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assless-chapstick · 2 years ago
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Hellooo! Just wanted to say I love you’re Fics. You’re writing is so damn good, along with the smut. (Very hard for me to write) is very impressive! Any more fics in the pimple line?
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feller I'm so glad you enjoyed them!! I really enjoyed writing and sharing them and I'm tryna get that fire back !!
since my Kîyanaw series turned 4 this year, I was brainstorming some ideas and was thinking about another part...
like 8 years on Arthur and Charles have made good, they've got a herd of cattle now and have hired on a couple hands (the sons of the old spinsters what helped them get their start) and they ain't just homesteaders no more but real ranchers. They're comfortable - maybe Arthur has even seriously started working on illustrations of herbs and wildflowers, fixing to get them published as a field guide or something...
anyway they're comfy and happy and living a charmed life... the RCMP come around some times, and it still gets their hackles up, but they're ok.
And then one day they get a letter.
Charles had been at the post office, picking up some parcels, sending out one of Arthur's illustrations to the publisher maybe, making smalltalk with the postmaster. And the postmaster he goes like "hey you fellers employ drifters and the like up at your place, right? anyone pass through by the name of Tacitus Kilgore?"
and that's how they get word, a sneaky letter from Sadie, that she's alive. That John and Abigail and lil Jackie - who must be what, shit, fourteen? - are still alive.
and shit happens they head down there and Arthur and John have a super emotionally fraught reunion cuz like, John is so happy to see him but so fuckin angry because he thought Arthur had died, and then because he feels like Arthur abandoned him like, why didn't you look for me? You say up there on your fancy fuckin ranch for eight god damned years and you never thought to look for me?
And this is at the point when Abigail and Jack aren't around and John is tryna build that house... and just such a super low point so it's very emotional and hard on him and he's mad but only cuz that's how all his emotions present themselves djbdbdbd
and then Charles and Arthur help him build the house and there's one night, just one where John is drunk(er than usual) and lamenting the loss of his family and he turns to Arthur for comfort the same way he always has and then John is kissing on Arthur's neck by the light of the fire and Arthur's hands are on John's hips to push him away but he looks over John's shoulder at Charles and they communicate in that quiet, sacred way they do...
and Charles is a sex freak who loves to watch so he watches as Arthur fucks John in this way where it's like, this is a relationship that is so unnameable... it's not just friendship not just fraternity it's like there's this connection where Arthur is the only person in the world who knows John the way John knows Arthur... so he fucks him and Charles watches and then they all make out
and in the morning John pretends it never happened like "I'm gonna get my wife back... I'm just not the type to share. Sorry Charles" and like it was just this one time thing and it gives John the willpower to carry on and hustle for his family dhhfhf idk that's just my idea
and then I had an idea too for just a fun one shot of John/Arthur gunplay where Arthur takes the cold barrel of his revolver and runs it along the bony jut of John's hip bone where it peeks over the waistband of his pants.... and he calls John the ugliest sonofabitch he's ever seen and spits on his face even as he so gently gathers John's hair up in his hand so John can open his mouth so Arthur can gently gently fuck it with his gun and then maybe also his dick
idk mister I'm just in a fun goofy mood that's what's been on my mind lately!! thanks for asking!!
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cowboy-robooty · 2 months ago
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im not going to lie i have an illuminati type theory that fanfiction has gotten so fucking bad recently as yet another consequence of the pandemic
#because like we all know how the pandemic caused fandom and a lot of more geeky things to become more mainstream#at least in the US#and thats why fandoms are so fucking shite now because everybody isnt weird and cant handle weird shkt#and also everybody stopped having reading comprehension too because of the sudden rapid uptick in content creation and such#like u guys already know what im talking about#theres a reason why i havent seen an actual meme in years#like im talking a real meme. have you seen anything even remotely close to what a meme was like before the pandemic?#its honestly a real shame because i feel like now saying meme feels kind of cringey but it was something genuinely uniting and a wonderful#cultural thing online back then but also maybe thats just my nostalgia coming in since i was a kid back then#but yeah i think as another consequence fanfiction has become significantly worse#because i dont know maybe im looking in the wrong places maybe its a natural development of my taste becoming#more refined#but i feel like its impossible to find good fanfiction these days#like hetalia ao3 has been notorious for sticking out as the only fandom ever that somehow has so much fanfiction and none of it is good#because even when i was in the oukibo trenches i found some good shit in there that id memorize like bible scriptures#but now it kinda feels like every fandoms ao3 is like the hetalia ao3#i thought it was just my taste refining further until i found one good fanfiction recently and IT LIKE#ITS NOT EVEN THAT GOOD. BUT YOU KNOW HOW THERES THAT TYPE OF FANFIC THAT IS JUST#COMPETENTLY WRITTEN AND THE CHARACTERS ARE IN CHARACTER#ITS NOTHING BEAUTIFUL OR SOMETHING YOUD BE LIKE OHHH THIS SHOULD BE A FINE LITERATURE PUBLISHED BOOK#BUT ITS GOOD#ITS A GOOD STORY THAT FEELS LIKE IT WAS WRITTEN BY SOMEONE WHO WATCHED THE SHOW#AND HAS ALL THE BASIC NEEDS TO BE A COMPELLING READ#LIKE DAMN I HAVENT READ SOMETHING LIKE THAT IN FOREVER#bc a lot of good fanfiction isnt the 400k novels that are intense and beautiful#i love those but there can only be so many of them#the majority are these fics that are fun as hell to read and sometimes even stretch to be like 50k words. but they're definately not#intense beautiful prose. it's a fun story made by a fan who wanted to explore an idea or make some scenarios#and i can never find that shit anymore#its always page after page of the most asinine shit with not even the general aura/sprinkle of anything pertaining to the og source in sight
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moeblob · 2 months ago
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Ohiwe
After Oh is split into two, their power is halved/divided. But! Other traits are not necessarily divided evenly. So she holds all the romantic love (unrequited) for Ymber. She also has the rhythm/ability to dance while the other half cannot keep a beat for the life of him.
#my characters#also just because im fascinated by the fire deity as a duo and how they think#ymber (water deity) is renowned and worshipped for knowledge and he is incredibly skilled and smart and logical#oh (and then ohime and ohiwe after the punishment) is famed for fortitude#but also holy moly the lil fire freaks are obsessed with the scientific method of trial and error#like while ymber would prefer to observe and gather data first before coming to any conclusions or even consider what to test#ohime and ohiwe just go YOLO! and speed run science#like after ymber gives deacon a very hefty blessing and the word reaches the fire duo ohime just jumps to travel#and waltzes into ymbers city and is like hi hello good to see you i need to borrow your boyfriend#and then gives a playful nudge and oh my the ward flared how fascinating#and begins to circle the poor guy and just gently getting too close vs a decent distance and seeing how the ward reacts#and hes like OKAY SO IN CONCLUSION to the wonderful question of can ohiwe and i buff the boyfriend#the answer is no because you completely dominated the poor guys body like look at him hes unable to drown now#and hes so sad that ohiwe and him cannot in fact make deacon fire proof#but then he continues with yeah cause obviously we would recruit fulj so she could bless him with lightning#then you could have a water proof boyfriend who also cannot be melted inside or out#and deacon is just like wait i cant drown anymore? what?#ohiwe and ohime just visiting the other deities in rotation since they have the ability to leave one in charge of the fire city#and let the other wander to check on their buddies and sometimes just playing host in the fire city#for fulj if she wants to visit because she deserves an honorary home there after her own punishment#also idk if it matters to anyone else but it matters to me but the city of fire has so many snakes#because the fire deity are closely tied to serpents in association#so they have two in their temple (though they can leave!) and then snakes all around the city#like in the street or slithering into someone's house ya know as snakes do
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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months ago
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Charlie Kelly from Always Sunny is my favorite representation of dyslexia in anything ever. Specifically because everyone's frustration when his dyslexia gets in their way feels very true to my frustration when my dyslexia gets in my way. I like watching people get mad at dyslexia lol
#also i like how casually everyone is like yeah well charlie cant read ya kno what can u do?#and its the only dyslexia rep ive seen where its not framed as 'wah im bad at school' or 'im dyslexic but i can succeed anyway'#thr problems of dyslexia extend outside of school and continued to be a struggle even if its masked by success to the outside world#but this is from the mouth of a person who does not enjoy being represented in media. bc im like fuck off i hate u when i relate to#characters lol. or ur not writing it right fuck off. tbh it makes me feel better to watch other dyslexic ppl fuck up in the same ways i do#like on tv typically characters dont constantly fuck up the words coming out of their mouth unless somethings medically wrong with them but#thats a very dyslexic thing to do bc theres a problem with language and its translation in ur brain.#the dyslexic rep i hate the most is probably p3rcy jackson bc like i get the point of succeeding depite handicaps but i hate it and also he#has visual anomalies in the movie so extreme its probably more an eye issue rather than streight up dyslexia which is the inability to read#and that makes me feel like a dipshit bc the words arent running away and i still cant read lol. also fucking hate that they retconed sp0ck#as sorta vulcan dyslexic. mostly im just being a hater bitch bc i havent watched it but the sp0ck story is so so so fucking good bc hes#stuck between two worlds and experiencing prejudice of both sides. is that not enough for you????? fuck off. i reject u dyslexic sp0ck#but again. im a fucking hater and a contrarian so i mostly just get mad when i relate to characters#unrelated
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dizzybizz · 10 months ago
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im so
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im so .. insane about him right now
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I LOVE HIS BIG PEEPERS . HIS BIG PEEPERS WHEN HES SO DEEP IN THE ZONE !!! ITS ALMOST EERIE LIKE AUHGDJJFGGH
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look at him hugging his bag. look at his sproing.
i love!!!!! when his eye goes
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BOKUTO YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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sea-buns · 1 year ago
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Forgive me if I'm a bit nervous about Gorgug this season. It's just that the last Zac Oyama pc was Colin Provolone, who was arguably one of his greatest D20 performances, if not the greatest.
Zac always does great with every pc he plays, but Colin was something else. He came out swinging with actions and words that were teeming with unspoken emotional baggage. The way Colin's presence affected the other pcs; there was this level of depth that I don't think I've seen in any of his other characters. It was understated and quiet in that signature "just a guy" way that he tends to be, while still captivating everyone instantly with just how raw it was.
Not to say we haven't seen emotional depth in Gorgug. It's just that, compared to the other Bad Kids, Gorgug's journey and progression as a character has been very... impersonal? Like, yes, he found his birth parents, and he found friends who appreciate him, and he faced his insecurities about his intelligence, and he navigated relationship troubles, and his trial through the claustrophobic bug-tunnels was a horrifically-uncanny parallel to how he's spent his entire life trying to make himself as small as possible.
But how much of that has actually changed him from the Gorgug we started with? I would agree that he's definitely happier with his life, given all the loving and supportive people that have been added to it when it used to be just him and his parents. And he's certainly grown into himself and become more self-assured in his abilities, even if he's still, and always will be, our anxious little guy. And there's nothing wrong with that. I've always liked how Gorgug was a representation of all the little things. The subtle acts and kindnesses that don't seem like much to most, but to some are everything.
We don't need another Bad Kid living in fear that their mouth could be shit-in at any moment. We've already got one-too-many.
All that being said, I just feel like Gorgug's personal story beats are much easier to sweep under the rug than everyone else's. He has the same soft and understated quality that Colin held, but they lack that extra oomph that pushed Colin over the edge from being just another guy in a series of dudes, to a character that the vast majority of us could not get out of our heads. He took someone who was anxious and softspoken, who ultimately never wanted to be violent— someone who is remarkably similar to Gorgug in many ways— and maintained that demeanor and core in Colin's character while still hitting us in the feels with character development at max velocity at every turn.
I think Zac gets better and better at this with every season that goes by. With each new character, there is always something that leaves me stunned in awe. And it's been, what, three? Four years since we last saw Gorgug?
I'm just,,, I'm cautiously optimistic but also going into a bit of a worry about what violence this man may inflict upon us
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dennisboobs · 5 months ago
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every day i have to hold my tongue when m-cd-nnis shippers start sounding like frat guys with the way they talk about dennis' Secret Feelings toward mac. hey man. i don't actually think you get it. i don't think you understand what's going on between them.
#HEY MAN. I DONT THINK DENNIS ~SECRETLY WANTS IT~ AND TJAT ITS GOOD ACTUALLY WHEN HE ASSAULTS HIM. CAN YOU BE NORMAL.#ada speaks#guyssss dennis is just secretly gayyyy its fiiiine mac is making him come to terms with itttt#he actually really wants all this despite his verbal protests you guysssss#fuck taking him at his word obviously dennis doesn't know what he wants !!!#like my brother in christ. when dennis says. It's Never Gonna Happen. Not Willingly.#he means it. the willingly part IS the important part#when dennis HAS a choice and when mac is not actively REMOVING that choice#THEN he is like. fine with it#but you people don't seem to understand what it is that mac is doing that dennis is opposed to#is it rlly that hard to understand that mac putting dennis into these situations like in ddl and gets romantic is intentional on mac's part#dennis' issue is. Always. he doesn't like being TRAPPED. key word.#this is why he resists time and time again not just with mac but with everything else he fights against#he doesnt like being out of control. he doesn't like being controlled. its not even that he wants to be the one in control#it's for protection#so when mac traps him. intentionally. in a way that is premeditated. when he knows he cant trust mac#why in gods name would he WILLINGLY consent to literally anything#like you look at the implication and the obvious parallels there#where he is recreating how he was made to feel#and its specifically about being trapped. PHYSICALLY in this sense#and you look at the fucking scripts and you see how many goddamn times the word TRAPPED is used#[GESTURES BROADLY]#like for the last time. dennis is not resistant to mac bc he has these latent desires he is in denial about.#he's resistant to mac because he doesn't trust him and doesn't want to be assaulted.#its about power. but consistently we see that dennis Doesnt Want Real Power he just wants enough to protect himself#like for fucks sake. yes. if dennis consents then obviously he's going to be fine with it#the problem is that mac doesn't care enough to get consent#and very specifically circumvents it instead. den isn't like. overreacting. he's right djskdjfkkf
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yanderespamton78 · 1 year ago
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the current state of the arg
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sorry guys the art isnt arting D:
(btw if youre confused on why i drew turnip like that i was referencing the picrew he did ages ago bc idk it looked fun to draw anddd i dont like taking reference off real life images)
#i felt like just a lillll bit of a creep relistening to voice messages over and over to find a good quote but. yk what. it was worth it#i totally didnt take reference from the really cool face i used in that animation because im still really proud of it#idk if emi or TD have a sona but if they do im not aware of it and i didnt feel like asking so i just drew both of them as blank characters#im too stressed to scheme lol#maybe#just maybe#i need to stop drinking tea because the caffiene makes me anxious#...#naaaaahhhh#i dont really know what to do with myself atm because i dont want to work on the animation unless turnon is ok out of pure spite#this morning i was absolutely radiating stress#i have a friend who shows up so we can walk together to school and she could tell smth was off lol#i literally could not hide it at all even if i wanted too#i kept pulling my hat over my face thats the main way you can tell that im stressed#not that it really matters that you know that bc none of you are ever gonna witness that but. fun fact abt me ig#ugh#if turnon dies i am gonna cry so hard <333#and i wont finish the animation <333333333#(at this point just trying anything to get turnon back)#im gonna make a word doc#i make word docs when im stressed /hj#quick question turnip : is there a way to get turnon out of the situation he is in or is he just gonna die and theres nothing we can do#about it /gen#because i have a sneaky suspicion that we cant actually do anything about this#i swear to god#LETS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE!!#A DEFRAG MIGHT COME OUT TMR!!#its been 21 days and a defrag takes on average 20-25 days#ough#turnip and addon im gonna find where you live and i will burn your respective houses down
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thebyter · 5 months ago
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i read this one uu fic where ash knows tht spoke is spoke inthe mafia episode and its lkke him giving spoke a ceremony outfit and its kinda gay with all of the caressing and shit but idk if i like them that way Id prefer to see them in a toxic platonic way but the author might make them kiss if they make a sequel but ill pretend that its a cheek kiss instead if they do
#its a shame cuz its my fav fic so far#but if they do oh well I wont complain i wont be mean it might be kinda weird cuz spoke is 17 inthink Oh wow hes a year older tha me thats#crazy ngl not sure how to process that but#I really liked the fic because it was so good in making ash manipulative but also I dont have much to complain over#I wouldve said that spokes too dumbed down in the fic but hes stupid in uu#well not stupid I need to stop using that word so freely its moreso uhrr#He struggles with making decisions quickly and processing things and that causes people(ash) to take advantage of him#in ls hes the leader in uu he follows#really visible with him and mapicc 'Follow me me me!' 'Lets go go go!'#I do love the fic a lot I really want to see how the ceremony would play out#because ashalso fkrced spoke to drink aglass of milk and told him not to go invis and i assume theres gonna be multiple invis players#which would be reallyyyy interesting#Lkke the guy with the biggest mark on his head is getting a ceremony. something no other diamond player has got. this guy that everyone has#been told to kill on sight is rigth next to ash sorta like a right hand man situation but he doesn't have a say in anything it kinda plays#more into spoke being some sort of thropy but i dont want to objectify him in my mind cuz thats ickyyyyy#ash : I cant stop winning#!#I want to see ash make spoke come with him when hes taunting parrot loke inthe recent uu episode#I reallly loved that#I might become an uu ash fan but In our system we have a uu mapicc (named mape cuz we got 2 mapiccs) So When he finds out i like ash#hes gonna get mad but like I dont support his actions theyre clearly bad and flawed and evil like ls wemmbu but i csnt bring myself but to#like them#I say as I remember the evil alter forming sensation in my brain#We already got ls wemmbu Dont tell me were gonna get uu ash inhere too#Ohhh god this is gonna be so fucking bad#text
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b4kuch1n · 2 years ago
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one thing I thought was missing from canon sk8 was the mine being haunted apparently. so we are bringing that into burnished house for absolutely no fucking reason
#sk8 the infinity#burnished house#(I am jokeing there is. in fact. a reason)#(you will not learn this until the divorce comes up)#(well the preliminary reason is I fucking love ghost stories and want to put them in everything)#(and that reki is afraid of scary things which makes him my favourite kind of victim. younger sibling coded for that only)#Im actually having a lot of fun alternating povs between reki and langa bc Ive like. accidentally grounded langa's in#very clear and present bodily sensations. straight up uncomplicated observations about materials in the world around him#while reki's gets all the hyperboles and pretty poetic stuff. I enjoy the idea of him being good at storytelling#ESPECIALLY bc him taking words to heart including scary stories. big deal to me ok?#love to write langa and going from things that clearly are present right there in the scene to the most insane thoughts a man can have#and then write reki and jump wildly between dork ass energetic shounen character speech and romanticizing the fuck out of concrete#weird thing to say after writing three fics of like 20K+ words in total about them granted lmao#but like. listen. I feel like burnished house is me going apeshit so far. this is truly my time to be the worst ever#same approach as I took with [REDACTED]. oh you think this is bad? just wait#I have already added TWO old people ghosts into this one. be in awe of my power#well. be in awe of it when I finish this chapter... I need to sleep rn dksdfhdskj#have a good nite lads. I cant wait to get to that one spot in this chapter where I go yess... YESS!!!! HAHAHA YESSSS#wish u the same for ur art endeavour. if ur art endeavour doesnt have something like that u should add it. my message to da world
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hotteoki · 1 year ago
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great day to be a twt armytiny 😐
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waywardsalt · 2 years ago
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is this anything
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gingerbreadmonsters · 2 years ago
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ginger, cracking an eyelid and thinking about opening requests for a little bit? its more likely than you think 👀👀
#redacted asmr#i never say it in as many words but my askbox is almost always open 🥳🥳#to be honest i am rubbish at actually filling reqs so its probably not a good idea#im so fucking picky about what to write and the kinds of things that appeal to me#plus like....... most reqs that come in tend to be for things that im either not great at and/or dont particularly vibe with yk#its nobodys fault that writing david feels like pulling teeth its just the way it is you get me#hence why in my pinned it makes it clear that i take Suggestions rather than Requests#thing is i could do reqs or we could do like another ask game or smth#yeah another issue w me and reqs is that my little goblin brain just CANNOT stay on track and it fucks me up Every Time 😭😭#the prompt will be like 'uhhhh elliott sunshine beach day fluff uwu' and i will get 100 words in and#think 'wait what if they were actually dead/imprisoned/doomed the whole time that would be so fun' and then thats all i can write#i mean i started what was SUPPOSED to be DAMN crew cute halloween fluffy stuff and all of a sudden they're all dead so#not a great track record on my part#i cant stand a close plan there has to be room for improvisation#which is awkward when someone has asked for smth specific 🫣🫣#ginger rambles#oh also anon is off bc i am not putting up with any more ridiculous horseplay in my inbox no sir#fuck around in my askbox and..... actually don't find out bc surprise! i deleted it already sorry who are you again
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29121996 · 17 days ago
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its vv rare do i fucking get the "unreachable amd unanswerable dealer" trope but i am . my eye is twitcging
#BRO WHAT ARE U DOING.#u said '20mins' at 10:30 it is 1am i .#shut up no one say a word im in the deoths of my own fucking torment rn i dont wanna be SOBER rn .#abt to whip out the vlender make fucking . daiquris or wtv its spelt .#bc i have alcohol ! and frozen fruot ! and a desire to not Feel rn ! its not even that im so numb to all of this now#like thes a level of detachment to this emotion. bc i dont wanna deal with this Actually so im side baring it in a seethriugh woven box#bc wtc it is is seeping fromcthe box into my blood !!!!!!!#being psotive is hard okay. rewirinf rhis fucktruck 9f a brsin i was givwn is HARD . esp when it comes to this fucking situstion and my self#qorth in love like idont . wanna Feel and i wanna get High to feel .#if i dont have a response by 2am i am giving up and going to bed atp. if i cant get high i will sleep#and dream of this fucker instead of thinling abt him bc it doesnt MATTER.#im half convinced we are actually cinversing jn the dream realm. vc i have an inkling this fucler can astroproject / dream travel#whether ue knows it or not ! dunno ! but theres SEVERAL DREAMS the last few weeks that have .#idk how to explain it .ive woken ul half expecting to see a conversation on my phone or . something w the way it feels#and its not in a 'ohhh were back tgth' no its 'oh some shir was said incthe dream scape that needed to be said but xiuldnt be said'#like im not allowrd to contact him. not that i WANT TO anyway. bc whay can i say. i dont know anything for certain. i cant .#put my own fucking cards on the tBlw yhat is reoestinf the past pattern with a Fat Check. i cant do Anything but cope with this#and the divine has me in a honey pot :) like u fuckers are Insane#i can feel and see them just . holding this (weed. him wtv idc) for my own good :)) bc i cant go back to old patterns :))#ajd smokign weed to cope w my emotions IS not good for me. even if it does help it . os a crutch.#its not bad Every So Often but . anyway my throat feels itchy and this now feels . fucking divine too what do u want me to do here#what am i supposed to do here.#i forget . so mych of my hwaling is more just Admitting shit to nyself than actually acting. like .#im cpnatsntly trying to be Good to people and . stixk by myself without throwing my ass under a bus#and without beong a heartless bitch. abd this doesnt matter#bc everyones got their own projections and i am not perfeft eitherway but .#fuck man. let me do this high#i sgould just sleep or . wash my dishes ir Something eye .#icdont wanna do anythibg lol i am Miserable#im not . iam not entirely happy w my job. but idk if thats bc its lulling out or if its a gwnuine disinterest in this career choice.
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bmpmp3 · 1 month ago
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i need to remember to start specifying that when i refer to ia i almost exclusively am talking about her voisona/cevio 2.0 voice (and occasionally her 1.0 when talking about how good it sounds in certain electronic genres) because that really is the quintessential ia voice for me, maybe a little too much because i keep forgetting v3 exists LOL
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dilfza-discourse · 3 months ago
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Although off topic I do love going to a professional writer to ask for help editing my essays and getting told my voice is great. So true. Except for when it's not
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