#i can't be too hard on myself for that
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i bought myself actual clothes irl for the first time... like i've bought them before with my sister and stuff a few times or like i've bought one jacket like a year ago but before i moved out all my money was stolen by my parents and they refused to buy me food much less clothes so it was all secondhand stuff from friends and clothes i'd steal off my parents lol. i always feel mortified trying on clothes and shoes and stuff like ohhhh look at me honking my clown nose to make sure something fits me before i buy it. but well i have my first few pairs of cheap shoes that aren't secondhand docs or tennis shoes from when i was like 15 so that owns. i'm extremelyyyyy fucking poor now though i saved up for months for some clothes lol
#working out adulthood is scary when you have no family to help you but well i'm working it out bit by bit#i'm kind of embarrassed by how many life skills i was lacking in before i moved out but it was all a direct result of abuse so.#i can't be too hard on myself for that#and i mean i got my own skills from surviving so i know a fuck of a lot about things that normal people don't soooo#like yes i can slaughter and butcher an animal and forage plants and mushrooms and hunt all my food and mix chemicals and make leather#and weave and make fur hides and taxidermy and cook everything from scratch and sleep on the streets and shoot a bow and raise animals#BUT i will borderline cry if i have to book a taxi ride or talk to a stranger or get clothes orsomething due to Generalised Anxiety Disorde#so it balances out /s
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You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side
#m/cc#mine#I tried extremely hard to word this nicely because I KNOW people don't mean bad and often even know there are unique challenges#and believe me I know the challenges of invisible disability too!!#I have invisible disabilities!#but as someone who has also been at least visibly 'off' since they were 10 I am SO SICK of invisible disabilities being hailed as like#a unique extra oppression that us lucky visibly disabled people don't have to deal with#there are challenges to invisible disabilities that visibly disabled people DON'T have to deal with!#but you need to understand that *the reverse is also true*#there are MASSIVE benefits to being able to lie about your disability for example#or not dealing with the overt ableism that comes with your disability being obvious to everyone#*I do not have the option to pretend I'm not disabled.* that is never an option I have#I walk weirdly. I use a mobility aid now. my speech and face are 'off.' I lean to one side#for a long time I wore sunglasses 24/7 and often didn't make sense. I sometimes can't speak or won't react to others#for the most part people will always know that at the very least something is wrong with me#and more obviously I have people telling me they'll pray for me; telling me I can't do things I'm already in the process of doing;#wanting to shake my hand to tell me I'm an inspiration for not killing myself; giving me dirty looks for existing in public#and yes. I'm aware that this is very much an in-community issue. I know the average abled person doesn't know invisible disabilities exist#that's why there's so much awareness happening for it#but as a visibly disabled person I get SO TIRED of constantly hearing 'I wish my disability was visible :'('#it's just 'I wish I had your disability!' but from other disabled people
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i know the pain is nauseating. i know you are disappointed. i know you feel betrayed. i know it feels hopeless and bleak. i know you're tired.
please don't disappear.
please be kind.
please continue to take care of yourself.
please keep living day by day.
please live. out of spite. out of hope for a better tomorrow.
if you are POC, queer, femme, trans, disabled, you are loved. you are wanted. i may not know you, but i love you with my whole person. there is still good in this world, this isn't the end.
#important#us politics#pingyappathon#if you need to step away to take care of yourself then please do so. stop doomscrolling.#there so many good marginalized people who cannot leave this country. we have to stay and fight#if not for ourselves then for those who can't.#by nature and job occupation i am a caregiver my heart aches for everyone and myself#personally i live out of rage and bloodlust for my enemies. i fought too hard and too long for my happiness.#i wont back down or give up for myself or others.
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The drain plug got stuck...
No, he doesn’t wanna talk about it…
Lol, all jokes aside, I love the fact that Stanley's actually really mechanically inclined! I mean hell, how else has he kept that '65 Cadillac of his in such pristine condition??👀
Not to mention teaching himself basic rocket science and quantum physics to understand and rebuild the portal like WHAT
#gravity falls#stanley pines#stan pines#mullet stan#Stan pines is a car guy and you can't convince me otherwise#He can name-drop the year and make of a vehicle at just a GLANCE#Love this goober of a man❤️#Also ignore the fact that I myself know jack SHIT about car anatomy lolol#Don't look too hard at the background lolol🥲
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happy new year Ego!!! Just wanted to let you know that I absolutely adore your twst fanart and the tags are just an absolute pleasure to read! You are my greatest inspiration for my personal twst art and I just wanted to thank you for your wonderful masterpieces <333 if possible, may I ask what are some of your headcanons for the diasomnia family? If not for diasomnia then any other characters are fine as well!
thank you, and happy new year! 💚💜💚 that is amazing to hear; it's always a little bewildering but super flattering that other people like my silly little doodles so much!
I don't think I really have any really solid headcanons and also canon keeps validating me left and right (FLUFFY DOMESTIC DIAFAM IS REAL). mostly just kind of...impressions and general thoughts, if that makes sense! lately though I've been kind of obsessed with thinking about Lilia's hair, and specifically when/why he ended up cutting it. (l-look, we're bouncing around the timeline and I gotta make decisions about these things when I draw, it's relevant) (I mean I would probably be weirdly fixated on this anyway, but.)
I think I've settled on the idea that he kept it long until he went to NRC, partly because 1) I like drawing The Ponytail, and 2) I think he thought of NRC as a chance to reinvent himself a bit! he gets to go and be a wacky carefree teenager for a few years and have fun! (officially he's there to keep an eye on Son #1, but how much trouble could he get into, really.) so he gave himself a Cool Teen Haircut to go with his fresh new Cool Teen Persona!
also maybe he had some reflection on his hair's troubled past with three kids...
...and had to weigh his vanity versus the fact that he was going off to be around hundreds of kids on a daily basis, and. the choice suddenly seemed obvious.
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 6 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 6 spoilers#this is my blog and i'm going to write a million words about lilia and you can't stop me#but anyway i do genuinely get the impression that he's using Pretending to Be a Teenager as a chance to be even sillier than usual#he's a very silly man he's just being EXTRA silly#supported by his recent birthday card where he says he was specifically trying to cast himself as an adorable little brother-type#because he wanted the other students to give him free shit and save him seats and things like that#it worked for about a week before he turned out to be way too good at stuff and everyone just kind of ended up in awe of him instead#and he was like DANGIT. I'VE RUINED IT FOR MYSELF.#(then he and epel went on to talk about their hypothetical vtubersonas because the birthday cards are INSANE but anyway)#i'm bad at headcanons :( sorry!#unless it's dumb things like...what pokemon they would have or whatever#(malleus would have some kind of special fancy-colored dragapult) (but i digress)#i have a hard time putting things into words. just know that i love the grampa bat and his weird kids very much.#my brain is also still kind of fried from the last couple of weeks#i am however starting 2024 off the way i intend to continue it: in deep contemplation of anime hair#(sorry if these look weirdly aliased) (i realized about 3/4 of the way through i was using the wrong brush and i didn't want to restart :U)
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gilly turnaround sheet
#gilly trial animation things tag#I DREW HIS RING ON THE WRONG HAND IM KILLING MYSELF FIXING IT LATER#ok i fixed the sheet but I can't be bothered to fix the gif...#rotating your fish#jrwi fanart#jrwi riptide#just roll with it#jrwi#gillion tidestrider#fun fact i continued drawing this right after i got a concussion and rattled my braincells a bit too hard#and then managed to finish him before i made it worse lol#now bright screens to me are like sun to a vampire#powering thru next 2 weeks with screentime limit and 0% brightness
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no context riordanverse spoilers:
#magnus chase#alex fierro#sadie kane#carter kane#hazel levesque#frank zhang#jason grace#leo valdez#piper mclean#pjo shitpost#riordanverse shitpost#that's not a tag??#went off of vibes and way too many gave me Frank/Leo rivalry so I had to refrain myself to just two#got a few more memes for round 2 but by god is it hard to find them#i can't remember much of the kc but that pic screamed Sadie and Bast for some reason#octavian slander included#reyna's there too#jack the sword our beloved
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ohhh my brain is rotting, anyways i love drawing Paul and Murch
#it's been so fucking long since i've drawn murch im trying to figure out how to draw him again#splatbands#splatband#splatoon#paul#paul sashimori#sashimori#murch#paulmurch#paurch#??????????? man idk what ship name to give#dedf1sh#acht#ahato mizuta#spyke#ask to tag#i can't stop myself#also i hate drawing spyke it's too fucking hard#paul is 16 and murch is 16-17#art tag
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Hatchetfield @femslashfortnight Day 2: Retro
#would you look at that- it’s another hfff drawing#incredible#some Hollowebby for the soul#I just really think they’re neat yknow#This isn't one of my favorite drawings but hey thats alright#that's cool#they can't all be bangers but for what it's worth it isn't horrible#anyways yeah#now i'm going to go work on Art Fight stuff#very exciting#I don't know how much I'm going to be able to do for it but I guess we'll find out#so much drawing this summer#it's crazy i've been out of school for two weeks and i've drawn like 10 things already#these hands cant stop wont stop#Anyways I love the idea of them skating#I'm a roller blader myself but the skates are cute#did some fun textures and reflections in this one too#I love roller blading tho#wish I could do it more often#fun fact: despite it's portrayal in minecraft- obsidian ranks at a 5-6 on the mohs hardness scale- being the same hardness as opal or glass#idk that's what i came up with for todays fact- i feel like most people know that one but idk#hatchetfield femslash fortnight#hollowebby#miss holloway#webby#hatchetfield#nightmare time#starkid#team starkid#kim whalen
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A/N ::: 😳. Iiiii ... Ok. So I'm never this creative to think of such things like ... oh, idk. Kafka likes to roleplay with his girl - kinda fucked up things. Like, being a little rough in bed. Both ways - roughing and being roughed up. Idk. I just totally see him being the best fucking husbando/boyfriendo ever. Sorry Draken, Chifuyu, Mitsuya, oh god, and Baji. ANYWAY. Yeah. This Kafka stuff just keeps oozing from my fingers and I'm in no hurry to stop. I hope you guys enjoy this!
C/W ::: Roleplay (on the rougher side - not violent, per se - but not like petting a kitten either ... no pun intended), unprotected P->V, hands-on stuff, a little tossing of the other person around but like I said, I don't think it's like, too too rough. You've read this far, heed the warning if you think this won't be for you =). That's why we put them here!
WC ::: Under 1,200 (I'm coming back around, you guys!!)
MDNI UNDER THE CUT PLEASE, THANK YOU.
You bite your bottom lip as Kafka growls against your skin. His words and his tone are harsh, but his touch … it’s painfully soft. The slight pressure of his mouth, the rasp of his tongue against the sensitive skin of your neck. It makes your stomach flutter, and your eyes roll back.
He breathes heavily against you as he moves his mouth lower, to your shoulder, then down, across your collarbone and back up again.
"You're sending me really, really mixed signals here, Kafka. You're mouth is literally saying one thing while your body does another."
"You don't say," he says.
"I do say."
He huffs and lifts his head to look you in the eyes, his own dark, pupils blown wide. "What do you want me to say?" he says, his voice low, rough. "That I like you?
"I mean, yeah. That would be nice. But maybe a little consistency first?"
"I like you," he says, "But I also hate you. So I don't know. What should I do?"
You try to shimmy away from him but his grip just tightens and there's no way you can get out of his arms.
He leans in, his breath tickling your ear and you shiver. "Do you want me to let you go?" he whispers.
"What I want is ..." You sigh, "What I want," you say slowly, "Is for you to get over yourself." You take a deep breath. "I know that you want me, at the very least. Why are you being so gentle and rough with me at the same time?"
He huffs. "It's complicated," he says. "I like you. I do. And .... But ..."
"But what?" You ask.
"But nothing. It's not important."
He looks down again at your body pressed into the mattress. His hands sliding down your shoulders to your elbows.
You try to wiggle your wrist free from his large hand. You want to grab him by the chin and make him look you in the eye, but he still has an unreasonably tight grip on you.
He glances at you through his lashes, his mouth curled into a devious smirk. "You want something, little one?"
You shout, "That's it! That's it! I've had enough of your patronizing. You're gonna get it now, Kafka."
You can feel your temperature rise and your willpower falter. Mustering every tiny little ounce of strength you have in your much smaller body you flip him over so he's on his back. Though you have a feeling that he went willingly. You don't care though. You're just happy that the tables have turned - in your favor, too.
For now, anyway.
You squat over him on the bed and straddle his torso, placing your knees on either side of his ears, careful not to put too much pressure on his chest.
He laughs at you and asks why you're not putting your full weight down on him. "You think you're gonna hurt me, you little fly."
You see him smile at you, a sharp-toothed grin. "Come on," he says, "You're not going to hurt me. I want you to give it your best shot, though. G'head."
You lean forward, putting your full weight on him and he laughs. "Oh-hoh, now you've done it," he says. "You should not have done that."
The laughter stops and his eyes narrow as you press your hand to his cheek, running your thumb across his bottom lip. He leans forward, trying to bite at your fingers and you pull your hand away, making him growl again. This time in frustration, you’re sure of it.
You place your hand on his throat, pushing him back down onto the bed.
"Enough," you say, your voice low, barely more than a whisper. "It's time to stop playing around."
His eyes widen as you lean in, pressing your mouth against his. He stiffens at first, but then relaxes, his mouth opening under yours.
His tongue brushes against your lips, and you open for him, your own tongue meeting his.
You can taste the sweetness of his mouth, and the taste makes you hungry for more. You press closer, your teeth clicking together as you try to deepen the kiss.
Kafka wraps his arms around you, pulling you closer as you continue to kiss. You feel his cock harden against your thigh and you moan.
You press your hips down, rubbing against him, his cock sliding against your pussy through the thin black lace of your underwear.
You break the kiss, panting, your body is on fire.
Kafka groans as you begin to rock your hips, grinding your pussy harder yet against his cock.
"Fuck," he whispers, his eyes glazed over, his lips swollen from your kiss.
You reach between you, grabbing his cock, squeezing it tightly as you stroke it, your hand sliding up and down his shaft.
"Do you want me?" you ask, leaning in, your lips brushing against his.
"Yes," he says, his voice rough, his breathing ragged. "Fuck yes."
"Then," you say, kissing him deeply. "take me, Kafka."
An animalistic sound escapes his throat as he flips you over onto your back, his body pressing you down into the bed.
You moan as he pushes his cock inside you, stretching you open. He fills you completely, his cock buried to the hilt in your pussy.
He begins to move, his thrusts slow and steady as he fucks you, his cock sliding in and out of you. Your walls squeeze him tightly.
You wrap your legs around his waist, pulling him closer as you rock your hips, meeting his offerings.
You look up at him, face flushed.
He looks down at you, his expressions are intense, but he never shifts his focus. His movements become harder, faster. Almost desperate in his attempt to navigate this fare.
You gasp as you feel him hit just the right spot, making your vision blur. You dig your nails into his back, clinging to him as your orgasm hits you like a surprise wave. Despite knowing full well what the outcome of this would be, the result never ceases to amaze you.
He never ceases to amaze you.
Kafka groans, his thrusts becoming erratic. As he fucks you through your orgasm, he approaches his own.
He slams his cock into you one last time, his body going rigid as he begins to cum, his cock pulsing heavily as he fills you with all he's got.
You cling to him, your bodies pressed together, your heart racing as you both come down from the almost violent release of energy.
Kafka rests his forehead against yours, his breathing ragged.
"You are amazing," he whispers. "Absolutely … fucking ... amazing."
You smile and kiss him softly, your fingers stroking his cheek. "I almost believed you for a minute there, Kaf. Your growly voice is super sexy, but my god. I thought you were a little pissed for a second. Let's do this again. Soon, mm?"
You lift his chin to take stock of his face and you know you'll never tire of seeing his kind eyes looking back at you. "Hey, I love you, you know."
You can't see it, but you're pretty sure he's blushing. The heat radiating from his face against your shoulder washed up like a sunrise; It was slow, but you felt every little prickle of warmth overtake everything it touched.
He buries his face in the crook of your neck, his lips brushing against your skin.
"I love you too," he whispers. "You know I do. You know I'll never stop, yeah?"
You smile and close your eyes, letting the near total darkness of the room wrap you both up in a blanket of promises.
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#kafka hibino#kafka hibino smut#kafka hibino x reader#kafka x reader#hibino kafka#kaiju no. 8#kn8#kn8 smut#kafka x you#kafka x y/n#kn8 x reader#kn8 x you#kaiju no. 8 x reader#kaiju no. 8 anime#kafka smut#kaiju no 8 anime#kaiju no 8#kaiju no 8 x reader#holy f- need this man to pin me down and give me what for - be like how was that too rough too soft give me feedback#though i don' need it#he's become the man of my dreams even when i'm awake - i should check myself in to our cute lil psych hosp and rewire my brain cuz damn son#down bad for this one#fell hard but thats ok#yeah i realize how nuts i sound#knowing is half the battle#right#RIGHT?#i hope you guys like reading this as much as I liked writing it#and hahahahahahahahah#you ppl out there who like to bitch can't get on my ass cuz he's 32!!!!!!! ALREADY OLD BITCHES!!!!!
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Average Buddy Holly Enjoyers
#wHAT?!!?!? WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT.#FINDING OUT AT 11 PM LAST NIGHT THAT A SILLY SHIP I LIKED FROM 2019 BECAME CANON???#no joke i was steeling myself for no ineffable bureaucracy moments at all this season and i made peace with that#aND??? W H A T ?!?!?!? NOT ONLY INTERACTIONS. S O F T INTERACTIONS. FALLING IN LOVE. HEALTHY COMMUNICATION AND UNDERSTANDING.#cRYING SOOOO HARD GOOD FOR THEM GOOD FOR THEM.#GAY PEOPLE ARE WINNING!!!!!!! despite the other thing that happened in ep6 😔🙏#also i too am a buddy holly enjoyer they have good tastes#maybe beez and gabe would like the.... animals too 🙏#ALSO. uhhhhh the everly brothers!!! and lesley gore!!! and georgie fame!!!#good omens#good omens 2#good omens spoilers#good omens 2 spoilers#beelzebub#gabriel#archangel gabriel#gabriel x beelzebub#ineffable bureaucracy#flygon used sketch#y e s i was a bureaucracy truther since 2019 you can find some ancient art both here and on my main insta 😔🙏 goooood dynamic
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the thing i'm learning about being a sports fan is just.... you really have no control over this thing that you love so much and you've invested so much time/energy/emotion in! and that is so hard to accept! you can do all your little good luck rituals, you can critique the players and the coaching and the scheme to hell and back, you can learn as much as you can about how the game works....but it doesn't change a thing. all you can do is sit there and watch the players do the best they can! (and even then there's only so much each individual player can control!)
you just have to practice radical acceptance i guess! what's gonna happen will happen and you just have to sit back and enjoy as much of it as you can 🫠🫠
#or radical optimism lmao#can't believe we're gonna be the first 0-3 team ever to win a super bowl! how exciting for us :) :)#anyway people have definitely articulated this much better before and several times over#but just something i've been thinking about and working on this week#because it's been a hard season and it's only going to get harder#and if i stress myself out too much about it then that's not good!#control what you can control and accept the rest and all that#just a quick little ramble before bed here!
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#vampire hunter d#vhd#wip#sketch#art#Just a couple of little things since I thought it looked cute together ✨#I live! I've just been busy running around#Is it so hard to ask for a moment of solitude? I guess so#Maybe I want to dream in a field all alone too#Desperately need to rewatch the movies (All the Amano movies tbh)#I keep on thinking of rewatching them but I get so lost thinking about doing it I never actually do it 💀💀#Also It's a funny opinion but I do think my favorite D voice is from that ps1 game idk 💀 I can't explain myself
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(Part 1) maybe the two of them have something in common. i doubt it'd be easy to see, though
dialogue under the cut:
Ishmael: Great. Ok. Fine. As though we needed anything else to go wrong today. Caption: It's raining.
Quixote: Ah! Mine comrade! Allow me to shield thee from this most drenching of downpours! Hong Lu: How ingenious...! It won't drip too much on me, will it? Quixote: ..... Ishmael: Well, whatever. Rain won't affect our mission in any meaningful way. We should just continue onwards. Ishmael: Let's get—
(offscreen) Meursault: Peheh
(offscreen) Meursault: Ha ha ha.
Meursault: Hahahaha.
Hong Lu: ...Huh? Heheh.
Sinclair: Meursault... is everything alright?
Meursault: ...
Hong Lu: ... Ah~. Hong Lu: So that's what it is. I see now.
#limbus company#projmoon#comic#meursault lcb#hong lu lcb#don quixote#ishmael lcb#rodion lcb#sinclair lcb#not sure why i decided to have that assortment of characters for this but it simultaneously helped and complicated the framing#we don't get to see silly don quite yet but she's gonna be here .#there was a beginninger part too but i figured it'd be more expedient + easier on myself to start where i did#comics#my art#mango's art#trying very hard not to voice my thoughts partially because i can't & partially cuz i want the idea to stand on its own#this is hong lu x meursault. to make this clear#WOE! Wet Cats be upon ye!
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so have you heard about the ride kamens app game? seems like it's gonna be a twisted wonderland like game with all the riders being hot anime guys now, and it's also gonna be written by yuya takahashi and produced by naomi takebe (apparently it was in development before geats), with designs by the person who did sk8 the infinity, so take that for what you will
have you ever gotten the feeling that a piece of media came into existence just to appeal to you specifically, or
(brb preregistering immediately)
(as far as I can tell you play as an agent who maintains a secret superhero base for riders in the basement of the rider-themed cafe that you run with your butler, and there's some other plot stuff going on but honestly I'm way past sold at this point, this sounds amazing)
#ride kamens#joseimuke games are serious business#show us the henshin forms!!!!#time to overanalyze those silhouettes in the teaser and embarrass myself by not being able to figure out who anyone is#there is 100% a gaim at least#there's one i've convinced myself is w based on almost nothing#and this is assuming they're all main riders too which is probably not true#god i SHOULD recognize more but my mind is blanking super hard and i keep second-guessing myself#(i-is that kiva maybe? den-o? I CAN'T TELL)#i don't think there's a fourze though. the cowardice.#man this is officially a Thing™ now huh#like how in the 2010s monster high kicked off a trend of 'characters' high-school age kids wearing fabulous shoes'#now we have 'ensemble cast of glossy-haired anime boys loosely based on your favorite characters'#this is absolutely not a complaint. i want more and i want them to get even SILLIER.#(i enjoy the sanrio one as well although it seems to be more of a music video thing? i am. a little unclear on it)#god i'm just so pleased that this exists
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it's 4am and i just woke up for a glass of water and i see the news 😭 tv is dead and the world is shit but i love you all in this space the show has given us and i wouldn't trade it for anything 💗 changed my life in all the best ways and i still have so many stories to tell about these characters 💖
#never allowed myself to clown too hard and i already grieved hard in january so i'm mostly just angry at wb#the cancellation made no sense in the first place and it sucks that this happened to this show#we still have two brilliant seasons with the most loveable characters 💗#they should've had a third but i can't wait to see the next projects from david and the cast#ofmd#our flag means death#going back to bed and responding to your sweet messages in the morning 💗
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