#i cry for sal

[yellowcarnationed]

i know man me too

(i love @mouldybrie's baby sally pictures they genuinely helped me get through the last week)

[tommykinard6]

Should I be eating and resting? Yes. Am I? No, so come join me for a dissertation on Tommy Kinard being lonely.

Edit to add a note since I saw a reblog about it: Tommy has no canonical age right now and Lou is 39, 40 later this year, so that is my basis for saying he’s 39.

Now when I say lonely, I don’t mean that he has no one whatsoever. I can picture him going for drinks with his team or having some Muay Thai buddies that he could call up if he really was inclined. Maybe an old army buddy or two.

But there’s something about Tommy that’s just achingly lonely, both when he was at the 118 and now at Harbor.

Tommy had a broken home, or some other kind of unstable childhood. Maybe his parents split, maybe he was mistreated, maybe he was in the system or was passed around family members. Maybe he was isolated as a child because he was a little overweight (I think Lou said something along those lines) and was bullied. I think Tommy didn’t really have any friends until high school, when puberty hit and maybe he started working out and probably joined the football team. I don’t know if anyone remembers what teenage boys are like, but I can imagine they were the same as they are today back in the 90s/early 00’s. Because around this time, Tommy might’ve started to realize that something was very different about him.

Now this isn’t a meta about how I think Tommy dealt with his sexuality (maybe I’ll do one of those later) but I think he never would’ve risked his football friends knowing even if he himself could acknowledge it, which I doubt. So he messed around, got in trouble with these guys, hung out with the bros, and pretended to be interested in girl talk.

Of course, eventually, his buddies all got girlfriends and he was always the odd one out again.

He didn’t do college. The army was his next step. And I feel like this might have been the first time in his life he wasn’t lonely. He’d learned to blend in by this point and he worked with some great people. But as he started making real friends for the first time, he also started losing them as the war tore them away.

Tommy left the army and joined the fire department. There was an aching hole where the camaraderie of the army had filled previously and with no education beyond a high school diploma, Tommy thought the fire department would replicate that. Not the police though. He’d had enough of guns.

(And ohhhh now so many ideas on his thoughts during the sniper)

But he ended up at the 118 and quickly realized that his team had maybe more of a DADT stance than the army. He realized that he had to put on an elaborate act to fool his fellow firefighters, who had more time on their hands and more prejudice they were willing to wield to pick apart his life. Tommy, who maybe had only just started to acknowledge he felt differently about guys with less panic than before, had no choice but to backslide. He acted and acted and crafted a person he wasn’t until the day that maybe he was. Sal was his closest buddy at the 118 and Tommy had no doubt that Sal would be one of the first to make his life hell. Gerrard seemed to look at Tommy as some sort of mentee. Boxed in by two notorious bigots, Tommy had never felt more claustrophobically alone.

Chim was the first one to reach out a hand of friendship, or at least the first one that didn’t come with caution tape, but he was also an “other” and Tommy, who was confused and afraid and had just had his captain call his bluff on his fake girlfriend, lashed out. Then he allowed Chim in and Chim wasn’t interested in being besties but he was a great drinking buddy and movie buddy and Tommy felt safest around him.

Then Hen came and Tommy watched her get the same treatment he was afraid of. Not that he had to worry about the racism, and he was aware of the privilege, but Hen didn’t exactly hide herself and he watched them bully his lesbian coworker. He let himself get pulled into it all and hated himself for it, but was too cowardly to break away from it. He wasn’t sure why Hen had forgiven him, but she became the only other person on shift he felt even a little safe around other than Howie. But then Chimney and Hen became best friends and Tommy fell to the wayside. They still included him, sure, but they were always a pair and there was something there that Tommy didn’t know but longed for. A closeness he’d never felt.

A best friend. A juvenile idea to him, but one he’d never truly had.

Then Gerrard was gone and Sal got transferred and the 118 moved forward under Captain Nash, but Tommy felt left behind, even in what was the most united A shift team yet. Because he was over 30 and was starting to be unable to ignore everything that he’d had to hide under Gerrard, as he no longer had a distraction from it.

He’d been a pilot in the army, so he transferred to Harbor. And Harbor was great. He wasn’t best buds with anyone (he was starting to think that was never in the cards for him) but his team didn’t carry the same baggage that the 118 had.

So Tommy started to come to terms with himself. He started to date for the first time and came out to his team. And he had several boyfriends, but most couldn’t handle the job or his baggage or the desperate need he had to be wanted. His most long term partner cheated and the one he fell hardest for couldn’t deal when Tommy was injured on the job. Even within his own relationships, he felt like he was destined to stand alone.

Tommy was 39 years old and alone, as always, when Chimney walked back into his life, dragging an adorable and also extremely hot blonde and a stoic brunette that radiated ex military in a way only ex military could know. And then Hen was there and they were trying to rescue their captain and his wife and they clearly loved each other fiercely and like family.

And as Tommy listened, flying through the remnants of a cat 5 hurricane, he thought to himself that he should’ve never left. Simply just never found himself if only that meant being part of the family the 118 was now. However, he knew deep down that he still would’ve been alone and on the outside.

And they rescued the survivors and Tommy thought that was it but then Eddie wanted to hang out. And they liked the same things and had similar experiences and Tommy couldn’t help the hope. Because the loneliness had grown stifling and now he could breathe a little. And then Evan, the cute blonde, wanted a tour of the hanger and he thought that maybe he was being hit on.

And then at the end of it all, Tommy was left realizing that he’d wedged himself between two best friends and that was what happened when he allowed himself to hope. So he went to Evan to apologize. He would get Evan and Eddie to talk to each other and then would fade into the background.

But then Evan was sweet and apologetic and told him that he was part of the 118 family simply by helping them. Tommy couldn’t help it. Here he was, at 39, with a little boy still waiting inside of him to be soothed. And Evan was hot and sweet and Tommy couldn’t help himself.

And he really liked Evan. Evan was adorable. But their first date didn’t go as planned and Tommy knew he was already whipped. So he removed himself before someone could get hurt. Evan deserved better and so did he, even if the loneliness was stifling again.

But then Evan texted him and looked at him with sparkling blue eyes over too sweet coffee and wanted him. Him. He wanted Tommy and to have something with Tommy and he wanted him to come to his sister’s wedding with him.

And Tommy looked at him and saw someone who could finally fill the ache he’d felt his whole life. He saw a man who he knew he wanted to take a chance with. All he had to do was jump.

And he did.

And it wasn’t solved, not immediately and never fully. Too many wounds were left gaping for too long to ever heal. But for the first time in his life, at 39, with the 118 surrounding him and Buck as the sunshine at his side, Tommy finally felt at peace.

[sweetbottletops]

"Ayaka is in Love with Hiroko!"

Live action drama

One of my all time favorite GLs is getting a live action drama. !!! [x]

Sal Jiang's "Ayaka is in Love with Hiroko!" 「彩香ちゃんは弘子先輩に恋してる」 Official Twitter

The mains they cast look so good. Them in the office. *screams into pillow*

[ravishingsstuff]

"Do i know you?"

"Nope just taking a walk with muffins"

I AM NOT OK.

[ohlookitsthearkhamknight]

Okay okay I know we talk about sal and tommy as a kiss dont tell type fling but what if it was more intimate

They have a bad shift and Tommy gets trapped in his own head and just. Shuts down. Doesnt talk, doesn’t laugh, doesn’t smile and everyone notices especially Sal.

Sal manages to get him away from everyone maybe in the showers, maybe in the empty captains office where no one but Sal usually goes because for christs sake someone has to do the paperwork around here and it might as well be him. Maybe it starts with a gentle talk Sal trying to get Tommy to let his so carefully built walls down. But Tommy needs touch. Hell he CRAVES touch. And what better way to take down a wall than brick by brick. Whether it be a few kisses or hurried handjobs or a slow fuck on the desk/underneath a shower head that hides tears too well, Sal gives tommy what he needs. Something to get out of his mind, someone to cling on to. Sal can be an asshole absolutely but he can care too. And Tommy will probably never know but he crawled into Sals heart and made a home there that aches a lot like heart ache when hes not around.

So when they go back upstairs and Chimney cracks a joke and for the first time that day Tommy smiles and Hen smiles because she knows. Maybe not everything but she sees what others don’t. Especially what tries to hide. And Sal breathes a sigh of relief. His team is okay. Tommy is okay. And hes okay.

[youloveamonsterlikeme]

can you adopt me I think you'd make a good dad

"...Wait, you really think so?"

[lyselkatz]

You wrote your name in invisible ink • But the scars they left, they were loud and clear • Weren't they? Weren't they?

And you're angry, and you should be, it's not fair

Who cares if one more light goes out • In the sky of a million stars? It flickers, flickers • Who cares when someone's time runs out •If a moment is all we are? Or quicker, quicker? • Who cares if one more light goes out?

Well, I do

Can I help you not to hurt anymore?

It must be so hard, in the mess you're always cleaning up • To believe in the ghost of unbroken love • But I promise you • The truth is that you're loved, so loved

You're loved, so loved

One More Light - Linkin Park

Silhouettes - Sleeping At Last

...☕?/commission

[stayatsam]

going to gush about my Rook for a moment here

i know im gonna have to play the same Rook twice because i can equally see him going for either Lucanis OR Davrin since he has a lot in common with both.

when i was building Sal Thorne as my Rook, i had his story laid out as having joined the Wardens after darkspawn wiped his village, during which he had temporarily become possessed by a demon linked to his hatred to save himself. while he's not possessed by the time the game starts he's still haunted by hatred in his memories, and it wears his face.

so getting to Lucanis being posessed by a demon of spite that wears HIS face i immediately switched my brain from Warden x Warden to him....

personality-wise though he's definitely most similar to Davrin in that nothing is more important to Sal than 1. Stopping blights so that no one has to experience what he did 2. Kill as many darkspawn as humanly possible before he dies, which hatred whispers to him every night. he's very much of the same mind in that they're both willing to sacrifice their bodies and minds to save people who won't even know they exist, and are straightforward in their approach, and willing to make the hard decisions

Sal's also completely detached himself from the rest of society, devoting himself entirely to the Wardens and his mission to protect the average person from an unending threat that he knows he won't and doesn't even want to be thanked for.

i know the game kind of establishes a warden Rook as your average 'rank-n-file warden' but i really like the idea of him being a Senior Warden, having been with the wardens for 15 years, since he joined at 18 and is roughly 32-33 in Veilguard.

ok that's all i have for now :)

[sleeping-at-sea]

FINSIHED OMORI FOR THE FIRST TIME.

OH MY GOD.

[ashlinxsloves]

I know all the Sally face stuff is taking over my tumblr page, it's a new hyperfixation lmao

Also, do yall like my new username :3?

[liamnottherose]

Listen, I may forget every single detail of every media I consume, HOWEVER, I JUST SPENT 4 HOURS STRAIGHT (I'm not kidding) MAKING A MAP OF HOW A PUZZLE IN SALLY FACE COULD BE PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE.

It's just a kind of maze but in first person. You have to go into some arches in the correct order to get to the final room. Did the creator create a physical map of this maze? I DON'T THINK SO, BECAUSE THE ARCHES DON'T MAKE FUCKING SENSE.

BUT AFTER FOUR FRICKING HOURS I HAVE MANAGED TO CREATE A POSSIBLE SOLUTION, maybe not a solution an architect would have chosen to do from scratch, BUT A PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE SOLUTION.

AND I PLAN TO, SOME DAY, MAKE THIS IN 3D TO SEE IF I'M FUCKING RIGHT OR JUST REALLY REALLY TIRED AFTER SQUEEZING MY BRAIN FOR 4 FUCKING HOURS TO DO THIS SHIT.

[atypicalsouda]

GAZE UPON MY FIRST EVER COMMISSION!!! I don’t have the right words this is so so precious to me and it’s gonna be my new banner 🥰🥰🥰🥰

Done by my friend @hippiecockatoo ���️

[pippafitzamobisleftblueconverse]

Who wants to see an edit of sal and ravi to the bridge of Marjorie?

[ohlookitsthearkhamknight]

Hot Summer Nights and Playing Pretend

Back when Tommy and Sal were together in a way as much they could be, Tommy found an old picture of a younger Sal. Sal told him to throw it away but Tommy kept it and put it on his dash where it could easily be flipped down. On hot summer nights when they hadn't seen each other for a while he would flip it up and stare at it and pretend they were something they would never be if only for a second.

This is @evansboyfriend 's fault fob is my weakness

Also yes this is a repost (promise its the last time) but the other one got marked mature when it wasnt so had to fix that

[official-trafficblr-bingo]

THE ONE EPISODE I DONT MAKE A BINGO BOARD FOR IS THE ONE EP MARTYN DOES LORE THIS FEELS LIKE COSMIC KARMA OR SOMETHING

I hope martyn sees this

I’ve been putting “martyn does lore” on the bingo boards since episode one

[justanechoflower]

*hugs flowey* im sure you'll have hands again soon. i promise

*The horrors have been defeated, but at what cost?*

M!A count:

7/15 - Petal assimilation