#i don’t force myself to like people

[citrus-system]

 I will preface this by saying, autism has me I the most cruel and unforgiving headlock,

But there is nothing worst then someone telling you how they feel about you, and you not feeling even remotely the same

[remxedmoon]

see?

everything’s fine.

(greyscale + extras below!!)

so! this was SUPPOSED to be a bonnie drawing. but for some reason i just Can’t draw bonnie to save my life today. and i needed to draw something simple to make myself less frustrated!! and by simple i mean this took me almost 3 hours and i had to redraw it because i didn’t like how the lineart turned out the first time!! oops!! at least it turned out cute🩶. and i got to play around with my textured brush!

also as a bonus, my terrible first attempt + the sketch!! that i apparently accidentally deleted at some point? so this is a screenshot from the timelapse. i dont know what happened to it…

[not-a-heretic]

she eyes me like a pisces when i am weak.

decided to experiment with the default flat brush to see if it made my life any easier. it did not…

the first was the original. i liked the idea of really stark, bold colors on that side of his face and then the spade bloodstain was kind of a spur of the moment thing. the highlights of his hair are lighter, and its overall longer too bc the color palette was lowkey giving me cruella deville vibes.

then ofc, the second is the drawing without any blood whatsoever (that i don’t finish rendering bc i knew i was just gonna cover it in blood anyway)

[itspileofgoodthings]

my seniors have been so quiet all year and it’s been fine cause we’ve had a lot of writing/research to do but I need them to talk to me now so i was hit by a bolt of inspiration two days ago and I made them all tell me their comfort level with sharing aloud, rating themselves on a scale of 1-10. I then averaged the class score and they’re a 4.5. I then told them yesterday we needed to raise the score the tiniest bit. And the 1’s and 2’s didn’t need to be 10’s just maybe 3’s and 4’s. And they tried! They talked more 😭

[niko-jpeg]

He’s not a huge fan of the woods.

[rowanisawriter]

you know. thinking like about numbers now, after seeing a few posts about this. if you’re getting a lot of attention on your fics you will still be you, still going to work every day, still hanging out with the same people, still living the same life. and if you don’t get a lot of attention on your fics you will still be you, still going to work every day, still hanging out with the same people, still living the same life. so the only difference between getting a lot of attention and less attention is the answer to this question: Are you having fun writing?

[vampire-rodeo]

bonus one

[cheekblush]

it honestly baffles me how immature and vile some people can be

[lucky-clover-gazette]

vent

did not expect kissing and realizing i’m lowkey dating a guy to send me down an existential spiral of reminding me that i have only one life to live and then i am going to die without living any other different lives

[disneyprincessdxminatrix]

I don’t believe in ugly people, ugly art, bad writing, disgusting food etc. Everyone has different taste and that is okay and good. I don’t know why so many people feel the need to put things down just because they personally can’t relate to the people who like them. Who gives even a fuck about the things you think are badly don’t or gross or ugly? I hate the generalisation of these things. It makes me so fucking mad. You can say that you do not like something or that something doesn’t appeal to you. But! No one- no one is ugly. and no art is bad. and no food is universally disgusting.

Stop being negative and rude.

It had to be said.

[alaskan-wallflower]

kind of a ramble but sometimes i wonder where i fit in in this fandom because im not rly into shipping. sometimes i try to force myself into it but then i just end up not enjoying the headcanons i make even though i know other people do. i kinda wanna just keep it so everyone is happy but i dunno.

(i feel the need to clarify i’m not anti shipper-at all. live and let live always. but i know this fandom kinda revolves around it in a way and it makes me feel bad that i don’t really like doing the same things as other people. idk)

[possum-quesadilla]

Ngl im not really someone who cries much, like I can't, and there is this one song (the underworld, EPIC: the musical) that always makes me sad but I can't cry and it felt shity and then I explained to someone why it was so sad and saying it outloud made me cry and it felt good to finally be able to cry for that song

Umm

You should listen to epic the musical

It's like

25 songs

15 more are on the way

Most of them don't make me cry

The fact that this is the first piece of media too make me cry should tell you a lot about it's quality.

Oh man. I just gave it a listen and holy moly. You’re right, might have to listen to the whole thing! It HIT right in the gut.

[itspileofgoodthings]

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[carcassarkis]

Big Idea

Been rewatching Star Wars with my grandma (she’s only seen ANH until now) and had an idea I kind of like.

So you know how, in TFA, it is established that the stormtroopers of the First Order were taken as children for brainwashing purposes?? I propose that the same goes for half the officers there. Several volunteers, of course, but many of the extreme loyalists are part of this group of people conditioned into being members. And any kids of those who are part of the Order would be inducted into the group, too.

Here’s where the idea changes the sequels a bit (read: a lot):

Ben Solo was one of those who were taken and brainwashed. He would not be called Kylo Ren; in fact, he’d probably have some number like the troopers did. It’d be easy to make into a name though, like Finn. And, as a Force user, he’d have a different numbering system than those used for troopers or officers. He’d probably have something (hypothetically) like KR-00.

In this scenario, he’d have been given to Luke for Jedi training, as is canon. Then BOOM some terrible entity (Snoke) reaches his nasty little fingers out one night and takes little Benny boy right out from under the nose of the last Jedi. He’s probably like 8 or 9, idk. To cover his tracks, Snoke burns the school to the ground. Luke and a few students manage to survive, but seeing as there is no Ben, Han and Leia lose their shit.

They distance themselves from Luke, seeing as he got their kid killed (or so they think). Luke, along with the select few survivors of the fire, try to rebuild elsewhere. They vanish.

Several years pass (like 15 idk stop asking bro) and, in that time, the First Order has become an immediate threat to the New Republic. One of the most notable threats is their masked, Force-wielding attack dog. Someone with clear training and skill in the art of swordsmanship and wielding of a lightsaber, who has (seemingly) deliberately teamed up with this terrorist group/cult to destroy the New Republic.

The Resistance refers to this person as the Knight due to their armor and fighting capabilities.

The Knight has a reputation to keep. A brutal and bloody one. They’re Snoke’s right-hand (in a Palpatine-Vader way) and are expected to act as such. No one knows what they look like. They’re a perfect anonymous figure. They could go undercover and no one would know.

So, when word gets out that a Force-user claiming to be a Jedi has appeared, the Knight starts to track them down. Luke Skywalker is a valuable man, dead or alive. A First Order battalion is sent out to the planet this was reported on, which brings the Resistance to doing the same.

Which is how we begin our scene on Jakku…with the Knight, a stormtrooper, a pilot, and a Jedi.

[def-not-kaz-brekker]

I’ve masked for most of my life so now that I know what makes me uncomfortable that I forced myself to do in order to seem “normal” but it’s so hard to break those fucking habits

[breezeowci]

umbrella academy season 4

five and lila, context

I’m so happy i wasn’t the only utterly grossed out and disgusted by Lila’s and Fives relationship.

Five didnt even get out of his school boy uniform till season 3 now your throwing him in a relationship with a woman 15 years older than him. This isnt the early 2000’s anymore, and lots of your watchers have already gone through their Pretty little liars faze and realized how disgusting and toxic arias and Ezra's relationship is.

Also still dosent work the other way cause now you’re throwing a 58 year old man at a 35 year old woman. Still 15 years senior, just slightly less disgusting because at least in that case shes not barely legal anymore.

additional context.

Rita (lillas actress) born; 1988

aiden (fives actor) born; 2003. (I feel like that says it all)

season 2 release 2020

filming 2019

aiden 15-16

rita 30-31

Five is still in his school boy uniform

first introduction between the two characters.

season 4

released 2024

filmed 2023

aiden 19-20

rita 34-35

they had a grown ass women kiss someone she met when he was freaking 15.