#i cant believe daniel died (again)

[mushroom-through-the-stargate]

i love how jacks reaction to daniels deaths changes over the series. first he retires again pre-series after faking daniels death on abydos and honestly acting like he lost his son all over again, and then in fire and water (s1e12) episode his grief is aggressive, he breaks things and yells at people and theres this little voice in the back of his head thats telling him daniels alive but the manipulation is demanding that he believe daniels dead.

and then in serpents lair (s2e1) jack had to leave daniel behind. there was another little voice in his head, that daniel was crafty and cheated death before, but he was still upset. and when daniel came out of the crowd, jack didnt look very surprised. relieved? maybe, but not surprised. just hugged him and called him "space monkey".

throughout daniels (first) Ascension, jack was the most unfazed about it. he was also the most frequently visited but thats another post. and then in fallen (s7e1) jack was so excited to see him on that planet, and his little "look! its daniel!" when they came back through the gate. and in threads (s8e18) sam tries to tell jack to prepare a funeral for daniel, and jack says "he's just waiting for us to say nice things about him" because in his mind, daniel has proven that he cant stay dead, so why waste energy grieving over someone who will come back?

like i love the joke of "daniel died" "again?" but i also love how the characters react to it. even background characters comment on it (the "dr. jackson will die when he sees this" "what, again?" joke in heroes pt 1) and sg1 just refuses to believe daniels gone. because he never is.

[badluckinawasteland]

my god / my gun - version 2 (AKA: dear daniel, i cant love someone like you again)

southern comfort's burning heavy under my tongue tonight, and i'm sending the next shot up to god. a prayer in 42 proof. drop empty shooters on slick concrete. and the summer heat dissipates in the last light. i still hear the click of yr clip in the sunset. cold metal on skin. yr eyes haunt me, high, wild, wide & white. a shotgun in the night. let the liquor cloud my eyes. believe heavens on my side. ive almost died way too many times for a higher power to be a lie. i know the force of his love, the weight of his hand, the power of his tongue. how blood spills with gods yell. its only gods grace keeping alive now. and his love rests like a gun on my lips. i wish you could feel it too.

[mushroom-through-the-stargate]

thank you so much @arrowsbane for sending me a working link!!! that was amazing!!!

“Years ago, I’d have felt uncomfortable with a Beretta in my hands. But not now…”

Doctor Daniel Jackson wakes up on the floor of his SGC lab, with no memory of what happened or how he got there. With him is Lt. Hunter of SG-12 – the team that should have accompanied SG-1 on their mission to P2K-797. But now, here they are, back on Earth with the whole of Stargate Command incapacitated around them.

So what happened? Why can no one remember? And why is the Stargate apparently connected to an alternate reality?.

featuring: Michael Shanks, John Schwab | written by: Sally Malcolm

time: 56:06 [+ Interview with Michael Shanks: 8:59]

notes: Season 3 before “Fair Game”

release date: 01.04.2008

Download | Wiki page

[lokislytherin]

Heyyyyyyyy so this ask is just out of pure curiosity, but what is your lookism

otp

rareship

kinda popular pairing u cant just jive with so much

hello curious anon! thank you for the ask hope you're having a pleasant timezone!

otp: idk if you've seen my posts or my ao3 but i am literally a janiel writer. jaeseok is literally The lookism otp for me. but if i had to pick a second otp it would be zami bc they're so good for each other sorry vinzackers but zami is one of my only few valid het ships that i'll actually die fighting for (i like danizoe too but i think they're better off besties bc they both need a bestie of the opposite gender so 1) zoe can realize guys are not that great 2) daniel can realize he can be good friends with girls without having to date them)

rarepair: idk if anyone ships this other than me but yuimira? i made a bs headcanon post when i saw lookism rarepairs prompt-ish thing and i'm too lazy to link it but if you search yuimira on my blog i bet you'll find it but anyway! mira's 'i can fix them' energy is so strong (read: zack, johan) but she's also really sweet and her angel energy could really balance out yui's bitch energy you get me? hence why i raise you the even rarer rarepair of zamiyui bc zack is also a bitch at least to others you can't tell me no

non-ship: hmmge. HMMGE. CURIOUS ANON YOU'RE GONNA GET ME STONED FOR THIS but i'm gonna say quite a few ships actually so i might as well let the homies flame me sooner rather than later btw some of this might get a little nsfw!

gundaniel: i'm sorry but you can't tell me daniel would ever love gun romantically of his own volition. i only ship it as gun simping for daniel and daniel being terrified and disgusted / noncon / possibly dead dove ish with the broken bone and blood kind of gore combined with noncon

gungoo & jakemuel: they act like brothers. i thought they were brothers for the longest time i can't ship them romantically, sorry for the anon who asked me to write gun x goo and jake x samuel sheesh both of my non-ships!

jakejiho: idm jake but i HATE jiho with a burning passion. i love his bastardisation arc and it was really well written but 1) it took up too much of the main story imo like daniel literally wasn't the mc of lookism for that arc 2) his ending SUCKED. he just died like that and i think it was just like ??? why so sudden?? why he just end like that? haiyaa ptj-nim you already made him bad why not make him Worse and keep him in the story (and keep me fuming every other chapter /LOL jiho's the one guy i would hate irl more than gun bc he's so fucking pathetic istg)

vasco and jace: this is the one i'm gonna get flamed for more than anything but LOOK. vasco's neurodivergent aroace vibes are so strong to me and just. male friendship yk. they're platonic soulmates bc that's good too yk. they're more than besties but not lovers in that sense... not me hinting at my vascojace platonic soulmates agenda in hit and run with "jaeyeol and hyungseok have the special bestie telepathy like vasco and beomjae, but it's different for jaeyeol and hyungseok" as in romantic difference, and one of my readers immediately went omg yeah vascojace should totally get married and i was sobbing like NO THAT WASN'T WHAT I MEANT AT ALL

vinzack: i just can't see it. sorry. i believe in mira supremacy but that might be bc i'm gay and i would date mira if zack doesn't

phew that was a lot LMAO but it had to be said! once again thank you for the ask curious anon feel free to come back to ask more!

[chubearr]

MY JWCC S5 REVIEW ♡ SPOILERS AHEAD!!!

》 you have been warned ⚠️

》 to start off, WHAT A RIDE THIS SEASON WAS!!! theres lots of opinions, like the finale pacing etc, but tbh; with 12 episodes i think they did pretty well ending the show with the time they had! to me personally it didnt feel rushed at all, i actually wanted everything to pick up the pace so the kids could be happy and safe again 😭 with that out of the way, lets get to it!

》story & mr.kon

- s5 continues off right from the end of the previous season, where the camp fam meet Mr. Daniel Kon, Kenji's father!!!

- right off the bat mr.kon seems pretty trusting and relieved to see his son, but theres still hesitancy to trust him from the kids and quite frankly, the fandom as well. the kids out kash on all of his BS and mrkon rightfully so punishes him, and gets the kids to safety with food and SHOWERSSSS YESSSSS THEY CAN FINALLY SHOWER!! (kenji shaved and also brooklyn redyed her hair idk how) but at what cost.... its just too good to be true! ep1 is pretty tame, it gives the kids a break FINALLY and mae gets patched up!

- the story from then on goes to the kids doing their thing, sussing mr.kon out, rightfully so, while being torn on breaking kenjis heart abt the truth abt his dad and saving dinos, usual jwcc shenanigans ensue.

- I THINK MRKON WAS WELL DONE. his manipulation game is off the charts and he knows how to act fr, the way he can flip sides when hearing things he does not like in a second, he does it to kenji too. and hes not unhinged like kash, mr.kon IS the mastermind, hes very smart and knows how to manipulate kenji— its so heart breaking. in my s5 predictions post i said it could go two ways; mr.kon as an ally to the kids against kash, or mr.kon being the real enemy. LOOKS LIKE THE LATTER...

- my only gripe is i wish they showed more abt how mr.kon got this way— like was it the mothers death, or is it a trait that got passed down by his own father, or is it just simply greed?? who knows. its never really answered if he does care for his son or not? to me i think it was just convenient at the time for kenji to be around— i didnt see any signs mrkon ever showed affection for kenji when it didnt benefit him 😭😭 which is DEVASTATING. mrkon was out of the parenthood game fr...

- as usual, all the adults die fr but theyre badguys and death-by-dino is sick asf so i love it! EVEN KASH GOT GOT and that was sooo satisfying. mae was safe tho and as she should!!

- ok so apart of me really wanted mr.kon to get a redemption arc or smth— like a bigger bad makes him ally with the kids and he really bonds with kenji.. but then kash dies so im like "WELL there goes that possibility" and then i had hope for the investors to turn on mr.kon— nope they all died except for the lady IN WHICH the antagonist from jw:dominion comes in (the guy who runs biosyn i forgot his name) but then obv cant be possible bc they cant kill him off since he has to appear in his own movie... IN THE END, no redemption for mr.kon and fine. thats fine im fine.

- OK ill be honest MR.KON IS KINDA.. BAD OK? LIKE.. 😳 HELP  IM SORRYYYY its just the way he grabbed kash by his the back of his neck and was "go back to whatever hole u came from" IT MADE ME FEEL SMTH A LITTLE OK.. he lookin for a stepmom for kenji or... 🤭.... IM SORRY HES AN ATTRACTIVE SINGLE DAD ALSO A VILLAIN, WHAT DO U WANT FROM ME 😭😭 i was taking notes while watching the season and if you see them its just me simping for mr.kon HELp

- ok ANYWAY the fact that he was legit willing to let the kids die and even LET DARIUS GET KILLED in front of kenji i knew... it was over..

- final confrontation between kenji and mrkon was sad😭 HE LEGIT JUST LEFT HIS SON ON AN ISLAND THAT HE BELIEVED WAS GONNA GO TO SHIT... apart of me wants to be like "oh he probably thought kenji was better off with them" but its pretty much apparent ig that he does not give a shit abt kenji— which is why i wish theyd spent some time showing kenjis history w/him bc we know mrkon was not present most of his life, but there SEEMED to be something more. oh well. bye bye mrkon!! AND HE GETS ARRESTED OFFSCREEN TOO, which is just sad for kenji 😭

- THE LAST EPISODE is absolutely my favorite and the ENDING is amazing ill tell u why in a sec just u wait!!

》kenji vs campfam

- ill say it again KENJI IN A SUIT AND BETRAYAL I FORSEENT ITTTTT

- to start off I THINK BOTH SIDES HAD THEIR FAULTS AND RIGHTS BUT ohh my godd kenji deserved a break ok.. i may be biased bc he is my favorite son

- IT WAS SO OBVIOUS HE WAS MANIPULATED and has daddy issues, and im so glad brooklyn saw that. I WAS PISSED that no one else did, like ur telling me ben and yas couldnt see it? i think they were a bit dramatic on their hatred for kenji but ig its understandable bc out of everyone they arent that close w/ him....  BUT STILL. messy.

- I WAS SO PISSED AT SAMMY AT FIRST FOR BEING INDECISIVE bc shes torn between her bestie kenji, and her other besties+yasmina. tho i do believe she never blamed kenji by the way their reunion went (she was just happy he was back w/them) so ill give her a pass.

- IM CONFLICTED ABT DARIUS bc i thought originally he was just too heartbroken abt kenji yet hes not used to talking abt his feelings hence needing the dinosaur interaction. but he just said he didnt care??? like bro... why r u lyin.

- darius at least shouldve stepped up a little bc other than brooklyn, he knows kenji had issues with his dad... oh well.. dino lovers are crazzzzy

- im at least glad he was the one who stayed mad at kenji for the longest #payback my broken boys... BUT it paid off when darius forgave kenji THEY BOTH CRIED?! i cried. it was so sweet and idc if anyone thinks "kenji was forgiven too early and it was rushed", bc truth is hes a kid with dad issues and the others are kids and they are family and they! need! each other!!

》yasammy (& kenlynn)

- CAN I JUST SAY LETS TAKE THIS W YASAMMY FANSS YESSSSSSSSS  also BISEXUAL YAS RIGHTS?!?! sammy is the lesbian this is so true

- yasminas whole crush arc was just adorable and so fitting for her to open up to ben 😭 bc ben is like so chill right

- i like how they didnt make it a big deal, it was just abt yasmina figuring herself out and when she made her move, IT WAS REWARDING!! i screamed at the kiss... they r so adorable.. silly gfs 💖

- im so glad they didnt shy away from shoving it in our faces bc THOSE GIRLS DESERVE ITTTT FRRR,, THE KISS!!! THE KISSSSSSSSS

- as equally cute as kenlynn, they both have equal screentime which was a blessing!

- kenlynn pained me so bad when brooklyn was broken abt kenji 😭 its what i love, angst, but gdi i wish she held on a little longer but understandble bc kenji was kinda wack himself for staying with his dad that long...

- THE DATE THING WAS SO CUTE KENJI IS SO SOFT, ,HIS SUIT AND THE FLOWER.. I SCREAMED!!

- AND YET IT WAS HEARTBREAKING...he got stood up... smh... its fine.. it all got healed when he gave her the flower fr <3

- THE LAST EP KISS... i cried and threw up i love my kids... HOW COULD U HATE THEM THEYRE SO SOFT AND SWEET im holding them both in my arms 💖💖

》timeskip

- THIS WAS THE ABSOLUTE BEST PART. WHEN OLDER DARIUS SHOWED ON THE SCREAM I YELLED (INAUDIBLY BC IT WAS 4AM)

- THIS IS LEGIT ALL I WANTED, A TIMESKIP TO END THE SHOW (u can see my previous posts i mention this shit a lot and i even have my own au and older designs for them..)

- YASAMMY IN TEXAS THIS IS SO TRUE.. STAY SAFE GFS... im so mad sammy didnt change her clothes HELP shes still wearing thay goddamn shirt and has similar length hair but its fine yasmina being gorgeous made up for it 👍

- KENLYNN GOIN STRONG longdistance relationship goals, i love their designs so much😭😭 kenji w/his hair down AND brooklyn short hair?!?! short haired women rights its all i wanted 💃

- in my timeskip au i had darius work with dinos back on the island but its more fitting that ben has that role (working w/mae) which is so adorable...

- IM GLAD I PREDICTED BENRIUS WOULDNT HAPPEN bc theyre too innocent and busy being dino obsessed obv!! we didnt get timeskip benrius but theres still hope 😌 theyre just both aro-ace theyll work smth out..

- they fact they keep in touch is so sweet HELPP in my au they all drifted apart 💀 it was for the angst im sorry

- KENJI GETS ADOPTED INTO THE BOWMAN FAMILY SO TRUE... its so sad that with no mom or dad (jail) hes p much an orphan but at least he got darius,, it was so sweet when the mom hugged him at the mainland reunion 🥲 ALSO KENJI STILL OWNS MANTAH CORP?? OR SMTH LIKE IT BC ITS MENTIONED HES KEEPING THE PRIVATE ISLAND RUNNING so mae n ben can work there... SO TRUE

- LETS TALK AGES:

ok so from my research since the show goes alone the movies timeline, s1 takes place in 2015!! fallen kingdom is 3yrs after, and dominion (which i assume begins when darius sees the dinosaur outside his house) is 4 years later making the year 2022.

》so its like jwcc s1 age/ fallen kingdom(s5 timeskip) age/ dominion age

• darius: 12/15/19

• brooklyn: 13/16/20

• ben: 14/17/21

• sammy: 14/17/21

• yasmina: 15/18/22

• kenji: 15/18/22

- me sobbing.. they grew up so fast.. i love my kids... my age theory also may be sooo wrong but it makes more sense if theyre all in their 20s by the end! livin the adult life #goodluck

》final thoughts and thanks

- THIS SHOW IS LEGIT THE BEST AND A GODDAMN BREATH OF FRESH AIR COMPARED TO OTHER SHOWS coughMLBcough what who said that 🤨😳🤭

- from s1 to the end i never got tired of it or it never swayed from my interests, i drew fanart so quick, more than ive done for a lot of other fandoms i was in 😭💖

- i wouldnt mind a sequel with the older camp fam, but if its thats it thats okay too!! lets not get greedy guys...

- EXPECT GIFSETS AND FANART IN THE FUTURE!! my life is so busy crazy rn but i will make time for jwcc shit if its the last thing i do!!!

- lastly, thank you for joining me on this ride! jwcc brought me lots of new tumblr followers which was a surprise! 💖

i know somehow toxicity will find its way to this season, but what else would i expect LMAO idc i will fight with all ive got as usual 😉

- lets all take this W fr, this show was so good. also, sorry for any spelling and grammar errors in the review!

[diaryofanobsessivefangirl]

I never thought I’d make this because there have been so little demand for Petyr/Catelyn content since there are few of us online, but I’m glad I can make a masterlist of inspirational content.

Fanfics:

As Blue as Love can Be

Petyr fights the duel and loses

see-you-again-at-riverrun

petyr-sprawls-beside-her-his-fingers-intertwined

one-shot-in-which-young-petyr-or-young-cat-is

the-story-of-a-name

as-red-as-autumn

the-kiss-of-death

petyr-playing-hide-and-seek

petyredmure-youth

can-we-see-some-baby-tullys-childhood-especially

a-clever-boy-petyr-for-the-100

it-was-an-unbearably-warm-summers-day-in

for-love-for-honour

he-dies-once-a-year-in

swimming-lessons-petyr-x-catelyn-fanfic

Poems and quotes:

The Book of Longing

Brown Penny

A Meeting

i-love-you-as-certain-dark-things-are-to-be-loved

Aubade

Final Autumn

Going for Water

To One in Paradise

I’ve Dreamed of You So Much

i-was-only-a-chapter-in-your-story-but-you-were

be-careful-before-you-write-a-poem-about-someone

where-i-was-born-time-was-told-not-by-the-clock

Song of a Second April

we-all-have-one-foot-in-a-fairytale-and-the-other

the-modern-typewriter-i-loved-you-the-way-that

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edgar-allan-poe-favorite

the-mocking-bird-poem-by-henry-van-dyke-in

you-know-the-place-between-sleep-and-awake

Fire and Ice

strange-youre-still-in-all-my-dreams-oh-what-a

he-was-a-soldier-but-he-was-also-a-king-lord-of

maybe-the-first-time-you-saw-her-you-were-ten-she

petyr-x-catelyn-poem

Playlists:

never meant

january embers

i've heard a song once

Metas and headcanons (BOOK SPOILERS!)

peter-means-stone-petyr-bealish-started-the-war

pre-got-riverrun-symbolsaesthetic-sword-duel

just-read-this-post-about-why-haji-fell-in-love

in-relation-to-petyrs-dehumanising-of-other

petyr-has-loved

cheers-to-how-petyr-talks-about-this

Fate drives me south and south again

give-me-those-headcanons-of-petyr-baelish-recovery

she-had-played-at-being-jenny-that-day-had-even

in-the-battle-of-the-trident-rhaegar-fell

petyr-loved-catelyn-so-much-that-when-he-lost

she-had-played-at-being-jenny-that-day-had-even

this-shot-is-very-interesting-in

the-name-peter-comes-from-the-greek-word-for

petyr-baelish-one-week-challenge-day-3

stop-me-doing-text-posts

asoiaf-a-song-of-ice-and-fire-got

masterlist-of-riverrun-headcanons

Fanart and inspiring art:

undead-wowo-zombie-fan-art

my-love-was-punished-long-ago-it-took-the-death

i-think-this-is-my-fave-petyr-x-catelyn-fanart

emosloppy-bookspaperscissorsvero-navarro

veareflejos-last-of-the-mohicans-massimo-draws

oxane-birds

la-boheme-by-daniel-gerhartz

some-closer-shots-of-mother

joscomie

ship them so hard

petyr-x-cat-childhood-times

little cat and little petyr

you-know-i

ive-only-loved-one-woman

a-series-of-three-artworks

she-had-played-being-jenny-that-day-had-even

in-petyrs-brothel

ive-loved-you-since-i-was-a-boy

asoiaf-art-meme-1-petyr-x-catelyn-artists

not-sure-if-what-is-written-here-are-excerpts

infamous-shsl-despair-by-zdragonx

Other inspiring things:

from-plays-mud

i-knew-youd-haunt-all-my

just-so-you-know-i-never-believed

This was the fourth time Lord Baelish made her laugh.

peter pan

poldark

just-so-you-know-i-never-believed-any-of-the

cant-fight-this-feeling

how-many-songs-can-i-possibility-relate

I swore I knew the melody

wuthering heights parallels

young-petyr-and-catelyn-making-a-littlefinger

johnny-cash-petyr

no-one-knows-what-its-like-to-be-hated

when-he-was-allowed-to-look-at-her-this-way

a-wild-young-petyr-baelish-feel-appears

dearest-catelyn-why-have-you-not-come-back-to

she-is-the-very-image-of-cat-at-the-same-age

kathleen-mavourneen-petyr-says-goodbye-to-the

im-making-this-my-official-pre-game-of-thrones

stonehearting-as-she-stood-there-all-the

tullying-lord-brackens-singer-played-for-us

i-am-a-creature-of-grief-and-dust-and-bitter

natdormer-the-other-tully-girl-a-film-about

Hey everyone! Does anyone has any Petyr x Catelyn fic recomendations? I need more content of those two. Also if someone would like to talk about them or something related feel free to send me a message.

[bwoahtastic]

Now we've set out scene, lets begin the pain;

Mia wasn't getting better, but she wasn't getting worse, she was finally stable, and so Daniel had finally gained courage to leave the hospital for one night to sleep in his own bed and wash in his own shower. He was grateful for the little parent bedrooms in the NICU, but the standard bed didn't match his foam mattress and fluffy pillows and the shower gel didn't feel right on his skin. It might only have been twelve hours he was away at maximum, but he felt refreshed and managed to step into the unit with confidence for once, well rested and ready to fight for his little pup yet again.

What he wasn't ready to walk past was Lando's incubator surrounded by doctors, equipment pulled from all over the room to his bedside and screens surrounding the space to prevent anyone from peering at what was going on. Even so, he could see through the gap in the screens enough to see Michael looking pale and sick with worry, tears staining his face.

Twenty minutes or so later, when Daniel had been reassured that Mia had had a stable night, had a morning feed and kiss from Daniel and settled back to sleep, Daniel looked up to see Michael hovering half a metre from him and staring blankly back at Lando, barely blinking let alone moving. "Hey," Daniel said softly, watching for Michael to look at him before continuing. "Shall we have a minute?"

Michael nodded, and Daniel murmured to a nurse he was taking Michael for a tea and a break in the kitchen if they needed either of them. Daniel brewed him a strong coffee, pushed an apple into his hand to at least out a bit of sugar in his system and just said nothing until eventually Michael broke the silence first.

"Lando's got a bowel infection, I think, I don't know, there were so many things they were telling me and so much happening all at once," Michael explained, face remaining blank as he reached for his coffee mug. "Its serious, it can be fatal, and his little body isn't handling it so now he won't breathe for himself and his blood pressure'd dropping and the doctors say he needs surgery to take the dead bit of his gut out but the surgeons say he's so sick he won't survive the surgery and its all fucking shit."

Daniel just purred softly and wrapped an arm around Michael's shoulders as the Alpha began to cry softly and carried on spilling everything. "He's not even a week old and he's so small and its Lara's post mortem day today and how am I meant to cope with all this?"

"Lando's a fighter and the doctors will help him," Daniel murmured a bit pathetically, not really feeling sure he was cut out to help here. "They'll get him settled and he'll come through his surgery I'm sure."

Michael just nodded quietly, taking a sip of coffee with a hiccup. "This is my fault," he murmured after a minute more. "I hated him the first day, you know? I couldn't look at him... the nurses said I could see him but I knew Lara was sick and every time I saw him I just thought...you took her from me. You took my Mate from me. Now he's really sick, and it's my fault, isn't it? But now if he dies, I'll have nothing left of her will I."

"It's not your fault," Daniel told him strongly, squeezing his shoulders tightly. "I can't even imagine how it must feel man, fuck that's... its a lot to deal with. But its not your fault, these pups are just - they shouldn't be here yet, you know?"

"Yeah," Michael sighed, wiping at his eyes viciously for a minute. "Just gotta believe in him, right?"

"Exactly. And I guess he has a very good guardian angel looking out for him," Daniel murmured with a small smile, and whilst he'd never believed in Heaven before, he damn sure hoped Lando had an angel looking out for him now.

AHHH PLLSSS THE FEELSSSS

poor Michael missing Lara so much and feeling guilty about how much he hated Lando at first and how he cant seem to take care of him properly with so much going wrong! And Daniel just trying to help him so much and trying to be there for him while they deal with the tiny pups that surprised them so early.

And Lara as guardian angel! Pls she would be so proud of Lando and so glad Michael isnt completely alone in this!! Look Lando is such a sweetheart that obviously his momma must have been too, so sweet and loving and staying with Michael for love even if her family doesnt like it!

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!! Thank you!!!!!

[pikslasrce]

okay so the last time i wrote this [tumblr] glitched and i was left w only the memory of all the sentences and the dialogue i had so beautifully written on the topic of True Believer™ danwave.... so if it feels a lil dry thats bc i put my heart and soul in the tragically deleted draft.

ANYWAYS the idea came to me after seeing this post where i wrote some fun lore in the tags. ill put everything under the cut so it doesnt clog the dash <3

so. we already know danwave didnt believe in vampires before his near death experience when he encountered the evil vampire lady and diordan right. well im just gonna say that that was the case for everything except ghosts.

i just realized danwave hasnt had the chance to meet the rest of the vampstille dudes so i wont go into detail there bc i wanna include it in future scenes <3

anyways danwave was a huge skeptic (apart from ghosts) before encountering diordan but he didnt think abt the big picture and the implications of the existence of vampires bc he was still under the impression of that nights events and most of his thoughts were 'oh MY GOD I ALMOST DIED THERE' and 'wait a minute. THOSE WERE VAMPIRES! VAMPIRES ARE REAL?!?!?!'

but after meeting the rest of vampstille his little mortal human brain EXPLODES like 'wait. so. vampires are real. werewoLVES ARE REAL?? FRICKIN TOOTH FAIRIES EXIST???' and then he becomes a full on True Believer™ bc if THOSE exist what else might be out there as well? and that raises even more questions. are all supernatural/paranormal creatures and cryptids evil? are some friendly? good even? can the invasive ones be exterminated with Joygrave Equipment™??

anyways he becomes a crazy little man just imagine:

[the joygrave dudes (paul and joe) come into daniels office just to see him sitting in complete darkness w only the computer illuminating the room. there are empty mugs all over the place.]

joygrave dudes: hey dan we were won–

[danwave is on his 3rd cup of Joewave™ coffee in the past hour. he turns around, his eyes red from staring at a computer screen for hours with the lights off. he is heavily caffeinated and shaking.]

joygrave dudes: –dering 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️

danwave: *paying no attention to what they were trying to say* I THINK IVE FIGURED IT OUT *proceeds to talk abt whatever cryptid hes latched onto this time*

paul: ...

joe: dan weve talked abt this those things arent real. you cant go chasing every possible "creature" that you hear of just because you met one vampire, werewolf and a tooth fairy, you have a job and a band you know you cant go on like this forever *signals to paul to get on the phone*

paul: hello. uh. can i get diordan van smith on the phone? [...] yeah i can wait... [a few moments later] hey dude, yeah hes gone off the rails again we have ghosts to kill and hes just– [...] yeah ill hand him to ya *passes the phone to daniel* here, its your vampire buddy

diordan: hello my friend, ive heard you were inquiring about [cryptid]

danwave: i know why they called you *sends a death stare towards paul and joe across the room* youre supposed to tell me to give up my search for [cryptid] WELL ILL TELL YOU NOW THA–

diordan: *interrupting him* actually my ghost hunting friend, i intended to inform you that [cryptid] is indeed real and is in fact a close friend of mine, and i can arrange for you to meet them

danwave: *loosing it* ITS REAL??? [CRYPTID] EXISTS? I WAS RIGHT?? *sends a crazy look to paul and joe while laughing Hysterically™ while pointing to the phone and gloating* OKAY WHEN CAN WE– ACTUALLY NEVERMIND IM COMING RIGHT OVER WAIT FOR ME OUTSIDE

[proceeds to frantically pour the rest of his Joewave™ coffee into a thermos and starts packing all of his equipment and leaves in a hurry]

joe and paul, now left alone: 🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️

[reyhospacebitch]

I cant stop thinking about how everyone Daisy has ever loved, romantically or platonically, always ended up leaving her for one reason or another and even the people who *do* stay, only stay at arms length until Daniel Sousa appeared.

every time a romantic partner didnt like something she does or believes, its held against her or someone runs.

Miles? He wasnt who she thought he was yes but he didnt handle her changing well at allll. Uncompromising, he wanted her to give up the team and her mission (at the time, to find her parents) and when she refused he bolted, blaming HER even though *he* was the one who got people killed.

Ward? Omfg this was such a shit show. She blamed herself for not seeing his manipulations sooner and emotionally takes on the blame for Keonig’s death. And then the entire team judged her for having feelings for him despite not knowing in such a cringe way, Daisy was full on forced to choose Ward or Everyone Else constantly. Yet again Daisy was punished for having feelings for someone who used those feelings against her.

Lincoln? He was the most supportive of her romantic pairings but he always had one foot out the door, understandably. He hated SHIELD, had his own massively unresolved issues and overall just never really gave Daisy the support she needed. It wasnt his fault. It wasnt anyones fault. He was just young and Dealing With Shit like Daisy was. And yet Even when he sacrificed his life for her, moments before he ran from her. When she reached her breaking point and asked to go back to HIVE Lincoln’s response to her severe trauma of being mind controlled was to break up with her... And to tell her she needed to work on herself, which yes she needed therapy but 😫

for someone who was abandoned her entire life by adults for making the Smallest of mistakes (ie look at her convo with jiaying about breaking a glass at a foster home) to punish her when she needs to be hugged is the most traumatizing shit ever. And yet it happened over and over again.

And not just by boyfriends.... Repeatedly Jemma and Coulson held her feelings for Ward against her in ways that felt unfair. And what about the time she left SHIELD because Lincoln died and she couldnt handle anything anymore? The woman was suicidal and desperate. Coulson and Mack just wanted to help so they chased after her - though I honestly dont think they knew what she needed in that moment and thats why she didnt come in. However, Fitz? Fitz took her leaving as a personal attack, as her abandoning him and the team. Yes he has his own trauma around abandonment so I get why he wouldnt take it well, but he threw it in her face Multiple Times as if she had done a great ~Sin~ by leaving the team. He held it against her as a personal failing in a way that was completely unfair. SHIELD is a job. She didn’t owe SHIELD her mental health. Since joining she had experienced so much loss (her mother, father AND a boyfriend) on top of all the deaths and torture she blamed herself for AND being mind controlled and almost dying multiple times??? Her friends and family should have hugged her and sent to a good therapist, not yell at her for not handling her trauma the way *they* wanted. I adore the SHIELD family and know they are all incredibly flawed and human and thats what makes the show so meaningful but you cant deny the fact that Rarely has Daisy ever been showed unconditional love on this show.

But this is all IMPORTANT context for why Daisy is so blown away by what Daniel Sousa tells her in the time loop. The fact that he Sees her and just wants to Be There to support her? Its something Daisy has secretly always wanted but was too afraid to ask for. She’s been hurt so many times and yet here is this man who literalllly just died for her, who is now telling her he wants to always be there to pick her back up? The way this would blow Daisy’s mind and hit at some desire buried so deep she prob cant even vocalize it just makes me. 🥺 The meaningfulness of him constantly offering to help and just Be There For Her is impossible to fully explain. I just - Im so fucking soft for them.

[mostlikelyshutup]

thoughts while watching the first harry potter:

listen i started this list a little late im ngl but notable thoughts so far are me thinking of dumbledore as a gay idiot and still loving hagrid

do you think hes speaking in parseltongue in the zoo when hes speaking to the snake

forgot boats existed

these idiots do scream a lot dont they

i forgot how light hearted this universe really is in the first couple movies

yer a wizard harry, okay hagrid maybe slide him into it a little better

we get it tuney you have fucking trauma, doesnt mean you should abuse a child

hasnt everyone had their name down since they were born, hagrid? theres a list

i like that his umbrella is pink

are you paying for those damages hargid? stop taking the door off the hinges

though, if the dursleys are, keep breaking shit

speaking about dragons on the the fucking tube, its a miracle harry didnt get in trouble with the ministry sooner

what is hagrid's usual? does anyone know???

fucking Quirrell, cant wait for your epic love story with the dark lord

maybe we should tell the 12 year old how the fuck everyone knows his name, just maybe

they do a great job of getting the wonder down pat

how much money and licensing do you think it took for them to get all these owls on set

ahh yes, antisemitism the bank

how many vaults are in gringotts?? also if harry's vault is the potters vault, a literal like sacred 28 family, one of the original families, and its number 600 something, how many were there before the potters?? did the potters get a vault recently? or is this james and lily's vault?? how rich were james and lily if so??

look at ollivander, crazy tinker uncle, love him

this might be the socialist in me but why do people have to pay for wands if everyone needs one??

why is the dark lords twin wand just sitting around on the shelf, ollie me boy??

do you think thats Harry's true wand or do you think thats because of the horcux thing?? do you harry had to get another wand after he died?? did he? i dont remember the last movie

is ollie me boys actor wearing contacts or are his eyes just like that??

thats a very weird way of showing Halloween 81, very misleading

hagrid said ill predict voldys rise in the first movie so we can have some plot development

hagrid is late to everything isnt he? i can feel it in my bones

i swear ive seen these movies, and ive even read the first book, i just dont remember shit

youd think theyd have someone in the know stationed close to the entrance for the platform, for any muggleborns

ginnys actress really had no fucking lines in this movie did she, just had to stand there

oh wait she said good luck

amazing work ginny

ooh a warm filter

can muggles see the express? like just running from london to scotland

wicked!

you didnt have to show the woman the sad sandwich ron

i think the trolly replenishes magically, i think thats how thats how that works, i want to believe that

god i cant tell if i would love or hate hermione, shes pretentious but so was i at that age

god dont fucking point your wand right in someones face mione

how does mione know who harry is?? why does she care?

look at the tiny first years, might just go and pinch theyre cheeks

MINNIEEEE i love you minnie

looking stunning minnie, the green brings out the sternness in your brow

you go minnie, give your speech, thats my head of house

shut up draco, youre not bond

you pretentious fuckwit, your hair is brassy anyways

if this is a class of kids born in the middle of a war, how big are the usual class sizes wtf

THE FUCKING CLAP

fucking propaganda ron, you slytherin hater

what order are these names going in, did they just randomized the list

oooh we get quiet for the boy who lived, jesus let him keep living

the fact that for the rest of these people its just silent is so fucking funny to me, Harry's just fucking whispering to himself

get their attention minnie

me dads a muggle, mums a witch, bit of a shock for him when he found out

NICK, love to see you buddy

i have no emotional attachment to peeves but i feel i should mention him here

the stairs still piss me off, why the fuck would you make moving stair cases

who sets out gloves for the next day? am i the weird one who doesnt??

Minnie, you are the love of my life

shut up snape you dramatic bloodpurist incel

i know theyre setting him up to be mistaken as the villain but jesus christ hes still an asshole

your robes Neville, you forgot your robes

its weird how they have to learn all these latin charms yet only have to say up to get their brooms to work

why wont you go after him, hes obviously not exactly in control, Hooch

does Hooch only teach first years? she is quite literally the equivalent of a history teacher who coaches football

what the fuck is Quirells classroom

they dont make the house teams because no first years can try out, Ron

MINNIE PLAYED QUIDDITCH?!?!? WHY DIDN'T I KNOW THIS

why didnt you speak up earlier Mione wtf

bc the fire wont give you away, harry, better hide

FLUFFY, WHOS A GOOD BOY

they have much worse things locked up in the school, Ron

Oliver wood is a bloody liar because i still dont fuckign understand quidditch, also theres like 500 rules, wtf

thats a shitty explanation of how the game works, Oliver

BLOW IT UP SEAMUS

SHES TWO FEET BEHIND YOU RON YOU IDIOT

carrot cake? on halloween?

dont shrug as if you didnt literally bully her ron

thought youd oughta know, bit of an understatement Quirell

no duh the trolls left the dungeon ron

lying: the best start to any friendship

we're at a net zero points for gryffindor for the year at the moment

the amount of interaction these kids have with professors is so weird to me, is this what small class size do to kids?? its weird

not comforting Oliver

Okay i understand Oliver simps now, I get it okay

are there no backups or subs for quidditch? feels like there should be, like of all the games

set him on fire mione, i know hes not the villain of the movie but god he sucks

fancy flying from harry fucking potter

okay but also i feel like there are some things we should not trust hagrid with, like hes not that great at keeping secrets

why is harry excited about christmas if he thinks hes not getting presents? i knw there are other aspects but like thats the only reasont o get up early

i always remember this scene at night for some reason??

not just an invisibility cloak, THE invisibility cloak ron

btw who gives it to harry? is it remus? is it dumbledore? is it like an inheritance thing? whats up with that?

there are jumpscares in harry potter

he very much can hide, filch

stop being a narc mrs norris

does harry even know what his parents look like at this point? how does he know who the fuck is in the mirror of erised?? he doesnt have that stupid scrapbook yet does he

oh they nod, sure lets clear up that plot hole

they shouldve put sirius and remus in the mirror in that scene, shown his whole family, wouldve been a nice setup

how does rupert grint already look so tired as a twelve year old

big speech to give to a twelve year old Dumbledore, when you wont even tell him what you see

Emma really does just slam that book on Daniels hand, thats mustve fucking sucked

the fact that ive watched two movies that had Nicholas Flamel in two very different roles this year is very strange to me

well thats probably on account of it being a fucking dragon egg hagrid, now isnt it?

was hagrid a hufflepuff? i think he was, maybe a ravenclaw

yes four, you blonde idiot

that shot is really nice, it sets them apart

what happened to filch to make him such a miserable man?

ooh mention of werewolves, awooo werewolves of london

yeah just dip your whole hand in hagrid, dont be scared of the strange liquid, take a nice little bath

i loev that dog, i want that dog, i want to hug that dog

god just the look of that forest is so bloody cool

wait so is that quirell walking fucking backwards?

maybe ask who the fuck youre talking to before asking other questions??? wtf harry

why are yout talking to the centaur like hes your old friend harry, youve literally never met him before

snape doesnt want the stone at all Harry

god hagrid you sweet stupid man

snape is completely valid for that, if a twelve year old ever looked at me like that i would punch them

Do you think people ever loose invisibility cloaks? like theyre invisible do you think they ever just never get found again

i hate the look of the dog spit, that is so gross

they really left everything in except for the fucking potions didnt they, damn

harry potter walked so queens gambit could run

hermione, posted up

rons stupid in the later movies because he got a concussion as a twelve year old

god harry really posted up to beat up snape in fucking khakis

"I knew you were a danger to me!" Hes twelve, Quirell

let me wait for this weird dude to unravel his head scarf instead of running away

the magic in this movie is real fucking conditional isnt it

just some casual necromancy for the stone? you sure about that voldy, you two faced bitch?

let me choke out this twelve year old real quick

oh yeah why is he able to just avengers endgame Quirell? is there an answer to that? like was that ever found out

do you think voldy passing by him while he hold the stone actually killed him but since he holds the stone hes functionally unkillable and then some magic gets put into him and thats why he can return to life later when he actually goes to the whole afterlife place?

ohhh we're vouching on the blood magic for the endgaming of Quirell

do you think dumbledore came across the vomit flavored bean before or after his sister died?

Mione's got a headband! Looking snazzy!

how did Hufflepuff only get 352 points? Gryffindor literally lost 150 points this year and they only beat them by 50, wtf, is it because they kept getting caught with weed

I wont even speak on the fucking outrage that is this point awarding, its already been spoken on. However, Neville shouldve gotten more points

What if someone just stood up and started challenging Dumbledores math, that would be so funny

some of these extras are really attractive

but james potter is somehow so fucking ugly why did they do that to my mans

hagrid deserves the last shot of this film, i love him, he deserves everything, that stupid sweet man

[angeltrapz]

ok saw asks!!! bcuz i have Amanda on th brain rn i wd like ur take on her interacting w Lawrence? personally idk how much she knew of his involvement bc she implies in 3 tht Lynn was entirely John's choice, but i also think th idea of her Knowing + deliberately not telling Hoffman is extremely funny. Hoffman cant come 2 th weekly disciple meeting bcuz hes got Cop Business so he misses Lawrence's introduction + Amanda is just like "sure John of course ill tell Mark that we got a new friend :)" and just never does. LOVE that thought

dhgsdkj thank u!!

it Is extremely funny 2 think that she just. knows but refuses to tell Hoffman + THAT'S why Hoffman doesn't know who Lawrence is until he jabs him w the needle + takes off the pig mask lmao omg. just like "oh yeah of course I'll tell Mark we have a new teammate don't worry abt it!" and she Never Does dkjkdsg??

okay but 2 Seriously answer yr question. when I think abt it I always think that like. it wld b pretty hard fr John 2 keep them frm each other given how integral Lawrence's participation is in every game from SAW II onward? 'cause like we know Amanda helps w the kidnapping process + placing them in their traps, which one CLD argue would only mean she wld see them after Lawrence would do his thing but. I feel like she'd be vaguely aware? bc she wld also then have 2 know that he survived his game, given that she helped set it up - we know that she'd AT LEAST know his name.

to elaborate on th idea that only HOFFMAN doesn't know (both bc it's fucking hilarious + actually how I view things happening jdkhfksd), I feel like Amanda + Lawrence's interactions wld be rather limited. in canon, Lawrence becomes a disciple after John "rehabilitates" him or whtever he wants 2 call it, but I feel he'd have to be aware of Amanda, too - both that she is also a disciple + SHE'S th one who helped get him in the bathroom in th first place. as grateful as Lawrence seems to feel toward John + as much as he believes in John's "work," I feel like that wld be smth he'd have to work thru: working side by side w someone who had a direct hand in basically destroying yr life as u knew it. n I feel like Amanda wld know that, n as such she'd want to keep her distance bc she can't predict how this man will act/what he will do, even if he is technically on her side. so like. things wld def be tense btwn them until Lawrence has had some time 2 process his new life + what tht means for him, and until the two of them can have some sort of talk/acknowledgement of that.

though I will say that their roles kind of imply they'd at least see a good bit of each other. Amanda scouts, in a way, helps subdue & bring ppl in, which wld then be brought to Lawrence fr any medical procedures they feel r needed (such as sewing th key behind Michael's eye in II) so it'd definitely be like a "hey did u bring some1?" sort of thing. Mark is muscle of course so like I know he def helped on tht end (I believe Amanda is th one who caught Lawrence in the parking garage but like it wld be SO much funnier if Hoffman was the one crawling around) but IDK if he rly Saw Lawrence bc. Cop Business. so he'd just kinda b like "here u go" n bring ppl to Amanda n then peace out 'cause he's gotta keep tht reputation of Respected Detective. we know he also might've messed w traps themselves as well (like The Rack in III), which wld definitely keep him separate from Lawrence bc Lawrence had No Involvement in designing/setting up traps. tht was strictly a John/Hoffman/Amanda endeavour.

as fr how they'd feel abt each other? it's really dependent on how u view thm as characters. Lawrence, after he becomes a disciple, believes that what John is doing is truly helpful and truly has the capability to change lives; he devotes himself 2 it, shows countless times tht he has complete faith in John + his methods, so much so that John left a tape fr him telling him to look after Jill + to act on his behalf if smth were to happen to her. he calls Lawrence his greatest asset. his trust in John + the Jigsaw legacy is unwavering.

Amanda, however, has been shown several times to act directly against John's beliefs, such as constructing inescapable traps (Kerry) or rigging others' games (Adam). th breakdown she has in III I think showcases the disconnect between her love fr John as a mentor/father figure, and the realization that not only is John entirely hypocritical and doesn't stay true to his own beliefs half th time, he truly has shown no regard fr her safety + has only been using her to further the agenda that was built upon a fragile foundation 2 begin with. u've mentioned this b4 too but John always liked 2 say that if u can anticipate the human mind, then nothing is up 2 chance - which wld mean that he KNEW Xavier might throw Amanda into the Needle Pit to get out of it. he KNEW Daniel was just a fucking kid and was perfectly fine w putting him in very real danger to get back at some1 he felt like needling fr the express purpose of provocation and nothing else. he KNEW Laura, a woman she'd formed a bond w and pretty much swore to protect th minute she woke up and saw her crying in the corner, could begin to seize n choke on her own vomit and die in that house. he knew all of those things, ENCOURAGED the belief that smth was wrong w her because she wasn't "fixed" as he had claimed, and it's so unfortunate that she doesn't realize that sooner (I fully agree that she deserved to lose her shit completely on John. it's what he deserved! it's what SHE deserved!!!) but she still Does before she dies (which, again, I Don't think should've happened. she didn't deserve 2 go out like tht + she deserved so much more of her story being told).

so there's the conflict of beliefs between thm. I think Amanda definitely starts out like Lawrence does, completely devoted + believing every word John says, but thru II we can see that certainty begin to falter n her faith in John is completely shaken by the end. I don't think Lawrence wld Know she felt tht way until after she died, if he ever finds out at all, bc I doubt that's smth she'd want to express. it's not even smth she discusses w John himself until III, in which she's already made up her mind to shoot Lynn as a final act of misguided disobedience. I still think tht Lawrence wld feel fr her in some way, though, bc even b4 he became a disciple he was rather horrified when Sing + Tapp had him sit thru her testimony; his feelings would change on this a lil, bc he'd see it as her rebirth (as she once did too), but I still feel like he'd want 2 like. watch over her a little. not super directly, + not because he felt threatened by her presence or anything like that, but because they're in this together n I'm sure John's told him abt some of the circumstances regarding how she came to be a disciple after her game as well. I feel like he wld definitely be saddened by her passing, bc I feel he'd come 2 respect her at least a bit, but fr him it's like. they have 2 keep moving. John is gone now too, smth I'm sure was probably a pretty huge blow fr Lawrence, and now he has to put his energy into making sure Hoffman stays unaware of him. just in case he has to act on that warning John gave him abt Jill. but he wld still miss Amanda n wld mourn her, to be sure.

I don't think they'd be close or anything like tht. kind of just friendly coworkers who only see each other every once in a while, passing thru the doors of each other's lives with a nod and a wave and maybe a greeting if they're feeling up 2 it. they're not too involved. Amanda can't tell u tht Lawrence's favourite flowers are sunflowers. Lawrence can't tell u tht Amanda's favourite smell is lavender or tht her favourite colour is a deep, almost greyish purple. but they're connected thru John, thru their work, n that still means smth to both of them, at least in some manner. when Amanda dies, Lawrence grieves. Jill pays for her headstone n Lawrence makes sure to bring fresh flowers every once in a while, but he has to hold his head up n keep walking. now tht John's gone, there's work to be done.

and someone's gotta keep an eye on Hoffman.

[vividaway]

Maybe instead of focusing on Joey and Daniel calling Gabbie out (which is their right. If Gabbie can call out them for what she perceives as bad working conditions, than they have every right to refute her claims), you and the rest of the stans should address the latest information about Bianca that has been brought to light as well as the fact that Gabbie stalked someone online who happened to be underaged.

PLEASE CONSIDER SIGNING TO MAKE BIANCA'S LAW REAL. https://www.change.org/p/bianca-s-law-stop-the-spread-of-violent-and-graphic-images-on-the-internet

BEFORE ALL OF THIS LET ME SAY: your use of Bianca Devins in this disgusting manipulative way is exactly that-- disgusting and manipulative. my twitter messages are open, so to not only track down my tumblr, but ANONYMOUSLY LEAVE A MESSAGE TRYING TO USE BIANCA'S NAME LIKE THIS? DIS-FUCKING-GUSTING.

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Alright, here's a concept.

It's not Joey and Daniels place to refute Gabbie's claims. Their main point in all of this was "She never filled out the form! It's all her fault!" which is actually irrelevant to the story, seeing as she had told them PERSONALLY. in a FACE TO FACE INTERACTION.

the fact of the matter is, as the showrunner, and literal creator of the show, it is your responsibility to ensure the safety of ALL of your cast and crew. and yes, this does include the mental well-being (of the rest of the cast)--

-- and on that note, i also need to say that them not communicating to Gabbie that she were to be killed off, to me, is just unprofessional. it would have made filming a lot better. like honestly, do you think Gabbie would have been as pissed if she knew she wasn't going to be there again?

and another thing-- if Gabbie acted SO horribly, why did they stay her friend? Collab on her channel? if Gabbie acted SO BADLY during SEASON TWO... why did they invite her back? and if Tana was an issue, why invite HER back? I'm very glad that tana had a better time during season 4, but the fact that they knew BOTH OF THEM were bad on set, yet invited them back? they're literally setting up every other person around them for a toxic work-place experience. I've said it once and it's my next point, too, its un. pro. fessional.

ignoring all of that. literally every single piece of information i've stated above. THERE ARE TWO SOLE REASONS I STAND WITH GABBIE.

1. Joey and Daniel, no matter how horrible Gabbie may have acted, had no right to play out Gabbie's voice memo's where she was expressing that she was EXTREMELY UPSET. that she was dealing with multiple things in her life. They had NO right. Trisha Paytas, of all people, has even heard that voice memo enough to MOCK, AND MAKE FUN OF GABBIE'S EATING DISORDER, PUBLICLY, MULTIPLE TIMES, REFERENCING THE VOICE MEMO. to have the people you WORKED FOR, DO THAT? how could anyone in their cast ever trust them again? who's to say you wont send them a genuinely confidential voice memo, and they STILL decide to share it with people?

2. BECAUSE GABBIE'S MENTAL HEALTH ISNT A CRUTCH, IT ISNT AN EXCUSE, AND IT SURE AS HELL ISNT A JOKE. Gabbie Hanna was on the brink of suicide, she was struggling with an eating disorder, had undiagnosed, unmedicated ADHD, was dealing with immense c-ptsd, and it is ALL. FUCKING. VALID.

for YEARS. I've been told to stop using my Bipolar as a crutch. that i was in therapy for it, and that i needed to use coping mechanisms. i was later diagnosed with BPD-- and suddenly i didn't need to cope anymore. my anger was suddenly understandable. people finally believed me.

you DO NOT. HAVE TO HAVE. A FUCKING GOD DAMN PERSONALITY DISORDER TO BE FUCKING BELIEVED.

ESPECIALLY CONSIDERING?

my BPD WASN'T THE ISSUE.

IT WAS MY ADHD.

its literally wired into our brains, and WE. CANNOT. CONTROL. IT. the ONLY THING WE CAN DO, IS TREAT IT.

to continue to NOT LISTEN TO PEOPLE WHEN THEY ARE CLEARLY EXPRESSING THEIR LIMITS is the reason mental health is in its infancy today. we know when something is too much, and we know when our conditions are causing us to have outbursts, because its something we dont do EVERY SINGLE DAY. we need to realize that ALL. MENTAL. ILLNESSES. EVERY SINGLE ONE.

IS JUST AS IMPORTANT. JUST AS DIFFICULT. AND JUST AS UNIQUE, AS ANY OTHER MENTAL ILLNESS.

with the amount of genetical defects, the amount of nationalities that exist, the amount of co-morbidities, EVERY. SINGLE. THING. THAT MAKES ME DIFFERENT FROM YOU? you GENUINELY expect there to be a person in the world with the EXACT SAME THOUGHT PROCESS, exact same conditions, exact same life circumstances, as me? as Gabbie? as YOU?

there is a reason people with mental illness have a common symptom, no matter the condition. that symptom is the thought that no one in the world can possibly have the same thought process as you. its the symptom that i essentially expressed a paragraph before this one. and its because we realize that THERE ISNT. that it isnt a symptom, but a fact, to us. because you cant thing the way i can. my brain will only ever process the way MY. BRAIN. PROCESSES.

that. is why i stand by Gabbie.

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So, the new information about Bianca Devins? Alright, lets talk about it.

Kim Devins, Bianca's mom, has called for all drama channels to apologize to Gabbie Hanna for the way they treated her in regards to her commenting on Bianca's shirts.

I know you want me to say that it turns out Gabbie is actually manipulating the mother, and Gabbie actually WAS exploiting Bianca---

NO.

KIM DEVINS IS A GROWN WOMAN. KIM DEVINS HAS SAID PUBLICLY, ON HER OWN, PUBLIC TWITTER ACCOUNT, THAT GABBIE HANNA DESERVES AN APOLOGY. KIM DEVINS HAS STATED THAT EVERYTHING GABBIE HAS SAID WAS IN FACT-- THE TRUTH. TO SAY GABBIE IS LYING, IS TO SAY THE MOTHER IS LYING, AS THE MOTHER HAS NOT ONLY APPROVED OF, BUT ENDORSED THE VIDEO.

i know i linked this before everything, but if you haven't already, PLEASE. FUCKING. SIGN.

https://www.change.org/p/bianca-s-law-stop-the-spread-of-violent-and-graphic-images-on-the-internet

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Yeah uhh..so first off, Gabbie never doxxed ANYONE. as someone who's had their literal home IP leaked-- you shouldn't just throw that term around lightly. its genuinely traumatic for people to be doxxed.

Gabbie did however, grab the IP of someone. she did this, because she was worried it was someone SHE FULLY KNEW, was a danger to minors.

Second off, this was talked about quite awhile ago, in april or may-- she actually did that WELL OVER a year ago. we only know because she talked about it on Marco Polo (an app where you can group video chat and text. it was a perk of one of the tiers of her patreon) and it was leaked recently. so i don't really get your point in that.

Gabbie only did that because of all the minor fans that people were SCREAMING for Gabbie to protect last summer. They blamed Gabbie for certain fans that were getting bullies by anti's, all because Gabbie herself didn't tell people not to. so OF FUCKING COURSE she is going to do anything she can to protect her fans if she FULLY KNOWS a PROPER P*DO is trying to imitate a fan account, and she thinks she found it.

When the IP didn't match with where she knew the gross ass guy lived, she completely discarded it. Honestly, if you're upset with this, you might at well be upset with THIS, too. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JaJqBug10MQ

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ALL OF THIS TO SAY:

THIS IS A THOMAS SANDERS BLOG

PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT GABBIE HANNA.

[wlwchans]

things i noticed while watching ready or not

-we can see that alex’s loyalty is to his family when he is strangling his dad and chooses to let him live, even if its subconscious

-after hearing that alex is meant to lead the family, grace can rescue him, she’s right outside the window but she doesnt. no trust between them anymore

-“you all remember what happened to the van horns right” “yea didnt they just die in a house fire” THE FORESHADOWING

-when emilie kills the maid w/ the crossbow she says “why does this always happen to me” instead of caring that she just killed someone. which. thats the whole movie right there i guess

-saw a gif set of this but the difference between “if i had told you, you would’ve left me” (alex) and “remember how you reacted when i told you” (daniel) like WOW

-the parallel of daniel seeing emilie praise her son for shooting her and saying “i am so proud of you” and daniel being on the receiving end of that. I-

-th. the way that she wouldve lived if the car was normal and not super high tech. again: fucking rich people.

-okay. the scene of her kicking out the butler while everyones watching on the call but he cant hear them bc of the music. cinematic poetry thats top tier comedy

-the arc of the dress. oh my god the way she goes from pure white wedding dress to torn up red and bloodied dress i- CHEFS KISS thats excellent design and planning

-alex believed that grace was good and said he’d pick her over his mother then when he sees his mother being beat to a pulp by grace he switches sides no LOYALTY istg this HOE

-in defense of alex: he just lost daniel and then watched his mom die. he Snapped i get that

-in defense of grace: as soon as alex found out that they died he immediately was like “you wont be with me after this will u” which is SELF CENTERED AS FUCK. THIS WHOLE TIME HES ONLY LOOKING OUT FOR HIMSELF IM HHHGLSFJLD. also i get the Snap but Snapping so hard u start to worship satan? couldnt b me

-stupid bitches. was it worth it. was it WORTH IT

-hnhrnnng the pause between when the sun comes up and they begin to die………. and theyre regretting everything………. a. and then htey all start to die………………………… thats called comeuppance bitch learn about it

-alex begging for his life. i CANNOT believe

-okay but this whole movie argues like. morals vs reward???? i guess

[jessica-rowan]

A letter I will never send (to my transphobic mother)

Janet, 

So I’m moving out. You’re a bitch and have been such a profoundly negitive influence on me that I have wanted to kill myself. Any mother who is the direct cause of that in her child is a failed mother and a terrible person.

Fuck you. Like for real and for serious, Fuck you. You sit and you bitch about how no one respects you and you don’t feel loved. This WHOLE house bends to your every whim without a word in argument. NO ONE stands in your way. NO ONE. fuck you. SO MANY of my fucking friends have made some variation of the comment:

“If i didn’t know other people aside from your mother lived here i wouldnt have ever guessed”

My room, my space, my fucking hidaway. It has hardwood floors not because I wanted them, but because YOU wanted them. BOTH times my room has been painted it was because YOU wanted it painted.

There is ZERO evidence that I live in the house. Everything is how YOU want it and its always fucking been this way.

You bitch, you berate, you condescend and YOURE FUCKING PROUD OF IT

“Hey i'm just being honest, if you don't want me to be honest dont ask” - thats fucking your mantra and you fucking wear it like a fucking crown

Brutal honesty? No. judgemental bitch. Its not a good character trait its fucking toxic and its one of the many, many, many fucking reasons danielle doesnt fucking talk to you. The reason we dont come to you with problems is because we learned really fucking early that instead of advice or empathy we get criticism and judgement. 

Did it ever occur to you that fucking maybe we wanted a mother and not a personified negative opinion? 

You grew up in an abusive home. That sucks. You know what you did instead of making sure that your kids never suffered what you went through? YOU FUCKING CREATED AN ABUSIVE HOME WHERE TWO OUT OF YOUR THREE KIDS HAVE TRIED TO KILL THEMSELVES BECUSE OF YOU.

You are a fucking narcisist. This note, these words. They look like lies to you. That i’m making shit up. You cannot see what you’ve done to us and when confronted by the smallest possibility you may have done something?? Not only DO YOU FUCKING BLAME US you have also said that even if you DID do something YOU FUCKING TAKE NO RESPONSIBILITY FOR IT. 

LIKE A FUCKING FOUR YEAROLD.

You fucking cunt stain

There is no one in this world i fucking hate more than you

You’ve ripped so much joy from me, caused me an incalculable amount of pain, AND HOW FUCKING DARE I EVER IMPLY that maybe something youve said or done has caused hurt. BITCH. YOU FUCKING BITCH 

I want to kill myself. DO YOU FUCKING GET THAT? YOU HAVE SAID AND DONE THINGS THAT MAKE ME WANT TO OPEN UP MY WRISTS WITH A FUCKING BOXCUTTER. 

And by the fucking grace of a few friends and a CHAMPION sister, whos been more of a fucking mother than you ever have been. IM NOT FUCKING DEAD YET.

“I love and support you!!!” youll fucking say, cause youre always the victim. And im being so fucking mean and hateful and ungrateful right now. 

You know what.

Go fuck yourself.

You ensured ive felt BEHOLDEN to you, that i am INDEBTED to you. Im made to feel bad about ANY and EVERY decision i make that stears my own fucking life.

Youve fucking said time and time again “live your own life and find your happiness” “all i want is for you to be happy”

But whenever we did something to further those goals??? You fucking made us feel like shit.

That we were insulting you PERSONALLY for not doing whatever in the way YOU wanted.

You want us to be happy as long as we live in a way that YOU can fucking control

You wanna know why danielle pisses you off so fucking much??

You can't control her.

You wanna know why my transition pisses you off so much

Other than the fact youre a massively homophopic transphobic psychobitch?

Because it's moved me beyond your control

And you cant fucking STAND that. 

And lets fucking talk about my transition. A word you can’t even fucking SAY.

This is the BEST FUCKING THING THATS EVER FUCKING HAPPENED TO ME

THIS FUCKING SAVED MY FUCKING LIFE.

And you fucking HATE it.

You wont use my pronouns, you fucking refuse to call me a she. Your excuse is “i need some time” bullshit

If you were making ANY effort at all you would, fucking statistically speaking, use the proper one AT SOME FUCKING POINT but you dont. You never fucking have. you never fucking will becuse you dont care that it hurts me. Because anything that is a minor inconvenience to fucking Janet isnt fucking worth a damn so fuck everyone who isnt you.

You said point blank that you hate my name and you won't use it.

In a rare moment of bravery, i pointed out that refusal to acknowledge someone's identity is profoundly disrespectful you fucking YELLED AT ME you bigoted bitch.

You said I BETRAYED THE FAMILY when I changed my name. You flat out said that I wasn't part of this family anymore. You yelled at me for two fucking hours about how fucking awful i was.

“Youre a Rowan now, whatever the fuck that is”

IT MEANS COURAGE YOU FUCKING CUNT

Courage to face your fucking abuser and tell her to fuck the hell right the fuck off

When i came out to you do you know what the first things you fucking said to me were??

BECAUSE I FUCKING DO 

They are burned into my fucking mind. They will probably never leave.

“First of all how dare you’ - HOW FUCKED UP IT THIS. i don't even have WORDS for how MASSIVELY FUCKED UP THIS IS. how dare I?? HOW FUCKING DARE I WHAT??? BE FUCKING HAPPY??? I THOUGHT YOU WANTED THAT, OH WAIT NO, YOU ONLY WANT HAPPINESS YOU APPROVE OF. LIFE SAVING HAPPINESS TO KEEP YOUR CHILD ALIVE??? CANT HAVE THAT. you fucking cunt

“I suppose i cant talk you out of it” - TALK ME OUT OF WHAT? BEING TRANSGENDER IS NOT A FUCKING CHOICE SO WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT??? TALK ME OUT OF????FUCKING STAYING ALIVE AND HAPPY? YOU WOULD PREFER I DIED INSTEAD THEN YOU WOULDN'T BE INCONVENIENCED BY MY HAPPINESS

“I'm not going to hit you but I'm thinking about it” OH NEAT LETS TRY SAYING THIS ANOTHER WAY

“I want to assault this person because they have displeased me and I am a violent narcissist bigot”

YOU FUCKING PSYCHOPATH. HITTING YOUR CHILD, WHO CAME TO YOU DESPITE HOW AFRAID THEY WERE AND YOU FIRST THOUGHT IS TO FUCKING HIT THME FOR IT.

Your fucking insane and you need help.

In the time since ive come out never once. NOT FUCKING ONCE have you said “i love you” to me.

MARYLOU a fucking aunt I rarely see??? THOSE WERE THE FIRST FUCKING WORDS SHE SAID TO ME. THE FIRST FUCKING WORDS OUT OF HER MOUTH.

DANIELLE my fucking sister who also dont get to see that often

THE FIRST THINGS SHE SAID WAS THAT SHE LOVES ME AND SHE’S PROUD OF ME

BUT YOU, fucking YOU. love was the farthest thing from your fucking mind.

When I then came out to dad, which by the way, DISPROVES YOUR FUCKING NARRATIVE THAT YOU WERE THE LAST TO FIND OUT. you fucking said of me “where did i go wrong”

BITCH YOU FUCKING WENT WRONG WHEN YOU DECIDED TO NOT LOVE YOUR CHILDREN.

This house hasn’t been a home for me since it was built.

This house is your house. It’s always been your house. You make sure everyone fucking knows that.

And believe me we DO know that.

And its taken me a long fucking time to get my brain to accept that i dont fucking need you

I dont need your negativity

I dont need your hate

I dont need your passive aggressive bullshit

I dont need to feel like i should have to hide in my own home

I dont need to feel like im not safe

I dont need to feel guilty for being FINALLY who I am, who I always was

What I DO need?

Is a place that respects me

A place I feel safe

A place I don’t feel judged the moment I walk into the room

A place where I can surround myself with people who are happy i chose not to kill myself

A place where I can breathe

A place where I DONT have to cry myself to sleep

And that place?

That place isn’t here.

That place is not YOUR house

That place is not ANYWHERE near you

So I’m leaving. I choose life. I choose to live. I choose to be happy. 

Fuck you Janet. Fuck you straight to a lonely hell.

I have the fools hope that maybe you’ll fucking read this and maybe just maybe something inside that wicked shell of yours realizes what shes done. It fucking wont, cause in Janets fucking world everyone is out to get her and she can do no wrong. 

But if by some fucking MIRACLE that does happen and you wanna talk to me? You want to APOLOGIZE to me?? Maybe, FUCKING MAYBE I’ll talk.

But you WILL call me Jessica

Or you won’t call me at all.

Signed in outrage by your youngest DAUGHTER,

Jessica Rowan

[iwanttoeastendmyself]

So i finally caught up on the last 3 eps...

I-im not okay-

FIRSTLY WTF Daniel is dead??? And there was like nearly no aftermath damn?? Also bruhhh when jean left to get the drinks and me and my mum shared a glance cause we both KNEW he wasn't going to make it...shit hurts

CALLUM! My poor baby he's back and wow i actually thought he'd be in hospital longer but atta boi, he's a fighter!

HHHHHHHHH BEN-

I'M so glad that jay told more ppl about Ben's hearing bc i thought we'd have to deal with more misunderstandings and bs especially from stuart but NOPE ee said nah thats effort and im grateful we didnt have to put up with that

HHHHHH poor sharon i feel for her

UGH dammit whit i still cant believe she didnt go to the fuckitf police first thing we aLL KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN UGh

Mo is hilarious i love her

Did i mention? BALLUM BALLUM BALLUM BALLUM-

Callum tracing 'I ♡ U' on Ben's back hhhhhhhh

BEN'S BREAKDOWN T^T

OK BUT LIKE THE FUCKING KEEGAN AND TIFF SCENE WAS HILARIOUS EVEN IF RIDICULOUSLY CLICHE BUT IDGAF I LOVED IT SO MUCH OMGG

Speaking of (this doesnt count as spoilers if it was in the promo right?) it looks like keegan is gonna have more problems with the police and well as a poc that makes me happy bc that stuff should be addressed ut also frustrated as fuck because GIVE HIM A BREAK

Also tiff telling the police to "get your hands off my husband" We STAN A QUEEn

I dont know if it was just me but the pacing felt kinda...off?

Like idk it was just...it kept cutting of in what felt like the middle of rlly emotional moments to go to something random

Really killed the vibes

dotty is seriously getting on my nerves ugh A) she srsluy cant keep her trap shut and B) way to be insensitive about dennis like i actively hated his face and i was still devastated when he died

WHere exactly is the aftermath of bex? She nearly overdosed and died again and yet its barely been addressed? Speaking of where tf is sonia???? And martin????????

Also with missing characters, i know sharon doesnt wanna see linda but i think it'd be good for her honestly

Istg if gray even THINKS about laying one of his dusty musty grimy ass wife-beating FINGERS on the kids ima bought to throw hands

And lastly, lexi is a damn godsend and BITCH HAS NO CHILL DAMN WTF KID'S A STRAIGHT UP SAVAGE WE FUCKING STAN-

[my-creative-hell]

Outed (Gender swap au)

The coffee shop is full of life as Grave and Daniel sip on their drinks quietly, Daniel’s cold and sweet tea comforting to him as he watches the people around them.

“Ah yes, legal liquid crack. My favourite.” Grave jokes, observing his own drink of pure caffeine and heart attacks before him in pride.

“I don’t know how you haven’t died yet when you drink that shit.” Daniel snorts, amused as he watches Grave.

“I dunno either! Maybe one day it will, but I’m only here for a good time, not a long one.” Grave laments, thinking it over as he swills his coffee around.

“Well that would suck, considering I quite enjoy having you around.” Smiling, Daniel’s words are kind as Grave looks to him, his face flushing.

“You do?” He questions, slightly surprised by Daniel’s fondness towards him as he too blushes.

“Yeah, course I do. You’re really cool and nice.” Daniel explains, shifting his gaze away from Grave to save face.

“You cant say that, I’m way too soft and I w i l l cry… but good.” Grave squeaks as he responds, though he appreciates the sincere sentiment.

Laughing quietly, Daniel sips on his drink as his phone goes off, the screen lighting up momentarily.

“Tis a p e r s o n.” Grave explains, leaning his head on the table comfortably as he speaks, glowing dimly.

“Its just my uncle texting me, asking how I am.” Daniel explains, answering the text before putting his phone away in his bag.

“Cool!!!” Grave smiles, reaching his hand out and wiggling his fingers expectantly. “Give me h a n d. please.” He requests.

“Is there anything you wanna look for while we’re here?” Daniel questions, face flushing slightly as he gives Grave his hand as requested.

“Stuff with frogs and worms on it! I love them a whole lot and they’re amazing.” Grave explains after thinking about it.

“They are super cool. Maybe one of the novelty shops have some stuff?” Daniel explains, smiling as he watches Grave’s excitement.

“Fuck yeah!!!” Grave exclaims, bouncing in his seat excitedly, making Daniel snort as he finishes his drink.

“I saw one that looks promising.” He continues, watching as Grave lights up, tapping on the table.

“Where’d you see it?” He questions, smiling as he locks his gaze onto Daniel intently, wanting the answer.

“Not too far outside the coffee shop, looked pretty cool.” Daniel explains, smiling in amusement.

“Can we go now?” Grave requests, trying to stop tapping his feet as he glows in anticipation.

“Sure, if you’re done in here we can.” Daniel nods, holding in his laughter at Grave’s excitement.

Chugging down the rest of his coffee concoction, Grave drags a giggling Daniel out of the coffee shop, following his direction as he points out the store for him.

Grave pulls him inside the store quickly, trying to cease his glowing as they come in the presence of other people.

“I can see some frog stuff over there!” Following closely behind Grave, Daniel points out the section for him, able to hear Grave gap as he rushes towards the section, buzzing excitedly. Following behind him, Daniel looks around as Grave picks up a small frog toy.

“F r o g.” He squeaks happily as she holds onto it, his voice quivering in excitement as Daniel smiles.

“He’s cute.” He agrees, looking at the chubby cheeked frog Grave holds oh so delicately in his hands.

“Yes he is!!!” Grave exclaims, gently placing the frog on Daniel’s head. “You are just like frog now.” He remarks.

“Well I don’t mind that.” Daniel giggles softly, his cheeks dusted red as he looks at Grave.

“You’re the best frog. Like… the God of Frogs or something else cool.” Grave continues, smiling as he holds onto Daniel’s hand, watching him look away as he blushes, body stopping as he spots something in the store.

“You okay?” Grave questions, feeling concerned as he glows softly in confusion, following Daniel with his eyes.

“Holy shit…” Nodding, Daniel moves from his place in the store, wandering over to one of the many glass display cases around them.

“What is it?” Following closely behind, Grave peeps from behind Daniel, able to see the orb like space necklace he seems to be looking at, which is shifting and changing in the light.

“Do you want me to buy it for you?” Grave questions, smiling as he hangs behind Daniel, watching him jump slightly.

“Huh? Oh, no, sorry I was just distracted.” He explains, laughing quietly. “That’s way too expensive for anyone to buy.” He continues.

“But I can buy it for you and also I w a n t to.” Grave explains, fiddling with his hands happily.

“No, I-I’d feel bad if you wasted all that money on me.” Daniel protests, blushing profusely as he argues.

“Its not a waste, I wanna do this for you! Like a whole lot!!!” Grave pushes back, frowning slightly as he watches Daniel blush more, turning bright red.

“A-Are you sure?” He questions, peeking at Grave nervously, aware of the obvious burning cheeks on his face.

“I’m very very sure!!!” Reassuring him, Grave bounces excitedly as Daniel turns to face him, allowing him to see his flushed face better.

“I-If you’re sure I guess I cant stop you…” He agrees softly, drifting his eyes down to look at the floor as his stomach churns, butterflies filling it as Grave watches him.

“Good!!!” Picking up the necklace out of the display case carefully, Grave turns to face Daniel. “Is there anything else you’d like?” He questions.

“I-I’m okay, but thank you. I do appreciate it.” Daniel explains, his sentiment sounding sincere as he speaks, looking down at the floor.

“You sure?” Feeling concern bubble inside of him, Grave tries to clarify, watching Daniel nod.

“Yeah, I’m sure.” He reassures him, peeking at Grave to flash him a gentle smile in encouragement.

“Mmm f i n e.” Giggling, Grave relents, looking around the rest of the store as Daniel wanders around, looking at various trinket like objects scattered around the shelves and display cases.

Glowing softly, Grave looks around, noticing some space themes pride pins as Daniel moves around, looking at some of the soft plushies displayed around the store.

Making sure Daniel cant see him, Grave grabs some of the pins for him, hiding them until he can buy them as Daniel looks out of the windows of the store, people watching quietly.

“You ready?” Grave questions, buying the pins quickly and inconspicuously, hiding them in his hoodie pocket.

“Yeah I’m ready if you are.” Daniel explains, nodding as he turns to smile at Grave sweetly.

“S o n i c.” Grave wiggles, running out of the store as Daniel giggles, following him out happily.

“Gotta go fast.” He continues, holding in his laughter as he watches Grave stop running to talk to him.

“Speed is k e y, if you don’t speed you become…” Trailing off, Grave thinks about his words. “Weed.” He eventually continues.

“That’s so dumb.” Laughing quietly, Daniel follows Grave through the mall and the dispersing crowds of people.

“I know, but if it makes you laugh, I’ll keep doing it!!!” Grave explains, feeling his heart flutter.

“Thanks, that’s super nice.” Smiling, Daniel tries to ignore the butterflies in his stomach as he walks, feeling his face warm up.

“Well of course, you deserve nice things all the time!” Grave explains, glowing softly as Daniel blushes, looking away from him and into the crowd of people, seemingly able to see something.

“Is there d o g?” Grave questions, raising an eyebrow in confusion as he look at Daniel. Shaking his head, Daniel looks down at the floor nervously as Grave spots two girls walking towards them.

“And just like that we are l e a v i n g.” Grave speaks bluntly, grabbing Daniels hand gently as he starts to walk them both in another direction, not wanting to know what was going to happen.

“Rose?” The voice of one of the girls rings out as Daniel follows Grave silently, looking down at the floor as he walks.

“Its God, bitch!” Grave exclaims, walking away faster as he glows softly, dragging Daniel with him.

“Hey it is you!” One of the girls runs to catch up with them, grabbing onto Daniel’s arm gently.

“Let go of him. Now.” Grave warns, turning to face the girl with anger behind his eyes, glowing brighter.

“Him? Rose, don’t tell me you’re still pretending to be a man…” The girl frowns, looking up at Daniel as she continues to hold onto his arm.

Sighing, Grave lands a solid punch into the girls face, already done with her as she reels backwards from the blow.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?!” She yells, Daniel flinching at the volume as she gets angry at Grave.

“I should be asking you that question, dumbass.” Grave insults her, quickly punching her again as his anger continues to rise, his blood boiling.

“Hey, what the hell is up? I’m her friend, and you attack me?” The girl questions Grave, pulling Daniel towards her as he is far too stressed to resist.

“You’re c l e a r l y not his friend if you keep misgendering him.” Grave explains, glowing angrily as the girl scoffs.

“She’s not a boy, she’s just mentally unstable and she needs help.” The girl continues to defend her actions, gripping onto Daniel’s arm harder in response.

“I-I’m sorry… the fuck did you just say?” Grave questions, a sickening smile appearing on his face as he pulls a knife out of his pocket, growing tired of the conversation.

“You’re poisoning her, making her believe she’s a guy. She’s going to go to hell because of you!” The girl snarls, Daniel yelping quietly as she tightens her grip on his arm.

“Just shut the fuck up. Please, I really don’t wanna hear your bullshit.” Grave goes further, easily sliding the knife into the girls flesh as Daniel shakes, taking off running away from the situation.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?!” The girl screams, backing away from Grave in fear and anger, eyes wild and wide open.

“I am s t i l l waiting for you to answer that question but you haven’t, so…” Grave frowns as he hears Daniel run away in the distance, though he refocuses on the girl as she backs away from him more.

“I’m not the one who just stabbed someone!” She argues, though she sounds more nervous and afraid as she does.

“Well you’re a stupid fuckin transphobe, so what e l s e do you think I’d do?” Grave questions, slicing her again with the knife, watching as she falls onto the floor.

“You’re a monster…” She snarls out, curling up in pain as Grave gets closer to her, seemingly not caring about the danger she is in.

“How the fuck am I the monster? You misgendered my friend and I did the reasonable thing which was stab the shit out of you!” Grave explains, kneeling down beside her as she watches the girl in confusion.

“Her parents understood she was a freak, that’s why they messed her up like they did. You’re just allowing her to go to hell.” The girls voice turns sour as a cold laugh escapes from her mouth, sounding lifeless and empty.

“Oh my g o d, shut the fuck up! Its literally not that hard to do.” Rolling his eyes, Grave stabs the girl again, watching her fall back more.

“Good luck finding her, she might be gone already.” She explains, laughing weakly as her eyes roll backwards in her head, passing out on the floor in front of Grave.

“Suck my ass!” Flipping her off, Grave slides the knife back into his pocket as he takes off running, trying to find Daniel in the mall. But as he moves, he cant find Daniel’s form anywhere in the crowds and people filing into the mall, making him worry and panic for his safety.

Frowning, Grave pulls out his phone, thinking over the situation as he dials the number for Daniel’s uncle, walking around idly while it rings.

“Hey Grave, you alright?” Daniel’s uncle, Robert’s voice floods through the phone as he answers, sounding warm and comforting to Grave’s ears as he worries.

“I-I’m fine, but I’ve got a question. How do you help someone with bad gender feels?” Grave questions, tapping his feet anxiously against the floor as Robert sighs, realising the situation quickly.

“Oh boy… alright. Um, with Daniel, if he’s not with you, look in the non-gendered bathroom stalls, he’ll be in there. make sure he can breathe okay and he’ll probably want a hug. If he’s feeling… bad, any baggy clothing that’ll hide his shapes will help him when he has to go back outside.” Rob explains quietly, walking Grave through it.

“O-Okay, thanks…” Grave smiles in gratitude as he starts running again, able to see a locked single stall in front of him in the mall, seemingly non-gendered.

Feeling worried, Grave gently knocks on the door, able to hear panicked breathing coming from behind it from who he could only assume to be Daniel.

Frowning, Grave clips himself through the door to the bathroom, able to see Daniel curled up in the corner, making him glow in concern as he notices the vicious shaking Daniel is doing, clearly panicked.

Sitting down beside Daniel, Grave makes sure to give him plenty of space as Daniel peeks from his position, relaxing ever so slightly as he see’s Grave in the room with him.

Cracking a small smile, Grave taps his feet against the floor, still feeling concerned but pushing it aside, focusing on Daniel. Calming down more, Daniel raises his head from his knees, allowing Grave to see his tired expression.

“Is it okay if I hug you?” Grave questions, thinking through the situation as Daniel nods, his shaking slowing down as Grave grounds him.

Pulling him in for a hug, Grave runs his fingers gently through Daniel’s hair as he leans into him, calming down more despite his breathing remaining slightly raspy sounding.

“…She sucked.” Grave comments, poking Daniel’s nose affectionately as he worries, feeling Daniel nod as he leans into him more, sighing softly.

“Um… how’s your breathing?” Grave questions, tapping his feet against the floor as he strokes Daniel’s hair.

“Not great… should take it off, but…” Daniel admits, trailing off as he sighs quietly, feeling drained.

“Here, you can wear this.” Grave offers, pulling off his large hoodie and handing it to Daniel gently, feeling concerned.

“I… have to take off my binder.” Daniel explains, looking nervous as he shifts his eyes to the floor.

“That’s fine!” Covering his eyes, Grave turns away from Daniel, wiggling as he hears him shuffling, removing his binder underneath his shirt, covering himself up in Grave’s large and very baggy hoodie.

“Can I look?” Grave questions, wanting to be certain Daniel was decent before uncovering his eyes.

“Y-Yeah…” Daniel confirms, voice quiet, feeling uncomfortable at the feeling the lack of a binder gave his chest.

“Its y o u!!!” Turning around, Grave smiles as he see’s Daniel, glowing softly in happiness. Returning the smile, Daniel curls up slightly, wanting to hide his chest from view more.

“So… do you wanna leave or stay in here and smort crack like your life depends on it?” Grave jokes, trying to cheer Daniel up.

“Can’t stay in here…” Daniel explains, sniffling quietly as he leans into Grave gently, seeking comfort and warmth.

“Okay… do you want me to carry you?” Grave questions, pulling Daniel close as he tries to comfort him.

“I… you don’t think its weird?” Daniel asks, still shaking gently as the panic wears off.

“Of course not! Its normal and also I really wanna hug you and not let go for a long time right now b u t we cant hug and walk.” Grave explains, shaking his head.

“I think I’ll only pass out if I try and walk.” Daniel admits, blushing softly as he leans into Grave.

“That sounds like it sucks!” Grave comments, picking Daniel up carefully as he stands, holding him close.

“Kinda does.” Daniel agrees, huddling into Grave comfortably, hiding his red face from view as he starts to feel better.

“I hope you feel better soon…” Grave comments, smiling as he carries Daniel out of the bathroom.

“You make me feel better.” Daniel explains, a small and delicate smile spreading on his face.

“I do?” Blushing, Grave looks down at Daniel, keeping his voice quiet as he walks, watching Daniel nod in response.

“Mhm… don’t know what I’d do without you here.” He continues, his face dusted in a warm blush.

“Why are you so damn n i c e to me?” Grave questions, feeling flustered as his heart beats happily in his chest.

“You’re nice to me… even after finding out the truth.” Daniel explains, humming quietly as he hides in Grave more.

“Why would I stop being nice to you because of that?” Feeling confused, Grave glows softly.

“Cause I lied… I didn’t tell you about it.” Daniel explains, his form shrinking into Grave.

“That’s fine, you didn’t have to tell me.” Grave reassures him, running his fingers through Daniel’s hair softly.

“You don’t think its wrong? Like she did…” Daniel questions, leaning into the touch appreciatively.

“No, not at all. Its stupid to think that it’s wrong.” Grave explains, frowning as he speaks.

“Thanks… for sticking up for me and helping. You don’t have to.” Daniel speaks quietly as he clings onto Grave, feeling safe.

“You’re welcome… also I do have to help you.” Grave explains, poking his nose gently as he smiles.

“Why do you have to?” Scrunching his face in confusion, Daniel looks yup at Grave in questioning.

“Because… I am a large home of sexual.” Grave explains, looking away as his heart pounds in his chest, Daniel looking confused at his words.

“Its cuz I kinda really wanna kiss your face… a lot…” Grave continues, hiding his face as he thinks through his words, Daniel freezing up in his arms as he realises what he means, going bright red in response.

“You okay?” Grave questions, feeling slightly worried by that response, though Daniel nods, his face burning as he hides away in Grave.

“Can I kiss you?” Grave questions quietly, smiling gently as his own face flushes red, mind filling with thoughts.

Glowing softly, Grave leans down, kissing Daniel gently, the action filled with affection and love, making Daniel squeak in surprise and joy as he hides in Grave more.

“That’s c u t e!!!” Grave exclaims, giggling as Daniel hides in him, feeling flustered and overwhelmed.

“Aw, I wanna see your face!” Grave complains, pouting sadly as he watches Daniel burrow into him.

“I’ll come out when we’re home…” Daniel explains, whining softly as he hides from Grave’s view.

“But that’s gonna take a million y e a r s!!!” Grave exaggerates, frowning as Daniel shakes his head in response, feeling too flustered to face him.

“Oh f i n e.” Grave relents, starting to walk faster on his way home, wanting to get there as fast as possible as Daniel cuddles up closer to him, wanting to get comfortable.

Leaving the mall, Grave runs faster, wanting to get home quickly, able to feel Daniel curling into him gently.

“We’re almost h o m e!!!!” Grave exclaims, glowing excitedly as Daniel nods, squeaking softly in acknowledgement.

“We here!!!!” Reaching his home, Grave clips through the door easily, wiggling in excitement.

“That’s good…” His voice quiet, Daniel peeks out from his hiding spot in Grave’s chest, peering up at him.

“Its y o u!” Grave smiles, sitting down on the couch as he litters Daniel’s face in kisses, able to feel it warm up as Daniel blushes, hugging Grave gently in response.

“You babey…” Grave comments, hugging Daniel back as he hums softly, snuggling into Grave gently.

“Today was f u n, wasn’t it?” Grave questions, the sarcasm dripping off of his voice as Daniel nods.

“Yup… still feel like I’m gonna pass out.” He admits, laughing tiredly as he clings onto Grave.

“At least you wont pass out alone, that would suck.” Grave counters, smiling as he gently runs his hand through Daniel’s hair.

“Thanks for being with me…” Daniel speaks quietly, smiling as he leans into Grave, feeling comfortable.

“You’re welcome…” Grave reassures him, closing his eyes as they both grow comfortable, a large smile stretching onto Daniel’s face as he nuzzles into him.

“Guess what?” Grave questions, feeling slightly sleepy as he snuggles with Daniel on the couch.

“What?” Daniel responds quietly, curling up as he grows more comfortable, feeling safe with Grave.

“I love you!!!” Grave exclaims, smiling as Daniel flushes bright red hiding his face in Grave’s shoulder gently.

“I-I love you too.” He admits quietly, able to hear the excited thrumming of his heart inside his chest.

“I love you so frickin much that I’d literally die for you if it was necessary, or eat a raw potato with hair on it.” Grave continues.

“Don’t do either of those things…” Daniel argues, giggling as he feels himself growing sleepy.

“Mmm… okay fine, I wont.” Grave relents, smiling as he grows more tired himself alongside Daniel.

“That’s good…” Daniel agrees, snuggling into Grave as he gets pulled closer towards sleep, feeling comfortable and safe.

Giving Daniel one last gentle kiss, Grave allows himself to drift to sleep, Daniel following closely behind as he holds onto him gently.