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Edit made by our very own @preyasi. The saga of our daily Star Plus' Mahabharat watch parties continues.
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I'd say that I'm not responsible for this Cursed Content™ but I fear, in this case, I very much am. Press X to pay respect.
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#luck popped off#and cursed us all#good for them#not an incorrect quote#incorrect mahabharat quotes#Mahabharat#Mahabharata#star plus mahabharat#desiblr#bhishma#Bhishma's Tiddies™#i apologize for making the tag exist#hindublr#why not#I'm tired#mod s is always tired#mod: s
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Please don't hurt yourself
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#library of ruina#hod#hod lobcorp#hod lobotomy corporation#hod library of ruina#erm... michelle. hii michelle. going to have to spoiler tag for you though baby#lobotomy corp spoilers#lobcorp spoilers#okay i think thats it#no shading because this made me want to KILL YMSELF#it looks fone w out it anyways. yay. thank you filter after effects for saving my ass this . hurt me so muchh to try to finish#nothing specific that had me make this. at least from lobcorp lor. its more of having more empathy towards my past self or when i was young#than me. right now. it feels as if the past is so devoid of my current self yet i know that its Me. its just so distant. to the point where#at times it feels as if the me of the past is devoid of the current me. im told im very empathetic? hard to tell. that im patient and kind#or more of understanding to everyone but Myself. so when i try to be kind to myself it feels impossible. but im able to do it to my past se#which makes a disconnect. please dont hurt youself. please dont hate youself. you dont need to do that. i know you want to live it hurts#i know. its alright to want to live. you dont need to apologize and feel Guilty. but never towards Myself. to console and wish to soothe bu#not to the current self. to pardon and accept but not to this Me. so i wanted to put it down kinda. felt most similar to hod ish.#its guilt for living. apologizing for existing. wanting to be accepted and pardoned. but also forgiving and accepting the self of before#not so much forgiving. forgive is a weird word. the hurt never leaves. and the guilt is there regardless. but. yknow. accept#sorry some random shit. yappin. who gaf abt that guy. who was that guy. anyways. hod <3 HODD!!!#just like to ramble abt what i think abt when i go to make pieces. since i uhh dont really have anyone to tell who would care. so. awkward.#god thats embarrassing actuallt migjt delete if im not lazy asf later. loser oversharing on the internet AHH 💥💥#uhmm back to the actual piece. the proportions and fhe coloring were having me feel like i was dging trying to get it right. almost#considered just gettinf rid of it and scrapping the whole piece. didnt though. wanted to have it done and finished. hod <3#the feeligns described arent what i would relate w hod? but closest chatacter towards the general thougut. so wanfed to draw her#i wanted to do more w ligjting and such as well. but it never ended up getting in. maybe later
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The more I read about this post written by @vulturevanity the more I realize that Gio is, in a way, a foil to Lorelai.
Gio lives in a fantasy, but only on appearance, because that's actually his everyday life. Lori lives in a fantasy, but only of appearance, to escape from her everyday life.
Gio has a lot of friends and yet he never sees romance in any of them. Lori secretly longs for friendship but she is so sheltered in her fantasy that prefers looking for romance, crushing on Giovanni at first sight and making up many false boyfriends.
Gio is probably one of the most honest and emotionally open characters in the story. Lori keeps so much turmoil and doubts inside.
Gio has a fire motif because he loves fire and he finds it a symbol of his evilness (his steams can be described as smoke, has a fire-themed blanket in his bed, describes himself as "a Phenix reborn from the fire" in his Vincent Murder outfit…). Lori has a fire motif because she hates it and finds it a symbol of her evilness (she "slices" a dragon who "burned her village", her "evil witch outfit" is described as a "Marshmallow roasted in the fire for too long"…)
Gio's food symbol is Soup, something that is not every first choice but is healthy and can be enjoyed easily (Even his boys at first made fun of him and didn't take him seriously), also soup can only be introduced in one way, like how he has a high opinion of himself so he doesn't put on any facade (not even when he is Vincent Murder's costume he shies away and acts differently), Lori's food symbol is Candies, something unhealthy who at big doses can be unhealthy (In her childhood Molly loved playing on her side but as she grew up they fell apart) and can be made look prettier, as she has a low opinion of herself and put on a facade (She has multiple identities in her stories and put on a fake smile sometimes, especially around Giovanni).
Giovanni has an epithet he loves to train and wants to become more powerful, Lorelai has an epithet she wouldn't like to have and wishes she could be weaker (or not have one at all)
Giovanni is impulsive and doesn't make plans, Lorelai is a perfectionist who plans every detail ahead in her fantasies.
#epithet erased#giovanni potage#lorelai blyndeff#I wanna apologize if I got something wrong#prison of plastic#I wanna make emphasy over the fact I love Lori she is a great character#and I am aware of her trauma#She is very well wriiten but geez she has issues#And I love her for that#sorry for tagging btw#Now I wanna a Freaky Friday episode or whatever where these twos switch places. Or still like. Express their opinions to the others.#I know the latter exists already anfd it's called Prison of plastic. But I want it more now.#They become penpals or something without realizing who the heck they are.#No wait I could make it an AU about it#Ferb I know what to do one day#character analysis
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But also Odysseus and Athena could have hugged
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For me
#epic the Musical#athena epic#oddyseus epic#athena and Oddyseus tag#yeah they own my entire ass lmao#again i say As Though Warrior Of The Mind wasn't on repeat so much it was the only part of Epic that existed for a while#(!its okay tho bc at some point ill lose my shit about the Athena abd Telemachus dyn bc Gawd do i have feelings about That)#perooo nah for rn its all about the Feels Too Much crash out abd the 'logic above feelings bc touch of the tism-i mean Fathers Daughter-#i mean shes a goddess and alien to human emotions thing like#to the surprise of no one#they're actually everything and i make no apologies#/lh
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perpetually suffering the tortures lately
#don't ever make a very complex/esoteric story based around a pre-existing fandom .worst mistake of my life#<-(the tortures)#half joking but the autism has been extremely agonizing lately in almost every way imaginable#.mostly just in the typical way of. it being impossible to believe i can actually be welcomed in any sort of fandom/community#and feeling horribly embarrassed about continuously pushing my posts into tags where people are trying to enjoy themselves#so. been spending the last month or so trying to beat my brain out of being hyperfixated on the blorbos to the point of embarrassment#<--putting this here mostly as an apology/explanation ig for not posting much lately .#trying to exile myself from the fandom + in general. it has been hard to do literally anything but lay in bed all day#also as well as just like. summer sensory hell + sadd moments#ough . the tortures
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I have been having... a very bad day. Any spare fluffy headcanons for the boys? (and maybe some nsfw ones if you're up to it-)
ohh no my dear helena !!! its unfortunate that you’re having a rough day today :( remember that everything is temporary and that this day, like every other hard day before (and all following after), will pass in its own time.
i can absolutely spare some fluff ! that’s all i’ve got !
• javier goes to bed at about the same time that kieran is waking up every morning, right before dawn, and it’s a common occurrence that he will forget to untie his hair before laying down for bed, especially after a long night of guard duty. kieran will notice every time, and knows himself how easily long hair can get matted, so he will beckon javier over so that he can untie his bow. usually, he’ll also take the time to run his fingers through javier’s hair to detangle it as well, so that he’s even less likely to wake up to knots. javier adores it, teetering with the weight of his head and leaning hard into kieran’s legs on each side of his shoulders- sometimes kieran will even indulge himself in giving javier a head massage. javier never sleeps better, and coincidentally, he began forgetting to take his hair down a lot more after moving out to clemen’s point ….
• javier snuck kieran his first bowl of pearson’s stew after ‘making a social call’. john kicked kieran off his horse at the entrance of camp and javier watched as the latter dredged himself through the brush to what would become his usual resting place behind the rock by the horses. he looked miserable, dead on his feet, and javier knew by then he’d been weeks without a meal. he was a dirty, disloyal, unholy traitor of an o’driscoll, but something about his sunken eyes, the shake in his hand as he lit his first cigarette as a free man again- likely to quell off the hunger- it urged javier to act in a way that he’d never felt before. javier could kill a man in cold blood easier than he could stand to watch fear starve a man even after his hands are free to reach for the bowl. the study for learned helplessness in psychology will come years later, but javier understands himself now through watching kieran’s instinctual desire to survive be beat out of him by the gang javier dedicates his life to. with a healthy amount of spite to himself, he scoops a heaping amount of fresh stew into the cleanest bowl he can find, and sets out to add a fresh layer of flesh to kieran’s prominent bones.
• following this, cooking for kieran is one of javier’s favourite things to do when they get together. javier will cook for him traditional mexican dishes from home (as best he can. both with his limited skills and also with his limited accessibility to the proper ingredients. (probably for the best that he can’t get authentic chili peppers from home and has to use a less spicy chili native to this northern climate. kieran does okay with spice but it isn’t in his genetics to truly have a high tolerance.)) and not only will it be an unknown love language from javier, to feed kieran and make sure he is full, but it will also be a love language from kieran, to let javi share a piece of home with him.
• ^ also applies to modern au javieran ! javier loves cooking, and especially for kieran. they would cook together, but kieran struggles to cook with other people in the room, and javier gets so absorbed in it that he’d likely be running into kieran or otherwise being unhelpful in aiding in making sure the dish is being cooked correctly because he’s too Locked In to guide kieran LOL but they’re more happy to simply keep each other company, anyway. kieran on the counter/table/floor, watching javier sing and dance to the music he’s blasting from their speaker. cue dancing in the kitchen when the love songs come on (here’s a good one (rip javier escuella you would have loved dannylux)). the parallel play and quality time with these two is off the charts
• come mid/late clemens point, the way javieran make most of their money for the camp is by going on days-long fishing dates, laughing and laying close to one another in the grass under a tree on the riverbank in the shroud of darkness. they come back to camp flushed as all get out but with stacks of cash in their hands wadded up so thick no one dares to ask where it came from. kieran will get excited at even the smallest of fish, perking up and sharing/asking javier for tidbits on the species. they never miss a bite, either. one time one of the bells on their bobber rods rang once and they both broke out of a very hot and heavy make-out sesh so fast that javier tripped on kieran and nearly broke both of their wrists. they laughed so hard about it, javier was certain that by the time he arrived to his rod, the fish had already successfully ripped the bait off of his hook. he reeled in a boot, at the end of it all. he never lives it down.
• kieran is ambidextrous, and javier is fascinated by it. javier stumbled upon kieran writing on one rare occasion, and noticed immediately that he was writing with his left. “left handed, huh ?” kieran cocks his head at him in thought. javier wonders why on earth he would have to stop and think about a question like that. “uhh, not really ?” well, now javier is simply confused. “right, then ? is something wrong with your dominant hand ?” “um … no, that’s not it either …” and at this point, javier is demanding kieran explain what the hell he’s talking about, and why he’s pulling a prank on him. cue kieran explaining and javier making him do all kinds of silly “tests” like writing, shooting, playing guitar (as if kieran is going to any better with either when neither of them can do it right to begin with) because he finds it so cool.
• modern au kieran gets overstimulated incredibly easily, so he’s got a pair of noise canceling over-ear headphones that he often wears to dampen sensory input and ground himself when there’s a lot going on. when it’s cleaning day, generally no matter what he’s doing, he HAS to wear his headphones. javier is left to dodge him the same way he has to dodge the cats when they’re weaving in and out of between his feet. it also leaves him to dance to his own tunes when kieran suddenly swoops or sways or dips him to the music only he can hear- though just as often, javier will catch kieran dancing by himself and he will simply be unable not to join him, even though he can’t hear what it is he’s dancing to. as overwhelming as they can be, cleaning days for javieran somehow always end up feeling more like a date than anything.
• on a similar note, kieran also wears his headphones to bed, and listens to asmr/white noise to sleep. the pressure helps him feel safe, and the silence of a room makes him anxious. he also has a terrible bedhead and rbf in the morning. both of these things javier finds incredibly charming, and if he ever does wake up when/before kieran does (incredibly rare), this is his pov (right before he tries to kiss kieran’s face off and gets shoved away with a sleepy giggle that only bolsters his aggression);
nsfw under the cut !
and how could i resist a chance to finally talk about this ;3€ ?? i’ll try to keep them fluffy !
(context, i hc both of them as tguys usually (though im content with writing javier as amab too), with both of them being absolute, unabashed switches. they have little preferences anywhere in terms of bottoming/topping, though kieran has a preference for subbing, and javier has no qualms with domming more frequently.)
• as much raunchy, animalistic sex that javieran have, they have double as much slow, loving, tender sex. and most times between, they’re having raunchy, loving, animalistic sex.
• javi loves to turn kieran’s brain off, he loves more than anything to make kieran feel so overwhelmingly pleasured that he forgets everything that ever has, ever could, or ever will happen to him. nothing gets javier off quite like seeing the face of bliss kieran makes when all he can think about is javier’s mouth/hands/cock working overtime just to make him feel good.
• both of them i think are quite vocal when they’re able to be, and kieran tends to be vocal whether he’s supposed to be or not. both of them often dissolve into whimpers and “i love you”s and praise like “you feel/sound/taste so good” by the end. their love for each other has a carnal grasp on every aspect of their sex lives as well <3 so they’re always speaking so sweetly to each other, even if the way they growl it seems violent
• javier LOVES love bites. he loves to mark kieran up and he especially loves to bite and lick and suck on his neck, not only because of the primal aspect of his jugular being so close (as well as the warmth of his pulse thrumming against his mouth), but also because it arouses kieran to the point of making him shiver nearly every time. javier has permission to bite him hard, but it’s pretty rare that he ever does, and it’s only late into their relationship does javier feel like it will be more pleasure for him than it would just be pain. sometimes he can’t help it though, he’ll get so worked up that he just latches on and the way that kieran tightens around him is mind-numbing.
• unironically i think kieran is a GREAT soft dom, and that is something that javier generally had never experienced prior to getting with kieran. javi thinks it’s hot to be man-handled and roughed up, and kieran can do his very best (despite the constant guilt and fear) if javier is really feeling it, but where he really excels is soft domming. once the nerves melt off, he’s so gentle with javier that it makes the latter’s skin hot all over. constantly praising him, cooing at him, asking him nicely, rewarding him for good behavior, all the while touching him oh-so-gently, it all makes javier feel so awkward but so, so good. kieran makes him feel so loved and worshipped that the world in which he has anything to question simply just fades away, and all he has to think about is doing what meager tasks kieran asks of him.
• they find so much peace in each other’s bodies. in every rib and wrinkle and sunspot, these two will spend hours simply exploring and enjoying the body of the other in whatever the closest form of “privacy” they can manage to acquire. turns out, kieran has sunspots all over him. turns out, javier has a keloid scar on the back of his bicep. turns out, kieran has a mole on his scalp right where his part is (this is canon btw i saw it once when i was studying him in photo mode like a specimen in a petri dish), and javier has back dimples, and kieran’s ribs stutter and dance beautifully when he laughs, and the flex of javier’s thighs warps his skin like a marble statue. javier escuella and kieran duffy love like artists, and they spend hours just learning and looking and studying each other, like a painter with his muse, like a writer with his words, like the last things they want to see while they’re dying are all the hours they spent learning the beauty of the other.
i could honestly come up with more but it would never leave my drafts, so i hope u like these that i came up with as quick as i could :’) ! i hope you’re feeling better and have gotten some good rest !! thank you for the ask !!!!!
#thank you for always coming to chat with me :’) especially on a hard day. i hope you know you are appreciated no matter how you feel and#that you do good things for people’s lives every day. even if you don’t know it or notice or if they don’t tell you. your existence inherent#ly makes the world a better place#and i can say that with confidence because you do it for me every time you come to say hello or share my love for javieran :’) i do hope#you’re feeling much better today ! i apologize for this post taking so long. i struggle a lot with coming up with things without prompt and#i also had a friend over so it took me a little while to come up with anything i thought was worth reading about !#i love them :’) thank you for giving me the chance to talk about them a bit ! i need to actually write them soon …….. they are so special to#me waugh#i usually have lots to say in the tags but i truly used the entirety of my last braincell for this so that’s all i’ve got for now </3#i love you ! be well ! make sure you’re eating and drinking lots of water !!!#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#kieran duffy#javier escuella#javieran#text#art#kinda i guess#hero draws sometimes#hero more like shakespeare#hero’s javier#hero’s kieran#hero’s javieran#ask#hero's yelling at folks again#galacta-phantasma#i think that’s it. lord. now i’m going to run on the treadmill for 10 hours ! bye !
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The way they haunt my every waking moment
#i sincerely apologize for the person i will become once this gets released#like i obsessively poured over every frame of the trailers tryna glean as much lore as i possibly could 💀#my friend reminded me it exists a few months ago and i never recovered#to be hero x#tbhx#i'll make a tag eventually
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still haven't moved on from zane in this episode (aka I hit tag limit again and am unhappy about it)
#alek insanity#not gonna main tag this but prepare for a tiny rant#home is actually really good zane characterization and its super cool to me how it holds up to this day#s1 characterization is very specific to me because the behaviors displayed by the ninja there (mostly) isnt bc thats how they really are but#its due to societal pressure. cole originally being more 'stone faced tough guy' -> 'down to earth' -> 'really sensible easy to talk to guy'#is because hes always been a sensitive guy... but he felt he couldnt express that true version of himself. thats the whole thing behind his#true potential. jay going from s1 -> s6 -> now is less of societal pressure and more teenager figuring himself out but it still applies. ish#seeing how much the ninja have changed or grown from then to now is amazing because back then they all wore masks. they didnt know each#other all that well. but theyve gained that comfortability with each other and also have grown and matured as people#some seasons / eps characterization for certain people im not a fan of (lloyds random misogyny arc in s13) but i mean the overall trend here#and then there is zane. zane in home was pretty dead on to how he behaves now (at least... when it comes to his faults?) and i dont want to#say people skim over that but i am the sf proclaimed n1 s1e2 fan and overthink every scene. zane's early characterization is some of my fav#for him period. he also goes through a ton of traumatic stuff and a ton of bad writing bouts but why he acts so 'weird' or 'distant' has#always been a thread sewn in. he changed so much he stayed the same in a way... if that makes sense. -> ohhh the ninja get mail and he#doesnt? oh he has no family? he quite literally walks away from that situation. oh the ninja are yelling in his face and asking whats wrong#with him? he literally walks away from that situation. he says its to follow the falcon but seeing how he apologized to them by not only#baking a ton of pies (cough... the food fight is what led to him leaving at first) but he also found them a whole entire new house.#zane is unable to truly value what he does for others. insert him in s11 saying he 'tried' to fufill his goal of protecting others.#everything he has ever done still isnt good enough. then the ninja tried to apologize and he didnt really... let them.#that one post about characters putting on facades and that facade being how people really see them. even in fandom. thats zane to me#the guy who lies about being upset and avoids his problems ran away after being yelled at? and he said he wasnt really mad? that is a lie!!#him being a ~360 when it comes to his character development is neat to me because he never hid behind a mask in the same way the others did#cole wanting to seem tough vs being really soft? kai wanting approval so bad he starts being selfish? kai isnt selfish usually!#he is self centered but that is a whole different thing. just wanting to fit in and breaking free of that. zane's true potential came in the#form of 'i finally know why i am not normal' instead of 'i will be my true self'. zane never pretended to not be weird#(instert book) states he literally didnt know why people got mad at him. he just existed and it was 'wrong'. the mask he hid behind was#avoidance. he was pretty open about how he actually was (most of the time). when he was upset he would audibly sigh and walk away lol#but for him saying he wasnt upset / saddened by the ninja... it felt like a moment of selflessness. if that makes sense. he blamed himself#for the monestary burning down. so he didnt deserve the apologies (ish) in the virtues of spinjitzu zane is shown as the generous one iirc#he puts the needs of others over his own. he will bear whatever burden he needs if others are happy. at that same time he doesnt allow
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Conversations with another, smaller, weaker self.
#Textual.#ART TAG#vent#I suppose that's the best way to explain this one? It can be complicated. Very complicated. Both for Lord & for myself.#How do you explain to the younger weaker self— the child —that it wasn't their fault. How do you explain that people care & you're sorry?#Because it isn't your fault. It can't be hers. It was someone else's duty to keep you both safe. But they cut your hair & took your body—#& then they made you unrecognizable to anything that has ever existed.#You were a person once & they took the culture out of your blood to remake history. They took the language out & taught you something else.#Lord is a power fantasy as much as she is a painful catharsis. In another world she might have been a savior or a god. But she is angry.#She's angry & bitter & they cut her ears to round them out after cutting her open to make her human. How can she apologize for that?#lord starque#champagne starque#chinuk wawa#To translate loosely. ' 'I am so tired.' ' Who wouldn't be?
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completely normal roommates bonding over completely normal things like *flips through notes* murdering each other and having complicated opinions on giant alien bats
#continuing my brainrot over this weird bat i made up: the saga#yin art#fallen london#they're fallen london ocs. it technically counts. even if one is imported from another school#everytime i draw the scoundrel they get a little bit more creature and that is so wonderful#also their coattails became curly. i dont know how or when this happened. they've just sorta got a little train#like a loser#if the anatomy looks weird that is because i am also a loser and fail and lame.#anyway. the scientist! he made a cameo! he's just chillin! my lovely guy who exists to be tormented forever and ever#no he doesn't wash that coat. no he probably doesn't wash. stinky guy. he'd probably eat the soap if he tried#he is going through the horrors every second of every day and still he finds time to lace up his boots and serve like that#what an icon#also the scoundrel doesn't actually probably wear their robe like that. i mean they would but it's not like a design update thing#they just have it for this doodle bc it's a cute nod to their batsona#ive run out of things to talk about. guys. they exist. gestures at them. you can imagine the rest.#oh and there's a spade. of course.#because if you know you know 🏠#my condolences to everyone else in the FL tag who's normal and sane. makes you look at my cartoon ass ocs#no apologies to my followers however this is the price you pay for letting me exist unfiltered on your dashboard#scoundrelventures
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i saw some replies on a moots post that got me a bit weirded out but im not abt to start unnecessary drama for them so im gonna say something about it here:
if you are a proshipper, or comshipper, or profic, or pro whatever the fuck, and you see someone who's asking if something is a proship or not, your response should NOT be: "they're fictional and i don't care so YOU shouldn't care either".
the reason this weirded me out is because a. some people do not agree with you and you have no right to force your fanbase opinions on them, and b. some people!! dont enjoy csa in their ships!!! fictional or not!!!!! because!!!!!!! that's fucking!!!!!!!!!! weird!!!!!!!!!!!! me personally i don't enjoy my ships with a side of pedophilia or incest, im not gonna harass you if you do i guess but you should NOT try to tell people that they should just because wahh wahh its fictional it doesn't matter. it matters to some people. dont just tell them "enjoy what you enjoy no matter if it's a pedophile ship or not!! :)" just because you enjoy it.
also this moot has proship dni in their bio and pinned. why are you even there lmao
#it made me really uncomfortable for the moot#because#☹️#if you're the moot im so sorry#i would have been uncomfortable#really uncomfortable....#so i apologize#on their behalf#anyway how do i tag thid#proship#proship dni#proship discourse#proshipper#a friendly (unfriendly) psa for all you proshippers out there#stop trying to make people also be proshippers#proship drama#(?)#i dunno#out of decency im not tagging the tag this is part of#plus the people that im talking about likely have me blocked so its just gonna bring in people who DO support my claim rather than those who#need to hear this#so im not tagging the ship#but lemme just say can yall be decent for once#please#ive come to terms with your existence but be decent about it at least#anyway#this was a psa
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Finally properly sobbing after not being able to cry all day is such a great feeling
#long distance is actually so terrible I’m dying over here#you might be like ‘anne you’ve been in an ldr for three years now how are you not used to it?’#and the answer is that the pain gets worse every time! and the most annoying thing is that usually it peaks the first night apart and goes#easier from there; but if my mental health is bad enough in other areas it will stick around for up to two weeks which I can already tell i#happening. so that’s good#and as you may remember from me posting about it; things were a little rocky for a while because of my OCD as well as me just being a#terrible person. not really; I need to speak to myself with kindness#but also I think I’m just a bad person. like just through and through not a good person#not that I really think good or bad people exist it’s just everyone does some harm and some good and you can’t nearly divide that into good#or bad#or at least that’s what I tell myself when I think back on the shitty things I’ve done#which is a lot.#but long story short my idiocy did not cause them to dump me even though they easily could have#anyway fuck I just miss my partner and it’s unfair they’re not holding me in this moment#now I just have to keep making amends and working on myself so I don’t do it in the future. I didn’t cheat if anyone’s wondering; I feel#we’re gonna call later anyway so hopefully that will help. and I do feel better for sobbing#like that’s always my assumption when other people blog like this lol#apologies for the tag rant but it is my own post lol#this isn’t even mentioning my academic stress because that does feel secondary to the everything else#because I think I get like a camouflage worry where my brain will tell me I’m freaking out about school#but really it’s a cover for the really painful stuff underneath#anyway. this too shall pass and no emotion is forever and I will see my partner again and we’ll have a long life together :-)#anne speaks
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/ If u deal with g.il u have to know that u will be constantly threading through the thin line between him deciding that u will die by his hands or u proving him that there’s something of worth in having u around
#at least initially of course#;about#about#;headcanons#headcanons#well its not really a headcanon but u know; tagging-#and it lit can shift in o n e second#which is why its quite difficult to deal with him bc he's that unpredictable#this is much more pronounced on a.rcher g.il but caster isn't devoid of this#its just that c.aster is more likely to not bother with ur existense#while a.rcher g.il has this feeling but its more so; u have no worth to me so what worth could you possibly provide to the world then?#and would get rid of the person in question there#while with caster its more like; u have no worth to me nor to the world; SCRAM.#/and i apologize in advance but yes; his views are very egocentric in either case; that's just how he is#to him even if u came and told him 'i dont care about how u perceive me lol' it doesnt matter; and also he's k.illing u on the spot#of course i wouldn't do this with the context of writing him bc it would be too op but; if ur sassy with him it has to be on a#wavelenght of mutual respect even if its not said out loud; it has to exist#otherwise chances are that he is not going to be cooperative with u#its not a pretty trait but that's g.ilgamesh#and yes this is hypocritical of him but its his status as king and his hugeahh ego which makes this contradiction possible#so it has a reason (even if it sucks) as of why he acts the way he does; basically g.il works by his own rules#in conclusion: bite him and bark at him but know who ur dealing with; that's basically it; if u do so in a way that is akin to his taste#he'll do it back; and then u'll gain his friendship#as a last thing i wanna mention how his views CAN definitely change; as they have done so with as an example h.akuno and r.itsuka/g.udako#so even if u start a rocky path with him; things can still progress
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god send the flood they’re on twitter and tiktok calling people pleasing harmful manipulation and comparing icing in a cake to sexual assault. and they’ve got licensed therapists agreeing with them. no no, they’ve got licensed therapists making these analogies for them. i hope that man chokes on the next cake he bites into.
#like listen listen at first i was like#hmm he has a point if she specifically asked and he was like i want this this and this it makes sense he’d point it out at least#like so long as he was appreciative and whatever#but then i thought about it and him saying she said he embarrassed her in front of her kids#and how she kicked him out of her house#like that man definitely did more than just casually comment as he wants us to think#and it’s so interesting seeing these grown adults go feral talking about toxic r/s and manipulation and people pleasing#like IF he didn’t do something horrible (doubt)#this is at most just a misunderstanding that could quickly be resolved if they both sat down and had a quick talk#also like he could’ve just said it’s great in front of guests and then later privately kindly point out that he loved it but was wondering#why she went with vanilla frosting instead of chocolate#like listen it’s ssoooooo picky i get it it’s so fucking stupid but it was his birthday and she did specifically ask#anyway fuck him and fuck everyone being horrible to her#like i’m on her side purely because of how insane people are acting#tag: i speakth#also he posted an update where he was like i apologized and she hasn’t replied yet she’s probably thinking of how to#and the woman who posted the screenshot to twitter was like ‘ew i’d dump her’ are you insane#this is why they’re all bitter over there nothing but egos and pride getting in the way and rudeness disguised as ‘boundaries’#like yes yes boundaries exist and should be respected no duh but the way some of these people are just so damn rude#and wanna call it a boundary of theirs or just being honest or whatever like no you’re just rude#and there’s a difference between being polite and people pleasing you’re all just genuinely stupid and keep trying to view the world in#extremes rather than spectrums we have severely regressed
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I will defend your right to be annoying but I will block that post sorryy /gen
do as you must anon 😔✊ it'll be another 196 days until i have to make a new one so you've got time to prepare yourself to block it again
#also never apologize for curting your own online experience!!!!!#this is a funny haha bit post that has gone on for SO long and whenever it crosses your dash. well. at least shorten long posts exists now!#i would've been blocked as a BLOG for this post by half of tumblr if it was 2015#anons asks#i will make a specific tag for the post so you can block that#it will be:#misha daily post
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I feel mad >:(
#and it’s about the camera scene™️ and how people fail to. price the most obvious and blatantly clear apology known to man#*see#my man apologized for his actions there is not a whole lot he can do now considering it’s been like three years since it happened#people saying Jonathan should atone for it don’t get that he has a fucking character arch to complete#his conversations with Steven should not be about the camera scene and should be about actual relevant things to the plot#I never want to hear the camera scene talked about again after s5 cause it’s basically the same thing being said like thousands of times#that goes nowhere at all#all of those arguments really make me wish that scene did not exist at all#like I wish there was a different way Nancy and Jonathan team up together in s1#but it’s too late now and I have to accept that and just try to ignore the hate my fav gets#I do agree that his actions were bad (who wouldn’t)#and idc if Jonathan is your least favourite cause that’s your opinion and you are allowed to have it#but all the camera scene arguments from people who have a more neutral stance on him needs a separate tag we Jonathan fans who are tired#and angry at seeing them can bloke so we can enjoy our blorbo in peace#*block#anyways I’ve got work in a few hours so I’m going to go and eat breakfast and calm down#sending hugs <3<3<3
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