#i could write an essay about this

[narryffdreaming]

[mostlyvoid-partiallyflowers]

The most recent episode of Interview with a Vampire let's us see Lestat's side of the story and see how it compares to Louis' accounting of their relationship. As a result, it reaffirms just how unreliable of a narrator Louis is, but it also further illuminates elements of his character that the director and writers have been playing with since the beginning of the show.

There's this part in the episode where Lestat turns to Louis and apologizes and it's framed with Lestat turned to Louis on one side and Claudia on his other side. They're the angel and devil on Louis' shoulders, but who is the angel and who is the devil? And as my friend said, Armand and Daniel are placed into that same dynamic with Louis later on. We are being asked to decide who to trust, who's telling the truth, who's the good guy, but the fact of unreliability robs us of that decision.

This whole story is about Louis, he's the protagonist, though not the narrator, and he is constantly being pulled in two directions, no matter when or where he is in his story. He's a mind split in two, divided by nature and circumstance. He's vampire and human, owner and owned, father and child, angel and devil. He's both telling the story and being told the story. His history is a story he tells himself, and as we've seen, sometimes that story is not whole.

Louis is the angel who saved Claudia from the fire but he's also the devil who sentenced her to an life of endless torment, the adult trapped in the body of a child. He's the angel who rescued Lestat from his grief and also the devil who abandoned him, who couldn't love him, could only kill and leave him.

He's pulled in two directions, internally and externally at all times and so it's no wonder that he feels the need to confess, first to the priest, then Daniel, and then Daniel again.

He's desperate to be heard, a Black man with power in Jim Crow America who's controlled by his position as someone with a seat at the table but one who will never be considered equal. He doesn't belong to the Black community or the white community, he can't. He acts as a go-between, a bridge, one who is pushed and pulled until he can't take it anymore. He's a fledgling child to an undead father, he's a young queer man discovering his sexual identity with an infinitely experienced partner. He's confessing because he wants to be absolved, that human part of him that was raised Catholic, that child who believed, he wants to be saved. He wants to be seen.

Louis wants to attain a forever life that is morally pure, but he can't. He's been soiled by sin, by "the devil," as he calls Lestat, and he can never be clean again. Deep down, I think he knows this, but he can't stop trying to repent. He tries to self-flagellate by staying with Lestat and then tries to repent by killing him, but can't actually follow through. He follows Claudia to Europe to try and assuage his guilt. He sets himself on fire, attempts to burn himself at the stake, to purify his body, rid himself of the dark gift.

Louis is a man endlessly trying to account for the pain he has caused and he ultimately fails, over and over again, because he can't get rid of what he is. A monster. He's an endlessly hungry monster. He's hungry for love, for respect, for power, for forgiveness, for death. He's a hole that can never be filled. He can never truly acquire any of those things because he will always be punishing himself for wanting and needing them in the first place. He will never truly believe he deserves them and as a result, can't accept them if they are ever offered. He can never be absolved for he has damned himself by accepting the dark gift and thus has tainted himself past the point of saving.

[queenlokibeth]

Something something marie's first time using her powers in the show being when she accidentally hurts those she loves something something the last time she uses them is when she accidentally hurts someone while protecting someone she loves something something i'm gonna go scream

[criticalbeauregard]

thinking about agathario and "as it was" by hozier

the whole thing but i mean:

There is a roadway, muddy and foxgloved Whenever I'd have life enough, my heart is screamin' of And in a few days I will be there, love Whatever here that's left of me is yours, just as it was

and also, their first reunion as themselves:

Tell me if, somehow, some of it remains How long you would wait for me and how long I've been away The shape that I'm in now, your shape in the doorway Make your good love known to me or just tell me 'bout your day

[the-sun-is-also-a-star]

mid-wizarding war wolfstar where both of them think the other has betrayed the order remus to sirius is this song

[tumbler-nerd13]

“Amity’s song is little miss perfect” this

“Luz’s song is Ordinary” that

What if I said Hunters song is Top of My School by Katheryn Lynn-Rose?!?

[buddiex911]

I recently reread “people we meet on vacation” and poppy & alex are SO buck & eddie it killed me. the determination not to love your best friend. poppy constantly referring to her secret love for alex as an increasing percentage is so buck falling more and more in love with eddie. eddie being painfully in love with buck the whole time but buck never seeing it just like how alex was with poppy. I could go on and on and on.

[antiyourwokehomophobia2]

I think there’s something to be said for being touched = feeling vulnerable and therefore “feminine”. And being uncomfortable with your (female) body. I don’t think it’s healthy either but I guess it adds up

Dude, those are my exact thoughts. There's discomfort surrounding being "feminine" and vulnerable since being touched is associated with both of those things. Unfortunately, laying beneath someone and having them touch you is associated heavily with being feminine.

[cutemeat]

theres not nearly enough appreciation for how the dee/charlie relationship is SUCH a perfect satire and subversion of how m/f relationships are treated in film and television

[misfithive]

YR S2 “I lied” thoughts (ramblings)

This is random and I’m sure been discussed but i think it was really important that Wille said “It was a moment I didn’t want to share so I lied about it”. He could have easily said he was told to do it or blamed someone else or just been more passive about what happened. But it was important for him to actually take accountability and take back control of the situation.

It’s esp important to Simon that Wille acknowledges he did have a choice. It was obviously a really messed up situation and it makes sense why he denied it. But owning the decision and giving a real reason is important in gaining Simon’s trust back bc he is taking responsibility and not just blaming his circumstances. Bc yeah his circumstances are not ideal but it’s always gonna be that way -Simon needs to be able to trust that Wille is going to be there for him, have integrity, and make his own decisions regardless of the circumstances. It is kinda a lot to ask given the extreme of being a prince but Simon has always treated Wille like a regular person. It also wouldn’t be an fair/healthy relationship if Simon was just always having to bend to Wille’s circumstances.

[kkatastrophic]

The show "Glee" is crazy because in the same show a guy makes a religion based on a cheese toastie a girl gives another girl an ED ON PURPOSE because the other girl "stole her boyfriend" (they were hanging out before the girl and him. She didn't steal her boyfriend. She was convinced into thinking she was gaining weight SO quickly because this girl cut down the hem of her costume in a school musical every single day until she purposefully made herself THROW UP)

[lemoncholy-stars]

i don’t think i’ve ever seen a better performance than doechii’s tiny desk concert holy shit

[aleixis]

me frantically trying to explain how i was disappointed in isagi kaiser team up ( I'M SURE KANESHIRO'S GONNA COOK W THIS I'M NOT HATING ON HIM ) and wanted isagi and ness to team up bc kaiser left ness and that's a good reason for ness to realize that he doesn't need to follow a new king and that he's a great soccer player even without him being below kaiser

[andeat]

also thinking about how lee. cannot love normally. he is all-consuming, ride or Die unhealthily obsessive and possessive. like, his ideal form of love is getting consumed by his lover (but also like, literally). leaves teeth marks in everything he loves etc etc.

[heartfeltletters-written]

go your own way by fleetwood mac

Lindsey Buckingham really wrote this and then turned to Stevie and was like "this is your part here u go" CRAAAAAZY

[tvisnoton]

Ranpo is one of the most complex characters in all of BSD, I'm so serious. I can talk my shit if yall want.