#i cant deal with this ep its incredible

[merthurians-prat-and-idiot]

The parallels are immaculate omfg-

Buck in 2x01 trying to show off lifting weights to be better than the new guy

Buck in 6x04 trying to show off lifting weights to get Eddie's attention off of the other guy

[clockworkcheetah]

*shaking your shoulders* hiiiii tell me everything about your thought process behind writing your incredible bangfic the bad dog nerves, inspiration characters writing EVERYTHING it's so good tell us more

hiii getting to talk about my creations!!! ahhh

ok so cause its been a couple of months and my memory is nothingness aka im a little hazy on some stuff. buuuuuut i distinctly remember several things that heavily inspired TBDN im just gonna run my thoughts as they come so i apologise if its incoherent. i am also putting this under a readmore for the sake of everyone. and because spoilers for the fic

first inspo was deathmark2 cause it got its english translation earlier this year (i love deathmark but ill say everytime i talk of it its very difficult to recommend cause it needs so many content warnings). im very much the kinda person who can and will mash fandoms together- ill make those parallels. god cant stop me. basically dm is what got the ball rolling for me- spirits and possession and influenced moods. its only inspired pretty loosely by dm- very much the general concept/brainrot for both fandoms kinda deal. also more horror elements in dghda yes pls

another thing that inspired it was the doctor who ep 'midnight'. that ep was chilling- i think about how you can tell ten is fully awake and aware during his possession and it stuck with me- a+ acting from david. its a fear of mine being fully awake/aware whilst having no control of your body/immobilised and you cant do anything but wait for the inevitable. granted todd leaned more towards anger, or like the five stages of grief, than fear. but that felt more him also cause it went on longer than a few hours (or rather he expresses his fear through anger/lashing out) but i wanted that ugly rawness of it- hes nervous like a bad dog ay ayyyyyyy

(i sorta wish i went harder with it at the end with his scene with dirk, but alas he was burnt out and healing)

also tbh i just love scenes like that in media too. the character is right there! its so close and nobody is helping them so they gotta save their own ass and be a bitch about it

also i just kinda wanted more fics where dirk just fucks up?? like theres no hoops being jumped through to make what he said right (im not exactly a fan of this fanon!dirk where hes this saint who does no wrong/is always right/everyone else is to blame) so that was a goal in mind when writing this- dirk mostly, but also amanda to an extent of being wrong (not like in some horrible malicious way just. you made a bad call. u gotta live with it). also why todd was quicker to forgive farah (or at least be on better terms with her than the others- i really wish i included a convo between them aw well) granted these arent really specific to this fic- i like to have it in other fics, i need those two to fuck up. as well as todd getting to be angry/upset without this notion that he cant cause he did bad things therefore can only be bad, undeserving person forever cause thats how it works obviously (look if i wanted content of todd fucking up id watch the show lemme have something else with fics- ok ill stop being salty now asdfghjkl;)

i also really wanted the aftermath of what happened to be explored (i love the concept of possession/mindcontrol but shows kinda brush it off after the character is freed. like??? youre telling theyre all sunshine and fine now??? no way, theres gonna be a recovery period. aka todds body being weak from literally having zero nutrients, miru not taking care of the body, also learning to have control of his own body again

with the characters or i guess specifically project miru, she wasnt inspired by anything specific. i really like tragic but unsympathetic characters in media so wanted to have a try at it, and to explore the whole riggins' favouritism towards dirk and how the other projects may have felt. idk how well i pulled it off but i had fun writing her interactions with todd even if it was mostly them being dicks to eachother and being a dick to everyone

ok my brain is starting to run on empty so ill close up this haha.

im sure this is universal but when i got the idea of this fic i had the immediate The Scenes™️ for it. they were: amandas confrontation and realising that oh shit it isnt todd the whole time that scene was vivid in my head (also fave scene to write!!) and the other is the final scene with dirk and todd and todd breaking down. todds kinda the 'strong' one of the two (to dirk) and the caretaker- so someone takes care of him and lets him be upset with everyone

but yeah!!! some of my thoughts behind the creation of TBDN 💖🥰🧡 theres stuff i wish i included in the fic and ideas i had after i had already posted but im happy with it regardless. at its core i just wanted some sweet sweet todd whump i wanna traumatise that little man

[thefringespod]

Its #AudioDramaSunday somewhere so we're going to do a late post!

Starting things off with episode 7.5 of @tellnotalespod where Leanne once again breaks my heart 💜 The way Leanne writes people talking about their queer experiences will always gut me, they're so wonderfully done

Up next, early release for @souloperatorpod episode 8. I sent @totcoc0a a 4.5 minute long voice message after that one. Do with that what you will

@camlannpod episode 7 did irreparable damage to me <3 I listened to it after having emotional damage dealt by TNT and SO which made it hurt 10 times worse. The reveal about Dai was *so* well done but also Ella Watts I'm shaking you (affectionate)

@woebegonepod episode 153 also did emotional damage to me. This was a great week for dealing emotional damage to Pine! 153 was one part fun and funny and one part me grasping at my chest going "Oh gods" over and over again. It was great! Easily in my top 10 eps

This week saw the triumphant return of @thesiltverses ! The twists and turns of this episode were phenomenal and I cannot believe how much it made me root for Shrue. Just 10/10 writing and Sarah Griffin went above and beyond with their performance

The Magnus Protocol also returned this week and gods was it something. The statement itself was absolutely enthralling but the plot bits outside the statement have been rattling in my brain. Mr. Bonzo has a license to kill. I will live in fear forever

@audistorium released a new episode on their patreon which was read by the incredible @madd-vo! I cant wait for public release so I can scream about it. Lemon wrote a 10 minute long episode that has wormed its way into my brain forever

Speaking of Lemon, he also made a heartfelt and tear inducing video which has been released on the Audistorium socials. I'm so lucky to get to know Lemon and to see this show he's building, he's so kind and the way he's building his community is incredible

Here on the Fringes, I have recorded the first draft of the Q&A! It was very long and rambley so I am going to be giving it a listen and then possibly recording some bits to be better answers, but expect that coming soon!

And over on @forgedbondspod we have 11 episodes left to write! I'm so excited to write this final arc of the show and share it with my cast. Speaking of my cast, I've gotten some more recordings in for the first half of the show and gods yall they're so fucking good

If you would like to support the Fringes and Forged Bonds and whatever else I make next, you can do so at patreon.com/PineTreePods! And if you have suggestions for content you would like to see on patreon, please let me know!

That's all for this week! I'm looking forward to what lies ahead and can't wait to share stuff with yall

[storiesofsvu]

uhhhh... yeah

criminal minds evo thought

Christ

It took til nearly 4:30 am for it to be uploaded to the links I have and I am TIRED so excuse me if I tire out early or if I don’t commentary the whole ep.

Im also hungry af.

This was a terrible idea LOL

The system jade and Damian had honestly fucking slaps. Like, it was do or die. They both knew that there would be red dots around the scene from the other guns and that at his feet could easily be the sign of “im watching” and him signalling killed me

How tf did this trooper recognize her from her fucking driver’s but not in person???

Ooookay, here’s number five?

I get the whole attorney client privilege but these seems VERY dramatic and not realistic but what do I know? Lol I only watch crime shows

Jill: “I only kissed you to distract you” LOL

Emily’s little super light gray highlight right passed her pangs on her right kills me every time.

Rebecca is SERVING this season, she’s SO good.

A spencer mention!!! The girlies will be happy

Fuck I just remembered this is the second last ep and some heavy shit is likely gonna happen. Fuck..

Gouged out his EYES!!?? Jfc

Tara… pls stop talking w your hands, its incredibly distracting…

Honestly.. im here for the tyler Emily partnership this season

A bunker… interesting.. OHHH it’s the bunker with all the bau info!

Jill’s so fucking hot. Like, desperate housewives felicity was one thing but milf dr felicity is something ELSE

Elias is such a good liar and incredible character/actor, no matter how much we hate him

Okay, im not gonna lie, I really like tyler, esp now that his entire personality isn’t revolving around being garcia’s interest

Oh GOD emily’s in the red shirt…. If it’s a long sleeve then that’s the one we’ve seen from the promo pic of her looking like shes been attacked (not that we weren’t expecting it for this ep)

Man I was REALLY hoping for an “agent…” after that prick was all “ms prentiss”

Not Emily sitting like a lesbian yet again

Im REALLY happy with the way Rebecca has been involved in this season and how she’s slowly not like, switching sides, but like, giving more info and intel into the bau and trusting them more and giving them more info. Also Nicole is acting her ASS of this season and I LOVE it

Is this cult leader kinda hot or is it just my fucking daddy issues? LOL

Ohhhh THAT is a military stance from the other girl. She’s literally fully controlled.

WELL FUCK

Oh god now jades questioning things, girl don’t do that he gonna kill you

How and why did her hair go from a ponytail to down in one minute? Woof continuity error

SIXTEEN?? That girl looked at LEAST twenty. (which like I get, cause actors but like fuck)

DAMN okay, trigger warning for this ep, sexual assault. Its not super graphic but like, could still use the warning.

I dunno if its highlight or moonlight on jade’s cheekbones but DAMN I want it

Im honestly loving the whole having a lawyer working with the team, like, seeing them having to wait for warrants helps me little legal thinking brain. HOWEVER. its only cause I like Rebecca, I do really like how old cm was where we never had to deal with legal shit

WHY ARE THEY FUCKING KISSING AGAIN JFC NOOO

Okay ,tyler going into the field stresses me out. Cause like, I like him now, pls don’t kill him

This is gonna be one hell of a fucking cliffhanger isn’t it?

I know jade is an unsub but I am ROOTING FOR HER!

“unit chief Emily prentiss” SERVING FUCKING CUNT.

I don’t care that they were held at the gates, she served cunt

NOT JADE SACRIFICING HERSELF!

LOL Rebecca being all “please don’t stir the fire”

WE CANT TELL EMILY NOT TO DO SOMETHING, HAVENT WE LEARNT THIS

“this seems familiar..” “what like a cult leader threatening”

AS IF THAT HASN’T HAPPENED TO EMILY HERSELF BEFORE COME ON

CAN WE NOT DO THIS AGAIN

“go ahead and shoot me”

EMILY DON’T FUCKIGN TEMPT THEM

SERVING CUUUUNTTT

IM SORRY IS JADE SETTING OFF FUCKING BOMBS?! Fuucckk

  this is giving minimal loss

they COULDN’T even give us a little like.. explosion of half the building?? They just cut it there?? Christ. Okay so why tf did everyone have their vests on still except em?? Ugh

fuck okay fine, its so late. See y’all next week.

[watmalik]

Give them a chance.

You know what, I'm rewatching the episode again and I read the articles. And yes, although it is still a cop out with the whole Carlos' secret ordeal. I understand it, and I see why he kept it a secret and how T.K didn't made it a big deal. It is still incredibly ooc, but at the same time it's not entirely because of how selfless he is/ a people pleaser (his instincts of always making things right).

I'm not angry at the characters, perhaps at the lazy writing? yes. But I will give them a chance. Not saying y'all cant be angry, you have a right to be, but I know the rest of the season is going to be AMAZING! You guys, it's TK's and Carlos' season and we will see them go through all obstacles.

Watch the ep again, with a clear mind this time and if its not for you then that's ok too.

:)

[ghost-bard]

Riptide ep 92 spoilers (and general spoilers) liveblogging this on one post

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Gillion should now have about 3 sets of lightning fractal scars bro should be littered w scarring at this point holy fuck

ALPHONSE NO WTF IF HE DIES ILL FUCKING CRY save this metal man jay pls i am begging ik we want to save the kid but also save the funny

Oh she cast levitate on him ok this is fine this is fine

Is gil gonna make the fuckin shark high holy shit

IS HE oh its enlarge not smiting it w it ok

Gil what are you doing you silly silly man

He still doesnt have armor on oh boy his fish jammies are so silly teehee

Theyre gonna have to get a new ship again lmao

PRETZEL IS HIGH SHE GOT HOTBOXED I FEEL SO BAD FOR HER

28 POINTS OF DAMAGE HOLY SHIT how much hp does this woman have omg

Condi remembering the rules of dnd but at what cost

OMG DREY FERIN MY BELOVED AHHHHHH I LOVE HIM ayo youre checking on Finn 🤨

Guys what if the weed is what finn needed to have to wake up-

Chippp broo you good

Is jay gonna be good im so worried for her if she dies im gonna sob and piss and shit OH WAIT SHE CAN LITERALLY FLY JAY oh wait no she cant cuz concentration

Jay is so girlboss i love her teehee

YEAHHHHHH THEYRE OUT Jay solos she is the best character 💪

Oh fuck gillion lightning count is now at 5 lmao

This is so funny lmao

I hope they get a QUEEN YEAHHH MY BELOVED

Gryffon is a panda ball i love him omg did yall know Gryffon and Alphonse are my favorite crewmates i love them so much

GILLION NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO welp bye

Wowo theyre really in it huh lmao

Omg character development gillion using lay on hand on himself zeeweemama

Woah this shark is incredibly nimble anyway Chip has been swallowed

NOT THE CHEEBO TRAUMA LMAO

Bruh gillion is so slippery oh boy

GRYFFON!!!!! Hes so silly i love him teehee

Fishing trip lmao omg he dont think this is real

Bro charlies rolls this session are literal ass lmao

I really hope Dugon shows up

RAGNAROK??? GRYFFON ITS A STORM YOU DUNCE

Anyway praying that Dugon saves them 🙏

Jay uhhhhhhhhhh why arent tou attuned to your necklace ahahaha

IF JAY DIES IM ACTUALLY GONNA CRY GUYS I CANT DO THIS

ALPHOMSE 55 DMG I CANT DO THIS WAIT NOT JAY IS DONW THIS IS BAD YALL THIS IS FUCKIN BAD im gonna cry

Grizzly if you kill jay and alphonse i will actually end you

What CHIP DO NOT DROP OLLIES BOOK WTF ok thank goodness i was so worried for him

BRO HES ACTUALLY DUMB THIS IS SO FUNNY HOLY SHIT

Chip is high af this is so funny omg OH FIRE WOAH

I was so lost in the silliness that is Chip that for a moment i forgot that Jay is unconscious 💀

THE LOVE POTION IS BRO GONNA FALL IN LOVE JESUS CHRIST

NOOOOOKK I CANT DO THIS I CANT DO THIS JAY IS GONNA FUCKIN DIE I CAN FEEL IT

i hope that this stupid fuckin shark sees gil and is enamored with him and fuckin leaves cuz gil asked nicely

This is literally a tpk i cant do this im gonna cry

Finn please wake up and save your grandson PLEASE

I need them to survive

Niklaus exists i just remembered can he like show up and make another shitty deal so the group gets outta this

Wow bro is doing so many smites hes goin sicko mode

I FUCKING HATE THIS SO MUCH JAY IS GOING TO DIE I CAN FEEL IT CAN OLLIE GRAB HER OR SOMETHING wait is ollie dead-

Queen is doin queen shit i love her theyre so cool

CAN QUEEN PLEASE ASK THE SHARK VERY NICELY TO LEAVE THEM ALONE AND LIKE GO AWAY AND STUFF

YESSS CHIP KILL THE BITCH FROM THE INSIDE AND THEN GILLION CAN USE THE REST OF HIS LAY ON HANDS ON JAY AND OLLIE AND ALPHONSE AND THEYLL BE HAPPY

genuinely yall im so scared for ollie and alphonse alphonse is literally a metal man and ollie

WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT GRIZZLY DMG IS ON

BRO GRIZZLY IS TRYING TO KILL THEM WTF DUDE

Surely SURELY gil can like save them good lord

Gryffon was needed this whole foght also if Ollie is dead ahahaha i may commit a crime against one Grizzly Grizzlyplays

Im gonna fucking cry i cant do this guys HES OUT OF LAY ON HANDS?!?!???

Pls pls pls im gonna cry guys

If alphonse dies im gonna cry NO ALPHONSE??? IM NOT EVEN JOKING RN IM FUCKING CRYING IS HES DEAD I CANT DO THIS

This is too much for me guys i cant do this pls let finn wake up hes needed like right now

Fuck wheres Earl jesus christ

Gillion is gonna die bringing alphonse back next ep i can feel it

The screech i let out when grizz ended the episode like holy fuck dude

[finely-tuned-line]

RP:

ARCHIVED - PRIVATE TRANSMISSION

DD: it was actually a spice! the idea that it was a food is a common misunderstanding! very few cities thought it was a good food by itself, and some went to the extremes that eating not as a spice was... sacrilege!

SNS: kind of drastic, it's just a spice?

DD: eh, its the ancients. pretty difficult to question anything

SNS: you're probably right on that! where'd you even dig this up, it seems... well, ancient.

DD: the ancients didnt slowly phase out the "indulgence of food" til abt... at least 3250 cycles before the discovery of void fluid?

DD: i got into an argument with someone rly far away from us... nothingness and no regrets was number name i think? number city had rly good archival practice, and num was incredibly eager to disprove the "wrong" information that i had. cant even learn anyth new these cycles without arguing over it and goading them into it

DD: but from what ive picked up, before high-quality food was largely forbidden amongst most of the cities, some ancients were rly good at... cooking? it was considered art, some even dedicated dozens of their lifetimes to it

SNS: it sounds really interesting!

EP: Nerds.

SNS: i'm not the nerd here! i'd say that that would be Doubt's Dichotomy over there. she's the one who knows all of this.

DD: >:0

DD: i WILL stip talking to you

EP: I wouldn't take a misspelled sentence seriously, if I were Songs of the Negative Sunlight!

DD: YOU TOO, THEN

EP: There, there... No need to get so worked up...

SNS: maybe stop teasing it now?

EP: You're right. Sorry, Doubt's Dichotomy.

DD: its alright!

SNS: either way, hello Echoes of a Paradox! Haven't heard from you in a couple of cycles.

EP: Sorry. Was running a specific iteration of my latest attempt. Probably should have checked in earlier.

SNS: it's alright, don't worry about it!

SNS: did you succeed?

EP: You'd have heard of it by now if I had.

SNS: you're right in that matter, indeed.

FTL: I'd think that a futile try is still better than nothing.

EP: ...Right you are.

SNS: Finely-Tuned Line! haven't heard from you in even longer.

FTL: As always, I have been running various experiments. Nothing exuberantly special or outstanding to report, in any imaginable generally applicable category.

SNS: alright. take a break sometime, maybe?

FTL: I will not be doing so. I am - we are - not designed to take breaks, I will not be doing so. If you apply other thinking to yourself, that is up to you to deal with the consequences. I'll deal with mine.

EP: I'll check in more often, Songs of the Negative Sunlight. Will be leaving for now.

SNS: okay, thank you. stay safe.

FTL: I will be doing the same. That is, exiting for the meantime. No guarantees of consistent reports from me.

SNS: affirmative. you also stay safe.

SNS: ...i suppose i'll be doing the same.

SNS: contact me in any case necessary, that's what i'm here for.

DD: GOT ANOTHER. AN ENVOY TO THE OPEN FIELDS! AND SHES GOING TO TELL ME ABOUT ZIR CITY WILLINGLY!!

DD: fianlly. no one even talks to me anymore in groups unless i use an alias

DD: ...hello?

DD: anyone?

DD: guess ill celebrate on my own.

[bugtransport]

bitches be like "cant stand plotlines about the power of desire, they make me feel too much" and then watch OOO and donbros. okay OOO was an uninformed accident and donbros is bonkers and theres no way i could have possibly figured out a single plot point that happened before i actually started the show but [we irritating pic] we suffering 😂😂😂 if it wasnt fucking clear by that intro: im bitches (these are my thoughts for today under the cut)

look i'm approximately 60 years old on the inside. you might think i'm cool and fresh and in my mid twenties but that's all a ruse. nothing makes me feel older than watching someone navigate a crush for the first time (if anyone is going to bring up hongo i don't... i don't actually know what i'll do but it'll be something and it'll be drastic. don't look at me, look away actually, we're talking about sonoi here. and shut up as well.)

i hate sonoi so fucking much he haunts me. what is wrong with him. i say this but also i know exactly what's wrong with him and it's that he's never had a crush before and is acting up. I HATE THINKING ABOUT IT OH FGUCKIGN its like he's at that stage where you like someone a lot and you just cant look at them. at all. or is that a me thing and im embarrassing myself publicly again. i swear this is a common occurrence-

he's at that stage where he's overthinking everything that happens with tarou. he's both convinced that he should not be around tarou because he doesn't want his feelings to get in the way of his mission or whatever but also he's sending tarou a proxy with a message from him? and getting upset when it's delivered wrong?? my man is out here listening to sononi go off about a completely unrelated couple and internalizes fucking all of it and this is the man you're trying to tell me doesn't understand art? look buddy i'm not about to go off on a tangent about what art is and what makes art good in my opinion (i will some other time. ask me about clothespin. i will go off.) but i'm pretty fucking sure an unrelated thing causing you to feel an emotion or think about a situation in a different way is like. that's definitely what goes on with art. what the fuck. can't stand his ass.

nobody in this show is the least bit self aware and i know that's fucking rich coming from me mr. "oh yeah no i'm just ignoring this thing about myself because i'm too busy right now and can't deal with it." at least i'm aware i'm a dipshit if nothing else?!

might switch tracks a little bit here but ive said it before with tarou... lemme just fucking slurp the tweets actually come to think of it ive half typed this up already and i can totally save myself some time

yeah there we go that's better. sorry this is yet again me talking about The Subjectivity of Truth. i bamboozled you! i drew you in with promises of gay people! but instead it's me! i'm the gay person. i'm the gay person and i'm talking about the subjectivity of truth again. look we'll get there again i swear there's a thread i'm following here you'll just have to humor me for a bit because...

main point: if you couldn't tell, i don't trust sonoi. i mean okay yeah no that comes off a little harsh; i don't trust any of the nouto in the same way, but it's not like. it's not personal. i don't trust anyone in this fucking show i think they're all incredibly biased and it's been shown many times that things that a character believes to be true just can straight up not be.

sorry, like: we have the goddamn crane juuto. we have the goddamn crane juuto whose whole fucking Deal is that it creates stories. and haruka. and like fuck me i suppose but i think that having two characters Explicitly there to tell stories is a little much for me to take anything anyone says at face value.

[total sidebar here: holy shit i loved seeing natsumiho and haruka interact in this ep. girlbosses but also haruka following her around for inspiration was really funny considering what she is. i have more i could say about this but now is not the time!!]

what we've seen of ideon so far (which, i mean, is not a lot, it's really not a fucking lot) but their world is very much designed to not lead to cultivating a population who desires. maybe this is a nature vs. nurture debate. do the nouto not desire because at their core they are unable to or at least somewhat immune to it or do they not desire because they haven't been shown desires to have. it seems quite strongly that they believe the former but that the reality is the latter. if nothing else they seem to all have the desire to learn more about humanity. do i think this will ever be touched on? FUCK no i don't expect anything. i like it though.

man idk. i really don't buy sonoi saying (back in the cafe when he was all fucked up and red no less) that the nouto are unable to turn into hitotsuki. i don't trust like that half because i don't trust sonoi further than i could throw the man but also because [here is the gay shit i promised earlier i told you we'd come back to it i would never tell a joke] i think watching him get corrupted by his own desire for tarou would make me feel 10 million emotions and absolutely shatter like i'm a prop glass and the universe just smashed me over someone's head. i think i would legitimately have to take a day off work if that were the case. i think that would rule and whip and fuck and every single other word that you can possibly think of. i think that would chop my balls off. i want that to happen so bad i cannot put it into words and it's sure as shit not for a lack of trying. i'm doing my absolute best here.

do i think this will happen? absolutely not lol i just like the concept. although come to think of it i know that the don clan created the juuto but did they ever say what they created them... from? would be fucked up if that's what happens when a nouto gets infected with desire. do i believe that's what actually happened? who knows... i just think it would be fun. i am allowed to think about the idea for no reason but i think it would be fun :)

sorry for going off about the subjectivity of truth again! actually i'm not sorry that was really fun for me <3 i feel relatively more normal now but ugmghhhhmh i cannot wait for sonoshi to show up uh i know i'm gonna be really normal about him and if he tears himself out of my hand and onto my open and waiting csp canvas like you're just gonna have to be cool about this. you're gonna have to understand. some bitch showing up to fuck things up in the 3rd quarter is what i NEED okay actually there's already quite a lot of fucking things up in the third quarter that's happening right here but new blood. new blood! new blood!! and he's red!

[exhales really deeply] okay cool i got that out of my system. i'm not looking to workshop any of these ideas unless idk, you really want to. don't feel like you need to respond to anything that i'm saying here. i'm just making spaghetti, brother. sometimes you need to sit in your brain and sort things out and make a big pot of spaghetti. that's all this is. this is me trying to put my thoughts into words which i want to train myself to be better at again, and if longform donbrothers posting is how i must do it, so be it. this is you looking into my mind if you care to do so and saying "damn, bitch, you live like this?" and it's true, i do. every single fucking day of my life i am plagued with the capacity to think. god bless

[olberic]

anime ive watched in 2022, ranked least to most favourite:

12: overlord (2015-)

(this show doesnt deserve a gif)

listen. its a bad show. anyone who tells you is good is marvelpilled to see action=good. the world setup and characters had a lot of potential in season 1, but with each season it got progressively worse. the show spends a lot of time developing side characters, and then kills them off just to show how strong the protagonist is. said protagonist goes through little to no character development over 4 entire seasons. even the action and fights arent well done theyre just fights. everything’s a curbstomp and it sucks. idk man even fic cant fix this one.

11: tales of phantasia (2004)

pros: seeing the characters animated instead of in little pixeled sprites. cons: everything else. its a bad adaptation.

10: chainsaw man (2022-)

this one’s also not for me! i think its a really good show, between the pacing, interpersonal relationships, and animation (plus a different ending per ep is god tier). but it makes me feel bad to watch and not even in a cathartic way.

9: spy x family (2022-)

its a fun show! the animation’s great and its funny. but it doesnt stand out to me as much as its hyped. definitely recommend, but doesnt compare to my other faves.

8. black butler (2008)

the story? WACK. the characters? WACK. made me laugh though and it was really fun to watch as like, something id only heard about back in middle school. would not recommend but i had fun watching it. plus, its one of the few shows (ok first seasons) that actively keeps its word and doesnt try to pull a deus ex to save the protag at the end. we need more of this.

7. the case study of vanitas (2022-)

the way this show deals with unreliable narrators and complex interpersonal relationships and still manages to have incredible worldbuilding… the characters are all so well done and i NEED to have more of it animated.

6. demon slayer (entertainment district arc) (2022-)

i dont care what anyone says i love this show. best quality animation of the decade. super compelling cast of characters. i watched the rest of the show last year, but this one gets included bc its new and it made me rewatch the entire show twice. that fight at the end had me truly speechless

4. komi cant communicate (2021-)

i laughed until i cried several times while watching this and that alone puts any show near the top for me

3. fabiniku (2022-)

see above. every ep had me in tears. best ending song of the year (hiii most played song). plus its gender.

2. mairimashita! iruma-kun (2019-)

life changing show. to me. like i dont even know what to say about it. character designs rule. op/ed AND musical songs are good. first anime to make me pick up its manga in a literal decade. theres nonbinary characters. its an isekai. every character makes me go :D when they come up on screen. 11/10

1. mob psycho 100 (2016-2022)

show of all time TRULY. nothing i can add that hasnt been lauded on here before. soundtrack, animation, character designs, writing, attention to detail, humour, it has EVERYTHING. has a (new) favourite character of anything ever (ritsu). ive rewatched it three times in 3 months (incredibly high praise from me)

[s0lar-ch3ri]

ok SO ive been in school and its been schooling, so full on rambles havent been a thing i have time for BUT its friday here now so ill ignore my weekend homework and write for you lol

i do wanna say this, i may have forgotten details on drey or lizzie and i wont be checking the wiki out of fear for spoilers (on ep 94 rn so im almost through it!!!) so if i make bullshit up i apologize dearly

ANYWAYS TIME FOR MY FAVORITE LESBIAN AND DREY FERIN!!! (spoilers for up to ep 94 maybe)

lizzie is such a compelling character, but i think what makes her incredible isnt how shes handled crews singlehandedly (possibly figurative and literally), but how powerful her words seem to be. while gill's speech was what set john off his edge, lizzies was the first to inspire him into change. im pretty sure jazz was talked to by lizzie. yes her actions are loud, but her words are the speakers that carry out her messages! the black rose took her and chip aboard, and while it trained her, shes leaving it back behind her in the past because she doesnt need the black rose anymore (opposite to chip, who wants to get that experience back). she builds herself a story away from the black rose, becoming more a person. shes believed to do the shit that rumors say because of how powerful her words are.

shes so strong now, yet shes not exactly forgiving. while chip is excited to find the black rose, lizzie is the exact opposite. shes happy their gone for the bullshit they went through and is full on willing to kill them to not deal with them. when she sees drey she threatens to kill him if hes still in her view, and he has the audacity to not remember her after all that. god grizzly did so well story telling wise for this

while after the black rose lizzie grew stronger and stronger, it seems like drey kind of grew weaker in the sense that his main tool for his weapon is unrepairable (his arms lol). sure, hes adapted to be able to use his feet for stufff, but i doubt he'll be fine in combat. i honestly hope he can retire in piece (I MEANT PEACE LMAO) but we already know that rufus was still in danger despite being retired from pirating. not to mention, he just like, doesnt remember shit of the hole in the sea (well, most of it). it was bad enough that he cant fucking remember lizzie, and maybe she likes it that way.

honestly, i think lizzie has a bit of a hatred for ferins less because theyre navy and more because shes "been played" so to speak by two of them (i havent actually seen or heard the scene yet, but i cant escape the spoilers of ava and lizzie forever). she loved two ferins, one like a parent (atleast somewhat like a parent) and one like her girlfriend. and she tries hiding up from jay, because maybe she reminds her of ava and can just tell that shes someone who could be her friend. and when she leaves (lizzie would say when and not if for a bit), lizzie will feel broken and betrayed again and the last she needs when theres war sparking soon is feelings of weakness.

anyways, while i could do so much with lizzie, im gonna talk about the things you were bringing up with drey, because yes! it is something i never really thought about, why drey chose to be a pirate. i mean, we know he met captain rose who just had asked him and he said yes. (i ended up looking at dreys wiki mainly cause i needed to make sure i dont wanna bs, but im also going off the video itself) but why? why, when the ferin family has been navy for years, does drey just decide "yeah, fuck it"? maybe because drey considers this captain at the time (quoted from the episode) "An angel in your eyes, he is the sexiest man you’ve ever seen before", or maybe because his old small ship was destroyed by said captains ship, but its truly an anigma. looking at the wiki (ok the only reason ive done it for drey is if there were shit going on with drey in the black sea, i probs would have stumbled into it, so im not so scared for spoilers with him), which by the way isnt always the greatest source but there are knowledgeable people who add shit onto the pages, it mentions how drey set out to be an adventurer and shit, and did hesitate to join out of fear of bad treatment hes faced before, which is kinda interesting. plus, drey tries to yell up to the ship that the boat "was all hes got", so my thoughts are he probably had some rough treatment and pressure (if he was ever in the navy thats probably doubled) and decided to become a pirate after seeing how free this crew seemed, i guess.

as for family relationships, i could have sworn drey said goodbye to jay before he left, or atleast jay mentions it to chip in the humble beginnings ep. i think jay may have looked up slightly to drey, being brave to go against the navy and such (even if it had to be hidden from her dad). they probably werent super close, but i dont believe they had bad blood (besides the fact theyre related to jays dad (joke)). most definitely they would have grown closer while drey was on board the deck. i cant imagine ava being close to drey because probs jay and ava were put in the navy at a young age, but whos to say? id say jayson and may were closer to him when he was younger, but they do grow more distant from the distance (so smart wording cherii), even though jayson and drey would be so much more distant from all the "pirate vs navy" shit. also, i did find on the wiki which says taylor ferin and drey were distant so yeah.

but yeah hes a mystery man for sure ALSO just got to the beginning of ep 97, and the idea thats hes grown slightly weaker shows by how he keeps missing the shots. yeah, its pretty impressive that hes firing a gun without using his arms, but hes at a heavy disadvantage (accdiental dnd opun?) if he cant use them properly. the legendary status he had (not that hed be willing to admit it) has retired alongside him, and he gets to watch his niece become the next sureshot.

dont have more ideas to talk on and i hope the wait was worth it tigers have a happy day

hey fnc guy ive been very normal about your posts and writings (literally the chapter in my one shot collection im writing rn is inspired by one of your writings) ive noticed youve seen me ramble on the idiot captains and was wondering if maybe i could do a special character analyzation for ya? besides npcs without any known story to go off (like the tailor lady or smth) of i could write about mythborne and riptide idk im bored lol

:0 we’ll first off tHANK YOU I REALLY APPRECIATE THAT 😭😭

My pick is Drey Ferin becaUSE while we don’t know a ton in depth about him, I just don’t see a lot of stuff talking about him in general and I think he’s just a fascinating little guy. I’ve been thinking abt him. Why did he leave to be a pirate? Was he ever a part of the navy? Do you think he had a good relationship with Jayson when he was younger? Did he have a good relationship with his mom? Or May and Ava and Jay? Did he even ever meet jay?

I feel like his background could be really expanded upon and I think it’s SO interesting the way we know hardly any of his motives and I’m curious abt what other people think think :3

But that’s also all very highly speculative and if you wanna ramble abt someone with a more in depth, canon backstory I’d say go w Lizzie. She’s SO interesting to me and I love her and with the lore drop in 101 OUGH

[foxstens]

emiya gohan....

[namtanlovesfilm]

UGH IM SO FUCKING MAD, off cant even tell a behind the scenes story https://twitter.com/sphnxjp/status/1536583545057329152 without people hating him wtf https://twitter.com/chuchujasmin723/status/1536645292770009089, at this point antis hate on him just for breathing, it was not his fault the roads were not secured, he was just doing what the staff told him to do, ITS NOT HIS FAULT UGH I WANNA PUNCH SOMEONE

no cause as soon as this story got brought up I just KNEW it would get exploited by off antis to say he's a terrible person LMAO. firstly off is a fucking good driver, there's a reason why he was the one to drive in almost every ep of friend drive. secondly he's incredibly fucking professional & he also risked his own life, which is something he wouldn't do just for a "funny" story about how he almost killed mai so clearly he didn't mean to do it. thirdly, he had to drive on a road he didn't know, while being filmed & having to look at mai lovingly for a long time, so........... obviously it wasn’t his fault & he shouldn't have been fucking driving in the first place. it's the crew's fault for not putting the car on a truck to pull it, it's already super unprofessional to have asked off to drive the car & carry the whole responsibility by himself but they literally risked their actors’ lives for nothing. also we can see how close off & mai are and how great they get along, and if it was really that big of a deal it wouldn't be the case. and FINALLY, it's so clear that off is ashamed of what happened (even though once again, not his fault at all, I don't even know who the fuck approved these filming conditions), and clearly the last thing he'd want to do is hurt mai. off is someone who has spent almost a decade now building his reputation in the industry & literally no fucking one has anything bad to say about him, so you really think he'd wanna destroy that by not driving carefully??? obviously not. so the fucking antis can miss me with their bullshit bc they're clearly making a big deal out of a situation that has clearly already been settled, which is why both mai & off have told the story with a humourous tone. I share your annoyance anon.

xxx

[hold-our-destiny]

so i thought since im not really writing much lately, id put a big list of all my ideas with brief summaries and if you guys wanted to see any in particular i could try to write a small oneshot of it.

1. basically peter having a long conversating with tony about the struggles of having his enhancements and explaining how he cant even kill himself because of his healing (like the scene from avengers)

2. Endgame au- “Hey peter? Its Tony- We did it. We won, pete- we won. Please Peter” then when peter’s in a coma he listens to a voicemail left by him before he left for the field trip (saved on insta) at some point peter says “i just wanted to be like you”

3. V slow (almost) major character death- three quick gunshots and a thump- peter worrying about tony’s head wound.

4. peter and harley falling in love (3k words) in tumblr drafts for harley

5. tony breaking down in the middle of a fight

6. Stony soulmate au- sharing scars.

7. “I didn’t think you cared about me”

8. Peter dragged underwater

9. Steve reading bucky’s journal in civil war

10. peter tries to help tony in siberia but gets hypothermia way more than tony does. after like a week steve comes back and tony screams at him cause peters in a coma, maybe steve finds him in the medbay

11. Parkner last words soulmate au

12. peter gets infected with anthrax

13.steve and peter kidnapped thing- peter bring scared of tony cause they used his tech against him

14. parkner hanahaki but with recovery and peter coughing up the rest of the flowers= whump. basically peter loves harley, passes out cause he can’t breathe and nearly dies, tells harley, and has to spend a week throwing up the rest of the flowers and being so tired he can’t stand

15. tony faking his death and peter and steve getting mad when they find out he’s alive

16. rhodey tony falling in love+ going to warrrr

17. okay so tony maybe almost dying and peter crying about it? 

18. peter gets kidnapped after an argument saying “i know- i know you’re mad but- p-please Mr stark- please help m-me, i’m sorry” cause he thinks tonys mad at him.

19. steve helping peter with harassers- drafts

20. tony whump being kidnapped and refusing to give info on spiderman and peter saves him with rhodey and gets shot but because of adrenaline they don’t realise until they’re outside and peter collapses

21. the scene where he gets shot from enola holmes but it’s irondad- peter has a bulletproof vest on and gets shot by a shotgun and tony thinks he’s dead cause he’s oncounscious from being thrown into a wall

22. okay so what about a situation where tony and peter are at a press event and peter gets shot. just imagine what tony would be saying as he catches him and slowly lowers him to the floor.“it’s okay, i gotcha. holy shit- you’re gunna be okay, kid. come on, eyes on me-“ keeping on talking until the medics get there, still not leaving the kids limp form. Peters eyes never leave him, glazed over but never closing.Of course, when he wakes up later, Tony will be a little teary eyed sat by his bed, probably making a joke about “god kid, you’re not supposed to outlive your old man” Peter not wanting to be alone when he dies

23. tony and peter on a mission and tony goes to find peter cause he’s not responding and he’s unconscious cause of poison- tetrodotoxin B

24. Peter put in a cage thing with bucky when hes triggered into being the winter soldier and being on comms with steve and the others.

25. 5 times tony and peter thought they lost each other and the one time they nearly did.

26. Degloving

27. parkner voicemail with peter almost dying, end is him coming home. season 2 ep 3 of 911

28. soulmates rhodyetony can feel each other’s pain. rhodey knowing tony’s alive in im1

29. parkner enemies to lovers only one bed nightmare

30. character study of the mcu, ned, sam, wanda, mj, bucky, 

31. harley thinking peter is dead, dealing with grief after a kidnapping 

32. Prompt 885: Stephen and Tony were together before Afghanistan. They hit a rough patch when Stephen has his accident and the Accords are proposed. The stress causes a huge fight where Tony tells Stephen to get out and never contact him again. Stephen is crushed and leaves for Kathmandu the next day, leaving only a voicemail saying goodbye and asking Tony to not blame himself. The general consensus is he committed suicide. CA:CW and DS happen, and Tony runs into a changed Stephen in Greenwich Village.

33. basically incredibles- steve’s taken by hydra and peter and tony are in a plane when hydra attacks them, tony’s telling them to abort and steve slowly realises he could lose his family, then it blows up and tony calls a suit to peter. peters got broken ribs and bruises because of moving around and tony sends out a signal to the team

34. peter nearly dies on a mission, tony’s yelling at him and he breaks down crying when he realises what could’ve happened

35. peter nearly gets kidnapped/ sold and he’s really shaken up about it he won’t leave harley or tony

36. peter and tony are kidnapped, peters conditioned and at one point the kidnapper gives him a truth serum and asks intimate questions/ he’s not conditioned and it’s either ask the questions or take the punishment- 

37. bucky getting back from hydra and coping? steve feeling sad, finding out bucky can feel his arm and tried to rip it out, tony helping? the scene in the woods with the trigger words and steve being there really sad and shit- also thinking pierce was steve

38. peter flinching during an argument

39. bucky having to pretend to be winter again in a mission

40. Peter telling tony about skip

41. ya know the hypothetical about hydra training bucky to give people guns incase they need to ‘execute’ the soldier, and him giving steve a guy.

42. peter being trapped in the soul stone when he gets snapped, him being the only one there because of his mutation or something (his soul was too strong to be broken for the time so it had to be contained) plus dissociation when he gets back

43. peter and bucky kidnapped together, tony and steve both worried as hell and having to work together and bond to get them back

44. soulmate mind talking- peter getting into trouble/kidnapping? make collection for soulmates

45. peter and tony are running from kidnappers, peter gets caught in a bear trap. maybe include steve.

[userholland]

the way you talk about rue, you simply have 0 empathy towards addicts huh

but arent you suppose to gauge your empathy toward drug addicts. having empathy is understanding why they FEEL the way they do. its taking her feelings of grief, anger and etc and try to understand her perspective as anyone can relate to an emotion. so i do have some empathy toward rue and drug addicts. but.... you can only give so much empathy toward addicts without enabling them. ive been in a similiar situation with a friend and its very hard to say no to someone who is falling apart because of somethint traumatic that happened to them but still chooses to lie, steal and ask for pick me ups because they are "just sad and fucked up". she was not prescribed drugs in order to get high and feel better, she used her dad's and found a gateway to not feel her own pain.

i do feel for rue and you can feel for her all you want, but did you not see what she was willing to do in the last ep for drugs and only drugs. and how she has to not only deal with her dad's sudden death (as seen in the flashback to his funeral) but also her the importance of her sobriety ontop of being diagnosed with bipolar and anxiety disorders. that's a lot to take on as a 17 year old. BUT its hard watching her obviously destroying her relationships with her family and friends FOR drugs. that's where you have the draw the line of truly feeling "bad" for her. she keeps going down this road on purpose... it's her true self-destructive defense mechanism. (TRULY EXPRESSED IN HER SPECIAL EP)

and im not ruling out that her mom was somewhat emotionally absuive toward her and its one of the reasons why rue cant properly express how she feels. everyone wants her to get better, but how can rue get help from others if she cant see they care or even care about herself. its really heartbreaking from the moment you met rue to now and only see her journey incredibly decrease.

her mom, fez, ali and even her friends have empathy for her... she's young and can make up for time. but you saw how they tried to give her an intervention, fez let her into his house for shelter, how ali gave her a helping hand when he didnt have to... even how she even spoke to jules compared to last season. (despite their relationship being toxic). they all care so much for her regardless of how they have treated her, but rue needs to see this cant keep going on or she'll face serious consequences (as she is leading into from what we saw in ep 5).

also rue potrays only some of the traits of drug addicts. they do much worse than the shit she does, but its different in everyone's eyes and their experiences. so have empathy toward how i gauge my own empathy lol

[spnshameblog]

Honestly, it pisses me off that they didnt let cas grieve Jack properly. Yeah the finale of s14 and the start of s15 were very busy and we see him be real sad and shaken on occasion (esp interacting with belphegor), but imho the show AND fanworks following 15x03 kind of forget that he watched his kid die just days ago and then had to burn a demon out of his corpse shortly after that. And as heartwrenching as the breakup at the end of the ep is, i dont think it makes sense to focus on that as the only source of cas' pain. I cant even imagine what headspace cas is in at the end of 15x03. He still feels guilty about Marys death, hes fucked up over Jack dying, hes probably still upset that dean locked him in a Box, he feels even more guilt over rowenas death and sams pain and i think burning his childs possessed body probably added a unique flavor of trauma to it all. Oh and his powers are failing for some reason and the man he loves wont listen to him just told him hes dead to him (cas probably knows dean well enough to know that deep down he doesnt mean it, but that would still hurt). This might be my cas-bias, but im simply incapable of criticising anything he does in that time period lol.

This is probably why im a bit more harsh on dean during the first half of s15. Cas had to basically watch his child burn twice in a couple of days, you really want to be mad at him rn??? Youre really gonna be pettily cruel NOW? And i get that dean is probably still mad at Jack bc of mary and its a kneejerk reaction and you can SEE him regret his words immediately, but jesus christ. Youre not gonna mourn him at all? I hate a lot of the dean and Jack storyline in the last seasons bc its just so ooc to me and makes me so incredibly mad. Dean should have talked it out with Jack, they could have both apologised, hug it out, but instead we got whatever the fuck 15x17 was. It makes no sense to me why they had dean treat Jack like that, so i just ignore it lmao.

Yeah but back to my original point. Its bad writing on the shows part and also some writers just blatantly dont like cas and Jack so theres that, but i havent seen a lot of fanworks dealing with it either.

In the supernatural that lives in my head cas went straight to jody after 15x03 bc she knows what its like to loose a child and she lets him stay for a few days. The thought of cas being completely alone after all that is too painful for me, sorry.

[aquariusshadow]

Live!Blogging Legacies 3x13

So my lovely server platform I use to watch these eps didn't have the latest Legacies ep until earlier this evening...so this live!blog is later than usual ehehe my bad.

Ok my main thing I'll be focusing on is Handon because now that real!Landon is back (maybe) I'm curious on how the Handon development will actually be since the last few episodes weren't real!Landon and Hope ehehe

Lessss go --

i was really trying to forget hope and landon having sex and him turning into mud after o.O

this is a cleo stan account and i refuse to believe shes the villain

oh kaleb...first mg's gone..now cleo? this poor soul

hi landon bby you okay?

i hope they handle landon's ptsd properly

josie's hair looks so cute what

help

ik she wears her hair like that alot but for some reason it just really suits her in this ep?

i don't blame finch for being incredibly overwhelmed

awwww josie's being her tour guide--i love some good ship parallels

hope's hair is beautiful here too

hope honey you're doing such a good job rn

she's being so careful, but still honest

cmon cleo backstory cleo backstory

OMG ARE WE ACTUALLY SEEING HER BACKSTORY

YES FINALLY

this better be good

idk why i find kaleb just casually sitting and watching this so amusing (in a good way, im into this rn hehe)

is taking landon to a school the best idea rn? i would imagine this would be overstimulating for him

oh and the flashbacks...

oh god no

who are you

landon doesn't need extra crap rn

poor cleo :/ that really got sprung on her so fast...so young too

kaleb you're so sweet ahaha

oh of courseahlsfjlhfdasljfdh

"Malivore?! That bitch is everywhere!" Kaleb is the voice of the fandom lmfaooooo

cleo honey noooo

youre just a smol bean

yep see thats why landon didn't need this crap rn

even tho alaric technically has some sort of logic in this i just....dont care about his character anymore ahaha

ok leaving finch alone rn is not the best idea????

hmmm maybe she and the other wolves will actually try and get along? idk

"this is how i learned to make friends" man my heart :/

ok that frog is adorable

is there a catch...?

noooooo froggy noooooo

that is so traumatic good lord

(also i really like the josie/cleo dynamic)

the arms....

"never make a deal with the bad guy" ahjsdflsdf josie

wow they actually made the malivore plotline interesting again

yeah josie you stand up to alaric

at least its not landon needing to die for the millionth time

man cant hope just catch a break

ok seeing handon fight together is really cool

yea you guys do make a good team <3

wait so hope being a true tribrid is how malivore dies

iiiiiiiiiinteresting

wait wait wait

klaus was already a vampire, like dead and vampire, yet he was able to have hope

so

what is alaric going on about? she should be able to have kids anyway BECAUSE she is part wolf and witch

............

am i crazy???

am i wrong here???

is my tvdu knowledge scuff?

man cleo is really becoming one of my favorite characters

cmon cleo stay

ayeeeeeeeeee finch is fitting in with the wolves good good

ooo i like the finch/jed friendship here that has potential to be a good dynamic in the future :D

yesssssss call her your girlfriend josie

okay this is really cute their kiss was adorable

did hope and cleo really have that convo off screen??? fine ok

wow...they're actually addressing my concerns with handon, especially since it was the gollum instead of real landon

seeing hope cry breaks my heart

nooooooo landon dont go

awww cleo left too

hmmm does this mean landon and cleo are gonna meet up or something?

yesssssssssss i was right

this is going to be interesting

both of them love hope so much theyre willing to team up and find another alternative

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Cleo backstory. I repeat. Cleo backstory. Landon and Cleo going on a road trip thing to find another way to kill Malivore to protect Hope??? I sense a new OT3 on the horizon...

I love how consistently good these episodes have been!