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dobbysimp · 2 days ago

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third year summer scenario i cant stop thinking about

sirius who spends his first summer properly at the potters for the first time gets exposed to James’ latino culture on full blast 24/7

sirius who starts to learn things, more so by proximity than actually trying to

learns what spices effie likes to add, what songs james plays around the house when he helps clean, that the pots and pans go in the oven(??? he wont question it) and that you save the plastic grocery bags under the sink

BUT sirius who after just one summer is very much a beginner in this new world of culture, and god james yk i cant understand spanish yet

sirius who feels guilty he isnt doing more to actively learn and connect with james’ culture but is so lost on where to start

sirius who heard effie call james mijo every day consistently until one day she calls him Jaime

not james, jaime

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james what the fuck was that?

what?

your mom?? she called you- what did she call you?

my name? jaime?? yk, james in spanish?

…. so your name is jaime?

yeah? i mean it’s also jam-

AM I RACIST??

cue the panic of oh my god im just like my family omg am i colonizing you?? is it offensive james- fuck jaime im so fuckingsorryinevermeanttobe-

to which james would spend 30 minutes reassuring him its fine and he goes by both names and its absolutely no big deal and no padfoot you arent racist

and it is fine… until they go to sleep and sirius decides he needs to do better so he stays up all night determined he will learn spanish in one night

well, “learn” is a loose term, charm and spell his way to spanish

except, fucking wizards havent made a spell for this yet?? what??? fine I’ll make my own

sirius who, the morning after sits at breakfast tight lipped because oh he fucked up

and james asks whats wrong and sirius refuses to say a word for hours until eventually james gets sick of whatever is going on and tickles sirius to get him to talk

and sirius opens his mouth to tell james to stop, only for there to be absolute silence following, and then

laughter

james is on the floor crying. effie is bent over trying not to laugh too. through the door to the kitchen you can hear fleamont make no such attempt to hold his in

because sirius got the spell right, he can now speak spanish. the issue? he only charmed his voice to know grammar and vocabulary, he still has his accent

the OTHER issue? he can ONLY speak spanish

so sirius now sounds like a “no sabo, donde esta la biblioteca?” kid with his posh accent and shit pronunciation

james has a good 20 minutes of rolling around on the ground while sirius explains in aWfUl spanish what he did last night before james gets up to help undo the damage lest he bursts a lung from laughing

except, sirius MADE the spell, so undoing it is tricky. there’s no counter charm yet given sirius didnt come up with one and now he cant speak latin even to cast anything

after hours james has gotten nowhere, and effie refuses to help because its funny its not like its causing anyone harm so there’s no rush

so james thinks, what if instead of a counter curse he just makes another spell all together? one to fix sirius’ pronunciation. he’d be speaking spanish but at least they could take him siriusly seriously

long story short its been hours. he’s been switching back and forth between a counter curse and trying the new pronunciation spell and, well, his brain sorta starts mixing both

so at 4am one fine summer monday, james’ wand casts a light as it works its magic on a half asleep sirius, both of them freeze and stare at each other because oh merlin did they do it?

and sirius opens his mouth and- out comes english

FINALLY, ENGLISH

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…in a tHick colombian accent

okay so maybe james forgot he didnt need to fix his spanish pronunciation if he was making him speak english again

so now sirius just sounds like he’s mocking james’ accent

all of this to respect james’ culture and now he sounded aCtUaLlY racist?? kill him

#i couldnt decide if sirius speaking spanish with english pronunciation or english with a colombian accent was funnier #so both it is #marauders era #marauders headcanon #moony wormtail padfoot and prongs #james potter #sirius black #euphemia potter #fleamont potter #the potters #latino james potter

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rubiesintherough · 2 years ago

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#welp. just logged onto my resource blog and i have the new dash there #and its so overwhelming i cant handle it and process it and i started getting panicky #bc my brain cant handle that much coming at it at once #so just want to give a forewarning now #if i log on here and my dash is like that #i will be going on hiatus until there's a patch on xkit or something to fix it or an option to revert it back #bc i will not be able to be on here dealing with all the extra stuff on my screen #fuck you tumblr staff. hope you choke.#writing here and being here is one of the few coping skills i have left #with my life going to shit and you're making it completely unusable to me #so yeah #sorry everybody but want to drop this ahead of time #in case it happens before a patch comes out #i'll drop a post going on hiatus if i log on and my dash is changed #bc i can't.#i cant fucking deal with all this right now #hope tumblr staff reverts it bc they're fucking idiots #and maybe they should listen to their user base for ONCE in their incompetent lives #venting tw #negativity tw

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casualavocados · 7 months ago

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Learn from who? Learn from you? You are still a brat. What do you know? You're only three years older. Like you are any better than me. You're 21, and still a virgin. What are you proud of? I think you can't do it.

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 06

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #ai di x chen yi #chen yi x ai di #nat chen #chen bowen #louis chiang #chiang tien #jiang dian #userspring #uservid #userspicy #userrain #pdribs #userjjessi #*cajedit #*gif #*gestures at the caption* this is honestly the funniest argument they could possibly have idfk what to tell you. it's very ai di #meanwhile whatever's going through chen yi's head rn has recently been doused with 'the boss doesnt care abt me like that'#after watching cdy and zml at dinner. like chen yi already knows *before* ep9 & ai dis confession that cdy will never look at him #(the diff. between this scene & ep9's. is him failing in regards to the gang as well in cdy's eyes. he goes from feelings of disappointment #& irritability to complete despair and both times he drinks to cope. bc hes not enough in cdy's eyes in ANY of the ways he wants/hoped)#so honestly the crisis chen yi goes thru right here isnt unfounded at all hes literally dealing w an inadvertent rejection of his feelings #its chaos in his head and ai di is picking at him again and the wine is tilting in his blood and then- 'learn from who? learn from you?'#like what do YOU know about love ai di (WHILE CHEN YI'S PULLING HIM LIKE THAT-) so OF COURSE ai di goes for the deepest dig he can.#'i bet you cant get hard that explains how much of a coward you are'. its ridiculous the ways in which they push each other over the edge #but im ngl im kind of obsessed the way chen yi's tipsy line of thinking 'learn from you?' turned into the action 'fuck it learn from ME'#ANYWAY EVERYONE GO LISTEN TO 'LOSE CONTROL' BY TEDDY SWIMS RIGHT THE FUCK NOW. THe most chen yi song pre-ep9

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risingsunresistance · 17 days ago

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sorry him saying he has no idea where the misogyny thing comes from when ludwig just talked about how he sent him a big apology for calling his friend a whore when it was about THE WRONG WOMAN is funny as fuck

i dont think he realizes that the reason no one gives a shit about his apologies and honestly just straight up ignores them is because EVEN IN THE EVENT THAT THEY ARE TRUE he's been proven to lie soooooo many times to the point where you really cant believe a word that comes out of his mouth. he says something and im like "damn maybe i was wrong about that one... i'll look into it" and you get more info and go "oh. he just made that part up. and misworded that. and lied about that part... oh it was actually WORSE than i initially thought!"

#im sure tommy has done some dumb shit #i am MUCH more likely to believe he can change and grow as a person than you can 🧍#im willing to stick by him and watch him become a better person and own up to his mistakes #i have been trying so hard to see the good in you for like 4 years now and i just. cant. every time i think i might be wrong im right again #i HATE to bring it back to this bc it's such a non-issue and not very relevant but #the speedrun issue really was where he showed his true colors #the actual subject here doesnt matter im talking about the way he handled it. im still pissed off all this time later i'll never get over i #he cheats. BLATANTLY cheats. gets proven. sends his mob after the mods. denies everything #hires someone with all this money he has to say he didnt cheat (BUT THE GUY NEVER EVEN SAYS THAT HE JUST CLAIMS THE GUY SAYS IT)#(BC HE DOESNT EXPECT ANYONE TO ACTUALLY READ THIS DOC HE THINKS HIS SUMMARY IS ALL THAT MATTERS)#finds out he did cheat But On Accident (supposedly)#DOESNT SAY SHIT FOR MONTHS AND LETS EVERYONE CONTINUE TO HARASS THE MODS. GEO IS SUICIDAL #and then does a stream where he's like haha hey guys so umm i did an oopsie 😝 but i didnt cheat this isnt cheating it's just. lying!#anyways it doesnt matter bc this was so fun and i had a blast making content :) and besides it isnt a big deal anyways it's just a game :)#months of harassment didnt affect ME so you should be fine :D was a lot of fun thx guys :)#THAT SHIT was where i lost all respect for him #THAT was where i saw this same pattern every damn time #doesnt matter how big or small the issue is it's the same damn thing every single time #even when you're right. you've destroyed all your credibility by continuing this behavior!#yeah you're valid in thinking tommy downplaying your videos is just mean but. frankly i dont give a fuck!#you're probably right about a few other things too and again i just dont care!! he can change and grow and you never will!!!#i'm willing to give him a chance. you've had PLEEEEENTY of chances and havent taken a single one #chat #discourse #i guess? idk this is the only angry rant i'll do. i feel bad might as well add to it lmao

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dailykugisaki · 4 months ago

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Day 335 | id in alt

Being desperate to end the fight might make you even worse off in the long run, Shoko.

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #shoko ieri #ieri shoko #utahime iori #Kugisaki opening her eye not even fully like all the way knowing her shit yet and immediately getting shot with 1 Ml of Adrenaline #Shoko actually regretting her actions for once #Kugisaki probably going through the most insane shit right now she probably cant feel any of her limbs at the moment #dont shoot adrenaline into a fresh out the coma child Shoko #The funniest part is. Shoko didn't train to actually do this medical shit she foes autopsy's bro she dosent know how much the body can #the body can take #Shoko does not know she probably gave Kugisaki more brain damage #Shes just sitting there with a fucked up girl using her technique #Because they BOTH dont know whats going on #utahime is tweaking the fuck out but shes gonna be okay(she'll be thinking about it for years)#Kugisaki was in a state of genuine disability where she had to be cared for by others that didn't know what they were doing #Shoko STILL dosent know. Its not her fault shes used to dealing with corpses #shoko becoming a presudo caretaker of Kugisaki because she feels guilty about this massive fuck up #Shoko probably thought she was just like the higher ups in that moment and had to stare at a wall #Kugisaki wigging out and shes half fucked in a state of limbo because DAMN that idle transfiguration made her believe she DIED #Anything to win the fight against the king of curses y'know #Nobody really knows about what happened except Shoko. Utahime and Kugisaki herself so. And you know theyre not gonna say anything #youd have better chances talking to a rock #why did i make this? my brain spiraled

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bitchfitch · 4 months ago

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I've started playing Potion Permit, and so far it's one of my favorite games I've messed around with, but the most big brained move the devs made was giving you a dog on day 1, and then making that dog able to track NPCs and lead you directly to them no matter where they are in the town.

#im still early game but i like the play and the writing is passable #like #Theres a flatness #the characters Are distinct but theyre mostly just their jobs #with only a few who stand out and have like. something to really grab onto #Like rue? rues entire deal is little girl you can date. Nothing else behind those eyes. She has nothing better to talk to you about #than the fact her favorite color is red #Sorcelia? Sorcelia is a goth nun who loves singing and teaches one of the village children #Reynerd? sure is a guy #got nothing else to say about him. hes just a Guy™. Victor? Has ghost friends and loves bugs and cares deeply about the cemetery #he tends to. At the moment it feels like they're trying to imply there aren't actually ghosts. and hes just talking to himself/#insisting his imaginary friends are real people #and so far? The games been cool about it. Victor's a member of his community and his eccentricities are accepted and not ridiculed #all four characters ive mentioned are romance candidates. but its just as hit or miss with the regular towns folk #Opalheart is an older woman and a world renowned blacksmith who only takes jobs if they will do Good. regardless of whether or not they #pay well. She declines to make a dagger for a rich man but makes a helmet for a childs father bc the girl asked #and olive is here #anyways you can be best friends with a cat (shes just a regular cat) and i appreciate that #idk im putting it above sun haven in my ranking of life sim games #purely because there are older romance candidates.#no fat romance candidates. but sun haven doesn't have thise either.#and sdv has neither fat or old candidates Nor can you fuck a cat boy. it goes at the bottom.#gameplay wise sunhaven is at the bottom then sdv then potion permit at the top. sunhaven has the Most™ but having #a lot of crap doesn't mean its fun and it ends up making half the game feel really incomplete #idk. Sdv is a game you should've started playing a year ago. sun haven is a game that perpetually needs another year worth of updates #before id say its worth it bc the devs keep pushing content ™ updates instead of quality of life or polish so what is there is uh #Bad. plentiful. and a large portion is good #but a Lot is just bad.#its insincere and cant take itself seriously it gives you (the right dialogue option) an (the shit joke option) which is worse than just #i ram out of space. tldr. potion permit is good Now. sdv Was good. sun haven Might be great Eventually

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triglycercule · 2 months ago

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i feel like horror would have sourdough starter. he doesn't even use it to bake he just keeps it alive like a funny little experiment. the yeast in that starter will never get to experience the fulfillment of becoming bread unfortunately

and then he totally gets mad at dust and killer if they dont take care of it properly when he can't. WDYM THE STARTER OVERFLOWED!!! YOURE SUPPOSED TO ADD LESS WATER!!!! that's his baby guys he named it and decorated the jar and EVERYTHING 💔

#would this be considered torture if sourdough starter is alive #dust is also into the little yeast experiment but he doesn't wanna get yelled @ by horror (he dont feel like dealing with that)#he wants to know what would happen if lead were dumped into the starter. good thing horror doesnt bake with this #so he just gets killer to do all of the care for the starter when horror cant #plausible deniability and all that. at least killer's the one that gets yelled at instead of him!#horror probably does have a seperate jar of starter he keeps seperate for baking #if dust and killer find it he'll make them all match skulls #I FUCKING HATE MAGMA WHY IS THAY STUOID ASS WEBSITE SO CONFUSING #HOW DO.PEOPLE USE IT OH MY GOOOOOF THIS SUCKS BALLS BIG HAIRY BALLS #IK GONNA SCRATCH MY SKIN UNTIL IT BLEED LET ME DRAW!!! YOU FUCK!!! THE BRUSH PRESSURE IS SO SHIT #WHY IS IT NOT PICKING UO WHEN I DRAW I HATE THIS #anyways. this is horror cooking propaganda idc if he'd be ass at it #man. this sucks. i dont like magma. please let me use ibispaint layout and everything. ibispaint save me ibispaint save me #siiiigh. okay. time to post this. people who see this will definitely see this guys.#me on my way to send a post off the populate the murder time trio tag daily #tricule hc #killer sans #dust sans #horror sans #murder time trio #utmv #sans au #nothing serious right now because i really dont feel up to it #guys if you liked this post like and subscribe for more. listen i give tou an mtt playlist what else do you eant fron me #i do as much as i can while balancing my office job and college education (i say. unemployed and in high school)

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transsextual · 22 hours ago

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i think i have problems and issues

#read this like 2014 interview with anthony green last night where he talks about dealing w heroin addiction and #there was a portion of the interview where he was like. i wasnt unsafe for my kids to be around but i was high around them i wasnt present #with them and im embarrassed to have not been more there with them.#and watched an interview call he did in like 2024 #where he talks about wanting to give his kids “space to talk freely” that he didnt have as a kid...#and that he wants to make a space for them that's honest and open and where they can tell him about anything.#and how it's been important for him to come to terms with abuse he went through so that he can make sure they have the support and safety #they need #and its like.... head in my hands #[about to make this about my father issues]#i wish my dad had the ability to ***consistently*** be like. i'm embarrassed by the ways i acted around you and i want to be better for you #and i wish he had been able to really sit with and recognize how fucked some parts of his childhood were ... and ***consistently*** reflect #everything with him is so confusing and exhausting right now. it #it's so hard to articulate what i need from him.. but.#it fucking hurts to see anthony. whose music has gotten me through so much of the past two years—#which have been defined in large part by my understanding of my dad and relationship with him shifting dramatically—#talk in interviews about his mental health issues and wanting to be present with his kids and give them openness and #be honest with them about what's happened to him and how he wants them to be able to tell him about anything.#and know that. my dad wanted to give me and my little brother openness and safety too. but he was stuck i think in a lot of ways.#and now there's all this damage done. and i still can't count on him not to blame me or my little brother for his own actions.#i cant count on him to actually listen to me. and i tell him that and he tells me he's listening.#i can't count on him to not talk about the possibility that he kills himself around me or even to pick up on the fact that.#that's like. not something you put on your fucking kid.#i Know that when i step away from him‐ because i have trouble setting boundaries and being honest when we're close-#he feels like i'm abandoning him.#and . god. to have been told. by him and HIS THERAPIST. . that if we are to have a relationship. is to not DISAPPEAR .#just reinforces the part of me that feels wholly responsible for his emotional well-being. and im HIS SON.#and then to think that he tried to . dad-break-up with me over the summer and blamed me for 'deciding he's not trustworthy' after he was #after he was so controlling and hurtful to my mom and brother for years and rejected my gentle attempts to call him on it. like.#i wish he had been able to be more like the kind of parent anthony appears 2 b. i hope he can start learning now but hoping keeps hurting me

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green-mountain-goose · 4 months ago

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no but like i'm too stubborn to live without things being right

#vagueposting #like the thing is though if i didnt think i was right and carve out a space for myself #no matter how much i had to hide everything #i wouldve burst sooner #and it wouldnt have even been as.... idk #okay? prepared? understood? as rn #because like #i know what i want and need and what i need for out #and also why i need out specifically #like its a definitive need now #like damn yeah fuck i'd really really really desparately like a responsible adult rn #who acts as a parent #but thats not happening #and i'm too old for it now #you cant go back and replace those years #but i'll try my best with what i have #and with at least semi-responsible adults #as theyre not responsible like parents #more like people who are concerned with my 'wellbeing' / doing okay in life of me #but like they cant make me make descisions or even in some ways take my responsibilities #but okay fine at least i have that #and i guess its jsut keep on keeping on and keeping myself afloat #god also i am waiting for that therapy #i feel like the bubble popped #i need to earnestly talk about and deal with all the shit i havent processed

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s-ccaam-era-crepe · 2 months ago

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why the fuck right now. why ever actually..

#camera talks #i might die #i feel sick again #idc if i dont have any classes with them rn. just knowing i have to be in the same building #with someone who was mentally and emotionally abusive to me is freaking me out #ofc its the day i dont go to school either so i have a safe space all to myself to spiral and cry my Fucking eyes out #im glad ive been told /gen bc if i saw them without knowing beforehand i would have had a lot more problems #but i dont know if i Wont have these problems either tho #i dont know what i'll do if i See them #i've been so so happy and i feel like ive been working through some stuff and i have so many people that i love and care for #and that love and care for me #but just knowing they're around again is crumbling everything in my brain #i dont know what to do #i feel stuck and broken and i dont feel like anybody else was nearly as affected with this as i was*#*fun fact this is part of the disorder yay (not the time but)#nor do they care as much #and im just so so upset that i have to deal with this. Right now. this year #i want to be able to live my life happily with the people i love and i feel like i Cant #fuck. whatever okay.#vent #delete later

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themyscirah · 10 months ago

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Suffering more than Jesus atm (being a fan of 80s/90s Suicide squad in 2024)

#god amanda waller what did they do to you....#i KNOW i never shut up about this but GUYS ITS SO BAD #fucking WHY would you take the interesting antihero protagonist and then strip her of any redeeming quality and use her as this horrific #unforgivable villain who is treated as a hated antagonist in her own comics #WHERE SHE ISNT EVEN THE MAIN CHARACTER MOST OF THE TIME #like why are you trying to make me sympathize with fucking harley quinn or smth when the actual main character is right there. why are we #turning her into this horrific villain w a million master plans making deals with the devil and shit.#we are supposed to like her. like maybe not all dc fans do because shes almost always an antagonist in other books but in her own shes the #main character!!! there should be some aspect of interest or sympathy for her. as opposed to just making her like badass or whatever #so sick of this #and its in freaking EVERYTHING right now on god i cant read other comics that are otherwise good (like ga) and enjoy them without the #obligatory intense demonification of one of my fave characters #like shes my no 6 in locg for a reason i genuinely love waller like yeah she sucks sometimes but shes INTERESTING.#this is not interesting or creative in any way what theyre doing with her #this genuinely could have been any government baddie like honestly #dont flatten 3 dimensional characters into 1 dimension (or at best like 1.5) to tell a story you tell the story around the 3d characters.#why do i need to say this. basic competent storytime #blah #amanda waller #istg i throw out another waller rant every freaking tuesday on here #suicide squad #you know what. at least we had the movie #you heard me. higher hopes for the new gunn dceu series than actual comics for the forseeable future #viola davis save me...#need to do a bit of 00s reading still to verify but on god watch this all come down to a fucking new 52 thing. like not to say that i think #thats where it all went wrong bc i need to read more to verify but i have an idea of what rlly did it and i think it was a nu52 decision #but then again maybe im stupid

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dirt-str1der · 2 months ago

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Quivering and hooking my fingers into my mouth and biting down hard on them sobbing because the anime

#Listen to my problems #oh god the anime ...#i like calling myself a male fujo because fundanshi doesnt have the same rep and i want people to know what theyre dealing with #hang on i think i left tsukasa in the car #oh fuck my sweetie ..... !!!! he died of carbon monoxide :((((#i miss him so much ... hes like my muse but i cant use that word anymore after what happened with mars. once in a lifetime event #now i can only say 'i like himm :3' because i do. and hes my best friend #hes such a character hes literally all about momentum hes defined by it. Hes so intelligent and quick but when it comes to his life goals #and longterm direction you can kind of tell he wasnt banking on living long and it carries over. that kind of lifestyle and mindset that #held him together for more than a decade is difficult to shed. he hasnt had a chance to grow since the first time he realised his parents #wouldnt lift a finger to take care of him. it was all about survival and stitching blinkers into the sides of your head so you dont falter #dont think about how youre going to get through this just get through it. dont think about how youre going to be doing this for the rest of #your life just get it done. he clipped his own wings and chained himself to the rock he believed in so that when it was dropped in the ocean #he would fall with it without question this is a man who cut his own brake lines because stopping was not an option hes so coooool i cannot #stress enough how he was going to die a horrible death if the world hadnt ended and suddenly he was freed from all obligations. the second #he was awake though ? right back to it. suddenly its his job to recreate the world anew. pure. according to his ideals. nobody should have #to suffer as he did and he will protect them all... hes responsible for them all. it wont be the same as last time this time for sure theyll #get it right. Right? of course theres no room for doubt. that voice at the back of his head has to be crushed underfoot if he stops moving #then he'll fail and he cannot fail ... thats all there is to it he just cant fail. hes literally awesome ... my best friend tsukasaaaaa #and the other guy too i guess

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orcelito · 11 months ago

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Man it does suck that ITNL keeps having such long hiatuses. Like it really isn't normal for me to completely disappear for a month or two (or three+) at a time with my writing. I just keep having to deal with all these fucking DEATHS. Wish I wasn't going on so many hiatuses, either.

#speculation nation #my cat my uncle my grandma's best friend and the biggest of all My Fucking Dad #i have so many things i want to get to with ITNL. so many things im excited for.#but i just cant deal with the heavy subject matter right now. even if i did have time to write.#ive been reading some fics but Specifically primarily lighthearted ones.#cant do anything too dark. im normally a hurt/comfort bitch but Not Right Now.#im just trying to get by. writing my serious piece will have to wait.

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arolegos · 3 months ago

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how the motherfuckers in college feel after giving you info LAST FUCKING MINUTE. DO THEY WANT ME TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF I SWEAR TO GODDDDDDDD

#by god you shall see me on the news #WHY DOES MY COLLEGE DO THIS ALL THE FUCKING TIME #FIRST WITH CLASS LOCATIONS NOW WITH CLASSES THEMSELVES? WHY CANT THEY LET US KNOW A WEEK IN ADVANCE??? THAT CANNOT BE TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR??#ITS SO FUCKING ANNOYINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG #i cant do this anymore #AND ITS NOT EVEN LIKE A ME-SPECIFIC ISSUE #ALL MY OTHER FRIENDS HATE THEIR COLLEGE TOO THEY DO NOT GIVE INFO ASAP #fucking annoying ass institution #i dont wanna be here anymore bruh no wonder bitches drop out all the time #a professor is allowed to be late for a whole HOUR and they're allowed to randomly switch the location to a different BUILDING but #im not allowed to be more than 15 mins late. like ok. what if i killed you #theyre allowed to MAKE U RUN ACROSS CAMPUS TO THAT DIFF BUILDING BUT I CANT BRING TEA INSIDE THE CLASS?!?!? ALRIGHT.#stupid complaints . no shit theyre allowed to do that. it still makes me mad #god taht building thing actually pissed me tf off . when i say lastminute i MEAN LAST MINUTE #THEY TOLD ME THEY SWAPPED BUILDINGS ON THE EXACT HOUR THE CLASS STARTED LIKE WTF #this is just a rant #im like really mad . right now. cause i accidentally skipped a class. again.#ugh i know its not that BIG of a deal i missed once for one class but it still makes me so fucking mad bc #i couldve easily gone in IF I HAD KNOWN BEFOREHAND #is it really that hard to update ur students. omfg.#THE ONLY REASON I EVEN KNEW WE HAD CLASS TDY WAS BC MY FRIEND DM'D ME #'im late" WAIT HUH!?!??!? LATE TO WHAT BRUH #ohh its over i cant keep up like that #this means i have to actually lock in and get the best grades ever. omfg.#blabberpar #IM SO MAD IM SO MAD IM SO MAD #im so mad i could. end up on the news.#starting now im checking that damn portal and all the news in the world .#omfg.#im so mad man.

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 3 months ago

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Had an ADHD assessment a few years ago and the fuckwit that assessed me said, as a direct quote, "You're too smart to have ADHD." Like that's not any type of paraphrasing, that stupid fucking statement is burned in my brain forever and has been since I heard it.

I talked to my psychiatrist about getting a referral to a different psychologist for assessment, and she agreed and sent it in.

Today I got a call that said they don't agree that I need reassessment, and I'm welcome to pursue it elsewhere, but they won't provide reassessment. Which is just.

I don't even know where to start with that one. I just needed to get it out. I'm so tired.

#'we really dont think youre adhd so were not even going to let you pay to check again'#WHAT #thats an option?#they can just say that they really dont think its a problem for me so they wont waste their time?#the first fuckwit that assessed me said im too fucking smart to have adhd!!#thats not a fucking compliment and every professional ive spoken to since then has said 'yesh thats not right tey for reassessment'#i just had to write this down because #this morning i was showering before work and they called me and left a message #so i checked the message right before work cuz i saw it was them and i assumed they wanted to set up the reassessment #because i got a referral. but theur message literally just said that bullshit #and because it was right before work i had to pack that away #because trying to deal with that in addition to a shift at fucking mcdonalds wouldve killed me #but because i set it aside i just keep forgetting about it. so i needed to write this down to remind myself #that this is my life and this is the bullshit i get to deal with in this life #im so tired. i dont even know what to say here. what to think or anything #'youre too smart to have adhd. we're so sure of that that we're not gonna check again. waste someone else's time. bye!'#i wish the world worked the way healthcare 'professionals' think it works #what a beautiful world it would be. you could lose weight just by trying and when you lose weight all of your health problems disappear!#you cant have any mental health problems if you are smart or seem kinda normal or are a woman #i am resisting the urge to. i don't even know. i want to do something angry and destructive but i don't even care #at least now i dont have to drive two hours and pay $160 just to be told that i am too smart to have problems #and actually all of my problems are due to my anxiety and the fact that im female #god i wish that was the case. ill go on t if it makes my problems valid. would you like that?#what do i have to do to convince people i have problems? i will fully physically transition to be taken more seriously #would that help?? would that fucking help???????????????#anyway. i was about to say i wish i wasnt mentally ill. but i dont #being mentally ill is chill. its like a roommate that lives up there and weve lived together awhile so its chill #the only problem are the idiots they pay to deal with mental illness. at this point i dont think they have qualifications #theyre just bringing in men off the street. and theyre the real problem. goodnight folks #dont have the audacity to be mentally ill in this economy. its not worth it

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iknowwhereyousleepatnight · 3 months ago

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could really go for some blunt force trauma a concussion three broken ribs health insurance and a doctors note that gets me an extra week on deadlines rn

#if i was insured you know i'd be jumping down into the ditch and breaking my arm right now. fuck my stupid baka life i hate everything and #everyone man i wish i had a substance to abuse rn i cant fucking deal with this shit im literally going to fucking fail my class all becaus #my fucking paper didnt fucking autosave i fucking hate this shit

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