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soichirosgayson · 2 years ago

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Just some Light thoughts (pun)

personally I don’t like the idea of Light being controlled by the death note or somehow just forced into committing all the atrocities he did.

i fell in love with death note and Light bc of the fact he was the perfect son/student who managed to become a villain, and like it wasn’t a completely ridiculous leap. we see very little of preKira!Light or Yotsuba!Light even, but we definitely see the fact he is isolated from his peers (superiority complex?), he justifies everything he does and he does seem to have a childish notion of justice

some HCs i personally have about his upbringing is that whilst his parents weren’t abusive, they embodied the typical toxicity stemming from asian cultures (source: i am also the asian firstborn in my family) like his parents disregarding his feelings, soichiro trying to model his son after himself, expect perfect grades, expecting him to have the perfect nuclear family to carry on the family name or some BS. trust me personally, that is a lot of pressure that u do become a control-freak; its really not that unbelievable to see Light become a villain

everything about Light after Kira was always there, but continuing to write in or leaving the death note was his crossroads and he made his choice

L thing is that’s what makes death note amazing to me?? bc we have a lot of characters who don’t do the right/wrong thing “just because”, but because they have their own selfish reason for doing so. like even L the hero/antagonist isn’t the world’s greatest detective bc he’s altruistic, he does it bc it challenges him

upon my first reading of death note, i struggled initially to comprehend why Kira was wrong. then i thought about it, and the first idea that came to me was that even if you have justification for killing, then you always would’ve been okay with killing (unless ofc in specific situations). take Light for example, ppl think Yotsuba!Light is OOC but i just think that Kira!Light was Yotsuba!Light with a complete disregard for what society thought was acceptable; ergo he didn’t repress his ‘undesirable traits’ like his superiority complex or the dark thoughts he’d get. he is uninhibited. for Light, being Kira isn’t about killing; we see from the first few chapters that he actually loses weight and pukes the first time with Shibuimaru, so no, it’s not about the act. but it is still about power. to me, being Kira was about taking control when he had very little in his own life, plus he was bored and bc if anyone could, it would be him. No one else could ‘handle’ it like him

i also prefer the manga ending for Light over the anime ending. Light, especially at that point, would’ve never regretted anything. he has the superiority complex of a god to the point that he refuses to be wrong. i acc HC that Light also doesn’t completely plan everything to a tee (although he is very smart still), but when things go wrong, he adapts and takes advantage of it and still says “everything is going according to plan”. it is acc so beautiful/poignant/powerful/poetic to me that this guy, with a superiority complex so big he kills off a hundred thousand+ people, ends up in MU; a place where everyone is equal no matter what

for me, personally (u can disagree tho), Light becomes rlly boring if his actions are justified or redeemed. most of the characters in DN actually become rlly boring to me if they’re completely shown to be good/bad

#light yagami #dn #death note #just random thoughts ignore me if this is stupid #i just really love Light #it might seem like im a Light anti in this post but he’s actually my favourite dn character #i just dont think u can enjoy a character/piece of work if u cant be critical about it #anime #manga #i also HC him as undiagnosed autistic lol #i have too many thoughts about Light Yagami #i think abt him so much bc as someone recently diagnosed w autism who masks to a ridiculous level #i can see myself in light #pls im not that toxic believe me but if u cant see urself in a villian/character theyre not that well written imo #im highly opinionated so forgive me if u dont agree #but im also sensitive so dont be mean>:(#im at work rn also so this is all rlly poorly constructed #actual post by me

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butchfalin · 1 year ago

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the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours?#also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that!#unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

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hinamie · 23 days ago

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oversaturate

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuji itadori #itadori yuuji #jjk yuuji #been trying some stuff out in an attempt to beat the artblock out of myself with hammers #and i LOVE how it looks but god it takes so long painting like this #i had a ref style i was going for that was a lot more washed out and watercoloury #and to be fair my take on it did start out looking more adjacent to that #u can still kinda see remnants of the initial watercolour washes in the collar of yuuji's jacket in th bottom one #but it Did Not Last fhdjfjjg what can i say im a gouache/oils gal #i can't use soft greys and watery inks i need stark blacks i need the reddest red the colour wheel will provide #one thing i did keep from the refs were the sharp prickly fine lines i think those look real cool against textured colour blocks #anyway ive also been having a lot of fun playing with rly rly harsh lighting on the hair #and even thinner linework put down after the colour as opposed to before #probably one of the reasons why it takes a lot longer but also it mimics traditional art a lot more #ill probably continue playing around with this sort of render ! or at least keep elements of it

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xxplastic-cubexx · 29 days ago

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cant stop thinkin bout charles and erik readin together on the couch but instead of reading with him charles is listening to eriks thoughts while he reads. Live mind commentary ……..

#xmen #cherik #charles xavier #erik lehnsherr #snap chats #the rare time i post an idea of mine only because i really cant think of a way id draw this #usually i hoard my ideas cause i like surprising you guys but this aint really one i feel like drawing so. For You my friends #like i COULD but. idk just isnt particularly something im itching to draw it just seems cute #but anyways no chat let me cook alright hear me out cause i talk in my brain all the time while i read #sometimes i stop reading just to think about a bit i read yeah #i want charles to listen in on all of eriks side comments or observations he makes while reading something #like if he wanted to charles could read the whole book in less than five minutes- maybe shorter than that #and that aint fun that aint cool …. so time for Audible: Husband Edition. With Commentary #ITD BE SO COZY just hangin out by the fireplace …. maybe its snowin outisde … if snow even exists anymore atp #a light fire cracklin and the study SEEMS totally quiet otherwise and yet…..#charles has been locked in to erik’s off-the-cuff literary analysis and mild comments for the past twenty minutes. its simple but its bliss #charles doesnt have to worry about being seen as invasive .. he doesnt have to suppress his powers …#the rare occasion erik lets charles into his mind for somethin so innocent .. ive made myself sick i fear #see now i wanna try writing a fic but 1.) have written in years 2.) id have to really think hard on how erik would commentate on a book #hm…… actually i do wonder what erik’s commentary on The Fable of the Bees would be …..#IN ANY CASE. maybe - at the very least- i can draw cherik by the fireplce someday ….#thatd be cute … hm …. depends on if i get in the mood for it down the line #anyways i have to drive back to my dorm !!! boo !!!! so good night everyone !!!!!

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ihatebrainstorm · 11 months ago

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First day back to skool, here’s some early morning lecture doodles courtesy of Aurora’s cursed transformer figures 👍 (Also she drew the first two drawings on the left in the first image)

(go see her cool art!: https://twitter.com/auroisa_yah?s=21&t=EXI579-Bh3o3bNjDPOJASQ )

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thefreshprinceofjunes · 7 months ago

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Do you remember before? We stood facing each other on opposite sides of that door. Now we stand side-by-side. Let's go home together this time.

#kingdom hearts #sora #riku #soriku #ddd #the hunchback of notre dame #gifs #ali's gifs #ali's kh gifs #i promise im alive ive just been dealing with mental health stuff (and spending less time on social media in general)#but i noticed this while editing ddd scenes for soriku comp 2.0 #and now im MAD at myself for not seeing it sooner bc its NOT IN MY DISNEY COUPLES PARALLELS VIDEO >:((((((#anyway wild that both of these shots happen in the same game huh #and the heights line up (riku is on the same side as phoebus and hes taller than sora)#(just like phoebus is taller than esmeralda)#no hand holding tho cuz SENA is homophobic /s #alternate caption: lyrics from chikai #'light flows in from the opened door/i want to stay by your side forever after this too/theres been no other choice for me since long ago'#also hey using tag bundles through xkit switched this back to the old post editor and i can use pre text again 8)

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ai-the-broccoli · 1 month ago

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light yagami is definitely not neurotypical, imo. I can understand conflicting arguments as to what exactly he has or doesn't have, but my belief that he definitely has some things at least is non-negotiable to me

#like I can see both it both ways as to whether he is autistic or allistic although I generally lean towards the former myself #but even if it's the latter he is still definitely not neurotypical regardless #(fyi. this is me speaking as someone who has most of the brain stuff that I believe he may have lol)#light yagami #death note #i (ai)

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year ago

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Lights out! Poppy: Ahh I had such a refreshing na- Why is Sally glowing?

LMFAO YEAH. pretty much how it goes...

#this was the First meme to pop into my mind upon reading this ask #also heyyyyy finally Seriously drew poppy - damage and all!#to that one person who wanted to see her! here she is!!!#but ohhhh man oh man have i been having Popstar feelings pertaining to this au...#sally being completely inaccessible #like at least frank can go see eddie and sit with him if he wants. hold his Unconscious Hand.#but poppy can't go anywhere near her shining star....#also sally becoming something poppy should be terrified of but. but poppy being unable to be afraid #like. nightlight!sally being the One Thing poppy can't muster up any fear of #scribble salad #wh lights out au #rambles from the bog #the PINING poppy experiences in this au... yeah #ough and them in act two???? yall-#the lesbianisms.... the Tenderness.... the Understanding....#without poppy i can say confidently that sally would Not make it to act three or four #oh god now im thinking about act two and im making myself sad OKAY POST OVER THANK YOU BYE

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rileys-battlecats · 2 months ago

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girl help I started writing down oc thoughts and have started contemplating the logistics of how a city carved into the walls of a ravine would have access to fresh water

#rye.txt #MaVst #'you should do some worldbuilding' I said to myself #'it'll be easy' i said #'just write down the little thoughts you've had floating around'#I AM A FOOL #there are so many bullet points in this fuckign document #and they're all devoted to the minutiae of how the city I have in my mind would function #how the very terrain would influence the culture #couldn't just do a normal city on flat terrain noooo I had to include homes carved into rock #anyway im pretending im upset but this is so much fun #I loveee getting to think about how tiny details all affect each other and influence the greater whole #it's like problem solving but I get to make the solutions as fun and fantastical as I want #if my ocs are my silly little dolls to play pretend with #then the worldbuilding is like getting to build the doll house #which is just as fun imo #anyway im gonna give the capital city an abandoned under-city that's no longer habitable now that the original royal family is #no longer in power #it used to be lit with the light magic of the ruler that was amplified by the crown #but now it's almost impossible to navigate and so big that your torch is liable to burn out before you can explore much at all #and without a light source it's completely pitch black darkness #<- see stuff like this is so fun to think about and I can just slap it onto my world because it's cool

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marsbotz · 3 months ago

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whats ur fucking deal

#GGGRRRRRRGRRRR GGRGAGGHHH #despicable me #maxime le mal #felonious gru #gruxime #spread the word.#pre transition maxime if anyone gaffffffff #realising i can just draw shit and not have to explain myself or provide full context. awesome (provides anyway)#non descript minion. i like the idea that they go to school w gru in like shifts each week #maxime has a cokcroach ☝️ on his shoulder #they look so fucking stupid next to each other i cant get them to look normal. sorry gru ur built so weird #i need to do more kinda doodly stuff and not alwayssss full pieces #this uniform is pretty cute btw but strange that the trousers and skirt colours r different?#i mean actually. my school did that at one point but its still odd to me #btwwwwww design notes.#was torn abt giving gru his scarf but i thought it wld clash too much. for me i feel the tie serves the same purpose #looking at the One scene we see the uniform it seems the dress code is… not soooo tight? but this is also 30/40 yrs prior soooo idk #(also yeah debatably the uniform wld have been different. but fuckkkk that shit)#forrrrr maxime i like to think his glasses r like actually prescription but he uses tinted ones bc 1. he saw nefario once and was like #‘FUCKKK THATS KINDA CRAZY COOL’ and stole the idea #and also 2. he is light sensitiveeeeeee. :3 #gloves r again mostly cus of sensory issues but also this kinda body dysmorphia thing he has going on #samew the socks.#was considering tights buttttt i didnt see any of the students wearing them and also booooo tights suck. so just knee length socks #so he can get around dress code andddd still cover up more #plusssss it lets him not have to shave his legs :T #shoes i didnt see any pattern i assume u can just wear whatever lollll #i give him a hairclip toooooo just cus theyre cute. and put some greeeeen in itttt #btw drew the minion w the gay flag then realised it wldnt make sense w maxime being pre transition but #i think its funnier to imply the minion just sees right thru him immediately

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hballegro · 4 months ago

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the clock is here. all hail.

i forgot to turn antialiasing to the right settings with my pen so it is. the little numbers are chunky. thats life sometimes. just dont zoom in too hard. if i fix it, i wont make a new post abt it ill just edit it on to this one or something [and state that i did so in the post]

prev post with noclock version

and as promised here is also progress pics, harvested from when i sent screenshots to friends as i worked. as a bonus ive also included various layer names and the 5 different names the file went thru. the parts i [very lazily] painted over with dark blue had not been done yet, ergo anything with dark blue over it is just the picture itself so do not regard it

i will now be nice to myself and work on my fanfic and smaller drawings for a while. i will do eye posts sometimes still when i get a slow day and wanna do some peepers for 3 hours, i have collected many eyes [klinger, fr mulcahy, trapper, margaret, charles, hawkeye, bj. ive been busy stealing eyeballs to paint on. theyre all on one document its pretty funny]. i will be doing my best to force the cast into my style so i can do quick stuff.

i also WILL do more paintings of full shots again, but. fellas. ive done 3 back to back full paintings with no other digital art projects in between.

this has been NOT good planning lol

not sure if i should tag everything again so i will just. do so? idk i have not been on tumblr hardcore since like 2018 and have never regularly posted so idk proper etiquette. im gonna leave off characters for this one ig

#mash #mash 4077 #mash fanart #mash art #its me im back and i will now go to the countryside for my health for 5 months #nah but really my wrist is fine #i just strained it a lot from doing Too Much Art where my pressure needed to change and then the Hair twice and yeah #now i will go to bed at a reasonable time! [lie]#i forgot how much fun i had writing. rip #also when i decide to pick a big piece again im again welcome to suggestions #i prefer big emotions in the scene or specifically artistic shots #because certain ones can be funny or something but. i gotta stare at that for 20-30 hours #god this one was the worst because the lighting was so good. like u could SEE things #so i couldnt just 'teehee its all hidden' no you can see 100% of them 100% of the time #.my art #sorry to take up the mash tags again. i feel bad esp since its not a HUGE huge huge fanbase so i am diluting the waters more or something #or! i am lying to myself. to shame myself. equally likely.#anyway shoutout to fr mulcahy for giving almost the exact same kind of energy as my grunkle from ireland #its part of the reason i love him so much as a character. reminds me of family lol

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baronessblixen · 3 months ago

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I had an idea for a ficlet yesterday, but didn't get around to writing it. Today it's like, why bother? Who even cares? And I need to remind myself that *I* care. I was so excited about it, even if it's just a silly ficlet.

Always write the thing, even if only for yourself.

#personal #bad day at work can you tell haha #i should care whether i write or not #no one else #yeah i'm only mediocre even on good days but so what if it still brings me joy!#i hope my ficlet will see the light of day #needed to hold myself accountable and not just wallow in self-pity

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hinamie · 3 months ago

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