#i do think theyre nuts. a little.

[suntails]

ride the carousel!

[achilleslyre]

i think the fact that if i could have afforded uni i would be getting a classics degree and studying languages rn will forever haunt me…….. i actively mourn what could be so fucking bad.

[puppppppppy]

learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

[skyburger]

im watching hlvrai cast commentary & mr. radiotv himself called sunkist a "jpeg" and well. interally i went "Well actually 🤓 jpgs dont support transparency ☝️ so that would have to be a png" and dude it is finally setting in for me how much of a nerd i am. Who thinks that shit!!! well me i guess. but u know what i mean

[foolwife]

i love the laugh here. they don't do a laugh like this until this moment, and then, when they're being questioned and losing control of bobby's persona, and it's out of place here its Odd that he laughs but its easily brushed off as him being embarrassed that he didn't check. and then when you Know it comes off as sinister but i also like to think phantom is Nervous here so the first impression was kind of right actually and isnt that a little fun. i think its fun

[a9saga]

Lately I've been trying to think of a way to say that I don't generally enjoy eating nuts or the taste of them but whatever way I think to put it still sounds funny.

[hazshit-hotel-hater]

Moxxie Redesign! (2/4)

You didn’t think I forgot about this did you? ‘,:/

I wanted to base Moxxie off of what his name actually implies, having nerve and determination. Ive almost entirely changed his personality in certain ways. He is still an assassin but he takes his job very seriously and struggles with his inner morals because of this. Being berated by Blitz often leads to him pushing aside his concerns with his job and causing internal conflict instead that he typically only ever talks to these issues about Millie. She is trying to get him to consider therapy but he doesn’t want to lose his “sparkle” (he gives in eventually and goes and it goes fine, this would be around season 2 but definitely after episode 6)

Moxxie also doubles as a medic for any potential injuries at I.M.P (this happens often). Moxxie was also born in greed so he has the more aquatic qualities of a greed imp such as the little headlamp, frills, and gills. And for any fish nerds, yes I know only female angler fish have headlamps, thats the point. Viv has literally no main trans characters so I guess I have to do everything myself. Plus I’m tired of the super straight shit that happened a few years back, Millie isn’t any less straight for dating a trans man. I think Moxxie certainly struggles with his masculinity and also takes his job so seriously as a way to prove to himself that he’s meeting some sort of “masculinity criteria” however he’s fully aware of how silly the mindset is (hes working on it). I think som trans imps may definitely paint their horns like Moxxie, but with certain days I really doubt he gives much of a shit considering it probably gets chipped a lot anyway.

Moxxie still hates his upbringing and the greed ring leaves a sour taste in his mouth, however he prefers to use his knowledge and features from greed in his work. For example, preforming minor surgery under his headlight, it’s goofy as hell and I think any show benefits from some extent of stupid silliness like that. It’s also good for distractions!

Moxxie isn’t always super serious like in this art either, he’s still a bit stupid but still respects himself. Tough nut to crack because of his past but is very kind underneath somewhere.

Heres some notes I went off while working!

- glasses (REQUIRED. Give him those stupid little circle spectacles)

- Get rid of the stupid suit

- Maybe some interesting horn stuff?

- Make him look a bit more like his voice, not sure how to describe this

- Write a boyloser properly

- Probably doubles as a medic? I think he’d be interested in medicine with all that errrm akshully energy he has

- Make him actually look like an adult (I tried)

- More of a fishy tail

- Born in wrath but both parents are greed imps so he has those features + moved back when he was like 6 idk

- Or idk maybe imps change the longer theyre in a certain ring? Could be fun

I have a lot more I could talk about with this guy but I’ll save it for some other posts :3

[moonshynecybin]

#anyways him and vale prank war no survivors

vale and marc pranking the kids at the ranch post reconciliation!!!!!

literally the academy also such wonderful people to prank.... like celestino's beseeching pink-cheeked outraged expression, bez's love of homoerotic male razzing, mig's general jokester persona, pecco's pursed lips restrained smile. luca's smooth, elegant exterior masking an sly love of comedy. beautiful. now i do think that marc and vale are less likely to go after them unprovoked. the age gap is a little too pronounced (or in marc's case, the age gap is more uh. symbolic. experience gap? anyways i think he's more likely to turn a water gun on vale while hes napping on vacation and cackle obnoxiously as vale like. tugs him in and tackles him to the pool lounger chair and bites at his neck to make him squirm. like lame and horny and focused only as an act of ANNOYING affection. but whatever) HOWEVER, maybe the little guys are wrapped up in their OWN prank war and rosquez uh. covertly tip some of the scales. a frame-job.

SO its mig going after bez by putting glitter in his motorcross helmet, and bez/cele going after pecco by shaving half his mustache while he's sleeping, and luca retaliating in pecco's name (pecco is pretending he's above it even though he grimaces looking in the mirror) by changing all of the clocks at the ranch to be an hour earlier so that everyone but him and pecco are late to practice. and it keeps escalating until rosquez figure out what's happening (the clock one hard to miss to be fair) and they just make silent, evil eye-contact and immediately start executing covert, joint pranks that will never be traced back to them EVER. no one will ever believe you type stuff... just to playfully raise the level of paranoia at the ranch. for funsies. recreational gaslighting. hiding all of bez's socks they blame mig. plastic wrapping cele's car theyre like wow luca is not pulling any punches :/ remove all tires from bez's bikes (they feel bad about that one hes there for hours). changing all the contacts in luca's phone so they reroute to vale and him's mom. supergluing pecco's paddock pass to the ceiling of his motorhome. anyways it keeps getting more and more nuts and none of them figure out it was rosquez until vale does an impish supervillian style reveal super casually at dinner (marc giggling behind his wine glass eyes SPARKLING...) like a full six months later. and then when rosquez wakes up the next morning they find out that their mattress has been deposited into the pool with them still on it

[genderfluid-culture-iss]

for the baby genderfluid tips!!

this could just be me lmao, but DO NOT donate your fem clothes if you feel masc for longer than usual. or vice versa.

keeping a gender journal is something that can be really helpful to actually look back on and see how it changes (and also have proof of fluidity for when you begin to think "hmm actually im just a trans girl. nothing else." no, you probably aren't. you felt completely boy/nonbinary/etc just a month ago, and thats okay.)

basically it can be really hard to embrace that your gender is not static, especially if your gender stays stable for a slightly longer period. it took me so long to stop rotating between "im a girl always" "no, im a boy always" "actually, im nonbinary always" to just admit im genderfluid.

also, make genderfluid content. you don't have to show it to anyone, but sometimes it can really help to make poetry or art or write a story about being fluid and your experience in particular. i have an easy avenue for this since i write fanfiction (haven't published any of it yet lmao) and i just hit my favorite characters with my genderfluid beam and go nuts

follow people who are genderfluid, read genderfluid books, maybe join a genderfluid discord server (there are barely any, so actually maybe make one), try to make genderfluid friends. you are not alone, even though it sometimes feels that way.

if you have plushies or anything similar, make them genderfluid. i have a genderfluid squishmallow who i use she/they pronouns for, and a little husky that switches between he/she. idk it just helps sometimes lol

some of us change gender daily, or multiple times a day. some of us change gender only a couple times a year, or even less. we're all different and that's fine.

tips for presentation:

if you have a day when you can't figure out gender, go neutral clothing-wise

take little things to ease dysphoria if you switch when you're out somewhere (ex. lipgloss, eyeliner, leather bracelet, etc)

if you can, get pronoun pins. seriously, get pronoun pins (or a colored bracelet for subtlety or if you're not out). you can wear multiple at a time, you can switch them whenever you need to. you aren't a burden if your pronouns change. you don't have to stick to they/them to be easy for people.

if you can, get a versatile hairstyle that you can make suit your gender no matter what. if you cant, try to get a hairstyle that makes you the least dysphoric overall.

if you are organized enough, separate your clothes based on gender/what you feel comfy wearing on different days. do not pressure yourself to fit stereotypes. some people can only feel comfortable in skirts when theyre boys, so they only wear skirts on boy days. do what works for you.

it's kinda complicated, but if you can expand your vocal range to sound more fem or masc depending on how you feel, it can help. alternatively, vocal train to make it more androgynous.

keep makeup wipes with you in case you need to take it off part way through being out. basically, make it as easy as possible to be able to change/tweak your presentation if necessary.

this could just be me, but having lots of hoodies in different colors and styles will save your life

sometimes you might have "blender days", which is what i call it when your gender feels like its in a blender in a bad way and you can't tell at all what it is, everything feels wrong, it's changing like every 10 minutes, etc. tbh on these days all i can do is put on sweats and a hoodie and feel dysphoric. listen to music if it helps. do a hobby.

non-clothing items can help a lot. a blue tshirt and jeans can be whatever you want it to be based on what you wear it with. (ex. sneakers/ballet flats, leather bracelet/sparkly necklace, baseball cap/eyeliner)

and lastly: YOU ARE AMAZING. keep being you, keep being incredible, and know that being genderfluid is a gift. be proud to be who you are, have fun, know that you are unique and special and wonderful!! we're ever-changing, and that's awesome. you are precious. i love you.

🩷🤍💜🖤💙

dont wanna link my tumblr, but my name is kiley if you want to attach a name to this!

Okay this is a lot more than I was expecting LMAO /pos

Thank you so much for this Kiley <33 I’ll start working on a masterpost with links to all this.

[bachelorisland]

if the mickey being donalds old super supportive college roommate who donald couldn’t stand who eventually became a famous hollywood actor is still canon in DT17 universe, I’d assume that they lost contact after college and mickey wasn’t there for the downfall of everything. :( CONTEXT BEFORE I START YAPPING!!!

ANYWAYS cringe headcanon but I like to think maybe donmicks friendship was a little fruity back in college ….and it made donald question everything . Maybe mickey was unknowingly leading donald on while he was already in a relationship w minnie (hee hee theyre college sweethearts love u mickmin) BY LEADING ON i dont mean like Mickey being like I Want You Donald 👅I think maybe because he was just so freaking nice to donald. he believed in him, he always took care of him when he was upset, took him seriously despite being a bit oblivious at times, and like daisy, he was one of the only people who could understand him just fine, and mickey would probably say some crazy homosexual shit that you wouldn’t normally tell ur male roommate and friend (just think mickey shorts mickey but 40% gayer) and he’d think it’s completely normal and platonic and donald would be going nuts because JESUS CHRIST!:$:!:$/! Why is my “straight” homie with a whole ass girlfriend treating me like this. and why do I like it So Much. emotional edging challenge idk . donald thought he was annoying but he really really really rely rlly rlly had a huge crush on him to the point where his feelings became more annoying and an inconvenience than mickey himself

so he I think he stopped actively trying to contact him after they graduated and since mick got famous shortly after which pretty much made it impossible to reach him. Donald probably told himself it was because mickey was annoying and clingy and a loud theatre kid who was too full of himself and he lowkey hated him, but it was also because he didn’t wanna get played by MICKEY MOUSE of all people. lol

OMG I LIKE TO THINK GOOFY WAS A ROOMMATE TOO!! They were like a trio. I have quite a few headcanons of them in their college days and maybe I’ll share it later. doesnt even have to relate to ducktales I think its just goof don and mick in college being silly

(ALSO kinda unrelated but i think goof and don stayed in contact but only really started talking again once they had kids to take care of)

(ALSO ALSO GUYS FRANK LITERALLY SAID MOST OF DT17 MICKEYS CHARACTERISTICS ENDED UP IN STORKULES. WHOS LITERALLY HEAD OVER HEELS OBSESSED WITH DONALD. Anyways)

( Sorry if this makes no sense I’m tired and I’m thinking about Disney yaoi )

(Edit I wrote this at 1 in the morning yesterday sorry if its super OOC I think I was going thru it LMFAOOO)

[daenystheedreamer]

What would've happened if Theon actually had the chance to go join the Night's Watch at the end of "A Clash Of Kings"?

so jon wouldn't have been there when he reaches it, and i think he'd be bitchy and whiny and trying to curry favour and take control to make up for his wounded pride at winterfell. i feel like he could fall in with alliser thorne and janos slynt, or make his own ragtag crew of rapists and murderers that he thinks are funny and goes to mole town and does not respect his vows and sexually harasses satin. by the time jon snow arrives back, i think a) jon immediately kills him after learning about all that happened and gets in major trouble b) jon is so disgusted by theon he defects BACK to the wildlings (crazy lol) c) jon understands that the wildling threat is too important and that he will deal with theon later, like he could use his skills as a bowman in the battle.

after the battle and stannis taking control, i think stannis could use the punishment of theon as leverage to garner jon's support, the same way he does with winterfell and legtimisation and lordship. and i think jon being given the option for revenge would sway him more than the option for winterfell, but he'd still say no.

theon would fall in with alliser thorne and janos slynt i think, mostly cos the other factions would dislike him. i don't think he'd like bowen marsh, i think he'd want to get in with denys mallister but denys mallister is too ironbornphobic (justified in theon's case LMFAO) to accept him, and cotter pyke is 50/50 i think he could have a ironborn to ironborn connection with theon but idk i think he'd HATE theon for being a pompous little lordling who is ironborn only in name. so its janos slynt for theon. once jon becomes lord commander, i think he's either keeping theon where he can see him (friends close enemies closer, which lord commander snow fucking LOVED doing lol) or might send him away to eastwatch just so he doesnt have to see him anymore. and if he gets sent to eastwatch, ramsay intercepts the caravan and steals theon away LOL. destiny will come for theon!

but if theon stays at winterfell, maybe he can prove himself to jon somehow. maybe after seeing jon behead janos slynt he gets the kick in the nuts he needed. maybe he begs leave of jon to find bran and rickon and prove that they are alive, maybe he gets the secret out of sam somehow in his desperation to prove himself innocent (still killed those kids tho). and then you can have him going up north to bloodraven (maybe bloodraven sends him some visions... maybe theyre euron related.....) or going off to rickon and somehow meeting up with davos and wyman and wyman is fully trying to kill him. assuming the boltons still take control of the north.

and maybe theon and jon can frot a bit idk

[wumingluv]

been rereading tgcf and I wanna talk abt volume 6 (and the rest later).

Ultimately it is a tale of resilience and perseverance and the strength and power of actively choosing kindness, the breaking of trauma chains and forging your own, third path.

SPOILERS

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Just before arc 4 you get this whole xianle trio reunion and hc chase shenanigans. The cave of ten thousand gods is great because finally xie lian knows the truth (or half of it), hua cheng is embarassed, scared and vulnerable but he still won’t just cower in the corner. He takes care of xie lian even if his old friends think he’s nuts and want to protect xl from hc. But they never even listen to what he thinks or wants. (Ofcourse sometimes people don’t recognize it themselves if they’re being harmed.)

Anyways everything’s out in the open and feelings and care get returned, hooray!

Then in the flashback we see the trio again and their dynamic, their positions, the hierarchy between them, even as theyre facing poverty together, Xls leftover naïveté and ignorance and what formed the dynamics of their present.

„Xie Lian had always believed in "forever" —friends would always be friends forever, with no betrayal, no deception, no breaking up. Perhaps there would come a time when they had to part, but it wouldn't be for a reason like "things got too horrible."”

The absolute heartbreak of friendship breakups. And yet even though he truly saw them as friends how could it be when there is such a clear hierarchy between them? Mu Qing had to take care of his own mother along with Xie Lians parents and the three of them. Feng Xin couldn’t even tell him about Jian Lan. He was trying to earn money for them and for her at the same time. And he stayed unwaveringly beside him until he could not recognize xie lian anymore.

In arc 2 we saw who xie lian was 800 years ago and some of what knocked him down. But now we see he’s still a (defeated) crown prince and newly fallen god. He has to adjust to his new life. He’s proud. He’s humbled but still far away from his present day personality.

We see how much more he had to endure. Trauma he had to go through that no one even sees. That time when white no face/bai wuxiang would show himself to him but no one else could see?

He was (left) alone in his suffering, (besides a ghost that he couldn’t even recognize), but how could anyone support him if they did not know or understand what was going on? So with there being no one left to comfort xl beside white no face after everything, xl even feels touched by it in a corner of his heart. But still clearly and continuously sees and rejects him for and fights against the monster he is.

This is where the choosing kindness and overcoming trauma part comes.

To seek out and recover goodness and your own heart.

And how significant one act of kindness can be, how much it can move.

“One person. Just one. Really. Just one person was enough.”

Him choosing to wait for just one person to show and prove their humanity, proving with all his effort white no face still could not simply turn him into a copy, make him turn against his own humanity in the long term.

We also see the contrast of true harmful of obsession and stalking and true but not unseeing love and devotion. The little ghost fire and Wu Ming loving and wishing to protect him without even letting him know who he is.

Removing themselves when xie lian tells him to and yet also having a mind of his own and doing things against what he’s told. (The wall of ghost fires, the flower, the end.)

He sees xl but he doesn’t stop believing in or loving him. And the tragedy is that it is exactly what xl needs in that time but he can’t recognize it because of his trauma.

Is Hua Cheng boring and slightly codependent because of that? Because he is focused so much on Xie Lian? Maybe but I think because he does have so much of his own mind and makes his own decisions, against what xl tells him to or makes him look good, like in the beginning of the volume too, I think he’s interesting and sometimes seeing your loved one go through the worst will just do that with you. (Also he has his very own ideas about heaven and the systems in place and built up ghost city on his own. He doesn’t even agree with or want to follow xls path for himself. But what we also always see is their mutual respect for one another, never trying to change the other or force them.)

Let me know your thoughts if you want!

[the-s1lly-corner]

(This was inspired by an OC post I saw)

Can I request headcanons for Jax being affected by a love virus, (as in being forced to act lovey-dovey because of a glitch the reader carries)? I hope this makes sense.

Jax w/ a love virus!

might be a little different than the post youre referring to because i dont know what post youre talking about </3 written as the reader and jax already being in a romantic relationship since i think otherwise i may be uncomfortable writing it </3 will touch more on that in the actual post but!! kind of written with like, a slight angst angle at the beginning, going off my own silly ideas since i dont know specifics for this!! my toxic trait is seeing someone call a recipe "hard" and "difficult to master" and my immediate reaction is to make the thing. i learned how to make macarons i can learn how to make panettone... not today though i need to get the nuts and fruits for it

he doesnt care if he was sick, when he recovers from it hes going to be so embarrassed. will become argumentative with anyone who tries to bring it up, even if theyre being neutral or supportive of him.. it might be easier for him to come to terms with it and live it down if you (his main target) are already in a relationship with him

i think he might be really upset if he got the virus from you; regardless of if you can control it or not.. it sucks, yeah, but this isnt like a flu or cold, but

yeah

bonus points if you yourself dont show many symptoms of the virus and even more bonus points if you decided not to tell anyone about it; i think if it were like this it would warrant break up material for jax

obviously i dont know the specifics, and i do want to keep this somewhat vague so it can hopefully be morphed to fit what you, the anon, specifically saw/read

but how is he like during the actual virus/infection?

clingy. very clingy

sure, jax was already clingy in his own way before getting sick, what with keeping an eye on you and trying to keep you all to himself when you guys were alone... but this is... something else

he constantly follows you around, and might even drape himself over your shoulder while you're trying to talk to someone else

gets visibly antsy and even irritated when separated from you for too long, perhaps even becoming a little verbally aggressive to the other circus members if they try to get him to calm down

wont even hesitate throwing himself into danger. not to save you. but to be around you. "if you die im going to die with you" mentality, pretty much

audibly whines when you have to go do something. embodiment of the "nooo you hang up :3" thing but way more intense and kind of obnoxious (obviously not a knock to anyone who does it, jax is just ramping it up to 100 and beyond)

if hes showing typical... sickness.. symptoms (fatigue, fever, ect) youre going to have one hell of a time keeping him in bed. youre probably going to have to monitor him until he recovers; because otherwise hes just going to follow you around the circus

this is already normal jax behavior but hes going to push people, hes just going to do it a little more often and more aggressively in order to get to you while hes sick

[bloominglegumes]

Oh my goodness I just had to say I really love your fem Jazz she's so gorgeous I literally get so excited whenever I see her kicking my feet in the air help me..😭💖💖 I saw your previous post about fem Prowl and was wondering where you got ideas for visualising fem Jazz too!! :> Anyways love your work they are truly a blessing 🥹🥹

aahgh thank you so much!! <3 me too fr i'm the one drawing them and i'm like hunched over my tablet face in my hands grinning madly twirling my hair with my pen like nuts absolutely nuts

sorry this answer got really long,, i get asked about my favourite fictional guys or my art process and i just like schwoomph every time

for prowl my instinct was just straight up put her in a uniform ,, hair pinned + gelled back, low bun above the collar and held in a net etc etc and that made decisions like giving her thick shoulders and a gorgeous cold stare a lot easier!!! but i struggled more with jazz because of.jazz's whole character ykyk

jazz was one of the first tf characters i started noodling with a bishoujo design for, so initially i used the kotobukiya designs as a general style guide along with loose vibes combining spy + dancer, with a healthy amount of "how do i make her more cool + hot"

so so so i dug through pinterest a lot while looking for refs/inspo and felt my love for pretty girls growing by the second T~T

for the hair though,,, i tampered around a little trying to decide between buns and braids and such but i think now i'll mostly stick with giving jazz the undercut + dreadlocks?? i can finagle some cool shapes from it tied up, feels like it fits the effortlessly collected vibe that jazz would have, and since the hair doesn't cover the neck, i can give her that type of black turtleneck collar because it's.like . i just have to

^^ literally just crusty scribbles on bits of scrap paper many months ago ;w;

since then i've decided on more little things like .super strong muscled dancers legs + thighs that can and have killed + nails trimmed short + calloused finger pads + catlike flexibility but im largely dooming myself bc i cant show all of those things even if i'm drawing them in a more realistic style and im so.hhdgfhdj

i'm still mostly messing with outfits as i go, though, so. thats why theyre different in every drawing but i'm generally trying to keep a similar feeling between them :,D

[shalomniscient]

i love to believe that persons with giant dicks are actually severely inexperienced in bed as almost no one can take them properly for safety reasons or just because it goddamn hurts to be stretched so much no matter how much lube you apply and how much preparation you do, so they didn't have many opportunities to flex their monstrous size. there might be an exception in case this person has an established relationship with someone who finally takes the risk of getting fucking torn apart and this kinda provides them with certain experience but... if it's just some affair then there's gonna be some problems. (i would prefer to assume that big dicked characters do not assail anyone, so there were no situations in which they made some one take them with force)

can you imagine almost virgin zoya? that's fucking hilarious. you unbuckle her pants, a literal fucking anaconda springs out of her underwear and slaps your face and... nothing happens. you're trying your best to put it in your mouth or something but your jaws just physically cannot accommodate to something this thick. trying to take it up your pussy? well a few inches might slide in without any harm but going any further can send you straight to the hospital. taking it up your ass? don't even think about jesus christ.

so, what are you gonna do? there's a great and safe option though – milk zoya with your cute fingers! put on a show, whisper things in her ear, let her kiss you roughly and buck her hips into your welcoming palms (you'll need both of them to grab at least a half of her dick). zoya sure is possessive and rough and tough, so the idea is she's always a top. but for one night she might become a service top, you know... just for one night before you two figure out how to make her tremendous size work. moreover, your pretty hands are doing a majestic job, so... why not? just let the tip slide into your mouth (no further!), suck on it harshly, don't suppress your moans, lick the shaft occasionally, kiss the whole length affectionately throughout the process and this little (hell no it's huge) handjob might become one of the best experiences in your lives.

– milk nonnie

milk i need be inside your brain rn HOW do you come up with these ARGHHHH THEYRE SO GOOD IM GOING CRAZY ??? ok but imagining zoya’s reaction once she finally bottoms out in you after spending months slowly prepping… 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 she’s never been able to do this so she’s nutting immediately sorry 😔😔😔 milk i think you’re opening my eyes (or fucking prying them open with a crowbar /pos) to girlfailure zoya…………… we’re entering dangerous territory here gamers

[castlebyersafterdark]

do you think that byler would ever have a "what have we done" moment regarding sex? Like they were so depraved one day that they did something really dumb or embarrassing while fucking and only had the clarity of mind to recognize how stupid it was after they'd already come, lmao? what do you think that'd look like?

(individually, I can soooo see both of them doing really weird shit to get off because horny teenagers are just Like That)

So spot on accurate - of course they would! I think something common with them would be the consequences of Mike's dirty mouth. Where caught up in the moment he says some wild stuff and Will’s too far gone to respond with much of anything coherent, though he certainly hears it all. Processes after he's gotten off, come back down to earth. They both might be lying there or while all tangled up, a subtle look, an expression. A soft but weak what from Mike if he's a little embarrassed about what he said. An indignant what if he knows he was outta pocket and is feeling a little defensively bashful about it. Will giggles and tries to get Mike to repeat it or explain himself. He's into it.

I think physically, absolutely as well. Ain't nothing hit you harder than that jarring post nut clarity sometimes, as cliche as it sounds. Rings true! Sometimes you need it so bad and get so specifically desperate or lost in the moment that after its all over, looking back on the actual sex is an out of body experience in a totally different way than chasing extreme pleasure. Will lying there wondering how he managed a certain position, maybe he did something kind of intense or weird and afterwards he's shy that he'd done that no hesitation in the moment. He often plays back how he sounded while Mike was fucking him and it makes him blush so bad - knowing he's noisy and loud and his voice moaning and asking for things echoes in his head and he feels some sort of way about it. Mike reassures him.

They're totally doing very weird shit as teenagers, exploratory and curious and adventurous guys together. Doesn't really change as they get older but when they're still trying things out? The immediate retrospect might be a lot. I imagine they both feel super embarrassed maybe for example, the first time Mike tells Will to sit on his face and Will just is so turned on he does it, got really overwhelmed in the middle of it, then was lost in it, but afterwards theyre both like - that was intense, they both gotta reassure each other it was both awesome and vulnerable. Will definitely feels embarrassed and self conscious in the early days of riding Mike, too. Worries how he looks, if he's doing good. During the sex, he's ok, they're both into it. But after he can't help but worry a little after feeling so exposed and hopes he didn't look stupid as he found himself really into it. The absolute what did I just do mortification that first time Mike accidentally finished on Will's face. He's mortified over doing it but also over how intensely it turned him on. Will shocked, for exactly the same reasons.

I feel like they get lost in it one time when Mike's really going to town, he's a little rougher. Maybe the bruises are a little larger, darker than normal on Will's ass, but Will kept yelling and moaning harder harder so Mike complied. How Will begged he'd wanted it rough, held down, face in the mattress, hand at his neck, wanted to sob and have them both let go. But after it's over, maybe early when they haven't really done that before - the intensity kind of washes over them like. Who was that? What were we doing? Why did we want to fuck like that? It was exciting, but sometimes stuff like that can't shake the shame afterwards. Conversation and kindness to follow. And it's something they can do again, safe with each other knowing yeah, maybe it is weird. Nothing wrong with being a little weird.

Not to mention their corny, nerdy role play sessions once they break outta character. They often feel incredibly stupid. So hot, tons of fun in the moment, but remove the horniness? Yeah, we both just fucked while speaking in bad medieval accents. Yeah, you just pretended you were an alien who could only communicate by giving me a blow job. Yeah, I saved you from being tied up and kidnapped but only by reward of getting to fuck you first before actually saving you. Yeah, I took a phone call while my cock was in your mouth - what were we thinking??

I can write paragraph upon paragraph about this topic. Absolutely an element in several wips for future fics. Because it's a realistic part of sex! Weirdness and vulnerability. What the fuck did we just do? Yikes. But also hell yeah.