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The Anomaly Series, Chapter 3: The Quest (Jod Na Nawood x Reader)
A/N: ...Yes, this story is now, OFFICIALLY, canon divergent. Ya know, because I don't condone/endorse violence against children, and any other disclaimers I need to put here.
Also, there are three literal episodes left, so pardon me if I'm still holding out for Jod and Neel eventually twinning in their clothing choices in canon. 'Nuff said.
Chapter Title: The Quest
Genre: Drama/Romance; Slow Burn; Obvious Canon Divergence.
Word Count: 1,698 words
AO3: Click Here!
Special Notes: As I'm not yet sure how I even begin to breach the topic of child abuse here...let's just do the safe thing and label this as 'Spoilers up to Episode 4'. Thank you.
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@tarboo13 and anybody else who wonders what romance would look like for this hot mess of a man. :D
Iâm a person who needs your helpâŠ
As of ten seconds ago, every other thought that had once been safe inside your mind feels as though theyâve all flown away, and so not left much else behind them save for one of the few thoughts that remains.
Youâre officially involved.
Thereâs no other way around it now, because youâre feeling it too deep in your consciousness to turn back. Youâre involved in this strangerâs case, and itâs going to take nothing less than a little Reclamation of your own to knock you off this path, andâdespite all of your previous attempts to calm down, thereâs some of the old adrenaline starting to course back into your body.
My help� What kind of help do you need?
This rush makes you just a tiny bit lightheaded as you wait for Jackâs response, not knowing if heâs about to try and sweet-talk you into arranging a jailbreak or not. That was THE one thing that the Reclamation Committee had been worried about, and so, even if he let loose with a mountain of âSweetheartsâ, odds already were that you would have to turn him down due to your ingrained obedience to the Law.
The same Law that, unfortunately, has spirited him out of your reach and out of your sight.
Something that I doubt my jailers want anything to do with.
And why is that?
Theyâre the ones who just robbed me.
Not that youâll necessarily have to, maybe, because he hasnât brought it up yetâŠbut then again, he could always try to trick you up by slipping some kind of missing key or lockpick into the mix. Judging by how the security droids were more than happy to keep their weapons trained upon him, anything is possible here.
Iâm sorry.
No need to apologize to me, sweetheart. Youâre not the one who did this.
But I am the one you want to help fix it...right?
That depends. How good are you at finding lost things?
Thatâs one thought you have to keep fresh and safe inside your mind no matter what, along with eventually refusing him in that sense if it should happen.
In the meantime, though, youâre adding a second page to this new file of yours, as you have a slight feeling that you might certainly need it later.
WellâŠI once found my best friendâs missing keychain back in school.
That must have been a while ago, though. What about recently?
That depends on where youâre going with this. Whatâs so important that you need my assistance?
Fine. They took all my belongings away before they locked me up. Happy now?
Another thought that youâre unfortunately blessed with, though, is the image of Crimson Jack being attacked by two prison droids. The first never thinks twice about administering a few short electric shocks; the second strips him clean of any and all weapons or tools; and then finally, both of them turn and tilt their heads to each other in a gesture of smug triumph.
More like slightly flustered, but thank youâ
ââFlusteredâ?
Itâs what happens when a personâs annoyed, confused, or both. Continue.
All rightâŠ
This is one thought you donât want to fixate on too strongly, because you already have a feeling that you might end up worrying yourself sick if you donât pull yourself together first. No, itâll be better for the both of you if you have work like this to focus on instead, and for this reason, you add a third page.
âŠFirst item, a blaster pistol of my own making, about twenty-five years old with a slim wooden handle. Second itemâ
âWait, whatâs a blaster?
Youâve never seen a blaster before?
Iâve never seen a war before. Care to describe it?
Thereâs a small pause between writing, almost as though heâs stopping to think or else let out a sigh of frustrationâthen your next set of directions comes.
All right, look. I donât want to take all day, and Iâm guessing you have plans, so letâs keep it simple. Put your hand flat out in front of you.
As for you, youâre left raising both eyebrows before doing as youâre asked, though not without feeling just a little bit silly.
Now, take the last two fingers on whatever hand youâve picked, and curl them in towards you.
Another curious direction, to be sureâŠyet you obey that one as well.
And finally, once youâre ready, raise your remaining three fingers up and act like youâre shooting the wall.
Once youâve fully caught on to this particular mental image, however, thatâs when you almost drop your writing equipment out of shock.
âŠHeck.
Nasty thing, isnât it?
Wow, you think?!
Try spending twenty years with one of those aimed at you, and youâll get what war is.
Whatever you say, CJâŠ
You let out an annoyed huff of your own before adding a fourth page to your document, somewhat feeling as though you might cut this conversation off if it gets tooâwell, wild. As someone who still knows precious little about the one youâre writing to, you certainly count this idea as a possibility.
âŠAny other weapons I need to know about?
âCJâ?
Those are your initials, silly. Think of it like a nickname if thatâs easier.
HmâŠ
Another small pause. He seems to be taking his time figuring out what to make of you as well, or so the slow pacing of this âmeetingâ suggests to you.
âŠAnyways. As I was saying, second item, fairly unused Lightsaber as I prefer the blaster.
I suppose that's like a knife?
If you want to make comparisons, yes. It's got a thin, metallic hilt and so far, it's powered by a green colored stone somewhere in there.
Right...thin hilt, green stone. What else?
Brown jacket with gray stripes on the sleeves and collar. Thatâs the third item Iâm missing.
And the fourth?
Itâs sewn inside the third. In fact, if you have a chance, Iâd prefer to recover both of them before we find the others.
So itâs all a big mystery for you to solve, then. Some off-the-wall version of the Great Party Icebreaker to endear you to The New Guy In The Office, provided as always that you donât end up contracting Foot-In-Your-Mouth Disease.
Ah, well...your nights at home, totally alone, were getting a little boring anyway.
Very good...so youâre in a holding cell right now, I assume?
Obviously.
What are you being charged with?
A fifth page. Gods, this fileâs getting a little big, or so youâre all too happy to tell yourself as nobody else can see the awkward look on your face right now.
Nobodyâs bothered to tell me.
Have you been provided any legal counsel?
Whatâs that?
And yet, as awkward as all of this feels, youâve definitely got your work cut out for you. Work that involves making sure that any possible trial moves forward without a hitch, because with a suspect as high-profile as this one, thereâs no way anybody will want to risk the case being thrown out.
A pity they donât make Lawyer Droids for this exact purpose.
Nevertheless, with the three words âMUST. FIND. LEGAL COUNSEL.â written on the imaginary wall in your mind, youâre still pushing yourself onward just a bit further, as youâre more or less feeling that youâre too far in to turn back now.
Okay...just a few more things before we wrap things up here.
Go on.
Firstly...why me? Andâand what was it that happened out there on the landing pad?
A third pause. Heâs either taking his time finding the right words to answer you with, or else to cook up a pretty plausible lie with which to keep you occupied. Strange how the one seems so much like the other, at least at this moment in time.
I...donât really know for sure.
âDonât knowâ? You donât know if you have some special talent, or you donât know why your special talent reacted the way it did?
Both. Neither. Itâs as crazy to me as it is to you.
FineâŠ
Youâll be sure to find out whatâs really taking place here, though, if thereâs any way to get in touch with the peopleâor droidsâwho took him into custody. You might also try poking around the local library later this week, if thereâs any chance at all that there might be some hint of your new life situation to read up on.
As for how the little crew he traveled with might figure into this, a fact that youâre far too keen to forget about even as you add a sixth page to this fileâ
And the last thing you wanted to ask me?
SimpleâŠdo your traveling companions know where you are?
âYouâre working on it. Maybe youâll have to get parental consent before questioning them. Maybe theyâll instead show up on your doorstep one day, hands full of dataries and voices full of pleading, totally ready to cooperate and compensate you for your time in one go. Either way, theyâre witnesses.
When it comes to whether or not Crimson Jack himself will help his case or harm it, well...that concept just isnât as clear. In fact, he very nearly confuses you with no pauses, awkward silences, or hesitations of any kind.
Just a slowly written No, almost as though just thinking about this part is too painful.
As for you, you can still remember how scared those kids were at the mere thought of him being harmed by the security droids...so itâs more than just a little bit understandable. Whatever else happened up there, whatever blaster fights, lightsaber duels, or anything else that this group saw...they must have had some time to bond.
But youâd like to see them, right?
YES.
Good. I wonât waste any time if I can help it, but I will need you to give me something in return first.
And that is�
Your true name.
And if you have any grasp upon this strangerâs character, which you hope very much that you doâthat bond just might be the key to saving old Crimson Jackâs life.
TO BE CONTINUED
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#astarion#fuck not again#bg3#literally how was i supposed to find out about this man and not fall in love??#to me he gives off opposite asra vibes#thats....probably part of it....#also if they existed together theyd either despise each other on sight or be gosip buddies. tell me im wrong.#astarion brainrot#astarion bg3#the audacity of larian studios targeting me directly by making him smh#yall have no idea how hard im fighting the temptation to start posting on ao3 again just to write about him#i have a problem. and it has white hair and fangs#i did not!! need!! a new!! hyperfixation!!!!#gdi i have to write abt him now or my mind will never know peace#......i am not normal about the vampire elf...#*comes onto my semi abandoned blog to scream about astarion and then leaves*
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Midnight Hour
With the warm haze of sleep fading from you, your brow furrows as your right hand presses lightly against his lower abdomen, your thumb sweeping up and down in a small attempt at a comforting motion. You quietly call for his attention, voice still thick with sleep.
âStar? Is everything okay?â
His typically silent breath suddenly hitches, and his head angles down to face you. Now that heâs turned toward the light, you catch the way his eyes shine, and the way the light reflects off of what you quickly realize are tear tracks, running down his cheeks.
You awake in the middle of the night to find your lover in tears.
Pairing: Astarion x Reader
Word Count: 3,139
Content Warnings: [crying (obviously)] [non-specific mentions of Astarion's past trauma] [this fic was written by someone who hasn't actually played the game and that might show in the details/the lack thereof]
Blinking your tired eyes open, you squint at the light of the crackling fire in front of you. Closing them again, you let out a soft sigh as you try to guess at the current time. Given that you woke on your own, youâre assuming itâs likely close to, but not quite, time for you to take over tonightâs watch shift.
Your group has fallen into a routine where you pair off into teams of two, and a different team keeps watch each night. Tonightâs turn belongs to you and Astarion, and heâs taken the first half of the shift as usual. You usually, ironically, sleep your best on the nights that he keeps watch, in spite of only getting half the amount of sleep as you do on the nights another team has the job.
You suppose you can credit the fact that, at the end of the day, Astarion is a creature of the night. Something about knowing he has the upper hand when it comes to any unwanted nighttime visitors your group may encounter is⊠reassuring. To you, as well as to the others in the group, loathe as some of them may be to admit it. That is, once they all felt confident in his promises to not make a surprise midnight snack of them, at least.
Tonight is a bit of an exception, though, and youâre not quite sure what woke you early this time. You typically sleep soundly until he gently coaxes you awake, nails combing through your hair, voice soft and apologetic in your ear. Heâs always somewhat reluctant to wake you, but he does so nonetheless, having learned his lesson after the first time he made the executive decision to let you sleep the whole night through. His arguments of âYou really looked like you could use the rest.â and âWhatâs one sleepless night? I can sleep when Iâm dead.â didnât hold much water in the face of the way he dragged ass through the entire next day.
In âthe spirit of fairnessâ and âproving that he can stick to an agreement,â he never tried to take the whole shift by himself again. It definitely didnât have anything to do with how guilty he felt when he heard the disappointment in your tone when you awoke that first morning and discovered he hadnât stuck to the plan. Definitely.
Laying there in the quiet, you try and fail to pinpoint what feels different about tonight. You donât hear any strange noises, nothing feels unusual, and blinking your eyes open again you raise your head a bit to look around the fire. The rest of the group are circled around the other sides of the heat source, sleeping soundly. You figure that youâre probably just getting used to this routine by now, and your body simply woke up around your usual shift change time on its own.
Still, that doesnât explain the vague, unplaceable feeling that something is just⊠off.
You let out a sigh that turns into a yawn as you stretch and roll away from the fire onto your back. Letting your head roll further to the left, your eyes land on the familiar sight of your loverâs back as he sits in his usual position beside you, diligently watching your six.
Heâs taken to placing his bedroll right next to yours, insisting that you lie between the fire and himself. You couldnât really argue with his point that he canât feel the cold anyways, so thereâs no need for him to be the one next to the fire. Nor could you argue with the benefits of having him as a line of defense between you and whatever lurks beyond the reach of the firelight.
The feeling of security and protection that he provides you with is still relatively foreign to you, and a soft smile blooms on your face at the warm feeling it brings. Your smile then falls a bit as you remember the silent question you ask yourself on the regular, of whether or not you provide him with the same.
You roll the rest of the way to your left, and shuffle further toward him, closing what remains of the small gap heâd placed between the two of you. Lying halfway on your bedroll and halfway on his, you curl your body around his seated form, bringing your right arm up and gently placing a hand on the right side of his waist. He flinches slightly, and if this were earlier on in your relationship, youâd retract your hand. Heâs long since informed you though that his reaction to unexpected touch is simply involuntary, and as long as itâs you, youâve no need to pull away.
You recall the quiet, restrained desperation in his voice when he first explained it to you, all but begging you not to pull away. He canât control the way his body reacts to touch, given that before you, he couldnât recall the last time being touched meant anything other than pain. In spite of that though, he wants it. He wants you. Thatâs obvious in the way that he, without fail, immediately relaxes under your gentle touch once his mind and body process that itâs coming from you. The way heâs come to not only relax, but to lean into it. Lean into you.
Youâd never push past his boundaries, never in a million years, but heâs made it quite clear after about a thousand of your quiet requests for consent at every minor touch, that heâs entirely welcoming of your non-sexual physical affections. Getting the man to verbally admit that he actually enjoys cuddling with you, without the truth being concealed beneath a heavy layer of playful banter and practiced, honeyed words didnât come easy, but he came around to it in his own time.
So, you donât pull back, instead following through with the motion and slowly snaking your arm around his waist. You press your front against his lower back and curl around to rest your left cheek atop his left thigh. You canât help but notice that he doesnât relax into you in the way he usually does, and your head turns to the right a bit, struggling to get a half-decent look at his face as youâre both turned away from the fire light.
He remains tense, still, and unresponsive to your movements, gaze seemingly locked dead ahead of him, staring out into the dark forest.
With the warm haze of sleep fading from you, your brow furrows as your right hand presses lightly against his lower abdomen, your thumb sweeping up and down in a small attempt at a comforting motion. You quietly call for his attention, voice still thick with sleep.
âStar? Is everything okay?â
His typically silent breath suddenly hitches, and his head angles down to face you. Now that heâs turned toward the light, you catch the way his eyes shine, and the way the light reflects off of what you quickly realize are tear tracks, running down his cheeks. Heâs actively crying, tears dripping from his chin, and now with his head tilted down at you they take a different path, running down to converge and fall from the tip of his nose.
You nearly bolt upright in your shock, quickly unwrapping yourself from him and clambering around on all fours until youâre sat down in front of him, your hands gripping tightly to your upper thighs in worry. His wide-eyed gaze followed your every movement, and even now that youâre sat still in front of him, his eyes still dart around, frantically scanning you, for what, you donât know.
âWhat- whatâs going on?â
You keep your voice as quiet as you reasonably can in spite of your shock and concern, not eager to wake your companions and have everyone witness⊠whatever this is.
He doesnât respond, looking just about as lost as you feel, shaking his head in silence as more tears fall. Itâs one hell of a sight, and it suddenly hits you that this is the first time youâve ever seen him cry.
Unsure of what to do and what even caused this, you resist the urge to wrap him in a hug, not wanting to overstep in this unfamiliar territory. Instead, you glance back over your shoulder and once again see and hear nothing of note before trying another question.
âIs there a threat? Did you see something that scared you, honey?â
He takes a long moment to answer, seeming unsure, before eventually settling on another shake of his head. His lack of confidence in his answer isnât the most reassuring thing at the moment, but given that you arenât detecting any danger either, you decide to believe that he really didnât see any threat. At least, not here. Not right now, in the present moment, in front of him. He seems about halfway here and halfway gone, and if your growing suspicions are correct, heâs probably been sat here lost in the dark corners of his mind for a while now, given the state heâs in.
You catch movement to Astarionâs right side and watch as Karlach raises up from her prior position sprawled out face-down on her bedroll, propping herself up with her forearms beneath her. Her expression of concern is too aware and her eyes are too awake for her to have just now woken up, and you quickly gather that sheâs probably been awake and laying there long enough to have heard your questions and Astarionâs lack of any verbal response. She doesnât say anything though, and doesnât move, just letting the situation unfold and keeping a watchful eye on the darkness behind you.
Relaxing slightly at the knowledge that someone else is awake and helping to keep watch now, your focus shifts back to Astarion, whoâs gaze has moved to his lap, tears still falling fast. Itâs almost unsettling, the way he cries. Thereâs no sound, no movement, his breathing is hardly even affected, nothing more than the occasional shaky breath to give away any sign of struggle at all. You donât have to guess why itâs like this, given what heâs told you about his past. Youâre sadly certain that he learned to cry like this ages ago. Silent and still, sat alone in the dark so no one would notice.
You donât want to think about the sorts of punishments heâs endured as a result of showing such pain and emotion, but your mind pulls from what experiences heâs shared and offers up a few anyways, making you begin to feel sick.
Leaning down and trying to catch his gaze, you ask another question.
âAstarion, are you with me right now?â
He blinks, more tears spill, and his lips finally part as he responds to you with a strained whisper.
âIâm trying to beâŠâ
You smile in spite of your current emotions and the general mood of the situation, doing your best to be something positive, something gentle, something safe for him to focus on.
âThere you areâŠâ
You say it to yourself as much as to him, relieved to finally hear his voice, as laced with pain as it sounds. You hold out your hand near where his lie balled into fists in his lap, offering him contact without forcing it on him.
âI want you to keep trying, okay? Do your best to come back into the present with me. You can take my hand, if youâd like?â
He stares down at your offered hand for a long moment before shakily unballing one of his fists. He hesitates, fingers trembling, before reaching out and placing his hand in yours. His skin is even colder than usual and slightly damp to the touch, and you couldnât be less put off, or give less of a fuck about the messy state of him right now, or ever, if youâre being honest. You just want to help him, however you can.
You curl your warm fingers around his palm, wanting to pull him into a hug so badly but restraining yourself, letting him call the shots.
âYouâre okay now, Star. Youâre safe right now, here with me. Weâre safe.â
Heâs quiet for another long moment as he shuts his eyes tight, taking in your words. His other fist unfurls, and his body trembles almost imperceptibly.
âI⊠Iâm sorry⊠Iâm sorryâŠâ
Your heart breaks.
âHoney, you have nothing to apologize for. Nothing at all, I promise you.â
He shakes his head in disagreement, his voice an insistent whisper.
âI shouldnât be doing this.â
Your shoulders drop from where theyâd been tensely held up, body slumping with a silent sigh as you watch him still try to hold this wall up between the two of you. Youâd made it past a number of his walls already, but this one⊠this one youâve yet to be granted access behind.
âItâs okay to cry, you know?â
Another shake of his head, this time with far more force behind it, almost vehement.
âNo.â
You soften your voice, insisting.
âYes. It is. You can cry now, Astarion. No oneâs gonna hurt you. No oneâs gonna judge you. I swear on my life, thatâs the truth.â
His breaths become more labored, uneven and shaking.
âYou arenât his anymore. The old rules donât apply. You can let it out, now. No one, and I mean no one, is going to punish you for it.â
His eyes pinch closed and his head shakes hard side to side, like heâs fighting his own mind, and his hand opens and closes like it wants to grab onto something. He then moves, wrapping his free hand around your arm and suddenly youâre being pulled toward him, desperately, insistently.
You follow the motion as he continues to tug at you, first leaning forward and propping yourself up with your other hand on the ground as he continues to pull you closer. You quickly gather what he wants as he lets go of your hand in favor of latching onto your other arm, pulling you upward, choking back tears all the while.
You raise up on your knees and his hands move once again to hook beneath your arms as you allow yourself to be pulled up onto his lap with physical strength you keep forgetting he possesses. Hooking your legs around his waist, you wrap your arms around his shoulders and pull him into you. His arms wrap tightly around your waist and he buries his face into the fabric of your shirt at the collar, muffling the soft sound of his crying which has now turned to full-blown sobs.
Heâs still shockingly quiet in spite of it all, and you imagine itâs a mixture of being unable to let go of whatâs ingrained into him, and not wanting to alert the entire camp to his current breakdown.
Your thumbs stroke up and down in place on his back, not wanting to let go of your hold on him but still wanting to give him some sort of comforting motion to focus on. Besides, you figure petting across the entire expanse of his scarred back might do the opposite of calming him down, so you refrain and keep your arms wrapped firmly around him. Turning your head down toward his, you whisper to him in between soft kisses to his temple.
âThatâs it, love. Let it out.â
âYouâre safe now, Astarion, I swear.â
âThereâs nothing wrong with this.â
âIâm so proud of you.â
âYou have every right to cry. No one ever shouldâve taken that away from you.â
He grips you even tighter as you shower him with painfully unfamiliar affection and acceptance, comfort unlike anything heâs ever felt before in his horribly long life. His forehead presses against your right shoulder as his crying slows, trying to ground himself and catch his breath. You make a point of holding him securely against you, breathing slow and deep to give him an example to follow.
You catch movement in your periphery and glance over at Karlach as she quietly sits up and makes a series of silent lip movements and hand gestures that you donât entirely grasp. You work them out to mean that sheâs gonna take over watch for the rest of the night, and you can rest with Astarion. You send her a grateful look and mouth a âthank you,â to which she waves you off with what you think you read as a silent âdonât mention itâ on her lips.
After a short while spent focused on slowing down his breath and bringing him fully out of his memories and back here with you, you whisper quiet words in his ear.
âYour work is done, Astarion. You can rest now.â
You mean it in both possible interpretations of the words, and he seems to understand that, his body finally relaxing against yours for the first time tonight.
âYou wanna lie down with me, love?â
He seems like he almost nods, but stops himself, whispering back in an exhausted voice, scratchy and thick from crying.
âSomeone has to keep watch.â
You hesitate to inform him that Karlach has already taken over that role for tonight, sure that heâd get no sleep at all if he knew sheâd witnessed this. You know youâre gonna be awake watching over him for the rest of the night anyways, so instead, you offer a compromise.
âI can hold you and keep watch at the same time, love. Just⊠let me sit and you can lay against me.â
He gives the suggestion a moment of thought before nodding his head, reluctantly loosening his hold on you. You maneuver the both of you carefully so as to avoid allowing his tired eyes to catch sight of your obviously awake companion sitting behind him.
It isnât much of a task considering his eyes are halfway closed already, his only remaining focus locked on you. You settle down at the head of his bedroll, guiding him to lie down and bringing his head to rest in the center of your lap.
Your hands take turns gently combing fingers through his white curls, and you feel his tense shoulders begin to relax at the feeling. You bring a thumb down and gently stroke over the lines creasing his brow, quietly encouraging him to release the tension he likely doesnât realize heâs holding. You watch him pull in a deep, albeit still slightly unsteady breath, and you can practically feel the relief that washes over him when he exhales.
Words arenât necessary between the two of you at this point, not in this moment, but you offer him a few anyways, hoping theyâll resonate in his tired mind as he slips into sleep.
âYouâre safe here, Star. Rest easy.â
A/N: Like I said in the CWs, I haven't played the game for myself (yet!) so I only know what I've seen in the hours of (mostly Astarion-focused) scenes I've watched on YT. As a result, this might have read a bit funny if I've gotten certain details wrong. For instance- I have no idea how resting at the camp actually goes, whether or not someone keeps watch all night, etc. Also I'm not sure if Astarion even needs to actually sleep or if he meditates/falls into a trance and just calls it sleep, but for the sake of simplicity, (and me being clueless,) when I say he falls into sleep just assume he's doing whatever he'd normally do to rest. On a different note- this little fic was inspired by a combination of two things. The lovely art and additional commentary on this post, by @velnna , and also by me listening to Midnight Hour by Sierra Eagleson on loop for like, an hour, and daydreaming up this specific scene before proceeding to write it out. It is a beautiful song that is now the title and theme-song for this fic, and I encourage you to go give it a listen if you haven't heard it already. Header Image Source: x
#astarion x reader#astarion#baldur's gate 3#baldurs gate 3#bg3#astarion bg3#bg3 astarion#astarion fic#astarion fanfic#my writing#man. this may be the quickest turnover/turnaround whateverthewordis on a fic that i've ever made happen#i usually sit on an idea and then a draft for ages before posting smthn. so given that it's only been a couple days#between the initial idea and the finished posted fic. wow. groundbreaking speeds for me#the power of hyperfixation (and love)#y'know. i've noticed a trend#why is it that nearly every time i write for a new character the first scenario i place them in involves crying#and having Reader hold/comfort them#i did it with Eddie i did it with Venti i'm doing it with Astarion. who's next. who's next in the Reverse Comfort lineup huh#idk why that's my go-to scenario it just is. maybe i do have a type. (characters that need to have a good cry in their beloved's arms)#or maybe perhaps it is i that needs the good cry and i am projecting. who knows. 'tis a mystery (it's both)#anyways i know this fic is a bit short but i just. had one little specific scene i wanted to write and that's it!#i do plan on making more for him though. i've already got another idea brewing in my brain#also sorry if 'honey' and 'love' aren't your go-to pet names. or if you wouldn't call him Star#my own style of speech heavily influences what i have Reader say in my fics and i can't help itttttt. everything i write is self-insert lma#*lmao (iâm on mobile rn iâm not retyping all of that just to add the last letter)#(yes iâm posting this from mobile cause i took a nap and overslept and missed the time i wanted to post this at. so now i am In A Rush#smthn smthn self imposed deadlines smthn smthn âi know the guy that made the rules and heâs a total pushoverâ anyways itâs fine. post draft
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I decided to hop on the Hatsune Miku train, so without further ado I present to you:
Ithacan Miku!
#did this in 4 hours straight#me when adhd#cornell#ithaca college#ithaca ny#ithaca#upstate ny#hatsune miku#hatsune fanart#haudenosaunee#iroquois#finger lakes#cayuga#ithaca new york#ithaca is gorges#idk whatâs going on with the hat you guys#is she a beekeeper#is she afraid of bugs#is she sensitive to the sun#no one knows but miku and god#I really need to get to bed now#I have covid and I need sleep#but yk#hyperfixation#I hope the internet enjoys this#I donât wholly understand this trend#may have done it wrong#apologies if so
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There's porn without plot and then there's the in-depth origin story of Bob Floyd discovering and developing his love of eating pussy.
#my new hyperfixation fic#eventually coming to a screen near you#bob pov is a new one for me#yes i did go on a two hour rant about how fics don't need sex to be good but the psyche behind sex is so FASCINATING
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Siffrin post loop recovery fic next >:) Iâm thinking this oneâll be a multi chap fic bc I have soooooo many ideas
#yâall wonât believe how many fic ideas I have rattling around in my skull#trigun did a lot for me and getting back into fic writing [gestures to the 11 fics Iâve written for it after years of not writing shit]#but isat has me conjuring ideas in the canon verse like CRAZY#I love having a new hyperfixation I needed this#in stars and time
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guys drop your FAVORITE fandom (or just one you like) in the comments below and I will look into it, trying to fuck with some new content and I dunno where to start
#đ„§ . . kris post <3#did osdd#did system#fandom#fandom things#fandoms#dsaf#dialtown#neurodivergent#hyperfixation#PLEASE GUYS#I NEED NEW FANDOMS TO FUCK WITH#IM RUNNING OUT OF THINGS TO FIXATE ON
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Could you draw Mr Johnson as a test subject? Like in that one fic? That man is in such a situation
Happy 12 years portal 2 and even longer portal 1! (belatedly)
#hehe test subject cave is fun#you know youve drawn too much art for a fandom when u dont need to pull up references fssfsgs#except i did pull one up to make sure chells bandages really are on her right wrist#because i usually forget to draw them#this birtgday art a few days late oops#i got a new hyperfixation atm so sorry everyone who's here for portal#we have been temporarily hijacked#portal#portal 2#wheatley#chell#glados#cave johnson#my art#cake#does that get its own tag?#it's basically a character
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*holds up Clay in my hands* this troll can and should hold so much trauma
#this is how i return#TO TELL YALL THAT IM IN TROLLS HELLLLLLLLL#those songs did not have to hit so hard that it gave me a new hyperfixation#those songs SLAYED đ€ș they COOKED đł and they DEVOUREDDDDD đŁđŁđŁ#my only request is more clay my boy needed a song that featured him more đ©#and john dory too#id like to hear him sing more considering hes eric andre đ#anyways#yeah#i have clay angst brewing up but i dont know how to expel it from my brain yet LMFAOOOO#of course i gotta learn to draw themmmm i wanna give them cute little tails#tho i might change up their heights đ€đ€ and have a headcanon about how troll ages work
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oct2path update . just hit the double whammy that was one of casttis chapters + one of thronés chapters. don't remember the numbers but it's probably an if u know u know type situation bc Ow that Hurt. anyway I'm currently on the temenos chapter that I'm pretty sure I've heard ppl talk about in a. similar vibe sort of way. and. not for the first time this game. i feel dread
#this game makes the first octopath look so tame its fucking wild . i should replay and keep a counter of how many ppl die on screen#and then make a counter of how many of those are important side characters .#i have a bad feeling that one is about to go up#ah. hm. yeah. there it is isnt it#yknow this game realllly doesnt pull any punches like ever. no one is safe ! anyway i hope to see temenos emotionally ruined#octotag#sorry abt the recent silence the hyperfixation has been catastrophic#no yeah this does hurt . a little bit#guide this individual..#i love the way they use game mechanics for storytelling#in a way that just. works. so so well . u wouldnt initially expect this sort of thing to bring an emotional response#intriguing for sure but not like . ow.#what he says before entering the secret door . ow ow ow#oh hes pissed . yay <3#AND THEN THE FLASHBACKS?? COME ON MAN#ive almost been up for 24 hours now . worth it#should probably end it there tho bv i do Not have it in me to do everyones final chapters.. and the side stories#how do u get more chapters for each tho i wonder.. i did the first of throné n temenos' but there isnt a new one for em yet..#and theres the extra stuff w partitio..#i need tlleave before i actually pass out#octopath traveler 2 spoilers
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i feel like iâve made tumblr user gregmarriage, my whole personality, but i honestly donât know who the hell i am otherwise
#god forbid if i ever did change my url i donât know what it would even be#i AM gregmarriage#iâm too attached bruh#like my succ hyperfixation ebbs and flows#itâs been like two (!!!) years nearly and itâs not fully faded away#like just when i think itâs dead itâs back with a vengeance#but like even if i ever lost the hyperfixation iâd still love her dearly#itâs just my brain wonât let go and itâs clinging on for dear life#and isnât open to the idea of something new#but maybe itâs time?#god actually sickens me to think about it#idk my biggest problem is i need a hyperfixation but half the time my brain wonât even let me engage with succ#so finding a new one that i can engage with is like next to impossible#my brain is mush#feed it to a baby#it would be more fucking useful#gwen rambles#gwenposting
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I need a massive sudden hyperfixation shock to happen again
#that era when i'd just got out of the onceler divorce of summer 2021. and then listened to everywhere at the end of time in october#and it was ruining my life and i couldn't sleep and there was nothing really good happening#like it wasn't Bad bc at least i wasn't depressed anymore like i was in the summer but it was still just dead. and i couldn't get#the last 6 minutes of eateot out of my head#and then. suddenly. got shot with the *blurry screenshot of stan and kyle as adults* beam#south park post covid trailer released. everyone who had ever been in that fandom was awakening from their graves#it was like 'future episode??' 'why have they got noses' 'what the fuckkkk' 'is anything real anymore?' etc#it was such big news that it instantly shocked me out of my existential crisis and reawakened that hyperfixation for the 9347384th time#and i vividly remember going on tumblr the morning after it aired and trying to avoid spoilers bc i hadn't watched it yet#but i accidentally saw a sentence something along the lines of 'kenny's a billionaire philanthropist now' and. ok i had to see a picture?#so i did and he looked like the epitome of a cool uncle#and then i was walking to uni that morning probably looking like i was crying or something bc like. kenny successful future#and the whole thing just brought my general mood up so much?? so by the time it was 2022 i was absolutely fine#and then 2022 was so good. up until like august and september#and things got a bit dangerous again like my mood was alright but the slightest thing could bring it down#and then my best friend/housemate got a girlfriend and it was that whole drama and her existence basically ruined my last year of uni#and since then i've become so bitter and cynical and all victimy and it's so annoying and i don't even realise i'm doing it#so now i only ever notice negative things happening and have done since like the end of 2022#and i just need one of my old hyperfixations to do something insane again. like sp post covid.#i need. idk victor hugo to come back to life and publish notre dame de paris 2. or something#or for pip to come back to south park. that would actually fix me forever tbh#or the golden ratio to announce they're touring the uk for free. okay no ykw that would fix me#orrrrrrrrr idk. secret history made into a film but it's actually good#anyway. the south park kids as adults with noses set off an entire like 8 months of Pure Optimism in 2022 and i need her back more than ever#ramble
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tbh.
#not art#jack quaid#yiu guys dont get it i need to just đ#id literally cry . if i woke up at 3 am and saw jack quaid in a cowboy hat#unrelated related note i am so excited for oppenheimer#because i have a genuine hyperfixation on the real oppenheimer#AND JACK QUAID#IS GOING TO BE IN IT#AS RICHARD FEYNAMN#guys#did yiu know#that richard feynman had a strong new york accent#qwhat if. jack quaid new york accent#Hmm. what then#im going to be no better than 2016-2018 hamilton stans#when oppenheimer comes out#because im just going to be drawing quaidâs feynman#i got so off track there#sorry#đđđđ
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Apart from Le Chevre obviously, who's your favourite? Faculty included đ
(when was this sent like 2 days ago lol someone help me already)
(btw.)
(I forgot what to say lol btw my air conditioning is not working so I'm a bit nuts rn lol ha đ)
Who told you I play favorites..I don't have favourites.. I like all the people I've met..
I mean..if I was forced I would go with Black Sheep but then again I can't because Black Sheep isn't Black Sheep anymore and Black Sheep is Carmen SanDiego now..
Then I could say Crackle, but Crackle's favourite is Black Sheep and Ehm..I don't like playing favourites.. didn't I already say that..
I don't play favorites with the faculty either..Though if I would have to pick it be Dr. Bellum.. most of the instructors don't really care about our needs and whatnot, just because we're adults doesn't mean we aren't teens..and from what I heard, teens have necessities.
Dr. Bellum did the same but at least she could relate to our pain in a way.. though I wonder how she knows what we go through everyday on the island and why..and she's very amusing outside of working hours for her..I could consider her telling Ms. Countess Cleo how some students should start dating amusing..?
Well ehm..that is it..I guess so.
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-p.s: Le ChĂšvre isn't my favourite either even with his role in my life, but that's mainly because I know him way more personally than others..so no, he's not either. :3
#carmen sandeigo 2019#carmen sandeigo netflix#btw.#cs el topo#cs le chevre#help#its like 80 degress in my house#isnt it kinda of he does have favorites though#btw new headcanon bellum was probably a student at vile she knows the pain#i wanna move to cananada so its cold and i can watch Total Drama Reboot legally#âwhy did you put that in the p.sâ because married couples have arguments#i need to see Jeantonio arguments#there was already conflict with Rajbow and that's what we call character development#Bowie: okay let's cheat we are so going to win this; Raj: ahem!!; Bowie: omg hi raj so not cheating rn not in the game or on you either#Jeantonio contlict when! ao3 do me better please.#wait why is there more total drama than cs#sorry guys this Rajbow hyperfixation just goes had its been 2 months already!!#yea
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Going to be thinking about "I put you on a train" "I got off" for the next 2-5 working days ughguhg
#wren rambles#endeavour#endeavour rewatch#endeavour morse#fred thursday#i remember the important parts#(read: whump)#but i forgot all the bits inbetween#endeavour 1x04#thursday being like 'i sent you safely out of the way so i could face the badguys without fear of losing you'#vs morse being like 'i care more about stopping you doing something stupid and bringing justice than visiting my dying father'#the LAYERS in those two short sentences ughugh#i appreciate that they don't Talk#i also DONT APPRECIATE IT#because UGH#repressed twentieth century stiff upper lip british men#but i appreciate that nto everything needs to be spelled out and sometimes you understand what is meant without being told#good writing that#new entry on my ongoing 'revisting every single hyperfixation i have ever had' era of being in my 20s apparently#part of me is tempted to see what inspector morse is like#if only to know what to expect in the latter seasons#cos i did NOT on my first watch and as a result Didnt Finish cos it made me SAD#but idk if i actually WANT to watch inspector morse#i feel like it will make me More Sad
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i need help y'all (the 3 people that still see my blog đ)
#i need to get off my ass and just post stuff on here again đ#imagine having anxiety over posting ON YOUR OWN TUMBLR (lame!! loser!!)#anyways i haven't succeeded in getting into any new ifs which is like...sad but i did finish beyond the mist#which was great đ#i just need my old hyperfixations to come back#so i can finally get the courage to post edits and fics and stuff#clown.txt
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