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I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain
Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it
i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)
really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!
undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.
i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.
people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.
peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.
it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."
so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.
people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.
autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.
#a lot of my traits have been exacerbated lately and i remember it was much easier for me before#and some of my friends have said “oh it's because you've been masking too long and now you're facing autistic burnout.”#and that made sense to me i think.#but then i found out about the stress thing. me overproducing stress hormone. and that's a very physical thing.#and that explains why i've been overstimulated more than usual lately. and why everything feels like too much.#and i wonder how many of these traits of mine are going to subside once i have lamar removed#and it makes me wonder a lot of things. and it's so weird how much your brain is tied to your biology.#i wonder how much i'll change. i wonder how i'll feel. i wonder if i'll still feel like me. i wonder how much me is me right now.#and how much of me is being altered by weird freaky hormones. who am i?? who will i be??#i'm almost looking at this as like. a superhero origin story of some sort. like this is my spider-bite moment. maybe.#will i be different? will i cope with things differently?? now that my body isn't fighting something anymore??#maybe i'll be normal. i don't know. i don't know.#i don't know what it'll mean for me.#but all of these things mean i relate to peter parker in a certain kind of way#i don't think you have to be diagnosed with autism to recognise and empathise with those traits i think#i think everyone can see themselves in peter. and i think that's the benefit of having characters that aren't diagnosed.#because there's so much overlap in the human experience. and certain feelings aren't exclusive to just one group of people.#peter has such a rich identity actually. it's an autistic thing. it's a queer thing. it's a jewish thing. it's a trauma thing.#there are so many overlapping parts of peter's identity that inform who he is and how he behaves and it's never just one thing.#it's a product of all of his things.#just like me! just like everyone.#so me? i guess i can be a million things. you can explain what i am in a million different ways.#a hundred different psychologists can all come up with different ways to explain why i be the way i be.#i don't think it's something that can be simplified.#sorry wow. i'm really going off here in the tags.#i hope people don't think i'm stupid. i don't know brain science. i'm just philosophising as usual.#sci speaks
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Silver is finally here...he just took the title for the most beautiful card in TWST's history...
me five years ago: wow I really hope we get to see dragon Malleus someday! that'll be so nice and wonderful. I bet he's a big silly! :)
twst: :)
GOD. it occurred to me literally three hours before the anniversary stream that they might've been saving the reveal for then to just explode us all at once. this timing was EXTREMELY deliberate. thank you Twst. I can't even focus on all the Blazing Jewel stuff because Silver wielding the physical manifestation of his Complicated Dad Issues is busy eating my entire brain. and -- oh what's that? he duos with Lilia? I'M RUINED THANK YOU ᕕ( ᐕ )ᕗ
this is your warning that I'm going to be the most annoying person on the planet come Monday morning, thank you everybody and goodniiiiiiight
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 13 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 13 spoilers#i say this with every card but the groovy might actually murder me this time fellas#silver in his biodad's armor with his adopted dad's sword#on his way to fight his adopted brother who both dads tried to save but who's also the son of the woman his biodad killed#because due to extremely complicated circumstances this is the only way to actually save him#and also this is all a parallel to what happened 400 years ago except hopefully it'll go less horribly this time#and also sebek is there!#this really is the story of poor sebek's life isn't it (jk jk sebs you know i love you)#but now it is silver's time to SHINE (a stray beam of light hits silver's armor and my eyes fall out of my head)#i say it again: episode 7 is about two things and two things only#it's dads and significant hair moments all the way down#don't worry! i haven't even reached my final form of being annoying yet!#gosh. this was SO deliberately timed to the anniversary that it HAS to be the wrapup to the episode 7 plot. right?!#like i still think there might be an epilogue chapter or something with the dorm reruns (yes i am fixated on the dorm reruns)#but we're definitely going into 7 endgame here huh folks#genuinely feeling a little bittersweet there! we've spent literally over two years in the episode 7 gauntlet and now the end is in sight#oh media. you can't last forever but why you gotta end.#(malleus in the background: i can fix that } :) fae of --)#at least we have whatever cliffhanger they throw at us for episode 8 to look forward to!#can't wait for it to turn out that grim was raverne this whole time or something#also. just. love that mal's horns look fine in the blazing jewels art#i mean obviously if something happens they wouldn't just put an enormous spoiler on there. but the potential implications are hilarious#malleus having a great time in his little idol outfit like. the weekend before lilia goes 'guess i'll die! 🤷♂️'#ugggh and now i have to actually think about what pulls i'm gonna do. this is awful. how dare you do this to me twst
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Due to recent experiences, I am feeling an urge to make an anti-drug-style PSA except it's warning impressionable machine-learning-curious teens to never, ever try a thing called "Huggingface transformers Trainer"
Not. Even. Once.
#and don't even get me started on “unsloth”#this week i learned what “unsloth” actually does when you import it and... man.#i thought i'd seen the worst of “hacky brittle 'it-just-works' (by doing the most cursed shit imaginable) ML python code” but no.#no. unsloth was Worse#and huggingface Trainer is bad enough by itself#did you know it has 131 (one hundred and thirty one!) config arguments and yet it cannot log *more than one loss number at once*#(for like multitask training or whatever)#i don't just mean it's hard to do - i mean its logging mechanism is built from the ground up on the assumption you would never do this.#you'd have to rewrite a bunch of internals to get it working - i.e. basically write a new nontrivial feature on HF's behalf#and just writing your own damn training loop is easier than that lol#it's not that hard kids. take it from me. dataset + dataloader + model(*args) + loss.backward() + opt.step() + opt.zero_grad(). that's it#it'll take you 30 minutes and save you a billion hours down the road#i do not understand computers#(is a category tag)
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ah yes, the sweet sting of rejection from a billion dollar corporation who believes that "action stories don't appeal to romance audiences", welcome back my old familiar friend
#personal#lauren writes things#this was the EXACT problem I ran into with my gay outlaw story#and why I was just like FINE IT WON'T BE SCRIPTED IT'LL BE A BOOK#(and I mean who knows if it'll sell as a book)#(but it was NOT selling as a podcast)#how do I tell these companies that there's a whole website of people who love both action and romance#how do I explain that these people pull ships from the barest two second looks in action movies “aimed at men”#it's the conflation of romance = ladies and action = men for me#that's what really makes me roll my eyes#companies being like 'sorry lauren we just don't think people really into romance are into action'#HI I'M SITTING RIGHT HERE YOU'RE TALKING TO ME#my favorite movie is mad max and most of what I read is romance#I play violent action video games and I have a pathological need to ship#we exist#and we are legion#ANYWAY#might delete later#lauren says things
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#Some. Thoughts about the last chapter since yesterday I didn't put them down as I usually do.#I could preface this by narrating the odyssey that was my day yesterday but I suppose that wouldn't be very interesting lol.#It'll suffice to say I had to face a 11am-7pm long train travel while also sick. A lot of throwing up in train stations. Wasn't very pretty#So like the premise really wasn't the one of a good day#The chapter comes out around 4pm here so I calculated I was going to have a few more hours before the translation came out.#I open the translators account to check if they've got any prevision on the time the chapter is going to come out and IT IS ALREADY#At that point I was in a station cafe waiting for a change drinking tea to help with nausea. And ***THAT*** HAPPENED#Screaming in my cafe table I'm telling you. Silently screaming for real. Desperately showing the phone screen to my sister.#Wait I didn't mean to tell all of that. Anyways#Well. Great chapter (╥﹏╥)👍 Really one of those you already know will make history it was so good to read. Such an already iconic scene.#Insane insane insane. I don't think I need to comment further on the ss/kk but regarding the rest...#(Let me comment on the ss/kk again actually. That was incredible. I'm still not over it seriously peoples. Can't believe it's true.#What the hell. I love this little gay story so much. Ss/kk love each other so much it's?? Insane???? What the hell. I'm so glad for ss/kk)#Literally didn't process anything past the title. Like I wouldn't have been able to compute anything normal let alone something like–#4th dimension talk lmao. Everything I got from it is like there's Dazai?? Saying words?? And it's the Dazai in Atsushi's head I think????#The only other thing I got away from it is that Atsushi is finally getting agency???? To which‚ freaking finally‚ if you know me you know–#I've been rooting for that direction forever. I'm not sure about it yet (like isn't the Dazai in Atsushi's head still giving him all the–#answers?) but that's definitely the direction I'm rooting for#Then again for Atsushi to sacrifice himself for Akutagawa WAS his initiative and his alone. And I'm forever cherishing that 🥺🥺🙏🙏🙏#Reading the chapter again now... I have a feeling that the fourth dimension is something of a subtle nod to the fourth wall in literature.#All the people living in that universe (the bsd universe) are–#“three-dimensional humans [who] can't properly perceive” the “fourth dimensional space” because they're all characters of a book–#who aren't aware of being characters. So they lack fourth wall/dimension perception#The ending of the chapter feels quite abrupt. It's a little curious. Gives the impression that the author was running out of pages#Anyways reading Dazai's apparently nonsensical words out loud to my sister was very funny#“Feel strongly // That's what you do when you want to experience the past” is a cool line tho. I really feel Asagiri that time they said:#“I want to create famous lines. I love storing exciting lines in my brain. I love it so much that sometimes I even recite them in the bath.#I try to be conscious of making my lines stand out. I like lines that flow like a melody or harmony.#Lines that shock the reader‚ stand out‚ and are inserted at the right time.”#Ran out of tags but I'm noisy so making another addition
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i like when darquesse asks china as she's dying what valkyrie was to her--daughter, sister, or toy--as if china's smart enough to know the answer
#she and val have one of my favorite relationships in the series bc theyre the most accurately aunt/niece duo ive ever read about#do you know what i mean like china will be like i don't care what you do im not your mom lol and then it'll go too far and she will have to#sit valkyrie down and minorly parent her because nobody else will#and valkyrie has the appropriate ratio of respect/disrespect for china and then out of nowhere she'll be like#im sorry i grew up to be such a disappointment i know you expected and wanted better for me....#theyre very funny and sweet i love them so much#says kenna#skulduggery pleasant
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Permission to smack Sonic over the head?
#don't get me wrpng. i love him. he's my son#but... he is being... SO DARN STUPID#like bro. this isn't how you'll convince him#i know u mean well but this isn't the correct way to do what you're trying to do it'll just make things worse#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#sth#miles tails prower#nine the fox#prime sonic#tails nine#sonic prime sonic#sonic prime#sonic prime spoilers#sonic prime s3 spoilers#sonic prime s3#sonic prime season 3#sonic prime season three#sonic liveblog
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the stanley parable merch is so funny im really gonna drop 20 bucks on a cassette tape which i dont even have a player for that tells you how to set up a copy machine that doesn't exist
#save with the vinyl i already bought the soundtrack and i don't have a record player but im still gonna pay 50 bucks for it#it'll look nice on my wall.#sassy speaks#tsp#i'm gonna get the deluxe physical copy bc stickers and manual but i lowkey want those art cards too#i'm NOT buying 2 physical copies dw#however i do have both a ps5 and a switch...... my need to foplete collections is destroying me /j#for real tho i'm not getting it twice 💀#i mean since i have it on pc this is technically the second time but YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN#tspud
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setting up 3 dates with 3 different men in the same week might not be my wisest idea
#it feels presumptuous to think they'll all go well#but i can't help but think haha i sure hope i'm not setting myself up for a sitcom scenario right now#but also it's online dating so like. what are even the odds that these actually go well and there's a second date? or third date?#i don't know what i'll do if they all go well#scheduling is already tricky lmfao#also frankly it's not that i have game i am just talkative and inquisitive about other people's lives n that seems to get me very far#lets see if my lackluster haircut and autistic demeanor are a boon or a bust in these endeavors lol#personal stuff#they can't go worse than my last date lbr#well i mean. maybe they could. but it'll be at least easy for me to be like nah lets go our separate ways#or tank the date like i did last time so successfully i never heard from him again
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There's not enough Joel Miller fanfics on the internet and it's so fvcking annoying I need more protective angsty angry nervous shy tender gentle dominant capable daddy Joel Miller in my life 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
#I mean I could write more but I'm not very familiar with the tlou universe#it'll require me to watch the series and know the games and stuff#arrrggghhhh#this is what happens when I get interested in ONE damn character and start reading sh!t made for them#I started with ONE Joel Miller fanfic#just one ok???#and then I fell into this rabbit hole with no escape#I became obsessed with Joel and now I don't know what I'm going to do without him#fvcking send help!!!!!#the last of us#joel miller#fanfics#writer problems#pedro pascal
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Well thanks for answering my question hehe- but... We're in December and there are 2 days left until Christmas
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Excuse me a moment.
#onceler#once-ler#ask blog#hatter-ler#y'kNOW WHAT?#I think it'll be best if we alllll agree to just...#not! talk! about the time issue anymore!!#I know time is weird here but thinking about it too much gives me a headache!#what do you MEAN it's almost Christmas!!??#It was JUST halloween wasn't it?!#No#no#don't tell me anything else#if I think about this too long I think I'm going to just...#not be in a good head#Nope! We are Changing! the subject!
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[ Me right now at 1AM: 🍳🍳🍳🍳🍳🍳 (¿? ]
[ Wow I did use all of the tags, huh?? ]
#Mun Says#Definitely not me twisting the meaning of a lovely song#No definitely NOT#I would NEVER!!!!!!!!#Heh#Heheh#Hehehehe#HEHEHEHE#AHAHAHAHAHAHA#I think it's too intense tho---#I'm kinda afraid to look like a lunatic---#But well... He's... UuuUuhHhH....#He's definitely twisted---#Oh boy you don't even know the kind of shit I have planned for this fucker#Specially you don't know the songs I have for his playlist that helps me write shit---(???#Once I'm finished with this you'll say ''Giru... what te FUCK?''#And I'd say ''Man I don't even know!!!!''#But tbh... Sometimes I'm so afraid to write about him... like...#Te van a funar chavito(??????#I MEAN---#He's one of the most problematic characters I ever RP...#And... UuuuuUUhHh yeah#I'll not be responsible of whatever this fucker does---(????#He has free will... I'm just a vessel He uses to do whatever He wants here(??????????#I am in fact the puppet in this Mun-Muse relationship(???????#BSJSJJANSKKZKAKANDM#BUT AY... I'M WANDERING A LOT#What I really wanted to say is that whatever I'm cooking right now#It's ONLY the tip of the Iceberg... Like of all the horrible things I have for him#It is LITERALLY nothing... and I'm ashamed and I'm sorry... It'll happen as long as this blog lives NSBSNKANNASKD 😭😭😭(???
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The sick feeling you get in your stomach as an undiagnosed/closeted autistic hearing friends/loved ones make fun of or talk about "what's wrong with" the openly autistic people you know
#sometimes I think about telling certain people and then I'm reminded why I shouldn't <3#em rambles#autism#autistic#actually autistic#autistic things#ableism#even the people who do know are still iffy sometimes like you may think 'I usually don't get along with autistic people' is a compliment bu#it just makes me uncomfortable lmao#idk it's just like. yeah I don't 'seem' autistic with great intentionality around certain people because they've shown#me how unsafe it is lmao#I just hate that people think you're just quirky and different until you put the autistic label on it then there's something WRONG with you#or say you couldn't be autistic because there's nothing WRONG with you you're not THAT bad you're not LIKE THAT#I mean like. ideally I would like me telling people to expand people's ideas of what an autistic person looks/acts like but the sad reality#is that it'll just end in either disbelief or bullying#most likely#you know in ratatouille when remi thinks humans aren't so bad and then his dad shows him that shop with the dead rats and rat poison and#traps and the next morning remi tries walking down the street and people scream and throw stuff at him and call rats disgusting creatures#and he says 'I was reminded how fragile it all was'#that's the vibe as a closeted autistic lmao#you find people who accept you and think maybe it's not that dangerous. maybe it'd be okay#and then other people remind you why you mask in the first place#my autism is the rat hiding inside my hat
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thamepo color analysis loading....
i want to preface this by saying i'm not super well versed in how colors are used in bl so i might get something wrong/miss something and if i do please feel free to jump in and add on! (under the cut bc it's very long lmao) also i AM over analyzing and i'm sure not all of this is intentional but it's fun to think about nonetheless!
starting with episode 1 part 4 because that's what made me start this thought train. in po's flashback we see him giving earn the two sandwiches, but we also see a photo of the two, presumably from earlier in their relationship. po is wearing yellow and earn is wearing blue. earn's workspace is also covered in blue with a blue chair, a blue lamp, and the bookshelf painted blue. from the colors they're wearing in this scene alone we can tell a lot from the status/dynamic of their relationship at the time. earn is wearing a black and white shirt, indifferent to po and their relationship, but po has fully adopted earn's blue. he feeds his partner and cleans the kitchen in blue showing he puts more thought and care into their relationship than earn. po is also wearing blue in the flashback to the earnchop event where earn, again wearing greyscale, overlooks po in his thanks to. when earn suddenly leaves po is wearing brown/neutral colors, perhaps he was feeling less into the relationship, muddy feelings. it's hard to tell whether earn is wearing a black and white shirt or a shirt with blue on it but regardless the scene is bathed in yellow light - as is all of the flashback in the apartment - which makes the blue, earn's empty space, really stand out.
when we meet po in episode one, he's wearing a greenish brown shirt as he mentions how he gave up his career to help boost his ex, but he's over it now and can get back to work! (lying) he's obviously not over it yet. he goes to pick up one sandwich but gets given (and charged for) two, probably because the two had been together so long he became a regular at this sandwich truck. the whole area is lit in yellow, and his ex on the tv is still wearing black. in front of the logo he designed. and the sandwich guy goes on and on about how great this guy is, which proves earn never went to the sandwich shop because wouldn't the sandwich guy recognize him? wouldn't he be like hey isn't that your boyfriend that's so great! of course not. of course it was po alone.
po gets back to the apartment and there's so many decorations that are color coded. blue pillows and blanket on the yellow couch, blue curtains, a blue tablecloth, a yellow coffee table cover (it looks like there's some blue too but i think it's just the lighting bc it also makes the sandwich wrappers look blue), a yellow book, and a post-it/piece of stationary that is mostly blue with a small yellow corner next to their matching black and white mugs. you can also see two framed photos of them both wearing blue. it's warm and yellow inside the apartment, but cold and blue through the glass doors. po picks up a photo, he's in yellow and earn is in blue. you can see below a photo from probably the same day. he then picks up a photo in a blue frame of earn in either blue and pink or black and white, again it's hard to tell it may even be the shirt he broke up with po in, and po in all blue. this was probably taken in the honeymoon phase, especially if earn is wearing pink.
the next day we see him in bright blue putting blue folders in a box, probably packing up earn's stuff, and he picks up his phone in its blue case. it shows all over that he's not over earn. i don't know thai so i'm not sure about the calendar.
the first close up at the suit shop is of a blue measuring tape and a yellow measuring tape resting together on a suit situated on a mannequin, as well as a green tape under. obviously yellow + blue = green. the next close up is of fabric samples, mostly blue with one red and a few warm creams (aka yellow). po walks in to the job he took to support his ex wearing the blue that took over his life and still remains. the suit shop owner, uncle joei, is wearing a blue shirt with a blue tie that has yellow flowers on it. the shop is covered in blue fabric on top of warm wood with yellow lamps and yellow walls. you could say it's symbolic of earn taking over his life and causing him to give up his career for the time being. po even has a blue sticker at the center of his laptop.
with this much blue i honestly had a hard time deciphering what his color was during the trailer and my initial watch but baifern saves the day! at the interview she sets up for him po wears white, a blank slate, a new start. during the interview we see a flashback to po working at the shop and at the fanmeet, both wearing pink (guess who's wearing blue. that's right THAME). this was probably during a high point in his and earn's relationship or at a point where he felt very strongly for him. we see him editing the fanmeet footage in blue at the very blue very neat desk, this was probably before earnchop got started. back to the interview and we see warm po in this cold blue room. his clothes almost look yellow and i thought they were until i saw the clip outside the building again. in the flashback to studying with baifern, we see po in white again. my guy is starting fresh and leaving earn behind and we love to see it! his notes. still in blue. but! i'm choosing to ignore it<3
as po gets his id picture taken we can see more clearly that his outfit is white and i just have to have a little blorbo appreciation bc he's so cute and happy to have a new job back in a field that he loves
we meet new besties ming, wearing yellow, and tae, wearing blue (and a yellow handkerchief!). we also meet thame yay! he's wearing blue (denim) over a black hoodie and arguing with the ceo over his schedule. with the added context from episode 2 of how she persuaded him into a solo career as an attempt to save mars but then didn't allow him any creative freedom, the tension makes sense. we have the infamous sasaeng accusation and thame is very guarded and aware of what's going on around him, especially when it comes to things that could affect his group (hello leader love).
po goes to the sandwich stand in his all white fit ready for change and frowny face :( two sandwiches. the green lawn behind him is very prominent and there's a dark blue sky just above his head perhaps emphasizing that he is reminded of earn. however baifern saves the day again with a phone call and po says thame is cute even thought That was their first interaction (what is wrong with him [lovingly]).
the next outfit change we see for po is at the concert announcement where he's wearing a brown tshirt under a cream cardigan, hello muddy feelings. tae is wearing his yellow handkerchief again, over a brown tshirt this time, and ming is wearing blue (denim)! i don't think their colors really say anything, at least not now, but it's fun to see the color palette extend to side characters. thame enters the green room in black and white before taking the stage in all black. the group performance is primarily lit in blue light, and thame's solo performance is very golden.
during the interview and argument thame has changed back into his black and white outfit. these outfits are consistent throughout the remainder of episode one but let's mention the flashbacks. i already went over po's flashbacks but i forgot to mention the amount of blue in the apartment while they're (po is) working on earnchop's logo.
both people are wearing blue, and blue in general sticks out more than the yellow, like it's taking over. like earn was taking over po's professional life. we see po in all white at the shop working on the logo, waking up in blue after working on it all night, but then we get our first non-old-photo glimpse of po in yellow as he goes to the store to take care of something earn left for him in a (yellow) envelope with a (yellow) sticky note on it.
then thame hits po with his perspective and we see one of his memories. leaving his members while wearing black and white (i think for thame black and white/greyscale is him trying to distance himself emotionally from the group and feeling like he's doing what he has to do to protect it).
at po's very yellow desk, in contrast to the one at his apartment, we see him starting to pack up for the night, surrounded by the dark blue night sky visible through the large windows. after he calls baifern with a question about perspective, he tries to find thame to explain himself. we see thame on the roof, alone, shrouded in the blue of the sky. po runs past the yellow walls of the inside of the building before heading up the rooftop where he and thame have their first moment in the beginning of getting closer. while you can see the blue of the sky and the cityscape, you also see the green hedges. where blue and yellow meet. po says a line he swears isn't flirting and that's where episode one ends!
this ended up being WAYYY longer than i intended and i guess also part recap of the episode?😭 so i'm gonna cut it here and make a separate post for episode two. i'm not gonna reread this because it's 12:30 at night so it's probably kinda cringe at points but it is what it is, maybe i'll polish it tomorrow but probably not lmao
#corey.txt#thamepo#thamepo the series#heart that skips a beat#i'm so insane about this show#i don't think i elaborated too much on what the colors mean more than just. saying what they are💀#but i think it'll come into play more when po is wearing more yellow (aka episode 2)#and when colors mix and pink comes into play#which i know will start next episode because of the teaser#helloooooo thame's jacket with pink on it#hellooooooo po wearing a pink shirt#anw i'm gonna post this and hit the hay enjoy#or don't idc this is fun for me
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pata hai i was looking through your chats on whatsapp to find your vdn ka address and i found a text ss from him that i sent you and it was something like unfortunately i'm not there but i do love you and i read that and had to sprint across the living room after reading that i can't believe it still affects me wtffffff when will it be overrrrrr i blocked him in august it should be over by now right
oh no😭 it's only been 3 months babe aur time lagega he was your childhood friend na and ahem
#your first kiss too and like first love i guess? i mean i know you don't call it love but#bohot saare mahino tak it will feel like what the fuck this is too much im never going to move on and then suddenly it'll be months#and you will have not thought about him and you'll see something that reminds you of him and you won't feel that stab in chest#you'll just feel bittersweet fondness#believe taylor if not me dancing to i forgot that you existed in the shower is like sooooooo healing#saumyuuuuuu#you won't believe it but i JUST opened tumblr to post about something like this wait
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while rereading scarlet i started picturing sophia lillis as thorne for some reason. so here are some doodles of that vision
(this is the scene where cinder plugs iko into the rampion)
#emieclat#the lunar chronicles#linh cinder#carswell thorne#no sophia lillis has nothing in common with thorne#she is not blond or tall and she's never played in a cool suave role before#but some descriptions in this chapter just made me go huh#in particular there was a bit where it describes thorne as standing in the doorway stiff and uncomfortable like the ship was being haunted-#-by a poltergeist#and i mean. stiff and uncomfortable is basically sophia's whole deal in i am not okay with this#and yes. that was the only reason i got this vision#what would girl!thorne's first name be though#carswell is a boy's name and as far as i can tell there isn't a girl equivalent#i mean. personally i could still stick with carswell just cos it's fun#but it'll be interesting to dig into the etymology and think of other potential names#(for those who don't know: carswell means 'well where watercress grows')#(and watercress? cress? you know? and the original rapunzel was named after a similar lettuce to watercress?)#(and rampion is also a rapunzel? you see how it all ties together)
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