam last week and only had 20 minutes to even attempt it. The English teacher rung home and told my parents that I'm not trying and I'm doing it on purpose because im arrogant and that I'm going to fail, which basically means that I won't be able to further my desired career and my entire life will be in shambles because later on in life, I won't be able to fund my own courses because im relying on my parents for financial aid at the moment. They're threatening to cut off that aid and not let me do the courses if i fail a single exam because they don't want me to end up like my sister (aka, they don't want me taking Foundation Studies to retake an exam). Keep I mind that these are practice exams and I still have about 2 months to improve.
I've had every thought under the Sun about it and I just don't know what to do. I'm thinking about reporting her to my academic mentor and asking her to tell my teacher to stop calling my parents because this feels like pure humiliation, but beyond that, I have no power. I feel like I'm gonna end up as a disowned failure and have all the opportunities I've built up just crumble away. School is one of the most traumatic experiences of my life but no one takes it seriously and it's genuinely one of the most harmful things thats happened to me. I can't drop out because of laws surrounding schooling and not a single adult around me has offered any support.
#will delete later#i need to get this off my chest before i have a meltdown#well i already am but i mean before it gets worse#i'm convinced i just had some kind of flashback but it feels almost attention-seeking to say that bc i haven't had a ptsd diagnosis#i wanna give up so back#not like suicide but just giving up#coz what's the point in trying for yourself if you'll never be enough for others#i just want this all to end i'm so tired#i'm not even 18 yet so why couldn't life just be a fantasy until then at least#i've been trying since i was 9 to keep it together but it's never truly worked#i'm just inherently broken i guess#i'm sorry i've gotten into an uncomfortable rant territory for people#i should prob stop being so negative all the damn time#maybe that's why people don't really care to see me any more i've just become some stupid kid who whines all the time#i'm sorry
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