#i can’t carry it anymore
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#ya Allah please help me#you don’t burden a soul more than it can bear#i can’t carry it anymore#there’s no one to help me except you#i have no one to look forward to#i have no one to rely on#I’m not complaining#you gave me this life and its all in your hands#its in your hands to make me suffer or make me prosper#make me happy or sad#make me laugh or cry#make me live or take my life#i submit to your will
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“when Dick Grayson becomes a detective in Blüdhaven, it takes time to adjust to not being able to break the laws to get evidence or confessions” versus the far superior “when Dick Grayson becomes a detective in Blüdhaven, it takes time to adjust to the fact that all of his coworkers are horribly incompetent when it comes to obtaining and preserving evidence and it turns out all of Bruce’s anal retentiveness about crime scenes, chain of custody for evidence, and contamination was actually for a very good reason and puts Batman 10-20 years ahead of any modern police department”
#dick grayson#nightwing#Jason: oh haha you can’t dangle people off roofs for confessions anymore#dick close to tears: I saw Derek pick up a gun from a crime scene today with his bare hands and carry it around all afternoon#Jason: yikes dude#dick: I KNOW#batman#bruce wayne#dc#thoughts
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they say ‘to be loved is to be changed’ but is it true love if you’re wilted and worn because I loved you too much despite knowing soon you’ll leave me? Or is it true love if I wanna lock you away forever to keep you in that state because I wouldn’t be able to accept that one day you won’t be here anymore
#[skye’s lost tapes • 📼]#just a girl with her beloved crocs#this is about my beloved crocs#I love my fk crocs so much#I hadn’t noticed until another person who was wearing the same crocs as me but hers were still new but mine are worn but still sturdy#and I couldn’t help but dread the day that some day my beloved crocs wouldn’t be here to cradle my feet—#—as I venture out into this scary world anymore#I know I’ll get over it in like a day but I just can’t help it; I love my fucking shoes#it has these cute charms on it with the perfect colors of white and orange that I find lovely#I wonder if I should lock it away in the closet to never use it again so it wouldn’t get more tattered#but is it truly alright if I do that? what would it think of me if it had sentient?#oh believe me my beloved crocs when I say I’ve tried with other shoes; they’re all lovely in their own ways but they can’t be you#it’s been five years since we’ve met; you were just supposed to be another shoes; specifically my mother’s but she didn’t treat you right#five years of irreplaceable memories; when you carried me to places that I’d never thought I’d have the courage to#when you accompanied me thru bad and good times; you were always there; how can I simply just choose another when you’re perfect#except time wasn’t always merciful; someday I won’t remember you anymore and I’ll move on#but know this that you’re the reason of why I am the person that I am today; bc you believed and supported me thru all#I love you my beloved crocs
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Currently trying not to vomit over the fact that I essentially just lost almost a thousand dollars brb
#why me. why is it always fucking me am I just not allowed to have good things WHAT have I done to earn this kinda karma#my stupid fucking idiot roommate decided to resign the lease at the complex so I naturally contacted the landlords like hey. how does that#work with the security deposit cuz I paid that years before she even moved in do you guys need to come inspect the place after I leave#and they were like oh no ☺️ it just carries over to her. and I’m like. so. so even though I am not living here nor am on the lease#whether or not I get NINE HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS BACK hinges on this JACKASS not wrecking the place???? actually not even then because say#she DOESNT wreck the place when she moves out TURNS OUT the deposit goes to her cuz it’s her name and account attached to the fucking#apartment and I’m just left sitting here like how. how is that fucking fair how does that make fucking sense I have to trust that she doesnt#ruin the place OR GET FUCKING EVICTED BECAUSE SHE HAS NO JOB AND NO WAY TO PAY RENT and then also trust her to just give it to me when she#moves out. I’m actually sick I’m actually gonna fucking throw up and the landlords were like yes exactly ☺️ perhaps you could work something#out with her and she could buy you out of it and I’m just like. she doesn’t have a job she still hasn’t paid me for LAST months utilities#let alone this months do you HONESTLY THINK she is EVER going to pay me the 900 dollars I’m fucking owed#and it’s like does this actually affect anything? no. I didn’t budget with that money cuz I didn’t actively have it and that’s not smart but#like…. 900 dollars….. I could have paid off the rest of my credit card with that and also it’s just infuriating that that money is basically#just being GIVEN to this fucking bitch who I KNOW is not gonna keep that apartment in good shape and that’s again if she somehow doesn’t get#her ass evicted cuz she’s not paying bills why they even LET her sign her own lease there I do not understand she literally has no proof of#income but ig they probably didn’t check that cuz she technically already lived there I’m just so. I’m so tired and I’m so done can I PLEASE#stop being the one who constantly gets screwed fucking over in EVERY situation no matter fucking what#while all these fucking idiots and shitty fucking ppl get whatever they want and actively BENEFIT from me getting fucked over???? I’m done.#I’m so fucking done I am never living with someone ever again never being finanacially tied to anyone fucking again and you know what. thats#great goes well with me basically being convinced atp to never be vulnerable with anyone ever again and never trust anyone ever again and#never dedicate ANY part of my life in a genuine sense to anyone ever again I will be fucking alone in every sense for THE REST of my fucking#life and that’s that. it’ll be better. this kinda shit will stop happening. financially emotionally psychologically I will stop suffering#because holy fucking shit I can’t do it anymore man I’m sick of it I’m sick of trying to be a good person and depend on people and be#vulnerable and always uphold my side of the responsibilities and arrangements just to get fucking spit on like man if this is what being a#shit person gets ppl maybe I should try because they sure seem to get all the benefits and whatever the hell they want consistently and#always while I try and be considerate of others and devote myselves to them and this is all I fucking get for it#and ik I KNOW this is just the straw on the camels back and this is a lot of issues compounding and it’s not even about the money atp#but I’m just. I’m so fucking sick and tired and beaten down and I’m tired of trying I just want to be completely on my own#so at least if bad things happen or I feel like shit I only have myself to blame and it’s safer that way and I’ll have to stop feeling like#this and dealing with these types of things UGH
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You know when you read a piece of fiction - book, short story, fanfic, what have you - and there’s just one tiny detail that just takes you completely out of the story?
I just read a passage in a piece of original fiction where the main character hugs a friend and tells us she smells like the ‘delicate rose and jasmine of her familiar Chanel No 5’ and my brain just screeched to a halt. Tell me you googled ‘famous fancy perfume’ and picked the first two scent notes you saw without telling me. Many things can be said about that particular fragrance I don’t think anybody with a working nose would describe it as ‘delicate florals’.
#cecil blogs her life#btw it wasn’t in English and I’m not gonna call them out anymore than necessary six#also!! I know I dnf but I glanced through the rest of it and this character seems to be a bog standard ‘supportive friend’ character#who’s also described as being a kind of carefree gentle spirit. who wears cn5???#im sure that there are young women who still wear cn5 but it’s really not common and w that personality?? she should be the main character#certain fragrances carry specific cultural and social codes and connotations#cn5 is a classic ‘rich old woman’ scent. a lot of people associate it with older female relatives wearing it at special occasions#you can’t just name drop it on a cottagecore girlie and run that’s not how fiction works#added: plus scents are such strong and often under-utilised descriptors! everybody knows that feeling where you smell smth and suddenly#you’re transported somewhere else in your memory#telling us that her perfume smelled like delicate roses etc is nice - actually namedropping such a famous fragrance (that is also#incongruent with the description you just gave) is bonkers to me
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something something something about baz feeling so othered in his life due to both his vampirism and sexuality and how he struggled to connect to people not only because he’s afraid for his life or judgment but also because he doesnt know how to relate to life itself since it’s something so divorced from his reality he can only long and wish and how everything about him is just wishing and hoping and grieving since he was a kid up until he finally connected with simon
#would also like to say something about how he doesn’t know how to be truly honest about his feelings since he always think of them as a#very passing thing#saddening#carry on#baz pitch#txt#simon snow#snowbaz#wayward son#awtwb#😞#listen he is my baby i talk about him quite often in my head#i was rereading the first book while listening to evermore by tay and#when i hit this part tay sang if I can’t relate to you anymore then who am i related to#which is fitting
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the annoying thing about having a sewing machine but it’s buried in the basement is i have a sewing machine but it’s buried in the basement. you can’t use something that’s buried in the basement
#thinking about how if asos doesn’t carry my favorite brand of jeans anymore & i can’t buy them directly from the brand (don’t ship to us)#then i need to really repair the ones i already have. if only i had a sewing machine#also if only i had the studio space at work that my boss promised me a year and a half ago. lol. you know what i would put in there?#sewing machine.#anyway i guess i could ask my roommate if i could use her machine#or god forbid PAY to go to studio time at the fabric store.#chatpost
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chat i am NOT appreciating the stares i got from walking across campus to cvs in my hoodie and sweatpants as if we didn’t just sit through ANOTHER hurricane like chill man i didn’t sleep well let me get my monster to finish my logic homework in peace 😭
#spent all night having not quite nightmares not quite stress dreams#periodically woken up by storm noises (sleeping with your back to a window during a hurricane when you get shellshock from loud storm noises#- is NOT a fun experience i would not recommend)#and THEN getting woken up at 5 am by an emergency alert warning about flash floods until like 11:45 when i have a 10 am class that morning 🙃#luckily my professor cancelled class for that (and my other class was cancelled for it to)#but tbh i was NOT gonna walk 7 minutes to the second farthest building on campus through that either way#i was just gonna send him a pdf of my homework and say ‘i’m not walking through a flash flood for this class sorry 😭’#also my school didn’t do shit for this?? they’ve been sending us emails all week about dangerous weather#but made SURE to add in all caps in every one that classes and stuff will go on as normal#cofc doesn’t stop until we’re dead i guess what the fuck 😭#scratch that i mean everything’s as normal except half of our dining halls are closed. so i have to walk 7 minutes out for food anyway 🙃#BECAUSE MY SNACK STASH IS DEPLETED BECAUSE ITS BEEN JANKY ALL WEEK 🙃🙃🙃#what was this post about again??#WAIT AND THEN THE NORMAL ‘AROUND CAMPUS’ ROUTE I TAKE TO MY HOUSE WAS CLOSED#SO I HAD TO GO THROUGH THE MAIN PART OF CAMPUS#IN MY HOODIE & SWEATS & CARRYING MY MONSTER & POP TARTS#WHILE THERE WERE LIKE THREE TOUR GROUPS STANDING THERE I WANNA DIEEEEEE#wait i can’t say that anymore. uhhh hold on let me find the list. ummm. ‘i’m gonna start a scam company’ there we go.#grace being stupid#text post#personal
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i’m so excited for part two, i’m skipping all the way to end to see masali like idc about anything else! and i have no doubt in my mind that she’s sophie, you can tell her and luke are a perfect chemistry match without even seeing them together like i need this fandom to be fr…. also i expect her role announcement and a season 4 benedict season announcement by 9AM EST from netflix!
Quite frankly it’s because of how disgustingly anti-Black these “leakers” have been that is keeping me from believing them. The ring leaders behind this have either outright said they don’t want Sophie to be Black or have weaponized homophobia and in some cases racism(which is ironic given these people are racist pieces of shit) to silence Black women when we call them out for them ignoring the obvious signs that they have cast a Black woman in the role of Sophie Beckett(and that woman is likely Masali) and how problematic it would be to cast a dark skinned Black woman in a masculine role.
And yes, I do have screenshots in case anybody thinks I’m fucking exaggerating:
Lets start with anyyyyb. She’s deleted her account, but this is the one with the Irish journalist “source”(lie because no journalist had access to those episodes on May 16th when she posted her “spoilers”). Despite that though she claimed that Michaela was John’s sister(lie cause John is a confirmed only child) and that she didn’t know who Masali is. Which was another lie because she wrote this under my mutals post almost a month before part 1 even aired:

I’m pretty sure that she was Cass the morons “source” because anyyyyb was the first of the new “leakers” who mentioned the sister thing and Cass self-admitted to not knowing if her source is credible or not:

This same woman dared to get pissy when she was called out for blatantly lying(sister thing) and spreading shit that hasn’t and will never be confirmed which caused Masali to be unnecessarily attacked:

Cass has independently been trying to push the Michaela “theory”(which is a name made up by the fandom) for a while now because her dumb ass thinks all Black people look alike:

Mind you the woman in the carriage is a crew member(Shanika Ocean) who doesn’t even have the same skin tone as Masali(she’s lighter), Masali also has never been seen on set, but Cass the moron thinks they are the same woman because they are both Black.
And if that’s not enough for you she also wrote this when people were calling her ignorant behind out to try and save face:

The other Tumblr account that claims to have a Netflix employee camped in their inbox willing to feed them info and risk losing their job in today’s economy to do so, is a racist and a colorist who has been against Sophie Beckett being Black since September at the least. She tried to play it cool, but the day part 1 came out she started spazzing the fuck out when people didn’t automatically believe her lies I mean leaks, and said this:

She like anyyyyb has been pushing for an Asian woman to play Sophie which is okay, but when you start saying there are “too many Black people” on a show produced by a Black woman, that she needs to stop casting Black people, and that is why Sophie “can’t be Black” you have lost your fucking mind.

Bitch doesn't think its okay for a Black woman to play Cinderella who gets her prince in the end, but she's a okay with a Black woman playing a role meant for a man where shell have to chase after a while woman and will not be afforded the fairytale happy ending every other woman. Sure Jan, you definitely care about Black women 👍🏽
Again, if that wasn't enough, she’s a fucking colorist because in her racist mind, Indians aren't Asian 🤷🏽♀️

Her ass has also tried to use a variation of all Black people look alike just like Cass the fucking Moron to connect Masali to Victor Ali ever since she learned who Masali was back in December/January.
(If she hasn’t deleted it yet like the goofy ass remedial bitch she is it should still be up on her little hate blog).
I could say way more about this one and leak her twitter and her other tumblr(which I know she’ll try to crawl back to once she’s fucking called out for what she is), and there are also the twitter people who I’m sure are feeding “intel” to Cass and both tumblr accounts meanwhile their alleged “source” hasn’t seen all the episodes, but I’ll it there for now.
All I’ll say is that these “rumors” are being fueled by butthurt anti-Black racists who have never wanted Masali to be Sophie and the fandom is so gung-ho about believing these cave dwellers because they too are racist pieces of shit.
Why they are watching a Shonda Rhimes production and begging her to stop casting Black people, her own people, in lead roles I will never know….
Because I’m not a fucking butterface racist ass bitch who has nothing better to do with my life than to try and tear another race down and dictate what they do just to feel better about my pathetic existence.
The fact of the matter is no one has posted shit other than anonymous messages or claiming they know someone or they know someone who knows someone. The fact that these people can’t post a still or audio recording yet they all supposedly have evidence and have seen shit…
#bnask#bnasks#bridgerton fandom misogynoir#if this is incoherent it’s because I started writing this at 2 AM and don’t really give a damn anymore#I’m excited for this all to be over cause I’m exhausted#I got carried away and yes I can’t wait until masali is announced as Sophie Beckett
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the adventures of Lake and his sister, Grandma
#grandma was adopted by a close friend of my husband and I#so they won’t be living together but we’ll see her for puppy play dates :3#lake is getting big. he’s heavy enough at this point I can’t just one hand carry him around anymore.#puppyposting
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#hyunjin#skz#insta#when i peacefully walk down the stairs and trip on the hattifattener laying on them#broke my ankle and suddenly can’t get up anymore looks like he needs to carry me now
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not to be an american but i do fuckijg hate the kansas city chiefs
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#meg talks#feeling really down and frustrated#ever since i caught covid over the new year ive just been doing so badly#it’s now halfway through may and not only am i having all sorts of weird new pain problems#to the point where i dragged myself to the er yesterday bc my usual meds didn’t do shit for me and i spent seven hours writhing in pain#but also mentally im just. constantly tapped out#before covid i was able to keep up w news and work on research projects and write multiple image descriptions every day and read books#and keep up w friends all while working full time#like even if i was in bed p much whenever i wasn’t at work i could still read and write and carry conversations#now it’s like i can only handle all of these things in small doses before my brain just shuts off#im still keeping up w news and describing what i can and working on my research projects and trying to make connections#but i feel so slow abt everything i do#it’s driving me up the wall#ive been trying for days to get through this one academic paper that’s rlly not even that long#and i just can’t do it. not for long anyway i have to read in small bursts#and then having to take muscle relaxants for these fucking spasms that make me really drowsy and sleep the whole day away…#idk. it might not even be abt covid i might be reading too much into it but it’s just pissing me off. thinking abt how nobody masks anymore#and how every time there’s a covid outbreak i won’t be able to properly protect myself or my brothers from it#bc of this fuckass job#idk im just tired and upset
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not being the allegations
#my package of my favorite noodles that arent being sold near me anymore came and i can’t get over it im like carrying it around#sometjing is wrong with me why am i giddy#unimportant rambling
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quite trippy having conversations with my mom, or in this case a mild argument, where she runs herself in circles sounding like one of those maga people being interviewed that think trump is secretly jesus. like, she personally doesn’t believe that, but she’s pretty damn close. she once told me not to call her stupid (I hadn’t even implied it) because she was “more than capable of looking into things for herself”, because I said she only gets her news from newsmax and coincidentally believes everything they say. she got real mad about it. just this morning she proved me right again, repeating everything newsmax hosts have said like it’s fact, calling me “brain washed” because I told her she needs to look up shit instead of just believing it. imagine being so far gone you think being told to investigate claims made to you is proof of brain washing.
#g talks#she truly does remind me of one of those crazy maga people being interviewed#she’s a damn fool and my dad is just watching it happen#yeah he’s maga too but WAY less than her#she’s watching that shit 24/7 now#carrying it with her from room to room on her phone#I can’t take this anymore#mine#/mobile#/okay to reblog
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So are any of you bumfucks on this godforsaken app gonna talk about how Brazil (Declan McKenna) was written By and For Ronan Lynch or am I gonna have to do it myself let’s do this bitches
Fair warning I’m sorta really bad at analysis according to every English teacher I’ve ever had so this is a lot of me freaking out but I think it turned out ok (this took half a year)

Starting off strong with Cars and Animals (Ronan’s favourite) !! Anyway the vibe I’m getting from this is like. The barns and then the He’s got eyes talks like an angel looks like me part is about the like. Greywaren vs Ronan Lynch dream vs human stuff we see in Greywaren (not super spoilery but it kinda doesn’t make sense unless u read the book lmao)

I could write a whole second post as long as this one just about this line but let me unpack this because ohhh my god. First up the use of religion is so perfect for mister Lynch over here and then. IM THE FACE OF GOD IM MY FATHERS SON IS INSANE FOR HIM IM GOING SO FERAL OVER THIS HE LITERALLY IS GOD AND HES HIS FATHERS SON (“and Ronan was everything that was left: molten eyes and a smile made for war” and also The Scene in TRK where Adam goes into Ronan’s room and thinks Niall is sitting on the bed) THIS IS CANON

He’s Not what u think u see he looks so mean but he just wants his little farm and for his husband to get into heaven when he dies (he’s worried about his agnostic tendencies) jk but this is 100% ab stereotypes and how Ronan doesn’t rly fit into what anyone thinks he is (the whole thing about Adam wanting to be unknowable and realizing Ronan Is Unknowable [poetry chefs kiss])
Can’t eat leather is so self explanatory. The bracelets are RIGHT THERE you can’t fool me Mr mckenna

I’m done. I’m done. I don’t even need to keep explaining this it’s RIGHT THERE AGH

And onto the ecoterrorism
I’m kidding (not really) bc this part always makes me think of literally the Entire Plot of TDT when Ronan is going around destroying capitalism to save dreamers. This IS the servers scene and the underwater pipeline and the Mirrors lady and also the way all of TDT is about self discovery and learning who you are and how to deal with that in a society made to destroy you and how isolating and sad that is (it gets him down 😞) and I can KEEP GOING
And just the way the song is so melancholy and also happy at once hits me so hard cause it feels like what the Barns does when you read the book like it SOUNDS like something Aurora would sing to kid Ronan it’s so homey and sweet but also sad and perfect
And obviously I don’t go through the whole song here but I feel that I’ve made my case sufficiently enough thanks for reading this far I love u mwah
#this has been in my drafts for over 6 months#it’s finally here#I don’t even really listen to this song anymore but it hit just the same when I was listening to it to finish this post#also just fyi you can’t disagree with me. I am right and I will die knowing that#I’m going to reread the series now I miss my Boy#also insert joke about Declan Mckenna and Declan Lynch ok I’m done#this is a little late for his birthday but it’s close enough#HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE ONE AND ONLY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH#Carried my life from ages 12-15 and will do so forever#this is so niche I genuinely have lost it#I miss them#ronan lynch#ronan trc#adam parrish#adam and ronan#richard gansey#gansey#richard campbell gansey iii#blue sargent#declan lynch#matthew lynch#the lynch brothers#the raven cycle#the dreamer trilogy#the raven boys#the dream thieves#blue lily lily blue#the raven king#declan mckenna#Brazil Declan mckenna
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