#i did not explain this correctly

[hellishattempt]

no, you don't get it. you DON'T GET IT. odysseus's mother's last thoughts being about her son is heart wrenching; odysseus's mother being voiced by jay's mom is overwhelming BUT YOU'RE MISSING SOMETHING

when she dies, jay will be left with the remnants of his mother soothing him, promising him that she is waiting for him. WHEN SHE DIES, he will still have this song. he will have his mother's melodic voice as a comfort in his grief.

THAT is what kills me every time. that is what sends me to the floor whenever the underworld plays.

[elysiae]

do you think operator & drifter treat their warframes wildly differently?

somewhat insufficient TLDR: i think the operator and drifter are emotionally attached but in vastly, strikingly different ways, and it manifested very, very differently too.

in operator's case, it isn't that they dont *care*, but they know how durable a warframe is. they know they can take one hell of a hit, and they'll be okay because that warframe takes the brunt of it (albeit with some phantom pain if the damage is bad enough). theyre less comfortable outside the confines of those large, bulky war machines because they know they're ultimately safe. those warframes can take hits. they cannot. the operator knows they were people, but they never met those people before the tragedy. besides... a lot of them really are just empty shells. they're hardly the people they once were, especially since they recreated those warframes from blueprints. don't get me wrong, they do remember the anguish of the originals - they were there, they lived it, and they still have empathy for them... but the operator knows the limits of every warframe like the back of their hand - they can maneuver however they want, they can take hits, they can run into armies and not be too afraid because they (as in the operator and the warframe this time) be fine. even if the warframe is damaged, they can fix the damage, so no harm done.

but drifter on the other hand? at first i think they never really realised the power they had. in their mind they were still them, just running, rolling on the occasion, it took them ages to maneuver those things *properly*, and probably only ever really learned with the operator's guidance. they would not let a warframe take a hit, not because they felt empathy for it (at least not a lot, last i checked you kind of need at least *some* to have effective transference?) but because they were so used to walking around vulnerable. yknow, not inside a killing machine. but what would've really solidified the difference was after they went to 1999. sure, hearing that these things used to be people is one thing, but at the end of the day, to drifter, they're still just machines. drifter never got to experience what the tenno did, they never had to deal with reaching into their freshly scarred minds to ease their anger, sorrow, fear, rein them in like the terrified animals they were turning into and hush their cries with understanding - they only knew the dead inside remnants... but it's an entirely other thing when you go to the past and see the people who were hurt. you meet them and you get to know them, become their best friends - maybe even date one of them - and it hit drifter like a fuckin' freight train. they have this entirely different view on warframes from that cold perspective they had at first. they weren't just war machines. those are people. every time they go into the head of those machines, they're looking through the eyes of *people.* people who had families and desires and hobbies, things they looked forward to, entire futures ahead of them that were snuffed out. people who were scared, people who didn't know what was happening. people who knew what was happening, who lived in fear knowing they weren't able to stop it... people who lived in fear of losing themselves. and i think it hit drifter a lot harder than they'd ever admit.

but thats not to say one of them is more attached than the other - both of them care deeply about their warframes. it's just that, they have different ways of looking at them. after all their experiences were so vastly different, it'd be impossible to look at them the same way.

(too lazy to type it out all over, but i have an example in the tags i think kinda helps pull it together more)

[tj-crochets]

So the company I work for is in the middle of switching to new software, and I have somehow become like the #1 go-to person when *anyone* has issues with the new system for every department but sales and IT. This means I am noticeably slowing down on my work, so today I had a meeting to train two other people (my boss and his second in command) in doing a report I had been doing every day, which got a lot more labor intensive in the new system because I am very much not a tech person and I was able to brute force some filters into working to get the data I need for the report, but not able to refine it so it just shows me the numbers by day instead of a long list of data I have to manually count for 64 different fields every day I showed them how I do this report, and it's really very simple, but the second in command guy was horrified, like you count this by hand??? every day???? and then he saw another column on the report and was like "why don't we just work off of that data" and I had to tell him it's because [people with my job title] are mostly not actually entering the start and end dates, they are leaving it to the paperwork department* to add when we get the "job completed" paperwork. It was very funny because my boss was nodding like yeah, unfortunately we cannot make this department know how to do their jobs correctly, and the second in command (who is new) was so baffled at the idea that a bunch of people in a department just...wouldn't fill out the data So yeah anyway that's why I haven't been crafting as much lately, this software switch has stressed me out a lot *I have my main job title (kinda industry-specific, won't mention it here) but I am also the only person with that job in my company that is also in the paperwork department. The paperwork department is me and one other person, who I am responsible for training, supervising, and correcting their work, so like I am basically the head of the department except if I was I'd have to go to meetings (and also they'd probably have to pay me more) so I am not

[cantheykillmacbeth]

((Can-They-Kill-Macbeth-themed murder mystery party where the victim is Macbeth and you have to narrow down which of the guests feasibly could kill him under the "no man of woman born" prophecy as well as find out who smuggled a piece of Birnam wood into the venue. My brain is huge))

[problematicsashawaybright]

I always think about how minus the people close to Anne and parts of the government, the rest of the world thinks that the s3 frogvasion was a hoax or a movie stunt gone wrong. Not only have the trio been through something no one else on earth can comprehend, but if they try to talk about it to even a therapist, they're more likely to be labeled as delusional or in psychosis.

[emilydorp]

Something that always breaks my heart is how Seunghyun‌ really struggled to accept his own identity. That’s what led to those long depressions and made him keep his distance from Jiyong… he just couldn’t accept his real self. Was scrolling through old blogs and found these two interviews. One from around 2011,( you can tell by his blonde hair and haircut), where he says he’s still going through an identity crisis. Then the next year, 2012, during the Fantastic Baby era, there’s this interview where he says: “Last year, it was a hard year for me. Emotionally.” And if I’m not wrong, that was also when GTOP had emotionally broken up too. (Not totally sure about the timeline tho.)

I just really hope he’s at peace with who he really is now.💔

a) Oh, the 2011 Secret Garden Parody remark was a joke. He was having an "identity crisis" about his sexuality since he had to kiss two boys (liar, you were already dating Ji).

b) The other interview, however, is pretty important. He also spoke about the weight of his persona, as well as how cautious, worried and perfectionist he was becoming, in either the same interview or an interview from about the same time. GTOP weren't emotionally broken up yet, we have some pretty good GTOP moments (but Tabi had been doing some VERY intense filming and had a lot of angsty thoughts and feelings within him, and by his own admission (in a different interview from a slightly different timeframe), he said that he shut a lot of people out because of this pent-up frustation from filming). I linked the interview where he spoke about this yesterday in the post where I tried to explain the Coup D'Etat-making era break-up.

In the same interview, he praises the GD&TOP album, so he probably wasn't emotionally done with Jiyong at all (and the fact that he says "something felt good" and in the past has spoken about his attachment to the GD&TOP album and how he put his heart into it... Yeh idk I feel like he was glad to have Ji with him).

c) It's okay, he turned out just fine. Here's an interview from 2022. He was on the edge of a depressive episode and/or was already having one ending 2012, so his words will ofc worry us all. But yeh, what you feel and say while you have depression isn't representative of what you truly feel about yourself, who you are and what you've achieved. You should read it, it's very positive (and gives me HOPE that we're gonna get an album like "After Hours", which is a clear STORYLINE, which is DOPE! Hopefully it's more positive tho). I explained more in tags fyi :D But in this interview he even said he’d say his younger self to “be more courageous”, which oddly warmed my heart. Cuz it takes acknowledgement and reflection of your actions to come to such a conclusion.

[halfricanloveyou]

“hey so we’re gonna need you to focus up and pay attention and not talk for 3 hours straight. and no you can’t look at your phone or ask brief questions or think out loud and 98% of what will be said won’t apply to you.”

“also i know you have adhd and that you said your adderall wore off but so do i. you just have to learn.”

do you seriously think i am capable of that. what if i blew you up with a cool wizard beam attack? what if the beam was purple.

[prismkat]

now that I really think about it, I think I have a certain thing for characters who had happy backstories before something irreversible happened to change that or taint those past memories, and then they find themselves incapable of letting go of their own past and continuing to chase the experiences they had or the people they knew for one reason or another, where it be reliving their past when they were happy or to gain closure…

wonder if this says anything about me as a person

[willowcrowned]

it really sucks so bad that u cannot even share fun facts on the internet w/o people pulling a "how could you NOT know this" like c'mon dawg. where is ur joy and whimsy. I just learned something cool and I wanted to share that moment with u. and instead of being cool about it u stepped on me like a bug. I hate it so bad I'm sorry u deal with it so much I really appreciated the snake post bc I also had the same feeling of befuddlement about it!! and I got to learn something new and cool bc I saw u post about it so thank u for sharing even when people are snotty in ur notes about it

I'm glad you enjoyed the snake post!! I did too, and so did most of the people that have seen it! normally I'm better at handling the small fraction of annoying people in the notes, this one just hit me in the achilles heel.

c'est la vie, etc. tumblr being tumblr. of course you can't go on here and make a post about being surprised your glass fell off the counter without people in the notes assuming you don't know how gravity works

[monards]

sometimes the hater agenda gets to me. and i need to reason myself away from it

[brinnanza]

yesterday at work, one of the older kids (ish; five) saw my water bottle (it's like 64 oz I'm a thirsty bitch) on the counter, and said, "is that your big water bottle?" and I was like yeah so he was like "why is it so big' and I said "well I'm a big boy I need a big bottle" and he said "you're not a boy you're a girl!!" because while I'm out with the adults I don't tell every kid my pronouns yknow most of em don't even really speak yet. my coworker refers to me as them in front of the kids but like they're kids, right? and if you've got no context for my whole thing or gender Stuff in general, sure I look like a girl and that's not a like, offensive guess, ykwim?

anyway, I said, "that's just your opinion, man," and turned to help another kid. it did not come up again.

[witchzvamp]

the trainee reminds me of a boss and a babe and yes it's because every ep has me thinking where the fuck is the hr department in this fucking company?

[blindhades]

i love knowing about other people's business so please tell me in the tags: what's something that lives in your mind rent-free?

[skecherss]

I saw in your tags that you are watching/have watched (and presumably enjoyed) Leverage. I also am watching Leverage right now and I really like it. Elliot is my favourite character.

You don't have to respond or anything. I'm just totally normal about Elliot.

Thanks. Bye.

dude i'm in so deep that i accidentally indoctrinated my 5-year-old nephew into the ways of Leverage. He prefers watching Parker, though. Makes a really big show of getting super exasperated every time Eliot shows up, like, "ohhhh there's your FAVORITE. he's going to beat everyone up i guess :/ that's what he does :/"

[weeberry-v1b3z]

The Lord of the Flies test was something…

-Based on a real question

T or O: Both of Piggy’s parents are both dead.

V1B3z: True, wait-checks the book- fuck no false. ONLY HE’S DAD-

-

It went like that for.. like atleast 5 questions where it says something that DID happen in the book but that DIDNT happen in the same question..

I have to wait for Tuesday to continue to the next half of the test 😔

[racke7]

Exam hit me with two concept that I've literally never heard of (or at least never been explained to me).

"semantic html" -> the <> with things like "img" and other clearly-defined content to them.

"dependency injection" -> a method that receives objects, instead of creating them from scratch (aka, literally how all of our programming is done).

Thankfully, they only amount to 15% of the exam-result, so hopefully I'll still pass?