#i cant actually express the thoughts i have on this bc all i can put into words is “IS EZEKIEL AND ZEKE THE SAME NIGHTHAWK???”

[ender-of-the-sender]

Okay, feel free to tell me I'm looking to hard into things because i probably am

This is Zeke the Nighthawk, Hatchetfield Highs beloved mascot.

And this is Ezekiel, elected leader of the checkered-tailed nighthawks and highly intelligent because of the good stuff

Is it just me or do they have a lot in common

•Nighthawks

•From Hatchetfield

•Anthropomorphic (in a way)

For gods sakes, they're both called Ezekiel

[aurae-rori]

Wanna ask if you have any headcannons for aventio modern au

( cause I am obsessed with modern aus)

hellyeah brother i'm here to serve the masses

hcs about ratio:

still a doctor still has 8 phds

knows about student debt and hates it with a burning passion

has a duck keychain that he puts on his keychain with all of his keys like the keys to his house

once crushed a soda can in his hands during his student years bcs he was that fucking mad about the homework questions not being stated in a clear manner (he just like me fr)

has several duck plushies in his bed and theyre all named after either greek philosophers or roman politicians

can speak latin fluently and mutters curse words and creative expressions in latin during the classes that he teaches because he is that pissed off

used to be a full time doctor, but decided to turn to teaching instead after some time

hyper-empathy due to childhood neglect (he just like me fr)

eyebags that he covers up with makeup, he still has those from his student years and cant fucking get them to leave no matter how many hours he sleeps for

enjoys occasionally a rum & coke

really likes lattes and london fogs

had a british accent once because he travelled to the uk and picked up on it, when he came back he was mortified

fucking loves ducks so much he has a camera roll dedicated to duck photos

he got to pet a duck once he was happy for the rest of the week thats how much he loves them

massive nerd & dork

undiagnosed autism with a side of gifted child trauma

really likes jazz and lofi it calms him down fast and makes him happy

wrings his hands when he's really happy

touch starved

makes really good soup

hopeless romantic

more mentally unstable than you think he is. he is actually suffering from burnout but doesnt want to let people around him down.

doing his best. sometimes on the weekends he just nestles into a cocoon of blankets and refuses to leave. texture....

cannot not wear socks he will die without them

cat magnet for some reason??? all neighbourhood cats are at his doorstep even when he and aven already have three. ig hes just cat dad now

aventurine hcs:

still has those glasses, his eyes are more sensitive to light too

really fucking likes fluffy stuff he loves the fluffy he loves the fluffy he-

big fan of sheep and peacocks

eternally terrified that ratio secretly hates him even when they start dating

bpd & adhd & probably autism (ALL BPD HAVERS FUCKING WIN WITH THIS ONE!!!!! I SEE YALL)

masks so often its insane

used to smoke and drink heavily, but has started to lay off ever since he met ratio

still an adrenaline junkie and still has his stupidly good good luck

really likes coffee too, coffee addict, has horrible eyebags, a shitty sleep schedule, and overworks himself half to death

cant fucking cook what the hell is a kitchen

very fond of stelle/caelus and sees them as his surrogate younger siblings. stelle taught him how to play video games and now he plays with them whenever his thoughts get really bitchy to him

horrible at relying on other people but is slowly unlearning that

can do a backflip (why? idk)

high pain tolerance

has a collection of sheep plushies that his friends bought for him

numby and him get along really well. he and topaz still have that sibling esque relationship.

i think he still works for the ipc in this au but its not as bad as it is in canon

starved of touch and does not really know what a healthy relationship is before ratio comes along

loves blankets he has like ten blankets on his bed at once idk why

once poured monster energy into coffee and then drank it. he suffered the consequences. even good luck can't save you from that

listens to generic pop (lie. he actually loves indie guitar)

MENTAL ILLNESS REP IN THIS MAN

accidentally big brothered some kids. help how does he deal with affection

buys stuff for stelle and caelus too. he buys them sheep plushies. they will defend said sheep plushies with their lives. they buy him racoon plushie in return. he does not cry.

his fingers shake so bad sometimes (PTSD goes hard)

motor skills can and will die on him occasionally

unhealthy coping mechanisms but hes getting better guys

he does relapse occasionally but hes putting in effort. finally got his ass to therapy thanks to ratio :)

second cat dad. he loves his cat children he will die for his cat children.

the cats like laying next to him as he eeps if ratio isnt there. they purr and help him with his nightmares.

(ily people w bpd you deserve this rep!!! enjoy :3)

them together hcs!!!!

ratio already had background information on bpd due to his psych degree beforehand but did more researching into it when he realized that aven had bpd because he wanted to support his partner as much as he could :)

ratio is big on physical touch but aven needed some time to get used to it and he was very big on it

aven really likes spoiling the absolute shit out of ratio and likes getting him gifts because sometimes he doesn't know how to word how much he appreciates ratio

aven likes to wash ratios hair for him and visa versa, non sexual intimacy always fucking wins

ratio still worries about aven and doesn't like him gambling all the time, aven makes an active effort to better himself for him even if it's really hard

at the start it was really fucking shitty between the two of them but eventually aven started to learn how to properly and safely communicate with ratio and ratio learned how to phrase his thoughts in a way that wouldn't trigger something, and although they both make mistakes they are doing their best for one another and generally have a good impact on one another's stages of healing (im not projecting im not projecting i-)

aven will hold ratio in his arms and tell him that he's good enough when the thoughts get really bad

they love cuddling, who's big spoon and small spoon switches regularly because they both like being held and holding the other

aven will stop by ratio after his classes and take him home when hes too tired

ratio shuts down sometimes and aven messes with his hair and just stays with him until he reboots

they kiss <33333333333

they cuddle so much they hold one another going to bed

ratio likes giving aven little headkisses and peppers his face with them

they are gay and in love and healthy actually

they were never toxic yaoi never will they be. they are healthy.

they get married <333

this is so much more than what you asked for probably but here you go.

[littlemissmentallyunstable]

okay so I have a friend and she got the inheritance games and finished it yesterday so OBVIOUSLY I asked her what she thought…

please read more at your own risk this might anger you :)

*sigh*

here we go…

she said she felt detached from the characters… I personally have never felt more attached to a set of characters and I don’t understand how she couldn’t be attached but I rolled with it because yk it might not be everyone’s cup of tea

intense deep breaths in an out

she said book was okay (HUH? OKAY? YOU’RE CALLING A MASTERPIECE OKAY?! THATS LIKE GOING TO A MICHELIN STAR RESTAURANT AND BEING LIKE… HMMMM IT WAS OKAY) and she said it was not obsession worthy (I CANNOT EXPRESS HOW MUCH I DISAGREE WITH THIS STATEMENT, LIKE THIS BOOK IS PART OF MY PERSONALITY)

I’m not mad I’m not mad I’m not mad

and she then said didn’t like any of the Hawthorne brothers, she couldn’t find at least one of them to be her new book boyfriend. HOW? ARE WE READING THE SAME BOOK? ARE WE ACTUALLY READING THE SAME WORDS OR WHAT!?? LIKE COME ON THESE ARE THE FREAKING HAWTHORNE BROTHERS. YOYVE GOT A SEXY COWBOY WITH A SOFT SPOT FOR CUPCAKES, A BLONDE MAN SO MORALLY GREY HE’S PRACTICALLY A VICTORIAN PHOTOGRAPH, AN ADRENALINE JUNKIE WHO IS A SUCKER FOR A GOOD MYSTERY AND A FUNNY, TALL, SMART, ROBOT-MAKING, SCONE-LOVING LITTLE CINNAMON ROLL… AND ALL OF THEM HAVE EMOTIONAL TRAUMA. WHAT IS THERE NOT TO LOVE?! IS SHE OKAY!?

ahem… anyways…

she said Avery was OKAY. OKAY. HOW? WHAT? WHEN? LIKE JUST OKAY. BREAD IS JUST OKAY. A ROCK IS JUST OKAY. BUT AVERY KYLIE GRAMBS IS MUCH MORE THE JUST OKAY. SHE IS INCREDIBLY INTELLIGENT NOT JUST CONVENTIONALLY BUT EMOTIONALLY, SHE HAS MADE IT THROUGH TRAUMA AND DEALS WITH IS SO WELL, SHE CARES SO MUCH ABOUT EVERYONE ELSE, SHE’S A GENUINE GOOD PERSON, SHES SO FREAKING AMAZING I CANT PUT IT INTO WORDS, CALLING HER OKAY IS A FAT INSULT.

but I love my friend 😔😔 so I didn’t tell her that

she thinks Avery and Grayson will eventually get together… I’m praying she doesn’t become one of those toxic Grayson and Avery shippers (but she didn’t say she shipped them she just thinks they’ll end up together)… luckily she is wrong 🤭🤭 like most of her other points about this book

but the thing she kept complaining about was apparently there was no description… like atp I was kind of convinced we were reading different books because I can envisage all the tiny details of this book. I think she said it lacked physical description for the brothers but there’s only so many times you can describe hair and eye colour in my personal ops…

she said the Hawthorne brothers are ‘too damaged’… telling myslef to take a deep breath ITS NOT THEIR FAULT THEIR GRANDFATHER WAS A LITERAL PSYCHOPATH AND TWO OF THEM LIKED A REALLY DODGY REDHEAD LIKE GOSHHH

but she hated Em*ly so we love her for that, that was a good move, good decision, very good judgment that I do agree with and she says wants to live in hawthorne house which again, I agree…

BUT THEN I LITERALLY WANTED TO CRY WHEN…

she explained how Grayson (MY HUSABND, LOML, ABSOLUTE BB) is a wannabe Aaron Warner. Honey, respectfully no… just no. that is all I have to say (bc I could go on an essay rant but I don’t want to bore people)

IT IS NOT OKAY. I AM NOT OKAY.

I do love my friend to pieces and of course everyone is entitled to an opinion but I have to severely disagree with here

[sabh0]

What's your opinion on the anime? I find it pretty funny, but I can't say that I am not disappointed to see so many scenes missing.

For exemple, I wanted to see Dazai cry laugh at Chuuya's young mistress act, show that it was a joke shared by both of them, rather than one made to us at the expense of Chuuya. They took a genuinely funny moment and made me cringe SO hard for no reason T^T

God i could go on for hours about how Bones ruined this series. I'm obviously thankful we have an anime adaptation but. Well just compare bsd anime to jjk one or smth and yeah.

I will be complaining more under the cut,,

First the overall writing choices:

-Deleting or changing skk scenes to the point im not even shocked when ppl think these two actually somehow hate each other.

-The way they portrayed Sigma. They deleted half of his personality and backstory. And just speedrunned the Sky Casino arc like if seeing that place was giving them nightmares. No wonder he gets mischaracterized now.

-Tachihara's internal conflict about belonging to either Port Mafia or The Hunting Dogs? Bones never heard about it. It's not like IT'S A VERY IMPORTANT PLOT POINT.

-Akutagawa's whole character in the anime is just 'edgy and angry and bad grr'. In the manga he had some 'kind' or even seelf-reflection moments that were ommited in the anime. Like where he realizes defeating Atsushi didn't satisfy him (ship fight, season 1). Or when he gives files about the orphanage Director to Atsushi and says he won't fight him today because he lost someone impirtant to him. Sskk vs Fukuchi fight?? No scene where Sskk r helping each other walk. Instead we get Akutagwa just pushing Atsushi away. Won't even start on that last smile that looked more like another angry expression.

-THE WAY THEY CHANGED "DAZAI'S ENTRANCE EXAM" INTO SOME CURRENT TIMELINE EPISODES. IT MAKES ME SO ANGRY LIKE. THIS NOVEL WAS SO GOOD. Showing both Dazai and Kunikida's characters and partnership so well. But no. Let's just??? Put Atsushi there. Let's delete the fact this thing happened 2 years ago. And let's delete everything that was actually important about it, too.

-also some changes in the Dark Era arc. Like. Lord. Dazai is so much more emotional in the novel. His expressions r described so well. But the anime either shows him from the back at those moments (him finding out Oda was almost killed by a sniper in Ango's room) or just deletes/changes the thing (Oda dying. This scene is so emotional in the novel. From the description u can tell Dazai was crying/on the verge of it as Odasaku died. But in the anime he looks calm and then we get a far aeay frame and he just. Gets up and that's it yeah.) They also deleted the scene of him visiting Oda's grave.

-The way they rushed seasons 4 and 5. Just to give us an episode that goes further than the manga and has the shittiest writing ever when it comes to skk's plan revelation (im so angry about this u guys have no idea. I sincerely believe that if this episode never came out, the manga would go differently bc there's no way that Asagiri who wrote things like Stormbringer suddenly thought that some dollar store vampire make up will fool a guy who's centuries old and literally lived next to vampires. But well!! Seems like these two speeches Dazai gave weren't important at all and now we can just forget about them yippiee)

I could definitely mention WAYY more examples of that but this is already long af. Like guys. I know u cant fit everything in an animated show. It takes time to make it and all but. Bro. The character's in the anime r so shallow compared to their original versions.

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Now onto the artstyle of the anime.

Lord. U know? It was actually pretty in the first 2 seasons. The official arts at the time were also really nice to look at.

No idea what happened later. Why did Bones suddenly decide that those ugly turtle smiles r gonna become the main thing in the character design. Why so many fisheyes. Atp sometimes i look at the official art and i go oh lord even i could fix it. It really feels like they draw some characters ugly on purpose now (Chuuya being the main victim for unknown reasons).

Tho i must say they have their moments even now. Some last episodes of season 5 weren't really bad, especially the Meursault part (love them for animating Dazai and Sigma dancing so well. And for that 101 animation. And maybe for the heartattack they gave me with 109 and Chuuya shooting Dazai so many times.)

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On some other things, i really like the music! Bsd openings and endings never miss,,,

[hornedandwingedangel]

Raphael thoughts

I’ve been analyzing him a lot recently so here are some thoughts I have about my favorite cambion.

SFW

- tbh, I don’t think he’d be that bad in a relationship. He canonically says he cant resist helping you, he likes you. Maybe he almost respects you? In a way. Sure, he’d be toxic sometimes. But he even said he’d “make time for his favorite client”. He cares about you, I think he’d be pretty nice.

- For example, I think he’d buy you nice things. He has expensive taste and he’d want you to look good next to him. And ofc he’d love handing you a beautiful dress or necklace to see a smile on your face.

- he’s actually your biggest supporter. He genuinely wants you to succeed in the things you do. You can see from a conversation with Korilla.

- He reminds me so much of Ursula lol. Flamboyant, manipulative, condescending

- It’d take a while of being in a relationship with him for him to open up, but eventually he’d vent to you about his father and issues between them. I think in general, he’s not super open, but he is quite honest.

- an example of that honesty is that he tells you that the Orphic hammer is a good trade and he writes in his journal that he really believes it is. I think he genuine likes you and wants to help you (but not quite enough to let you get in the way of his plans)

- I don’t think you can “fix” him or calm his ambition down as much as you can with Astarion or Gale. But I think you can calm him down just enough for him to let himself express his human side around you more often.

- hugs! He would be suave and very nonchalant about letting you hug him, but he secretly LOVES holding you in his arms. Feeling you in his grasp. His own little mouse all to himself.

- LOTS of banter. Well, he likes your praise and attention all to himself. But he also likes some arguing. He finds you being opinionated and having stimulating intelectual conversations attractive.

NSFW

- This guy has serious anger issues. It’s not hard to piss him off. I think it’d be a lot of fun to rile him up sometimes. He’s cute when he’s angry. Ofc, this can lead to… “punishment” and such… “activities”

- now about him being a bottom and whatever. Here’s what I think based on other headcannons I’ve heard. 1) he wouldn’t rly bottom for you. he wouldn’t submit to anyone who wasn’t him (or on his level like Haarlep who is in Raphael’s form anyway). 2) he’s “bad” in bed bc he doesn’t have to do any work to be satisfied. Haarlep does all the work and they don’t have a romantic relationship aside from sex so there’s no real reason for him to put in any effort. But you can’t tell me after idk, hundreds of years? of having sex he doesn’t know how to fuck?

- he would never make you do anything you didn’t wanna do. When it comes to how you guys do the devils tango, I think these headcannons are totally up to you. But imo, he’s a dom on the aggressive side with teasing, humiliation, and condescending praise.

If you have any bc questions (ex: would he like ___?) pls comment :) I hope you like these hcs 🫶🏼

[corpsebasil]

How do you think knight!nikolai would deal with someone flirting with reader? Bcs like I think he'd want to be very possessive but at the same time he doesn't want to cause rumors that will ruin you so he ends up just being a fuming mess in the background and probably make an excuse for you or the guy to leave

On the reader's end though it would be hard to do anything at all if someone flirts with nikolai though because there's literally no reason to care that much about his love life unless you're jealous

gnawing at the bars.

this would most likely happen before you got together (in secret, duh) because now that he knows you’re his there’s no reason for jealously on either of your parts.

but.

lets say a prince from another kingdom was visiting in hopes of winning you over. you were the future queen, obviously, so you’d need a king consort. and this prince is actually super good looking, even if you’ve had your eye on your guard for a little over a year now. but that was impossible and you knew Sir Nikolai would never he would go for you or break his oath so you gave the prince a shot.

and you actually got along with him! not romantically of course—too soon—but he was funny. and kind. and those two facts are what royally pissed Nikolai off the most. because the prince was kind of HARD to hate.

unfortunately in forbidden love, sometimes both options are good options. Not every guy that isn’t the main love interest is the devil.

so he’d simply fume in the background of your little dates, your strolls and trips to town, your dinners and even—ONE TIME—during the moment the prince casually reached out to tuck a strand of hand behind your ear.

OOOOOOOH. Nikolai was so mad he wanted to chop that guy’s hand off and feed it to the wolves and then dismember him and then have him drawn and quartered and then put oil and feathers on him and dump him in the river politely ask him not to touch his princess without her permission.

It didn’t work out with the prince. For reasons you still don’t know to this day he’d left abruptly one morning after an extremely rushed and awkward goodbye.

cough. sir nikolai’s fault. his fault.

you on the other hand also couldn’t do anything about jealousy. because the closer your guard and you grew, the more you wANTED him. And there was absolutely nothing to be done about it.

You were a bit more direct about your feelings, though.

you found yourself making snide comments about girls that openly flirted in front of you. you had once, when a maid stopped him in the hall to ask him something, been enraged when she placed a hand on his bicep. why do you need to touch him??? cant you see he’s uncomfortable???

he’d given you a quick glance, his typically stoic and blank expression suddenly pinching with slight confusion, and you schooled your features into neutrality. you realized you’d been openly glaring and if looks could kill, well.

“Miss.” You said sweetly, and she looked at you in surprise. you typically didn’t speak to the maids unless you needed something. “Please do me the favor of unhanding Sir Nikolai. Don’t you know it is improper to grope a knight?”

the maid’s face had gone red so quickly you would’ve thought you’d called her a thousand foul words, but maybe those were all written in your face. she mumbled a mortified apology and scurried off. when you crossed your arms, watching her go with an annoyed look, you heard a subtle cough. when you looked at Sir Nikolai he was smirking, but only a bit. his eyes though—filled with amusement.

“What?” You snapped, still annoyed, and he outright grinned. Your heart skipped a beat at that—gods he was gorgeous when he smiled fully at you.

“You’re—” he shook his head. the word he was thinking of was adorable. “—quite spirited this morning.”

“I am not.”

“She was hardly groping me.”

“I am the princess! If I say she was groping you then she was!”

“How kind of you—“

“Hold your tongue, Sir. I can have you punished for getting attitude with me.” You huffed and actually almost stamped your slippered foot.

but he still kept a smile on his face, amused with you, and you couldn’t fight the blush that rose when his eyes lingered. he didn’t say anything else—he didn’t need to.

you knew that he knew you were jealous.

[princesschimchim1325]

Love for Geppie?????? Thank God, he deserves that love!!!

I'm here to drop off like a thought/cute headcanon of like my fave trope ever!

Gepard usually stays in the frontlines, usually taking in all the damage and aggro for his soldiers (I know that's his role even in game/being the tank and all but every time he gets hit and he like screams I wince hhhh) so imagine a reader who is in charge of like taking care of the wounded soldiers so she's had more than enough times dealt with Gepard (so she knows him but he doesn't quite know her yet) already.

One day, the camp had been ambushed by a bunch of Fragmentum monsters and the main force is too busy with the Frontlines so reader here, despite being a healer, had to step up as technically the only one at that time who walked a Path and can heal whoever is left to be able to fight back and give the wounded time to escape. Gepard manages to make it back in time and give enough support so they all make it out. But he was already so wounded so reader takes special care of the Captain.

By the time he wakes up, reader has been in charge of his health exclusively, being the one to nurse him back to help (partially in thanks for saving her but also because she felt the most responsible for some of his aggravated wounds) and the way she treats him slowly has him go head over heels for her. Even after she no longer needed to take care of him extensively, Gepard finds himself spending his excess free time by her tent, just chatting and getting to know her better.

By the time he realizes that he has fallen in love with his caretaker, they were very close friends and he's gotten to know her a lot.

(Yes I'm a sucker for the Florence Nightingale effect/trope and yes I will die on a hill putting this trope on my fave charas and reader asdfjgktiejdkdo)

You're right and u should say it. I noticed that Geppie def doesnt get as much attention and love as much as the other guys 😔 I love the other guys too but Geppie is my number one in HSR.

I actually have an oc who hails from a diff world and is part of the express and she was once a nurse during the war in her world. So this ask is sooo perfect xksksksml this is too perfect I'm def making a one shot about this fr

The nurse/healer x injured warrior/soldier trope will forever be dear to me, like it is sooo romantic and sweet. Fr, Gepard is a wholeass unit and tank of a man xjnskwmskw

But every now and then, a shield becomes a bit too chipped to ignore and this is very true to Gepard whenever he becomes injured. Ohh yes the capable healer being the only fighter in a camp and then Gepard bulldozing in like the knight in shining armor he is despite being injured himself is just 👌 and then he just passes out in healer reader's arms nnggg

Him being naked from the waist up and waking up to reader's tiddies right up his face bc she's wrapping bandages around him and he just splutters, not knowing where he can look 😭

This became a normal occurence in the duration she nursed him back to health bc of his injuries, like the areas he cant reach like his back, needed to be tended by a professional.

Him noticing the difference in their hands 😭 his are scarred and calloused while hers are soft and dextrous 🥺

And when he's fully recovered, he still goes to her, making an excuse that it's for check ups until there's no more excuses, they just spend time together and he always looks forward to their tea time, and she does too. She's always flustered and smiley whenever her favorite patient is around.

They're idiots in love and everybody in the camp knows it, except the two people who are in love 💀

But, at one point, nightingale reader works herself to the bone to the point of collapsing and when Gepard hears of it, he rushes to her, for once letting his men take care of the frontlines.

And this time, when she wakes up, he's right next to her, holding her hand. She gets a scolding from him and when she objects that he often overworks himself too, he gets frustrated and he just pulls her for a kiss 😩

I could go on about Nightingale reader and Gepard but I'll just have to save that for the oneshot 😏

[clubdionysus]

MOTHER HOLLY HOLLY HOLLLYYY. I like to think I am an OG as I’ve been reading your works since you had to convince us that Throttle was NOT going to be like Icarus.

Still too traumatized to finish Throttle😭😭 But I know it’s going to be good when I do catch up.

But i HAVE to say, I think you’ve completely out done yourself with this one. Bad Decisions is absolutely insane and I absolutely love it. If this became an actual book in stores, I’d buy the paperback and I only audible novels nowadays😭😭. Even though I still can’t understand the British slang you know in there as an American, I love it solely bc it almost feels like a trademark in all of your stories to incorporate these british words I’ve never heard of even though English is my only language.

We started with You Up being my comfort story to being obsessed Disco Ball and her little buzz lightyear. I LOVE how in almost all your stories (give or take for the couple darker themes) Jungkooks personality is the same to the core, but they’re all still unique to the story line and the female lead is so real. It’s real, the people you create and I love that I can visualize it, feel right there in your stories. Feel involved and understand them.

I just have to express how MUCH i love your writing and BD just so happens to be the best of all time. I don’t think I’ll be able to handle it being finished. Although I only just started #57, I wish you could write them FOREVER!!! I don’t know how it will feeel to reread the story bc the FEELINGS you stole from me!!! RUDE!! TOUGH LOVE I GUESS IS YOUR THING.

BUT YOU ALSO ARE SO NASTY!$!!! THESE TWO ARE NASTY!!! I LOVE NASTY!!! I’m starting to think you’re a TI*** gal with the reoccurring themes maam!!

LASTLY im obsessed with the style you write in. Your ability to go from such beautiful descriptive writing to it being so casual, almost as if we are reading their exact thoughts in that exact moment. I love how you can fluidity transition from internal POV to such conviction. It’s fun and amazing at the same time. I definitely think it keeps my short attention span engaged with the conversational/real world writing. Almost as if you are writing transcriptions.

Anyways HOLLY YOU ARE MY FAVORITE AND IVE BEEN READING YOUR STORIES SINCE LIKE 2020 and I’ve LOVED being along in this journey with you and I’m already dreading the ending of BD and don’t want it. But don’t hold off I don’t like that either. EITHER WAY whatever it is will be good, NEVER BEEN disappointed… excepty maybe for the way Byeol isn’t American bc if that nasty red goblin tried it, we would of been in a fight the second she looked at me funny. LOVE FROM TEXAS MISS HOLLY CANT WAIT TO CONTINUE READING YOUR WORK EVEN IF YKU END UP A PUBLISHED AUTHOR

^^ me @ u rn :( waaa so cute!!!!!!

thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!! where to even begin with this ask??!!!!!! firstly, just pls accept the biggest thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts with me!! <3 I know it must have taken a lil while to write all that out!!

im answering under a read more just for the sake of peoples dashboards hehe

LMAO im making edits to the answer bc i reread and have just noticed a few more things - first MOTHER? am I mother???!!! hahaha that's killed me off. in my mother era

I AM SORRY FOR THE ICARUS TRAUMA

.... or am i hehehhee

it's funny because i very nearly killed jimin in throttle to make up for not killing him in icarus LOL but I made a promise I had to keep!! the throttle ending is v tame!!! people were actually disappointed with it LOL but it's a fable!!! a cautionary tale!!!! is the opposite of icarus!!!! it does exactly what it needs to :D

Thank you SO much for your kind words!! bad decisions has been such labour of love, and the response has been so heart warming. you really do get back what you put in, yanno!!

the funny thing is, bd is three-four standard novel long already. if it was a 'real' book, it'd be an entire series hahaha, no publisher would ever pick it up, so it will forever be our special lil fan fic <3

i always try and make sure my jungkooks are close to him in some way shape or form. even slut war jk is gonna be very jk (just more so the eccentric, slightly unhinged side). i think the wonderful thing about having a muse like jungkook is that he just offers up so much of his heart to us fans, and it makes it so easy to write something that feels so 'true' to him. our baby star candy <33

i do think, out of all of my jk's, bd jk is probably the one that draws on his real personality the most, but that's partially because it was written in tandem with all those weverse lives of him being the absolute best boy :(

lmaooooooo, bd jk gets his nastiness from my virgo boy. sigh, i just love virgos <33and re: titties it'ss bc i have arguably the biggest ones known to man </3 life is so hard </3333

ahhh see it's funny, my friends irl who don't know much about my writing always say that whenever they read my writing, its sounds like how I talk, so I definitely think my narrative voice matches my actual voice. it's taken me a while to develop my writing style and its something I'm proud of bc I feel like I've managed to establish a voice that you just *know* is mine.

thank you so so much for this ask. i saw it when it came in, but was in the middle of something at work, and so I have just been thinking about it for the past couple of days with a lil smile on my face. I'm so so grateful to have such kind hearted readers <33

sending love from daegu!!! <33

[jemmo]

so i finally watched the utsukushii kare eternal movie properly. yes, i had technically already watched it bc i watched a random version that was uploaded somewhere with the most confusing subtitles, but i wanted to reserve my thoughts until i'd watched it properly with better subs so i was sure i had the gist of what they wanted to say for this final entry to the series. and fair warning, there is nothing unbiased about this; i adored it. i had big, fat tears running down my face by the end and had to curl up into a ball and cry for a while just to grieve the fact that we'll never be back in hira and kiyoi's world again, but i'm ok with that. i think of all the bls ive watched that have gone beyond a single season run, this is the one im the most ok parting from, bc its the show that has put in the best, most thoughtful work to leave these characters in a place where they have grown tremendously and gone through a lot, yet still have so much more ahead, and we are left with the overwhelming feeling of security by the end, that whatever comes, they are now equipped to face it. its a show that had me in the first season, and left me with that lingering feeling that this happy ending cant be it bc we still have so much unaddressed, and of all the bls that have picked up a second season after leaving me with that feeling, this one, above all else, actually had the bravery to confront those deeper, finer points of the dynamic they built, and show that there's still so much work that has to be put in after two people get together. you have to learn what you are as a partnership, how to communicate and how to be heard, and what that looks like, how you match and find balance and understand each other. the second season did that, and the movie managed to run with that vibe whilst giving us a much more thorough idea of what hira and kiyoi are outside of their relationship with each other, and how as a partnership they fit in to the people that surround them. they manage to create such a wonderful supporting cast, and i'd be saying the same if the only new person they introduced was noguchi, bc he is exactly what hira needed in this story and its such a pleasure to see him have this interesting dynamic with someone other that kiyoi, and whats more someone that sees him for all that he is. he gives both support and challenge in equal measure and its incredible. and while this show has always tended to center around hira, what i absolutely love is that at the end, when theyre in the school flashing between the past and the present, i just kept thinking of kiyoi, that cool kid that walked in day one, and we had no idea what was going through his head, we didnt know the profound loneliness and isolation he felt whilst be surrounded and adored constantly, and how finally, in that moment where hira said he liked him, after seeing and knowing every facet of him, that kid got everything he wanted. bc all that he has wanted all along is for the person he likes to like him back. its the most simple, school boy thing to want, and finally he has it.

and what i have always found the most beautiful about this show, and ive found it with other jbls but this one is the one to beat them all, is that its committed to showing love in an un-beautiful way. its kind of ironic, seen as the show is called my beautiful man and is all about beauty, but compared to other bls where the idea of love is smoothed over and made to look nice and pretty and simple, that normal idea of what love is, this show has two people who are madly in love and committed to each other, and never once has the show ever felt the need to make that love look pretty. one guy is insanely obsessive and the other is brash and rude and yet their love is beautiful bc the show takes all the time it can to make you understand that just bc the love is not expressed or communicated in the normal way you expect it to be, it doesnt mean it isnt love. bc love is about understanding and knowing that person more than anyone else and loving that person you find, and this whole film is hira going on a journey to realise that he does in fact love kiyoi bc he wants to know him more than anyone else. and i think its kind of incredible to show that kind of selfish behaviour as something beautiful when its what both people want, bc while hira has always believed his want is selfish, in owning his selfishness, he's showing kiyoi that he has not just that much love for him, but that much self-confidence to own it and commit to it and take it. is just like what hira says to shitara, that you cross the line when impose your wants and opinions and expectations onto someone else. but all that hira wants, he's not imposing that on kiyoi, bc its what he wants too, and thats why such seemingly unhealthy behaviour is actually so healthy and beautiful, bc is the pinacle of understanding mixed with the absolute joy and magic of finding that one person that matches you exactly. hira and kiyoi really are just that dream idea of a relationship that is being made for each other bc theyve worked to make it so, they commit to being fated, and its all wrapped up in the most chaotic dynamic. tldr; this show means more to me than i can say and i had to write a love letter to it one final time.

[ladytyburn]

sorry for rambling in your inbox out of nowhere but re: your recent tags i have so many thoughts abt that whole thing sjdjfs

personally i always interpreted gaara's sand mother situation as being like, she imbued the sand with her will to protect him somehow?? (my hc would probably be by putting some of her chakra in it since we never actually find out how) so its not so much her ghost but a tool she created for him.... if that makes sense.... so the sand isn't sentient but it does behave on it's own to protect him, bc he controls almost all of it's movement but it still blocks attacks when he's unconscious or didn't see whatever it was, but it'd be more like some kind of magic shield. this is more of a hc though because the way it's described is actually really vague.

the scar he did do that to himself but he used the sand bc it blocked the knife he tried to hurt himself with before (😭) but seems like it can't block itself? which is interesting too..... and god yeah that confrontation with his father hits so hard jdjfsjdf the artwork in the manga especially, his expression breaks my heart.... ;_;

Dw I love rambling!!

I just like the interpretation that the sand is a representation of his subconsciousness because it adds insight into the mind of an otherwise very ... how do i say it... unexpressive?? character? (Thats not really correct but I cant say it better rn sry!) As in: Sometimes the sand expresses what Gaara can not speak, and I think that's neat.

The sand not being the will of his mom adds more agency to him, which feels a bit lacking in Naruto the show to me (I didn't like the whole reincarnation/fate thing, and it also shows in stuff like the prior Mizukage being controlled etc.), and I just think that moments like Gaara marking "love" into his forehead and initiating the handshake with Naruto and using the shape of his mom to trap his dad have so much more gravitas if it's a reflection of his character, and not potentially the doing of someone else.

But I like your interpretation too, since it basically says that the sand is only "ordered to protect gaara" and all the other stuff is Gaara doing it himself. That works with how I like to interpret it. :)

While we're kind of on the topic: In the beginning (at least in the anime?) it was said that Gaaras dark circles are a sideffect of not sleeping properly, as to not accidentally set free shuukaku.

1) I dislike that Rasa shares Gaaras dark eyes, that leaves the impression that they are genetic.

2) I like to imagine that the dark circles would get better once Gaara learns to sleep better, and that he only still has them because he still has trouble sleeping (from duties as Kazekage and trauma)...

What do you think???

Anyways thank you for letting me spill my thoughts here <3

[goingferalapparently]

finally watching jaiden's latest stream. have some things that happened that i found interesting/funny

q!foolish inviting her to another capybara summoning circle the next day, q!jaiden never actually answering the question of the matter of attendance

q!fit asking her to do a cucurucho impression

q!jaiden being silly by the monitors "me when cucurucho is on the server-" pause. cucurucho in the background

telling q!foolish "i thought i saw something, but i must've seen wrong" even though like 5 seconds before she just goes "[cucurucho] must not want to talk", absolutely knowing she saw cucurucho

q!foolish: "we'll see what happens tomorrow" q!jaiden: "yeah i'll see you around" (implied tomorrow)

q!jaiden tossing the grappling hook at q!baghera and failing like q!cellbit throwing wood at q!jaiden during the "can you hear it?" mission (and also failing)

q!baghera: "i like ugly and moldy. ............reminds me of my grandpa"

q!jaiden: "everyone should have a window into the sun rise and set"

q!jaiden holding the red sharestone and looking around her house hesitantly before deciding "too deep now" and letting q!bag come anyway. deep breathing and general nervous energy. calming herself down with "its okay"s

i want to check this w q!j showing q!cell n q!fool the place but, q!bag asking ab the biome and q!j playing it down as "just a nice place that i like"

general tone of voice when showing q!bag the place

looking up at the sky and realising its sunset but also realising that she cant see the sun and cant leave to see the sunset proper bc she's w q!bag and so moving the clock to her hotbar

q!bag asking to see the "second house" and the vtubers expression as she follows behind q!bag....

q!bag having to ask ab specific places before q!j shows them to her (as opposed to q!cell bring shown to even the secret farm)

q!j saying she was unprepared to have people over (but also that q!bag saw the bobby room and “didn’t say any weird stuff so…”)

“i’m sure its okay that baghera knows…”

cucurucho’s tea garden….

“baghera, cellbit and foolish all know, but i might change the warpstone [to bobby fields]”????????

q!j taking photos of cucurucho AT bobby fields

cucurucho blowing bubbles at the tea plants!!!

cucurucho doing a lil spinny thing on the way up the treehouse ladder!!!

cucurucho: “do you want to go on a walk?” q!j: “a- one second” (mutes self) “!!!!!! HE WANTS TO GO ON A WALK!!! OKAY Calm down calm down-“ (unmutes self, most even tone ever) “Okay, we can go on a walk”

cucurucho shooting the mobs for q!j (deja vu hours)

q!j running back to the house after being absolutely jumped by mobs and chiding herself for blowing the opportunity with cucurucho

q!j taking…. many photos of cucurucho at bobby fields

q!j noticing cucurucho’s strange behaviour and calling him out for being “strangely warm” and asking “are you okay?” (as opposed to “what’s wrong (with you)?”)

q!j believing in and feeling vindicated by proof of cucurucho’s good side

q!j listening to q!cell talk ab being tricked by the feds and then going (to chat) "cucurucho? whos that? definitely not someone im building a really close relationship with" and various other sarcastic? awkward? versions of things that sum up the general islander mentality towards cucurucho

q!cell: "they've giving motives for everyone to hate them" etc. while the vtuber model just shows awkward glances all over the place

q!cell: "eventually everyone on the island will hate [the federation]" and then the change in pov so the camera is pointing at q!j

q!cell offering q!j an office in the ordo and the "if im welcome, id love to be" (emphasis on the if im welcome)

slime noises

q!j: "we can talk this out some other time" and then KNOWING what happens at the end of the stream

q!cell's offered office being one with keycards and chance to decorate and this feels so federation-core for some reason

q!j pole dancing in front of "o diabo"

(about putting her sign in one of q!cell's entity rooms) "i could put it [in the corner] but do i really want to be hidden in a world of chaos?"

hey is it just me or is she taking a lot of pictures lately?

q!cell: "if you need me just call me" AAAAAAAAAAAAA

pals i am a sucker for "i'll be there when you call"/"i'll be there for you even if you dont know it" kind of friendships

"ALRIGHT!! We are NOT spilling any beans today!"

cucurucho appearing and giving the "too eccentric" book and fucking BOOKING IT

(to cucurucho) "you're being weird today"

"im not good with riddles, cucurucho, you know that. i take things too literally"

"cant believe a sheep just exploded"

"cucurucho do you want something from me or not, i'm confused"

"cucurucho, what's up with you today? you're being like, really weird. i thought it was good-weird at first but now its just weird-weird"

frowning, whispering to self "oh this is weird, this is weird, this is weird"

deep hissing breath in through the mouth "something is not right"

reiterating "cucurucho, something's not right. something's up. you're being weird."

"cucurucho, i need help. you know im not cellbit. im just lil old me. i dont know."

q!jaiden being ENTIRELY unsurprised and immediately jumping to the books being about the two cucuruchos when given the "have you seen him? have you seen me" book AND THEN LISTING THE DIFFERENCES

(to cucurucho) "its like we're partners in crime"

(when following cucurucho from spawn) "philza's up there" (implied that he may notice her presence)

all the joking about the "Getting Chair-ed" aside, i dont think she was meant to be stuck in there, i think she was genuinely meant to be teleported, there was just a lil mess up w permissions for the teleporter plate

anyway. you thought heading 14k blocks out for the freezer dungeon was bad? try x: -15725 z: -9005 (from x: 3053, z: 1906, thats roughly 21.7k blocks out)

the way she glances between the teleporter plate and cucurucho + the serious (wary) expression, general scanning the area and zooming in on any potential exits (while waiting for cucurucho to respond after the "be patient" book)

"this one's got a window!" NOOOOO

i had sub-thoughts about some of these but. uh. tumblr doesnt have?? like. the sub-point in the point form. so.

[chimivx]

//spoilers for chapter 7 (please prep yourself for this)

YOU

NOT THE "good luck"

— YOU CANT KEEP DROPPING UPDATES LIKE THIS OUT OF NO WHERE MY EMOTIONAL STATE IS SO FRAGILE BECAUSE OF YOU, I NEED THIS TO STOP (in all positive ways of course LOL, but please dont actually stop) 😭😭😭😭

WOOYOUNG !!! MY MAN WOOYOUNG STEPPING UP !! I had the fattest feeling in the world that there was no way he'd hurt her for some superficial reason, like getting his dick wet ✋ Bro atp what's even the point of being in a greek life house if all they do is treat both of you like dogshit- and it's THE WAY woo thinks she's more important than a group of lowlives 😔😭 SET MY BOY AND GIRLY FREE !!!!! He just wants her to be happy :(( He just wants to be happy with her 🥹🥹🥹

On the other hand, despite him being my pookie, the Yunho disappointment is so real. Seonghwa disappointment is so real. This Joong disappointment is becoming real. It's like no one has any independent thought and its SO FRUSTRATING (props to you for writing their characters) !! As much as I was rooting for Yunho after his love confession, I cannot say with good heart that this man deserves our girly and good on her for exposing everything because— that is a LOT to keep bottled up for so long. Everyone needs to go back to therapy fr.

Mannnnnnn it just feels like the atz boys (old and new) are in cahoots just trying to find ways to make girly's life miserable one way or another. For WHAT REASON !!!

Me, gripping my hair and rocking back and forth like a maniac

I think I'm just the most mad at Yunho tbh (rant incoming). Even as a reader you can feel how sweetly he used to treat our girly and how much he probably loved her this entire time. Likewise the way our girly was so genuinely in love with Yunho that even Wooyoung couldn't deny it. Idk what's going on in yunho's head for him to feel the need to have attached himself to Mina on top of that. 100% the whole date event thing and girly's relationship with woo played a big part in how things turned out but it's just so fucking childish of him !! THAT'S WHAT THIS IS YUNHO IS JUST ACTING LIKE a child. He can't stand the idea of his favorite toy being in someone else's hands, but he also can't stand the idea of only having one toy to play with. And my girly is NOT A TOY!!!!!! To be real, as much as they connected, I don't think Yunho has the genuine capability to perceive Rory as anything but a possession for him to have and tuck away as he sees fit. What has even been the point of comforting her after the (what we know now as faked) woo and yeji affair??? IM JUST SO MAD FOR SO MANY REASONS BC I WAS ROOTING FOR HIM DESPITE HIM BEING SO WISHY WASHY !!! I was truly holding onto an ounce of hope that he'd clean up his act....!And of COURSE this mf stays silent the entire time everything went down. He cares too much about protecting what's left of his image (his fucking ego) than comforting or protecting the girl he supposedly is in love with.

Meanwhile we have MY MAN WOOYOUNG !! over here willingly throwing everything away for even a chance at fixing things with the girl HE never stopped loving. WE CHEERED !!!!!! 🥂🥳🎉

I hope everyone in these two houses rot fr (many complex emotions that i can't put into words).

I think what also rubs me wrong is what ever the fuck Seonghwa is doing but I don't have enough words to express the way I feel about it??? Like- can there not be ONE man in that house who doesn't fuck her and then fuck her over 😭😭😭😭😭

(Lighter note)

Also PLEASE the way San is obviously so whipped and down bad for Rory despite him being such a slut (i love you fictional san, never change) All it took was a single kiss and that man was rethinking all of his decisions and plans for the entire night. They're so cute when they interact with each other 😭🥹 But I understand that San is prob not a romanceable character route so we will take the light-hearted crumbs we can get ✋😔 I don't think we can handle an additional romanceable route anyways 😭😭😭😭😭😭

When seonghwa had to witness rory's interaction with wooyoung at the cafe, i was sitting here kicking my feet in the air like i'm the happiest girl in the world. We know youre an undercover asshole now hwa... I need more backstory interactions between wooyoung and rory bc 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 every single one we've gotten (e.g. library scene, beer pong) gave me a little spark of joy amongst all the angst we've been subject to 😔 But I'm also a hella sucker for angst so TRULY i win either way 🤪

Idk woo was so clearly and genuinely in love with rory without condition that it sucks for everything to have ended up the way it did.... I'm sure he regrets ever entertaining the idea of letting her go- and now's his time to try to redeem himself with (hopefully) pure intentions.

That is all from me for rn I !!!! Feel bad for the text wall LMFAO but pls know I'm looking forward to whatever happens next 🫶 Happy writing !!!

I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU. I WAS SO EXCITED TO SEE WHAT YOU THOUGHT.

" I had the fattest feeling in the world that there was no way he'd hurt her for some superficial reason, like getting his dick wet ✋ "

THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU.

" Mannnnnnn it just feels like the atz boys (old and new) are in cahoots just trying to find ways to make girly's life miserable one way or another. For WHAT REASON !!! "

If we're talking the piwon boys... they just want the reason above that Wooyoung didn't... LMFAO. They're simply sleazy frat boys.

YOUR MONOLOGUE ABOUT YUNHO. My darling dear. The boy does not know what he wants and its insufferable. I genuinely think hes got the friend/feelings thing going on. He can't figure out the feeling after sleeping with Aurora, so it manifests into this thing, like oh, I love you, I like you, I have feelings for you, when really it's simply just him loving her as a friend, but he still wants to fuck LMFAO. Which is unfortunate and he needs to sort that out.

SAN SAN SAN SAN SAN SAN SAN SAN SAN SAN.

I think I may plan to write little snippets of San and his adventures in ATZ, LOL. I'm obsessed with him and Rory, but they're absolutely 100% platonic... but they'd deff get it on. He's probably my fav ATZ boy at the moment, aside from our hero Wooyoung.

WHO, YOU SAID IT, JUST WANTS TO BE HAPPY WITH HER.

Thank you for always leaving your thoughts, your comments, I appreciate it SO much, it keeps me going!!! I'm sitting here laughing at this in real time, and sharing allllll the feels with you!

THANK YOU!

[webothyoungwheni1stsawu]

same theres tidbits i enjoy of kpop but its more so the general system i dont particularly agree with the way it goes about it business or i guess how idols personal lives are tied to their idol image like they cant be idols if they have personal life. i think problem is they concentrate so much on visuals than actual abilities, choreo has become such a trending topic and whilst many of them are skilled dancers a lot of them fall back on vocal abilities not all but it is obvious even in idols my age range that perhaps couldve or shouldve done better vocally.

i dont expect them all to be beyonce or taylor swift or arianas but i dont particularly care for visuals these days never have tbh, if they sing well that should be main priority but it seem to be slacking and putting any ole tosh in songs making them sound like AI wrote it (ie: lisa's rockstar song, sorry wasnt so keen on it and i love lisa as a person but not so much musically if that makes sense?) again not all bc theres still good songs in kpop but ngl they have been slacking these past few years i also think it sometime lacks maturity as well due to heavy numbers of kids debuting literal tweens and kids not saying they cant be idols in the future but damn they aint given a childhood either. i think a lot of it does come down to visuals being main focus of who debut and who doesnt, thought the same abt pd48 all the trainees i loved never debuted all the popular usually pretty ones debuted that had (imho) weaker vocals.

my problem is kpop glosses over so much tries to perfect so much in dancing no room for error they make them lipsynch bc they dont want to hear the singers breaths so they smooth all imperfections out of the songs and performances. then when some of the contestants or idols do have less listenable vocals its so noticeable. i dont condone hate trains but sometimes it doesnt surprise me at the same time bc kpop audiences tend to accept mediocre and kpop is too scared to do out of the box things so it stick with what its familiar with

soyeon, i love her bc she knew what was more important in a performer, mentioned this in her survival show the audience picked visuals over vocals. its just got so shallow and vein? i think anyone who doesnt debut in big4 then has to work harder but it pays off in some cases like ateez have varied vocals compared to maybe le sserra who lacked vocals despite them being from big4 you would expect big4 groups to be extremely talented yet kpop doesnt really let them express it fully cause they boxed into what is familiar to them and i think kpops always kinda picked idols who resemble other idols instead of going for different looks different skin colour different weight, its always had similarity in so much of these groups, even when u stand idols next to each other instead of someone standing out a lot of them end up blending in even vocally tbh its rare to find a group that the members individually stand out in their own unique ways

i dont think we even have to be in the know of music in general to know this but ehhh maybe its because the younger the audiences the more they kinda dont say if they dont like something like to them anything idols do or say in songs is still lapped up even my fave groups often have the odd song im not fond of but i still end up liking it after a few listens lol.

kpop is becoming an industrial disaster. gfriend has great choreography and they still sing live. no group can say that because of choreography we don't sing live. the seniors do it but they don't. they make 100 times more money than normal people but don't want to put in any effort. it's funny how fans like us work hard 8 hours a day to earn money to support idols, while idols don't even go to vocal lessons.

kpop has gone into a common formula to be famous. pretty faces, y2k/aesthetic concept. you just need to know how to dance a little and don't even need to know how to sing.

before, blackpink was successful with the girl crush concept, most groups followed this trend. now it's newjeans with the y2k concept. kpop has lost its diversity. i also understand, for small companies, it's hard for them to maintain concept diversity like SM, they can only follow trends to survive.

i remember kpop of gen 2, there were a lot of boy and girl groups, but no concept overlapped with each other. and also the songs of gen 3. i hoped april story of april or journey to atlantic of laboum could be more popular.

[binch-i-might-be]

oh god. i cant. like. i have so many thoughts in my head rn. i need to choose just one to rant to you about. but my god. know i have SO MANY

and no bc i am constantly thinking about how they have to hide. how theyre so fucking in love but nobody can ever know. how their love is so fucking pure and sweet and yet nobody can ever see it, but the unhappy arranged marriages are flaunted for the world to see.

yk whats on my mind constantly? how nobody came to their wedding. because they couldnt. it would be too dangerous. not even the people who know. because it was already so dangerous, even when it was just them and the river and the stars.

and the LINE. "you can share your life with the man you love without fear and thats a luxury i will never have" lives in my brain. just constantly. like my god. you pulled out ALL the stops in that fic. that line tore me APART. like okay. what if i just sobbed.

god. im just. im cradling them in my hands. these poor poor boys.

- 🐥

give them to me ....... send them ALL 🌀

dude it literally rips me apart. that's one reason I'm so obsessed with the reincarnation au, because finally finally finally they get to hold hands and kiss and be silly and young and in love. they're constantly in each other's arms, touching at every chance, to make up for the 45 years they had to hide

NOBODY CAME TO THEIR WEDDING! it was just them and it was so special but. they didn't even have an officiant. because no one would have married them :(

THANK YOU. I loved that line, I loved that John was the one who got to say it to Martha. he needed that. he deserved that.

actually you mentioning the wedding and Martha reminded me of a little bonus fic taking place during Green Eyes that's been rotting in my drafts for like two years now, I'm gonna put a lil snippet under a cut!

yeah. cradling them kissing them tucking them in nice and tight and protecting them :(((

“Alex, dear, I- would you mind telling me a bit about that wedding of yours?” she said, brushing her thumb over a chip in the smooth porcelain cradled between her hands.

She had asked George about it after Alexander had left last night, but he hadn’t been able to tell her anything, either. He had not been present for it; on some level, she had been glad, even if that was petty, perhaps.

It was just hard for her, sometimes, to realise Alex felt he could be open with his father while he so obviously treaded on eggshells around her, even giving a warning every time he was about to mention the man he wanted to share his life with.

To know George hadn’t been involved in that wedding was a bit of a consolation.

Alex snapped his head up and regarded her with wide eyes. “Really?” he said, and there it was again, that guarded expression, as though he expected her to launch into a lecture about sodomy and the fate of his immortal soul any minute now.

Martha ignored the dull pang in her chest that came every time she was reminded her sweet little boy distrusted her on some level now, and forced a smile. It felt stiff on her face, and she knew she had raised a very sharp young man, so she hid it behind her cup.

“Yes, really. Of course, I have attended some weddings in my time, but I do think yours might have been very… special.”

Alex huffed a soft laugh and cut his gaze away, his eyes finding the gently shining ring on his finger instead, and a blissful little smile conquered his features. “You could say that.”

Well, that distraction had worked quicker than she would have thought.

“So?” she prompted, careful, and nudged her knee against her son’s thigh.

“Um,” he said and slowly turned his cup between his fingers, an old habit he had picked up from George, who liked to absentmindedly rotate everything from wineglass to teacup when he was lost in thought. “What would you like to know?”

“Let’s start with something simple,” she said, and Alexander chuckled. “The date?”

“June sixth,” he responded at once, smiling softly to himself.

“Oh, a summer-wedding? That must have been nice," she said in an attempt to show him he had nothing to fear right now, that he could be honest and open with her as he was with his father. "Your father and I got married when he was on leave in January. The snow was beautiful. Awfully cold, though."

Her first wedding had been in autumn, but Martha tended not to dwell on that chapter these days.

Alex snorted a laugh and took a sip of his tea; he wasn't tense, and he didn't seem suspicious of her intentions anymore.

It was a start, she thought.

"It was… a little different from your wedding, I think," he said. His eyes were so soft and happy, not even a trace of his earlier tears in sight, and Martha wished she could understand it all. What drew her son to that boy, and what drew Laurens to her son, and how they fit.

It just seemed so odd to her.

"How so?" she prompted gently after a beat.

Alex flushed a bit at that, didn't meet her eye. "Well, it was… private. Just the two of us, out under a tree at midnight. The- the moon was full that night. Cloudless sky." He took a slow breath, and his smile slipped a little, gained an almost sad note. Martha shuffled closer and squeezed his arm. "We went down to the river and said our vows under a willow."

He turned back to her, his smile returning full force. "It was perfect. There's not a single thing I would have changed."

Martha hummed, thoughtful. She couldn't help but wonder about the stricken look that had flickered across his features just now.

"You mean that, love?" she said, and Alex nodded, let his eyes slip back down to the ring he twisted around his finger–Martha had to bite back a fond smile at that gesture, something she herself had done for over twenty years now. Perhaps Alex hadn't only picked up his habits from his father, after all.

"What was that frown about, then?"

[bbgmiraa]

Paint our love.

actor!!SongKang! FEMactor/singer!! Reader! fluff!! mentions of killing each other!! and the tinyest bit of angst!! this is inspired by my delusions + im inlove with these songs & been waiting to write abt them but i cant stop myself from thinking nobody will like my writing style bc its kinda trash. first story too it's abt to be pretty short. i'd recommend putting these songs on loop while reading but if u cant its wtv .BUCKLE UP!

Walking down a dark yellow dimmed street after having a yell out with your oh so pretty boyfriend. Damn.. he really has a way with his words. To have you crying like this and you're sure you're gonna end up right back in his arms by 12:00 am. Caught up in your thoughts, you didn't hear him walk up to you all you felt was a hand grabbing your arm, hand being stuffed in your pocket. You both didn't have to say something. The looks on both of your faces screamed what you wanted to say. Yours being 'you hurt me' his being 'im sorry'. You shrugged him off, keeping it pushing. Until you got pushed into the wall right next to you. "I'm sorry baby." such pretty words coming out of the mouth that called you out of your name. "𝗦𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲𝘀 𝘄𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝘄𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻". You chuckled "i really wish i could believe you right now Kang. But it's the way you said it that's pulling me back." you said in a really cold way. Maybe it's the breeze outside but it is pretty cold out here. "Here," Kang said handing your favorite padded jacket as if he was reading your mind. You ignore it and try to walk away. he pulls you back into a pleading kiss. When you both finish tears are streaming down your face. "Why do you always hurt me just to pull me back. Do you do this on purpose? I don't wanna feel hurt done by you, i just wanna be embraced by you. Why do you make this so hard baby?" you say voice cracking on every other word, walking in the opposite direction while he keeps trying to grab your wrist you pushing him away every time, Sobbing. "Imma get it right i promise. gimmie one more chance baby ? lets go home hmm?" " Are gonna break my heart once again Kang hmm? Im losing trust in you, and once i lose it all it's over. " "That wont happen ma". You break down crouching down on your feet (postioned as if your megan thee stallion) he's calling you all of your favorite things and making you fold so you can run right back to him. He crouches with you making you sob harder. Looking at him you say " How can i trust you. Do you even remember what you just said to me 15 minutes ago." "If i fuck up again, you can kill me." "CUT! Kang why'd you go off script?" the director says loud enough for the outside of the rented street to hear ringing your ears. "Yeah, why'd you go off script" you say laughing hitting his chest. He can't hide how he feels for you, this is the only time besides with his friends he can express it except, it's scripted. He actually meant what he said and seeing you look so hurt like this, even though he knows it scripted, makes him wanna kill himself. If you're not made for him, and he can't have you he'd kill both of you.

[araksi413]

hi hello!! can i ask 🎮, 🌈, 💙 and 🤔 for the oc ask game? i don’t think i’m familiar with any of your ocs yet so feel free to tell me abt as many ocs as u want to if you have more than one :D

- @bumblebee-bumbling

hiiiiii so sorry for taking so long to answer ! thank you so much for asking !!

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🎮 VIDEO GAME CONTROLLER — what are three of your oc's favorite hobbies?

ooh okay instead of three hobbies per oc ill do three ocs. smiles

Sarah - gardening !! she likes to grow vegetables that her wife bakes into yummy food. they're a very sweet couple

Mattias - fashion.. he likes sewing his own dresses when he has time, though with uni he's much busier then before

Eva - some sort of fighting sport ? probably boxing, she has a lot of anger so venting it by punching people that consent to it is probably nice.. also probably did like. dancing when younger but quit bc of the teachers

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💙 BLUE HEART — does your oc have any cool/special powers and/or abilities? how are they with magic, if it exists in their world?

the Special Twelve are my dnd-ish ocs, so at least some of them have magic :D

most that do have an average skill with magic, tho Bon is a bit of a prodigy for his age.. he had an access to powerful high level magic since early childhood which 1) resulted in him blowing himself up with a fireball at age 10 and 2) means he learned impressive powerful spells before groundwork so he's incredibly powerful but. cant do common level stuff

in World 1, Anna is a time walker... she can pass through different time bubbles/areas and affects time around her (morphs it into what she considers her time, does so subconsciously)

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🤔 THINKING FACE — what are some of your oc's quirks/mannerisms?

Ezry - likes to give people nicknames and petnames ! they get very silly with it

honestly not sure who else to put here..

Al'ixia-MariUnak is super anxious and wrings her hands a lot and pulls on her hair

hmmm Mattias is very touchy but only w people he's close to (so mostly Eva)..

Emobear is mute and not very expressive which is highlighted by Deer who is overly expressive and talkative...

[no name entered] growls a lot, before they learn to mimic human speech, and even afterwards when around people that uh. aren't bad <<they were in a pretty bad situation for a while

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🌈 RAINBOW — what is your oc's sexual orientation/gender identity? what pronouns do they use?

alright, putting this one last bc im gonna do p much all of my ocs:

World 1:

Eva - trans girl, straight (?), she/her

Mattias - gnc cis guy, gay, he/him

Sarah - lesbian, butch, she/her, definitely used he/him at some point

Sun - bisexual, she/her

Zara - bisexual & polyam !, she/her

Anna - transwoman, hasn't ever thought about romance or sex, she/her

Deer - gender is just deer, it/its, Emobear's girlfriend

Emobear - it/he/they, no gender, Deer's girlfriend

Charles - transmasc, not really a man tho? complicated identity issues die to being dead and isolated from society, doesnt care all that much, uses no pronouns

[no name entered] - that's a alien. uhm. nonbinary in a way, fully outside our gender norms. they/them and neopronouns

Araksi - agender aromantic asexual, has a qpp, they/them, sometimes it/its

Daphne - she's a snake.. probably aro? but not ace, i think. doesn't rly use pronouns for herself but other people call her she and she hasn't corrected them

Special Twelve :

(labels would be more complicated bc they would not exist in their world and their society is different then ours, none of them actually have the words to describe their identities the same way we would)

Cari'sam - cis and straight(?) (is it comphet? is it compallo? is she straight?)(she's struggling), she/her

Roben - trans woman, bi, she/her

Menir - gay bear man. he should've gotten to be a bear. he/him

Bon de Ciel - hasn't thought about it (hes just a babyyy), potentially aro/ace , he/him

Illumm - he/they, would get very flustered if asked about romance (questioning, probably)

Al'ixia-MariUnak - bisexual, grey-ace <- but so unaware, she/her, probably she/they if she ever thought about it

Man Uu - gnc genderqueer man, free with his love (wouldn't label), he/him usually, but wouldn't mind any other pronouns (i should make him do drag....)

Faelyn Anastasia Boldur - genderfluid/genderqueer, wouldn't id as trans, they have a job so they're not thinking about it, the uniform isnt gendered anyway, they/ze/he/she

Em - they/them nonbinary, wouldn't id as trans

Kamari - they/them but due to additional identity issues, not being trans. they're weird about it <3

Ezry - they/them nonbinary, would id as trans

Camm Dan - in love with his best friend, wouldn't label himself, he/him

Other OCs (holy shit theres more ??):

Un: eh??? probably aro but married? at some point, she/they/it

Rikuki: pan & arospec probably? they/xey/ze

Láng and Lú have the same deal really - when you have lived countless lives in many shapes and forms how can you just be one. all of them are you - their different reincarnations use different pronouns and names but their souls are like. genderless. forever chasing each other because noone else can understand.

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