#i can't afford to buy one

[akinmablog]

If anyone knows where I can watch AMC's Nautilus, hit me up. You will have my eternal love.

[doberbutts]

I would feel bad for the mice that get caught in my traps if it were not for the fact that I have now killed 3 in the span of 2 hours to the same trap. I feel like if you keep sending members of your family out to forage for food and they keep going "ooo! Yummy peanut butter :)" to the same very obvious trap in the same location, at some point that's kind of on you.

So now my reaction to walking into the room and seeing the exact same trap with yet another mouse inside is "...idiot" instead of "poor thing".

[arctic-hands]

For real tho health freaks who scream about how sugar and salt will kill us all and try to push for restrictions on things like candy and chips for SNAP recipients or politicians who try from time to time to replace food stamps all together and give out Government Approved Staples like bread and peanut butter and Government Cheese are gonna kill a whole lotta sick and disabled people like

Diabetics

POTS sufferers

Hypotensives

People with peanut allergies

People with celiac disease or wheat allergies

The lactose intolerant

People who can't eat solid food

People who are undernourished for any reason and need all the calories they can pack on

So-called "picky eaters" who can't tolerate certain tastes and textures without getting violently ill

A myriad of other human conditions that cannot be neatly tallied into categories because the human body and human experience is vast and infinitely variable

But I don't think ableds really care about us and our health like they like to claim so they can harass us about it, do you?

[jamboreeartsupplies]

let Spoon enjoy the walmart halloween section the other day while i was there to pick up a prescription. loved these items but Spoon reminds us all to "support small artists!" these were all crafts and the BOO sign in particular were really poorly made.

[backpackingspace]

Young odysseus convincing everyone Ithaca is nothing but a poor island with rocks and goats to avoid any raids/conquerors/so he doesn't get murdered for talking to Helen bc "it's not like he's a real choice"

Young odysseus falling in love with Penelope at the same event: wait. Wait shit I fucked up hold on just hear me out

[arolesbianism]

Hiiii besties I um. Rly want money. Would anyone want a tweened icon like these for like $20? I'm usually pretty fast with them so it shouldn't take longer than like a few days max

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

I just want it to be tomorrow after work so I can get unfathomably high on edibles and turn off my brain for at least a few days

[trans-yllz]

ever since the beautiful vintage porcelain jester doll in the thrift store I have become enraptured with them. I think that this should become my new obsession and I should collect them

[jokeboy]

this was going to be the first year I got a tax refund since 2020 and as a present to me the government took all (and I do mean all) $2500 of it. I am so fucking upset LOL

[running-in-the-dark]

it's 4:40 am and I'm feeling like shit. trying to convince myself it's just because it's really late and I'm tired and should just sleep, but. I still feel like shit.

so I want to buy something. I want to feel like there's something I can do, something I can control, and buying something is so easy. plus I'll know I'll get a nice thing in the mail.

but we're working on this, so I can't order anything now (literally had to ask my husband to change my ebay password for me because I could not stop myself from buying things there), and it's making my brain so very very upset. it's the nice, easy, comfy thing that I can always do no matter how bad I'm feeling mentally or physically, and now I can't, and it feels very bad. :(

[theflyingfeeling]

djdfjfjkdlfk

[mushroompollution]

I hate that the omakes are never scanlated, there are a BUNCH I've found that either are untranslated or ??? just don't have the text on them AT ALL ?????? like look

WHAT ARE YOU SAYING? WHAT ARE YOUR SECRETS ???????????

[areyoudoingthis]

i don't understand how or why we went from "a dozen different boxsets with bts content, interviews, commentary and extended editions" to "we won't even release this as a dvd" but we lost so hard when it happened

[lastoneout]

god I really need a wheelchair so bad but my doctor said no because apparently when you use a mobility aid to help you leave the house more it's "giving up" but it's not giving up to stay inside and never doing anything because I'm in too much pain to walk, so now I'm too scared to ask any of my other doctors

[ardri-na-bpiteog]

I feel like it really shouldn't be unreasonable for 2 professional workers in their late twenties to feel like they should be able to afford a 2-bedroom apartment

[quilleth]

Ok I need to type this up and post it somewhere so I can feel guilty if I don’t make steps to follow through or something that sounds like I have somewhat fewer mental eelnesses than I actually do..or something (I can already hear my therapist going “no it’s ok if things don’t go to plan and to not be busy all the time”)

But!! the dollcon is like...less than 3 months away (eeek!) so I need to figure things out STAT and get working on them if I want to bring doll Vanora and Faolán with me...which I do because I think they said there’d be a photo booth and my camera and photo skills are not great ><

Plans (and some sketches) under the read more because I am mostly babbling for my own reference lol

I ordered custom bodies for both of them from Resinsoul last month, and I think they should be here at the end of this month-ish, which works because I have the last week of December and first of January off of work, and work remotely until mid-January to boot. I am extremely nervous about how well the bodies will work, especially the Cen body I ordered for Faolán, but making a doll shorter seems more intimidating than making one taller or faking bulk with careful clothing construction, so I went with that instead of ordering the bigger boy body that might have suited better. I may eat my optimism about this plan later on. I am slightly less worried about the custom body for Vanora because a) they’re modifying the neck to suit the head I have b) there’s not another option available really anyway c) I know they’ve done the modification (making a female muscular body from one of the boy bodies) before with their ¼ scale dolls. I may cry however if they end up redoing their 1/3 girl body in the wave of new bodies they’ve been doing lately xD The new ¼ bodies have been really pretty! I will, however, roll with the current 1/3 scale because that’s what I have lol

I also need to get over my fear of messing up with the airbrush so I can color match Vanora’s head to the body >< I ordered the body in Resinsoul’s sky blue, since that feels like it will be easier to match the head to the body instead of trying to do a custom color and potentially needing to fudge both to make them look like they match. That’s my other worry about the Cen body. Finding a color match for milktea rose is difficult, and finding swatches even on Switch’s site was hard. I found one that sort of matches some of the pictures I took and a corresponding Pantone number, but color matching is never 100% guaranteed. I may need to do a lot of blushing to make it work or it could be a disaster (in which case I will probably cry in frustration tbh. Any other body I could get for him is significantly more expensive and too tall/ bulky. I’d have to try to sell this one and then order probably a dfh 65cm boy, since I think they can color match MTR, but there’s no way it’d arrive on time and the muscles bother me. Luts SSDF has a slim boy body, but it’s even more expensive, and they don’t color match, though I heard their Bronco resin color is close. In an ideal world, Vings 68cm body would be available in 64-65 cm and not 700 bucks but, alas. This is not that world).

Reason #2 to stop being afraid of the airbrush: faceups and sealant. I live in one of the states that manages to always either have too high a humidity or too cold temperature (or somehow, both) for finicky MSC. I have Army painter air matte varnish and have heard good things about it, and I know their paints work really well, for minis at the very least. But sealing the faces to do the faceups requires figuring out the airbrush and I’ve currently built up a huge block around that because I’m afraid of messing up (see also: imaginary comments from my therapist. This poor woman has had to hear about my odd hobbies and my apparently connected fear of failure so much lmao. I’m working on it.)

I have sketches for both of their outfits already done, and thankfully they’re fairly simple. I ALSO managed to behave and go through my fabric stash before I went to panic buy fabric at the fabric store near me that’s closing, and I pretty much have everything I’ll need already, save for a shade of dye or two, which I can get easily enough at Michael’s with a coupon and educator’s discount (win for me!) (Faolán's sketch is decentish but my god was drawing it a struggle. For Vanora, I have a base I made that I trace for each outfit I want to design for her, but doing the same for him just would NOT work no matter what. I ended up having to print it out lightly and draw over it that way and I’m still not entirely pleased with it. He is frustratingly difficult to draw the way I want! I guess that’s what I get for making him suffer lol)

I’m going to start with the clothes first. Or at least Faolán's, because I think the measurements are similar enough to the Loongsoul 62cm boy body that I can use it to test them. I need to dye some fabric first, so I will work on that this weekend/ next week. Thankfully his style is practical, flowy, and “artfully worn,” so it can look a little grungy or over sized and suit his personality. I’ll have to guesstimate for Vanora’s pants and drape the top once she gets here. Her pants are wrap pants, so they’ll be adjustable in the waist. Her top is decidedly less forgiving, but draping is my preferred pattern making method anyway. Just not sure what the bust is going to be like until the bodies get here. Resinsoul busts on their 1/3 girls are uh...very perky let’s just say xD

I do want to make formal outfits for them too, because that whole sequence in our campaign continues to hurt my feelings, but I can do that later on and don’t need to have it for the con. I do however, need to figure out shoes for them, which is apparently impossible because no one makes doll sandals it seems. I’ve found a couple, but I’m not sure if the size will work, so I think I may have to make some. RIP to me and both of them because they’re probably going to look janky.

I have a wig for Faolán already, and one for Vanora as well, but I need to dye and style it. Dyeing it I’m not too worried about, but I don’t know if I’ll be able to style it “correctly.” She may just have to have her hair down :/

I need to figure out eyes for both of them and should probably just order the ones I’ve been looking at for Vanora like...yesterday. Faolán has hazel eyes and finding ones that match what I was picturing has proven as difficult as finding sandals. I started making some but I need to finish them and hope they look ok. I might buy some at the con if I find ones there that I like. I did start making some for Vanora too, but Dolly Planet has some that I think would be really fun for her.

I’m planning on going light for accessories for them so that there’s fewer things to risk losing, so while I do want to make Vanora’s sword and a healer’s kit for Faolán at some point, I’m not going to worry about that until later (who knows, maybe I’ll find some cool things at the con I could use for those!). Vanora however needs her bracelet. It is an absolute necessity; she never goes anywhere without it! I found these 3d nail art stickers that I’m going to try to use to make the charm. Thankfully it looks like there’s 2 of each design, so I’ll stick them together, with a loop of wire or thread to act as a bail, and maybe use some putty to hide the seam and add stability before painting it to look like wood.

Their earrings should be easy enough, since I have wire and jewelry findings and seed beads here. I do think I may need to either remember how to make friendship bracelets or rig up a tiny tablet weaving loom for Faolán's belt though xD Which I should’ve thought of sooner. RIP me part deux. I have a bunch of embroidery floss though so either way I can figure that out.

The other part that I need to figure out is his tattoos. And I have no idea how to do that. I need to sketch them out still to have some kind of plan. But drawing/ painting them on is going to take a lot of time, and I’m not sure if I’ll be able to find and tweak decals to suit how I want in time. I may have to accept that I won’t be able to have this done in time, but I don’t like it. I am now kicking past me for going “yeah tattoos are cool, let’s give him a half sleeve and neck-piece in lore and never figure it out beyond ‘plants’.”

Likely overestimating my time/ motivation/ energy would also include making a bag to carry them around in. But I’m still going to write it down here anyway. I have some vinyl so I could make it kind of like an ita bag. But I’d need to make the pattern, and figuring out yardage and supplies is not really my strong point for something like this. I’m pretty sure I have zipper tape and fabric that could work around here though, in my hoard. It doesn’t need to be too fancy, just sturdy and padded enough with something to keep the dolls in place. And backpack style so my hands can be free while I’m walking around. I also need to get a new suitcase before the con because the one we have is from 2006 and beaten to all shit ><