#i distress that man i think

[gonzoinamaskandcape]

trying to explain to the doctor that basically i didnt visit the doctor for about a decade (and also didnt have health insurance in that time) and also have crippling anxiety so asking questions like "are chest infections normal for you" are kind of pointless as i genuinely do not know

[avengerdaisy]

Emma Swan and Killian Jones in OUAT, 3x22 There's No Place Like Home

[rabbits-of-negative-euphoria]

men be like: not full-glam makeup and not no makeup but a secret third thing Hallmark protagonist makeup

[cent-scratchnsniff]

doodles and stuff. struggled with painting until i gave up

[wanyinchen]

its "almost christmas means it wasn't christmas" in my side of the globe, so here, have a sketch dump i did months ago

[mamawasatesttube]

there is some kind of heartbreaking parallel to be drawn between clark after his first appearance as superman realizing what was happening with everyone clamoring for his attention:

"They all want a piece of me, Pa. And I - I don't know how to deal with it." (Superman: The Man Of Steel #21)

and the way ma and pa's guidance is what gets him through that, whereas with kon, we know:

"I guess that's just it, Martha... You didn't raise this boy!" (Adventures of Superman #501)

kon never got that kind of support or guidance. he didn't know any better about all the attention he was getting. clark saw the mob descend upon him and said, "Everybody had something they wanted me to do, to say, to sell..." because he had 20+ years of life experience and parents who raised him to be kind, but aware.

kon, meanwhile, within his first few weeks of being alive, had:

"...saw the Superman fly by an' wanted to meet him, so we just kinda thought we'd drive off the bridge, y'know?"

"The boy is my target?" "Hello? Yeah, it's done. Just remember - the kid's all mine!"

"Nothing happens that Lex doesn't know about almost instantly! Think how that could help you! Plus, we could work together every day! Wouldn't that be fun?"

"Before you get... too well acquainted, I'll need your John Hancock, son."

"You're using him, Vinnie!" "Simply following your lead, my dear. Or can he only be twisted around your finger to further your career?"

(all caps from Adventures of Superman #502)

just like with clark, everyone is clamoring to use kon for their own ends (aos 502 is a little hard to read because of it, honestly - tana, vinnie edge, rex (using roxy too), and mae and lex, one after another). except that kon never had parents to teach him what to look out for. kon is two weeks old and everyone wants a piece of him, and he doesn't even realize it.

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

As an autistic person I will never ever understand how Hobie could put on a skintight lyrca suit and then put multiple layers of clothes OVER THAT and was still like 'yeah this is fine. im comfortable. theres nothing wrong with this in fact this is the logical thing to do'

Without a doubt it's the most baffling thing he has ever done and he does a lot of baffling shit on the regular

Like how is he doing that THERE'S SO MANY TEXTURES

Wearing that outfit looks like literal torture and the fact he chooses to do that everyday haunts me deeply

I asked about his red shirt a couple weeks ago and people were saying 'oh no that's a whole suit under there' as if the implication of that isn't terrifying in and of itself

He is a Spider-person I know he fell those fabrics rubbing together. My shirt tag touch my neck and I start throwing a fit meanwhile he's outhere wearing spandex under cotton and leather AAHHHHH it makes my skin crawl 😭😭😭

he looks good but also why is he Doing That

[vaguely-concerned]

I think the most defining thing about kremy as a person is that he desperately wants to be a man with a mustache -- while being physically, biologically incapable of producing hair follicles lol. like no wonder he takes to drag so much, that's basically most of what he's already doing with his outward identity! and the physical aspect of that is smaller, I feel, than what he's got going on psychologically. he's someone who doesn't want to be -- can't be? -- who and what he is, and who can't be what he wants to be because what he wants to be doesn't really exist, so he lives his life somewhere on the border between them. the almiraj might be no mirage, but the perfectly clever and charming and utterly untouchable version of kremy that kremy would like to be -- instead of the vulnerable neurotic mess of longing and fear and striving for control he clearly actually is -- absolutely is, I'm afraid. it's just a shadow on the wall with nothing real to cast it.

(all of this also goes into the many Gender and trans readings of him too, of course! men will say they’re fighting demons and the demons are trying to live up to a very specific brand of toxic masculinity they've sort of invented for themselves lol)  

the one deep down entrenched assumption we see kremy make again and again especially interpersonally is that if he's open with who he really is and what he feels or thinks at any given time, he would be revealed as fundamentally unacceptable and at best discarded and abandoned, at worst endangered. (it's literally spelled out with the cyclops in the witchlight carnival, but you see him go through this process all the time through the rest of the story too! being unable to lie or dissemble was a catastrophic event in this dude’s inner landscape. I’m sure that means nothing) and because he is also frequently kind of awful this assumption may not be entirely off base some of the time lol (deeply affectionate), but I think it comes from a much deeper place than that. kremy is ashamed of where he's from and who he's been -- that dirt poor wide-eyed kid from the swamp who saw all the fancy gentlemen in town and Wanted. wanted to be that, wanted to have that power, probably some confused sexuality want mixed up with it all as well for spice. wanted more than anything, perhaps, to BE something, because next to that he feels like nothing. which means abandoning the earnest kid who guilelessly loved unicorns and his meemaw and cooking without meaning to impress anyone and silly soft things in the swamp he came from while he went off to the big city and modeled himself after men like garou. (and his relationship with garou surely also had some effects on just how shifty he's become at intimacy too, aside from the building a facade of it all, that might be some secondary damage that was not his fault nor in his control at all)

even when he's acting seemingly shamelessly, he is fundamentally a shame-based psychology, is what I'm trying to get at. the only times he lets his thoughts and emotions out into the world unfiltered is when he's brought to a point of frustration where he throws up his hands and abandons manipulation or subtle machinations as an interpersonal tactic -- see: the several times he argues something with frost or gricko and then finally admits 'I literally don't actually care about this! you guys figure it out and deal with this if it matters so much to you I'm going to bed ffs' haha. his depression shines through when he’s too tired to hide it, especially in the later episodes. every open emotion is an admission he really didn't want to make and thinks is tactically disadvantageous for him. (and sometimes when he's being really for real he'll even admit to being worse than people gave him credit for, like when he admits he suspected mr. witch and mr. light were capable of doing something really really bad to torbek and handed him over anyway. kremy being that blunt and open is like. remarkable and also a sign that he's actually taking it seriously, for all that he's also revealing himself to be even more of an asshole than previously suspected lmao. that's not nothing, for kremy. BUT at the same time he is also the person who cried to see a unicorn broken and abused, and who saw something in gideon upon meeting him that no one else did or cared to at that time and offered him genuine companionship and support — as the story goes on he’s starting to admit to more things about himself, the bad and the good.)

all of which of course also is why he's having such a hard time being honest with gideon about how he feels (and the sheer immensity with which he feels it too, probably) -- that's incredibly vulnerable for a person who’s built himself up around the idea of never being vulnerable. ('i'm just a shadow, nothing you do can really touch or hurt me.') And yet if there’s peace and redemption to be found for kremy, if only within his own soul, between these versions of himself, I feel that discovering and accepting his own capacity for loving someone else so much that it transcends all selfishness or fear would be integral to it. (he loves gideon. So much it makes me a bit dizzy you guys)

[daylightaftertherain]

every time I see the fandom crashout over an idol enlisting I think of that one sports manga joke like. "oppa are you watching" oppa is fulfilling his government mandated military duty 😐

[androgynouspenguinexpert]

any camelopardalis fans in chat

[cementcornfield]

Ja'Marr Chase, vs. the Cowboys 2024

[rosykims]

writing post veilguard solas as theeeeee clingiest most reassurance-starved man in the world who literally needs to hold lavellans hand every second of the day for the next 6 years or he WILL fall untethered in the literal abyss of despair he willingly walked into in the end.

[cent-scratchnsniff]

hiii cool drawing person!! I uh saw that you kind of do requests? So I was wondering if I could request a little doodle of Yesod hugging Netzach.. I feel like Netzach goes through so much hell that he'd need that, and Yesod would like to give affection to someone considering his uh. . . prior need to delete a bunch of information and pretend that no one who died existed you know ? Plus snake.. haha good at squeezing. and he's chest height, how stupid <3 thank you so much for making so many people's days with your art and your thoughts oh my god your thoughts. i love how you dissect these little freaks 🥺

hi neat anonymous sender!! thank you so much for your words!!! im so glad that i can bring some sort of joy and happiness even if it is small. and that my thoughts and writings are well received still. i am still in a bit of a shock that people like and read them even with the passing time. . . i hope youre okay with these doodles! thank you for sending this in

[bitchfitch]

I'm working on that spirit of spring thing and its got me curious about something

[vaguely-concerned]

every time rye hears lucanis really laugh he has such a mortifying '*sick and harrowed with longing to the very depths of his soul* alright :)' moment. I just got the banter where taash talks about stuff their mother told them about crows as a kid and it was a 10 on the soul quaking richter scale event

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

I like to think that they'd be great friends SKDJKSNDS

/Directly based on this