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Forever grateful that r/suicidewatch exists by the way. If you go on that subreddit I hope you find help and if you're one of the repliers who tries to help I mean well bless you really.
#suicidewatch#suicide tw#reddit#sometimes all that's stopping you is the survival instinct right#Sometimes it's necessary to basically go and calm down so that the life you physically can't end has to go on#It's a good place for that#I appreciate its existence#Beacon#Also sometimes seeing a bunch of people who also want to die#Makes you not want to die yourself#To give them some hope that the world isn't so bleak I guess
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if anyone complains about no agathario I'm going to punch them in the face LOOK AT LILIA LOOK AT HER. SHE'S FINALLY FOUND PEACE WITH HERSELF ANDBHER POWERS. SHE HAS A COVEN. LOOK AT HER
(further rant in tags)
#agatha all along#agatha all along spoilers#agatha spoilers#aaa spoilers#lilia calderu#no cuz im so done with everyone making the show about agathario?#like?#its a full story with it's own narrative they drive the story but they are not the exclusive point?#the characters drive the story#its always been about agatha and billy and the coven ITS AN ENSEMBLE PIECE#i love lesbians too but do you want fully fleshed-out lesbians who exist within thr context of their pasts and the world around them#or uwu look at the girls theyre pretty wheb they kiss haha#??#let the story happen and appreciate the incredible cast they put together for a story about queerness#and community and femininity#in and out of mcu context its a beautiful show and story
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Dev this is serious stop beatboxing.
#fop nature au#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#dev dimmadome#fop dev#dale dimmadome#emetophobia#art#digital art#fanart#comic#Sorry for taking so long on this I was procrastinating bcs its just kinda a context page that needs to exist for other stuff to happen#I love it when they interact like disgruntled roommates#like on one had he SHOT HIM on the other hand whats Dev supposed to do? Go no contact?? Hes ten#This takes place like 2 days after the deer attack#Dale got whisked away to fairy world to get speed healed and had his memory wiped of the whole thing#Devs relationship with his dad is so messy cause like yes his dad hurt him but also thats his dad and he loves him.#even if his dad doesnt love him back#He wants to Want To Hurt his dad. thats the right way to feel about after what he did. and he does feel that way sometimes.#but on some level its was kind of a relief to hear that he couldnt wish harm on people#because even if he could he isnt sure he could go through with it#and there would be nothing worse than having the power to do something and yet. not#sorry if that sounds insane#complicated relationships with your abuser my beloved#also just the quiet acceptance Dev has for (what he thinks is) Peri straight up lying to his face#Dev likes Peri a lot but he is also deeply aware that Peri hides a lot of things from him#I think he appreciates that Peri tries to shield his feelings. His dad doesnt do that#ofc Peri isnt actually lying here I just think the layers of such a small interaction are hilarious
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"& how many times have you loved me without my asking? how often have i loved a thing because you loved it? including me."
Day 1 + 2 of #PricegazWeek : smoke + shotgun
#i hope its clear from this that im going insane this week#only to later dissapear into non-existence again#sorry abt that ig#cannibalism as a metaphor for love dont forget that#only pure devotion here#please#appreciate the symbolism#im begging#i rly liked painting this bg lmao#anyway the actual tags#pricegaz#gazprice#PricegazWeek#PricegazWeek2024#gaz x price#price x gaz#cod gaz#cod price#Kyle Gaz Garrick#John Price#cod mw2#codmw#codmw3
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TRY TO SUCK LESS, BUT I WONT HOLD MY BREATH
#characters who could never meet bcuz the club would explode#ik the perspective is a little wonky but i think its fun and also i used my beautiful mind for this so . appreciate it#my art#furry#anthro#ocs#canine#dog#wolf#lion#feline#angel isnt a musician and these characters dont even exist in the same universe but thats not the point. they got their protag swag#eye strain#wolfdog
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#safe.
#firstkhao#firstkhaotung#first kanaphan#khaotung thanawat#gmmtv#🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹#i miss my boys so heres a soulmate-y set#ur welcome#and an appreciation of the fact that first leans on khao whenever he gets the chance bc i think its beautiful djkhgf#khao's shoulder + torso: *exist*#first: its free real estate#🥺 lomls#there was another clip from their japan trip which was so precious it made me clench my chest#where first is snuggling into khaos shoulder in his gigantic coat#but i couldnt find the original 😭#only in some crappy tiktok edit#spent like an hour looking for it high and low#and it was nowhere to be found#which made me sad#but oh well#that japan trip gave us plenty of soulmate moments anyway dkjghf#and then there was another one from the eclipse BTS which I also couldnt find lmao rip#these moments are making me sob either way#😭
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i checked the italian blind run that apparently is very popular in the IT community. and. was anyone.
so was anyone. was anyone going to tell me in this version dusknoir asks if his existence had value.
his line about saying with full sincerity that life is marvelous.
why didnt i hear of this until now i crave to know every little difference between translations so i can cry again and again over the same guy.
#i love all the other translations dont get me wrong#there hasnt been any new content of futuee trio in 10 years i need to sustain myself somehow#no but fr 'now that the end is approaching... i can say without hesiation... and#with full sincerity... life is wonderful'#hey localization team wtf#i like other translations where dusknoir specifically says hes not wavering up till the very end#that he lived#its concise yet unflinching. a state of fact. despite all the darkness that surrounded him and he tried to perpetuate#in the end he lived. his existence happened. thanks to grovyle he can embrace the life he had and let it go with no regrets#but this IT version where it feels a little more abstract and less individualistic doesnt turn me away either#it puts the focus a bit away from himself to make a more encompassing statement: life is wonderful#living is wonderful#i dont think its inherently better or worse. i appreciate the difference. i think celebi says sth similar afterwards too#btw i teared up while taking the screenshots thank you in the morning sun#btw x2 idk italian so thank god these structures were so close and similar to spanish and latin#pmd2#pmd dialogue
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hii hii lumii !! I ADORE your interpretation of lighter so far— I love him smm
anyways, I hope my req is okay but I was wondering if you could do a comfort fic ? maybe reader has been a lil distant lately and just in some feels and he gives them a lil talk after being blown off here and there to find out they were having issues w their mental health and not feeling good enough and maybe he’s caught off guard because reader is usually so out going and always has a smile on their face and to see them feel so small makes him wanna take care of them so much and gives them so much reassurance and gentle kisses and cuddles 👉👈
I hope it’s okay !! I’ve been in the feels lately
hi anonn !! im gonna answer this one first because i've been in the feels too and i think we all deserve some reassurance, especially after all of the sad lighter story.
i don't take lighter for the kind to be too intrusive. that's not to say that he doesn't notice the way you're staring off into the distance, as if always having something on your mind. or the way you left earlier than usual for the SoC's nightly hangouts around the fire. or the way you had just been distancing yourself from him.
maybe you just needed a day, or two, and so he waited. he waited, and waited, but it just seemed like it was getting worse. he was beginning to get anxious, coming up with possibilities and worse case scenarios. even his favorite grape-flavored lollipop couldn't reduce the anxiety that was building up inside of him as he followed after you one night.
he shook off his nerves, spending quite a bit of time at the front door of your lodging while in blazewood. mentally practicing what to say so that he wouldn't make things even worse than they already were. one step, two deep breaths, three knocks on your door. he cleared his voice, usually confident and smooth but now carried a hint of worry in it.
"hey, uh... everything alright?"
you could hear the ruffling of his jacket, the soft metal clinks of his gloves. he didn't dare open the door until you allowed him to, so he waited, just like he always had. "lighter? yeah, everything's fine," was that a slight crack in your voice? no, no, he had to have imagined that. he knew it was wrong but he had waited long enough. he turned the knob, opening the door just a little bit but still not walking in.
"you don't have to tell me everything. just... know that i'll be here, waiting for you." he wasn't the best at comforting, nor was he good at even navigating these sorts of things but at the very least, he wanted you to have the knowledge that you had him. it didn't take long for you to finally get up, opening the door that separated the both of you. you looked so... different. the light absent from your eyes, the edges of your lips normally turned upwards but now they weren't. if he couldn't say what you wanted to hear, maybe you'd understand through his actions.
his arms wrapped around you. squeezing you just a little tighter than usual as he somehow made the both of you waddle backwards into your room. he had kept his gloves in his pants, not wanting to hurt you even more with them. his embrace was a familiar warmth, like the fire during particularly cold nights in the outer ring. you could hear his heart racing, was it from nervousness? anxiety? fear? even he didn't know.
he took this as an opportunity to place soft kisses on the top of your head but then stopped all of a sudden. he turned around to the door and realized that it was still wide open. he kicked it close with his foot, feeling embarrassed at the fact that he had to stop because of something so minor. he wanted you to feel safe, to have privacy, to be able to breathe without others barging in. technically, he had invaded this space of yours but you were slowly melting into him, as if you had been waiting for this too.
every passing second hugging you, kissing you, it made his own worries disappear. he hoped the same for you as you slowly spoke to him about your own problems. as he listened, he'd pause every once in while to give you a deadpan stare. not because he was making fun of you or anything, but it genuinely baffled him how you could say such things about yourself. you felt so insecure about yourself and your image, about being with him, being with the SoC. he had to physically stop himself from just blurting "i love you" every time you said something so degrading.
instead, he chose to wait and listen. his calloused hands gently caressing yours, his lips pressing kisses on the side of your head as you nuzzled into him. he loves you for who you are, the person in front of him, not the image that you had made yourself out to be in your mind. but he waits for you to let it all out before he says anything else. he will wait, he will listen, he will always be there for you.
#lumiresponds ˚✧₊⁎☆#lighter zzz#lighter lorenz#zzz lighter#lighter x reader#lighter x gn reader#lighter x you#i think i butchered this req idk im sorry anon#i didn't want to make the problems very specific#because everyone goes through different things#but just know that if you're not in a good mental space#it's alright to take breaks#there are people around you who are willing to listen#and lighter exists#he would give the world to you if you so ask#i know this cuz he told me anon mhm#i also don't think i write lighter that well tbh#haha ig this is one of my own personal problems#i hope i didn't ruin him for yall#i think many other writers write him much better than me#but i really appreciate it <3#i hope that everything gets better for you anon#even if its slow it gets better
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Annatar during chapter 39 of The Harrowing by Chthonion~
And then doodles with some of my favourite bits from the afore mentioned chapter -
I've been meaning to do stuff from this chapter since it came out cause it is amazing- (in a 'wanting to suffocate Annatar with hugs and cups of tea, and the collateral sufferers too- like getting Maedhros back to Fingon for recuperation' kind of a way) - at revealing just how messed up Annatar's mindset is. I definitely recommend the Maedhros pov as well- the amount of '... I don't think I even want to unpack that statement' and 'seriously. We have gone over this. At least three times. In the last twenty minutes. Why do you not get it??' that goes through his head during that conversation is just- Amazin~
:D
This fic is really cool and I highly recommend it to anyone even vaguely into lotr or the Silmarillion.
:D
@chthonion
>:D
#the harrowing#lotr#silmarillion#silm art#fanfic fanart#sauron#annatar#maedhros#maglor#frustration#in all its forms#hehehehe#internal facepalming#breaking news#unhealthy mindset revealed!#:0#shocking i know#never would have seen it coming~#(i was actually surprised at the depth of the 'oh dear... that's... that's not good' in this chapter though-)#very 'annatar needs hugs' inducing#:)#another part I appreciated was the#maedhros: 'what are you trying to fix exactly?'#annatar: 'I made it worse'#maglor: 'by existing?'#annatar: ....#me: *cackling maniacally -'he did not just say that- oh that is too good-'#also all the 'oh dear... promises huh. A bit more than a promise you say..' *glances at the two feanorians nervously-#yeah. I love this chapter.#:):):)
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Welp.
Time to draw my comfort characters getting along with other people's comfort characters while playing stardew valley and finishing some comms.
And become a hermit, ignoring everything till I'm needed
#vinny rambles#sweeneydino#ong 'merica making it very hard to exist rn#im literally a couple passes away from being considered inhuman like its the 1900s or smthin 😬#got to appreciate the good tho. so i dont end up stuck in my garbage can for good ° v °#the good as in the stuff in my own life not wtf is happening up there
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The way that you guys are pinning elain and gwyn against each other is INSANE, calling them boring, bitches, whores.
Yet when it comes to the men its crickets
Just say you hate women and move on, it's giving internalised misogyny
#acotar#anti rhysand#anti ic#anti rhys#anti feyre#anti mor#tamlin#pro nesta#pro gwyn#pro elain#LIKE WHY ARE YOU HATING ON WOMAN#acosf#gwyneth berdara#gwyn#elain acheron#elain acotar#not going to mention how yall made a whole character week about the MAN#when the ship aint even cannon#i dont see this with azriel week??#like just appreciate the WOMEN its not that hard#like women can exist without men
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As the writer, there is something quietly soothing about little fic edits before publication. Your child is almost grown and ready to go off into the world but before they stop being yours and yours alone, you must fluff and attend to them a bit. A minor dialogue change there, fixing little typos and run-ons, tying up a loose thread no one else would probably notice but you did. They itch to be free and yet you must comb their hair and straighten their tie one last time before letting them go.
#I'm thinking about sending the whole fic to my friend for thoughts and its#its a weirdly emotional process?#no one else knows the story in its entirety and what happens#Its a fic that only exists for me rn#I cant wait to share but there's a peaceful little fluffing before you submit it for review#just appreciating your hard work and getting it fixed up before its no longer just yours#maybe Im just going through a lot of loss lately and am bitterly romantic about it
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"Administratively, too, [...] queens were considered the legal lords of their landholdings. [...] Grants noted that the queen's officials had administrative autonomy without being subject to the king or anyone else, and evidence of the same assumption can be gleaned from court rolls that were recorded with headings indicating the lord of the manor whose court proceedings were being enrolled. As an example, some court rolls for the manor of Haveringatte-Bower specified that it was the court of [Margaret of Anjou] that was in session, while later rolls recorded Elizabeth Woodville as the lord of the manor court."
— Michele Seah, "My Lady Queen, the Lord of the Manor': The Economic Roles of Late Medieval Queens", Parergon, Volume 37, Number 2, 2020.
#queenship tag#margaret of anjou#elizabeth woodville#I really appreciated how Seah acknowledged the uneven surviving evidence for her subjects and how that affects her analysis.#It was very brief but it was more than what most historians do so it was very refreshing :)#my post#english history#this is for @ anon who asked if its true that Margaret mostly hosted her own courts while EW mostly stayed with her husband#I'm not sure which (if any) historian has said something like this* but I highly doubt it's true !#We don't really have solid itineraries in place for either queen to make any kind of firm conclusions of the sort#(ie: about their residences or anything else) though I'm sure it would have varied depending on the situation#But either way it's explicitly clear that both Margaret and Elizabeth held their own courts in their own lands on multiple occasions#And we also have evidence of both of them residing with their husbands in regular circumstances#*tbh this is too long to get into right now but this assumption does fit into the few 'revisionist' interpretations of both Margaret and EW#(which imo is just as degrading as her traditional interpretation for the latter) so I wouldn't be surprised if some#historians may have framed their situations in such a way and relied entirely on their own assumptions to do so#Either way as far as I know there is no evidence of any such contrast existing - at least not on a consistent basis.#and the evidence we do have contradicts the assumption#Hope this helps! I figured a proper excerpt from this article would clarify the point better than any direct answer from me <3#queue
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Hello. Since the Mushroom Oasis game is pretty popular and people are really into Mychael and think he is hot, will you at some point announce an official NSFW tag for anyone who wants to make and post NSFW of Mushroom Oasis?
I'll talk about this under a cut for those uncomfortable with these topics! I'm aware there's minors in the fandom, but I also wanna be fair to older audiences who wanna consume that kind of content <3
I'm not sure if it needs an official NSFW tag since I assume tagging it as #nsfw itself should filter it out but then again, I also understand the perspective of someone who would seek that kind of content as opposed to filtering it (no judgement!!!)
I don't have an idea for a unique NSFW tag; my first thought is just a simple '#mushroom oasis nsfw' would suffice but then again it's better to use different words for better filtering :-0
For the sake of proper filtering and being fair for both types of players, I'll happily announce a specific tag if one comes along! I guess to those reading, feel free to suggest a few haha
But for now, assume '#mushroom oasis nsfw' is the default <3
#mushroom oasis vn#cheea chatter#i do appreciate tags like undertale/undertail for example#it separates both sides of fandom while also being fair with content creation#i think its a good idea to do the same for MO#i dont think its THAT popular a game but its good to have one <3#i also find it hilarious this situation exists because people "think he is hot”#maummer mee-ya here we go again
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“I don’t want it to just be ‘me’ and ‘you’ anymore,” she mumbles, outstretching an unsteady hand. Shangguan Qian is so far away that she can’t even brush the edge of her clothes, let alone grasp her. “Can we… Can we be an ‘us’ again? Please?”
Yun Weishan watches Shangguan Qian carefully for her answer, sifting through the fog of the sea in her eyes. Wearing white and framed by the candlelight, she looks a little too unreal, like she doesn’t belong in the same plane as her at all.
Shangguan Qian exhales. She glances at her hand, keeping it hovering, trembling in mid-air.
“That’s not up to me, is it?” she returns. “What about you, Yun Weishan? Will you show me mercy, or will this all end the same way?”
破晓; daybreak
🌤️ of ten thousand journeys, the path home is the longest one to walk. 🌊 estimated 63k~70k (total) 🌤️ a post-canon fix-it— or, how shangguan qian and yun weishan change each other’s ending 🌊 starting october 25th, this fic will update every friday around 7 PM EST! 🌤️ with cover art and illustrations by the incomparable @notedchampagne <3
link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/58230550
#my writing#ITS HERE. MY NEW MAGNUM OPUS. THE BANE OF MY EXISTENCE. MY MASTERPIECE. THE GHOST HAUNTING ME FOR THE PAST YEAR. ETC#started this fic one year ago when yzy ended and here we are one year later!! because you have to cook what you want to eat!!#thank you so so much sam for your incredible work; it's been such an honour getting to put weiqian through joys and horrors with you <3#my journey to you#yunzhiyu#云之羽#shangguan qian#yun weishan#shangguan qian x yun weishan#weiqian#these are just character notes for now sorry i have to like. remind everyone of canon first/introduce some of my own lore before#we officially get started. also i wanted to post that crazy insane batshit cover with smth and thought if i posted it with the prologue#it would be too much insanity at once. so#and yes that’s an estimated wc to be edited/confirmed when im done bc i still have stuff to write 😭😭😭 hence the delay 😭😭😭#but i wanted this to be out for the anniversary!! so we’re biting the bullet. i promise i will finish this fic it’s literally my baby#kudos comments reblogs are so so so appreciated thank you guys <33
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bc of new movie talk I feel the need to gush about sa2, particularly amy rose 🩷
literally everyone is perfect in this game but special mention of how lovingly and cleverly they wrote amy rose
shadow was always meant to turn good. and amy was the perfect person to convince him. maybe the only one who could!
sonic is an exceptional hero, and he’s no stranger to becoming besties with former enemies (knuckles, later silver) but this is notably never out of his own efforts.
that is to say, he’s no steven universe (lovingly, bc i love su) and he doesn’t make huge efforts to turn baddies to the good side. he’s absolutely down to forgive, and fight alongside whoever is willing to help him fight, but i love that he just goes with the flow. like, oh, he’s on our side now? cool.
i love this about him. he's not a basic hero archetype, not trying to rehabilitate all the time JUST because he’s the hero. it fits for some heroes to do so, but it’s just not who he is. he’s not overtly kind to shadow the entire game. he’s pissed! this guys framing him! but if shadow helps him save the world, so be it. they might even become close. this fits his character perfectly, to go with it like the wind.
meanwhile amy rose? she’s arguably the sweetest and most emphathetic character. this is highlighted in both adventure games. her big heart saves the day all on its own and that’s so beautiful. she’s necessary. this is her moment!
it’s two sides of heroism and that’s just brilliant.
how sweet and fundamental the scene between her and shadow is for both their characters. smth so sweet about who shadow shows care towards in this game; rouge and amy, thinking of maria each time. she also represented kindness. 🩵
and amy could see the good in him! begging him to help sonic, just as she will go on to inspire silver to be good in 06. and this part of her is shown in her sweetness towards others like cream&tails
she has such a great personality always (pushy and headstrong and adorable) but her kind heart truly shines in the adventure games.
so yeah, this is more me gushing about amy rose in general <3 but that’s okay too she deserves it.
#amy rose#sonic the hedgehog#sa2#sonic adventure 2#shadow the hedgehog#sonic adventure#sonic 06#sonic analysis#long post#im replaying and its just so peak#and yes while im excited for the movie i cant say i love the idea of sa2 story without her#nor that it seems they only omitted the girls >:(#i was mad at sonic x too guys#BUT at least this game always exists <3 so i can appreciate its perfect story#gotta wait till movie comes out ;D
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