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Forever grateful that r/suicidewatch exists by the way. If you go on that subreddit I hope you find help and if you're one of the repliers who tries to help I mean well bless you really.
#suicidewatch#suicide tw#reddit#sometimes all that's stopping you is the survival instinct right#Sometimes it's necessary to basically go and calm down so that the life you physically can't end has to go on#It's a good place for that#I appreciate its existence#Beacon#Also sometimes seeing a bunch of people who also want to die#Makes you not want to die yourself#To give them some hope that the world isn't so bleak I guess
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if anyone complains about no agathario I'm going to punch them in the face LOOK AT LILIA LOOK AT HER. SHE'S FINALLY FOUND PEACE WITH HERSELF ANDBHER POWERS. SHE HAS A COVEN. LOOK AT HER
(further rant in tags)
#agatha all along#agatha all along spoilers#agatha spoilers#aaa spoilers#lilia calderu#no cuz im so done with everyone making the show about agathario?#like?#its a full story with it's own narrative they drive the story but they are not the exclusive point?#the characters drive the story#its always been about agatha and billy and the coven ITS AN ENSEMBLE PIECE#i love lesbians too but do you want fully fleshed-out lesbians who exist within thr context of their pasts and the world around them#or uwu look at the girls theyre pretty wheb they kiss haha#??#let the story happen and appreciate the incredible cast they put together for a story about queerness#and community and femininity#in and out of mcu context its a beautiful show and story
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Dev this is serious stop beatboxing.
#fop nature au#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#dev dimmadome#fop dev#dale dimmadome#emetophobia#art#digital art#fanart#comic#Sorry for taking so long on this I was procrastinating bcs its just kinda a context page that needs to exist for other stuff to happen#I love it when they interact like disgruntled roommates#like on one had he SHOT HIM on the other hand whats Dev supposed to do? Go no contact?? Hes ten#This takes place like 2 days after the deer attack#Dale got whisked away to fairy world to get speed healed and had his memory wiped of the whole thing#Devs relationship with his dad is so messy cause like yes his dad hurt him but also thats his dad and he loves him.#even if his dad doesnt love him back#He wants to Want To Hurt his dad. thats the right way to feel about after what he did. and he does feel that way sometimes.#but on some level its was kind of a relief to hear that he couldnt wish harm on people#because even if he could he isnt sure he could go through with it#and there would be nothing worse than having the power to do something and yet. not#sorry if that sounds insane#complicated relationships with your abuser my beloved#also just the quiet acceptance Dev has for (what he thinks is) Peri straight up lying to his face#Dev likes Peri a lot but he is also deeply aware that Peri hides a lot of things from him#I think he appreciates that Peri tries to shield his feelings. His dad doesnt do that#ofc Peri isnt actually lying here I just think the layers of such a small interaction are hilarious
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"& how many times have you loved me without my asking? how often have i loved a thing because you loved it? including me."
Day 1 + 2 of #PricegazWeek : smoke + shotgun
#i hope its clear from this that im going insane this week#only to later dissapear into non-existence again#sorry abt that ig#cannibalism as a metaphor for love dont forget that#only pure devotion here#please#appreciate the symbolism#im begging#i rly liked painting this bg lmao#anyway the actual tags#pricegaz#gazprice#PricegazWeek#PricegazWeek2024#gaz x price#price x gaz#cod gaz#cod price#Kyle Gaz Garrick#John Price#cod mw2#codmw#codmw3
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#safe.
#firstkhao#firstkhaotung#first kanaphan#khaotung thanawat#gmmtv#🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹#i miss my boys so heres a soulmate-y set#ur welcome#and an appreciation of the fact that first leans on khao whenever he gets the chance bc i think its beautiful djkhgf#khao's shoulder + torso: *exist*#first: its free real estate#🥺 lomls#there was another clip from their japan trip which was so precious it made me clench my chest#where first is snuggling into khaos shoulder in his gigantic coat#but i couldnt find the original 😭#only in some crappy tiktok edit#spent like an hour looking for it high and low#and it was nowhere to be found#which made me sad#but oh well#that japan trip gave us plenty of soulmate moments anyway dkjghf#and then there was another one from the eclipse BTS which I also couldnt find lmao rip#these moments are making me sob either way#😭
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Annatar during chapter 39 of The Harrowing by Chthonion~
And then doodles with some of my favourite bits from the afore mentioned chapter -
I've been meaning to do stuff from this chapter since it came out cause it is amazing- (in a 'wanting to suffocate Annatar with hugs and cups of tea, and the collateral sufferers too- like getting Maedhros back to Fingon for recuperation' kind of a way) - at revealing just how messed up Annatar's mindset is. I definitely recommend the Maedhros pov as well- the amount of '... I don't think I even want to unpack that statement' and 'seriously. We have gone over this. At least three times. In the last twenty minutes. Why do you not get it??' that goes through his head during that conversation is just- Amazin~
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This fic is really cool and I highly recommend it to anyone even vaguely into lotr or the Silmarillion.
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@chthonion
>:D
#the harrowing#lotr#silmarillion#silm art#fanfic fanart#sauron#annatar#maedhros#maglor#frustration#in all its forms#hehehehe#internal facepalming#breaking news#unhealthy mindset revealed!#:0#shocking i know#never would have seen it coming~#(i was actually surprised at the depth of the 'oh dear... that's... that's not good' in this chapter though-)#very 'annatar needs hugs' inducing#:)#another part I appreciated was the#maedhros: 'what are you trying to fix exactly?'#annatar: 'I made it worse'#maglor: 'by existing?'#annatar: ....#me: *cackling maniacally -'he did not just say that- oh that is too good-'#also all the 'oh dear... promises huh. A bit more than a promise you say..' *glances at the two feanorians nervously-#yeah. I love this chapter.#:):):)
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The way that you guys are pinning elain and gwyn against each other is INSANE, calling them boring, bitches, whores.
Yet when it comes to the men its crickets
Just say you hate women and move on, it's giving internalised misogyny
#acotar#anti rhysand#anti ic#anti rhys#anti feyre#anti mor#tamlin#pro nesta#pro gwyn#pro elain#LIKE WHY ARE YOU HATING ON WOMAN#acosf#gwyneth berdara#gwyn#elain acheron#elain acotar#not going to mention how yall made a whole character week about the MAN#when the ship aint even cannon#i dont see this with azriel week??#like just appreciate the WOMEN its not that hard#like women can exist without men
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As the writer, there is something quietly soothing about little fic edits before publication. Your child is almost grown and ready to go off into the world but before they stop being yours and yours alone, you must fluff and attend to them a bit. A minor dialogue change there, fixing little typos and run-ons, tying up a loose thread no one else would probably notice but you did. They itch to be free and yet you must comb their hair and straighten their tie one last time before letting them go.
#I'm thinking about sending the whole fic to my friend for thoughts and its#its a weirdly emotional process?#no one else knows the story in its entirety and what happens#Its a fic that only exists for me rn#I cant wait to share but there's a peaceful little fluffing before you submit it for review#just appreciating your hard work and getting it fixed up before its no longer just yours#maybe Im just going through a lot of loss lately and am bitterly romantic about it
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Hello. Since the Mushroom Oasis game is pretty popular and people are really into Mychael and think he is hot, will you at some point announce an official NSFW tag for anyone who wants to make and post NSFW of Mushroom Oasis?
I'll talk about this under a cut for those uncomfortable with these topics! I'm aware there's minors in the fandom, but I also wanna be fair to older audiences who wanna consume that kind of content <3
I'm not sure if it needs an official NSFW tag since I assume tagging it as #nsfw itself should filter it out but then again, I also understand the perspective of someone who would seek that kind of content as opposed to filtering it (no judgement!!!)
I don't have an idea for a unique NSFW tag; my first thought is just a simple '#mushroom oasis nsfw' would suffice but then again it's better to use different words for better filtering :-0
For the sake of proper filtering and being fair for both types of players, I'll happily announce a specific tag if one comes along! I guess to those reading, feel free to suggest a few haha
But for now, assume '#mushroom oasis nsfw' is the default <3
#mushroom oasis vn#cheea chatter#i do appreciate tags like undertale/undertail for example#it separates both sides of fandom while also being fair with content creation#i think its a good idea to do the same for MO#i dont think its THAT popular a game but its good to have one <3#i also find it hilarious this situation exists because people "think he is hot”#maummer mee-ya here we go again
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Welp.
Time to draw my comfort characters getting along with other people's comfort characters while playing stardew valley and finishing some comms.
And become a hermit, ignoring everything till I'm needed
#vinny rambles#sweeneydino#ong 'merica making it very hard to exist rn#im literally a couple passes away from being considered inhuman like its the 1900s or smthin 😬#got to appreciate the good tho. so i dont end up stuck in my garbage can for good ° v °#the good as in the stuff in my own life not wtf is happening up there
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“I don’t want it to just be ‘me’ and ‘you’ anymore,” she mumbles, outstretching an unsteady hand. Shangguan Qian is so far away that she can’t even brush the edge of her clothes, let alone grasp her. “Can we… Can we be an ‘us’ again? Please?”
Yun Weishan watches Shangguan Qian carefully for her answer, sifting through the fog of the sea in her eyes. Wearing white and framed by the candlelight, she looks a little too unreal, like she doesn’t belong in the same plane as her at all.
Shangguan Qian exhales. She glances at her hand, keeping it hovering, trembling in mid-air.
“That’s not up to me, is it?” she returns. “What about you, Yun Weishan? Will you show me mercy, or will this all end the same way?”
破晓; daybreak
🌤️ of ten thousand journeys, the path home is the longest one to walk. 🌊 estimated 63k~70k (total) 🌤️ a post-canon fix-it— or, how shangguan qian and yun weishan change each other’s ending 🌊 starting october 25th, this fic will update every friday around 7 PM EST! 🌤️ with cover art and illustrations by the incomparable @notedchampagne <3
link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/58230550
#my writing#ITS HERE. MY NEW MAGNUM OPUS. THE BANE OF MY EXISTENCE. MY MASTERPIECE. THE GHOST HAUNTING ME FOR THE PAST YEAR. ETC#started this fic one year ago when yzy ended and here we are one year later!! because you have to cook what you want to eat!!#thank you so so much sam for your incredible work; it's been such an honour getting to put weiqian through joys and horrors with you <3#my journey to you#yunzhiyu#云之羽#shangguan qian#yun weishan#shangguan qian x yun weishan#weiqian#these are just character notes for now sorry i have to like. remind everyone of canon first/introduce some of my own lore before#we officially get started. also i wanted to post that crazy insane batshit cover with smth and thought if i posted it with the prologue#it would be too much insanity at once. so#and yes that’s an estimated wc to be edited/confirmed when im done bc i still have stuff to write 😭😭😭 hence the delay 😭😭😭#but i wanted this to be out for the anniversary!! so we’re biting the bullet. i promise i will finish this fic it’s literally my baby#kudos comments reblogs are so so so appreciated thank you guys <33
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sideyshowy bobby
#sideshow bob#robert terwilliger#simpsons fanart#my art#self insert#me#self insert shipping#thedorfmirrin#s/i and fandom blogs may interact lols#i knew he existed as a kid but its one of those situations where i instantly fall for a character many years later-#the moment i look at them again#like with maleficent and ursula :33#so exactly 1 week ago#i met sideshow bob#how do i even begin?? i cant remember how it even happened- i was looking at someone's tumblr notes bc i like to look at comments sometimes#then i saw someone's username which i liked the ring of#then i saw more images of this guy#and now u know the rest#why is he so cute and funny#the dichotomy of a snooty thespian who loves to play up his villainy (because he cant do ANYTHING without going above and beyond to get the#attention of the whole world#while also having goofy clown tendencies#im head over heels for him#so is my partner mirrin (thanks to meeeee >x3 )#and hes a simpsons character. not at all in a bad way bc i do not ever judge anyone's f/o crushes-#it was just. SOOO unexpected for me bc i tend to not pay attention to that show for personal reasons#just goes to show that theres a character to love for everyone in every piece of media#also this guy made me appreciate the show and its art direction a lil more than before despite my harbored feelings#and some of its silliness like genuinely it can be so funny (when there isnt a fat joke thrown in every 5 seconds anyway..#so everyone winz
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Can the parts of the Wiki, be outdated or either incorrect? I mean the Wiki for your world and character, just clarifying.
First off I want to state: The CQ wiki is not run or moderated by me. It is a great work of fans who take the time to catalog the lore & art that I share about my characters & world, and sometimes if something slips my mind, I feel safe enough about it's state to refer to the wiki. It is something I greatly appreciate and I feel so lucky to have such dedicated fans.
That being said, yes there may be some outdated facts on some pages. How much or how little I do not know, as I only visit it occasionally. But anything outdated would be because of one of two things: Either A) I have not shared more recent changes/lore to the public, or B) It just hasn't been updated yet.
TL;DR, On occasion yes, here and there. But the best way to see to it that it becomes more accurate is to ask me what you're curious about.
#seriously though so much love to the people who run the wiki#whoever they are#i wish i had the time and patience to catalog all that stuff into one place#i do really sometimes look to the wiki when writing#just to make sure im remembering everything right SBFUFBDIDBD#is that a bad thing? i can't tell.#but either way i really do appreciate the fact that it exists#brambleramble#hesitated on putting this in the bramble tag but i think its fine
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wahhh wahhh triglycercule post more NON jk fashion au related content i whisper as i post this. double post today because i genuinely love jk!dream and also if i dont post the dreamtale twins together i will actually die! you might consider her crazy way of somehow getting into trouble a form of bad luck but i see it as more of a being too pure for the world meeting a world that's not all that great. jk!dream lives up to her name she is a idyllic dream
valedictorian. practically a million extra curriculars. she can sing she can dance she can cook she can do advanced math she can fix a car jk!dream is everything jk!nightmare isn't (a loser). the types of trouble she gets into though aren't manmade (like some guy trying to rob her) but instead are naturally occurring. like one day the dreamtale household washing machine explodes because dream used it and coincidentally it was because it was faulty or something like that. really really crazy coincidences
nightmare is a fighting force in keeping her little sister alive i swear to god. she has to monitor dream a lot and when she can't she gets one of the mtt to do it for her. because if she doesn't there is bound to be something that hurts her. and because jk!nightmare is an absolute fucking loser who's stupid she came up with the genius idea of roleplaying a bigger issue than the one that dream's about to encounter (because then she gets to keep her safe and also feed into her pretend villian persona). like for example with the washing machine thing earlier nightmare would probably distract dream with some sort of evil monologue and then put her own load in the washer before she could. that way it won't FUCKING EXPLODE (comments from currently existing jk fashion au sanses :3)
"ah, my younger kin, dream. quite an enigma she is. on one hand, she's the epitome of perfection. even i can admit that, for she's loved by our school, family, and i. but of course, like all aside from i, she has her faults."
"for example, last week, our bloodline was strolling around the kingdom on the search for a new mirror of truth, as the one in our castle bathhouse had shattered. how did that happen? uh, i might've maybe... i shall maintain secrecy."
"returning to the point, dearest dream had almost lost herself in the shopping district, claiming she had seen a lost puppy in a mirror that she wanted to help. a chivalrous reason indeed, but my, dream can be quite... foolish sometimes. nevertheless, blood is thicker than water, and our bond has never been closer."
they still love eachother in this universe because there was no corruption thing. also nightmare's bullies were just other elementary school kids in this au so it wasn't like fully grown adults vs a 6 year old at least. she's recovered from it (somewhat) and doesn't blame dream. dream's too perfect for anybody to hate her. dream supports nightmare's delusion and nightmare keeps her alive. equivalent exchange (dream has no idea nm is doing this. ok now the mtt‼️
"oh. my. god. dream? like, dream dream? she's literally my idol, i love her so much! i'm the 7th member of her fanclub out of like, the entire school, which is like 300-ish students! she's cute, and pretty, and she gets this a lot, but her voice is literally like an angel's~ i've never heard what a hymn sounds like, but it probably sounds like dream's voice. and no matter how much i search up online, i can never find any dirt on her too! she's got a perfect online footprint! huh? why was i searching dream up? eh... haha... let's move on~"
"dream? she's really cool. there's a reason she's part of the star students at this school, along with swap and ink. nobody really knows what it takes for someone to become a "star student" though. none of the students know, none of the teachers either. apparently it's a title given to a student specifically from the principal? still, dream probably deserves it though. she's good enough to win a nobel prize. one day she's gonna cure cancer or something."
"oh, dream? that girl with the angel halo crown thing? yeah, i know her. she volunteers at the dog park i bring my dog to, the bakery i go to get snacks, the local art museum, the ice cream shop during summers, nightmare's gang, the... car dealership? wait, hold on. how many volunteer opportunities is this girl doing? is she not getting paid? that has to be illegal. or at least some form of monster rights violation..."
both of the jk!au dreamtale twins are soooo silly i love them. the more and more i elaborate on jk fashion au the more i realize that this is just turning into sans aus but anime tropes but its okay i like it its funny. jk fashion au was always meant to be silly and slice of life and fluffy anyways. anyways i love her i'm literally her number one fan. i mean i AM the principal of this school aftersll,,,,,, this really was our,,, jk fahsion au. says dream at the end of the au (there is no end because this au has no lore what am i talking about
#i love coming up with dumb ideas for the jk fashion au its SO FUN#originally this started because i was like. huh. no nightmare corruption event (i mean jk!nightmare's corrupted but not in THAT way)#so i cant keep the canon personality that dream has. but wait. young dream. naive dream#and so thats what i did. dream's a naive gullible selfless chivalrous dumbdumb#but i was like ughhh it would be funny if i made her cool and amazing to go against jk!nightmare's embarrassing delusion#so thats how i got here. the sparkles surrounding her ARE an aura of sorts#she's just so perfect she LITERALLY sparkles#i was GIGGLING drawing dream watching a fucking WORM in awe. GIRL ITS A WORM#shes probably thinking omg life is so beautiful and wonderful and even this worm can find something to live for even if its to exist#and then she leaves the worm and a thunderstorm begins#jk!nightmare is DESPERATELY calling her to get home because she knows dream's gonna get struck by lightning soon#the world hates her but she loves the world. the WORLD. not monsterkind. EARTH hates her#shes actually so cute though wtf. all the jk au designs are. jk fashion is naturally cute#i love the little angel wings i gave her crown. that way the crown can be a halo and she has the wings to go with it#and the HANDS the FINGERS i gave her on that second little doodle........#girl i know youre fictional but youre my age and way out of my league so lets work something out here#laughing now i just imagined dresm getting swept up into a tornado and she's just appreciating earth's suddenness#dream sans#nightmare sans#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#bad sanses#bad sans gang#nightmare's gang#utmv#sans au#tricule art#jk fashion au
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"Administratively, too, [...] queens were considered the legal lords of their landholdings. [...] Grants noted that the queen's officials had administrative autonomy without being subject to the king or anyone else, and evidence of the same assumption can be gleaned from court rolls that were recorded with headings indicating the lord of the manor whose court proceedings were being enrolled. As an example, some court rolls for the manor of Haveringatte-Bower specified that it was the court of [Margaret of Anjou] that was in session, while later rolls recorded Elizabeth Woodville as the lord of the manor court."
-Michele Seah, 'My Lady Queen, the Lord of the Manor': The Economic Roles of Late Medieval Queens", Parergon, Volume 37, Number 2, 2020.
#queenship tag#margaret of anjou#elizabeth woodville#I really appreciated how Seah acknowledged the uneven surviving evidence for her subjects and how that affects her analysis.#It was very brief but it was more than what most historians do so it was very refreshing :)#my post#english history#this is for @ anon who asked if its true that Margaret mostly hosted her own courts while EW mostly stayed with her husband#I'm not sure which (if any) historian has said something like this* but I highly doubt it's true !#We don't really have solid itineraries in place for either queen to make any kind of firm conclusions of the sort#(ie: about their residences or anything else) though I'm sure it would have varied depending on the situation#But either way it's explicitly clear that both Margaret and Elizabeth held their own courts in their own lands on multiple occasions#And we also have evidence of both of them residing with their husbands in regular circumstances#*tbh this is too long to get into right now but this assumption does fit into the few 'revisionist' interpretations of both Margaret and EW#(which imo is just as degrading as her traditional interpretation for the latter) so I wouldn't be surprised if some#historians may have framed their situations in such a way and relied entirely on their own assumptions to do so#Either way as far as I know there is no evidence of any such contrast existing - at least not on a consistent basis.#and the evidence we do have contradicts the assumption#Hope this helps! I figured a proper excerpt from this article would clarify the point better than any direct answer from me <3#also in case anyone was wondering I *think* the title ('My Lady Queen the Lord of the Manor') was referring to administrative accounts#of EW based on what Seah wrote here - though ofc I'm not sure#queue
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not an ask, but I saw ur post and relate a lot to it.
anticipatory grief sucks. people will tell you not to think about it, not to let it steal from today, but some days are just so hard. sometimes it feels unavoidable, like it’s some goliath mountain in the distance or even the sky and you can’t not look at it. it’s like you have to keep trying to distract yourself not to think about it, and it’s exhausting, and you’re so fucking scared of the inevitable.
like how does anyone even function? the idea of the world continuing to spin when there’s this terrible, horrible thing that will happen some day is unfathomable but it does, and it’s horrible. Some day will mark the before and the after. nobody can ever be ready for it.
I hope the love you have keeps you strong. wishing you the best.
this is literally it. i know thinking about it Now wont make the actual day it happens any easier. but it's impossible to not think about it, especially since there's no tangible way to preserve memories or feelings or the like forever. i cry easily and get emotional over most anything and everything, which is another layer of difficulty wrt it because I spiral. I want to squeeze out of my body. im not meant for any of it
#skunk mail#Anonymous#ill be in a car with my dad fighting tears thinking about how ill miss it one day and there's no way for my brain to capture the moment and#make a simulation of it. and even then that wouldnt help. ykwim#sometimes i sit in my parents room while my parents and brother are there and i cant stop thinking about when ill see them for the last tim#and how i wish i could full really truly wring every last drop of ''appreciation'' from the moment.#i think about that time isnt linear thing. how everything that has happened or will happen exists on its own#and i think about the cheye experiencing the After tragedy. and i cant handle it. not now or then. i envy the past cheye#even the one of 5 seconds ago. because that was 5 seconds ive lost. 5 seconds closer to events that will#separate my life into Before and After. over and over again#(like you said anon. i think abt that all the time too)#i think this is also why im struggling with the thought of moving out#we all have so little time. dont even get me started on the fear and grief i feel for my own life#not only fearing dying but fearing the lead up where ive lost and cried over much. just me. alone.#ill never see them again. it will never be today again. we'll never be in my parents room like today again. i cant take it.#even if i spend every last second with everybody i still wont be able to take it. i cant believe it#human beings that were all somebody's baby once. tomorrow it will be like they were never here at all. all their memories#go with them. it hurts so bad. i cant take it#i cant even breathe rn ruminating abt it *peace sign emoji*
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