#i don't post pics really i don't have a tag

[kaddyssammlung]

I want to share some thoughts with you.

I really like all the new content that is coming in at the moment. But I posted two pics (so far) that I was very hesitant to post (pic 1 and pic 2). The thing about them is the elephant in the room. It's what you can see in them. His scars....

That catwalk and the new angles and everything and many now seeing what I always could....well...I'm rambling.

Hiding from here on because some topics are not for everyone. Vessel and self-harm….those words alone can get you blocked other places. Recently I talked to so many of you about that topic because I received a lot of messages about that topic (here and other places) and that made me think. I just want to share some thoughts and some links to YouTube channels that deal with topics like these. That's all.

To me this is almost nothing special in a way. I have struggled with this myself for many years. Mostly from when I was 14 into my early 20s. I know many other humans (real life and online) who dealt with the same issues. What I fail to realize is though: not everyone knows someone who struggled with this or knows something about this topic in general. That's why so many seem concerned or don't even know what to do with all of this. I wrote some stuff about it when I analyized the lyrics but that's just me talking about myself rather then about Vessel. He has suffered but like he says we all have suffered. The whole album “Take Me Back To Eden” symbolizes a journey of regaining inner strength. “We step into my suffering” it's what I do in my energy work session. I step into my suffering and face it in order to heal it and turn it into strength or something else that's positive. Not that important. We can learn from our suffering…well..this is actually not what I wanted to talk about. I just wanted to share some online resources that I like.

Psych2go has all sorts of videos about mental health. The videos are short and focus on what's important so that you can maybe understand a topic better.

Another video that I really like “Heartstopper Gets Therapized” (that Netflix show and that guy is a therapist). It deals with that topic, too and explain it really well.

another video that YouTube suggested to me and that I like

Why do people self-harm?

it explains the biology (in the brain) behind it. But it's more about the link between self-harm and BPD. So...it was meant for me because it's what I have.

I have no idea why Vessel did what he did but I'm sure that he is much better now. Of course I don't know that but seeing how much fun he has on stage these days....and also his voice. There is so much strength in it. You can't sing with strength when you feel weak. I find his transformation inspiring.

I do understand why other places treat this topic like the plague but for me personally that's not how I want to treat this. If you have questions you can aks btw. that's what I mean with this.

And also...I keep seeing so much cool stuff that I want to post but I'm not even sure what to post anymore because of how visible they are. Or if I should put a trigger warning in the tags or if I should just not do anything about it. I would not hide my scars on stage btw. I would wear what I want to wear and when they are in pics then I just would not care. I don't care that much about them anymore. They are just here.

[coolspacequips]

OMG 🥺 my brother (who's birthday it ALSO IS) just came over here out of nowhere and brought me CHERISHED INOSUKE AND HOMEMADE RED VELVET CUPCAKES???

I chose positivity today and it paid off 😭😭

[irregularjohnnywiggins]

You ever have those moments where an idea just... won't leave your head?

[sergle]

I love to hear what people say about Youtube Drama* but it's SO tacky when it gets so offbase that the posts people make start to be about completely off topic infighting within the Watcher fanbase

[kindahoping4forever]

Luke via Shan Rizwan on IG

[moe-broey]

You thought Moe would be a Medic? WRONG. Its ass is a farmboy!!!!!!!!!!

With the power.. of Etrian Odyssey Nexus character customization.....

It's closer than most picrews.

[carcarrot]

do i really want to make individual drinks again

[monotone-artist]

just a few foster puppy pictures out of the hmm. 500 that i have

[id: nine photographs of various brown, floppy-eared puppies. first: top view where puppy is sitting down and looking up at the camera. second: sitting with his tongue out. third: laying down on her side with her head on my leg, looking straight at the camera.

fourth: laying down on her belly. fifth: sitting and leaning against me, his head quite close to the camera, which he's looking at. sixth: one puppy lays down while another rests her chin on his back.

seventh: an extremely close-up view of a puppy's face. eighth: a puppy, who notably has one blue eye, looks through the glass door. ninth: puppy stands on her hind legs, front paws on the glass door, looking inside. end id]

[dailyfigures]

guys i don't mean to alarm anyone but i am seriously running out of miku scale figures. yeah i'm shocked too

[vole-mon-amour]

i have that pic of Brett and Phil almost kissing as my lockscreen and every time my eye isn't blurred to that, it gets to me very hard. Phil's hand on Brett's back. the way he holds his glass of white wine (was it champagne?). the look he gives him, he went full IN, looking at his lips/straight to his face. i can see Brett's smile, but Phil? my goodness. Brett's hand on Phil's side. even the way Phil tagged Brett, that menace.

"we're just joking. unless..." kind of pic. it gives me a mental whiplash and even butterflies sometimes. like, I don't actually ship them (unless? 😄) and understand where it might be coming from, but that pic makes me want to write an actual rpf just for a kissing missing scene. i actually did a while back, but it's so weird writing only that little moment, it's 100 or 200 words at best. i think it's bc i don't ship them i can't actually write a decent story for them, i just don't see it in a romantic way.

and yet, every damn time when i really think about it, it doesn't let me go. oh, how happy I'd be for the visual of Roy and Jamie kissing. but of course we're not getting it. of fucking course. (deep sigh)

method acting, they say. you teasing jerks.

[autistickaitovocaloid]

Found out my computer has an SD card slot (by getting my headphones stuck in it) so here's "HD" versions of some DSi camera drawings I've posted ft. my cat from when I was little.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

shifted gears like alright after the [lucifer the mysteries please] centered approach that found mostly Other Stuff, centering [blade gunnblade please], and already have found something new but in the "possibly inaccurate & probably irrelevant even if otherwise" vein as a review read through the wayback machine says: "perhaps none moreso than the gun toting android Blade Gunblade, perfectly embodied by Asia Kate Dillon. They even get an awesome heart-wrenching backstory." which is so far the singular mention that blade gunnblade is an android, however, reviewers can Just Say Things, so. i believe the blade gunnblade full backstory clip that's available is from pre 2015's run at the pit, & rather a previous run as serials at the flea (and the prop & setpiece differences if it was simply an alex seife understudy performance from 2015 would be: inexplicable) but i have to imagine that blade's peak tragic backstory ft. murdered wife & child would be very similar, & i guess it would be funny if they were just out & about living their ordinary life with a family like that while also an android, but. however i'll also give them that: mentioned a bit more often is that at least at some point kapow-i Becomes part android / referred to as a cyborg, thanks to the same character as in 2015 & prior's tragic backstory. i don't think this fun fact is like super constantly relevant or obvious, so i Could imagine something along the lines of blade getting the same treatment & it also not being particularly more relevant. or else the proximity of such concepts like "kapow-i's a cyborg, the serials run clip seems to refer to like 'we need this specific rando who is now blade to be injected with Ultimate Fighter elixir (& have their family killed. because) & people's whose bodies couldn't handle it are now kind of like funny little robots (cybernetically automated but with some personality)" & like blade we need you to be a fighting machine was thus sort of conflated lol. but maybe they're a cyborg like i think it happens a lot anyways

[potential-fate]

Approximately 4 fckin months ago @pixel-bloom tagged me in this meme and I am clearly terrible at doing tag games. I really wanted to but I just kept putting it off LMAO. (mainly cause this would have been signifgantly easier in ts4 with their CAS options lol. but here we are.)

Had to do the Main Character™, aka Roman. (jk jk... he's not the main character.... He's perfectly capable of sharing the spotlight, thank you very much.

Anyways, as one might do, I'll tag @luverofralts and @nappe-plays-the-sims if you want to. or anyone else feel free to use me as your scapegoat to play lmao.

[punkrockisafulltimejob]

Fun fact about tumblr! If someone blazes a post with a tag you have blocked, the post will still show up on your dash!

[ephemeral-winter]

okay WHAT is up with the new (?) tumblr algorithm (?) because in the past day like three separate blogs (which aren't even bots i checked) have liked or even commented on one or two note personal posts of mine that i made between eight months and two years ago that are not in the least bit tagged for discoverability and i personally Do Not Like it

[personashitposting-va4]

Ok so I've finally decided that I'm gonna do an Akechi cosplay after wanting to do it for three years, and I'm gonna do this outfit (for anyone who can't see the picture, it's his dancing outfit with the red jacket and "HERO" cap)

Thing is though, is that this is the ONLY official picture I can find of it, and it's blurry as hell. Anyone know where I can find better reference pics? Thanks in advance