#i cried when it wouldnt erase

[solplease]

hi i just did my final, it was really bad

[seagull9111]

Family Line by Conan Gray being nico di angelo coded

a VERY necessary post, also @that-dam-heartstopper-fan and that one anon this is for u!! THIS IS NOT ALL THE LYRICS IN THE SONG

"My mother never cried a lot She took the punches, but she never fought"

- maria di angelo taking both verbal and physical abuse from the gods (zues) and presumably her family and friends.

"I say they're just the ones who gave me life But I truly am my parents' child"

- change that to 'parent' and thats nico deflecting rumors about him being a killer and a kidnapper because of his godly parentage.

"Told a million (lies) to survive"

- nico lying to mortals about himself. lying to hades about what he is doing. lying to his friends about how he is feeling.

"I watch the fathers with their little girls And wonder what I did to deserve this"

- nico, while homeless, seeing other happy familes with food, water, warmth. while he has to move around constantly

"How could you hurt a little kid? I can't forget, I can't forgive you 'Cause now I'm scared that everyone I love will leave me"

- 10 year old nico when bianca dies running into the labrinth for 'safety'. him struggling with trust issues only to be proven right once again when jason dies.

"I was a kid but I wasn't clueless (Someone who loves you wouldn't do this)"

- the people around him, jason, percy, chiron, hades, hazel(?) treating him like a fragile kid after all he had done for their respect

"All of my past, I tried to erase it But now I see, would I even change it?"

- nico realizing that as crappy as him life had been going, it made him into himself and he wouldnt have it any other way

"I can run, but I can't hide"

- after years of running and hiding from others, he finds that maybe it would be easier to stay, just this once.

based off this post, but i though about it too much and took it too far.

!!!ALSO GO LISTEN TO THE SONG IT SOO GOOD!!!!

[permetutotheworld]

my tears ricochet

requested by @yesiamprocrastinating

We gather here, we line up, weepin' in a sunlit room And if I'm on fire, you'll be made of ashes too <- reminiscent of how sirius always tried to take regulus’ punishments for him but they ended uo both getting hurt most of tje time Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe All the hell you gave me? <- regulus knows hed been shitty to sirius but did he really deserve to be erased from his life? To be replaced? 'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you 'Til my dying day <- to regulus, sirius will always be his big brother

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace <- he couldnt face telling everyine what he was going to do, a coward till tje end And you're the hero flying around, saving face <- sirius was always tje heroic one kot him And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake? Cursing my name, wishing I stayed <- regulus always thought sirius hated him, but jere he is at his makeshift grave crying and swearing and begging him to come back Look at how my tears ricochet

We gather stones, never knowing what they'll mean Some to throw, some to make a diamond ring You know I didn't want to have to haunt you But what a ghostly scene <- regulus never wanted to hurt sirius, it was just something tjat happened, somethung he could never aeem to fix You wear the same jewels that I gave you As you bury me <- sirius still wears regulus’ signet ring all these years later

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace 'Cause when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave <- sirius used to tell him he was brave when he cried, telling him he was proud even though he couldnt stand up to their parente And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake? <- but if sirius got tired of regulus and trying to protect him Cursing my name, wishing I stayed <- why does sirius blame himself for regulus’ death Look at how my tears ricochet

And I can go anywhere I want Anywhere I want, just not home <- because sirius is home, but he cant go to him, not anymkre And you can aim for my heart, go for blood But you would still miss me in your bones <- no matter hiw much sirius insists james is his brother, he will always nurse a small part of his heart that hold baby regulus And I still talk to you (when I'm screaming at the sky) <- his last words were ‘sirius’ as he strained to the surface of the water And when you can't sleep at night (you hear my stolen lullabies) <- when its quiet sirius can sometimes hear regulus playing tje piano in tje distance

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace And so the battleships will sink beneath the waves <- he didnt tell anyone of what he was doing, but he hopes he made a difference all the same You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same <- sirius had to bury regulus in his mind and it smothered a part of him he didnt realise he had Cursing my name, wishing I stayed You turned into your worst fears <- and now reggie is gone and sirius is angry and vengeful and all the things he swore je wouldnt be And you're tossing out blame, drunk on this pain <- he blames his parents he blames voldemort he blanes Kreacher he blames regulus he blames himself Crossing out the good years <- he forgets all tje laughter they had as children And you're cursing my name, wishing I stayed Look at how my tears ricochet <- and regulus is gone, but his pain is simply past along, to tje next of kin

[hitsuyou-fukaketsu]

I know the ask game is old but if you wanna do it again. Subaru or Mama?

WRAGHGGGH I SPENT SO MUCH TIME ON THIS. Tumblr kept erasing the post randomly instead of saving it for later and i got mad 😡😡😡😡 Doing subaru only!!! The important things you should know about my opinion on mama is that i love him dearly and blooming world is the song of all time but he makes me sob when he says his villainious things but he also can be so sweet and caring but he also is a bit... like yknow

So!

Subaru!!!!!!!

Fav thing about them:

Uncertainity. Who is Subaru? Does he understands what he says he doesn't understand? Is he pretending? How much of his happiness is real right now? He's a genius but how far his talents go? He is quite a mystery! Sometimes he says some unsettling things! I love an unsettling genki boy!!!

Least fav thing about them:

Humu, he can be unapolegetic at times, its a trait i certainly dislike, but he's so cute! I forgive him <3

Fav line:

I i know its fairly recent but . Listen god

The voice over was everything to meeeeeee like i interpreted this in the "subaru is angry at hokke for taking him lightly" BUT ITS. ITS THE OTHER WAY. HE IS SAD. HE IS HURT . GOD THIS IS EVERYTHING

Brotp:

Shinonon! I love it when shinonon gets to be the lil bro <333 cute

Otp:

Subahokke!!! But i also REALLY ENJOY subanatsu and subakoga 📈📈 also taking a liking to his ship with chiaki recently 🔥 i also find his interactions with midori rly funny!!

Yeah so to sum it up every tsunderesque boy

Notp:

Hummm with shinonon and eichi 🤔, i am not a fan of the idol x fan trope, its a trope i reallyyyyy dislike, and idk i just dont get eisuba ig??

Random headcanon:

He would heheheh in the middle of a kiss

Unpopular opinion:

Even though i dont want people to speak ill of him i think if he gets popular most enstarries wouldnt handle him well and become some ooc guy that people only know through fandom memes AND I THINK THATS WORSE!!! Im like so good rn me and the other 5 subaru stans

Song i associate with them:

I think i talked about how super trouper is sooo baru like so take another one!

I cant believe i just leaked subaru's second solo song!!!! 🤯🤯🤯🤯

Fav picture of them:

HonESTLYYYYYYYYYYY im sorry im such a graduation sucker but like (shakes you) cmon

I still remember the live so well i cried so hard i lost it 😭😭😭 i remember tomoaki maeno presenting it like "akehoshi.... iikaoshitena!!!" WRAGGGHGGGG i love how he said goodbye to ymnsk with a smile

I love how through hokke's pov they seem to hold hands but through subaru's pov they seem high fiving! POWERFUL SET OF CARDS REALLY

what a card i love it sm

Also onibi baru, nothing to add, this card slays, the unbloomed is a banger the story is amazing we love onibi baru

THATS ITTTTTTTTTTTTT THANKS FOR THE QUESTION CLOCKAS 🔥🔥🔥🔥💞💞💞💞💞

[walkyjake]

15 questions Ohmy Gosh

hi @intrasport​ thank you : ) i will indulge

Are you named after anyone? mera salamin epithet erased. heart emoji.

When was the last time you cried? letme look it up. ok june 13 is the most definite answer i havei dont think i actually have much since then. therapymade me get over thing i would cry about every other week so.

Do you have kids? 3 cats and 2 dogs

Do you use sarcasm a lot? yes actually well  i use varying forms of lying as humour   whenthe expression is dimorphous and whatnot but Sarcasm is also includedn yes. Lol.

What's the first thing you notice about people? the conscious/subconscious way in which the present themselves. how they structure their online accounts, types of things they put on their accts. Oh this is a very online oriented answer. this is hard to verbalize. How they present themself still counts. yes.

What's your eye colour? brown i kind of wish it was black eyes thatwould be awesome

Scary movie or happy ending? im not super interested in scary movies as far as thrill factor but disturbing or dark theme movies are good. otherwise um sure, happy endings. but “Good Endings” is better because somehting that ends sad and tragic can still be awesome.

Any special talents? my autism can take me places i wouldnt even go with a gun

Where were you born? florida swamp

What are your hobbies? drawing and writing and music and surviving.and most important. looking at images.

Have you got pets? refer to question 3

What sports do you/have you played? i used to play soccer from rly young to til i was like 13. i miss it

How tall are you? five two -_-

Favourite subject in school? history only bc i alwyas had awesome history teachers. otherwise i have to say elective of psychology... AP human geography was also fun even tho i hated that teacher.

Dream job? followking gizzard on tour for ever and ever

idont know who to tag. you can do this if you want bevcause you can do anything you put your mind to. Bye.

[okaydoll1301]

I really love the idea of some comfort after we went through something traumatic, because let's face it...a lot of us didn't get that.

For years now I've been dabbling with a couple of OC's that have all sorts of things they go through together as they grew up. There's something great about being able to be your authentic, beautiful, ugly self and still know they'll stay by your side.

Tbh I'm not sure what TW should go here. Maybe a bit of...implied SA, trauma

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Her screams were almost violent in nature as she pushed and pulled. Her movements were erratic, like a wild animal caught in a trap and willing to chew their own limb off.

"Hey, hey! You're not there anymore. It's going to be fine." He grabbed her shoulders and then pulled her close, tight enough that she could hardly fight him. Her sobs shook her body as she tried to talk, but it was all incoherent babbling. He cradled her head between his palms, trying to get a better look at her as she shut her eyes tight. "You're home, Cat. Look at me." His voice was soothing, as he surveyed her face. Her lip was busted. She had a bloody gash on her foreheard and the tips of his fingers could feel the blood that had dampened her hair on the back of her head.

She shook her head, and her fighting started all over again. She lashed out, nails like claws as she both grabbed for him and pushed away within seconds. "I don't want to go back. Gods. Please, please. She says it's my fault. Mine. But it's not safe. It's dirty. I'm a filthy-"

His hand covered her mouth before she could finish the sentence. He wouldnt let her say it. Never.

She turned almost feral when he covered her mouth and it's like she wasn't even with him anymore. Her hands pulled his hand away and she slapped him. He grit his teeth and swallowed, looking at her. Her gaze was glazed, seeing beyond him, to another time just hours ago.

"Kisa. Moy lovely kisa," He pulled her close anyways as she hit at him, yelling obscenities at someone that wasn't there. Someone he wished in this very moment would draw his last breath in front of him. He squeezed her tight, immobilizing her as she wailed.

He knew somehow he had to get rid of the despicable thing. He couldn't even call that thing…human, an ironic thought coming from him, but the thought was there nonetheless. But for tonight he'd worry about her. And somehow he knew he'd have to do this tomorrow night, and the night after, and after that.

Slowly her soul peircing cries stopped filling the empty glass house he was supposed to call home. All she did was sit in his lap, quiet, looking far too much like a rag doll for her comfort. He lifted her carefully, sliding an arm under her knees and another around her back. Her expression was blank now as he carried her to his bathroom and set her on the counter. WIth feather like touches he looked her over, afraid to spark another episode. She simply sat, not quite looking at anything as he used a wet rag to clean the blood from her face. There wasn't even a response to the pain when he dabbed the gash on her forehead.

For a moment he closed his own eyes, trying to gather his composure. But when she leaned forward and her head rested on his chest he ran his hand over her hair, only mindful of the other bloody bump she had on her head.

After a bit he decided he could risk bathing her and he ran a bath as she still sat frozen as a statue. Anything to wipe the filth off of her, anything to help wipe clean his touch from her skin. He couldn't erase it forever, but anything he could help with was good enough for now. His movements were careful, his eyes never leaving her form as he wiped her down. The water turned a palid pink just where the blood was cleaned away and quickly went down the drain. Relief hit him when he was able to pick her up again and dress her in one of his shirts. It fit her more like a dress, but he couldn't be bothered to enjoy that she was in his clothing. Not now.

He brushed his hand over her forehead, deciding that bandaging her anymore was a bad idea in her state. And taking her to a hospital was even worse. They'd want pictures and reports and explanations. He couldn't make her suffer through that again. "Sleep, kisa," His whispered words drew no reaction from her still as he brough the bed sheet over her body.

There was the softest rustle of fabric as her hand shot out. "Stay?"

HIs lips pursed before a soft smile spread on his features. He was happy to spend the entire night awake, ignore the world tomorrow, if he could bring her any relief and watch over her. No monsters would get to her again tonight.

[robotpussy]

i got into bam bam thanks to you mentioning them and im so glad that they are my introduction into grunge theyre so fucking good and i probably wouldnt have heard about them had i first listened to some other band (despite tina bell literally being like the mother of grunge 🙄) thanks so much for being the reason ik about them ❤❤❤

even though she is the mother grunge, I think most bands pre 1991 from the seattle "grunge" scene get very little mention anyway but I know Bam Bam and Tina Bell being left out is just people doing what they always do (erasing black women, ESPECIALLY with the history of rock music), and when women in grunge are brought up its always courtney love, kat from babes in toyland or L7 which like, fine, they were there when it was happening but leaving out the pioneer is so absurd

And im very certain many people don't even know who Bam Bam is, yet matt cameron who went on to be in soundgarden and pearl jam gets talked abt a lot more than tina but they always make sure to leave out that he was in Bam Bam and that kurt cobain was their roadie - the man they claim started it all (at least in terms of grunge going 'mainstream) - they would rather leave out that he was connected to the grunge band lead by a black woman 🙄

but yea theyre badass and amazingggg theyre one of my favourite bands from that genre really. i really want to write or make something about bam bam because its so annoying how that one band is left out of the grunge conversation, even Mudhoney and the Melvins get little mentions and everybody cries over how they get no recognition either

[temporalbystander]

Okay so... Not entirely sure what this little tidbit will be. Whether as a prologue to the postseason 5 fic that popped into my head or just background for... Whatever I continue from this... Actually no. New idea that just hit as I'm writing this. I've shown how Faybon is with Marinette and Adrien, how he supports LB and Chat the best he can, touched briefly on his interactions with Alya and Nino. I've also hinted at an uneasy alliance with Felix and I may have said a bit about his thoughts on Chloe. Under the cut? How he managed to deal with Bunnyx.

"Stay out of trouble." That's the last thing Bunnyx ever said to him, of course had Faybon known that would be the last time he'd ever see the time traveller? He may have been a bit kinder to her.

As it stood, all he could do was look around at the destruction Strike Back was causing in the city before turning to glare at the bunny peaking out from her burrow. "Would it have worked?" He had asked instead, holding down the anger that threatened to bubble over.

"Yes. But what it changed sent the timeline careening into disaster." Faybon had left it at that, it had been a long time since he cared enough to ask what damage his need to help caused. He just accepted the fact that future Bunnyx knew best and there was no point worrying otherwise, if he could have made a difference then she wouldnt be stopping him.

So Faybon went home, he ignored the giant sentimonsters as best as he could, shut his eyes and ears to the cries of the Miraculous team as they were being overwhelmed, and instead chose to keep the kids from hurting themselves taking too many big risks. Only when the marks on the back of everyones necks were erased by the magical ladybugs did he actually relax and consider that he should probably apologize to Bunnyx when he next saw her... Then came the announcement of the newly named Monarch.

Watching the swarm of butterflies mock the heroes for failing, the symbols of all the Miraculous surrounding the faux head like some kind of bizarre clock, it filled Faybon with equal parts rage and despair. Shards of ice digging into his heart as fire flooded his veins. This was the preferred outcome? This is what Bunnyx couldn't let him change? He couldn't believe it. Something had to have gone wrong.

Over the next few days he managed to piece together exactly what had happened, starting with learning that their classmate Alix was currently going on a vacation through time to keep Fluff away from Monarch. So, yes, this WAS what Bunnyx wanted to happen and now he had absolutely no way of telling her just how pissed he was at her. Well, other than holding onto it for the years to come that is which, while tempting, only opened him up to getting akumatised.

That just left the question of HOW Monarch got the other Miraculous and, while the lack of the peacock during his little monologue gave Faybon an idea, it wasn't until he heard Adrien talking about it to the rest of the class that he figured out just how deep Felix's betrayal went. Handing over the Miraculous was one thing, but under the guise of being Adrien and helping out Ladybug? Well... Faybon was amazed he hadn't been akumatised at all during that week. Most likely because it was when Monarch went silent for whatever reason.

He was tempted to go to London, kick down the door and beat the prick until he was as blue as Duusu's outfits. In his calmer moments he thought about visiting and proposing some kind of alliance, but the same thing stopped him from doing that as what prevented him from threatening grievous bodily harm on Adrien's lookalike. There was no chance he would manage it. Faybon was an average kid and Felix had a Miraculous and some serious martial arts training if his Wikipedia article was to be believed. Felix had outsmarted Ladybug, bargained with Monarch, and got away scot-free. Faybon wouldn't be able to touch him in a million years.

So that left Faybon with no idea on what to do next. Ever since the future Bunnyx had saved him from Egypt, coincidentally enough TimeTagger had sent him just a few years after Bunnyx had been trapped there with a broken watch, he'd more or less relief on her guidance. If he ever got the idea for some big morale boosting party, or ideas for the heroes to help with patrols and catching HawkMoth, she'd show up and either tell him to stop it or ask for popcorn so she could enjoy it. Maybe it was because he didn't really have a great relationship with present Alix, or because she was the one who brought him to the orphanage to begin with, but he did feel a connection with her at times. She was like the big sister he hadn't seen in years but still treated him like a child. Now that she was gone? He had lost the only person who knew what was going on just as much as he did.

Sure she preached secret identities as much as Ladybug did, and was quick to point out just how many times his actions forced her to actually do overtime trying to fix things. But she still let him into the burrow, sat him in a chair, and showed him some of the crazy scenarios that Marinette and Adrien made up to try and keep their secret. It took hours before he could stop laughing over how embarrassed Ladybug was catching Adrien in the shower. Sure it felt a bit surreal watching his friends like some kind of soap opera, but it was nice not having to be serious for once.

So, with all those thoughts weighing on his mind. As Akuma's got Miraculous powers granted by some strange ability that was like nothing he'd heard the kwamis mention before, as Nino had the beyond ridiculous idea to form a resistance and anger Gabriel? Faybon made his choice. He held up his hands, said no, and stepped back. The whole class was shocked obviously, out of everyone they thought he'd want to help Ladybug and Chat Noir the most and had a hard time accepting that he didn't.

It didn't take long for the heroes themselves to ask about it, wondering if he was okay or if they'd done something to upset him. He'd managed to get them to accept that, with Akumas being more powerful and only two heroes to combat them, the best way he could help was by keeping the emotional children of Tules orphanage as calm as possible. Something that took a lot of work on his best days but now had become so much harder.

They'd left it at that and Faybon had a moment to himself to think back on everything. "Stay out of trouble." She had said it with a laugh, like she knew it wouldn't happen and yet.... Surely she knew that was the last time they'd meet? Maybe ever since there was no guarantee that the Bunnyx who left his class would be the same one who went back to save him. If she'd go through those moments they'd shared or if it was something only he would remember. However it went he knew one thing for sure. Future Bunnyx, the adult version of his classmate Alix, had wanted him to stay safe. So that's what he'd do. He owed he that and so much more.

[keelee-doodles]

Chibi ml au!

Thank you @rumibug for suggesting that Jay be called Lightning Bug!! That is perfect! They also suggested Cole be called Mau, so it'll either be Black Mau, Mau Noir, or Mau Kem. Feel free to tell me which one you all like best, because I am honestly torn between all of them.

[uwumessenger]

random headcanons i have for each om! character teehee

hi it's been a while since ive posted some hcs bc uni has been kicking my a$$! luckily i only have a few papers to tidy up and im done. here r some hcs for each obey me character that ive accumulated over the past few months wink wonk

most are random but some constants you'll find are what i think they smell like, languages they can speak (other than their native (demon/angel) and eng/jp), and music tastes !

lucifer

i have a strong feeling that he showers twice a day: in the morning after waking up and at night before going to bed

his cologne is probably the type that will last in an elevator for like a week after he uses it once. i dont think this mf ever smells like anything other than his cologne

has a secret folder on his phone of semi-nudes and other scandalous pics from when he felt sexy at the time omg

aside from demon language/eng/jp he can speak french and knows latin

listens to classical stuff yea but he also listens to diavolos mixtapes (re: diavolo's section)

not a fan of sweets but will eat sweet things when craving

really bland sense of humor...borderline cringey 😭✋🏻

mammon

has gone to google images and searched for "inspirational quotes tumblr" "gold aesthetic tumblr" & "relatable crush post tumblr" then reposts it onto his socials or just taps thru them and giggles bc he relates

his cologne doesnt last as long as lucifers and probably smells common. he has to reapply a lot but it's a people pleasing smell. it's cheaper hence the constant reapplying

he probably does have an expensive bottle but is the type to totally overspray...eek

he is canonically a car guy 🥲 and probably tells the one in his room good morning & good night + kisses the hood every once in a while. has tons of car magazines

he doesnt really speak other languages but has attempted to learn spanish before

listens to whatever is on the radio. doesnt rly stan anyone but he eventually will listen to mc's playlist and mc's playlist ONLY

levi

lurks on mc's socials ALL THE TIMEEEE like he will rewatch ur stories and scroll thru ur feed and overanalyze ur tweets/rts or blog posts. if ur mc isnt the type to use sns much he still googles ur name all the damn time just to find any sites u might be on fjdjdjdjskks

probably streams on whatever youtube or twitch devildom site equivalent there is, but only has like 40 or so followers. which he is okay with!

until he sees someone else who gets more attention than him. then the envy starts kicking in bad. especially if they suck 🧍🏻‍♀️

classic gamer boy smell. you know, sweat, tears, must, and (sometimes) axe deodorant. lucifer has to do a scent check before he goes out to any event & lets him use his cologne. how sweet!

kpop stan!! more girl groups than anything and his ults are probably GIRLS GENERATION, wonder girls, twice, loona, & red velvet

cried when ioi disbanded and refused to leave his room. the only thing u could hear was downpour on loop at full blast

can also speak korean & communicate in echolocation like dolphins 😏

satan

listens to country music you cant change my mind

smells like whatever environment he is in. he doesnt really have a designated smell just throws some deodorant on and goes about his day.

he's sooooo bad at driving...gets road rage way too often so his license has been REVOKED

but hes totally a backseat driver. needs to be sedated on long trips

do not let him watch finding nemo when luke asks to watch it. it's not worth it. he will cause mass destruction.

if he was a human or lived long term in the human world he totally has the ability to be a doctor

is studying as many languages as possible, but he mostly knows latin & french & german etc etc. wants to learn all the dead languages out of curiousity

asmo

dont think this mf has ever held down a relationship. ever

he doesnt compromise much & is not willing to change his lifestyle to fit an s/o into it. you keep up with how he lives or it just isnt meant to be (but dont worry! he'll eventually learn...maybe,,,,)

has the hardest time out of everyone when it comes to breaking bad habits

his smell varies bc he uses a variety of perfumes (whatever is the most popular at the time) but he probably sticks to floral and fresh scents. he never uses generic people pleaser scents like mammon

listens to electropop, mainstream pop, & some alternative rock

as for languages he too knows french, spanish, italian, etc. in general, if it's a romance language he knows it!

opposite of lucifer in the sense where he loves sweets and will refrain from eating too many bitter things

i think we all know that asmo is the biggest rockstar of the group! he's probably been in a boy band at least once, but now he makes his own music

has tried to teach mammon how to sing once. ended up in a broken piano and bleeding ears...

beel

i feel like he is SO SHY

like unless ur close to him he will not start conversations or anything

i think he listens to r&b a lot ! and jazz 😎 maybe rock as well

smells like ur typical athlete with undertones of wet wipes. he carries them around bc he likes to clean his hands before he eats & is prepared for when theres no sink nearby

he can drive and he drives really well. no rough turns, parallel parks perfectly, and never has problems with merging

driving with beel is probably really soothing. left hand is steering the other is gripping ur thigh 😫

dont think hes really fluent in any other language but hes probably semi fluent in korean because levi wanted beel to help him out

definitely know how to order food in practically every language tho HAHAHA

belphie

he reminds me of randall from monsters inc

smells kinda musty IM SORRY but not the way levi does hes more like the kind of musty u feel or smell when it's a shitty morning

but that's only because hes so lazy, when he cleans up hes like satan

has definitely murdered multiple people before. mc is not the first 😐✋🏻

with that being said belphie has been put into prison at least twice when visiting the human world, the mf had such a strong hatred for humans theres no way he never got into trouble before

lucifer probably broke him out and they used the pen thingies from men in black to erase everyones memory of that 🙄

dont think he listens to anything other than music that'll put him to sleep. really likes lazy song by bruno mars but thinks that bruno mars put too much effort into the song. should have been one acapella verse and then finish

similar to beel hes only semi fluent in one language, probably french bc of lucifer. doesnt remember much but knows a couple of lullabies and bedtime stories

the sandman used to be his bff until they drifted. they do, however, like and comment on each other's sns posts.

diavolo

once he found out who nicki minaj was he became her #1 stan

def an ariana grande stan too 😌

choreographs dances when hes stressed...idk just seems like a diavolo thing to do

also makes rly bad soundcloud rap music sometimes. turns to poetry when hes feeling emo but only lucifer knows this. barbatos is suspicious of him but doesnt have enough evidence to confirm.

his dad is like hudson abadeer from adventure time aka marceline's dad? something must have influenced him to want to unite the 3 realms + he would need the approval to do so, so his dad must be more chill than all the others before him 🧍🏻‍♀️ IDK ok anyway

currently going through his hamilton phase bc of mc. whether mc's intent was to get him hooked onto it or just to explain it bc of something he saw online, he tells everyone that he found out abt it bc of mc!

this man cannot drive his skills are only second to jumin han

not too fond of many languages but knows the widely spoken ones like spanish, mandarin, etc. if it's taught in high school he knows it

smells like a las vegas casino. not sure why but i feel like he does. but there's also an interesting & nice smell to him if he embraces you. it's a smell you cant quite identify. but it smells nostalgic, it's mysterious, and it's tempting.

barbatos

very calm demeanor but underneath hes WILD hes probably done everything at least once oof

he just has a lot of control and stability over himself (must be nice!)

on a more angsty note i feel like he might have had his heartbroken sO BAD IDK he is hurting and maybe that's why hes so willing to obey diavolo and not abuse his time lord power thingies bc he learned his lesson the hard way

mans is so smart he knows every language you could switch languages mid conversation with him and he wouldnt be thrown off. he'd probably start speaking it too.

BUT HE SPEAKS VIET P E R F E C T L Y

listens to the same stuff as lucifer but also likes eminem. likes the movie 8 mile but criticized it heavily

have you ever been to a chinese herb shop? naturally, he smells like that. his room probably smells like it too. he doesnt really have a significant smell like some of the others

when he bakes he smells like whatever hes baking tho

one of the few out of everyone listed to have been able to travel to literally everywhere

solomon

was probably on kitchen nightmares once, but only to get feedback from chef gordon ramsay. then he used his magic to prevent the episode from airing...

was in an orchestra, one of the best times of his life. played the violin. asmo watched him in the audience once, but didnt approach him until well after that performance.

he CANNOT sing. he can, however, rap.

doesnt listen to music. he listens to podcasts! but every now and then he turns on background music, but prefers it to be instrumental stuff

never wears sunglasses. also does not have a driver's license. cannot drive a regular car. could maybe fly an airplane.

due to his immortality he has learned almost every language to exist, but finds himself speaking mandarin the most. knows most dialects too

similar smell to barbatos but u can also smell some sunscreen on him too. like, generic beach day suncreen

he has a lot of pact marks, so he once had the idea to match foundation to his skin. it took him two weeks but he eventually perfected a combination. yes he will help u find ur perfect shade if u ask him to

simeon

another country music man. has also made a tiktok or two to that one song that goes "he cant even bait a hook." they are private tho

angel country music exists and simeon invented it

if he visits the human world and wears more causal clothing he probably tucks his shirt into his pants

wears a speedo at the beach i tell u, speedo at the beach

he can speak german...i can feel it

uses his pointer finger to type and holds the phone like 2 inches away from his face so sometimes his nose will push a key hence all his typos

has no signature smell. he simply smells like your favorite scent all the time. if multiple people are around him at once, everyone smells a different smell. it's pretty rad

"what does he smell like to himself?" u may be asking. hmm...a church? 💀

luke

his first pet was a goldfish and a few months before the exchange program happened, he was given a koi pond!

secretly likes hanging out with levi sometimes just to play with henry. makes him miss his pet fish back home

so his favorite movie is probably finding nemo and he threw a fit when nemo touched the butt

luke is probably learning german bc of simeon, though he'd like to learn more of the dead languages just for fun

i dont think he listens to music often or has any preferences, he just listens to whatever is playing on the radio

but he finds himself listening to the music mc listens to

smells like freshly baked goods all the time. or fresh laundry. but like, not combined. just depends on the day

[normal-thoughts-official]

One of the underrated moments of 3b was when Magnus told maryse he doesn't want to burden Alec and she tells him Magnus is part of the family now and he goes 😍 really?? 😍 and then alec tells him he is too much and u can see magnus taking a second to respond because all his newly formed hopes that maybe he isn't too much gets broken like its so heartbreaking that scene is so well acted we don't talk enough about it

god yeah!!!!!!!!!! everything about that moment is SO heartbreaking because magnus was finally daring to hope, after three seasons of expecting alec to get tired of him at the drop of a hat. he was always ready for something to be too much for alec and for the FIRST time he actually allowed himself to believe that alec was in it for the long run, that he would accept magnus even when he wasnt completely powerful and useful and put-together

and i dont think its just maryse saying that but specifically the fact that the night before alec had said "let me be here for you". it always breaks me that THIS LINE, not anything else, was what made magnus break down in his arms. because he had been trying so hard to keep it in and not be a burden and be cheerful and give alec what he wanted, and then alec begged him to just let him help and that. was so powerful because magnus felt so alone and he had been trying so hard not to put this on alec but then alec desperately ASKS him to. and it's such a shock and a relief and at the same time so terrifying his walls finally finish crumbling and he cries so hard his knees buckle and holy fucking shit that scene was so amazing too

so like who wouldnt feel a little more grounded after that? alec didnt just put up with magnus' pain, no, he asked magnus to please let him help him. to be honest. to cry and let alec wipe the tears and deal with the "ugly" parts of him, the fragile parts, the parts that couldnt stand to be strong on their own anymore. and that's all magnus ever wanted, yet didn't really dare to hope for

so for the first time he feels confident that he has someone to lean on. someone he can allow himself to crumble with, even if only for a second and then he's back to trying to get his life together. but for once he's not afraid alec will think he's too much and leave him. in fact, when alec says he needs a break, MAGNUS DOESN'T GET IT. it's such a stark contrast with the magnus who needed reassurance that alec didn't think less of him because of his father, or the magnus who said he never wanted alec to know about his past, or even the magnus from just a day before who tried to bolt and escape alec before alec saw him crumble for real. but i think it makes sense; because of that line from alec. how could he doubt alec would stay with him, when alec had just given him everything he ever wanted, possibly even more? this held so much significance for magnus; alec begging to be there for him was a complete game changer for him

and like dont get me wrong, that line from alec didnt single handedly solve his self esteem issues or anything, both because he still has a long way to go and because he had been learning, however slowly, to open up and let himself be supported for a century now. it's why he ever even got with alec in the first place; because he was daring to try to be vulnerable again. but that line, at the very least, changed magnus' confidence in their relationship. doubly so when maryse lightwood, of all fucking people, promised that they'd be there for him. and she meant it, too, because maryse doesn't say anything she doesn't mean, now does she

and im not going to get into the whole maryse lightwood redemption arc™ thing, but still. this matters. he felt accepted. he had people promising to be there for him, and holy shit, he actually believed them

and then it all immediately fell apart. and he was so confused and this very shaky confidence in his relationship with alec just crumbled. and thats what he meant when he said "i can't lose you too, alec" - not that he couldn't bear to live without him, but that this relationship was the one thing that was finally, finally helping him convince himself that it was okay to ask for help, that he had worth. that he was more than just useful and powerful and capable of helping others, that he had value for himself, too. that people wouldn't leave him to rot as soon as he stopped being worthwhile

it's also why he wanted to erase his memories, because the scar of that - finally allowing himself to believe, just for a little, that it was okay to not be put together every once in a while, only to have that hope completely crushed - honestly threatened his recovery so much, and could throw him back so far. like, don't get me wrong, alec was special to him, their relationship was special, and that also played a part. but one can live without romantic love, even a great one. and magnus had done it before, was used to it even. it's the impact it had on his self esteem that was too much to bear in a state as fragile as he already was

and in short yeah that scene hurts like hell

[the-blackdale]

Hey ire CONGRATS AGAIN ON 300 AAAAAAAAA *loads of hugs and kisses mwah

are- are we close moots? 👉👈 can I have a 🐙 please and thank you

(also hmm how have things been with maya(is that the name we gave her I forgot) try to grab her attention by cracking a few jokes maybe.?)

Afafaf bestie yesss !! We're like super close moots how can u doubt it ??! Anyway, I think ur katie from shang-chi, yk just a Bubly fangirl who is super smart and all, I just think she give 'you' vibes

↑ bestie goals, that's u and me 🥰 ↑

Ok, no because the above was all bubly I didnt wanted to spoil it's vibes, yes !! You got her name correct !! but yesterday was the worst !! There were two seats on the both side of me empty, and she did not come and sit next to me :( I messed up the first half of the class sulking over that, and then my anxiety worked up in the second half, because if reason I tell you, you'd think im probably a psychopath or overdramatic or still hung up over my ex-crush but what happened is that a tution friend of mine was sitting at a diagonal from me, and he looked exactly !! EXACTLY, like a guy from school I had a crush on and it was so scary, I legit myself thought for a moment that im going crazy it was THAT insane !! Anyway, I was →← this close to self harming at that time because if I wouldnt,I would've legit screamed or cried in the class.

Ok, that sounds overdramatic, but I genuinely have like a lot of trauma because what basically happened is that just because we sat next to each other for two day, everyone in school started the rumours that we are dating. I didnt even had a crush on him that time, and then he started ignoring me, we were good friends, and then we didnt talked for a year, next grade we again became friends when the rumours subsided, note that its started when I was in 4th grade, and now we're in 5th, so we became friends again and they strated teasing us again, but this time instead of ignoring me, he started blaming me that I spread this rumours ??! But nvm because i thought he spread those rumours too so it was vice-versa.

What was worse was when in a skt class, our teaher asked a student to make a sentence with garden, and he (lil piece of shit, always teases me, but still like a bro to me, ughh idk why I hang with ppl like these) he said ''my name' and 'my ex-crushe's' name are sitting in a garden together' and mam !! That freaking sanskrit mam !! Who freaking knows whats going on !! Knows that he is teasing me !! Write THAT freaking sentence on the freaking board !!!! Thank god that our classes were divided at that time and 'ex-crush' went to some other class. But that was on the freaking board for anyone to read. And its only starting !! What happened next was mam didnt erased it before leaving the class, with some cursed twist of fate, the said ex-crush came just before I could go and erase what was written, he reads it and istg I would've legit died there of embaresment. And teh guy who told mam to write that, he and his gang™ come and corner me, and like all of them are friend to me, but they corner me and they start screaming that ohh look someone got a lil crush, look who is head over heals in love. And im having the 'sliding down the wall crying moment'™ because its all too noicy !!

And then our Maths mam comes and shoo's all of them away, takes me out of the class and asks me what happened. Now she is a friendly and all mam and I was her fav student so ofc she is concerned. And I tell her what they said about me and some random person dating and its all lies and THAT FREAKING TEACHER !! She gave me this 🌝← look and said,' well, are u sure ur not dating him ?'

And lemme tell you, If I wasnt so frustrated already, I would've known that's he was kidding, but me being me, started fucking crying and I told her I don't want to attend her class, im going to the medbay and im just gonna sit there and die (I said that, no kidding) and she even let me, I was surprised, but gratefull and spent that period in medbay while the teacher scholded the rest of the class for bullying me. She even complained to the class teacher and the next day, the bullies got another scolding, which was embarrassing for me because ethey were my friends, but meh.

This is one (1) of the many bad insidences which happened due to that rumour, and the other are worse, so when I saw that other dude in tution. Looking like my ex-crush, who I also havent seen of or think about for the past two years, I lost it. I think the girl sitting next to me saw me punching my bag but didnt said anything, as for maya, she never cared 😔

Sorry I went on a rant, 🥺 u just asked and I needed to tell someone. u don't have to read any of that if u don't want to im genuinely sorry.

[witchcraft-in-wonderland]

Virgil Angst Sh** (1)

Description: Alternative of the Strangers au where the necklaces are never uncovered and Virgil is stuck with Romulus

Warnings: Physical and Emotional Abuse, Toxic Relationship, Memory Wiping, Willingly Remaining in an Abusive Situation, Blood, Weaponry, Food Denial, Extreme Weight Loss, Starvation, Pregnancy (trans man)

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Virgil hadnt the slightest clue how he'd managed to end up in this situation, only that he desperately wanted out.

His only shot had been destroyed in a carnival fire, the book that had revealed the truth was useless to him now.

But, at least Romulus seemed to be revelling in Virgil's discoveries.

And, of course, his true body.

Roman had long since fled, Virgil had managed to erase any and all memories of himself from the prince, and his own friends.

It was better this way, better if no one came looking for him.

Better if he remained trapped in the fortress he'd helped Romulus raise above the ground.

Better if he played a perfect little princess, faked his way out.

Embraced the destiny he'd once fought desperately to avoid.

He wondered, occasionally, if Viviana was watching him now.

He wondered how disappointed she was that he'd succumbed to the fate she worked so hard to avoid.

But something in his gut always told him, she hadnt ever really avoided it either.

"Princess, are you going to come in for dinner or not?" Virgil shuddered as Romulus' voice reached his ears.

"I'm not hungry," Virgil said, lying through his teeth.

He was, of course, starving.

But he wouldnt give Romulus the satisfaction of his company.

"Shame, well then go to your bed chambers and remain there until I have need of you again," Romulus continued.

Virgil complied, every step he took feeling like a drag.

He'd gone from one hundred and sixty two pounds to a mere eight seven in under a month.

He survived on sneaked snacks and water collected from a rain jar.

He knew it was no life to live, but he also knew that this wasnt life, this was hell. After all, what life didnt include Roman?

Roman

The name hung in his head on a daily basis.

The memory of those emerald eyes and that dashing smile and those soft curves and gentle touches that Virgil missed ever so dearly.

He always cried when he thought of Roman, which was to say, he never stopped crying.

"You never learn, do you?" Often, to Romulus' dismay and scorn.

"Your highness I-" but Virgil was to late, with a wince he felt his hair jerked back, his head along with it, exposing his neck.

A neck covered in bruises and bite marks and stains of blood.

Virgil had liked vampires, before he'd known that just about any undead regardless of its origins tended to have a taste for blood related sustenance.

"Did I ask you to talk?." Virgil whined, averting his eyes as he felt Romulus' breath down his neck.

"You'll look at me when I'm talking, princess." Romulus snarled, Virgil let out a yelp as yet another bite that well would have killed him at the size he was was brought down on his neck.

He fell to the floor like a rag doll when Romulus had released him, staring wide-eyed at his captor.

"Dont look at me like that." Virgil tried to calm his expression, but to no avail.

Romulus didnt like acting.

Weeks

No no no. . .

Years

Had gone by.

He'd had a daughter.

A daughter named Victoria, whom he would kill and die for.

Whom Romulus would not be permitted to touch, ever.

Life was better now, with the little one, her prescience gave Virgil meaning, gave him a routine of normalcy.

Who knew a simple knock on the door could shatter it in its entirety.

He knew the eyes almost as soon as he opened the door.

Emerald green, yes, but absolutely seething with a flame of fury and passion.

His knight had come for the captured princess.

But of course, Virgil had to play dumb, for all he knew, this was a trick.

"I assume you're here for Romulus yes?" Virgil asked, Victoria resting on his hip, chewing on a tiny clenched fist.

"Oh I'm here for Romulus alright. WHERE'S THE BASTARD THAT TORTURED AND DEFILED MY HUSBAND." It seemed, as Virgil quickly noted, that Roman had not realized there was a small child present.

"Princess could you quiet down? I'm trying to read and all your whining is frankly m-" Romulus froze as he reached the top of the stairs.

Roman had a sword drawn within seconds.

As, Virgil had suddenly realized, did each and every one of the people he believed he'd brainwashed.

He supposed they'd rediscovered a few things.

"How dare you call him royalty as he stands dressed in filth and blood. How dare you stand here and berate him as though he is a lowly gnat to brush away with little note. How dare you treat the father of the children that should have been mine as though he is barely worth your time." Virgil had never seen his husband speak with such anger in his voice, such protectiveness.

"A king doesnt concern himself with the matters of a consort,"

That had been the wrong move.

Virgil didnt see the rest, he was pulled back by Patton and Janus almost as soon as an opening was made available.

The necklaces were destroyed, and along with them any trace of Romulus, save, of course, for little Victoria.

"Virgil? Virgil oh my precious orchid what has he done to you? You look so frail my poor baby, if only I'd fought him off sooner I could have saved you," now Virgil was at home, buried under sheets with his head resting on Roman's chest, face tilted up towards his husband as he assessed Virgil's injuries. Victoria safely tucked between his arms.

"Ten years. . . Ten years I'd hoped you would remain forgetful, ignorant of my mere existence. . ." Virgil murmured, voice raspy and aching.

"I could never do such a thing my love, I'll never forget you, nor will I ever let you get away from me again, nor let harm come to you from now on," Roman whispered.

"You know that's impossible. . ." Virgil replied softly.

"Not if I have anything to say about it,"

[words-for-holland]

Happier | T.H

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Summary: Y/N & Tom have broken up but was it the right move?

Warning: Angst & Language

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8

Heartbreak.

Never in a million years would Y/N have thought she’d experience this traumatic feeling, and yet she did. It all happened so fast, but she’ll never forget his face in that moment. Brown eyes, welling up with tears. His breath erractic, dry mouth swallowing for empty useless air, pink lips quivering finding a way to move and speak. “Please...don’t do this.” He whispered. “You dont mean it...we’re going to get through this...Please dont leave.” He begged.

“I can’t. All of this is too much, Tom. The rumors, the comments, her being here...I just can’t”. Y/N responded, disgusted with everything she brought up. How could she continue to live a life and pretend everything was okay by brushing it all off? How could she say she was happy with her boyfriend when endless of rumors of Tom and his new girl “friend” were being shoved in her face from every social media outlet? How could it ever be okay, when said friend was always around, getting closer to Tom?

But he would never understand. “I told you for the hundreth time, there’s nothing going on with Natalie and I! This is your problem! You’re always jealous for no reason, and we end up getting into this ridiculous conversation.”

Y/N shakes her head and scoffs at his comment. If she couldnt get through to him the past 50 fights they’ve had in the last 5 months, then she certainly wouldn’t get him through this one. It was time to pull the plug. “I cant...” she repeats again as she grabs her stuff and heads for the door.

He pulls her arm back gently, holding onto her. His hands shaking, fearing this would be the lst time. “You always say that, but you still havent given me a valid reason of why this isn’t working anymore.” He shot back.

Y/N looked at Tom, seconds away from breaking down, but she wouldnt let it happen. “Can you truly tell me, that this whole time you and Natalie have been together as friends that you didnt feel something for her? That for a moment, you thought about your future with her...and not me? Can you tell me that? Look me in the eyes and mean it.”

Tom was at a loss for words. Y/N had never questioned him like this before and has never looked so drained in her life. Perhaps one moment he did feel something for Natalie, but...

“That’s what I thought.” Y/N breathed out, tears now streaming down her cheeks. She nodded, getting confirmation on their future. This was truly the end of everything. “I really do wish you both the best. I just want you to be happy!” She whispers.

Tom yells at her, as if the words he said weren’t coming through. He felt like he was sent to a black hole where no one could hear or see him. “I WAS HAPPY!” He screamed, kneeling on the floor and breaking down. “I WAS HAPPY WITH YOU!”

“But you’ll be happier with her. She fits so well here.” Y/N looked around the house she once called hers, where laughter, kisses, and now broken promises were once created. “I promise you’ll be happier.” She says one last time. Y/N quickly kisses the top of his head as she turns back around for the final time to leave. “Maybe one of these days we’ll see each other again.”

With that Y/N was gone. Every trace of her was erased from the house, and all Tom had left was the lingering kiss she had left on his head. Everything felt meaningless.

Meanwhile, Y/N had tried her best to keep her composure intact until she made it back home to the states. Her best friend was waiting for her, and the moment she arrived and opened the door. Y/N broke into a million pieces. Her cries, booming through the walls, falling helplessly in her friend’s arms. “Hey..Hey..It’s going to be okay.” Kate cooed, as she soothed Y/N’s back.

“I...loved..him..so..much.” Y/N cried out while trying to gasp for her air. “I just...couldnt do it.”

Slowly, Y/N’s sobs became quieter, her breathe now moving ever so slowly. Her eyes closing and her body falling into a long needed sleep. Drifitng herself away from the world.

Kate let her best friend sleep in her arms for sometime, when she notice Y/N’s phone vibrating.

It was from Tom.

Tom:

Please talk to me. Dont give up on us.

Kate rolled her eyes, assuming it was every guy’s excuse when they realized they fucked up. Seeing the state Y/N was in...Tom had no right to text her back his sorry excuses. Just as she was about to delete the message another came up from an unknown number.

Unknown:

You seem to be brighter than I had pinned you for. You’ll see. He’ll be happier with me. I told you before you never belonged in his world. It’s for the best.

[krabmeat]

🐰- do you believe in soul mates?

kinda? its more like, i believe anyone can be happy with anyone! i dont think there is ONE person who is a perfect match romantically, though i do believe in platonic soulmates! :]

💌- diary or journal?

i dont have either, but i occasionally write and vent in google docs or by writing poems or short stories!

��- which fictional character (book, show, or movie) do you relate to most?

mmmm, maybe c!technoblade if that counts? oh! and also c!quackity! :DD

💕- are you crushing on someone?

nnnope! kinda? i dunno! 

💋- kissing in the dark or kissing in the rain?

in the dark. itll make it less awkward and waaayyy more practical

🐝- describe your aesthetic in emojis

😳💚🛠🌿💣🖋〽

🍼- what is your favorite memory?

playing hide and seek at night with my cousins! >:]]]

🌸- what is your favorite flower?

honeysuckle!!

💖- have you ever been in love?

i wouldnt say so! I would hope not-- just tiny pangs of attraction to people i know every now and again -v-

🍰- strawberry or vanilla?

mmmmm vanillaaaa

🍯- describe your favorite smell

p i n e s o l

🎂- if you had 3 wishes, what would they be?

erase implicit bias, get therapy, and meeting the RAM system! (you guys are wonderful mmmmmm)

🍪- cookie dough or cookies?

cookie dough! not the purposely edible kind, the ones with egg in it. its all about the thrill of salmonella entering my system

☕- coffee or tea?

TEAAA!!!

I COULD RAMBLE ABOUT HOW GOOD TEA IS

AAAAAAAAA

🍃- would you rather live in a sea with mermaids or a forest with fairies?

the sea with mermaids! Itll be like creative mode but underwater and irl

🍂- what’s your middle name?

Arely! :]

💫- what is your sun, moon, and rising sign?

my sun sign is virgo and my moon sign is leo! not sure about rising though vkshfkahdj--

🌧️- favorite thing to do on rainy days?

as of lately, i enjoy opening my window and letting the smell and slight dampness fill up my room while im just vibing

🍭- how tall are you?

………..5'3"-

💒- which show would you want to live in?

im not sure if this counts, 

BUT THE DREAM SMP!!!

i know, i know, its a bunch of political warfare filled with character trauma, 

BUT HEAR ME OUT

i have my own strategies and sh-t and just how to get along while both being included in plot and NOT getting too mentally scarred. me and a couple friends actually came up with a whole au on if we were in the smp!! very fun! :D

🎄- what is your favorite holiday?

halloween! the spooky season is upon us in october, mmmmm >:]

🍦- what scented candle is your favorite?

i really like tree-scented candles!

🎶- favorite song right now?

Cabinet Man and Eighth Wonder, both by Lemon Demon!

(IM ALSO SO HYPE FOR WILBUR SOOTS NEW SONG TO COME OUT "LOVE JOY" MMMMMMMM)

💘- 3 ways to win your heart?

be trustworthy

give me freedom and understanding

tell me every now and then youre proud of me!

(ikik the last one is a bit snobby and conceited but it really just hits hard since im never told it very often, makes me tear up every time -v-)

🍩- current mood?

in slight constant pain but overall pretty snazzy!!

❄️- what is your favorite season?

winter and autumn! snow and cold is poggers

💍- your current relationship status?

MMMMMMM SINGLE AND POGGERS

📷- a photo of yourself

NO 💚

💅🏻- do you like being spoiled?

not really! it makes me feel very guilty and embarrassed when someone spoils me with pretty much anything! im a very self dependent person so i also just always feel like i could have worked harder for it myself!

🕊️- 3 habits you have?

i unconsciously move and wiggle my body to the rhythm and vibe a song gives me

i use my fingers like drums and pretend to be the drummer whenever i think of a song i like

i occasionally talk to myself--

🦄- how do you perceive yourself?

mmm, to put it frank-

a person who doesnt deserve anything they have and a kid who the world is too good for

🦋- how do you think others perceive you?

fake!

🌈- things I find attractive in girls/guys

someone who embraces a wardrobe that doesnt believe in gender roles

🍓- one secret about yourself

not much of a secret, more so of a cool little fact!

my left index finger tip is numb!

🍒- how do you act when you have a crush?

idk, just like--

treat em like a close homie!!

💔- the reason behind your last breakup?

breakup w h o ?

certainly not me, relationships are complicated mannnn

💬- what your last text message says?

"Lmao, bot"

⛅- what is your morning routine?

On weekdays, wake up to my alarm at 7 am and brush my teeth, change my clothes and get on my phone until its 7:30 am and then i get on my school calls

💗- who do you miss?

MY WONDERFUL IRL BEST FRIEND

AND THE RAM SYSTEM

ALONG WITH OTHER ONLINE FRIENDS MMMMMM

(i have my reasons foshfksbdjsb)

🥀- last time you cried?

last night at like 12 am!

🎁- when is your birthday?

september 8th

🔪- scariest/creepiest experience?

n o 💚

💤- date someone younger, older, or same age as you?

Preferably someone the same age, but i dont mind a small age gap! :D

[5-falsehoods-phonated]

Sorry for bothering you, but I couldn't help but wonder, what do you think of Janus' playlist? After several days of analysing it, I'm so overwhelmed with all the emotions towards the snake boy! The character potential, possible development, ideas for fics are just bashing me on the head and heart! I would love to hear your thoughts on the matter. Lots of love and have a good day! P.S. Expect some requests for songfics for sure!

It's not a bother, thank you for asking! Oh I have many feelings, as I usually do for all the playlists but this one...man. Hope you like long answers XD

First just the overall impression is great. I love the sort of contradicting roaring 1920s nihilistic aesthetic. Makes me think of a tired anti-hero, their cape swirling behind them as they turn away from the chaos, knowing they'll have a mess to clean up later but for right now they would very much enjoy a glass of wine. Its smooth. Its jazzy. It's dark. Its nostalgic in a different way from Patton, where instead of tugging softly at your heartstrings it settles a weight on your shoulders. Not in a bad way, just like someone added an extra five pounds of awareness to what you were already carrying, if that makes sense?

He boils down to an emo with class for me and I love it.

I'm not gonna go song by song but heres a few thoughts.

I absolutely love Black Hole Sun being on it as a vintage cover. Soundgarden is such a good band and this song in particular is one of my favorites, right up there with Tighter and Tighter and Spoonman. It's a dark song that has contrasting themes and means different things to different people, which is perfect for Janus' outlook on life and Thomas. And of course the reference to the snake fits right in.

It Seemed The Better Way is one of my favorites on the list. The style of the song and Leonard Cohen's voice reminds of Mark Lanegan's style and is so soothing.

Talking at the same time just made me think of all the Sides talking through a dilemma but really just arguing and talking over one another, contradicting each other and themselves in the process. It makes me want to bang all their heads together and yell "COMMUNICATION BITCH" which I really hope season 3 addresses the important of good and healthy communication and it takes the last side to do it but I digress. It's a song that points out unfairness and frustrating contradictions and I love that the angsty snake likes this song.

Scarlett Johansens Trust On Me is one I'm posting a fanart of soon, it put such a clear image in my head of Janus smoothly talking to Thomas about listening to him and taking care of himself while below surface level hes desperately trying to hold this vision together of everything being fine while the world crumbles. It's just Tbomas walking along with his sides as they smile as the sunshine while Janus is stumbling behind with an old umbrella, batting away dead branches with his staff while everyone else is oblivious.

Mandy Goes To Med School. Janus canonically listens to the Dredston Dolls and no one else I've ever met listens to them or knows who they are and it fills me with unreasonable happiness that someone on the team got this song on the playlist. Many have interpreted this song as back alley abortions and illegal sex changes, both elective surgeries that have consequences if done improperly. I honestly think the bare bones of this song apply to Janus. Percieved "selfishness over selflessness" and the consequences being up in the air for both. A sort of damned if you do, damned if you dont situation, which definitely paints Janus, at least for me, as a world weary tired ex-optimist who's experiences have shaped his perception of the world in a way that can be hard for others to understand. I think this song fits him to a T.

Evil Night Together makes me think of him, Remus and Virgil just having a ball of a night causing chaos together and laughing all the way through. It fills me with a lot of happiness thinking of the idiocy those three got up to when they were on better terms with each other.

Dont Tell Mama...makes me way too excited fr the last dark side. I get this strong feeling from the song the Janus very much works in the shadows, to the point where hes even a bit secluded from the other 'dark sides' to an extent. Maybe the last one is someone who really tries to run the show and wouldnt be pleased with what Janus is trying to do. Not saying Mystery Orange is evil, none of them are.

I feel like You're A Cad is a comment on him and Virgils relationship. The way that they are now, secretive and closed off, a friendship cant really work between them but they keep coming back no matter how many times they broke eachothers trust. I don't think Janus and Virgil hate each other, I just think they need to communicate better like everyone else does but they kept trying without knowing how and hurting each other in the process.

As Far As I Can See feels like a self deprecating view point that all the "dark sides" have and it makes me want to hug not only him but Remus, Virgil and even Orange until they feel even a little bit better. In this house we love and appreciate our good bad boys.

Change. Okay first: the first line of this song is "theres something in the wind" and in Sally's Song on Virgils playlist the first line is "I sense theres something in the wind." Coincidence maybe and probably but I'm holding out for Remus' for the third. 'Lately, I've been thinkin' it's just someone else's job to care Who am I to sympathize when no one gave a damn?' is such an OOF I just cant. I strongly feel like this is Janus rethinking what his purpose could possibly be if no one is willing to listen. Could apply to Logan too but he has Erase Me already so.....

Come Little Children by Erutan. That's it, Janus also canonically also listens to the Willow Maid and cries the first time he heard no you cant change my mind. He also watches Hocus Pocus every year and loves it. Remus joins him. Virgil did when they were on better terms. You also cant change my mind on this. I think this song is just commenting on how Janus hides the truth for Thomas so he can see the world from a better perspective than what it actually is. Self preservation and lying to ourselves and all that.

Into The Unknown from Over the Garden Wall I think is telling us everything is changing and revealing itself the farther we go with Thomas' dilemmas. They're all stemming from somewhere so where will we end up? Who can say, but in the meantime aren't the lies we're telling ourselves pretty? Janus is observing everything falling apart and hoping he isn't lying when he tells himself everything will work itself out. Only time will tell. It's a sad, longing note to end the playlist on, but it's very fitting.

Overall this playlist cements the fact the the Angst Train really just said "Choo choo mothfucker" and steamrolled on regardless of the fact that were stuck on the tracks. And I love it.

Janus is a sad, angsty boy tired of everyone's bullshit and honestly just wants everyone to get along so he can finally sit back and play his game cube without his gloves on in the common room of the mindscape without being hissed or glared at, and is that really too much to ask? Also, he's crying in the art on spotify, with such a resigned look on his face and I just...my heart.

Sorry this is so long, like I said I have a lot of feelings. Add your own thoughts if you like, you and anyone else who wants to. This is my interpretation of only some of the songs so of course there are more and different things worth mentioning. This is a judgement free blog where all opinions are welcome.