#BUT i will borderline cry if i have to book a taxi ride or talk to a stranger or get clothes orsomething due to Generalised Anxiety Disorde | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

irawhiti · 2 years

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i bought myself actual clothes irl for the first time... like i've bought them before with my sister and stuff a few times or like i've bought one jacket like a year ago but before i moved out all my money was stolen by my parents and they refused to buy me food much less clothes so it was all secondhand stuff from friends and clothes i'd steal off my parents lol. i always feel mortified trying on clothes and shoes and stuff like ohhhh look at me honking my clown nose to make sure something fits me before i buy it. but well i have my first few pairs of cheap shoes that aren't secondhand docs or tennis shoes from when i was like 15 so that owns. i'm extremelyyyyy fucking poor now though i saved up for months for some clothes lol

#working out adulthood is scary when you have no family to help you but well i'm working it out bit by bit #i'm kind of embarrassed by how many life skills i was lacking in before i moved out but it was all a direct result of abuse so.#i can't be too hard on myself for that #and i mean i got my own skills from surviving so i know a fuck of a lot about things that normal people don't soooo #like yes i can slaughter and butcher an animal and forage plants and mushrooms and hunt all my food and mix chemicals and make leather #and weave and make fur hides and taxidermy and cook everything from scratch and sleep on the streets and shoot a bow and raise animals #BUT i will borderline cry if i have to book a taxi ride or talk to a stranger or get clothes orsomething due to Generalised Anxiety Disorde #so it balances out /s

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