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This was meant to be a quick study. It did not end up being a quick study. Progress shots below the cut.
About an hour in vs about 2 hrs in I think?
#frame redraw#the lighting for this video makes me insane can you tell#im exhausted plz hit me with a car#vampires? kinda gay if you ask me#this took like 4 hrs fml#backing up that claim that i CAN actually draw (this is the first thing ive done in months)#alcohol markers r hard plz help#art#a little less sixteen candles a little more touch me#a little less 16 candles#fob#fall out boy
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Lineup of all of the characters that appear long enough to need a visual representation of them in the game lol
#I added a few people that you can randomly run into around town (like at the inn or in the forest or etc) and have very short conversations#with just to kind of flesh out the world a little more in a more natural-ish seeming way. Like nobody in the main cast would really#have much reason to talk about the actual city you're in or anything. Since most of them havent lived there that long anyway.#But if there's a ''city inspector'' that you can run into whilst he's writing up notes examining the local inn. then maybe there could be a#few dialogue options with him where you can ask about things like that. since he would know more about the area as an offical Government#Worker or etc. Optional of course. since I have to be so wary of my natural inclination to lore dump lol and am trying extra hard to make i#all stuff thats easily avoided/skipped. But for the people like ME who deliberately choose to exhaust every possible optional dialogue#option and explore every single inch of the world and try to collect as much information as possible - then there are a few extra places to#do that. Though obviously not all of them just give exposition for like 15 paragraphs blandly. Some you don't really learn anything from#and it's kind of just.. random flavor to make the non-shop map locations more ''lived in'' feeling. Like the random#little girl you can talk to in the park doesn't bizarrely start reading out the wikipedia description of some War that happened 10 years ag#or whatever. she's just complains about school a little and asks if you've tried the nearby ice cream cart treats and etc lol#ANYWAY..#some of the art is so so evil but I'm not going to spend 800 years trying to clean it up and update it. whatever the hell mess I sketched#out in 2018 or whatever is just what I'm keeping lol... it is what it is#One of the many trials of the whole 'briefly work a few months on something and then abandon it almost entirely only to pick up work#on it literally like 4 - 5 yrs later and now you must contend with trying to decipher whatever weird shit you did years ago' experience lol#Also given the population breakdowns of the world in general I think there's an unrealistic amount of jhevona in this lineup since#they're a much rarer species to just see out and about anywhere but.. it IS a global trading center type area. and the game#takes place in the north (the country of Asen. near the coast. for the maybe 2 or less people who actually keep up with my worldbuilding#enough to know where that is lol (the same continent as Navyete (where the avirre'thel live)) and there's a decent concentration#of nothern jhevona only a short ways away so... tee hee..I shall pretend it makes sense and not merely me just wanting#to represent more of that species because I think their lore is interesting lol#I MEAN also realistically there would NOT be a human here because humans are extremely isolated species that don't even know the rest#of the world exists really and human territories are extremely protected from the outside world but... of course it's like.. well we need#at least One of them to be there for the Optional Lore. Same with the Ythrili. But at least those are like.. PLAUSIBLE.. not nonsensically#outlandish. If I had a Verrucalt or something in there THEN that would be truly lore-breaking almost lol#ANYWAY.. rambling that only means anything to me because nobody else knows what I'm even referencing but hbjh#also I think my character designs are so funny in the sense that I really do just love to do the same thing over and over again ghbjh#wow... random asymmetry and belts and arm straps and high collars where the neck is completely covered?? you dont say..how novel
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Hey as a super introverted but not shy person I'd just like to say the jokes about extroverts "adopting" introverts to "get them out of their shell" are actually completely unfunny and it just goes to show how little respect a lot of y'all have for the fact that we genuinely don't want excessive social interaction and that y'all are forcing us to do something that brings us extreme physical and mental discomfort because you perceive our introversion as a failing rather than as purely a difference in personality.
We don't need your "help" to socialize. We're not children. We're simply not interested in spending every waking second of our lives talking to people and being talked at in return.
#again i scream from the rooftops that there is a monumental chasm between being shy and actually being an introvert#a shy person is someone who's afraid of social interaction. an extrovert can be naturally shy.#a shy person can WANT lots of social interaction but simply have not learned to feel comfortable in social situations.#people who are just very introverted simply have little desire or capacity for excessive human interaction.#we're not “afraid” of it. we just don't enjoy it and it wears us out.#you don't need to swoop in and save us because we can't handle ourselves. we're perfectly fine thank you#extroverts are constantly demanding that we get out of our comfort zones but few of you are willing to make the alternative more comfortabl#if you're a very extroverted person please do not take it upon yourself to jokingly “adopt” introverts you meet.#it's not funny and it's not helpful. it's irritating that you perceive our quietness and low social battery as something that needs “fixing#we won't miraculously learn to love and be comfortable with excessive human interaction. that's not how we're wired and that's OKAY#i'm honestly getting so sick of the “the lonely introvert and the extrovert who adopted them” memes#i can guarantee you that if you are an extrovert who operates this way then your introvert “friend” is actually probably very uncomfortable#and just don't want to say anything because they think it would be rude to bring up the fact that they don't want what you want from them#this does NOT mean extroverts and introverts cannot be friends nor am i saying all extroverts are annoying or that they all do this#i'm simply saying that if you are very extroverted and you have a friend who's very introverted#then it's on you to be aware of your introvert friend's limited social battery and STOP pressuring them to just “put up with it”#don't spend every second with them constantly talking. be willing to spend some time just in the quiet.#be willing to let them bow out of something if they're exhausted and are low on social energy.#don't expect them to want to come to every meeting or party or get-together because it WILL drain them completely.#be willing to let them spend time alone when they need to to recharge.#letting an introvert cool off and recharge when they need to is ALWAYS going to make social situations less stressful for them.#PLEAAAAASE take their feelings into account and understand that they do NOT perceive social interactions the way you do.#most very introverted people do not find socialization relaxing or invigorating. they don't do it to unwind#they have to unwind AFTER lots of social interaction#that's about it. thank you and good night
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one of the things that really cemented the internet's general toxicity for me is the minecraft community
most games u buy once and that's it. no fancy updates. no dlc, especially not free dlc. nothing. it's just whatever you paid for.
yet minecraft updates periodically with huge new features and people will still find ways to bitch about it? not even just bitch but be so dramatic acting like the game is horrible, the company is horrible, they put in zero effort to the updates and it's like ??????? most games NEVER update literally what are you on about. you are getting FREE updates to a game that's well over ten years old and you're going to shit talk the developers??? you're all going to jump on this bandwagon of hate while still actively playing and enjoying the game??? Why are you so set on being miserable.
#( 💭 faun thinks )#very similar can be said to the ts4 community altho less so because the game actively has many issues#but even then people parrot the exact same points that aren't even true more often than not#it's like you are DETERMINED to be miserable and it's frankly exhausting#i'm just here to have fun playing a game but instead every place u look it's someone new going on and on abt how the game sucks#like ??? don't play it then. u are aware u can simply not play it?#clearly if everything you have to say about the game is negative you should Stop Playing because it is not making you happy#there is a time and place for negatively but surely u understand how fucking Annoying it is when that's all ppl ever talk about#and also daring to say positive things makes people mad at u?? it's so weird.#someone on reddit said how they like ts4 and got a bunch of downvotes.#i know reddit is full of stupidity but Geez.#people's standards have become absolutely insane#i'd say it even borderlines on entitled tbh#like. it is what it is. you are creating a negative feedback loop when you fixate on every little thing u can possibly complain about.#of course you're going to think poorly of something when you are continuously seeking new things to complain about.#SIGH ok rant over
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#brain is being weird again. i miss the person i thought you were before i found out how truly truly horrible you are#but that person doesn’t exist! i never met them because they aren’t real!#i just wanna meet my person yk. like yeah i don’t want to be in a relationship bc that sounds exhausting but also#it wouldn’t be exhausting if it was my person. i wanna know someone. i wanna learn how someone works.#i wanna take care of someone and be taken care of without asking.#and like the thing is is i definitely have my people in my friends like i already have them in this way#and i appreciate that so so much which is why i won’t settle for anything less ever again and why i’m no longer actively seeking something#but i really do just miss clicking that well with someone right off the bat. and i know most of it was probably 1) me being lied to and 2)#me trying to make myself palatable for him#but i haven’t felt that truly blatantly appreciated in a long time#i just wish that fate would work a little faster at putting my person into my lap is all#i’m not even gonna say that it doesn’t have to be The Person i’ll end up with and can just be One Of the people along the way#because now that feels like settling and if the universe doesn’t want me to settle then i won’t#and i’m not trying to be impatient because i know that it’ll happen when it’s supposed to and i can’t force anything#i just want it to happen so badly. i want to have my cute love story. i want to have it last longer than a week. in a good way this time.#and i know i vent a lot about this in my tags but this time feels different#i just want what is supposed to happen to happen. and i want to feel comforted knowing that it will.#i just need a sign that it’s gonna happen someday so i don’t lose my mind waiting for it#that i’m in the right place. and i’m right where i’m supposed to be#idk. i just know i don’t deserve to feel alone anymore. especially when i know i’m not.#this feels like a prayer. maybe it is. whatever.#mari is irrelevant
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in my mind, we’re all just hanging out in a giant sandbox, digging holes and making sandcastles and parallel playing and just generally being weird and silly (affectionate) together
#i might be overtired. just a little#words r hard. u get what I mean#our brains r talking to one another. I’m not high I swear.#did someone already make a post like this??? i genuinely can’t remember for the life of me. if they did lmk so I can credit properly lol#not good omens#but also yes???#good fucking night. for real this time lol#if u guys see me on here in less than 7 hrs. just like. tell me to go away or something lol#u can tell I’m exhausted bc i use the term lol one million thousand billion trillion times
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my whole body hurts SO BAD
#my back hurts pretty bad. i can tune it out a little but not ignore it. i think this is making the rest of my spine really tense? and#shoulders too? and i’ve also been getting headaches almost every day#im still a little sick but it’s probably just gonna linger until i can rest which can’t happen for a few more days (i say this like#every week though no?)#hands and wrists are like. bad worse than usual#like both numb and painful and it’s taking a lot more focus to do things nimbly or not stop stuff#*drop stuff#ankles have kinda been sore i think just from walking so much which is manageable#but it’s hard with everything else rn. also i think i kinda pulled something yesterday because i almost hit it onto the concrete while#almost BIT IT not hit#walking at night#felt like a pull? but it was painless but then i ran across the street and a numbness shot up my leg#and it’s a little tingly today#i think i need to build some more core strength honestly#and get enough sleep more than one night per week#also probably more stretches for hands and wrists#ideally i’d also love to not be enormously stressed but i do not see this happening!#im actually less stressed this week but i think the months and months if not years have done their damage#also getting beat up for fun. which i think is objectively funny to layer over all this but yknow. i think that detracts from my overall#stress & doesn’t contribute to bad exhausting pain#(-:<
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Well...it's been a good run for...every ship left involving a woman in this poll. o7
#or more than one woman. you know what I mean.#(except for the one f/f versus f/f poll so we do at least have ONE guaranteed ship moving forward)#like. I know this is NOT a big deal (& I'll definitely forget about it once it's over) but I just...DO so tire of how guy-focused fandom is#then you try to complain about this and people accuse you of gender essentialist bullshit#which is ALSO exhausting#like I do genuinely like hanging out in my little niches with a handful of like-minded people but it does get...lonely I guess? sometimes?#you know that the things you create will be seen as inherently less valuable. you know that even in the Weird Interest™ Spaces you are#still seen as weird. you still don't fit in. the characters like you are discarded/ignored/disproportionately hated the way you are in real#life and it's rooted in a lot of the same ideas. like obviously I'd take THIS over misogynistic shit that actually happened to me but it#certainly doesn't make dealing with the reality of misogyny any EASIER#'I focus on men to escape irl misogyny/creator misogyny' I feel like actively ignoring women is also misogyny. actually.#whatever. nothing is new ever lmao.#In the Vents#at least The Major Evil has been defeated. I CAN at least sleep easy over that one.
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i have lost count of how many times i have cried today, i have yelled and screamed more than 10 times, collapsed to the floor more than 5 … im so exhausted now .. and slightly more stable.. but still the tears won’t stop. im a little glad they won’t.. i haven’t *felt* so much in a while. and maybe it is a little bit nice after months of dissociated autopilot.
#insane work expectations and deadlines put me in such a dissociated survival mode for the past few months#it calmed down at the beginning of this week#and suddenly i am so emotional and so exhausted#and i feel so much less capable#everything is more difficult and more exhausting#i spent months being insanely high performance at work and now i’m crying bc i feel overwhelmed making a ppt slide#i worked 14 hours one day last week making like 20 ppt slides#and so it feeling overwhelming to make 1 now makes me feel so stupid and guilty#even tho i know i shouldn’t.. i do#brains are so.. confusing#i know i am crashing from how unsustainable work has been and i know that’s a reasonable thing to be happening#but my body feels guilt about every little thing it can possibly twist into being guilt inducing#and right now there are soo many things it can guilt me with
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oh. MY god i hate my job
#it was my penance for having a life and living a little last sunday and no call no showing but today fucking SUCKED#love my coworker but she does not work as fast as i do and opening on a sunday in this department that kills us#and by US i mean ME who has to spend seven hours of the day running things on my own#i dont go as fast as i could i know that. but i do feel like i do a good job#there is only so good of a job i can do when i am expected to pick 200 items alone in an hour#pisses me off too I AM SCHEDULED ALONE!!! EVERYONE KNOWS I AM WORKING ALONE OUR METRICS#SHOULD ACCOUNT FOR ME HAVING TO PICK THIS MUCH ALONE AND YET every single sunday#every sunday. we are expected to work like this. it makes me feel less than human#not just inhuman but just not worthy of it not worthy of being a person instead of a machine its so#*PUTS HEAD IN HANDS*#its okay now im doing fine now i got help (i hate asking for help but genuinely working with other people#even in hectic conditions really makes an absurd difference) and i did get to see My Boy. My Favorite Guy. My Silly Goose when he got off#but its still like phwewwwwww i am exhausted my whole body HURTS from running around the store all day with no break#wahhhhh etc etc
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figured out that if i wear earplugs AND headphones with really powerful noise cancelling on the train I can hardly hear the train noises and they won’t give me a headache. Zelda vs. sensory issues 1–0 I am winning >:)
#The most antienvironmentalist thing about me is I fucking HATE trains#They make terrible noise and they smell weird and plasticky#The same thing goes for planes and buses but those I very rarely spend more than 1-2 hours on. If I want to go see my family via train -#- that is like half a day of pure uninterrupted train noise#Also my ass hurts#But anyway. Mostly defeated the noise. I can still hear it a LITTLE but it’s wayyyyyy less bad#I do have a small headache. But I’m not like… fully exhausted and it is not consuming me#Only like two hours left i will see where this leaves me.#At the therapist hopefully. (probably not)#z talks#not horse game
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#i <3 wanna fucking die <3 all the time#all the god damn time i wish i could just kill myself im so sick of it#but noo bc that's like not good in theological terms nooo my best friend would be fucked up noo i cant cause even#more stress to my family but im so fucking tired and done#lifes been exhausting as shit and im sick of it#and on top of all the fucking health issues this useless piece of shit body is going to hell too#like great!! great! abled ppl can often barely manage to make it by in this country and economy or they#get so fucked by work they become disabled lmaoo i already fucking am#i dont want to even fucking try. i dont even wanna try. most of this life has been pain and mystery and wanting to die!#and feeling like im fucking suffocating#and i can go on and on abt how oh u know u live for the little things life is pain inherently it is what it is and whatever but i just#wanna god damn fucking dir#the years of my life when i was the least physically sick were spend being abused and being fucking exhausted to hell and back#now im almost 24 and ive what. barely managed to finish a univerity with a useless degree which in my parents eyes means basically#nothing compared to what i was supposed to do#its too fucking late for anything im too fucking old my health is too bad and i dont have the fucking energy to#do this shit enough to even just get bt much fucking less have it be anything that id even 5% wanna live for
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nothing grinds my gears quite like a second “why haven’t you responded to me yet” message a mere 1-2 days after the original text
#personal#of course something like further elaboration or a change in subject would be valid#im saying literally like along the lines of ‘why haven’t you responded’#im not saying no situation ever demands it but that urgency every time we text is so exhausting#like give me a little bit of time. i say 3-5 days is more reasonable but i’m personally fine with full weeks in between#and i understand the logic of ‘oh they’re not responding to me -> possibly feel bad about it possibly neutral -> i’ll just give them a#reminder so they know no hard feelings’ i really do understand that#but the constant demand of respond to a thousand texts within a day#is personally too much and honestly just not something i’m interested in participating in#and i have said before ‘im not on my phone that much. that is simply how long it takes me to respond to messages. if it’s urgent either#call or say it is urgent that way i know’#AND importantly ‘i don’t go on my phone when i’m hanging out with people’ because that’s almost always what the situation is#and i try so hard to not be annoyed bc i know their intentions are not bad and they just want to talk to me#but idk how many time i have it in me to explain that to the same ppl over and over#and it would be less annoying if there wasn’t a habit of like forgetting this kind of thing about me. i don’t know a better way to say it#anyway. trying so hard to not make this is ‘this is what’s wrong with everyone today’ or ‘i’m so unique’ thing bc i realize how close this#annoyance can get to those places & they’re very much not the attitude i’m coming into this with#ok rant over :p
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Would u be weirded out if somebody made al + u (or just al) on tomodachi life?
LOL no i wldnt! Its okay if you just want my guy too (but yu have permission for both bc i also like adding miis in pairs so i can matchmake)...also sorry for the heinous crime im committing of taking pic of screen im just too lazy to take out sd card and extract the pictures and such
#cheye cld stand to be a little less thin tbh...ill fix that when i play tomorrow#im too exhausted to play more today#anonymous#skunk mail#al's bday is on 4/16 his fave color is actually red atm but he likes a lot of red or green#perhaps even yellow and such...#clothes wise#cant remember tomodachi life personality atm...#cheye enjoys blues + fav color blue#you can make either a girl if youre gonna mush em together like dolls its okey i understand
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🌍✨ A Voice from Gaza: Holding onto Hope ❤️🩹
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Hate that the sick 12 year old is the most reasonable person in the house rn
#orion rants#my middle aged mother has been home from work less than two hours and has had two crying yelling temper tantrums#then sulked when i went to scrub the corrosion off of her favorite pot that she was yelling about because 'im the child i shouldn't do that#I'm making her feel guilty' 😐#she is actually six years old sometimes#how can you be 50 and be so immature#I'm not saying she can't be upset about things but#she was *literally crying* at me the she was cold and loudly complaining from the moment she walked in the door and I'm just tired#we live in an open plan house so when she's losing her shit in the kitchen or is yelling at her computer you cannot escape it#she has opera training#the whole house echos when she gets mad mad#all of my siblings have sensory issues#she throws at least 4 twmper tantrums a week#my poor little sister is so quiet and good I'm so sad she's stuck with that ahit for another 6 years#she's not like abusive or neglectful or anything she's just so emotionally immature and always assumes the absolute worst about other people#including her children#stuff like 'you hate me' 'you don't believe my feelings matter at all' 'im the worst mother ever' type of shit always#and she especially always dumps it on me#she catastrophizes and over exaggerates and misremebers things and it's exhausting#she's always trying to get me to take her side over my dad's when he didn't do anything actually wrong besides maybe forgetting to put#something somewhere she asked him to#he's busy and forgetful because he's also getting old. I've never known him to be actively malicious to her#he loves her so much and she's so mean to him and so childish amd holds grudges about literally anything and anyone for decades over small#things#and i love her but she's so frustrating#mom mention#vent#ignore me.
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